#cuz I feel like shiet

[a-lil-perspective]

“Sleepy” is literally just a personality trait at this point.

[time-to-write-and-suffer]

Guess who probably has Cövid ... Weeee

[sleepdeprivedartboi]

Everytime I remember frieren it brings a smile to me face cuz like, this series personally is the best thing I seen in a long time.

Especially as a magic lover. I absolutely love magic and frieren has one of the best magic stuff I have seen in any media ever.

To me magic is like art, limited in scope only by your imagination. So I'm naturally inclined when magic is different and unique like it is in frieren. And I agree with many of the sentiments towards magic in this show.

Magic is freedom, and the greatest joy of magic lies in searching for it and learning new shiet. Even something simple as a spell to maybe create a gentle breeze, magic what you imagine it to be, which means everyone will have wonderful new types of magic, which is the same as people having different kinds of art and forms of expression and them seeing the world in different ways.

Not to mention I play a wizard/sorcerer type character in every single game I have ever fucking touched. I have never played something other than a magic character. I have tried but eventually I just return to magic because it just feels right. Even if it's support magic, it is still magic.

[ge]

🎭— anytime 🐌 appears with a new ask i throw up blood and start cryibg. hoky shiet /vpos

theres a silly idea i've been having in which its inspired by a very old fic ive seen.. and its basically the other hwasan disciples / elders watching tang bo and cm endlessly pining (tang bo return au ftw) in like a 5 + 1 sort of fic... its so silly maybe i'll expand on it in a later ask but im running late to a class <- mentally unwell about dangcheong and just HAD to speak abt this idea.....

EEEEK I LOOOOVE reaction fics like this omg the disciples and elders so confused as to why and HOW chung myung and this new random guy are acting so ffriendly and casual w each other cuz whnvr they try to act the same, chung myung smacks them upside the head but this new guy just waltzes in and bypasses all that..? also they just cant fathom the idea of chung myung being in a relationship or having FEELINGS aside from bloodlust for anyone so they watch as tangchung get all up in each others business and flirt and think....this must be a new hazing ritual

[saltynsassy31]

Ugh, I don't know how people can eat so much in one sittig

I just ate a couple appetisers and I'm ready to explode, like, I feel dizzy with how full i am and I can't eat the main course, I'm ready to puke, I'm full for until tomorrow 😭😭😭😭

And I'm in my period! Shouldn't I be wanting or needing to eat more? Jdskkakaak

Idk, maybe my stomach is too small, the size of a quarter I'm sure cuz holy shiet

[sunnisurrealism]

https://www.dazeddigital.com/life-culture/article/58185/1/young-people-choosing-voluntary-celibacy-gen-z-attitudes-sex-relationships

Shit Timmy it’s you! 😭🥺

I feel like I’m the grandma of gen z and luckily I only slept with boyfriends from 15-21 and am only going thru my disillusionment phase now, and feel hella more relaxed that at least my lyfe mate is confirmed 🥺😭 ily it is such a blessing and relief, I know you feel the same way and we are very very lucky. But yeah I can’t personally imagine being a young young gen z feeling hella disillusioned and confused, and this article shows it’s not even a gendered thing (I wonder if there’s more male Incels or volcels). Somehow we need to bring back romance. My intuitive feeling is that girls growing up with social media are putting hella too much of their self worth on their appearance, which may consciously or unconsciously be with the goal to have sex. And then when they get it it’s not even good cuz guys don’t know what they’re doing or they don’t care for some reason. Not all of them, but it’s not like the culture teaches it. It’s probably mostly girls becoming volcels overall, this is an existential problem, what’s to do? ??? Women will always be choosers, due to risk of pregnancy. Now they’re just opting out of the whole thing? Shiet, something ain’t right.

Also I still participate in beauty culture obviously but overall I do think it needs to calm down hella, and that young girls should find more worth in their personal inner thing regardless of looks or getting the cute boy or whatever the fuck. It has helped me tbh, but I also care less now that my mate is locked in which is a privilege.

I also feel like it’s very important to question how porn has shaped the minds of young men, and women tbh. Would it logically follow that it has made them “less romantic”? Perhaps the mystery of sex and courting is gone cuz you can just see it on the screen whenever you want. I noticed I have for some reason internalized shame for not being like women in porn videos because I feel like I would be a disappointment for not being so extreme. I bet lots of girls and women secretly feel this way, tbh. Also I will say it now, it’s really weird to me how guys love this idea of girls “losing themselves” serving men, but why don’t we see men “losing themselves” serving women as often? Like in the culture broadly? Why? Like why? Think about it.

You can also easily find anyone to fuck from the dating apps, if you’re lucky, which has hella dehumanized the romance thing which was my problem. The apps are really fucking up the collective psyche. What do YOU think needs to happen to heal? I feel like you know all my opinions by now 🤣🤣🤣🤣😤🤣

I think these are the things you’ll hella have to reflect upon Timmy, as the protector of women. Protecting women is actually more about men than women. You will have to share your wisdom and find sneaky ways to influence beyond “telling the way.” This is the shit Bob does. You should do it in the book based on how you treat me. I know everyone one day will be like “wowwww” because it seems quite naval gazy, but we can just tell everyone writing the book based on my ideas and yours was our way to keep the long distance interesting over the many years, I mean fair enough. And even tho I highly doubt you are whatever the fuck “problematic” irl the visions of what went down these past few months make for wonderful storytelling.I know you understand from the nicole Kidman post. Irl, we learn by going through it. When we read or watch story, we learn by going thru it, but it is much more accelerated and less personally difficult. This is the point of it all. Bless up and thank you pour ecrire 🙏🏻 I also am eternally grateful for the sacrifices you have made for me and I endlessly want to honour that🙏🏻hella hella bless up Timmy I respect and love you so much my king :)

