#either way I guess it's hard to imagine bc even when I'm read as a girl I usually don't camp alone u know

[arseniccattails]

The main takeaway from man or bear discourse is always and forever that none of you spend any time in the woods. You will find both and you will probably be fine. And if you're not, you should be carrying bear mace anyways.

[yersina]

a linguist plays chants of sennaar (pt 5)

[pt 1] [pt 2] [pt 3] [pt 4]

the home stretch!!

disclaimer: can't promise that i'll have any insights that a layperson wouldn't have, this is kinda just me thinking through the grammar of the language out loud haha.

this post covers the fifth and last language in chants of sennaar and will contain spoilers for both the language and the endgame! it also assumes you know what the symbols mean already.

i.... to be completely honest with you, i did not enjoy this language 😂 i think the experience of deciphering it got lost in favor of the storyline, which isn't necessarily a bad thing for everyone, but hey, i am the one going through each of these languages like a linguistic bloodhound here lol. because of that, i'm not as familiar with these words as i am with the other languages.

before we get into anything else, and also because i imagine that this will be a shorter post because the game itself tells you what patterns to look for, i do want to say that this language strikes me as being incredibly artificial. which is a good thing! it emulates the digital apocalypse vibe that exile gives. but a language that leans so heavily into being constructed and recombined and modulated so easily really gives me the impression that it was created and not organically developed. the only other irl example that comes to mind at the moment is korean hangeul, which was purposefully created by king sejong and is an alphabet, not a logography. like, this is a language that i would make for fun in high school (which is to say, it gives a kind of overly grammatically strict, awkwardly too regular vibe?).

it's kind of funny that this language is where i'm starting to get reminded of conlangs, especially when, well, everything in this game is a conlang. but if we take each of the radicals in this language as affixes/morphemes when they're being combined into one character, then this actually reminds me of a specific conlang (ithkuil, i think?) where you can convey incredibly complex ideas through very few words.

the language of the anchorites isn't quite this complex, but hopefully the comparison gets my point across?

i’m curious if only certain elements can be combined with each other or if there’s a certain order to them, but it’s hard to tell when there’s such limited evidence in the game. interestingly, i believe the anchorites’ language is the only one in this game that makes a distinction between “die” and “death/dead” by combining the noun with the verb “go”. not sure why the developers suddenly made that decision haha.

this language, like most in the game, is an SVO language, which we can see below:

but i think also they (the developers) were trying to convey more complex sentence structures than their language was designed to communicate??? so then you end up w smth like below:

which, if you translated literally, would actually be “you man i wait”. again, super interesting bc i think an actual, more accurate anchorite sentence should be “i wait you man”. they have a more complex sentence here bc of the predicate (“you’re the one”) and the dative (“for”), but really the sense that they’re trying to go for is “i was awaiting the one [who is you]”. i guess it’s possible that different grammatical cases are treated differently in this language, or that, like english, word order is occasionally variable (even tho that option seems iffy bc we haven’t really seen evidence of it before), but tbh i suspect that really it’s that the developers wrote the dialogue and then brute forced it into the anchorite language haha. no shade! (and also impossible to confirm either way lol) just kinda amusing and also it makes sense when it’s p obvious their focus shifted from the language to the story.

this trend continues throughout all of the anchorite dialogue (imo) and makes it kinda slow and awkward to read if you don’t have all of the characters translated. in my opinion, the way that the language functions in the last part of this game makes it pretty clear that the developers meant for you to rely on the given translations during this potion of the game, especially when the translation mechanic is mostly through the matching terminals in exile, rather than speaking with people.

annoyingly, the anchorites’ language is also the only one in the game that doesn’t have words for the other people/cultures in the game (demonyms), which also doesn’t give much to work off of in terms of cultural context, relationships, etc.

again, i’ve decided not to get into an in-depth orthographic analysis of this particular language bc the game itself introduces you to them. one that i noticed that wasn’t specifically addressed in-game is the similarity between “open” and “key”, which is something that i actually also noted before in the devotees’ language. i’m sure there are others, but i’m also sure you can find them yourself!

all in all, a strange ending to this game. if you’ve made it this far in all of my posts—thanks for hanging around! hope you were able to learn smth new :)

