#daddy!nick nelson

[sonseulsoleil]

Nick and Tao this season….it’s the way that they have mirrored trauma. Nick was abandoned by his father and Tao’s father died. Nick, in turn, has shut himself away for a long time. He’s been afraid to be vulnerable, to let people in to see his true self, because his own father has no interest in who he is. On the flip side, Tao has done the opposite. He clings to his friends, loves them loudly, as Nick says, and sometimes his fear gets the better of him, and he holds on too tightly. Tao has to learn to let go of some of that fear, to trust he won’t lose his friends if he allows for change. Nick has to learn to let people in, to be honest about himself without fear of rejection. They’re opposite arcs, but they come from such similar places of loss.

[heartstopperthoughts]

[1asbrightasthestars3]

"I had a father but I never had a dad."

[swifteainthesummer]

A relationship should be 50/50, I have daddy issues and you have mommy issues

[toneelspeelster]

ethics of motherhood: the jane / charlie spring essay

ever since the release of the second season of heartstopper i've seen so many different opinions on jane spring as a parent; she's the absolute devil, overbearing, completely against understanding charlie and his relationship with nick etc. etc. but i would like to delve into why i think the way alice set up jane spring in s2 is a /great/ gateway into a deeper, nuanced storyline between jane and charlie because, quite honestly - it's clearly long overdue. once again, i'd like to use backstory from the comics to infer what might be happening to jane in the series and how, maybe a bit surprisingly to some - charlie is in some respects a lot more like her than you might think.

please note: this is not an apology, or an excuse to jane's behaviour as a mother to charlie; i just want to give her actions a context and i think, show the room for growth which I think would be a beautiful, very nuanced, storyline between parent and child to take on in charlie's mental health story in s3/4.

(tw for parental abuse, discussion of eating disorder)

one thing that really informs jane spring as a character and as a mother in general is her own mother. we see in the comics that her mother is a. physically abusive and b. does not allow jane to have any criticism against her and uses that as a reason for the abuse.

jane later tells charlie the following on her relationship with her mother, acknowledging the effect that her mother had on her - to an extent. she softens the things that happened to her.

jane knows this of her being a mother: she's overbearing, her mother was too, and she was also hoping to be very different to what her mother was to her.

now what i think is a vital thing to consider is the following: jane grew up in a household where she was physically and emotionally unsafe. she was hit for expressing normal teenage behaviour. it should be okay to sometimes not agree with your parents and pushing back at them. they should provide you with a safe method of communication for doing so but they never taught jane that. as a result, i think it's a very human response of people to try and make sure they deal with things differently when they get older; but that also can result in overcompensating behaviour.

my feeling is that jane is overly focused, i think unconsciously, on keeping in particular charlie safe, and in that sometimes loses sight on making him feel actually (emotionally) safe. because safe means to jane: performing well in school, not doing anything that might be dangerous, but also: keep in line with expected social behaviour. what is the safest thing, jane thinks? that your behaviour is perfect. because if you don't give others any reason to think you're being out of order (in whatever way), you will not get abuse. safe is being perfect, doing everything perfectly. you can and should control your life in such a way that it will be possible for things to be perfect.

and guess who feels that way too?

kids learn a lot more from their parents than they would think (or even like).

one of the most interesting changes from novel to tv series i think, is the change of having jane not being immediately supportive of nick from the get go; as it fits in quite well with jane's character trait of being focused on charlie's safety (and by extension julio's character, but he goes about this differently and quite honestly... can be quite of a wet wipe lol) and exercising control over his behaviour to make him safe in her own eyes. she wants him to be socially presentable ("please change out of your pyjamas to meet guests"), to focus on school work, and for him to listen to her when she says he needs to come home; in a sense i think she wants to be aware of where charlie is at a given time and not too stay out too late, because the night? that might be dangerous.

we have to remember that charlie was severely bullied only a year ago, and julio's constant reminders of charlie in s1 of please calling him when the situation gets out of hand with nick's circle of "friends", indicates to me that his parents were aware of the bullying, maybe being informed by ajayi bc i don't see charlie being able to tell that to his parents himself. so: nick's "sort" (tao mentions his circle as "exactly the sort of people who bullied [charlie]") are in jane's eyes boys to be weary of.

so when charlie tells his parents, jane doesn't totally trust it.

this is worsened when it turns out nick is also going on the paris trip. for charlie, that's not the only reason to on the trip at all, but the way the conversation goes with julio's comment that's the reason why he wants to go, this is where nick gets associated in her mind with charlie as something that she needs to be aware of and perhaps even intervene. to make sure he's safe. she needs to control the situation if it goes wrong.

which she does. almost immediately. when charlie shows behaviour out of the ordinary for him and the only cause she sees is nick; he's the new factor in all of this.

