#deadass i was ranting to myself abt this

[anton-luvr]

First 🇩🇪 rant omg😰 Anyways i‘m so in love w Anton like i have 2 kpop stans as besties and we all started to stan riize at the same time(learning their names in class instead of paying attention lmao) and basically got into them together so i love that for us but like we‘re here having the most random conversations and suddenly i‘ll be like slapping my hand over my mouth and giggling saying thinks like ,,Anton Lee from Riize“ and my friends start laughing abt it calling me cute and stuff but on the other side they‘re not better when their bias gets mentioned hahha (one is Eunseok biased and the other one is Wonbin biased) 😭

AWWW THIS IS SO CUTE 😭

also omg i get what u mean... sometimes i think about anton and i deadass start smiling to myself it's kinda funny GSJDHSHA

anton stans (simps) unite!! 🤞🏻

[hellboundhimbo]

MORE JOJ GIRLS joanna's design isn't creative at all with the exception of her dress. like its deadass just jonathans outfit. REASON FOR THIS BEING a lot of my thoughts on her are less abt her design and more abt what her story could be. strap in fellas its time for an Unhinged JoJo Rant courtesy of tumblr user hellboundhimbo.

now i already touched a bit on the subject here, but boy howdy if she still doesn't live in my head rent free. since writing said post, I've had a brain blast in the form of an epiphany that, what if all those concepts, but she's TRANS. i know, i'm a genius (read also: stupid gay idiot). t4t jonaeri, anyone?

i wanted her design to reflect the journey of coming into her own, and finding her own definition of womanhood. at the beginning of PH, she wears very traditionally victorian clothing. long dresses, corsets, those big ass hats, the whole sha bang. over the course of the story, however, she realizes she doesn't need to conform to societal standards to be "worthy" of the title of woman, so she begins to dress in ways she wants to, or is practical for that specific situation. i wanted to make it a point that while she lets her hair down, she never cuts it or is like "EW EARRINGS BLEH' cuz like. femininity isn't her enemy!! its the patriarchal standards that enforce such a rigid, static form of it onto people!!

when it comes to the trans aspect of her story, I thought long and hard about how to go about it cuz like. i'm trans masc myself, and the last thing i'd want to do is try to infuse transness into a story and have it feel like a redundant, shitty commentary that intrudes on the narrative or smth. i think I've come up with a good idea of where to go with it, though.

i think joanna probably came out sometime in her early teen years, around 13-15, but started questioning around the time she met erina, (haven't come up w a name for him yet, if yall have any ideas feel free to shout em.) who came out much earlier, like 9 or so. just like the idea of joanna being like "omg wow u changed ur gender wow that's so crazy haha doesn't everyone feel that way tho" and erina's like. no???? they don't????

anyway once joanna came out lady joestar was like "ok fine u can trans ur gender BUT you gotta be a lady." which sucks cuz no more rugby but fuck it we ball (or I guess. not. ball.) she struggles a lot with being a poised debutante cuz shes like 6'5 and rich dudes don't really like it when their dance partners could chuck them to the colonies with one arm but fuck them. rest of the story remains mostly unchanged, blah blah blah dio blah blah stone mask blah blah you know the drill ANYWAY speedwagon's first appearance is when we really start making some real impacts on joanna's character, with some definite parallels being drawn between joanna, who was lucky enough to be rich and accepted by her family (for the most part,,,) and speedwagon, who lives in the slums with no family to speak of. by proxy, some parallels to dio as well (she'll get her own ramble when I post her design in 284738374 years), because phantom blood sets up so much for a conversation about classism that we see so little of :( love phantom blood tho dgmw

also you can bet your sweet ass that hamon is becoming a metaphor for queer liberation.

don't wanna divulge too much about it cuz like I am hoping to write something about this at some point but,,, big Thoughts here trust me bro.

to address the elephant in the room, how does joanna got honkers if there was no hormone therapy in victorian times? hamon doubles as hrt. if araki's allowed to pull new hamon capabilities out of his ass every 5 seconds, so am I. it works for the metaphor too but like that's less funny.