These are some of my fave YouTubers, please watch when you have time. I’ve only watched the second so far tbh. Bless up 🙏🏻

https://youtu.be/ybwzwYLlCW8?si=atgEG5IOGFrQPaRG

https://youtu.be/uuRK5naSfDQ?si=os6nswZiM9p86fnt

[rawrmeansilyindinosawr]

Creamy 11:11

i Saw someone carrying a tree trunk at 14th square union n Soy gay. :-] i think im a crime detective from a weird thingy that happened 7 wks ago i kant talk ab online cuz ill get the eebeegeebeez. Alll i kan say is dat iz if someone seys they hav a steak n it iz a hunk of meet it probz means they r loco 4 coco puffz . but BASICALLYZZ. i thought i saw a ded bodie wiff my fwendz this week n then we went to tha police tht said it was jus a mannequin . So ima fight whoever fuked up FIT student / parsons fashion student did dis. Cuz im happi no one died but holy shiet i kant take back the 24 hours i wuz freaking out n depressed n lookin up NYPDz twitter account for missing pplz . N legal ritez for anonymous tippers cuz i not tryna lose mi job or B interrogateD cuz like Im a scared poc dyke!!!!!!!!!! N ive always imagined myself gettin so anxious on a lie detector test tht id like somehow start admitting tht i committedd some crime out of psychological fragility tht id just end up gettin moiself arrested . Also didn’t obv wanna call police cuz like i wanna protect unhoused people in my community cuz where we were adventuring we imagined therewere def ppl living there. Whatevs. I don wanna b a hero anymore. im DONE.!!

i Fell down the stairs n i Think i brok my arm !!!!! i blame mi fwendz New rockz platform but. Tis okie . i has limited mobility rite meow . Physical pain hit diff cuz it’s just so shocking . Idk how i used to think i was invincible when i wuld get new piercings every week n not feel a thing or when i wuz a fucked up punk teen i wuld ask to get black eyez on triple C’s . Now im just a pussy bitch!!

i Saw someone carrying a tree trunk at 14th square union n Soy gay. :-] i think im a crime detective from a weird thingy that happened 7 wks ago i kant talk ab online cuz ill get the eebeegeebeez. Alll i kan say is dat iz if someone seys they hav a steak n it iz a hunk of meet it probz means they r loco 4 coco puffz . but BASICALLYZZ. i thought i saw a ded bodie wiff my fwendz this week n then we went to tha police tht said it was jus a mannequin . So ima fight whoever fuked up FIT student / parsons fashion student did dis. Cuz im happi no one died but holy shiet i kant take back the 24 hours i wuz freaking out n depressed n lookin up NYPDz twitter account for missing pplz . N legal ritez for anonymous tippers cuz i not tryna lose mi job or B interrogateD cuz like Im a scared poc dyke!!!!!!!!!! N ive always imagined myself gettin so anxious on a lie detector test tht id like somehow start admitting tht i committedd some crime out of psychological fragility tht id just end up gettin moiself arrested . Also didn’t obv wanna call police cuz like i wanna protect unhoused people in my community cuz where we were adventuring we imagined therewere def ppl living there. Whatevs. I don wanna b a hero anymore. im DONE.!!

my ex gf from 2020 who was a life long lesbian is trying to b bisexual w my roommates de transitioning situation ship (they them de transitioning to he him) N the person who did Tha Spotify wrapt graphics made me hummus from scratch once n gav me head. And it wuz mid.

A goth gurl yelled at meh asking for ear muffs where i werk n i liked it. another goth girl introduced herself to meh as her sign n pan sexuality n i sed i like woks too . Secwet pour wuz fun n i met a “12 yr old person in a 27 yr old body “who had 5 diff insta accounts n a black eye n his insta bio was www.lanadelrey.com for all 5 accounts . Sameziez. Lana del rey is soooo hot and i want to b shooka shooka how now take my body downtown . I kant wait for baby jesus tree day cuz ima be wiff my fam in la and my bestie soulmate lily Cuz Im done crying im so done feeling not enough n stupid and reserved. i realize sometimes i laff sm n joke sm cuz i rly rly rly rly jus wanna cry. i hav accepted conflict is part of life n relationships tho.

My chiron n venus n mars r in scorpio n idk if my bad luck or feeling of being misunderstood will ever leave meh. Nihilism approaches me in a beautifully wrapped gift package n i confront it everyday with the self restraint to not touch the ribbonz.

My pattern app tells meh i yam here on earth to bring ppl happiness n laughter . But i wanna b on earth to get Fucked n eat hotpot . Moi therapist says i’m selfless . But i need to b selfish n address my vagimismis so i kan hav 4 somes with my bestie . :-[ Whut else r fwendz for.

Sometimes when i feel really sad i take the wrong direction home n sit on the train watching the way it passes thru the tunnels . Its mostly accidental . Cuz mi heads in a million directions n even tho my body remembers the way that i should go and which direction downstairs uptown is and which direction upstairs downtown is ……. on the wkends the subways r always messed up. Wiff the Q and the R running where the N line usually does , and the L being broken . N replacement buses and shuttles . Im just exhausted . N still don’t feel like im catching up w as much melatonin induced sleepful nites n adderal filled tweakerish days where im running around doing a million things n still don’t wear out . Im feeling so protective over what i own and what i know

I don’t know why it hurts so badly. And I want to be whole hearted and sincere so badly that i am willing to put all my heart and all my hurt in all of my relationships. i see everyone around me as people ive chosen to go deep with. Like oceans, like deep taverns. like an adventure.and with each journey we spend together, it accumulates time and time ends up being nonexistent. i love deeply, and i love hard. there is a profound love i find that surpasses irony and excuse when i love others and that love makes me love myself. Every time I give, I am bearing and subjecting myself to the weight of love. every time i smile or ask “how are you?” or “do you need anything?” or “do you feel safe?” it is out of wanting others to feel filled. i think hurt and pain and hate and love share the same excuses and for that, i think they need the same pardoning. so i will wipe the crumbs off of my lips, excuse myself from the dining table. every memory of all those i have kept dear to me are as lockets dangling around my heart. ifear to lose it so I’ll hold on tight. i don’t wanna imagine days where we share different toothpaste we fall slumber in different paths embracing each other in a different sun light .

