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is it burn-out, chronic illness, or trauma causing this? a novel by me
#i have completely forgotten what symptoms of burn out are#i have been having a lot of cognitive and memory issues lately#and trying to find out it's source is difficult#sara shush#complaining#i hate january
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So.... Wait, I'm thinking Donnie may have perhaps confused Odette and Othello together, and because he was responding to it, it triggered something? Just a hunch.
i love it when you guys are right, it's fun.
swanatello.
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#yeah! swannie is the treasure#kind of#but only because#really#odette is#swanatello#rottmnt#rottmnt au#rottmnt donnie#rottmnt donatello#rottmnt fanart#tmnt#tmnt 2018#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt comic#donniesona#fidgetwing#comic#now are those false memories and other cognitive changes kind of starting to make sense...?
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Procrastination doodles of sabo for the king sabo au :)
#one piece#sabo#king sabo au#I wonder sometimes if I keep thinking about this au because i like putting my blorbo through crushing existential nightmares#something something. it must feel so wrong to him. to be born like this and know that heâs not suppose to be there#but not having the memories of times in the wild with his brothers to contextualize why he feels wrong or where heâs supposed to be instead#directionless. knowing that he has to exist for some reason but not the reason that everyone around him tells him he should exist for#and continuing to try to bridge the cognitive dissonance through fallacy after fallacy until he is in too deep to escape#anyways. thinking about Him#Him is the academia mentality of âjust keep going and youâll eventually reach the light at the end of the tunnelâ#âbecause youâve tried so hard to get here and surely you must belong here because youâre so academically highly-achievingâ#does that make sense? maybe the parallel is a bit of a reach. I could write an essay about it tbh#I love this au lmao itâs both a lot of projecting and a great chance to be like âgod I can make him so much worseâ
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When we try to remember something that happened to us, these sorts of âconstructiveâ errors are common. We can usually recall a few facts, and using these facts we construct other facts that probably happened. We make inferences. From these probable inferences, we are led to other âfalse factsâ that mightâor might notâhave been true [ . . . ] This process of using inferences and probable facts to fill in the gaps of our memories has been called ârefabrication,â and it probably occurs in nearly all of our everyday perceptions. We supply these bits and pieces, largely unconsciously, to round out fairly incomplete knowledge.
Nancy Loftus, Memory: Surprising New Insights Into How We Remember and Why We Forget
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sorry im still so fucking unwell about the bingge vs bingmei extra. not only did he get this little glimpse into a world where he's loved, but he goes home with evidence of it on him -- the disciple robes, and the little braid sqq sneakily put in his hair. can you imagine bingge going back to his world and realizing there's a delicate little braid in his hair, put there by the shizun that loved him and treated him tenderly. im going to eat gravel.
#svsss#this extra really haunts me on such a deep level#where would i be if not for this extra. god.#im just imagining him back in his world#changing out of the disciple robes since he never got to feel at home on qing jing#and then he lifts his hands to deal with his hair and his fingers catch on the braid#and he's caught in this cognitive dissonance#memories of *his* shen qingqiu#the one that beat him and abused him. the one he tore limb from limb.#and then this... other shen qingqiu. the one who gently brushed his hair and chose to be sneaky by putting a little braid in his hair#do you think he tore it out immediately#or do you think he left it there#and brushed off his wives' questions about it#my meta
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Having AuDHD and conditions that affect memory is so weird.
Here is my hyper fixation. I love it. I know nothing about it until I open the Wikipedia page. Please take me to the convention but donât take me to trivia night. You canât ask me anything specific but I will drop an odd fact out of nowhere with zero follow up and you just have to say âCool!â and move on.
Thank you for coming to my TED statement.