[acaiasahi]

WOOHOOO I FINISHED MY EXAMS !!!!!

other than that, i just found out that ppl were making more rumours abt me and this senior i went to camp w 😭 nah cuz why is there so many rumours of me dawgg 💀 and who's the one starting them 🤨

anyways, how r u?? <33

- 🌱

yayyy congrats!!! tell me how they went when u get results back!!! <333

it's gotta b someone who dislikes u or smth bc 1) there's nthn wrong w dating lots of ppl at ur age!!! (even if u aren't dating), ur young n shiii, no reason to be tied down n if i wanna b, nthn wrong w that either!!! do what u want, this person doesn't have a life... n also doesn't slay as hard as u, obviously!!! 😭

cw: rant, racist/toxic/annoying-ass coworker 😭

doing okay, my coworker (she/her) at my boba spot is fr putting me in a weird position bc she js got broken up w their partner (they/them), n ngl, my coworker's crazy af like she needa go to therapy frfr. she told me that one time, she js started crying randomly and hid in her car while hanging out w her s/o n when her s/o came out to check on her, she locked them out even tho she said she wanted their company??? and another situation, she got upset over the amt of gifts she got for her anniversary... n her s/o still gave a thoughtful gift bc it was smth that he liked n assumed she would like too n she was being a total bitch abt it 😭 n this one time, she started crying while her partner was DEPRESSED and made it abt herself like BOIII 😭😭😭

she also keeps asking me if we're friends to the point where we can hang outside of work n... no, not to b mean but i don't view her as a friend, js a coworker that's easy to talk to. she trauma dumps on me and only talks abt autism or neurodiverse topics n makes self deprecating jokes that yas r funny at times but not all the time. she wants constant reassurance from me, it gets tiring. one day, we were talking abt kpop n i told her that i don't rly like skz music one way or the other, i could care less if someone else did but i js don't like their music n i think that's valid/don't need to explain myself but anyway, she literally said "how do u not like skz music but i like nct's??? their music is literally shit, basically bg noise" n i was so upset n take aback bc i didn't even shit on skz's music, i js said i didn't like it, didn't even say "hate" lime what??? 😭😭 n she constantly shits on bts' newer music that's obviously targeted towards international folks like fuck off AND she's racist too bc this one older filipina lady came in and it was obvi from the get that english was not her first language n so i had to slowly speak her thru the menu, the milk options we have, etc. and by the time we made the drink, wished her a good day, and she left, my coworker literally was like "omfg could she speak any fucking slower" n i was like "well, be open minded bc eng is not her first language, obvi." n my coworker fr said "well eng isn't my first language n i don't suck 😐" GIRL BFFRRRRRKFDISN OMG N THIS ONE TIME I HEARD HER HELPING A CUSTOMERS IN SPANISH N I WAS LIKE "oooh when did u learn spanish," n she deadass said "my s/o's mexican, i have to learn it" AND HER PAETNER DOESNT EVEN SPEAK SPANIS H TO HERRENEIDNSKWMEK SHES JUST A BASKET OF RACIST OMFG

ANYWAYS SORRY FOR THE RANT BUT TY IF U MADE OT THIS FAR 😭😭😭😭

[fatmilkers]

god let me rant abt work today for a sec

1. i thought i was on shift for 8am today for focused prep training (im a night manager) but they just made me fry chips which i already knew how to do 💀 i closed the night before & got exactly 45 minutes of sleep last night so i was Bent a bit…. then this other kid came in to help fry chips and then he “threw up” (he just wanted to go home 🙄) and so we had to throw away all of the chips he came into contact with so i basically had to completely start over like 2 hours of work i was so mad bro

2. everyone was 1 and a half hours behind on prep and then OUR FUCKING FOOD SAFETY INSPECTOR SHOWED UP!!!! so we had to STOP EVERYTHING for like 2 hours so we had like no food ready .

3. i was scheduled 8-11:30 i left at 7 pm bro . bc the inspection had us sooooo behind n we couldnt leave until everything was done (including rewashing Every Single Dishware bc of the inspection & washing what was actually dirtied)

4. HR is involved in like 2 separate big cases in our restaurant rn and its so chaotic like 6 ppl can be fired any day now for some sick shit & theyre all trying to take everyone else down with them by making shit up together

5. i knew the morning crew was talking shit on me (even tho ive deadass never met them) but now ive confirmed theyve been calling me maricón and other shit via my work bestie…. when i hear it myself im going to start HR case #3 idc