[heymacy]

thank you so much for your answer! i actually didn’t expect such a in depth response— it actually made me kind of excited to rewatch the show so that i can give those seasons a try! i watched shameless as it was airing around s3 so it was really hard for me to cope with the idea of watching ian ‘moving on’ and bashing mickey without knowing he would be back etc. but i guess it should be time to face that considering who he gets married to! tho, if it’s okay, i wanted to ask more cause i love to see your take on it! for what ive gathered caleb cheated on ian with a girl saying it ‘didn’t count’, but was he also the one who told ian to try to be with a girl? cause i remember seeing something about it and it really pissed me off that ian even went and ‘tried’, considering s1 was him being very vocal about non being into girls! as for trevor, i did know about the monica ‘get over it’ clip because i always see people comparing it to how mickey has always been supportive no matter what (of course!!!) and also how trevor kind of forced himself on ian. i wanted to know what’s your opinion on those relationships of his, especially trevor cause it seems like it’s been the most controversial one as he spent two seasons around him. it’s funny in a way because the writers didn’t want mickey back but they still made every love interests ian had to be ‘wrong’ and showing everything that mickey would never do! also, this is out of pettiness mostly but considering all those seasons are about his bipolar disorder, does ian ever say that to his partners as a way to break up? or can i have a little of happiness thinking he just really wanted to protect who matters the most *cough* mickey *cough*. again, thank you for taking your time answering my question, i loved reading it!

hello again! more under the cut bc i'm quite chatty :)

first of all, yes, the "it doesn't count" + trying to have sex with a girl thing is true, and it honestly never felt very in-character for me. it was definitely A Choice on behalf of the writers. in fact, he gargles with mouthwash afterwards (or maybe it's vodka, i can't remember) and says "i think i have PTSD", which (of course) is meant to be humorous, but i do think it was a very jarring and confusing experience for him.

ohhhhhhh boy. the trevor of it all. well, let's begin by saying that there's a lot of controversy surrounding trevor. there are some really rancid anti-trevor takes that i don't agree with, primarily the ones rooted in transphobia, which i think is disgusting and abhorrent. i think people are generally either very anti-trevor or pretty neutral on him. i don't think anyone out there is singing his praises, or at least i've never heard a take like that in the time i've been in the fandom. as for me & my opinion, i think he is an incredibly frustrating, pretentious, self-serving character and he irritates me deeply. i think that while he could have been a good friend to ian, he fucked things up by trying to be his boyfriend. they were incompatible from the start and i honestly don't know why they started anything in the first place. like i know why, i just don't understand it. they had no spark. they had no connection. their only commonalities were that they were 1) both gay and 2) into advocating for homeless + at-risk youth. and that's like, it. they had friendly coworker energy, not electric, bone-shattering chemistry. my rating? 0/10 stars. i was very happy when he was written off and ian was left to sort his shit out on his own, unencumbered by a dissatisfying, toxic relationship.

and caleb.......ugh. fucking caleb! i'm surprised he doesn't get vertigo from riding such a high horse. he treated ian like an accessory and consistently put him in uncomfortable situations for no reason other than his own pleasure and/or to manipulate other people. the ONLY good thing he did was lead ian down the EMT path, and that is it. otherwise he was quite literally the worst. imagine cheating on someone and then being like "actually, this is a you issue." alexa, define "cold-blooded" 🙄

to answer your question, ian never credits his bipolar disorder when ending things with any other partner, no. trevor ended because ian ran off with mickey and lied to him about it/cheated on him (though they did spend another season in each other's lives in a really strange capacity, which was an interesting choice by the writers) and caleb ended because he cheated on ian. caleb was a clean break whereas trevor was super messy and drawn-out. but no, he doesn't talk about wanting to protect them from his disorder during their breakups. he tells them both about it early on, is transparent about it, and expresses his concerns about it being a lot to handle, but it isn't credited as the reason for the breakups, no.

i think when it comes to ian protecting mickey from his disorder, it's important for us to view things through an ian-centric lens. why did he do what he did? was it solely to protect mickey, or was it coming from a place of insecurity? a place where he felt like a burden? a place where he felt hopeless and aimless and scared? post-episode and post-diagnosis, it's very common to fall into what i like to call The Pit, which is essentially a shallow bed of self-loathing and the desire to self-isolate away from everyone and everything. we see a lot of that in the end of s5 and the beginning of s6. he's made himself very small, is afraid to do nearly anything for fear of further destruction, and feels incredibly trapped and frightened by his circumstances. all of these factors contribute to his behaviors and choices, including (but not limited to) breaking up with mickey. did he end things because he didn't want mickey to spend his life coping with the realities of loving someone with this disorder? yes. but he did what he did because he was scared. and i think it's really important we make that distinction when talking about and analyzing that storyline.

as always, if there's anything you want to talk about or if you have any other questions you are always welcome in my inbox! i hope you're having a lovely day 💛

[rotworld]

I just finished Avici and I had to come over here to express how amazing it was. I'm usually not into romance fics but Sukuna/Reader stories usually get at least a second look from me because his canon character is just very hard to write a 'normal' romance for so any story seriously tackling that is worth trying imo, and I'm so glad I did!