it's like she thinks if she doesn't completely nip this behaviour in the bud in a very hard way, all the bad things imaginable will come immediately. like charlie would flunk school within a few weeks. charlie, who's been a high achiever! julio's response is actually quite appropriate, i personally think: it's not a wonder that you're unfocused bc you have been spending time a lot (which we've seen! on screen!) but also i don't want ban you from seeing him completely, just set some boundaries.

interestingly enough, this is also due to charlie overly focusing his efforts on keeping nick essentially perfectly safe in his coming out as well; unfortunately, in that final scene shown above, he's just realised that he's got no control over nick's coming outs being perfect, as david has shown to be very biphobic and dismissive of nick in a way that neither nick or charlie had any say in or could even prevent from happening. jane has the option of trying to control things because she's his mother and has some authority over his life.

jane disappears in the show after this issue of charlie handing in his course work gets resolved for a while, so it does seem like she very much keeps to her word afterwards.

she comes back in time for some growth. tori rightly mentions that the family dinner is not something that their mum would totally enjoy bc tori has seen the criticism jane has regarding nick. but charlie does know nick, feels emotionally safe with him, especially after their convo in the louvre and nick being open about his dad, so charlie is right in saying nick, as a person not the idea that jane has of him by association, might convince her.

and he does.

nick can be trusted; nick has come out to his neglectful parent, chastised his older brother for being an asshole, mentions he feels happy with his life with charlie and living openly as his boyfriend and apologises to his mother for ruining the dinner (a sign of a well mannered boy!). and when sarah tells jane that this is something that she's never seen nick do and that must be of nick's deep care for charlie, jane thinks..

and comes around (a bit).

unfortunately, her overt focus on charlie's grades slipping being due to nick's influence in his life completely makes her neglect the signs that charlie is not eating well (that's something that is building up so gradually that i don't think she sees it as an option). there are some great metas on here by @ finnicksannie regarding this being one of the biggest reasons why charlie's grades are actually slipping.

all in all, i just want to close by saying this is a deeply traumatised mother parenting a deeply traumatised son and they both need time and therapy for a better understanding of the communication between them.

and i think the end of season 2 sets up a nice storyline about that quite nicely. jane accepts nick in their circle, but her communication with charlie has not been resolved; it's just a little tick towards her needing to trust charlie more. he's got good instincts. she's starting to realise.

this is all not an excuse. it's a set up for a responsibility on jane's part to work to communicate with charlie better. but life is life. and we're humans. sometimes we need to learn to grow.

and in the mean time, in the small moments, maybe with what you would say is the bare minimum, with not agreeing with charlie's self deprecation, jane does show her love of her son.

i don't think it's without reason that this was shown.

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i have not read the novel solitaire / nick & charlie / this winter. feel free to add in comments if there's something in there too! but i do feel the series might incorporate jane's storyline maybe a little bit differently than from in the books; but it sounds like her controlling behaviour is a throughline to it all.

[callmeana2310]

Honestly?! This scene was everything to me.

I already felt very represented by nick, but this scene?

(tw: unresolved daddy issues incoming)

The way he tried everything to meet his dad in Paris. Seeing him for like 4min bc everything else is more important. Him feeling like he isn't enough. Him still being scared of how he would react... "Why doesn't he care?" (this one broke my heart) All this hits home...

But the way he stood up to David? AND HIS DAD? The way he is so happy with charlie, his life, HIMSELF!!! Watching this scenes made me feel so proud! This is incredibly and exactly how parents like his dad should be treated. For the future I do wish to find the strength to do the same, to be as brave as nick.

[normalpeoplethiings]

honestly, nick and his father have such a sad relationship. nick had probably almost always known that his dad never really wanted to be there for him and also that his father always preferred david. my poor boy doesn’t deserve this. no one does.

[behindthesefangirleyes]

Charlie: Hi 🥰

Nick: Hi 🥺

Me: Shut the fuck up

[mara200000]

[what-thisiscrazzzy]

Heartstopper showing representation for those of us with the particular brand of shit dad that likes to claim that family is important while knowing like one thing about you and not actually participating in your life <3

[deliciouswombatshark]

This Ken is a star 🌟

[downahill]

it’s honestly so real to have a deadbeat french dad and literally olivia colman as your mom. many such cases

[come-angels-of-the-lord]

if i had a dime for every bisexual guy with daddy issues named nicholas that i know of, i'd have two, which isn't a lot, but it's weird its happened twice

[starboye]

movies

(fics ive made)