[silksatan]

ive been going through my bf's phone every now and then (i know i know im not proud of it) bc he talks w my best friend about me a lot, specifically abt my mental state

hugelarge rant incoming, readmore doesnt work on mobile so sorry but ur gonna have to scroll thru<3

tell me why they are deadass talking abt sending me to a facility if i get worse. (this is not ed related btw its alcohol abuse and depression) like lol girl 1) you have no right to do that 2) why the fuck is this the first i hear of you being concerned :)))) she literally said "sometimes i feel bad abt not doing enough. like i guess i could play [my hyperfixation game] with him but i just dont feel like it" GIRL LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOO. doing something u dont feel like > me feeling included and cared for. like you know what yes u should feel bad bc she hangs out w my bf EVERY DAY on discord, without fail, but when im like oh want to play? shes like uhm sure just a sec and then doesnt show up until 3hrs later. like 🙂 ok

they talk abt me killing myself like it would be a huge inconvenience but also shrug their shoulders abt doing ANYTHING. they play hot potato w who should voice their concern (spoiler: nobody ever does) and state that well! we cant do anything other than listen when he decides to talk about it! and i didnt mind this inaction bc i thought they were unaware of how shitty im doing, but it turns out they know VERY well, they just dont give enough of a shit to bother doing anything about it. i did always know im more trouble than im worth🤭

whenever i do hang out w them while they play their own game they ignore me, nobody ever takes the initiative to do anything w me, if god forbid she's doing something w me and my bf comes online she immediately fucks off to hang out w him instead.

sick and fucking tired of it all. im going to start starving myself effective immediately & after i have my doctors appointment on monday i am doing some disgusting fucking cutting🤪

[looonnamoon]

Our Forever

Bakugou x reader

Angst - fluff

A/N: took all inspiration from listening to Olivia Rodrigo's, 'Drivers Licence' at 2:30 in the morning.

Hope you enjoy my sweets!♥︎

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It was a quiet night as the car drove by in a moderate pace, houses blurry on all sides as he drove on and on. The turns and twists of this road felt so familiar, yet strange at the same time. A soft playlist sung through the emptiness of the car, only carting through Bakugous ears.

It was odd, really. He shouldn't be up at this time but here he is, insomniac mind keeping him up at 2:25 in the morning and making more turns, only glancing at the street sign, indicating where he was going to. He only realizes when he pulls up to the same house.

But the different thing was, that you two had broken up. A familiar song began to play through his radio speakers as he begins to adjust himself.

Dear God, why this song?

But he kept the tears at bay as he instinctively looked up to your bedroom window, still the same. His heart pounded against his ribs in anticipation, briefly forgetting the last interaction that you two had. The light was on, so you were awake but why were you not there? Why weren't you there?

'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street.

His grip on the steering wheel tightened as the vrring of the engine led him down memory lane, traveling through happy memories and similar situations to this one. Where you would look out the window, smiling so widely at him, then sprinting downstairs and bolting at the door to see him, only slipping that one time in the winter. And you would come up to his car and kiss him everytime.

'Cause you said forever, now I drive alone past your street.

You didn't actually say that, but to him it felt like you did. And it was true too. He did say forever, he really did. He said forever when he kissed you for the first time, when he put his jacket on you when you were cold, when you took care of him whenever he was hurt. He did say forever.

He did, he really did... didn't he?

Didn't he say forever to you everytime he looked at you like the moon, that would light the path way through the abyss of his wretched mind, the only thing that would warm his steady, cold heart, his only flower, his love? Didn't he...?

He looked up at the window again, hoping to see his forever again.

And you did too.

You looked down at the car, it was the same car that you would get excited over everytime it came around. You chewed your lip as your mind berated you for looking again. But you couldn't deny this simple, yet brutal fact. You couldn't deny the heartache that you felt everytime you would walk past him, going to familiar places or feeling familiar things without him. You couldn't deny the raging love you still have for him. He was your sun that would lead you through the coldness of the night, the ground that you would steady yourself on, and the man that you called your forever. He was your forever.

You examined his face as he smiled. It wasn't the usual smirk he would give when you would come up to the window. No, it was a more gentle one, an admirable one as he finally saw his forever. And you couldn't help but smile too as the tears ran down your face and ignored your logical minds words as you quietly ran down the stairs and out the door, only slipping that one time in the winter.

The only difference was now was that he came out of the car too, unable to stay in his seat for long and embracing eachother again. Finally, the familiar angst went away as you hugged, trying to snuggle deep into eachother, wanting to mold together more and more. It felt right, doing this.

The both of you began to mutter strings of love and anguish, pleading with eachother to never leave again, to stay by their sides as you professed your love under the moonlight again.