Lost the rest of this on my old blog …. :(

renny <\3

[yakocchi]

2021 Anniversary Event Ministories // Count

this post contains 2 ministories: the 4th Anniversary Collection Event (Loved So Much, I Go Breathless) and the 2021 Election Collection Event (Deep Night)

o hey it’s me why did i sandwich two honestly-unrelated stories? bc i can!! actually it’s bc i feel lame when i post too much. which goes against how you’re supposed to use tumblr…. but no one ever said i was good at this

anyway, they serve similar purposes. The Election Event is supposed to be a sort of Anniversary Event, while the..… Anniversary Event is named that. the Count did not!! have a scenario Anniversary Event this year (that was apparently reserved for the top 6. sad but makes sense) so yea, make do w/ this

The Election Story is an AU where the characters are hosts of a host club. which…. not my thing but w/e, maybe some of u like that stuff The Anniversary Event on the other hand is supposed to be in-line with canon. results in corny SHIET but i like corny shiet. like the vlad one has them buying mugs (? thats a thing in the 19th century, corny mug shit? #1 best vampire mug? bruh)

in event chronology, the anni event was way before the election one but i put the election one first here cuz it’s longer (bc i included the prologue)

Spoilers under the cut!! Please credit if you take any of it, thenk u (･ω･*)

Deep Night // Prologue + Count

⋆ didnt screenie anything for the prologue cuz LAZY. just imagine the dumb black shirts they made some poor intern edit on photoshop, thats p much it

…

One city night, the year 20XX—

[Kara]: “Survived another week of hard work, me… haah,” (I finally have the day off tomorrow. It’ll be okay if I let loose a bit tonight, right?) When I was worn out from the monotony of everyday life, I would head over to a certain place for comfort and thrills. And that establishment was—

[Napoleon]: “Welcome to Club Deep Night.”

[Arthur]: “Ah, it’s Kara. You came to see me, right? ‘Been waiting.” [Isaac]: “Hold up, Arthur; she doesn’t come here just to see you, no?” [Dazai]: “Ooh, Isaac; a Host’s jealousy isn’t pretty, you know?” [Dazai]: “Well then, Toshiko-san; Your pick tonight— Wha – is me? No, no, it’s an honor. This will be a night of blinding sensuality very soon—"

[Isaac]: “She hasn’t picked anyone and you’re already going full steam ahead. —And her name isn’t Toshiko.” [Arthur]: “Right, right; Don’t hang with some guy who can’t your name right, Kara— My princess.”

As soon as I entered the club, a smile appeared on my face as a battle of charms began in front of me.

[Napoleon]: “Sheesh… every last one of these rascals are thrilled. Sorry that they’re being so noisy.” [Kara]: “No, no! Whenever I come here, it’s fun and even perks me up.” [Vincent]: “Really? If I’m to be the source of your high spirits, then I’ll make it even livelier in here.” [Vincent]: “I’ll build the champagne tower, and prepare the call!” [Theodorus]: “Hey, Hondje— Hurry and pour the champagne. It’ll be to give gratitude to the angel that’s landed on this city tonight.” [Theodorus]: “If you can be a good girl, I’ll tease and spoil you to bits.”

⋆ in host clubs, there’s a thing called a champagne call. the customer buys some very expensive bubbly, and all of the hosts gather round her table to chant, sing, w/e i was curious on how the localization handled theo’s dog nickname for MC (like 駄犬) cuz if they did a straight translation (mongrel, mutt, etc.), i feel like the western audience would hate him lul. glad they found smth

Everyone tries to entertain me, and in a single moment, their sweet words make me forget about my ordinary life. (It’s nice that everyone is so lively; but shouldn’t I go pick someone for tonight…?)

Troubled about it, arms then suddenly wrapped around my waist on both sides, causing me to cry out. [Faust]: “How long do you intend to go down one by one like that, keeping us men waiting?” [Faust]: “Come on— Please pick someone, and quickly. I can’t say... that I don’t know who you should be choosing.” [Charles]: “Ugh, there goes the cunning Doctor. I wanted to be picked by her, and now you’re doing all this.” [Charles]: “Hey— Pick me, Kara. I’ll do things to you that’ll make you feel good, utterly euphoric...” [Sebastian]: “Stop the Sexy Time. Even though you are a host, please show some restraint within club walls, Charles.” [Sebastian]: “...There being so many rivals vying for Kara’s nomination, is a nuisance.”

[Jeanne]: “If I do things that will make her feel good, will she be thrilled?” [Mozart]: “Jeanne, it’d be a good idea to not emulate what you just saw.”

⋆ “Stop the Sexy Time” is transliterated into kana, so it felt wrong to potentially change it. yes the cringe was not made by me this time. surprisingly also, this is something that gets a bit lost in translation: Charles and Jeanne both use yorokobu, in which the most common meaning is to be pleased, feel joy, etc. however, they use diff kanji which have diff connotations. Charles uses one that’s more abt physical joy (like a massage... or uh u know), while Jeanne uses one that’s more abt emotional joy (like seeing a friend u haven’t met with in a while). it’s supposed to show how dirty minded charles is while jeanne is precious LOL

[Mozart]: “Kara, come over here. You deserve to receive much finer hospitality... So, from me.” [Jeanne]: “If you pick me as well, then I’ll do my very best. Kara, won’t you come with me?” (Urgh- it’s getting more and more impossible to pick just one of them...!)

