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sukirichi · 3 years

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[ BROKEN RECORDS ; asks ]

💌 — love letter from @kyriaan

from track 007.

Okay okay im still kinda meh'ish' but i really wanted to answer you so 😭 ill try to compile both my answer to your answer on my love letter and my hyped review on track 7 <3 so yeah another long ass rant from me 😩💕Suki... Suki pls I totally forgot Tsumu had a crush on us Suki... And then poor Tsumu ir there sulking cause he still likes u- JFBFBDVDVSJCHDHSIA omfg i wanted so much to hug him my baby I like him so much 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and he was trying so hard to behave while just sitting there sad fhfhfvbbshsjfhbdjaofhffhsoshd TSUMU YOU'RE STILL IN MY TOP 3 BABY 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂

And then you throw the whole dancing scene with suna and I dont know whos on my top 3 anymore 🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙂🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃 SUKIIIIIIII THAT SCENE ALONE GJGJBFBSJCNFNKSOSNF OMFG IM FALLING SO HARD FOR SUNA I THINK? I think my top 3 had 4 dudes in it cause 3rd place has Suna and Atsumu tied?? Hfhfbfbfhdhsja I CANT PICK?? BUT BUT I WAS FEELING STUPIDLY DOWN WHEN READING THAT AND THAT SCENE ALONE MADE ME FEEL SO SOFT IT WAS SO CUTE AND OMG IF SUNA DID THAT TO ME I WOULD DROP ON MY KNEES AND ASK HIM TO MARRY ME CAUSE OMFGGGFFFF DUDE EVEN WENT AHEAD AND SAID THAT WHOLE 'HES GOING TO BE ONE LUCKY GUY'

Oh shit im crying again that scene lets me emotional 😭😭😭😭 someone get me a sunrin irl pls

Anyways the way that suna knows y/n is just.... FUCKING END UP TOGETHER ALREADY FOR THE LOVE OF GOD JUST JBVSHSJBEHSISJ

Also how powerful are we?? HOW FUCKING POWERFUL ARE WE TO SCORE SUNA KITA AND TSUMU?? ARE YOU GONNA TELL. ME IF OIKAWA MOFO TOORU APPEARED HE WOULD ALSO BE ON HIS KNEES FOR US?? (okay no wait... No nooo i would legit drop anyones ass for tooru hes that powerful for me like sorry suna was fun but TOORU)

Yo nah but the whole Kita sex scene- let me breath bestie LET ME BREATH CAUSE I WAS HOT BUT AT SAME TIME I WAS FEELING GUILTY 😂😂😂😂 ESPECIALLY WHEN HE WAS FEELING DISAPPOINTED NEXT DAY LIKE KITA PLS BABY WHAT WERE YOU EXPECTING?? 😬😬😬😬 But at same time his 'ill fuck the thought of him out of you tonight' I ALMOST MOANED YASSSSS TELL ME DADDY HOLY SHITTTTT

👀👀👀👀 Still not a kita simp ✌️✌️🤏✌️

Okay Kita deserves the best tho I mean okay he went there as a y/n mom's plan but he did ended up helping alot... Especially cause he knows no matter what y/n heart will always be suna's and pls give Kita the best ending possible cause he deserves someone who will trully love him and show him the world cause mah boy deserves it

*breaths in breaths out* i hated this scene- not in a bad way but shit i hate rejections... To the point im kinda afraid of confessing now cause i despise the feeling of being rejected... The best i can descrive it it like this coldness in your chest that descends your whole body and then you feel frozen in place.. Thats how it feels for me I hate it I absolutely despise it- its also the feeling i have when in a really bad situation and ugh...

The suna part made. Me feel this no matter how many times i reread it the feeling doesnt lessen it keeps being there cause (okay you probably are tired already of me saying this but) Suki I feel like I cant put it in words how much of a fucking good of a writer you are. Ill go ahead and say you are by far my favorite writer the fact i always feel so engaged and the fact i always feel like im there its just- it blows my mind.

I felt like suna was personally rejecting me and i hated it- i swear the moment he said prove it I almost screamed HOW? My brain had to take a moment to just slap me and say: 'kya you reading this is not happening chill-' cause i was already sobbing uncontrollably... I even whimpered the dont leave me 😬 my sadass went to bed feeling so sad thanks to suna... Man i wanted so much to hug him and i swear i would give him as much love as he gave y/n cause well i kin suna alot in this series cause im like that im a giver i treat others the way i would like to be treated (reason why ive been down lately ✌️) and i cant blame suna for finally setting boundaries- his call tho 'do i not stand a chance with you anymore y/n? Are you really not capable of falling in love with me?".... Oh suna... We are in love with you.. We always were we're just fucking stupid 😩

Also mari pls go jump off a cliff <3 youre in need dear cause sleeping with other man just to separate suna and y/n <3 i want so much to punch her 🙂🙃

Now for the love letter part (im so sorry for this being so long ✌️)

You said that if we asked suna he woukd say that he genuinely loved mari okay... Ill go ahead and say yes he liked mari he even learned how to love her and he genuinely cared for her BUT and heres where my personal view comes in so maybe ill be biased here still for me that was just a he loves her as in he cares you also love your friends and care for them but he didnt love her- and by this I mean- he could never be fully committed for her. Yes he loved her and he felt happy with her but like track 7 proved everything he would do in the back of his mind was y/n he deeply wished Mari was her and for that he just loved Mari cause he learned how to care about her- but he never forgot who he trully was in love it. Also the happiness he experienced with Mari was pretty much the one I experienced the bliss of having someone there and that bliss also made suna turn a blind eye to all the red flags from Mari cause to him all the jealousy meant she cared and thats toxic but suna was so desperate for some sort of 'she cares' that even all the possessiveness was bliss for him... And that makes my heart clench for suna...