And so, Bakugou drove to the park, running towards the little empty field surrounded by the wood that only you two knew, and under the moonlight, you two slept peacefully, knowing that the other half was with you again, forever. ♡

[not-active-strangepurson]

Tbh i think the world would be a nicer place if people minded their own damn business

[starfoxrry]

im having sad boy hours

[emerald-imperial]

turns out horseback riding is a LOT more fun when you don't have a panic attack every time you ride! it's good to be back

[poppy-metal]

Pretty sure I got ditched or forgot about by my friends who went to a party without me that I got READY FOR 🤨 this is like the third time this has happened with two different groups of people in college. Idk what it is about me that keeps repelling these people but I deadass am about to cry rn. On the bright side I know Eren would cuddle me (after the party) probably drunk off his ass and tell me not to worry not to be sad and he'll take me next time and make sure I have the best time ever. After all, he doesn't want to see such a pretty girl cry.

Not that im describing myself as pretty but I think it's something he'd say to someone even if he didn't think so. Ah, this is just a shitty night tbh but I went out two nights in a row so maybe it's a sign.

m sorry your friends are being shitty to u :(((( i can promise its genuinely not u. ppl are just...not thoughtful sometimes. it sucks big time.

but ur right !! erens the kind of guy to smother you w his comfort. the kind of guy to ask if you wanna make a late night run to sonic or target to just fuck arnd and get out of your head. but he's also a great cuddler n will ABSOLUTELY listen to you rant/vent abt being upset. LMAO and he's unabashedly on your side, no matter what. none of that "well maybe..." shit he's all "bro, fuck them. that's such a cunt move" he gets mad on your behalf like that, but he also doesn't want you to dwell, so he holds you close. he's already planning on spending all of the next day with you.

[fbfh]

draco malfoy x gryffindor reader pt 1

As with all steamy/nsfw works, all characters are aged up to 18+

Any parts that take place while still in/are implied to be at school at hogwarts are in 7th year at age 18

Ik that probs doesn’t line up with the timeline but guess what bud

It’s fanfiction

I can make everyone sea monkeys if I want to and it’s still valid

So don’t worry about it

Cause I’m not

Also full disclosure this is going to be very self indulgent bc I found out Draco’s a gemini are we surprised

And since I’m a leo I’ve been hella jeff obsessed with the chemistry and dynamic of gemini x leo pairings so er ah

Reader’s a leo w they them pronouns but probs gonna at least somewhat femme/lollipop since like

I’m imagining myself

Anyway let’s get into it before I ramble more lmao

‘,:)

Draco Malfoy is a motherfucking bottom and you can pry that from my warm crispy crunchy deep fried fingers

He acts like a top

Sure

But it’s cause he’s a bratty bottom that runs on some kind of parsnip flavored magical energy drink and moderate amounts of concentrated attention

And the energy he gets from you is very concentrated to him

You laugh at one of his jokes and he’s good for like a day

You pet his hair while talking to him and he’s still thinking about it a week later

He’s somewhat low maintenance

Like a love cactus

Like a sexy fashion cactus

And it’s like a reasonable relationship for most people

But if you give him more attention and praise

You will absolutely have a fastburn enemies to lovers arguing that turns immediately into hooking up energy

Which is honestly preferable if you ask me

It’s way more fun

He doesn’t want to admit it to people 

But it really was a love at first sight situation type deal

He saw you and was immediately enamored 

Then you lock eyes

But you don’t just lock eyes

He expects you to be intimidated or defensive since your houses have such a rivalry

But you just look right at him

Through him

You analize him, completely non judgemental and unafraid

He suddenly understands gryffindor bravery as more than an abstract concept

He’s looking at it

He could be frozen in that moment in time forever, completely okay with it

He doesn’t think he can ask for anything more than this

Because he just knows somehow 

That you’re looking at him

Not Malfoy, that the whole school hates

Not Draco, that’s struggling not to bow under the increasing pressure from his father

But just him

Pure and unconditioned

And then

Your eyes skim up and down his frame

They lock with his again

And

You smile at him

It’s more of a smirk, but who’s counting

He knows right then and there that he’s completely and thoroughly wrapped around your finger, even though it will take a  l o t  for him to admit it

It will take an equal  l o t  for you to admit how affected you are by the way he looks at you after you smile at him

