#drawfee comments specifically

[raphaerolo]

Anakin: I can't believe Obi-Wan and Commander Cody got married on the exact same day as one another. Small world.

[pahatarcarabosse]

"Why Hadiashatielle Novelligna Was Reborn As A Villainess & Ended Up On The Tyrant's Lap"

This was inspired from r/OtomeIsekai one specific pots comments - and now it will bear the name of them. Second "I try to mimic art styles/genre" exercises.

It's scarily accurate tbh, Iv been reading this vague genre since 2019/2020 and only EPIC has but it for hiatus for while.

Parody OI covers:

Shaty Cover / Drawfee IWTUTKBTSMLITI cover

[edenfenixblogs]

Well, tuned into the Drawfee stream...

I promised I'd check it out before determining if I'd ever be able to give Drawfee another chance after this...

Verdict TL;DR: Maybe one day, but not in the foreseeable future, especially not streams. Certainly never through my financial support ever again, unless they are fundraising for a particularly worthy charity (like in the Trans Rigs stream). But luckily, I don't think they give a shit if I watch or not, which is totally fair.

Overall: The Drawfee YouTubers didn't do anything wrong. However, their lack of acknowledgement of any Jewish pain or concerns served to further digital ghettoization and social isolation of diaspora Jews in a way that many (but definitely not all) Jews will probably find painful. Between that and the really bad faith link-sharing from the mods, I'm personally too fragile to imagine engaging with the channel again.

This conclusion is geared toward fellow Jews seeking escapist content or content that doesn't make them feel erased during this time. This is not a prescriptive recommendation for anyone else. It is simply my reasoning, should anyone else be on the fence and need insight.

The Good (There was a lot of it!):

I didn't see any Drawfee folks parroting antisemitic conspiracy theories, which is good. An extremely low bar, but one that many, many people fail to clear.

They kept their tone fun and light and didn't turn anything into a diatribe

They kept their focus on humanitarian aid and an end to violence.

I think they made a few statements generally about keeping chat civil.

They kept chat limited to people who already subscribed to the channel, which was SO smart. It kept bots and bad actors from making the chat hostile.

While they all joked about silly stuff, they never jokes about real issues or the pain of anyone involved in the conflict. This is very important!!!

Chat in general was a very good place to hang out. Most people were just happy to be there and commenting about funny and fun art and it had the (mostly) typical Drawfee vibes, which I miss.

There was nothing performative or disingenuous about the team's intent: They wanted an end to violence. They wanted aid to reach Palestinian refugees. They wanted to encourage voter turnout in upcoming elections, and they wanted people to pressure their representatives to call for a ceasefire. These are all unambiguously good things.

Most importantly: They raised WELL over $100,000 for PCRF, which (despite not being totally perfect) is a very well-rated charity that has no history of its funds falling into Hamas' hands and is geared toward helping children. This matters much more overall than the stream's impact on me personally.

Ultimately, I believe the stream did more good than harm by a large margin.

The Iffy (Neither good nor bad; just things that I noticed):

Basically, none of the actual Drawfee crew did anything antisemitic that I saw. But they had a lot of missed opportunities -- to affirm solidarity and support with Jewish viewership, to acknowledge Jewish pain in any way, to advocate for a peaceful solution that left room for any negotiated peace between Jews in Israel and Palestinians in any capacity (whether that meant as Israel or as a newly formed state of some kind), or to be specific and directed in how they wanted people to approach a ceasefire.

I didn't hear any call to specifically keep the chat free of antisemitism. I tuned in a few minutes late, so maybe I missed it.

No substantial knowledge of the conflict demonstrated. Just that the current situation is unacceptable and should stop. I don't know anyone who disagrees with that (who I consider to be acting in good faith), but no language from the team about how to bring about that end to violence other than demanding a ceasefire.

Mods had a chance to add links to AllMEP charities, A Land for All, and some other Palestinian-Israeli and Arab-Israeli and Muslim-Jewish charities that support either inter-faith healing OR even just solely pro-Palestine charities that have inter-faith or inter-cultural backing. They did not add these to the shared links that I saw. (This would have been fine if they had a rigorous evaluation process and couldn't moderate and evaluate quality at the same time. But based on the links that WERE shared, I severely doubt that was the case)

Someone in the chat was repeatedly giving the very good advice that when writing your representatives to demand a ceasefire, you should demand that the US offer to facilitate a negotiated peace and permanent ceasefire between Israel and Hamas. Again, my feed crashed a couple times, so I may have missed it. But I personally did not see any of the mods or the Drawfee crew acknowledge this or mention Israeli suffering or Hamas violence once.