'suna had to put an effort for the relationship' and saddly i feel like mari didnt... Mari didnt care mari was there because she was a fangirl of suna and got lucky, the way she just discarded him so effortlessly that proved-screamed how much she loved him- she didnt. She was just possessive over him she liked the whole 'hes mine' dynamic and suna was the perfect boyfriend cause he was giving her the world... What he wanted someone to do for him.

Also yeah suna and y/n might have been spurred from them being fuck buddies but well love doesnt really have an agenda- they just clicked, understood each other and had chemistry yeah they had tons and tons of sex but feelings started not because of sex but thanks to their deep connection... Also that dsncing scene in track 7 that alone spoke for their whole relationship- that alone is enough to defend their feelings for each other- yes it might jave started just as fuck buddies but ended up in them loving each other deeply and that is enough love after all doesnt need a perfect start. It can start out of the most stupid ways.

You said life with excitement and fun wouldn't be permanent or real.. Honestly i think it could be.. Cause i mean when you love someone that deeply your life always feels exciting even with the littlest things and that the purest kind of love. Even just going for a walk at the beach would be fun for them or even staying up watching movies i believe suna and y/n would always find a way to make their lofe exciting without much effort.

Also it kinda makes me. Sad when i see some anon saying that y/n and suna relationship are toxic? It makes me. Confused maybe because I was in such extremely toxic one (girl i sweat if you search for toxic relationship my ex's face will be there as an example 🙄) that Mari to me screams toxic! Possessive, manipulative, jealous and a few more if I think closely about it while with y/n and suna they are just two idiots that are hurting each other cause they're just that: idiots one that is afraid to get hurt and the other that keeps hoping- dont get me wrong what they're doing is not healthy but i dont find it toxic honestly

Sorry for the extreme long rant 8D I tried to keep it short but you always make me so hyped to talk about your works 😩

Hfbfbfhfhfieia

[ from saeren ]

NAHHH CUZ I LOVE TSUMU SO MUCH HERE HE WAS SO PRECIOUS. I didn’t write too much about them in college but Atsumu was so cute when he crushed on YN. he was always sending her memes and cute texts like “have you eaten” “good morning” and she’d feel so awkward because she doesn’t know how to let him down easy without hurting him. either way tsumu would feel hurt. AND YES PLS HE WAS SO SAD I MEAN, HIS CRUSH AND HIS BEST FRIEND NEARLY HAD SEX RIGHT IN FRONT OF THEM SO THAT’S GOING TO HURT

SUNA AND ATSUMU TIED?? tbh I loved that dancing scene bcos suna is one of my faves and I really wanna do that with him hehehhehe. NAHHH PLEASE SAME IF SUNA DANCED WITH ME AND MADE A WEDDING PLAYLIST I’D BE LIKE boy what’re u waiting for let’s get married now !! n yes he said whoever YN will choose in the future will be one lucky guy IM SOBBING RN

naur cuz. there’s something about dating your best friend. I’m not saying a boyfriend wouldn’t know you as well but there’s something different when you’re best friends first. they could literally share eye contact and have a long ass conversation just from that. their connection is different.

HAJKALA AS FOR THE POWER, BR! YN IS A VERY CHARISMATIC AND FRIENDLY PERSON !! she’s like one of those people you meet that not only are they attractive as hell, but they’re also super approachable and down to earth. that’s why she’s so popular + she’s flirty and can make a stranger feel welcome or comfortable in the first meeting. SGSHJAK I WAS ACTUALLY PLANNING TO ADD OIKAWA HERE BUT I WANNA MAKE IT MORE INARIZAKI CENTRED

the seggs scene with kita SOBSSSS he’s such a soft dom IDC he knows where the clit is, he knows how to hit it. he’s a “your pleasure first before mine” type of guy. kita is perfect, PERIODT. HE GIVES DADDY VIBES HUH AHSKAA HE’S SO SWEET YET SEXY IM IN LOVE WITH HIM ISTG IF SUNA WASN’T OUR BEST FRIEND THEN I’D RUN FOR KITA ALL THE TIME. and I agree, kita deserves the best !! and don’t worry, I actually plan on giving kita the best ending, I promise you he’ll be fine (slight spoiler there)

YESSSSS OMG I’VE BEEN REJECTED BEFORE AND THAT’S EXACTLY HOW I FELT, MY BODY WAS SO COLD AND I WAS SO CONFUSED LIKE IT MAKES YOU THINK. am I not good enough, did I do something wrong, do you not wanna give me a chance or try it out but ofc I’d never say that out loud. AND KYAAA AAAH IM YOUR FAVORITE WRITER??? NO CUZ YOU’RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY. I remember ur asks way back reckless era and you used to tell me that my writing made you picture the scenes easily and you felt you were there in that moment and I’m just so grateful thank you so much <33