The characterisation of Gojo and Sukuna are wonderful, you really delved deep into the darker side of these monstrously powerful sorcerers in the frankly grim world of jujutsu. I've seen a lot of fics make these two softer (especially Gojo) so your portrayal is like a splash of cold water on a hot day lol. I don't even particularly like Gojo honestly but stories that show his darker side kind of make me see his appeal, a little.

I gotta say normally I'm ambivalent towards smut and don't actively search for it, but it's such a core part of Avici that I feel it wouldn't really work as well without it. The flashbacks and slow reveal of what exactly the reader is and the twisted bond they have with Sukuna and later Gojo really add a sense of tension and like, dread? To the whole thing, which was lovely. I also read your director's cut bc I was so enthralled, I'm blown away by how much went into it!

If you're willing to weigh in, what do you personally imagine happens to the reader during the canon timeline?

answer is long and contains jjk manga spoilers. 

aaaaaaaaaa that makes me so happy!!! i started out with very little interest in gojo but sort of wrote myself into liking him lol working on avici made me realize how easy it is to draw comparisons between him and sukuna. the things i've come to like about him are mostly things that lend themselves well to angsty scenarios, characters who are messy like that are like catnip to me. as for how things would go for the reader, it’s mostly just more misery.

by the end of the shibuya arc, the reader is in the custody of kenjaku and uraume. as a result of the failed noh exorcism, they have a strong connection to gojo so they would’ve felt it when he was sealed. it would resemble what sukuna’s dormancy feels like, and i think it would leave them with some complicated feelings. maybe that would be enough for them to leave and start wandering in search of some other way to pass the time, or maybe they’d stay there waiting. either way, uraume finds and retrieves them. this would probably involve a fight. the reader by the end of avici isn’t the docile creature uraume remembers. sukuna probably had the foresight to warn them, since this is an outcome he anticipated and even wanted, but that wouldn’t make the reader any easier to deal with. they are, by design, the kind of curse that only someone like sukuna or gojo can safely handle. maybe kenjaku can help with the apprehension lol

for the most part, i don’t think the reader would be very active. they would stick with uraume and kenjaku because they know that’s where they need to be. they would be there to spectate the culling game, they would be there when sukuna reappears in a new host, and they would be there when gojo dies. that might be the thing that finally sets them off, since they were counting on gojo to win that fight. if we’re going into fully indulgent territory lol then the reader would be involved in the final battle against sukuna, however that turns out. that’s the natural conclusion of their arc and it would be poetic for him to die at not only the hands of the thing he created, but the collective remnants of the people he used and tortured in the past. and it would be fitting for the reader to follow him, as promised, into whatever kind of oblivion comes next for curses. 

i guess that’s a little bleak lol but that’s more or less how it was always going to be. there’s no end to this for the reader, they’re stuck with him for eternity because he made them that way. but maybe there’s some closure there at least.

[pollocamis]

Well. I love reading headcanons, and I don't think I saw anyone do this one yet, so I thought I'd do it myself. That being said, I present to you:

NXX AND SWEARING

or: when do they swear & how they react to swearing

Luke

he's very polite so he's not one to swear a lot

and most people think he doesn't bc of that

but he does occasionally in a casual way if among the right people

as in when he's telling Rosa about his day he might be like "my God I had a client today and you won't believe what this motherfucker did"

and yes it might sound surprising to hear he'd say anything remotely bad when Rosa's present but it's also worth mentioning they have a very intimate relationship even before they date

swearing can be a sign of intimacy right

anyway getting back on topic: he definitely swears under his breath whenever he gets hurt in a mission or when shit gets real

bc his job can be and will be stressing and what better way to unwind than dropping an f-bomb amirite

is not phased at all if Rosa swears (they lived together for so long, he's definitely heard her say some abominations)

Artem

you'd think he's at the "never swore before and refuses to do so" tier

but hear me out: he's actually done so before and will do it again

never publicly tho

he's very professional so none of his colleagues ever heard anything remotely resembling a swear coming from him (and they NEVER will.)