*updated regularly

smut = ★

angst = 🏹

fluff = 🍥

Rafe Cameron-

First Timer★

Dealer!Rafe Cameron★

The Cameron Boys★

A Night to Remember★

Please be Mine★

Satisfaction★

Sleepy Convos★

Risky Call★

Morning Rafey★

Jj Maybank-

Yard Worker!Jj Maybank★

Double Team★

Nate Jacobs-

jealousy, jealousy★🏹

brat★

A Feeling Unknown🍥

My Cum Toy★

Nick Nelson-

Cheater★🏹

Cheater pt2★🏹

Cheater pt3★🏹

Cheater pt4🏹

Charlie Bushnell-

Fair Date★🍥

Vinnie Hacker-

Streamer Head★

Drunk Fun★

Sly Boy★

Birthday Present★

Bryce McKenzie-

Addicted★

Kj Apa-

Model★

Breed Me★

Free Use★

Baby By Me★

Matt Sturniolo-

Beach Day🍥

Morning Horny★

Quickie★

Movie Night Teaser★

My Nerdy Boy★

First Time★

Harry Collett-

Video game Lover★

Charles Leclerc-

Need Love★

Chris Sturniolo-

Gamer🍥

Movie Night Gone Right★

You're Mine★

Overstimulation★

Stream Tease★

David Corenswet-

Daddy's Boy★

Manu Rios-

Work For It★

Harry Styles-

Make Up or Make Out★🍥

Ross Lynch-

Double Trouble★

Dylan Minnette-

Double Trouble★

Shower Time★

Steve Rogers-

First Date★🍥

The Boys-

Table Talk★

Drew Starkey-

Hot Jealousy★

An Award of my Own★

Your Brothers Best Friend★

Nico Greetham-

Sweaty Love★

Noah Beck-

Rough Love★

Chris Hemsworth-

My Boy★

John B-

Double Team★

Prince Henry-

My Good Side🍥

Ryan Reynolds-

Tease★

Brady Hepner-

Wild Side★

My Use★

Sam Golbach-

Newly Weds★🍥

Colby Brock-

Newly Weds★🍥

Tanner Buchanan-

Edged★

Chris Evans-

Lesson Learned★

Ryan Garcia-

Breakfast in Bed★

Ethan Landry-

Ghost 🏹

Eijiro Kirishima-

Gamer Fuel★

Katsuki Bakugo-

Gamer Fuel★

Jacob Elordi-

Free Use★

Jack Harlow-

A Want★

Scott Summers-

Time Fucked★

Stiles Stilinski-

A Dream Cum True★

Richard Madden-

Work Pet★

Steve Harrington-

Gay For You★

Hughie Campbell-

Shy Boy★

Bellamy Blake-

Supply Collectors★

Jensen Ackles-

Hard Worker★

Prince Ben-

New Kid★🍥

Harry Hook-

New Kid★🍥

Rudy Pankow-

My First Time★🍥

Simon "Ghost" Riley-

Bf Headcanons★🍥

Phone Sex★

A Gift★

Captain Price-

Bratty★

Chace Crawford-

Co-Star Fun★

Bill Skarsgard-

Affair★

Dick Grayson-

Wounds★🏹

Robby Keene-

Winner Winner★

Noah Centineo-

Bed Breaker★

Jake Gyllenhaal-

Spiderman Far From Done★

Tom Holland-

Spider Man Far From Done★

Wolverine-

Fucked Senseless★

Hole Used★

Deadpool-

Hole Used★

Joe Goldberg-

My Husband🏹

Lip Gallagher-

New Feeling🍥

Rome Flynn-

My Bitch★

Joe Burrow-

Letting Off Some Steam★

Charles Melton-

Gym Bros★

[aristaeuss]

SOLITAIRE CHARACTERS AS MITSKI SONGS

Tori Spring: Geyser

“Though I'm a geyser feel it bubbling from below // Hear it call, hear it call, hear it call to me, constantly // And hear the harmony only when it's harming me // It's not real, it's not real, it's not real enough // But I will be the one you need the way I can't be without you // I will be the one you need I just can't be without you”

Micheal Holden: I Will

“And all the quiet nights you bear, seal them up with care // No one needs to know they're there, for I will hold them for you // Cause' all I ever wanted is here, all I ever wanted, all I want is always you, it's always you // And we're not out of the tunnel, I bet you thought there's an end // Stay with me, hold my hand”

Charlie Spring: Love me More

“I wish that this would go away, but when I'm done singing this song I will have to find something else to do to keep me here // Something else to keep me // Here's my hand, there's the itch, but I'm not supposed to scratch // I need you to love me more, love me more, love me more // Love enough to drown it out, drown it out, drown me out"

Nick Nelson: I Bet on Losing Dogs

“My baby, my baby, you're my baby, say it to me // Baby, my baby, tell your baby that I'm your baby // I bet on losing dogs, I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place by the ring where I'll be looking in their eyes when they're down // I'll be there on their side, I'm losing by their side”