NO BCOS WHEN SUNA SAID “prove it” I was like. this is it. that’s his hot boy shit moment. man’s has had enough of being thrown from one toxic relationship to another and he also deserves his good moments yknow. and you kin suna here?? BESTIE IM SORRY TO HEAR THAT, SUNA’S BEEN THROUGH A LOT HERE AHSJAKA. that’s true about suna tho !! he’s definitely affectionate + a giver. he’s happy being the one who gives most of the time but he’s a human as well, ofc he’d want to receive the same amount of love back. ALSO HIS PHONE CALLLLLL ugh tbh that part was the one that made me the saddest bcos he’s just. he wants to know if there’s really no more chance. all this time he never gave up. but he’s also tired so if yn says ‘no more’ then he’ll give up. its his way of respecting himself too ahsjaka

YOOOOO I AGREE WITH THAT. he cares for mari as a person but not 100% as a lover. but ofc he’s still thankful for how happy she made him because she was there at his worst. and that’s true, deep down suna still wishes that it was YN who’s right beside him. he will always ALWAYS want her back. he learned how to love mari in a way that was more out of mutual care but not in the way he loves YN. no that’s reserved only for YN – she will remain no 1 in his heart. AND YESSSSS the reason why suna overlooked the red flags was bcos to him, its something that was supposed to be “normal” like no perfect partner existed. he thought mari’s attitude of pushing YN away was normal, and its normal to want your partner’s best friend keep some distance but not to the point of mari’s place where she literally wants the two of them to cut each other out of their lives.

and aww I’m so happy that you realized how I wanted to portray suna and yn’s relationship. they’re….like the definition of youth in its freest form. they were fucking around and doing stupid things, but they had a connection. they had something deeper than just sexual intimacy. even if they never dated or even if YN never proposed the idea of it, they would’ve actually been still great friends. and oooh I actually don’t remember saying life with excitement and fun wouldn’t be real HAHAHAHA so I can’t comment further on that. but I think when I ‘said’ those I probably meant that it’s not always going to be all rainbows and unicorns in a relationship. there’s no such thing as a relationship that’s always happy and sweet 24/7, but ofc it can be sweet and it can be pure even with the little things <33 they just need to work on it.

hmmm tbhhhh… suna and yn are toxic in a way that they refuse to let each other go when they clearly can’t meet halfway. toxic doesn’t have to be limited in just being mari-like in which they are possessive or manipulative, because then if we’d drive deeper into yn’s personality, then she’d be stringing suna all along and that’s unfair of her. she knows suna wants more and yet she remained being friends with him, which totally isn’t a bad thing, but it’s because she keeps flirting with him and is so romantically comfortable with him that she doesn’t realize it’s hurting suna because he’ll give double meanings to that. their relationship is ‘toxic’ because they’re not entirely good for each other, they’re not that ready to be with one another yet and neither is the world letting them be in peace, so forcing their relationship to a point they’re hurting another is the toxic part.

[ from @kyriaan ]

Ah also not me feeling all proud and mushy cause my analysis made you mind blown fjfbdnsjdkpa 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 I guess its also because i see this story as a really big mirror of my own toxic relationship sonits extremely easy for me to get it... And oh boy the way i kin suna here

But dhdhfjdospdhfbsoa 🥺🥺🥺🥺 i feel happy now *huggles*

[ from saeren ]

and aah yes ofc, I’m really happy whenever someone can see the underlying details I scatter throughout the story !! yeah omg same hahahaha broken records is also half inspired by the toxic people I’ve met. I kin kita here tho and I’m so glad you’re happier now !!

#asks with naoya's trophy wife #series ( broken records )#tw: toxic

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draftno9000 · 5 years

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Lady Gaga’s Enigma: Inside the outside.

"Music is essentialy twelve notes between any octave; all any artist can offer the world is how they see those twelve notes.."

It's an understatement to say that Las Vegas is one of the most important cities for the music industry and entertainment, to the visitors it offers endless sources of multiple activities that take the daily routine and stressful daily life pressure away and bring lights, fun and even gambling to the table. But in this case, the city specially takes music performances and concerts to another level. For years, the streets of this city in Nevada kept in their hearts the talents of enormous and really iconic legends as Cher, Celine Dion and Mariah Carey, (just to mention some of them) and made them look like they were a gem needed of perpetuation and admiration that attracted millions of followers to one single place. On an artistic way, we should consider Las Vegas residencies as a museum of the most emblematic artists that are not afraid to build a mind-blowing show that could easily overshadow their scene domination and vocals skills.

On March 2018 Lady Gaga made official her Las Vegas residency starting on December 2018 until late November 2019, with a total of 74 shows. As the name was published, 'Enigma' quickly created a hot burning fuss around her loyal fans and set the record straight on aiming to give a premium quality show. As months went by since the show announcement, Gaga flashed on social media a bunch of pictures and videos that were able to get into the followers minds and grow inside the seed of high expectations and enigmatic elements that would make the attendants gasp and ask for more. It was already clear that the main objective was already fulfilled: entertain. But the game-changing factor about preparing a full pop concert for months is to go further than the expected.

It's really important to remember that music labels bet more than money on letting one of their artists sign an exclusivity contract with a single venue or hotel as Ceasar's Palace or MGM hotels when there are hundreds of safer reputation-linked options for an artist career. A residency is an ultimate risk: it could make a whole career that took years to be stablished among thousands of other singers or bands look like a forgotten artist ready to farewell, or add a priceless milestone to the ongoing performer.