but when he's alone he'll probably gently do so if having a hard time in a case or feeling frustrated or in pain or whatever reason

and if his colleagues never heard him swear imagine Rosa

she'll NEVER. EVER. hear Artem swear

unless their dinamic changes a bit later on I'm not sure about this I play the global server :P

tho I don't think he'd feel very comfortable in doing so

now that I think about it, I guess he'd feel guilty or at least strange if anyone heard, especially considering they'd definitely be weird about it (WDYM **ARTEM WING** IS SAYING FU-)

if Rosa swore around him (which I don't think she'd do) he'd be confused and probably worried depending on the situation (the confusion stemming from the fact he's not used to hear ppl swearing unless it's someone blatantly trying to disrespect him)

(she isn't ofc)

Marius

regularly swears

I read "Gordon Ramsay's child" in a tier list and I'm laughing (unrelated)

he's very professional and polite when speaking to ppl in business bc let's be real who in their sane mind wouldn't be haha *sweats in Brazilian while looking at our current ruler*

but put him among close friends and this kid know no boundaries in language

in summary: it's situational and he knows exactly what situations he should and shouldn't do so

as a bonus his father probably also swears with him at home once he's reached a certain age, I don't get the strict language parent vibe from him

I believe he tones the swearing down to a minimum when he's talking with Rosa tho

yk gotta cause a good impression

but will swear if not directed at her like "Artem needs to stop licking Neil's balls lmao" (he'd DEFINITELY say stuff like this if not for censoring)

when she does it back tho he's shocked for a sec but is back on track right away

only for the first few times tho, after that he knows what to expect

Vyn

he either doesn't know swear words on whatever language Stellis speaks or simply refuses to swear

either way he doesn't

at least not that we know of...

nah he doesn't

he's at the tier "has not sworn before but can if so desired" except he still hasn't desired to do so

he's had a strict upbringing as a prince so that's probably why

and also his thing with flaws yk he probably considers bad language a flaw

oh if only he knew about famous Brazilian poet (/j) Cris Nocolotti and her song that goes "when you say 'get fucked' for the first time/ you will retake the reins of your life in your hands" (loose translation)

if Rosa swore around him (which I don't think she'd do especially since she's calls him Doctor Richter after they're dating like come ON) he'd be amused actually (again depending on the situation)

yes I did say he thinks bad laguage = flaw but he seems to like seeing Rosa's multiple sides so there's that

Rosa

she does.

let's be real have you read those stories she's in

she's almost dying every five seconds

if she's never swore in any of those moments she's the most polite girl in the entire world

or simply already dead inside

anyway I don't think she cares a lot if she's not in a professional setting

or trying to cause a good impression ofc

or around someone who doesn't swear, I feel like she'd respect the other person's wishes (hence my thoughts on her w/ Artem/Vyn)

just like Marius: it's situational and she knows the right places

she doesn't get mad at people swearing tho and will be ok with the nxx boys swearing with her

now I wonder when hearing Artem/Vyn swear would she be amused or worried

probably both

[jiminrings]

binged the entirety of fail safe at once and all i have to say is that although yoongi was #publicenemynumberone to me (with namjoon coming at a remarkable position of #2) u might have ignited some miniscule feelings of compassion in me for him (THEY ARE BARELY THERE BUT THEY ARE STILL THERE IDK)

i would also like to kindly inform and congratulate you that you have succeeded in making me ugly cry with the epilogue and when i say ugly crying i mean UGLY crying like with hiccupping and the ever so attractive dripping nose, i'm not lying to you i was reading this when i was supposed to be studying and i cried so hard that my mom is now convinced that i have a cold that i am hiding from her due to all the sniffing i have been doing...

i am not very eloquent since english is not my first language and that becomes even more evident when i need to express my emotions so bear with my rambling because i'm trying so hard, i really am

i dived headfirst into reading this not knowing what to expect considering this is my first piece of writing by you but wow what an experience, this didn't have any grand showdowns or plot twists that i've grown accustomed to yet this evoked just as big of knee-jerk reaction from me

yoongi was infuriating, annoying and at times even unbearable but at the end of the day he was also just human, the same goes for oc she was pitiful, stubborn, struggling and just not in a good place but she got out of it and made the most of what she had and made a life for her, with or without yoongi and i admire her immensely for that

this was a bittersweet read for me, more sweet than bitter but it still had that bite to it and i'm pleased to tell you that ths is becoming food for my thoughts for the next couple of days, gonna wait a little bit for it to stop stinging before i re-read tho because the wounds cut deep lmao, made me feel almost melancholic i guess i can't really describe it, made me sad but the kind of sad that you end with a deep sigh and a wry smile

ps. this is the first time i've left a review(?) so i apologize if it's not up to the mark i don't really know what's considered acceptable or not yet...