…

A bit farther away from everyone else, in the backroom— two men were exchanging words with each other: [Shakespeare]: “The moment Kara arrived, everyone became so animated.” [Shakespeare]: “She’s a mysterious one, to be able to draw us masterful hosts towards herself.” [Leonardo]: “Mhm, every single grown man is desperate to get the sweetheart’s attention.   [Leonardo]: “Well... maybe I should turn desperate too, hm?”

And in the owner’s quarters, there were also men watching Kara through the club monitors. [Vlad]: “That girl…” [Count]: “You mean Kara? She started frequenting this place a little while ago.” [Count]: “For some reason, I’m always interested… in who she picks each time.” [Vlad]: “Looks like you care quite a lot about one specific customer, dear Owner.” [Vlad]: “Kara… hm?”

…

[Napoleon]: “Regardless, all of the hosts here like you way too much. —To be honest, it makes me anxious.” [Kara]: “Huh-?” (Anxious… as a host? Or… as a man?) His words, honeyed with sweet temptation, made my heart race. His smile then deepened: [Napoleon]: “—Well, Kara; Who’s your pick tonight?”

(End of Prologue)

…

(Count)

[Count]: “So you’ve come, Kara. I’ve been waiting, you know.” I had paid a visit to the host club I always go to, and was invited to the owner’s quarters for some reason.

⋆ how is he still a Count in this AU lul. like yea nobility still exists, but it’s… strange, esp. if someone of nobility is openly running a host club

(Being called up here by the owner… this is the first time that’s ever happened.) I couldn’t come up with a reason why I was the only customer summoned here.

[Count]: “It’s not anything to be nervous about; I just wanted to hear something from you tonight.” [Count]: “You come here often, but you pick someone different every time.” [Count]: “Is there no one here that meets your expectations?” [Kara]: “My expectations?” [Count]: “Mhm. Being unable to satisfy our customers’ needs is an alarming matter.” [Count]: “If none of my kids happen to be your type, I’d like to hear what kind of things you seek.” [Kara]: “N-No… it’s not that none of them are my type;” [Kara]: “It’s just that everyone here is so wonderful, so I can’t pick only one of them.” [Kara]: “They’re cool, kind, great at conversation, and entertain me…” As I thought about the hosts who had surrounded me at the tables up to this point, I voiced my feelings honestly. I then recalled the words the Count had said just a moment ago, and felt a slight discomfort in my heart.

(I’m being honest when I say that I can’t choose between such amazing hosts. But…) (I also think it’s certainly true that “what I seek” is a bit different from them.) (The one I desire is more…) I shifted my eyes to the Count standing before me, and he responded with the composed smile of a mature adult. I was captivated by him at first glance, as a scent of danger seemed to drift from deep within that smiling face.

(But— As the owner himself, the Count’s not going to service a customer, of course…) Regretful, I dropped my gaze— Before I realized the Count had walked over to me. Cradling my chin in his fingers, he turned my head up so I face him.

[Count]: “Contrary to your words… your eyes say that there is something you desire.” [Count]: ���Your indecisiveness stems from wanting more stimulation, is it not?” [Count]: “Like this, for example—"

He suddenly pressed his lips to mine. Shocked, I tried to pull away— but the Count gripped my waist in place. He then drew me in closer as if to prevent escape, changing angles countlessly as he took my lips. [Kara]: “Nn-… Don’t. I can’t pick you, the owner, as my host, so…” [Count]: “That unsatisfied-looking face of yours deeply bothers me.” [Count]: “I’m retired, but if you wish it so... For you, I’m willing to make a comeback tonight.” [Count]: “Well, now… go ahead; make your choice?” As if to seduce me, the gleaming gold eyes in front of me radiate this allure. With that, I felt that he could see through the lustful desires that lied within the recesses of my heart, and my body shivered with a subtle numbness. (I’ve never felt this way before.) Wondering what kind of stimulation he would give, I wanted to be toyed by those fingers, those lips… These emotions muddled within me.

(I think the person I’ve wanted all this time... was you from the beginning.)

[Kara]: “Count— Tonight, I’ll have you…” [Count]: “To be chosen by you, is an honor.” [Count]: “I promise to sate your thirst this evening.” [Count]: “—Give yourself to me.”

⋆ or “you can entrust all of yourself to me” if u want smth more awkward but more faithful to the original text

A fervent kiss rained down on me as if to fill what I had been deprived of,

and the night that would far exceed the stimulation I had desired, had just begun—

FIN

⋆ u kno, i did try making the characters sound more 21st century in this AU. but at the same time, the count probably wouldnt be the type to say yeet (aka a useless boomer smh) so idt it showed that much

…

Loved So Much, I Go Breathless // Count

…

Inside a swaying carriage, the Count sat across from me. Staring at me fixedly, he then gave a deep sigh. [Count]: “You are astoundingly beautiful tonight, Kara. —It was good to have left the manse like this.” [Count]: “If we had traversed the streets by foot, then I would have surely faced difficulty in having to shake off the men charmed by you.” [Kara]: “Ah-… D-Don’t play around like that, please.” [Count]: “I’m being completely honest, you know. —Well, if someone were to come near you, I wouldn’t let them lay a finger on you anyway.”

⋆ he says something closer to “those are my true thoughts, without a single lie” but that’s going too far in my arbitrary rules of “does this sound like smth ppl actually say” so whee

(J-Jeez; He always acts like this…) Wanting to mislead my pounding heart, I hastily changed the subject.