As the main doors for general admission opened at 9:00 pm on December 28th for the opening night, Gaga's crew had already made a fucking big statement by letting people witness a breath taking simple stage that could only make you wonder: What is this? in a good way. When you hear 'Gaga' you can think of a million ways to descrive her, but I think the most accurate and simple word to break her down is: crazyness. Which is not helping her at all. Even if she wanted to sit on a chair with brown hair and make everyone shiver on their seats with her un-taming vocals, everyone would be asking for more. Because we're at Park MGM in Las Vegas, you'll demand to make every penny spent on your ticket worth it.

The lights turned off and a flying- full of light and mirrored-suited Lady came down the ceiling with a keytar attached to her guts and her hands, ready to unbelt a nailed opening track: Just Dance, followed by general public recognized bangers as Poker Face and LoveGame. At this point you already owe money to the backstage work made to wow you. The perfectly fitted outfit, the theme-according electric blue wig that remains flawless through original choreographies, and the sassy-attitude dancers beg for more than your attention, your live-experiences passion.

As the 'Venus' performer quickly changed her look from weave to heels, a set of fan-favorite hits were about to play. 'Dance In The Dark' refilled the fan base's hunger with a live perfomance of a song that she didn't sing since her 'Monster Ball Tour' on 2010; full of energy and obscene pop dance moves Gaga gave her little monsters the flashback moment of the night. As 'Beautiful, Dirty, Rich' and 'The Fame' blasted the speakers for a 5,000 crowd, the attendants were singing along to memorable non-single lyrics but the critics went to the doubt point as wondering if they were a wise choice to include on the setlist, which personally I think it wasn't.

With only 5 studio albums, an original soundtrack and 21 official singles, it gets complicated to dismiss songs that most of the people awaits and include long-time forgotten and underestimated tunes to bring a spin to the expected. 'Telephone' made the cut by closing the second act of the show while 'Applause' got to open the next one with no big excitement along. Choices.

The whole 2 hour show is narrated and story-told by 'Enigma' a digital high technology character that interacts with Gaga through the interludes and give an unnecesary story to the experience. As we know, the thin line between giving meaning to a concert's concept and making it hard to understand, was crossed with Gaga's abduction into another kind of paralel universe. When alienated Gaga is flying on a metal orbit above the crowd while singing Paparazzi we couldn't help but to enjoy the obligated awaited song and ask for more. But then, it happened.

The awkwardness swallowed the crowd into Gaga's versatility as writer, singer and performer while she sang an epic performance of ARTPOP's opening track Aura while her black-leather corset pushed her vocals and body moves to her finest. '..Enigma pop star is fun..', right?

Nobody asked, but she gave us anyway a recipe for jaw-drops: First, get back on stage while riding a metal-aracnic robot. Second, play a fake-german non-single for your most loyal fans: 'Scheisse'. And last but not least, rock a metalic and futuristic styled outfit that lights up your boobs while you command everyone to dance and sing their lungs out. Period. And, as a hardcore pop enviroment was flotating in the air, 'Judas' started playing hitting the high notes and a violent role-play for almost 4 minutes. For the third song of the act production could have wrote *Madness* on the setlist instead of spelling the track's title 'Government Hooker'. At the end of the segment comes a cover of David Bowie's 'I'm Afraid Of Americans' as a friendly reminder of two essential Lady Gaga's components: legends as inspiration and a political message hidden underneath colossal synths.

I will always stay true to the belief that when you have an integral timeless pop hit as 'The Edge of Glory' or 'Alejandro' all you need to do is sing and dance your talents off and you'll get to a most memorable moment on the attendant's memories than a full of props-already expected performance. The MGM Park venue bowed down to sing along the piano chords fully live played by Gaga while perfoming 'Million Reasons' and 'Yoü and I' with the tender and notorious comfort that she gives to every note just to achieve a moment of recognition that bleeds vocal maturity and passion.

The night was almost done when a latex-styled, blue-wiged and fearless Gaga performed her 10-year career anthems. 'Bad Romance' set the room on fire with an explosion of pop mixed with nostalgia just by standing alone underneath a bright light dancing it's iconic choreography that's been kept on our minds through the years. You don't need to be a fan to recognize that those dance moves were born with the melodies and brutal lyrics that made this tune a hymn. The encore wouldn't be as satisfying if she didn't put 'Born This Way' at this precise moment to remind once again that she's come a long way by staying true to her beliefs and fighting for them.

The last song threw us out off the deep end while Gaga performed 'Shallow' along a black simple shirt that belongs to her first moments on the industry and a squicky-clean-mirrored piano to reach the already legendary high note that everyone can now sing to make your emotions shiver and open your senses to a melody that will now, last forever.

Just as her versatility and mind-blowing open-hearted talent, there is no conclussion here. Enigma takes all the little things you expect it to be and bury them on the heated Vegas floor to make you understand that you just witnessed a well-thought show built around 21 songs that tell a story and make a statement that this is not retirement show, but instead, a big moment on the entertainment history in a city where anything can happen.