{imagine a sack of potatoes (an apt representation of me) joyously bounding off to reading all your other works}

ok first of all i would like to kindly confirm u that even reading ur ask makes me want to cry in the ugliest manner that i ever have and ever will!!!!! i'm v sorry for making u cry AND making ur mom worry but TRUSTTTTT that i am so awed n flattered <3 also r u kidding me. english isn't my first language either but the way u make me this warm regardless???? the way YOU make me feel this loved in less than 200 words or so???? i'm so glad u are here w me n i can't wait for u to read more!!!! the both of them r painfully human n even without any grand showdowns, oc got the shortest end of the stick :-( thank u THANK YEWWWWW i'm very honored that u gave your first review ever to me of all writers!!! u don't have to apologize for anything at all bc this is truly one of the sweetest n warmest asks i've ever received!! THANK U BAE LOVE U 🫂🩷

[janiedean]

25th hour and city of thieves I never read the book so why did you compare them to jaime jon and ygritte

eeeeh it's been years since I dealt with either and god why do I even have to admit benioff can write when he wants to but anyway

25th hour has nothing to do with asoiaf it's just a really good script and it turned into a really good movie

the thing with city of thieves is... okay tldr the basic plot is two russian men (lev and kolya) are taken prisoner during the leningrad siege and are promised freedom if they manage to find eggs to bake a birthday cake for the daughter of the guy who arrested them (obv hard to find during a siege where everyone was dying of hunger), they go around trying to find the eggs, at some point they go out of town in this mansion where they supposedly had a bunch of chickens and it turns out that the mansion is full of girls who were kept there as nazi prisoners for you can imagine which reasons, they team up with the local partisans to save them, the partisans include a young girl named vika who is v good at warfare and eventually falls in love with lev, blah blah blah not spoiling things but at the end they have to separate then *she* finds him post-war bringing eggs, he tells her they can make an omelette and she replies she can't cook, that was your basic plot thing is, lev is a 17yo bucket of walking angst who has Issues because his father was arrested and deported by the government because he was too much of a free thinker for them and jewish, bad combination when it comes to stalin government (as far as I recall), doesn't really want to admit that he might be dead-dead at least in the beginning, doesn't talk too much and isn't too social, also being jewish he already felt singled out and like he had to mix/blend/be better than his father or smth like that kolya was taken prisoner for being a deserter, doesn't appreciate authority all that much, cracks bad jokes all the time and irritates lev bc he doesn't take shit seriously except when he gets serious when it comes to saving the girls used as unwilling prostitutes, if I don't recall wrong he was extremely attractive/charming vika basically was going guerrilla stuff, was a better shot than them, went at lev every other moment like I know way mroe than you about stuff (which she did btw), was the one pursuing him more actively and I don't remember if she was a redhead or not but like... the personality fit the bill now like idk if it was obvious from my bad summary and ofc there were differences (like for one kolya had a nice active sex life with a bunch of female friends instead of yknow toxic rship with his twin) but when it comes to character archetypes/personalities lev and jon were pretty much the same deal from the teenage angst to the daddy issues to needing to keep the family name honorable, jaime and kolya had a good 70% of basic traits in common and vika and ygritte were the exact same type including the romance where they make the first move and not being stereotypical feminine which is why idg why the fuck benioff managed to write a book with three main chars that are the exact same archetypes as jon jaime and ygritte with the obvious differences and then completely fucking up adapting jon/jaime in the series because if he could write city of thieves there is absolutely no way he actually misread the og characters nor didn't realize what they were there for so...................... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ idk and I guess I never will but if I wrote an asoiaf au of city of thieves with that recast no one would bat an eyelid, I compared them because they're the same tropes obv written different and in another context but it was so glaringly obvious I'm still asking myself wtf went wrong there almost ten years later

anyway as much as it pains me to say city of thieves was actually a pretty good book so like idk if anyone feels like obtaining it through whichever mean they find most ethical when it comes to maybe or not financing benioff it's not a waste of your time

[franstastic-ideas]

Mei, I am definitely looking at the Nimbasa Ferris Wheel event with the X-transceiver like I’m on The Office. Starry-eyed has an extra layer of cuteness knowing she wears space-buns. Nagisa could be a reference to something other than the water relation, but again, the kind of softness that matches.