Becky Allen: Townie

“And I want a love that falls as fast  // As a body from the balcony, and  // I want a kiss like my heart is hitting the ground // I'm holding my breath with a baseball bat // Though I don't know what I'm waiting for // I am not gonna be what my daddy wants me to be”

[msookyspooky]

NSFW Poly!Ghostface Things I've thought of but I'm too busy to write (Someone write these)

TW: Sommnophillia, dubcon themes, bdsm, blood, knifeplay • AFAB and Gender Neutral Reader Ideas

- Stu tying you up and dragging his knife over your body. Cutting your clothes off of you and nicking the skin every so often

- Billy choking you while fucking

- Gagging Stu with your used panties/underwear when he won't shut up...If that doesn't work, sitting on his face does the trick.

- Billy yanking you by the hair and fucking you doggy style infront of a mirror; demanding you look at how desperate of a whore you are

- Stu pulling a full nelson on you with his arms locked together behind your neck and pounding up into you like a wild animal. Every vein and muscle in his arm popping with his teeth clenched as he's fucking you senseless for god knows how long.Incoherent insults being thrown your way by him.

- Billy and Stu each sucking on your tits while laying in bed. Dragging loving, gentle touches along you body for hours until you're begging them

- Stu licking and sucking you while you watch a horror movie and Billy gives you trivia. Get it wrong; Stu stops for awhile. Get it right, he keeps going.

- Stu reaching around and jerking Billy off while he makes you watch but both refuse to touch you.

- Both of them dressed as Ghostface chasing you down in the woods near Stu's house before catching you and fucking you in the dirtiest most degrading way

- Bouncing on both their laps fully clothed just to see who lasts longer before caving or cumming; Billy or Stu...Or You.

- Billy calling you cute with that evil smirk when your getting frustrated at him for teasing you

- Stu unable to keep his hands off you after showing off a revealing outfit at a retail store before he ends up fucking you agaist the changing room stalls wall. He definitely buys you the outfit to wear it home too

- All 3 of you having sex while a horror movie plays especially if there's sex scenes

- Both of them going feral when you show yourself naked with fake corn syrup blood drenched on your body

- Billy forcing you to go slow. His hands digging into your hips to stop them from going so fast when you're on top. He wants to savior every inch of you.

- Stu's long ass dick starting out by slowing sliding all the way in then all the way out just because he likes to see you squirm under him. Forcing you to feel every inch as it fills you up

- Pissing Stu off just so he'll fuck you hard and pissing Billy off just so he'll be mean to you

- Stu fingering you while having you call Billy just to gloat about what he's missing out on

- Sandwiched between them after a hard day and not having to do a single thing as they both rock inside you

- Taking a nap during the summer with barely anything on just to wake up to Stu's face between your legs and you on the verge of cumming

- Billy purposely grinding against you while spooning on the couch.

- Rare occasion of getting Billy into subspace and gentledomming him. Telling him in a coddling voice how good he is for Mommy/Daddy as he whimpers and rutts against you.

- Stu in subspace desperate to please you. Dog collar around his neck while on all fours begging to make you feel good. Practical tears in his eyes after hours of teasing and he's so desperate to be inside you

- Stu acting nonchalant while wearing grey sweatpants. Using his pelvic muscle to make his cock jump while your watching just so he can tease you about what a perv you are for looking

- Billy commenting on things you're into in a vague way in public just to get you flustered

- Them coming home horny and pumped with adrenaline after a kill. Blood on them, outfits still on while one fucks you and you give the other a blowjob

- Buying a new vibrator and them being jealous of it (They're man babies) before you use it on them and they love it.

- Tying Billy up and giving him endless orgasms. Him whimpering and making noises you never heard from him before with sweat and tears on his face and in a daze with how tired he is but desperate for more (Run as soon as you untie him bc you're definitely next as soon as he recovers)

- Pissed off at Stu, offering to tie him up to be kinky just to be clenching around him when he's in you. Even when he cums quickly; you're staying on and fluttering around his cock. Refusing to stop clenching and unclenching your kegal muscles even after he cums and he's desperately bucking and begging you.

- Stu taking candid pictures and videos of you he jerks off to

- Billy having phone sex with you using the Ghostface voice changer

- Being a Ghostface as well while being a brat taking all their kills. Guess who has to have an orgasm for every victim they took from the guys that night?

- Stu and Billy carving their initials in your inner thigh before worshipping you all night long for letting them do it

- They definitely have grazed between your legs with their knives. Not enough to cut but just to excite you and get off on the power they have over you. That if they wanted to, they could.

- Stu wants to fuck you while you wear his sweaters

- Billy gets worked up by smelling your perfume/cologne. Grinding into a pillow in private while smelling your clothes and moaning your name