#lady gaga #journalism #enigma #las vegas #pop culture

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dsegno92 · 7 years

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Questa volta non voglio neanche spiegarvela: la conoscete tutti, è talmente famosa che 140 anni dopo la sua invenzione, la fanno ancora; è quasi impossibile trovare un'opera western dove questo modello non appaia, a volte lo ficcano persino prima che l'avessero ideata: la Colt Peacemaker, la pistola che ha fatto il West! Comunque, il fatto che non "voglia" non significa che non ci siano anche un paio di paroline da spendere, perciò eccovele qua: come potete notare, a differenza di tutte (meno una: il primo che indovina quale sceglie quale arma sarà la prossima che disegnerò) le pistole finora viste, questa ha il telaio chiuso, un sistema più robusto che permetteva di usare cariche più potenti. Inoltre, veniva realizzata con canne di diversa lunghezza: quella che ho mostrato qui è un modello "artillery", quello mediano: più lungo si chiama "cavalry", più corto "quickdraw". Degno di nota il modello "buntline", che si dicesse appartenere al famoso scheriffo Wyatt Earp ed era lungo quasi un metro. Davvero, non serve neanche che vi dica dove compare, stavolta provate voi a trovarmi un solo titolo western (ce ne sono, lo so, ma voglio vedervi all'opera) dove la SAA non compaia. (rinnovo del giochino di prima) E stavolta vi voglio lasciare con una citazione che la descrive a pieno: "La miglior pistola mai creata. Sei proiettili: più che sufficienti per uccidere qualunque cosa si muova". (terzo giochino con scelta della prossima in palio: chi ha detto questa frase?) This time I don't even want to explain this one: you all know it, so famous that after 140 years since its invention it's still produced; it's almost impossible to find a western work where this model does not appear, sometime they slip it even before its introduction: the Colt Peacemaker, the gun who made the West! Anyway, the fact that I don't "want" doesn't mean that there are no words to spend, so here they are: as you can notice, differently from all (except one: the first who guess it chooses the next gun I draw) the guns seen before, this one has a closed frame, a more solid structure that allowed to use more powerful charges. Also, it was realised with barrels of different lenght: this one is the average "artillery" model: longer is called "cavalry", shorter "quickdraw". Worth mentioning is the model "buntline", said to belong to the famous marshal Wyatt Earp and almost a meter long. Seriously, I don't even need to tell you where it appears, this time you try tell me just one western work (they exist, I know, but I want to see you work) where the SAA doesn't appear. (renewal of the game mentioned before) And this time I want to leave you with a quote that describes it fully: "The greatest handgun ever made. Six bullets: more than enough to kill anything that moves" (third little game with coice of the next gun as a prize: who said this quote?)

#arma #da #fuoco #weapon #firearm #gun #revolver #rivoltella #pistol #pistola #colt #single #action #army #peacemaker

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perrosuelto-blog · 7 years

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El día que conocí a Pedro Juan Gutiérrez. Dopo anni di tentativi e un lavoro di intelligence spietato ho realizzato il mio sogno di incontrare lo scrittore che per oltre dieci anni mi ha tenuto incollato alle pagine dei suoi libri. L'ho aspettato un giorno e mezzo in strada, davanti alla sua casa all'Havana,un quartiere di prostitute e travestiti, immerso nello scenario che così bene descrive nei suoi racconti. Poi eccolo arrivare, l'incontro folgorante e l'invito a salire nella sua azotea. Una casa ricavata sul tetto di un vecchio palazzo coloniale in centro Habana. La salita in ascensore, faccia a faccia con il mio idolo assoluto in quella gabbia di ferro buia e cigolante, a incorniciare perfettamente l'attimo. Mi presenta la vista sotto di noi,affacciato, indicando la città,i palazzi e le case scolorite e ormai distrutte da vento, salsedine e incuria: "Questa è la materia prima di tutti i miei racconti". Momenti indelebili di questa vita.

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The day I met Pedro Juan Gutiérrez. After years of trying and a ruthless intelligence work I realized my dream to meet the writer who for more than a decade kept me glued to the pages of his books. I waited a day and a half on the road, in front of his house in Havana, a neighborhood of prostitutes and transvestites, fully immersed in the scenario that so well is described in his stories. Then here he is comes, the dazzling meeting and his invitation to join him into his azotea. A house built on the roof of an old colonial mansion in Centro Habana. The climb in the lift, face to face with my absolute idol in that cage of iron, dark and squeaky, perfectly framing the moment. Presents me the view below us, overlooking the city, the palaces and houses discoloured and almost destroyed by wind, salt and carelessness: "This is the raw material of all my stories". Indelible moments of this life.

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jaybutnotthebird · 4 years

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Netflix’s Drifting Dragons: Trying to make whale killing look cool

yeah, so I just found a new show on Netflix, and gave it a try ‘cause at first sight it seemed interesting... then, on the very first seconds of the very first chapter, it got all the fucking red flags up.

In fact, in just the first 3 chapters, you can see everything that is so wrong in so many levels:

-in the very first minutes of the first chapter we already can guess that this is a show about a whale hunting boat. It doesn’t matter that its a flying boat, becouse its purposely and ovbiously designed to look exactly like what it is: a whale hunting boat. Before we see the ‘dragon’ we see the uniforms, the situation and the fact that they are using harpoons to hunt this thing. HARPOONS.

-we see the ‘dragon’ and its a fucking whale. It doesen’t look like a dragon, its designed deliveratedly like a whale, moves like a whale, sounds like a whale, if you saw the picture and weren’t told they call its ‘dragon’ you would say, at first sight that’s a flying, whale. ‘cause that’s what it is. Its not a dragon. Its a whale. It looks like a whale, sounds like a whale, moves like a whale and YOU JUST CALL IT DRAGON TO HAVE AN EXCUSE TO LOOK COOL WHEN YOU KILL IT!!