The little gremlin! I like the fact spirit can have a double meaning as a “sprite” not so much in modern english, but more in word origin. And I see it mostly attributed to children. Nox is def related to night, the moon, ghost-type, honestly the mythology writes itself. You literally have an owl archer. And something in my brain ticks it as a good choice you went with Nox over Nyx or any other feminine-esque name despite also referring to a goddess for some reason, intentional?

Akari, The Skyfallen Luminary, and the one I could suspect to be your favorite bc it’s all kinds of pretty and fun. Honestly gorgeous all around. It’s not easy coming up with three word titles that captures everything you want in a way that feels alive or cool, but you’ve done it for sure. And Seraphina? I’m giggling even more I don’t need to google that to know the religious symbolism here, and with fire. Oh, PLA and Volo. You’ve started a whole thing here aesthetically. I’m bouncing off the walls from it tho, the research that goes into this is my jam, bread and butter.

Juliana (The Straight A's Scholar) GIRL PLS I’m bout to cry, I am not gonna get anxious over a Pokegirl y’all don’t KNOW what real college is like for hard science majors in your cozy Pokémon World (just got out of an exam) but FINE go be a scholar like in the old days. PHDs ain’t no walk in the park either irl. But alas, yeah, that’s Paldea for you, I GUESS I have to say congratulations. She’s a good girl, and bonus points for the culturally fitting nicknames.

This is not something I know how to express, but I read each name like it’s a title card of a movie flashing across the screen with a dramatic and lit up sequence with all the girls and little made-up animations and whatever else I picture that goes along with the backgrounds of the names and I go “hm yeah” *nods* that be them. So kudos all around!

Mei seems to be under the impression that she's in a shoujo rather than an adventure game. She sets off from Aspertia City with the hope that her journey will be filled with romance, that she will finally find her true love, her prince...

As much of a sentimentalist as she is though, do keep in mind that Mei still defeats Ghetsis at his worst.

I consistently refer to Mizuki as a 'horrid little creature', even though she's actually one of the taller girls. She moved to Alola from Kanto and originates from Lavender Town, so she has a camaraderie with Ghost-types.

You know that girl who asks Red or Leaf if they believe in ghosts and if told 'No', she replies, "That white hand on your shoulder... I'm just imagining it." That's Mizuki.

Akari's title is indeed one I hold in high favor, because of the multiple meanings behind it. Skyfallen of course pertains to her falling from the space-time rift, and a luminary is someone who inspires or influences others, referencing how Akari brings about change in Hisui.

But luminary can also mean 'angel'. When you pair that definition with her status as The Skyfallen, it paints the image of a guardian angel descending upon the region. Which is certainly what Volo sees her as.

Juliana, she's essentially the perfect student. She shows up to class on time, she loves every second of it, and she's entirely devoted to her studies. So much so, the grand majority of her Pokémon's names begin with the letter 'A'.

She has to do the intellectual heavy lifting between her and Arven. Juliana would be more than happy to tutor him, though.

[everybodyshusband]

Ok so I'm not really back to normal but I'm gonna ignore my tummy for a couple minutes in favour of talking to you because I've been dying to send another ask after your wonderful responses!!!

I'll send it in sort of bullet points bc idek if anything I'm saying is even coherent and this might be easier for you to understand? (Or it might not, I'm sorry) In my brain everything makes sense but then sometimes when I say it out loud or write it it's like "what the hell is she saying rn?" So here I go:

- that bit you wrote about swiss and Copia with the soap and swiss stops swearing even when not regressed... oh, it has my heart... Poor baby, I hope Copia makes it up to him with lots of cuddles! I can imagine them laying in bed, Swiss with his head on Copia's chest, as Copia kisses his forehead/hair/nose/whatever he can reach, and promises it's never going to happen again over and over until swiss believes him and eventually falls asleep... (He even drools a little in his sleep, but don't tell him shhhh)

- I understood what you meant about the part I thought I didn't understand in the rain fic! Ugh every time I read that fic I just wanna give him the biggest hug my poor baby... Their dynamic in that fic is so "it's rotten work" 'not to me, not if it's you' I'm screaming and sobbing about it 😭🥹😍

- I will literally always enable you to ramble about any of your fics! Anything! I'm interested!!! I promise!!!! Anything you want to bring up??? Guess what!? I'm all ears!!! Always!!