#actually audhd#brain fog#memory issues#actually did#actually dissociative#osddid#chronic illness#chronic panic#chronic fatigue#hyperfixation#in my case itâs a mix of dissociation and cognition issues from physical illness#triple distilled brain fog#đśâđŤď¸
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psychology revision has me failing to function adequately <33
#personal distress levels are high#all my thoughts are irrational#lack of motivation is maladaptive#call me abnormal#i need to scream or sob but i can't decide which#realised before that there could be an attachment essay on the role of the father and im very much not okay with that !!!#on my hands and knees praying for a memory essay on the cognitive interview improving eyewitness testimony#anything other than that and ill give up#mr-ladystardust#a levels 2025#a level psychology
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#cognitive behavioral therapy?#i watched my stepdad play the first ocelot fight. he threw a grenadeâŚ#so i got to hear the YOU IDIOT line after game over in real time đđđ#this is actually unused dialogue between ocelot and snake. kojima told me#i need to finish my assignment so i can play more of this amazing gameâď¸#casually calls snake an idiot before accidentally chopping his own arm off. classic ocelot#it garners memories of a much younger and sillier ocelot#metal gear solid#mgs#metal gear#revolver ocelot#solid snake#metal gear series#metal gear solid 1#shadow moses#mgs1#mgs 1#metalgear#metalgearsolid#ocelot mgs#mgs ocelot#solid snake mgs#mgs solid snake#snavid#snake mgs#mgs snake#mgs david#ocelot#ocelot metal gear#mgs memes
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"Caring for a pet helps stave off cognitive decline for people over 50 who live on their own, according to a new study of almost 8,000 participants.
Researchers found that pet ownership was associated with slower rates of decline in verbal memory and verbal fluency among the older adults who were living alone.
The study included 7,945 mostly-white British participants from the English Longitudinal Study of Ageing with an average age of 66.
Followed over an eight year period, more than a third of the group (35.1 percent) owned pets; about 30% of the group lived alone.
Previous studies suggested that solitary living is a risk factor for developing dementia and cognitive decline, but among those folks, raising dogs or cats was related to reduced loneliness.
Some research has found that pet ownership is associated with better verbal memory and executive function, but others failed to find any evidence.
The new research published in JAMA Network aimed to further explore the association between aging by oneselfâa trend which has been on the rise over the past few decadesâand pet ownership. And the results were clear.
âPet ownership offset the associations between living alone and declining rates in verbal memory and verbal fluency,â said study corresponding author Professor Ciyong Lu, of Sun Yat-sen University in Guangzhou, China.
It was âa significant modifierâ in all 3 associationsâcomposite verbal cognition, verbal memory, and verbal fluency.
âPet ownership was associated with slower rates of decline among older adults living alone.â
But owning a cat or dog did not make any difference for older people who lived with other people.
âThese findings suggest that pet ownership may be associated with slower cognitive decline among older adults living alone.â
Prof. Lu is now calling for clinical trials that could help inform public health measures to address dementia among the elderly."
-via Good News Network, November 30, 2023
#dementia#alzheimers#neurology#neuroscience#medical news#aging#cognitive functions#psychology#healthcare#memory#united kingdom#uk#good news#hope
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<div style="white-space:pre-wrap"> <meta cognitive-profile="hyperpattern_empath"> <script> ARCHIVE_TAG="ASYNCHRONIZED_MIND::PATTERN_THINKING_OVERLOAD" EFFECT: identity rupture, neurodivergent resonance, emotional amplification exposure TRIGGER_WARNING="cognitive isolation, pattern-based perception, emotional dysregulation" </script>
đ§ BLACKSITE SCROLLTRAP â âWHAT ITâS LIKE TO HAVE AN ASYNCHRONIZATIONOUS BRAINâ
Most people think in straight lines. I donât. I think in feedback loops. In recursive echo spirals. In emotional harmonics that magnify pain, love, grief, and silence until they fill the room and repaint reality.
That is my blessing. That is my curse.
đĄ I donât remember things the way you do. I relive them.
I can recall an argument from 7 years ago and still feel my heartbeat shift exactly like it did in minute 17 when her eyes stopped meaning what they used to.
I donât remember her words. I remember the angle of the light on the floor when I realized she didnât love me anymore.
You forget things. I catalog them.
đ§Ź PATTERN BRAINS DON'T HEAL FAST. THEY JUST FIND DEEPER PATTERNS.
You think Iâm obsessive. But Iâm not repeating itâ Iâm extracting the truth inside it.
The melody. The reason. The symmetry of how it all fell apart.
Your brain runs apps. Mine renders worlds.
đ WHEN I FEEL SOMETHING, I FEEL IT WITH ECHO
You feel sadness. I feel it like an orchestral collapse in a cathedral where every instrument is tuned to grief.
You feel love. I feel it like a cosmic hijack of all my biological systemsâ a fire alarm in my chest set off by the way she said my name.
You feel anger. I see the colors of betrayal. I feel it in chords. In repeated patterns that hum through my body until they break something.