[Kara]: “Um… Where are we going tonight?” [Count]: “Oh my, did you forget? Today’s the anniversary of the day we met, of all things.” [Kara]: “Of course I didn’t forget. It was the day I changed my own fate, and met you— A day I cherish so very much.” [Count]: “It’s the same for me; And it’s precisely why we’re going to a place where I may reaffirm my love.” (“Love”…?) When I tilted my head, the Count gave a meaningful smile, saying nothing more.

With that—

The place the stagecoach had arrived, was a church I recognized. (This is… the place where we had confirmed our love for one another.) The Count took my hand before we entered, the moonlight silently illuminating the unoccupied altar.

[Count]: “I have decided from my heart— that on this day, and on every day we call ‘our anniversary’—" I shall proclaim my vows to you once more.”

[Count]: “Kara— This is my oath of eternal love to you.” Before the altar, the Count kneeled before taking my left hand, dropping a reverent kiss on my ring finger. [Kara]: “nh- Ah-…” A sweet numbness ran from my finger, and my heart skipped a beat.

[Count]: “The time I spend with you, is filled with a dazzling brilliance.” [Count]: “—Filled to the point where I believe those centuries I had of embracing nothingness, came to be for the purpose of being able to meet you…” [Count]: “If you would allow it— For the future to come, with you by my side, I shall continue to swear such (to you).”

[Count]: “And thus, I wish that one day, I shall become one with you. —That is the greatest happiness I seek.”

He then rose to his feet, embracing me as if to envelop me whole. With my cheek pressed against his chest, I could feel his heart beating as fast as mine. (Like this, it’s as if I’m becoming one with the Count— With Abel.)

He tenderly brushed my hair aside before running a finger down my neck. One day, fangs will sink into this very spot, and love from a pureblooded vampire – called “eternity” – will be spilled within. Thinking about such things, my heart grew full— and tears were about to fall down my face, involuntarily.

[Kara]: “Abel… me too, I-…”

Overcome with emotion, I was at loss for words— When an almost-biting kiss fell upon me, cutting off my words. His tongue caught mine through my broken lips, our hot sighs immediately laden with heat.

[Count]: “—There is no need for words.” His lips only barely parting from mine, he whispered with a glossy sigh.

[Count]: “The tears brimming in your eyes, tell me everything— that you belong to me.” [Kara]: “Ah-… Abel…” His gentle - but also denying any notion of resistance – and sweet kiss, deepened, desiring me and only me. I embraced him with all my strength, abandoning myself to this happiness that will last forever and ever…

FIN (2)

Ikevam has been kind of boring if u dun like the top 5 all that much but i mean always has been astronaut_gun.jpg

anyway, the election was mostly a skip for me this year cuz i dun care for mini figures. also, he was doing awful in categories bc ppl are voting characters over several categories (rather than just the recommended one). frankly i think it’s dumb to vote a character in anything other than the “officially” recommended category bc the chance of losing in all categories is much higher than getting stuff in >1 category (e.g., with the midterm results u can see vlad in every category, but he’s only eligible for a benefit in one…when he could easily just win in one category period). but maybe that way of thinking is too tryhard for a game that only barely fits the definition of a game #realgamurz #weliveinasociety

i honestly didn’t do (aka pay) much and ranked rly well in character rankings. so i was happy i got decent stuff, but sadder he doesn’t get much support;; u telling me the richest guy has the stingiest fans. yes. i mean look at me, microwave pizza is my life

sorry for the lack of updates. as usual but uh better to be annoying with no updates than with too much RITE haha yes………. yes

as always, thanks for reading!

[ally-the-artistic-turtle]

ok i kinda feel like todoroki’s head is a bit too small

why does this happen every time-

have a shameless ship cuz i felt like drawing a fluffy romantic pose for Maya and Todoroki :”))

also yes i finally made up my mind about who i want to ship her with :D

also also this pose took me so long to figure out holy shiet why is anatomy so diffucult aaaAAAAAA 

[thebuttsmcgee]

My hobbies include drawing goku into reaction pics I have

[channoticedmeuwu]

omo i'm in your asks again ㅠㅠ

2day is such a stressful day,,, i feel so,, weak and tired 😔 like i dont feel motivated!!

and u know that feeling where u just wanna give up cuz,,, giving up is sexy because u feel so empty,, cuz thats ze shiet i have been going thru !!!

BUT because u give me so much love,, whenever i feel sad i look onto our asks and the love i feel from your replies,,, u are an amazing person bby,, thank u so much! kisses and hugs going your way 😘

song rec for 2day ㅡ telepatia by kali uchis !!

~jaehyun's cheesy bread anon, 🍞

:'0000 MY BELOVED YOU CAN BE IN MY INBOX ALL THE TIME SMH YOU OWN THIS PLACE

awe anon I'm so sorry you feel like that :(( but lemme tell u something, giving up isn't sexy. It's not seggsi at all no, staying strong is smexy imo and it's hot af bruh

you got this love >:(((( goooooOOOOOOOD LUVJ on those finals >:(((((( like my blog desc says, "fuck him up, babe" SO I WANT YOU TO FUCK EM UP BABE >:(((((((

You got it love :( everytime you feel like you need someone, drop in my inbox, I'll be there with you :( please stay watered seedling, and you'll get through it! Don't give up! Stay hot and stay strong ;D

I love you so much, anon.