A least one of the mods should have been assigned fact-checking duty. Not many falsehoods were posted, but some were and community-members had to address them.

As expected there were lots of people posting watermelons, flags, and FtRttS. But, surprisingly, nobody was spamming it. I've written before about why the phrase FtRttS is upsetting to me personally, but I'll probably do a larger breakdown about i in the coming week. I appreciate that in general, people did seem to use it respectfully, in good faith, and without clear aggression toward Jewish people. There was some clear aggression toward Israelis (as in citizens not politicians), in general, but not too much or from too many people.

The Bad and Pretty Ugly (This is why I ultimately have to step away and other Jews might have to as well. At least for awhile):

Honestly, for all the care that people put into this stream, there was a general apathy toward and invisibility of Jewish people suffering in this crisis. Like I said, nobody on the on-screen Drawfee team did anything antisemitic. That was nice. Unfortunately, it didn't really seem like any actual effort was put in to determine what links were worth sharing. It was more of a "the mods like this one so it's allowed" sort of thing. Even cursory research on most of the links shared involved blatant instances of antisemitism, historical revisionism, or that just in general fell apart on any inspection whatsoever.

They could have made a lot of Jews feel seen and heard by mentioning the hostages even once, acknowledging 10/7 even once, acknowledged even once that Israel continues to be bombed from Hamas and Hezbollah daily, acknowledging that this is a war with two sides that both require an end to violence...literally any ONE of those things would have made a difference. But it was all just ignored, which is far too common when dealing with this conflict. This is especially painful for Jews who, like me, have experienced social isolation and digital ghettoization during this time. I think a lot of Jewish viewers will struggle to reconcile how this echoes a lot of the erasure that we all feel in our daily lives and in our digital spaces and in our hybrid digital and in-person communities. (<- Reblog 2 contains the accounts of The Jewish Experience of antisemitic erasure and ghettoization)Like, I do understand the argument that this is about providing humanitarian relief, but I also don't know why so many creators (and this is NOT unique to Drawfee) pretend like Jewish suffering is not relevent to ongoing discussions.

The mods posted links that supported UNRWA and some chatters spoke up in support of the UNRWA without any consequence. (All links here are verified as highly credible with high factual reporting standards via Media Bias/Fact Check and represent analysis from left-leaning, right-leaning, and least-biased sources)

One mod also posted a link to decolonizepalestine(.)com (not including the link because i don't want to support blatant propaganda). I have shared information about this terrible, bad-faith website before but there's so much more to pick apart here that I will reserve an evaluation of it as a source for a whole post of its own, unrelated to Drawfee. This website does cite its sources, but it provides no mechanism for readers to evaluate those sources. They are not hyperlinked and each individual citation must be looked up individually. I don't even have remotely enough time to do that right now. But if any of my bookwormish allies wish to tear apart those sources or the website in general, be my guest. Tagging y'all for visibility, but do not feel like I am actually asking you to do this work. It is simply something to add to the list of bad sources that we'll have to tackle at some point. cc: @comradevo @the-road-betwixt @faggotry-enjoyer @arandomshotinthedark et. al.

The mods also shared arab.org a few times. It is weird to me that they could have recommended AllMEP, which routinely emphasizes interfaith and intercultural and international cooperation and peace, but instead chose this much less evaluate-able source that excludes any efforts to find cooperative peace between Israel and Palestine. I had not heard of Arab.org before this stream and when I started to look into it, I fell into a bit of a rabbit hole:

So, first of all, Arab.org is a charity? organization? network? based in Beirut, Lebanon. I can't find them on Charity Navigator. The homepage didn't have a clear mission statement, so I navigated to the About Us tab. That gave me a little more information.

There, they state that their vision is to, "Empower people & organizations to do good." - Vague, but inoffensive. OK.

They state that they have three objectives:

Raising awareness, which they define as, "Civil society’s active role and through active collaboration." -- Vague but inoffensive.

Raising hope, which they define as, "Enabling the use of technology to innovate ways of contributing to the wellness and welfare of society." -- Vague but inoffensive.

Raising standards, which they define as, "Education, Reporting, Communication to & from civil society in the Arab World." -- Unclear, but inoffensive. Are they trying to raise the standards of these listed items within the Arab world or are they trying to raise international standards to be more inclusive of these listed items that originate from within the Arab world. And how do they define increased standards? Whose standards? IDK. This doesn't tell me anything really, but it also doesn't tell me anything bad, necessarily?

So what about their principles? Well, they list 5:

"Collaboration: Only together as a collective, can we bring about real change and betterment to society." -- OK, fine, but this still tells me nothing.