You  know there can be some pretty intense looks 

But honest to god

This doesn’t even take the cake, it takes the whole goddamn bakery

You both do admit to these eventually though

This leads to the first part of your relationship

Where you incessantly get under each other’s skin

Arguing over nothing

Riling each other up, sexual tension skyrocketing

It’s absolutely one of those cases where you start hooking up in secret before you even like

Hold hands in public

Yk

You know that meme of the two people kissing and someone’s high fiving one of them

When draco finally kisses you in front of everyone blaze deadass high fives him

They recreate the meme

If you’re from the muggle world you’ve probably recreated that one scene from the princess diaries 2 at least once

I high key want to write a one shot abt that now

Stay tuned lmao

Part two really do be looking safe doe coming soon

Anyway asks are open,,, I’m on semi hiatus but you’re more than welcome to shoot me a request or say hi or send me a message if u wanna be mutuals lmao

My head is officially empty of brain juice so I gotta refill it but like

I need instant gratification and validation from strangers on the internet????? So this part is going up now lmao

Just got diagnosed

But er ah yeah ig i’m writing for harry potter too now??? 

More ranting in the tags bc otherwise we’ll both be here all night

Edit: rip to the four paragraphs of lost tags where I talked about Wallace and gromet

[tetsvhoe]

OMG HOT AHHH do they hurt?? you should get rest babes anyways how are ya??

BABIEEE THEY HURT LIKE A MF IT FELT LIKE I WAS STABBED THRU THE SOUL BUT AFTER THAT IT WAS FINE IT WAS SORE FOR LIKE A FEW HOURS BUT I SLEEP ON THEM NOW IM BUILT DIFFERENT

personal rant ahead so we went to the shop ryt and there was a guy at the counter who told us to wait for the piercer then we sat down. i was with my two bsfs, a girl nd a boy. the girl said she knows the guy from her school. yada yada the piercer arrived nd she was very cool and talkative and nice, but my guy bsf didn’t know i was abt to pierce my tiddies so when she arrived i was like "go outside for a bit" nd he was like 🤨🤨 and ms. piercer said "no he can stay it's fine" so he moved seats and ms. piercer was like "so what do u want to have pierced" i signaled to my boobies and she shrieked "UR TIDDIES" nd we were all laughing ryt bc he got flustered whatever

we went to the back to have them done and my guy bsf and the guy from the counter were left there. the guy approached my friend and he was like "is that (my girl bsfs name), are those two your friends" so he was basically trying to gauge if he was my bf or not and my friend was like yeah

MAN WHEN I WENT OUT THE GUY WAS DEADASS STARING AT MY TITS HE WAS SUCH A CREEP HE WAS LIKE "how's ur piercing, how was it" then he asked for my name and i was shocked so i looked at my guy friend like 🤨 nd he continued to flirt w me while my bestie was getting her navel piercing done then he sat next to me and was asking for my soc med and MS. PIERCER GOT SO MAD AND TOLD HIM OFF BC I CANNOT STAND FOR MYSELF WHEN I AM PUT IN THAT POSITION LMAO

in conclusion he took interest in me after knowing i was getting my tits pierced, he made sure my friend wasn't my bf before talking to me, he was subtly told off by ms. piercer to leave me alone but he genuinely did not listen all those times

that's all LMAO SORRY FOR RANTING BUT HOW ARE U

[matttheratking]

matt why is this your ask box. why is it titled so.

anyways here’s my work troubles. just realized im treating your ask box like a rant box so if u dont wanna read it i dont mind

i fixed a printing problem for an old lady at work today. shes under so much stress shes gonna quit and i deadass cannot see my job there being doable without her bc im sure theyre gonna put her workload on me.

anyways the computer that has files that need printed is like, running windows xp. not even kidding. it has a program that gets readings from equipment and they dont have it hooked to the internet. old printer out, new printer in. can’t print from computer. stressin. anyways i walk her through getting the file on a thumb drive and printing it from the other computer in the office. anyways it felt nice and upper management can suck my balls if they push her to quit. shes a rlly nice lady and nothing would be wrong if my boss wasnt out with corona for the foreseeable near future >:^(

and like i feel so bad bc im 89% sure shes undiagnosed asd and they’re doing some awful unaccommodating things rn to her and i wanna punch my boss’s boss in his stupid ugly old face. because i cant even say anything. makes me wanna cry just a bit bc like shes clearly autistic and being autistic myself if they were doing that shit to me id be in tears too man. im just so angry rn.

also like??? been realizing just how fucking autistic i am and seeing her reminds me of both my mother and me and ohhhh damn id fucking deadass have a meltdown. and also just fuck capitalism i just want to study chemistry and not rlly make a whole lot of profit off of it just like. learn abt chemicals and stuff. theory. its interesting to me and legit the only reason i stopped pursuing it is bc my mom girlboss gatekept me out of chem 2 and made me take physics instead. anyways i bought more chemistry books yesterday and im gonna take some classes next semester!