[irhymerose]

Add something, if you'd like

Add something here, i like suggestion

Cuz i know i am alone on this position

Cruel people gonna run but i stay close

Maybe thats wasnt enught give another dose

Maybe after this we had to chamge pose

It doesnt mean i didnt live you if didnt gift rose

It was all good but sad at the same time , time goes

I see all the people around me, liers with big nose

I remmember how we were near we were close

But someone not you and not me fucked all this note

It all started from them and then i took their point

People laughin at ma choice , and all around is noise

Just only you made it clear, cleared all this dirt

So i did never want to leave but you know i did

Cuz last times we werent toghether even when i need

Even when you started to cry , alone was it risk?

I just wanted you to leave cuz all the pain was real

Infact i never wanted to see your fucking tear

I know maybe one day someone will kiss your ear

And you know i havent to breath i dont need air

I just will die in light night

With the brighter day

I will bring past tension in you when i will die

I didnt want you to cry just tell me good bye

Cuz i know you steel feel the pain, but you have to lie

Sick mode is on and i will go who will read this shiet

Not even tagging not even doin somethin to make it deep

Just you from another world checking this all out

Leave this place alone please cuz its ma private room

No one should and no one could open my eye

Even now i make it rough you kniw what im sayin

Loving sex and loving person

Loving what you did

Everynight is geting risk when i have to leave

I have to run and i have to be the kinda person

I didnt do but sex is good and so i stay for reason

But tommorow i think

I will find next

And her fucking bastard laps will make her laugh

So let me explain what i did it was all true

From the heart i never brake from the heart i do

So if u dont really know that i know you do

So do be tobe dobe dooo and we are very well

[collaborationfandom]

Dazai Osamu (Agency Era) x Reader

***Notice****

This oneshot takes place after the Guild Arc but before the Cannibalism Arc 

*the ability mentioned is not something specific, so it can be an ability you have created for yourself, so it makes it more immersive for u ;)

In this one shot you are smaller than dazai, you are around 175 cm or 5’7 or around that height, cuz it makes it more romantic and yes I am a bottom.

The double parentheses “((-))” are author's notes, therefore my notes

It has been more than a year since you moved to Yokohama. To be extremely honest you didn’t really know how to describe the city, comforting during the day but so violent at night, or vice versa, you were never caught prepared. 

One thing remained the same though.

And that was Osamu Dazai. 

A waste of bandages.

He wanted to recruit you in the agency so badly he was going to extents that you didn't know were possible or even existed. The man was dangerous, you knew that for sure. 

You found him one day at the top of a palace, tip toeing at the edge of the building, threatening to fall at any second. 

You approached him very carefully. “Ehm sir, you shouldn’t be here, this area is restricted to the office..?” He looked at you and smiled.

“Ah yes I am aware. Don’t worry, I’ll leave soon.” He said, as he got even closer to the tip, you started to get anxious.

“Sir please come down it’s very dangerous, you could fall any time.”

“The view is absolutely stunning. Yokohama truly is amazing, isn’t it?” He hopped off the edge and came closer to you.

 “What a marvellous work of art you are, Miss.” He took your hand. “Are you willing to join me in a double suicide and let death embrace us both as we take on the journey to the after life?”

You retracted your hand scared. This guy is completely insane. “Sir.. I think we should get inside, I can treat you with some tea and talk about it ok? There is no need to end-”

You were cut off by a loud sigh. “Oh well, it doesn’t matter, does it y/n?”

“How did you-” You whispered. He jumped on the edge of the building, facing you. “I’m really glad I met you.” he closed his eyes and fell backwards, disappearing. 

You panicked. HOLY SHIT HE WENT DOWN WTF DO I DO.

You had to use your *ability. You jumped too and moved in the air to try and get as close to him as possible. “SIR! SIR GIVE ME YOUR HAND!” You screamed. He opened his eyes surprised.

In disbelief he obeyed and you grabbed his hand at the very last second.

The both of you found yourself safe and sound on the ground below, still holding hands. 

You turned around and you saw literal sparkles in the man’s eyes, looking at you completely amazed.

And that’s how he started tormenting you. 

It started out with him coming to you house, radiating happiness, and offering to commit suicide with him, and if you refused he would have compromised to join the agency.

You kept on refusing, but the more you refused the more he came back.

“WHY-DO-YOU-KEEP-TORMENTING-ME” you screamed one day out of frustration. “I am NEVER going to join the armed detective agency, Osamu, so please, I am begging you, STOP wasting your time on a matter that is helpless and move on from me. I am 100% sure there are better candidates for the agency anyways, so, I am asking very kindly to fuck off.”

Dazai just stood there, completely unaffected by your last words. “No.”

“What do you mean ‘No’.”

“No, there is no better candidate and no I am never going to ‘fuck off’” he said, quoting with his fingers.

“You see y/n in the armed detective agency we are lacking someone with your same charisma, your organization ((ah shiet IB memories)), and especially your power. We are lacking members with defense abilities and especially someone that is capable of bringing us together if anything is to happen to any of the leaders. Plus, your combat skills are incredible and we are definitely going to need that for the dangers that are about to come.”

“So in short, you need me for my ability and my skills as a half assassin?” You asked, annoyed. 

Dazai smirked and got dangerously close to you. “That was for the Armed Detective Agency. I need you because you must explain what you did to me that day we first met.”

You looked at him confused. “What do you mean.. I saved you..?”

“Nono, not only that. After you saved me I took such an interest towards you. At first I did it to play around and mess with someone. Then I saw your value as an executive. And then…” he paused for a second.

“These past weeks something else started rising in my heart.” He continued. “It's a warm and pleasant feeling but also a very scary one. Like that one time you took care of me after I tried to end myself with some acid, your touch was oh so gentle I can still remember it. Or even back when I stopped pursuing you for a while you still came to the agency and asked for me. You cared. And you see I haven’t met someone who cares so much about me since… my friend passed away ((NUUU ODASAKU RIPP T-T)). Y/n I want to protect you and spend time with you, keep you close.” He rested his head on your shoulder.