"Transparency: We conduct our business with a high level of transparency and a simple development model and we publish our impact publicly." -- Great! Excited to explore that!

"Innovation: We use our skills and creativity to make the world a better place. We want to make it possible to both inform and take action to solve the problems we discover." -- Intriguing, but how?

"Inclusion: We champion the inclusion of everyone in society, whether it is part of civic inclusion or charitable inclusion." -- This sounds really promising!!!! I'm excited to learn more!

"Leadership: We believe in taking the lead whenever wherever required by empowering individuals and organizations to influence others towards common goals." -- Gonna be honest, this just sound like vague buzzwords to me, but if they actually accomplish what they set out to do, great.

Luckily, each of these principles was clickable.

Let's start with "Collaboration"!

This takes me to a weirdly vague page with a gif of various men helping each other climb out of frame. The text below it says "We are currently on the look out for the following technology/platforms/businesses relevant to civil society" and then a list of pretty random things, some of which have checkmarks near them. Why is the formatting so strange? Why don't they all have checkmarks? Why is only the indicated section clickable but none of the other things? Where is more info about any of these items?

But fine, lets click that one clickable link about online marketplaces.

It doesn't actually take you to a marketplace but a page where artisans in the Arab world can submit their information. Submit heir information for what? Well, this is what the website says:

We understand how difficult life is for craftsmen & craftswomen to compete with mass-producing giants. We’re here to change all that. We are creating a win-win-win relationship whereby all sides benefit from our new platform “Shop to Help"

The "Shop to Help" is not clickable. I have no further information on what this is.

Fine, there's one more thing to click on this page: a list of Arab.org's partners.

First up: The Arab Institute for Women at Lebanese American University. Clicking on the info there takes me to the AIW:LAU website. Arab.org says the organization used to be called "Institute for Women’s Studies in the Arab World," but I couldn't find anything on Charity navigator for them either. Cursory research on them shows they've been around for 50 years. Fine. I'm not doing an evaluation on them right now (anyone who knows anything about them feel free to comment. I just don't have time) I was just investigating how they partner with Arab.org. I didn't find anything about that aside from a list of AIW's partners, which lists Arab.org amongst them. Clicking the link to Arab.org just takes me back to the homepage. I've learned nothing.

Next: They list Bayt.com, which is a job search site. Clicking that link takes me to the Bayt homepage. I couldn't find that addressed partnerships of any kind was their affiliate links page? But becoming an affiliate helps the affiliate make money, not Bayt. So I'm unsure what's going on or if this is even related.

Third: Building Markets. As far as I can tell, this is a real organization. I also cannot find them on Charity navigator, nor can I find any information about how they partner with Arab.org from their website. They do clearly share their financial information, though, which is great. I neither endorse nor condemn this organization. I'm not investigating them right now.

Fourth: Takreem Foundation. I CAN FIND THEM ON CHARITY NAVIGATOR! But they aren't rated. A search of the Takreem website shows no affiliation with Arab.org or accessible financial information.

Fifth: #GivingTuesday Woohoo! They are on Charity Navigator and have a pretty high rating! However, there's no evidence of a link between them and Arab.org, and the organization claims to have no list of official partners or participating organizations. Odd. Did Arab.org run a #GivingTuesday campaign and highlight #GivingTuesday instead of the organization they were giving to? Idk. And I don't have time to figure it out.

Sixth: CSR Engine. It's just a website with nothing on it except the statement "World’s first business for good solution to assign & align CSR activities seamlessly using AI and blockchain technology," which is the same text available about it from the Arab.org partners page. It does show it's affiliation with Arab.org...by listing Arab.org as a customer and then linking back to the Arab.org homepage. WHAT IS GOING ON.

Finally, and buckle up for this one cuz its a doozy, Greenpeace: I'd actually heard of this one, but I don't really know anything about it. Clicking Greenpeace doesn't even take you to the real Greenpeace MENA site. It just takes you to Arab.org's really weird write up page about Greenpeace. So, instead, I searched for Greenpeace on Charity navigator, where it got a 100% rating. Awesome! I clicked the charity navigator link, which took me to the Greenpeace Fund website. But wait a second. What's their connection to Arab.org? Well, there was no search function on the GreenpeaceFund website. So, I typed Greenpeace into google and uh?????

What?

That was surprising. I clicked the link and...

It showed me a totally different website...

Than the one I was just on...

Mods and the Drawfee crew stopped people from sharing links unless those people were mods. That was a super good choice which I fully support. But why did the mods share THESE links?

Well, I had the websites both open in side-by-side tabs.

That's...odd... So I studied the URLs more closely...