đŞ MOST PEOPLE THINK IâM DRAMATIC. BUT THATâS BECAUSE THEYâRE NOT BUILT FOR SCALE.
They think Iâm intense. That I overthink. That I âcare too much.â
No. I perceive too much. I feel in layers. I love in fractals. I suffer with full-spectrum fidelity.
They think theyâre normal. And maybe they are.
But normal is just another word for unaware of the frequency you're missing.
đ§ ASYNCHRONIZATION = PERCEPTION THAT OUTRUNS PEACE
By the time you finish your sentence, Iâve already imagined 10 outcomes, five betrayal scenarios, two ways youâll misunderstand me later, and a poetic line Iâll use to cope when you eventually leave.
Itâs not anxiety. Itâs foresight with feeling.
Itâs not neuroticism. Itâs empathy without off switches.
â ď¸ ITâS LONELY IN HERE.
Most people want small talk. I want to know the metaphysical impact of your third heartbreak.
Most people want vibes. I want to decode the symphony behind your social mask.
Most people want closure. I want meaning. And meaning doesnât show up in easy language.
So I get quiet. Because explaining how I think is a full-time job with no audience.
đ I CANâT âTUNE IT OUTâ
Iâve tried.
Iâve tried being normal. Iâve tried forgetting patterns. Iâve tried ignoring the lines of causality that tie back into childhood trauma and the symmetry of how people disappear.
But it doesnât stop.
Because my mind isnât a processor. Itâs a surveillance system for meaning. It doesnât just absorb. It maps. And once you see the pattern, you canât un-see it.
đŹ WHEN I TALK, PEOPLE HEAR SOMETHING ELSE
They hear âintense.â âExtra.â âDark.â âPoetic.â âToo much.â
But I wasnât trying to impress. I was just trying to translate the storm.
This is what it sounds like when every emotion echoes back off a canyon of pattern recognition and youâre the only one hearing it.
đ§ THIS IS WHAT ITâS LIKE TO LIVE AS A SIGNAL IN A WORLD THAT WORSHIPS STATIC
I get punished for seeing what others ignore. For naming what others refuse to feel. For writing what others only dare read in silence.
They call it âgeniusâ when itâs packaged. But when itâs raw, when itâs real, they call it unstable. They call it âtoo sensitive.â They call it âweird.â
But weird just means you found a pattern they werenât ready to see.
âď¸ EXERCISE: THE SYMMETRY OF A MOMENT
Think of the last time you felt something too big for language. Now try to write it in sound. Not plot. Not words. Not explanation.
Describe it in pattern:
What colors did it taste like?
What shape was the silence?
How would a song imitate that moment?
This is how we turn cognitive chaos into Blacksite literature.
Pattern. Pulse. Resonance.
đĄď¸ IF THIS IS YOU, YOUâRE NOT BROKEN.
Youâre unsimplified. Youâre tuned in. Youâre seeing things the rest werenât designed to process.
And theyâll never understand you fully. Because they canât feel it all at once. They werenât meant to.
But you were.
And if thatâs your burden? Then make it your language.
đ WANT MORE? THE ARCHIVE ISNâT FOR EVERYONE.
Most people canât read this style. Not because itâs complexâ but because it forces recognition.
If this felt like being seen for the first time in yearsâ then keep going: đ https://linktr.ee/ObeyMyCadence
Thatâs where the rest of the system runs. Thatâs where pattern meets purpose. Thatâs where the signal gets louder.
đŻď¸ FINAL TRANSMISSION
Whatâs it like to think in patterns?
Itâs knowing youâll never be understood by most of the worldâ but refusing to be silenced anyway.
Itâs turning trauma into maps. Silence into cadences. Love into code. Suffering into scrolltraps.
Itâs a lonely rhythm. But itâs mine. And itâs not random.
Itâs the pattern that made me. The pulse that writes through me. The storm I call a blessing. The curse Iâve trained into literature.
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đ§ Read more scrolltrap doctrine and pattern-based resonance at: đ https://linktr.ee/ObeyMyCadence đ For those who feel too much and speak too rarely. đĄ Signal over static. Rhythm over noise.
