#clearing my queue of thoughts

[just-queue]

Pulling the Tower card as a person with OCD shouldn’t be allowed. Oh disaster and tragedy are coming? Cool great yeah let me shuffle my mental playlist of everything horrible that could possibly happen to myself and those I love.

[14dayswithyou]

Quick question !! For those who have mobile notifications turned on for this side blog, how many notifications do you typically receive per hour?

From what I've been told, most followers have been receiving individual notifications for every single post I make, which can get annoying over time — especially considering how I (usually) publish 3 posts per hour. Because of this, I'm considering switching the queue to one post per hour instead.

Pros: less annoying notification pings lmao Cons: it would take longer for the queue to finish (though you'd still get the same amount of posts)

So, with that being said...

[spicyliumang]

Breaking a sweat 💦

[wanderingaldecaldo]

[thevioletcaptain]

my eye twitches every time someone gets on the internet & asks an author or screenwriter or actor for permission to have a headcanon

[not-poignant]

You get a lot of questions via tumblr. Are those ever a burden to you? Do you feel a lot of pressure to answer?

Yeah I currently have 104 unanswered asks on Tumblr to give you an idea of like, me not being able to get to them all.

Some of it is how AO3 has changed my ability to respond to comments has eaten into my ability to respond to asks. Some of it is that I get a lot of social anxiety around responding to certain kinds of asks. (I like those asks, so I'm not going to say what they are in case people stop sending them lmao).

Most of it is that I realised a few years ago that as fun as responding to asks is, that's not actually my job and because it takes time and often research to respond to some of them, it makes it harder for me to write the stories that folks enjoy in the first place, and that one is probably the biggest reason I no longer pressure myself to answer in the same way.

Some of the asks I reply to, especially the ones that require research that a reader could themselves do in the story (I get asked a few things that are actually often already answered in the story, and I answer them the same way a reader sometimes could: by using control + F with keywords in the story), can take 30-45 minutes to compose. Writing advice asks take a lot longer. Research asks can take a long time too.

I can write a chapter in 2 hours, though I'll be tired afterwards, so I can't do that 4 times a day (especially with editing etc.), but you can sort of see how very quickly, if I get fatigued from writing for 2 hours, sometimes I'm going to have to choose between asks, replying to comments, editing, or writing a chapter.

I love the asks I get, they're not a burden at all, but I do make choices re: prioritising what I have time for, and what I can spend spoons on. I've made myself very sick from overworking, so now I get to asks when I can, and queue them up (if you see an 'administrator gwyn wants this in the queue' then I've actually responded to a bunch at once and they'll come out slowly over time so I don't spam people in 10 minutes and then vanish for months lmao).

I still really enjoy them though, and I'm really lucky to get them. :D

[ashorterurl]

Video from World Tour 2016, Paris

Happy Birthday Reita

[expectiations]

My favorite random Doctor Who fun fact is that Five apparently talked too much about River that Tegan asked him to shut up.

[just-queue]

I can't tell if starting a zettelkasten system is actually going to solve my memory problems, help me organize my thoughts, and become a more knowledgeable person or if that's just the neurodivergent "oh pretty shiny new toy" talking

[wonder-worker]

Alice was perceived to be a destructive influence on every aspect of Edward III’s kingship, but specifically on his abilities as a military leader resulting in the subsequent collapse of the war in France." [In the Bridlington Prophecies, Erghome] speaks of a woman through whose love and counsel the king was impeded from waging many fair wars at that time. She has made the king effeminate. He no longer has a taste for war but remains at home indulging in luxury.

(Laura Tompkins)

Nothing but respect for MY fourteenth-century antiwar activist <3

[dailykugisaki]

Day twenty-two | Id in alt

Kugisaki's reasoning is that Gojo wouldn't listen to her asking and she didn't want to ask in the first place.

[inversionimpulse]

Yumemi, appearing out of thin air: Hey, so, I need you to answer a question for me.

Yumemi: Stop screaming at me- No, actually, you're right, this needs some background first. So I lost my job and my tenure and got laughed out of acad... you were there for all that, you don't need me to tell you about it. Anyway, I went back in time about... fifty-ish years probably, and I found this secret paradise of supernatural beings.

Yumemi: Only, get this, the person in charge of it was one of my students! Sometime in the future she's going to get tossed back in time thousands of years and she's going to become this really sexy evil youkai mastermind.

Yumemi: So I need to know if it's still a breach of professional ethics to date her.

Yumemi: Yes, I know you fired me and I'm not a professor anymore. I was there for that. But obviously once I bring her back here and she proves that magic is real and that I was right all along and you were fools to call me mad, you'll reinstate me.

Yumemi: Oh, well, it's no use doing -that-. I already cut the wires on the silent alarm so we could have a proper private conversation. Security's not coming, Dean.

Yumemi: Look, just answer the question and I'll be out of your hair-

Yumemi: Oh, -now- it's "Where have you been, Okazaki?" "We've been worried!" "Are you okay?" "Are you the one behind the theft of that ICBM?" "You're an internationally-wanted criminal!" Well, okay, firstly, her name is Mimi, not "that ICBM." Secondly, for your information, yes, I did take Mimi. Do you know anyone else with the skills to pull that off? Didn't think so.

Yumemi: What? No, I don't have her anymore. I gave her to a twelve-year-old as a present.

Yumemi: Look, stop dodging the question.

Yumemi: I need to know if it's a breach of professional ethics bang one of my students if it's a future version of her from the past who's hundreds of times my age and rules a small province of folkloric monsters.

Yumemi: It's a simple yes-or-no question, Dean.

[rcrisdraws]

Why on earth did I dream of confessing my love to Astarion and he gets flustered but allows me to pull his lil waist in my lap-

[justthinkingaboutlouis]

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[just-queue]

I need to express this somewhere so here I am. My mother’s hypocrisy never ceases to amaze me and I’m glad I’ve gone through enough therapy to break the behavioral patterns I learned from her.