The lighter green G that's less pixelated? THAT ONE is the Greenpeace Fund. That is the one with penguins and a 100% charity navigator score.

The one with the lime green, pixelated G? That's Greenpeace International, a conspiracy/pseudoscience website with low crediblity.

But hey, the Greenpeace International website says there's a MENA-based branch. And, upon closer inspection, the Greenpeace International MENA website is the one that was linked on the Arab.org page. Maybe that one was better?

Clicking it took me to the Greenpeace MENA site...

which gave me another blinking Conspiracy Alert Icon from Media Bias Fact Check.

Just to be safe, I typed Greenpeace MENA into google, and fam... it is not better.

PS: searching ANY Greenpeace website for Arab.org showed no results.

In one last-ditch effort, I checked the Transparency page, where Arab.org claims to be "leading by example" in sharing all their documentation for charitable donations. And y'all it's fucking weird.

Let's stick with Greenpeace cuz they're already open tabs on my computer.

First of all, Arab.org's "leading by example" financial disclosures...

...are literally just the "Thank you for donating" receipts that you get whenever you donate to any cause. It's fucking weird.

And yeah, you read that right. For all of the 4th financial quarter of 2023, Arab.org donated just $109 TO THE ORGANIZATION WHICH THEY CALL A FEATURED PARTNER.

"OK," you say. "Well, there was a fucking lot going on in the fourth quarter of 2023. They were probably more focused on Palestine." Sure, lets check out their donation history to UNRWA (which, btw, is still a not great charity)

In case you don't want to click another link--Spoiler alert, they only donated $380. For the whole quarter.

And before you say, "But Eden! You must have missed it Arab.org is another organization called The Olive Tree (The Olive Tree SAL). That must be where the REAL work takes place!" Look at the mission statement of that one! The call themselves, "A mission-driven social enterprise startup making an impact for the common good.''

No.

The Olive Tree SAL is not on Charity Navigator. It's just another nothingburger website that links back to Arab.org and has no search function or further information.

This is the entirety of the website:

And a weird little LinkedIn logo that takes you to the organization's business page on LinkedIn.

From what I can tell, Arab.org just uses Ad revenue to generate minimal donations for charities and organizations of varying credibility that mostly don't even seem to know that Arab.org is even doing anything related to them. And that are designed to make people who are basically uninformed on the whole topic feel good for clicking on a link.

IDK, color me unimpressed. But I'm frankly a little mad that I spend so much fucking time trying to promote charities and organizations that promote peace between Palestine and Israel with actual detailed financial reports and disclosures that seeing this really makes me upset. Maybe if people actually listened to Jewish people with a lifetime of experience dealing with this conflict and trying to help solve or even Palestinian people on the ground who are affected by all this, they might instead focus their energies on one of the many organizations that are actually doing something to help alleviate suffering, increase empathy, encourage education and interfaith dialogue, learn to use language that is respectful of everyone undergoing and who has survived trauma, or build a peaceful future.

Whatever.

Donate to an AllMEP Charity:

And the craziest thing is that I'm gonna be the one who gets hate for this--even tthough I've been so driven out of most fandom spaces and discourse spaces that I can't even tag Drawfee here, let alone I/P, Palestine, or (G-d-forbid) Israel and get this to reach people who this could actually hep.

Because every time I try to engage, I'm inundated with messages like this:

[drawtectives-season-three-when]

Nathan doesn't mention his vitriolic hatred of tomatoes that much. During a specific depression cycle where Drawfee was my life boey that kept me afloat the episodes I watched were the more food related ones where his tomato rage was talked about (The episode where Jacob and Julia drew knock offs of Nathan and Caldwell and the sequel where Nathan and Caldwell took revenge. The hot saucerers episode, The Willie hosted episode where he gave them words and they drew what they thought they were and they talked about Nathan's white pizza order, the fruits as dragons episode, and the drinks as people episode.)

With how many episodes of Drawfee there are compared to how much it's mentioned...idk the math. But it's not brought up every ep. It's just a Nathan Thing TM.

But I've been conditioned to think of Nathan whenever I see/grab/use tomatoes.