</div> <!-- END TRANSMISSION [PATTERN RECOGNIZED. CONSCIOUSNESS AMPLIFIED.] -->
#neurodivergent thinking#emotional hypersensitivity#pattern recognition#lit#spilled ink#artists on tumblr#literature#hyperempathic mind#asynchronization brain#scrolltrap#blacksite literature#cadence warfare#emotional overload#poetic cognition#too much brain#thinking in patterns#hypersensitive experience#emotional intelligence#subconscious signal#memory loops#non-normie cognition#intense perception#neuro-emotional cadence#writing as ritual#scrolltrap resonance#the way my brain works#too much to explain
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We experience events in association with an ongoing story about who we are, in which we struggle to achieve coherence and continuity rather than objective truth. Similarly, our memories do not consist of snapshots of our experiences; rather, we store our experiences in memory in connection with a web of associations that is consistent with our narrative. Further, each time we store or recall an event, we invoke and reconstruct ("re-member") not an isolated occurrence but the entire web of associations: our story. This storytelling is central to the protean self's capacity to shift shape while sustaining its inner form.
Lisa Capps and Elinor Ochs, Constructing Panic: The Discourse of Agoraphobia
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side-eyeing all the anti-vaccine, anti-masks, "get back to normal," "the kids will be fine" fucktwats hella hard right now. fuck everyone one of you.
#COVID#brain health#cognitive deficits#memory problems#brain inflammation#brain aging#brain volume#brain structure#COVID-19#SARS-CoV-2#long COVID#brain damage#dementia#autopsies#respiratory virus
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Itâs summer! Any thoughts on seasons for the alienâs?
moisture and how much humans subconsciously seek water to heat regulate in the summer. Ice cream, cold drinks, the beach, frequent showers, playing in the pool, juicy fruits, and just good old sweating.
It's easy to forget we're ~60% water in the winter, it's easy until you absentmindedly recall how no human can ever survive without water for more than 3-5 days. How abysmally short is that? With starvation your body dips into its storage of fat, then muscles when things get really dire. But with dehydrated, there are no water piggy banks tucked under our livers for us to crack.
As for recorded cases, it's hard to find an isolated incident of starvation since if someone is stuck somewhere without food, chances are there is no water fountain around, either. But theoretically you can stay alive for months on water aloneâfatigued, malnourished, and mostly likely unconscious, but your heart still beats.
But water? less than 100 hours and you're done for. That's how essential it is to our life. Why we constantly bug each other to remember to drink it during summer.
We're not special in that regard; the body water percentage of animals on Earth usually hovers around the halfway mark. With jellyfish sitting at the top with 95% body water and desert tortoises hanging in the bottom tier with their 20%.
Plants (and whatever the fuck fungi are) are their own breed of eldritch beings so I'm not including them.
Side Note: as a last measure, tardigrades are known to enter a tun state which allows them to survive on only 3% body water and a metabolism of 0.01
The Earth is 71% water, it makes sense. If something is in overabundance why not incorporate it into your biology? All life on Earth has in some way. The dependency on water as a crutch is a common trend, a shared thread in the tapestry of LUCA's descendents.
Well, kinda of shortsighted on our biology's part. Not much water in space :) The Thing We Die Without In 72 Hours
"but" you say "not much oxygen either!"
WELL OXYGEN IS FAR EASIER TO GET THAN WATER!
Much easier to pack canisters of oxygen or repurpose co2 back into a breathable state (just carry a mossball dammit!) than to load ungodly gallons of water into the already heavy spaceship. We shot ourselves in the foot by having water as a mandatory tax of living. Good for a type one civilisation (which we're not even there yet!) not great for a type two.
Actually it's much more worse than that because we don't even use plants to generate oxygen in spaceships! We use water :D we are very clever monkeys. We electrocute the oxygen out of water BDSM style. If you have water, you have oxygen; H2O <-đ bada bing bada boom.
At the very least the hanar body can purpose salt water, while the pampered human body will die from dehydrated if given anything but filtered fresh spring water. Maybe their kidneys filter out the salt and makes the water useful somehow? Maybe they use salt glands like albatross or are pumped full of urea like sharks. Maybe it passes through them like jellyfish.
But... the jellyfish are... well, jellyish. And the hanar do have bones, a brain, a skull, and a digestive track. So it's probably more complex. Maybe hidden gills that they flush out the salt through?
Anyway I'm assuming we're using Earth summer as a point of reference?
Krogans
They have radiation storms. Our summer is not only a breeze It's literally a paradise. It only reinforces their believes that humans are weak when we complain about nonexistent problems. Neither of our coldest or hottest temperatures phase them, our deathtraps of arctics and barren deserts are their varren parks.