“I don’t want to lose you too.” he so softly whispered.

You stood there for a second. “Are you being for real?” you hesitantly asked.

“I never lie about this kind of stuff. Not to someone I consider my friend, but especially never to someone I see as my future lover.” And with that he looked at you in the eyes and raised your chin. He kissed you very softly, almost as if he was afraid to break you.

“Come with me y/n.” he whispered. “I beg you.”

And that is the story of how you and your suicide addict boyfriend became the power couple of the Armed Detective Agency. 

Needless to say he was a lazy, goofy and an airheaded boyfriend but he cared very much about you. And you cared very much about him. 

For now, it seemed that you both could go through anything together. ((even the cannibalism arc))

- Mod Dazai 

[mythighsareshaking]

Lmao I broke my fast so long ago kept making excuses till I gained and I’ve been maintaining since then? I’m back in control and even though I ate like 1,300 and worked out 100 kcal... Why do I feel like shiet? 😭 I’ve worked out on an empty stomach so what kinda bs is this? ’Spo of the day cuz why not?

[cleoxortiz]

𝐦𝐞𝐞𝐭  𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐨.

( cindy kimberly, cis female ) hey ! have you seen CLEO ORTIZ around ? SHE works as a BARTENDER at big bear resort, but they must be off their shift by now. well, if you do see them can you let me know ? they’re 22 years old & they’ve been working here for TWO WEEKS. they tend to be AMBITIOUS & AUDACIOUS, but can also be VEXING & HUBRISTIC. the other employees have labeled them THE HELLKITE. thanks a lot ! ( the sound of stilettos against marble floors, a menacing smile worn on red lips, the glimmering lights of the manhattan skyline, a silent eye-roll that cuts deeper than words ) [ jocey, 23, est, she/her ]

it’s ya girl jocey and i’m so excited for all the fluffy holiday cUTeNesS! apologizing in advance for the terror that is cleo. she is truly the worst™. but i love the grinch stole christmas, so y’kNOW WHAT? this felt v fitting ok sdkgkgjk. so hit that subscribe like button if ya wanna plot & we can chitty chat on discord!

name : cleo valentina ortiz age : twenty-one sexuality : pansexual hometown : new york city, new york job : bartender at the avalanche pub

━ the ortiz’s didn’t always have a net worth of millions. with humble beginnings in catalonia, spain, the family moved to america a couple generations ago to expand their winery business. it was only then did the family-run business grow by producing, shipping and selling their premium wine brand. eventually they got into the nightlife entertainment business as well, through acquiring and running several bars, clubs and lounges all around america.

━  as the second and youngest child born to miguel and selena, it was never in the books for cleo to take over the family business. a traditional man, her father had always groomed her older brother, adrian, to be his successor. her father’s bias always left her feeling bitter and resentful, and only drove her ambitions and determination to prove him wrong. the more he kept her at arm’s length, the more driven she was to find an in.

━ unfortunately, her mother, a socialite/philanthropist herself, also had different plans for cleo - something along the lines of becoming a debutante and her daughter following in her footsteps. from being forced into piano lessons, ballet and etiquette classes, she absolutely despised the person her family wanted to mold her into. both stubborn in wanting to get their way, cleo and her mother’s differences pulled their mother-daughter relationship further and further apart.

━  even her mom’s passing when she was 14 did little to change cleo’s opinion in the matter. she claimed she didn’t care about the woman’s death, nor did it affect her whatsoever, and she will gladly tell anyone that. but the fact that she currently attended columbia university, her mom’s alma mater, may hint at something different.

━  a hustler with an alpha bitch mentality, she’s always outsmarting people and outsmarting the system to get things to work in her favour. and when that didn’t work, no one could ever say no to a big fat wad of cash. because cleo ortiz never loses. she doesn’t just play the game, she owns it, makes the rules and wins. every. damn. time. does she think she’s better than everyone? without a doubt. does she care about anyone other than herself? not a chance. if it ever appeared that she did, then chances are, it’s only to benefit herself somehow.

━  cleo swears by the belief that playing by the rules was for suckers and if you weren’t the best, then you were nothing at all. and sometimes being the best required playing dirty. if she has to ruin someone else’s life to get her way, then she will gladly pour a jug of gasoline, light a match and enjoy watching it go up in flames. hell, more often than not, she’ll do that just purely for her own enjoyment. because if she has to be bitter and miserable, then why shouldn’t everyone else be too?

━  with that mentality, it’s no surprise that cleo came up with a scheme to sabotage her father’s newest business deal with the owner of big bear resort. the ortiz family had been vacationing there since she was little, so it was only right that they expanded their business roots there as well. unfortunately, cleo screwed herself over with her own ambition and the scheme more or less blew up in her face. 

━  in an attempt to salvage the partnership, cleo was given an ultimatum - work at the resort, or face the legal repercussions and risk losing her trust fund. she didn’t have to think twice about which option to go with. working at the resort would just give her twice as many opportunities to sabotage the deal, yet again. and this time, she didn’t plan on leaving until she succeeded. the only minor obstacle was having to actually work while she was here, but how hard could bartending be, right??

WANTED CONNECTIONS.