Like...though the chances of me hosting Drawfee aren't zero, it's very much NOT high probability, but I still go through my dishes I could make without them needing tomatoes. Also when I'm cooking and using tomatoes, I pause and go look around to see what else I could potentially make in the hypothetical scenario where the drawfee crews gonna drop in for dinner xD

There's someone I recently followed on tiktok , an Italian cook tiktoker, who did a white lasgna bc someone in their comments mentioned their sister or sil was alergic to tomatoes. So I would try to make that maybe. Except if David was also tagging along. Then maybe I'd try to be fancy and do a ratatouille

[skittzdaskittle]

Skiddad I just saw in my dreams

So, for shits and giggles, I played an hour long compilation of Pelo's screams, gags, and faces from the span of his entire channel to go to sleep to

I had a dream where I was really tiny in this Ena power of potluck style game

And was various members of drawfee that switched interchangeably, though I was mainly Jacob, the others would appear in the corner to talk and commentate, I don't remember what they said lmao

It's Skiddad's house, and i have been trapped in it by him, and for the most part, I was walking around in late afternoon

And when i saw him just sitting on the floor, seemingly some sort of past version of him, it thought,

"Finally, we have a cannon version of him. Here he is, he's just there"

And he sort of talked to me and showed me around (while i was as Jacob) and he had this really silly misguided friend sort of vibe

Like he didn't realize he's basically kidnapped me (i don't think cannon Skiddad is like this lmao) and was genuinely not malicious

I when i woke up, i knew i had to draw him

This Christmas fit was from the last scene i saw in my dream, and is where the main design/drawing comes from

And yes

His neck is crooked

Do with this specific detail what you will (i know what you are)

[scrapcheese]

How did you get into ace attorney?

Share your story in the reblogs or comments im curious to see how people first got into the ace attorney series!

For me it was hearing Karina from drawfee explain it, specifically when I heard the line "Edgeworth says you saddle him with unnecessary feelings, and is so alarmed by his gay thoughts that he fakes his death for the next game."

Because when I heard that I was like "there's no way this shit is real" but I looked it up and lo and behold, it was in fact real. And then I started getting into the series lmao.

[utilitycaster]

so I'm loving the NADDPod love! I do have a couple quick thoughts though based on comments I'm seeing a lot:

I intended this very much to be about Actual Play journalism, not fandom spaces. Honestly, I find that most podcasts with a Big Fandom Presence tend to have shorter episodes, and I think NADDPod does need to be compared to podcasts, not other actual plays. Critical Role and D20 are very livebloggable, whereas I usually listen to NADDPod on the go, frequently while driving, and so I can't really comment during episodes the same way.

Re journalism, a part of it is that it's hard to jump into NADDPod as it's longform. It's hard to do that for Critical Role, but there's much more built out resources and you get into a bit of a self-fulfilling prophecy re: mainstream osmosis (within what is still a niche, to be clear). D20 seasons are a weekend commitment; binging season 1 of NADDPod took me over a month, and that was during lockdown as an essential worker with a long commute. and that is...I don't want to say valid, but I do understand that it's uniquely challenging for AP journalists to keep up with longform campaigns without already being huge fans who'd do this anyway, which unfortunately means a lack of boundaries between professional critique vs. fandom.

However, and I've talked about this before, the current state of affairs means that I feel a lot of actual play-specific journalism either focuses on D20, TAZ, occasionally shorter CR productions, and anything that's buzzy spectacle low-hanging fruit (*cough* Kollok). Honestly, while NADDPod flies under the radar of journalism they are also doing quite well; I had a great time at a live show a couple years ago and it was a full and enthusiastic house. They've played Carnegie Hall; they are able to boost other shows like Three Black Halflings and Rotating Heroes; I'm not worried. But a lot of shows with minimal but still competent editing and production that don't have the benefits of D20 (or former College Humor/Drawfee/Jake and Amir) crossover fandom are also ignored. The fact that one of the biggest, most successful examples is uncommented on is rather worrisome because it says a lot about how smaller strong podcasts also get ignored unless there's a shiny gimmick.

I'm not here to bash D20 - I like D20 a lot - but it's WILDLY disproportionately the subject of actual play journalism for both "easy to jump into" reasons (not super valid actually given that many smaller shows are also a sub-20 ep run) and uh. the fact that several significant names in the space have special access to D20 contacts and seem to be unwilling to branch out into spaces where they aren't given a red carpet treatment.

I am admittedly behind on all podcasts for a number of reasons and that's unlikely to change though I plan on doing a bit of a binge this weekend, but I'm talking about Actual Play crit and journalism in the group chat and it never ceases to be wild to me that NADDPod has a solid following and fandom but is virtually unremarked upon in like, AP journalism or discussion despite being I think one of the most consistent shows in terms of quality. And, if I'm being really honest it's because Murph isn't showy and can't do accents well and is an adequate but not brilliant actor, but the thing is, he's one of the strongest writers among AP DMs and that's really undervalued. (Emily is also, while not usually the DM, also a good writer and that's also not something that comes up.)