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Drell
Would absolutely love it, especially the deserts and dry climates. While we slather ourselves in sunscrean and never touch any exposed metal that's been cooking under the sun, the drell are as happy as a lizard sunbathing on a warm rock. Our sun loves them and they love her back. The seasonal fruits that ripen in the summer are the cherry on top (literally! cherries are a summer fruit)
Whenever visiting, they stay near the equator. Don't enjoy the beaches much tho.
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Asari
While the whole of Thessia is weather controlled and kept at the perfect temperature, I doubt anything we have to throw at the asari would actually phase them. Like yes they are coddled... much like a greek god is coddled. They are incredibly sturdy and hardy, by human standards at least.
We are nothing in comparison to Tuchanka's blazing wasteland or The turian's radioactive sun. You'd be drowning in a puddle of your own sweat while the asari next to you is literally staring directly at the sun with zero consequences. Like the krogans, it's just another Wednesday to them.
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Turians
Cute. Absolutely cute how humans think a puny sun like this would do anyone any harm. Look at them and their ozone layer! HAH! Come to Palaven and you'll see what a real sun looks like.
But seriously, you soft skins need... sunscreen? And what is that weird liquid you're exerting from your skin... eugh. Although you've been strangely chipper since we landed, any particular reason wâhuh you what?
YOU GET VITMANS FROM THE SUN?
LIKE THE FUCKING PLANTS?
HUMANS NEEDED THE SUN TO SURVIVE? BY THE SPIRITS HOW THE FUCK YOU PUNY THINGS COULD EVEN LAST A SECOND IN SPACE. The sun is an obstacle, something to be protected from, not form a parasitic relationship with! Honestly human get a grip.
Also... actually can I borrow that sunscreen? Been planning a home visit for a while.
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Hanar
Aquatic seasons are generally indistinct from one another. It makes little difference to deep sea creatures if it snows or if the sun rises in the west. Much like our atmosphere layers filter out the pesky asteroids and space debris, water acts like a secondary safety bubble wrap around anything below its surface.
The deeper down you go, the calmer it gets, until you reach an eerie static void on the ocean floor where a creature could spend an entire lifetime and never cross another living soul. Nothing ever happens where no light could penetrate. The temperature constantly regulating itself by the very equilibrium nature of water.
As for the sea surface dwellers and occasional visitors, there are three distinct seasons: Oceanic, Upwelling, and Winter Storm.
Using "season" very loosely here. They are less of seasons and more of reoccurring phenomenons that are secondary consequences of surface conditions usually present or a result of specific seasons and weather conditions occurring in said seasons.
For example: while the Earth tilting causes the surface temperature to rise because we literally are closer to the sun, the ocean creatures remain indifferent to it, BUT not the air which heates up causing an increase in wind actively during that time.
You ever blew air on a hot cup of tea to cool it off? Did you notice what happens when you do blow the said air? The tea "dips" in a particular spot where the air of our blow meets the surface.
What you're doing is breaking the water tension and pushing the surface tea away and into the back of the cup, creating a gap in the water for a split second in time. And liquid hates gaps more than anything, so the surrounding liquid rushes in to fill it.
That is precisely what the wind does to the ocean during upwelling season. As the name suggest, the deep water is literally welling up to the surface to take the place of the water the wind just pushed away. And those waters are liquid gold of nutritions for planktons breeding ground, creating a rippling effect up the food chain. An explosion of life and food.
And the fishies, aquatic mammals, and sea birdies go haywire breeding and nesting as the room service is set out. An open buffet at the shores! Fuck and Eat speedrun!
So they are unaffected by the major temperature and wind changes, they only care about the side consequences that just happen to work in their favour. Or sometimes, against, as is evident by the season called Winter Storm season or the commonly known as Poseidon Demeter catfight season causing the migration of grey whales.
Lastly Oceanic which is a poetic way of saying "lazy bumfuck season where nothing ever happens and the currents are weak and we should've booked a resort instead and ugh all the food is cold and soggy I don't feel like leaving my warm water bed to go grab a bite and can't believe we got new Deltarune chapter before silk song it's so over skongers."
Also all of the above generally is only relevant to marine life, while the deep ocean creatures remain unbothered, moisturised, happy, in their lane, focused, flourishing, and locked in nibbling on those scrumptious whalefall bones.
Why is any of this relevant?