-not gonna lie I felt pretty shitty all day bc of my tummy (and still do) but your super sweet responses and thinking about sending you an ask kept me a bit motivated (and distracted from the fact that tomorrow is Monday and I gotta work 😭) so thank you!

- I wanted to ask if there's a specific fic that's close to your heart or one that you like a bit more or one you wish got more attention? Because I'll get my greedy lil paws all over it in like 2 seconds flat and start discussing it... I think I've read everything you've posted but I wanna hear your thoughts on your own stuff too!! 💓💓💕💗💗💖💖💗

You're probably sleeping rn and you'll probably see this tomorrow so I hope you slept well and the day ahead is good to you! 🩷

ooh, my darling anon, i've been hoarding this and all your other asks for much, much too long, i am so, so sorry !!! please know i love and appreciate each and every one of your kind words, even if it takes me a very long time to respond 💙

under the cut because of length, haha :'D

i hope that by now your tummy has settled down a bit, i'm sorry this bout of stomach issues seemed to hit you so hard :0 (oh, and don't worry ! your asks always make perfect sense, my friend !!)

don't worry, after the incident, copia makes sure to give soooo much extra love and care to swiss. that ghoul is not escaping those cuddles from copia without plentiful doses of extra love and chaste forehead, cheek and nose kisses, haha !! copia is so very willing to reassure swiss that he's safe and that it won't happen again, you're right (and you're also very right in that swiss drools right onto copia's papal vestments, but not to worry, the stain comes out ...eventually)

ah !! i'm glad it's making more sense now :D i have a chronic case of the "does not write the things in his head into the actual fic" haha !! i agree that rainy deserves all the hugs in the world, it's a very icky headspace for the poor little guy to be in and he deserves so many hugs for doing his best to navigate it. whether or not he accepts the hugs though is another story entirely...

again, i hope your tummy is feeling better by now. or maybe it's been long enough that you've cycled around into another rough patch ? ooh, i hope not. but either way, i'm sending you so many good tummy vibes, hehe <3 (and maybe you'll take solace in the fact that as i'm answering this, tomorrow is a wednesday rather than a monday ?)

ooooh, that's difficult, haha !! the rain fic you mentioned before is the one that's closest to my heart at the moment, i think. but i'm also quite attached to my most recent ficlet with regressed aeon and zephyr because oh my goodness, i love their dynamic and i want to explore it as much as i can, hello ?!? and then on the complete other side of the spectrum i'm very proud of this t4t raindrop filth, haha !! i think because they're all my newest works i haven't had the time to build up an "ew, what was i thinking !??!" response to them, so i'm still feeling very good about these three. and by the looks of it, other people seem to like them as well, which is a nice bonus :)

thank you very much again for your lovely asks, anon 💙 they make me smile and brighten my day every single time i look at them !! i hope life has been treating you well, my dear, and i hope that you have a wonderful day/night depending on where you are in the world 💙

[glittertrail]

hi there sandra!!! i hope you're having a great day!! ready for some questions? do you believe in making wishes on things/superstitions (etc 11:11, wishing on a dandelion, wishing stones?) if you do, which ones do you do/notice? was it a conscious choice to start believing in these things? if not, would you ever consider choosing to believe in them? either way, which superstitions are your favorite?

hi darling! I'm just finishing work so i am grand lmao ready to make plans and see people (and if nobody responds in the next 15 minutes, I'm ready to hibernate lmao) i went on a bit of a tangent so I'll put this under a read more 😊

i believe that any excuse/time is a good excuse/time to do/change anything you want and i believe that people that wish for stuff hard enough (and are stubborn enough) will get their wish so in a way, yeah, i guess i do lol but like, for the human factor not really the supernatural factor, i like to think of myself as superstition agnostic lol i knock wood when i say i hope something bad doesn't happen, i don't step under ladders but i won't go out of my way to like.. avoid cracks in the pavement

my favorite superstition is that in my home country (the seaside part of it) it's considered bad luck to take things from the sea, like seashells, bc the sea will come collect and you don't want to anger her (old way to say be careful at sea and all that), and it is my favorite, specifically, because my aunt is a little shit. I was told not to take seashells when i was 5yo bc it'd bring bad luck and naturally 5yo me said lol bet and took them anyway. So my aunt staged a blackout in the house and that suddenly oh wow we have no water whops i wonder what could be the reason

the problem w that logic is that 5yo me thought she had low key magic powers so she snuck out and took her even younger brother and cousins into an arduous quest to get rid of the seashells (in a park a couple of blocks away from the house) and naturally terrified all of the adults to hell and back bc of that lol bc imagine constantly having a small army of toddlers constantly babbling around and suddenly they all go quiet and you don't know anything about them for the two or so hours we were out, but yeah, it succeeded tho, to this day i do not fuck w seashells (and after that nobody tried to lie to me to teach me lessons ever again agsjsgsi)