BEST FRIEND ━  someone who can put up with cleo’s awfulness, or maybe they’re just as awful as she is. this is probably one of the few people she’s actually relatively soft for ( not that she’d ever admit it ), will always have their back & will probably? let her guard down for. gimme some soft bestie feels for this cold bitch.  taken by kieran rhodes, caleb xu PARTNER-IN-CRIME  ━  i’m sure even satan has a little devil on his shoulder, so cleo needs one too. basically they like to stir up all kinds of trouble together, both fueling each other’s vices.  taken by ian moon, harper delgado MORAL CONSCIENCE  ━  does cleo even have a moral compass? your guess is as good as mine. this is someone she is more likely to listen to and could try to sway her from doing, y’know, ~*just cleo things*~. kind of like the angel on her shoulder. often tries to get her to just be a decent human being. the cindy lou to her grinch if you will LOL??  taken by aylie greer BAD INFLUENCE  ━  someone cleo is a bad influence on. she’s the little devil on their shoulder and manipulates convinces them to do ~*just cleo things*~ with her. after all, she needs to entertain herself somehow while she’s stuck here esgjdgkgk.  taken by claire beauvard ON/OFF  ━  they’ve been in this on-and-off relationship for what’s felt like forever and  they have their moments, but didn’t always get along. despite that, they just keep coming back to each other for their own reasons.  taken by marco di angelo ENEMIES  ━  homegirl can piss off a lot of people just for shits and giggles, nor does she care to be likeable and personable, so i’m sure she’s got a hella long list of enemies/people she rubs the wrong way. also people she’s sabotaged, fucked over and manipulated to get her way? plz.  taken by kamille osman, theodora kwon CHILDHOOD FRIENDS ━  they’ve known each other since they were kids, probably met when cleo’s family visited big bear. they can still be friendly, not get along at all, or maybe it’s an ex-friend situation. UNWANTED CHILD  ━  cleo somehow ended up being this person’s very reluctant mom friend. she hates it, she does not want to deal with them, and yet she’ll still go pick up their drunk ass at 4am. she’s all about tough love, so while she may be super harsh and hard on them, she does it because she cares ( not that she’d ever actually admit to caring ).  taken by leo takanashi UNLIKELY/ACCIDENTAL FRIENDS  ━ they shouldn’t get along, but somehow they just do and their friendship works. not typically someone cleo would see herself being friends with, but one way or another, an accidental friendship of sorts developed.  taken by callie macdermot, nadia perez, ivan anderson MUTUAL ANNOYANCE ━  they annoy each other to no end and just live for pushing each other’s buttons. not quite a hatred, but some days, it’s pretty darn close. maybe there’s some sexual tension involved cuz that’s always the good shiet.  taken by axel schaefer HOOK-UPS/FWBS ━  self-explanatory. a girl’s got needs. whether she actually likes you as a person or not, if you’re hot, then you’ll do the job. rip why is she like this. we can make it angsty or not because tbh cleo can be pretty possessive sometimes, so y’knOW.  taken by roman walsh

okay, that’s all i can think of off the top of my head. some plots i’m open for multiple characters to fill, unless it has been crossed out. and ofc, i’m always open to new ideas too!

[mythykl]

Yamaguchi being a fuckin' support system

*my depressed ass needs him as my bff**

*no kiddin'*

how did you guys meet?? Honestly no idea,, since when you both have been besties is something that you distinctly remember-

"Don't be sad Y/N! You have a lot of good qualities! You are smart, funny, a-a great friend an-and beautiful," yamaguchi stuttered as he hugged you to calm you down after your weirdass argument with Kageyama,,

He thought you gonna crying cuz' he called you out on,, well idk, while this cinnamon roll thought you are sad over it~

Yamaguchi *elbowed tsuki*

Tsuki, "yup- you are,, not stupid and your name is Y/N."

Well,, tadashi, sighed and whispered back , "this is horrible,," that shit makes you laugh

Since then he has become close to you,, along with tsuki who pats your head whenever he sees you in halls~ but we forks ain't here to talk drool about that part of the story, are we?

Tadashi and you are freakin opposite,, yet he's the one to calm your impulsive ass,, you were certainly oblivious about this fact until tsuki made you realize that you are being over dependent on Yamaguchi *frankly he wants his bff back,, I mean damn*

His kind and humble personality has always inspired you,, practically makin you strive to be a better human.

Made you realize this one shit, while you were crying your balls our for trusting the wrong person / after a nasty breakup, that acceptance is important. Let shit sink in so you can understand the real issue,,,

Well,, he once said that, "Instead of regretting and attempting to change your past decisions, just cuz' its consequences are difficult to face, doesn't mean you should just scrape off your motives and reasons for doing it at the first place." That shiet hit you hard.

After these sessions, you usually treat him with French fries,, cuz let's be honest. This bitch deserves showers of love for never leaving your side.

Says shit like,, 'motivation? What more do you need than pride?' , and wE iGNoRe tRuTH FoR teMpOrARY hApPInEss; or- iF YoU aRe hAPpY, whOoo honestly cares!? *immediately unfollows all quote accounts on Instagram lol*

When tsuki had made you realize that you are over dependent on tadashi, you backfired, "rather I'd phrase it as 'the stereotype of Yamaguchi always relying on others is finally broken,, both of us being the living examples~'"

This one really put Tsuki off guard, he atleast smiles and bro fists you,, *you are really proud of yourself as you could say that shit w/o stuttering lmao*

Though being bad at motivational speeches, you throw ton of those vibes at tadashi to help him work hard instead of feeling inferior to his teammates. You know his passion for volleyball and his dedication inspires you to stay devotional to Y/Talent or whatever tf you do *sounds so bland oml*

The team loves hanging out with you, but kageyama kinda resents you straightforwardness. Understandable.

When you're sick, tadashi gets you shit ton of snacks. He can get boring at times, but you like that he's never clingy. Though he's a giver, he only offers immense love and consideration only when its necessary and you love that in your friendship

You make you do adventurous shit fro. as going on camps to visiting haunted houses on haunted tours. He balances out your recklessness,, such a protective mum

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Wow I'm outta ideas,, jk.