[sodacowboy]

akajshfhf getting clocked as a drawfee fan in a completely different youtuber’s comment section because I mentioned a specific video game two of the hosts played lmao

[quitetheketch-moved]

so I’ve been seeing bad taste in youtubers, not like in my mutuals or anything but in general but it made me want to make a like, recommended list of youtubers i like who are pretty chill if not full on comrades so here we are - not prompted by anything specific but an itch I got here some of the channels I like:

Cooking:

BORE.D - Fun cooking channel with a stylish presentation 

Chinese Cooking Demystified - Like it says on the tin, informative authentic Chinese dishes from all over the country. 

David Seymour - started with buzzfeed taste tests but now covers most big cooking channels seeing if he can recreate them and how they are

Maangchi - Plz cook for me, like i’m begging feed me it all looks amazing 

My Name Is Andong - fun cooking videos from all over, especially the ones about Russian food.

Simply Sara Kitchen  - good home style cooking 

Souped Up Recipes - Traditional Chinese cooking

Movies/Tv:

Accented Cinema - a video essay channel with a focus on Asian cinema

Folding Ideas - Not strictly about film but I tend to watch a lot of essayists who fall into multiple things and I kinda just have to lean into their main aesthetic but Dan is a gif so check him out.

Jack Saint  - Jack and Joel have a lot of similar style of content but Jack leans into media stuff more so i’m moving him over here. (although i’ve been working on this post for over an hour going through my alphabetical yt sub list and i’m starting to regret trying to categorize them)

PushingUpRoses  - a must watch if you love old tv especially Murder She Wrote

Renegade Cut - Does games too, and frankly they are some of their best work, but quality media analysis.

Ryan Hollinger - Horror movie analysis

Scaredy Cats  - More horror movie analysis but my favorite channel of this kind

Gaming Essays:

Adam Millard - video essays about video games - really recommend the video on Frog Fractions and the Longing

Curio - I’m putting them here because theres been a big focus on games lately and they recently started twitch streaming which is fun but really it’s all media essay. Just please check out their four part Witcher series adfkj it’s the most recent so easy to find.

Errant Signal - I dont have much to add other than please check out Errant Signal, they dont post much but I am in love with this channel.

Game Maker's Toolkit  - in depth essays about elements of game design

Jim Sterling  - Okay not essays but gaming news - if you dont check out anyone else here you should still check out Jim. Especially if you care about the rights of workers in the gaming industry. 

Gaming Play:

Biffa Plays Indie Games - mostly does Cities Skylines but sometimes other, great videos to relax to.

GaLm - GaLm deserves so much much than he gets, Love him been watching him for forever and honestly he’s enough of a workaholic that there’s so much content you WILL find something you like. All complete with critical analysis.

GrayStillPlays - one of the few like, non overtly left-os here but listen, if you want some slightly silly slightly more edgy style of video game videos to kinda turn off your brain and just enjoy you cant get much better than grey. He’s chaos but chaos that doesn’t rely on racism. Maybe one too many jokes about addiction but they aren’t usually punching down so???

John Wolfe - chill horror youtuber - not much to say but one of my favorites.

KatherineOfSky - want the most soothing voice ever to gently play hardcore logistic games at you? Well holy fuzzy cats, you’re home.

Many A True Nerd - Partner to Claire in the category below, known for his fallout but plays just about anything. Also loves grand strategy and paradox games. Good playlist management too do easy to find what you need.

Wanderbots - A just, massive amount of indie game content.

Commentary/Other:

Claire Rousseau - Books youtuber who is just a delight, I dont know how else to describe her but even tho I dont read anymore i’d still die for her.

Courtreezy -  just the queen of being bubbly and fun (some of these I dont have good sales pitches for just *shoves them at you* give em a shot)

D'Angelo Wallace and dangelowallace - Main and second channel, both the same kind of content but the formats are different. Dont always agree with all his opinions but man, theres no fault in the way he presents and researches them - solid essayist but also just oozes charisma and good times.

Drawfee Show - one of the bigger channels here save D’Angelo above so you may already be familiar with them but just a fun weekly drawing show. Good times.

Foo the Flowerhorn  - Watch fish be fed bits of blanched vegetables, like that either sells you or not but it’s Good.

Jarvis Johnson and Jarvis Johnson! GOLD - primary and secondary channels, pure commentary channel on a wide range of topics - i recommend the videos on 5 min crafts and the bachelor.

Life in Jars? - Eco-spheres and terrariums oh me :0

MacDoesIt - Gay chaotic energy, just chock full of Moods and fun times.