-they put a lot of enfasis on how cool and exciting the hunt is, making it super realistic, and of course the coolest character is the brute guy who ignores all precaution and delivers the killing blow becouse ‘that way it tastes better’

-oh yes, his biggest personality trait is that he’s obsessed with food. That will be important later

-right after we get several scenes in wich we are showed with rich detail and realism how the animal is butchered and sold, and how the most demanded parts are the OIL and the organs for medicinal purposes (that sounds like superstition on the show, but whatever)

-all of it, with calm, happy background music

-the next scene is so tragic, becouse the people of the town are willing to buy the product, but they still reject the whale hunters. In the show, its due to superstition: they say where the hunters go, dragons come and attack the town, but its so ovbious, so on your nose, that this is a callback to the hipocresy of how its frown upon hunting whales when they are sold so well.

-of course the whole thing is seen as a cruelty towards the poor hunters, but one of the characters says the ship is not even registered with the asociation... and so they should be thankfull they are allowed to do bushiness at all. ... SO THEY ARE NOT EVEN LEGAL, YET THEY ARE THE VICTIMS??

-of course, one of the principal characters defends themselves furiously, stating that they hunt dragons becouse they are dangerous animals that attack cities... but in real life you don’t get that fucking excuse becouse whales don’t attack people! and yeah, you could say this is a fantasy show, but nope! they don’t even look like dragons, they are fucking flying whales, you purposely designed them to look like that, and the ship, and the entire crew and the whole process in carefull detail!

-of course one scene later the people of the town are so apologetic becouse now a dragon is attacking and they need the hunters to get rid of it. Guess what. Its much bigger than the previous one, and its here... BECOUSE ITS THE MOTHER OF THE ONE YOU JUST KILLED

-first thing first, you are telling me not one member of this crew of proffesionals realiced or mentioned that the small ‘dragon’ they were killing was a calf that was still depending of its mother?

-and, the people of the town where kind of right when they thought that the hunters atracted more animals... and it is becouse the hunters are here that the dragon showed up. Good. Good to know.

-the protagonist is a newbie who recognices, in a moment of weakness that she feels a bit guilty by killing the calf. Of course the cool character instantly tells her, loud and clear, that ‘you shouldn’t get into a fight if you are not willing to kill’

HOW IS THAT ANYMORE RIGHT!!!? HOW DOES THAT FIX THE PROBLEM OF KILLING AN ANIMAL THAT IS NOT EVEN FULLY GROWN!!? IT HADN’T EVEN ATTACKED ANYONE IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

-so. Unapologetic whatsoever to that whole argument. Moving on

-of course the batle is epic, and the coolest characters are the ones who take the most risks and make the most damage. Next.

-they are wellcomed as heroes and have a wonderful feast to celebrate the hunt. Here’s a little detail that’s VERY IMPORTANT: every cooking scene, every plate is presented in great detail and realism, and its seen and descrived as the most exquisit thing on earth, becouse these are real recipes and real plates that are coocked exactly the same, but with whale meat. And this show was made to sell that.

-next (oh, there’s plenty more) we start the second chapter. THIS IS THE FUNNY ONE! and its funny in many different ways, see:

-we are showed the whole process of how the fat is prepared (again, very realistic becouse these are actually real events, as much as they hide them with pretty visuals and the dragon tytle)

-the protagonist finds out the inmense amount of money that a whale is worth, only to then realice that them, the people working first hand and taking all the risks are payed a miserable part and actually all of them are broke. The company itself its broke. They struggle so much that the girl, for being a newbie and having just started is already in debt for the supplies that she needs on board.

-this whole issue is a very real problem of labor explotation. ITS PLAYED FOR LAUGHS. ITS SUPPOSED TO BE FUNNY. The fact that the whole crew struggles and the newbie is already in debt becouse they risk their lives to hunt these animals that are so expensive, but they get paid so little IS SUPPOSED TO BE FUNNY

-WHY WOULD YOU EVEN HAVE THIS JOB IF IT IS NOT PROFITABLE oh, that’s right, becouse they are dragons and they are danger... THEY ARE NOT DRAGONS NO MATTER HOW MUCH YOU CALL THEM THAT THEY ARE FUCKING WHALES AND THEY ARE NOT DANGEROUS AND SO YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE TO DO THIS IF IT IS NOT EVEN PROFITABLE FOR YOU!!!

-oh there’s even more. In this chapter (just the second, we have only started, remember?) the crew find a very rare animal: its designed to look like a red seagul, but its supposed to be a dragon. And the rare thing is, that dragons are huge creatures, (as big as whales, of course) but this one is just the size of a bird. so what do they do with this rare creature? eat it.

-OF COURSE!