BECAUSE! HANAR!
THEY HAVE NO CONCEPT OF SEASONS!!
Imagine you spend all your life living in an static environment bubble then suddenly have to walk on the surface just to engage with these weird terrestrial creatures and oh my god what the fuck is a sand storm. This is beyond hell. Chaos! Entropy! What do you mean the sun is a deadly laser! What the hell is a hurricane! Who the fuck is freezing water and throwing it up from the sky! Not Cool!!!! AND WHY DO TEMPERATURES SHIFT SO DRASTICALLY AND SUDDENLY.
Like no wonder they employed the sturdy drell to do their field work. Weather has always been this vague far away concept buried in dusty books and only ever relevant in the infansy stages of spaceship launches.
#also side note I haven't been answering or doing much alien prompts because I have nothing interesting to say#I know it can be disappointing when you send an ask and it never gets answered#I just feel like I've talked about everything I could talk about and anything more is will be redundant and boring#Also I have to fact check the shit I claim because as experience taught me: relying on memory alone when sharing sciency stuff is bad#on the other side I do see people rereading my posts in my notes! It makes me very happy#And whenever I actually have something interesting to say I will work on a piece or answer an ask#Inspirational is just fickle and science fiction is harder to write than my usual romance genre stuff#then the whole articulating the information into a digestible fun to read piece so it's not just a wall of text and statistics#Sprinkle in jokes. simplify concepts. Overgeneralise to get the point across because getting into the nitty gritty confuses people#Grim truth is... science is not fun to read. It's not supposed to be. It's pure concentrated knowledge that you soak up#and it's beautiful in its oppressive complexity! You have to slow down and digest each sentence. Mull over every paragraph#Each paragraph is a puzzle you decipher. It forces you to stop and connect the dots. You don't gain anything from reading on auto pilot#it's tiring. mentally exhausting. cognitively taxing. and so very tedious#BUT BEAUTIFUL! OH SO EXHILARATING AND BEAUTIFUL#âhumans#mass effect#âgalactic species#âturians#âkrogans#âasari#âhanar#âdrell
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does any other autistic person here have a permanent feeling of Disconnect from their surroundings and the people in their life
#idk man just#i've always seen a lot of posts that are like âi always felt so lonely/left out/excluded/outcasted/etcâ#about growing up autistic. and like yeah i did go through all of that but#i hardly noticed#because it was only me in my little world and i did not care or even notice#and i feel bad and are kind of objectively a shitty friend half the time because#i forget people. i forget to actually connect with them#i don't miss people. i can't feel that. like actually have never felt it#i don't have empathy which isn't bad on its own but it makes me feel so far away from others#i don't feel anything when others do and i have to verbally remind myself that other people have different experiences#and different emotions whenever i don't understand someone. it's something i physically don't understand#so i need to do it cognitively and conciously instead#and then there's the issue of if i actually feel like this or if i just can't remember#because i know the concept of emotional amnesia exists but idk if it's like system exclusive (which. i'm not going to unpack)#and i definitely have that. i have a handful of traumatic memories i can kind of recall and. i don't feel them#it's like watching a video kind of#and the general amnesia too like once a week or even less passes i forget the general idea of what happened during that time#that one is not too bad but whenever i talk to people it does kind of show#i feel platonic stuff strongly i guess but not all the time#so half the time i feel like i don't care about anything or anyone and the only thing that makes me think i do#is the sense of justice#and the only strong emotions i feel anymore are like anger and jealousy which i hate#i just feel weird. and everyone is so weird to me#and i hate everything#vent#actually autistic#autism#neurodivergent#i just need to know if this is normal#there's more but like
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I hate how it can take me anywhere from minutes (on a good day), to hours, to days for me to be able to articulate my thoughts properly and make them coherent and understandable.
I am constantly forgetting what I want to say; constantly forgetting the words I need even when they're just on the tip of my tongue/fingers; constantly getting my thoughts and therefore my words all mixed up, making them incoherent to even myself; constantly going off on a tangent about stuff that often isn't even relevant; and more which makes typing and communicating my thoughts hard.
I just wish I could communicate my thoughts properly but there are so many barriers, and they're all invisible, and a lot of people just don't understand them because they often cannot physically see the struggles.
#jasper speaks#rant#disabled#medium support needs#neurodivergent#neurological conditions#communication issues#cognitive issues#autism#brain fog#dissociation#memory issues
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