I'm so glad you're gonna take classes and study your passion. I'm real sorry about your coworker and job, I'm in a real shithole of a job too!!!!!

And I will be real I do not remember what my ask box title is lmao

[goo-goopants]

ok lil vent/rant so u can skip if u want

so like. the idea of sex is like fascinating i guess like bc everyone seems to do it, to enjoy, its play plastered everywhere. im going to be 16 in abt. 2 months and i genuinely have 0 like NO sex drive like i have absolutely no desire for anything like yes things can be sexy, things can be hot but like. im not like h*rny abt it fbdkfn like idk if its bc thats just how i am or if its bc like ive been on an SSRI since i was 12 and now my brains fucked and i already have hormone issues but like man idk.

sex is fascinating but the actual act itself being like. real is so UGHEHRJ to me like wtf thats gross. like i dont care if other ppl partake like i’ll deadass ask friends abt it, but the idea of myself like being sexually active makes me sick to my stomach. man idek wtf. also like yes i kno im baby but still idk everyone my age is fuckin

end vent/rant <3 idk how to do like that more below thing on my phone

[thorsthot]

I was the one who asked for a free reading when I didn't want to pay for one. I just wanted to say sorry. I wasn't trying to be rude. I know that is was. Again Sorry.

if this is the person i was talking about,,,, imma rant cuz i’m lowkey still a lil pissed for some reason.

you were deadass like “yeah i wanna know abt ur readings, ive been doing this myself and not to be rude or disrespectful but i wanna know how much detail you’re giving”

it was the “yeah i’ll look at the prices and tell you which i want” and then a MONTH later when i said i’m doing free readings “yeah meant to tell you i don’t think it’s be a good idea for me to spend money on this. but you could give me a free reading” for me babe

which was why i didn’t give you a reading cause the fuck ??? why would you even dm me in the first place when i was clearly doing paid readings ?

tarot readings take time and ENERGY — you said you read, you should KNOW that,, occasionally (about every month or two) i give out free readings cause it’s something i love to do. if you tell me you’re gonna look at the prices to pay for a reading - then you’re gonna look at the prices (that are clearly in my bio w the rest of the info) — do NOT waste my time and act like you’re gonna pay then expect a free reading.

this is why i only do free card pulls cause i’m not gonna get my time wasted nor be taken advantage of as a tarot reader, you got the game fucked up — and you should KNOW THAT - you said you read tarot too so ????

i don’t tolerate the bullshit. but anyways, i will say, that this is in the past now. it is what it is.

[EDIT]: anyways, lemme plug my tarot readings and other paid services - i gotta pay for college

[yellowshibe]

rant abt dysphoria etc

i wore a "revealing" shirt today (a camisole lol) and my chest is very visible and i've noticed a high degree in difference of how people are treating me. both from an instensely sexualizsd standpoint - men staring, our uber driver especially, people focusing on my cleavage first even if it's a second and they snap back to my face...it's wild how obvious it is seeing people see that first before me. and my chest isn't that large? it's uncomfortable of course but it's more uncomfortable how other afabs are treating me. like idk maybe subconsciously they're like, no longer having to question what box they put me in? my technician taking my blood was very open and joking and even vulnerable w me. the front desk person was much more...human with me after scanning my chest. like wtf? i can't help but wonder if they're like, "oh they're a woman, that makes me feel"....safer? i don't even know what to guess. it's uncomfortable being seen as a woman in a sexual context obviously i'm intensely uncomfortable and dysphoric but...having women/afabs around me be like the fucking alien toys in toy story deadass like "one of ussss..." is so creepy and weird and makes me feel like shit fr. i just don't want people putting me into This fucking box. i usually wear very large baggy shirts that only allude to my chests existence but seeing people see it and be like "oh. woman" even people i'm out to is fucking wack! this is the time i want top surgery and t to just further myself from WOMAN TM but i can't and i ... oof i hate this. i'm not One Of You. i'm Me. what the fuck