-they discuss if they should sell it, but quickly brush it aside becouse being so small it can’t be worth much... (notice the foreshadowing)

-they even discuss the fact that it may be venomus, but they don’t bother taking pictures, or investigating at all, THEY TAKE IT DIRECTLY TO THE KITCHEN and the coock, who’s an important and charismatic character (’cause he makes the delicious food, remember) coocks it and of course it looks fantastic and it is so tasty its fucking magical. (becouse it is publicity of a real dish)

-WELL. Here’s the killing joke: we find out later, that the animal had scaped from another ship, that kept it alive becouse it was such a rare specimen that it was worth MILLIONS

-and normally that would make me sick for the sensation of the lost chance, but you know what? they fucking deserve it. I am not kidding, I am not exagerating, even if this had nothign to do with whales or real animals the whole thing is so wrong in so many levels I hope they go broke so bad they end up cleaning shit the rest of their lives.

-we have a team of characters who find a creature worth millions and eat it out of ignorance becouse they are profesional hunters but have no idea what it is nor what they are doing nor do they care. And the whole thing is again played for LAUGHS. Its so real, so sickening, and wrong, and its supposed to be funny.

-And then there’s the thrid chapter (yes, there’s more. Don’t worry I couln’t go much further) where they get into a big storm (wait, why does the badass girl hide with the coward newbie when all the others are helping? they are not even the only women on the crew, but I guess becouse they are the most visible female characters they have to be hiding in safety when its most dangerous)

-Here I was hoping they would get struck by lighting and DIE but turns out a beautiful, glimmering whale appears, one that’s spoken of in legends. It is so beautiful ‘cause it sparkles, and it guides the ship back to safety.

-so of course the quesion is CAN WE HUNT IT!!? and they don’t, ‘cause its so beautiful and it helped them... HIPOCRESY AT ITS FINEST

-I would be so happy to watch this show if it at least added a bit of criticism, if it handled the duality and problems of it all... but we can’t have that, becouse its publicity.

-this show has GORGEUS animation, music and grafics. Its written so good, to brush the ugly stuff a side as a joke LITERALLY and make killing whales look cool and justifyed. And it is so well made and beautifully animated becouse I don’t need to research it to know that its paid by the goberment.

-it reminds me of that asshole who saw a black lynx. A real, living mytologic animal, that only appears like once in 200 years, and his first reaction was to kill it and post a picture online. I didn’t know black lynx existed, and the first time I saw one was dead, on the arms of a smiling asshole.

-this should all be forbidden, and harsly punnishable becouse there is no excuse anymore for doing it except fucking money. But instead we get a lot of money invested on making publicity of it.

-and it looks funny and cute and beautiful becouse its anime. But its still wrong

-oh, and of course don’t forget the creepy guy sniffing the girl’s hair when she’s not expecting it, making her ovbiously unconfortable every time, and its supposed to be endearing.

#anime animals whales funny beautiful hypocresy hunting wrong criticism publicity sickening rambling writing art

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arosaiki · 5 years

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I don’t know what’s gotten into me but I suddenly need to write so that’s what imma do, i didn’t know where to write it so i thought this would be a nice please bc its kinda personal. It’s not solely aroaspec perse but whatevs

i don’t really know what it is what im feeling right now, i know it’s bad i guess, but i can’t find the right words to explain myself. Ive been crying myself to sleep for the past few weeks, that might be because ive got a playlist to help me sleep but sddenly it seems too sad so i start thinking about stuff and that along with my imsomnia makes me cry until i can finally sleep.

I’ve been on meds for general anxiety disorder for the past idk weeks, and the truth is that i dont really know if they are helping me. Perhaps they are? I dont know, i really don’t. But I certainly have been feeling down, even more sad. It’s like anxiety is on check so the sadness took all over the place.

Last friday i had an appointment with my therapist; she is a really nice (young) lady, she talks camly and soft and when i cry she lifts er eyebrows like a worried friend; however, i don’t really feel connected to her, i don’t think she uderstands, but it’s entirely on my part. it’s my fault because i can’t properly put into words how im feeling or why im feeling this.

i feel so stupid most of the times, i can’t really make coherent thoughts anymore, its like my brain is filled with too many knots of whatever and i can’t think. when i try to untangle the knots my bhead starts to hurt and i start to feel even worse.

For the past months ive tried to distract myself, to avoid everything that makes me feel bad. I spent months doing that, saying “im doing my best” almost crying everytime i said it but putting on a smile and trying to be positive. Using the things and people and stuff i like as distractors, my kpop bois helped me out a lot, too. My brother also helped me. My friends. My dogs. But i am again in what it seems like a dark place. It’s not that im at my worst. I’ve been even deeper, feeling like a couldn’t get out of the deepest part of the ocean. But even when i don’t feel like that anymore, right now it’s seems like im inside a circle of some sort, on a loop perhaps, i don’t know how to descrive it but i do know im never gonna fully get “better”

It doesn’t matter what happens in the day, doesn’t matter i ate good food, doesn’t matter if i laughed, if i had a good time, if iw was the best day ever. I will always, at the end of the day, want to be someone -anybody- else other than me. I hate myself so much, i hate myself to the core. I dislike my outside but i hate my inside so much worse. I can’t stop looking at the mirror for a while, but i can’t escape from myself. I wish I wasn’t me, i wish i had never exist. I wish i just wouldnt be. I hate myself so much so much. there are so many things i hate about myself that i can’t even begin to list. It’s just everything. My whole existance. The way i talk, the way i think, the way i move, the way i feel, the way i breath. i hate it all.