Sarah Z - Unofficial tumblr historian

Politics:

Big Joel - kinda variety content, plenty of media analysis but through a strongly leftist lens. Torn between here and commentary but the balance is slightly more overtly political than just media commentary through a political lens so here we go.

Black Red Guard - A black leftist commentary/essay channel focused on black issues and self described as a “New Afrikan Maoist”, this is fairly new channel I found so I’m not as good at describing his content def not better than he does but solid stuff through a perspective I wouldn’t normally get.

hbomberguy - Just watch his video on Pathologic please. Or like, watch 20 mins then go play Pathologic then come back after you’ve beaten it and Pathologic 2 and finish the video.

Innuendo Studios  - Frankly I had no idea where to put this one, because it’s a little of everything but mostly media analysis but also please watch the alt-right playbook if you like, want to understand more about how radicalization happens.

KAR - Black anarchist channel, solid political videos but shorter than most of the ones here so better for consuming when you dont have much time.

Leslie Exp - Videos about disability

Luna oi! and NonCompete  - frankly best agitprop communist duo. A good place to start learning about mutual aid and what anarchism is, beginner friendly videos on leftist theory.

Philosophy Tube - Videos are super polished and well made essays about philosophy, super theatrical and flashy. Honestly cannot stress enough how fun the production value of these are.

Professor Flowers - Nuanced important discussions about race, media, and the political landscape.

Some More News - Like it says on the tin, news but told to you by a disheveled fed up leftist (I joke because i’m running out of things to say in the comment for each but really, Cody and his entire team deserve a lot of credit for their well researched videos on current events)

Thought Slime  - Agitprop but make it a little silly because tbh we all need some jokes rn

Honorable mentions of some slightly bigger channels you may already know but I enjoy: UpIsNotJump , Steve1989MREInfo , SmallishBeans , RTGame , Primitive Survival Tool  , Mumbo Jumbo ,  emmymadeinjapan ,  Kurtis Conner ,  Danny Gonzalez , Drew Gooden  , How To Cook That , JunsKitchen , Defunctland 

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I know nothing about Dimension 20 except that someone in youtube comments told me I'd like the new season because I've been recommending a specific thing to Drawfee which is basically "the boardgame Candyland but monstrous"

[7daysinaweek]

What is 7daysinaweek- extended

Explaining things in a succinct way has never been my strong suit, I enjoy explaining concepts I'm passionate about and ideas I feel I have a strong grasp of to people, but sometimes I tend to be a bit long winded and prattle on about non-essential details. I wonder if I have done a good enough job of explaining what this account will consist of in a way that would make sense to someone who might stumble upon it.

My goal is for this to be an anonymous journal of sorts, as well as a catalog of my improvements at my passions, somewhere where I can talk about what I did and didn't like about anything I make. Additionally, I hope it becomes a place for people who also like things and dislike being bad at things they like to congregate and discuss how hard it is to practice or what specifically stops them from doing certain activities, and maybe to remedy some of the anxieties that halt self improvement. 

This is meant to be a space filled with lack of self judgment, a luxury I do not often afford myself, a place where I can and should be bad at things- and I plan to post the end result of what I make in any given day, regardless of how comfortable I am with how it turned out. Its meant to push the limits of what I consider presentable and destroy how precious I have become with the idea of myself and the things I create. The way that the Drawfee YouTube channel speaks about “not being precious with your art” and not being afraid to start over is a palpable example of the rhetoric I want to apply to mediums other than art.

I want to clarify back on my comments about both the focus on anonymity and the “posting whatever I make” in any given day- as these two do sometimes conflict. The goal of this account is to avoid a perception of who I am as an individual behind the account (excluding my creative styles and quirks) and the actual location of the content that I am creating, and to mostly focus on the act of creating in spite of worries. To highlight improvement. There will be times I will draw people, record music with and perhaps even edit content made by friends and people I know. If it is ever worked out who they are, who I am, or where this content is posted, I doubt I would really mind, but I feel I will avoid interacting with it on principle.

[edenfenixblogs]

Your assessment of the actual events that occurred is incorrect, as is your assessment of my motivations. Here is the actual timeline of events.

I saw that she liked two tweets. I informed her they were based on antisemitic conspiracy theories. I did not tell her to delete them. I just let her know.

I then went to tumblr and vented about it in a post in which I did not tag her because I wanted to process the fact that she liked those tweets on my own and with my Jewish community. I specifically stated that neither Karina nor anyone at drawfee is responsible for my emotions, but that doesn’t mean their actions don’t affect my emotions. How I choose to engage or not engage with them based on that is my own problem. I also explicitly stated in my post that I didn’t want anyone to bug anyone at Drawfee about any of this.