#personal #sorry it doesnt have to do much with aro/ace stuff #but i need to vent somewhere #ill tag in case someone has any advice to stop feeling like this lol #depression #anxiety #aromanticism #asexuality

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fipindustries · 4 years

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To celebrate that i started hormones this week i want to share some more thoughts on gender which will basically be a repeat of what i have said in the past except perhaps a bit more structured:

my initial position:

gender is kind of bullshit, it is a social construct, something that has changed throught the centuries and through the nations, therefore no something innate to human nature but something that accrued through cultures and was educated on the people born on those cultures. this has imposed restrictions, limitants, cohertions and misery on a lot of people whose gender expression deviated from the norm. therefore gender should be abolished so that noone else feels constrained by its narrow edicts and we all get to express ourselves the way that makes us the happiest.

except...

it is not quite so simple now, is it?

because as it just so happens a lot of people actually do find a lot of worth in their gender, not just cis people but trans people as well. it feels kind of weird to fight for the right of trans women to be recognized as women and then to abolish gender so that the concept of “women” no longer exist. as @sigmaleph once said “dont abolish gender, some people are using it” (i have no idea if she still stands by those words)

so, how do we square that circle?

my short answer as of right now is that... we sort of can’t as of right now. the reason for this is that i feel we still dont actually, fully understand what gender is.

my second position:

i am a materialist, i am a determinist. i believe reality works by mechanizable, systematizable ways. i believe most if not all of human behavior is shaped, ultimately, by biology. culture and society is an expression of fundamental biological principles when observed in a macro scale. a lot of our current gender structures arose from the biological fact that humans are sexually dysmorphic and that females, if pregnant, tend to be a lot more vulnerable and in need of protection. (speaking in big, not wholly accurate terms, it is understood)

this is kind of the basis for evolutionary psychology.

with this in mind, i feel that most of the humanities (psychology, sociology, philosophy, etc) by putting their focus on human behavior as framed by culture and society tend to create models of reality that are... not inacurate necessarly but insufficient.

an analogy in physics: we have equations to descrive the actions and movements of gases whitout actually having to calculate the movements of every single atom. of course these models are under a lot of restrictions and assuptions due to the enviromental conditions and that is why we call them ideal gas equations.

likewise with newtonian gravity, newton managed to come up with an equation to descrive gravity, yet later it was discovered that this equation worked mostly on the macro scale, but when aplied to subatomic particles it didnt work as well.

what we have here is “toy models” that work on the macro scale that dont take into account the underliying fundamental reality. now to borrow programming lingo, it is front end interface, not back end programming.

and i think this is what is going on with our current sociological understanding of gender.

what i have observed:

gender is complicated. we try and come up with models that not only descrive how gender is expressed in society but why it is so. i feel these models are not very good. as with the example that i descrived at the beggining, we tend to fall into exceptions, little contradicitons or unexpected implications every time we try to create a concise description of gender. i think the best example of this phenomena is contrapoints video on trans trenders, wherein she tries to deconstruct gender in a way that made her gender expression valid and she... kind of came up short. in a later video she went on to explain that there might not be a rational explination for why a trans woman is a woman and that is just the way it is.

of course i dont agree with that.

again, i believe all human behavior can be explained with a sufficiently granular understanding of neurobiology. we are just no there yet. the point where the fallen mind meets the rising neuron. sure we can say that trans people are valid, and that non binary people are valid and that agender people are valid, and gender fluid, and bigendered, and so and so forth. but at some point we have to ask ourselves: what is actually going on there. why so many different people express their identity in so many different ways. what is the underliying cause. this clearly transcends culture since if it were the case that culture is the ultimate shaper of who and what we are then trans people wouldnt exist since our culture has been very clearly and very strongly hetero binary for ages. yet something within us, something that can arise from no other place but the configuration of our neurons, rebels against this. in many different and nuanced ways. WHAT IS THAT SOMETHING?

a personal example:

how do i experience my trans identity? through very mild body dysphoria for the most part. i feel being considered a man is insufficient for me, it leaves me with a hollow feeling most of the time. i get an unbridled sense of joy out of dressing as a woman, and looking like one. when i percieve that i have hormones feminizing my body i get the good dopamine hit we are all chasing like blind monkeys on our day to day life. my heart swells by just writing this: i have estrogen in my body now and it is feminizing me and it is great. does that make me, put in very blunt, very basic, very simplified and base terms: “a woman”?

i dunno.

but why is this?

what mechanisms are inside of me that takes these inputs: [feminized body/being called a woman/etc] and give in return these outputs: [JOY]

the reason for these thoughts:

i dont know what to call myself. no descrption that i have found suits me. yes, that’s right, you heard it here folks! the left has spent years and all their efforts in coming up with a hundred billion new identities and i dentify with none of them! arent i just the biggest, most soy drenched snowflake of the entire snowglobe?

but jokes aside. i dont feel the current myriad labels suit me because i feel none of the adress the underliying reality.

the territory has barely been explored, the map is blurry and being constantly rewritten as we speak. humans are not just “men & women” and i believe they are not either “man, woman, womyn, softboi, transfemme, androgyne, etc, etc, etc”. these are insufficient.

perhaps once we finally understand the human brain in all of its absolute, fractal complexity we will have the one true theory of gender, perhaps in some future there wil be no men or women but Monozygote-delta-X65 as fit within the sine function of lambda, where lambda is the values for certain levels of cortizol in the brain during the first three weeks in utero. and we will still call ourselves men and women and what else because humans are just like that.

a girl (such as i) can dream.

#gender #effortposting

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