In the comments of that post, someone informed me that she unliked those tweets.

I then went to Twitter and thanked her for unliking them. There was no passive aggressive intent. In me view, it showed that she was willing to understand that she’d unintentionally caused harm and that she did actually care about not making antisemitic misinformation more visible. That was commendable, and so I commended her for it.

At no point did I DM Karina. At no point did I DM ANYONE on Drawfee—not on Twitter or any other platform. In my messages to her, I did not put any text in front of the @ symbol, specifically so that they would show up to only her on a timeline—including my own timeline—because I specifically didn’t want anyone to pile on and she had a clear boundary about no DMs.

The only other messages I sent to the Drawfee team was a general message of support to Nathan (publicly, not via dm) because being visibly Jewish online right now is very hard and results in a lot of hatred for no reason. And after they announced the PCRF stream, I sent (again, very public) message via Instagram that I was excited for the stream and that I support Palestine and thought all of them were great and knew they’d never be antisemitic on purpose but that many online spaces have become antisemitic for me so I just wanted to know if they’d be policing the chat for antisemitism. I did not want to manipulate them in any way or accuse them of anything or imply that they themselves were antisemitic. I simply wanted to get a little assurance that the event they were hosting about a global crises was going to have to any sort of system in place for making sure the chat remained peaceful for all involved. I sent no other follow-up messages OR DMs. I didn’t tag any of them on tumblr or Twitter or Instagram.

I never harassed anyone at any point in time—about this or about any other event ever in my life. That is not how I conduct myself.

Within like 10 minutes of me thanking Karina for unliking the tweets, she made a vague post saying that anyone looking through her likes was a “fucking freak” for doing so. Then she blocked me on Twitter and found my blog here on Tumblr and blocked me here as well. Being that she did choose to block me specifically and that I am covered in the “anyone” to whom she was referring, I have made a reasonable deduction that she was indeed talking about me.

I have used this blog for 10 years to process some of the worst trauma in my life. And I write under a pseudonym because this blog contains very personal information. I have never made a secret of the fact that I use a pseudonym or why. After she blocked me, I immediately deleted my tweets and messages, because 1) they obviously upset her 2) I did not want to receive an influx of hate from people—which happens to me on the regular these days just because I’m Jewish and her tweet (even if it wasn’t intentional) made me a target 3) I did not want my Twitter linked to my blog, which I have already stated is private for personal reasons.

I’m not really concerned about whether or not I can change your mind or anyone else’s. That is not and has never been what this is about. I have made that explicitly clear in all of my posts and comments. What I do care about is telling the truth, which is why I’m reblogging to clarify the areas which you interpreted incorrectly.

I may have screenshotted my tweets and Instagram message, because I considered explaining myself on this blog but ultimately decided against it because I wasn’t actually trying to start any drama and just wanted it over and also because of the aforementioned privacy reasons.

My now deleted IG message:

As you can see, I tried sending the whole Drawfee team a DM, which felt appropriate because it was a general question for the team. Their DMs are restricted so I copy and pasted the content of my attempted DM directly to the comment section, cuz I had nothing to hide in terms of my intent.

I don’t know how I could have possibly been less accusatory or kinder about it. If they felt it was manipulative, they did the right thing by not responding to me about it. I did not expect a response. They did not owe me a response. Asking the question doesn’t make manipulative or a bad person.

This was the first message I sent Karina:

And this was the second and last message I sent to Karina.

I have had no other communication with Drawfee or anyone involved in Drawfee since this all went down. They have not targeted me, and I have not messaged them. This was the entirety of our communication.

You may very well have behaved differently in my shoes, and that is your right.

I still believe it is totally within my rights to have both asked about the safety of the chat during a stream that had the potential to get quite heated and to have let Karina know that her publicly visible likes might have had unintended consequences because of the systemic biases that exist in our world. I also still believe it was OK to thank her for doing the kind thing and unliking them.

Feel free to believe me or not. I don’t care. This is all the information I have on the matter.

I also think you are justified in questioning my motives. I do not think you were justified in tagging your reblog of my post about this as “#insane.” That is rude and cruel.

Well Drawfee is officially no longer safe media for me :(

Karina liked multiple tweets conflating a PSA for antisemitism with Israeli propaganda and claiming that Israel planned its assault to coincide with the superbowl…

Julia liked posts claiming that the war isn’t a war. Nobody has liked anything about antisemitism or even acknowledging Jews are in danger right now.

TBH I’m devastated.

I have Drawfee art all over my home. I was actually gonna become a patron this year. I’d literally been saving to make it feasible. This is crushing. I feel sick.