[magnuficentwo]

Here comes the guyyy (this doodle is from an ask game response lol)

Xerxes is a bull centaur and one of hells three judges (it's the biggest authority position there), he has dominion over the Wrath district (which is alot like it sounds), and it shows on him. Overall he's on the side of blood stained justice and generally a warm hearted man, however he's just a little fucked up <3 To Xerxes, love and hate are not opposites nor necessarily separate. And by hate I mean the sensation of hating something as well as general rage and anger, he's fueled by this, and a love for battle. It's his love language, if you will. This is why he has a strange obsessive relationship to one of heavens judges (also the highest rank there, right below literal God), Ngah. To sum up she's a Karen who loves when things are perfect and sees herself as picture perfection and thinks everything must fit into neat boxes, everyone who doesn't, either isn't trying hard enough or isn't allowed to exist.

Their relationship is like. They hate each other's guts. She's one of the most important people to Xerxes ever (nowadays only coming second to his daughter). She just hates him. He loves her in this weird fucked up way (I mean why else would he hate her so much, right? Why else would they be such diehard enemies? It must be important. Even though she loves torturing him, he loves fighting her so the cycle just hasn't snapped yet. If he can't take her out with him, he will never die. He refuses). It's not romantic, or at least I don't mean it that way, especially since it's a deeply unhealthy, messed up relationship. It's just intense passion and obsession, moreso on Xerxes part, bc as I've explained he has a warped view of what love is (due to being abused in the past)

Oh also to finish this little babble off, he's a trans man and his daughter was made by Ngah, in a deal they made where he broke her out of prison in exchange for da baby. She's actually gained more understanding of and respect towards Xerxes very recently, so despite thinking of him as an enemy, she has people she now hates even more, and so. It's like, hey at least this lesser of two evils is extremely devoted to me! That must be a good thing, right? Because I'm so perfect! (Ngah fucking sucks she's an emotional abuser and serial manipulator she's my evil girlboss I love to hate her <3)

YEAHHH OC LORE !! I was literally so excited to read this <3 so sorry for taking so long, I thought I posted this WAAAY earlier.

OkOk. First things first, ohhhhh my god he is even a CENTAUR !! Right as I thought I COULDN'T love this character even more. Peak character design !! What a fluffy guy ! You'd hardly guess he's so immensely fucked up ! [Affectionate, compliment]. Having to keep track over a bunch of blood thirsty maniacs in a [what I imagine to be] pretty populated district sounds like tough work, and on that first drawing he looks pretty tired- poor guy needs a long nap. I can only presume this guy has been through quite some things, many battles, many losses- Are there any he particularly thinks about ? Was he always in charge of the Wrath district? Has he changed around any policies since he came to power? I'd love to see how this guy deals with stress, all things considered so far. I like to think he just goes outside and starts a fight with the first demon unfortunate enough to cross him.

And the thing about love and hate !!! That's so damn cool !! What a vision of reality, what a nice dichotomy !! And by all means he aint even wrong !! How based ! I do love me some characters influenced by both their personal philosophies and environment, it's so good. You may hate your enemies as much as you are able to love your life……. And his relationship with Ngah. By Stars above. These two have the most divorced energy I've ever seen. Imagine not even being married once but then also being divorced. Rip Xerxes, you would've loved "I love you like an alcoholic" by The Taxpayers.

God this relationship is so interesting to me, just reading about it now is fascinating, and I want even more of it. They hate each other so ardently that at some point it blinds Xerxes that it's love, it conflicts directly with his own worldview, while also being VERY affirming that he's right, like he is supposed to be. They are going to kill each other if they don't stop and both parties know it, but one relishes in that fact while the other might not even care. They're so toxic for each other that it makes them perfect for each other. They have a kid together and they don't even say anything about it it's like "god i hate you so much. fuck you so many times. Here's a kid btw thanks for breaking me out of prison or whatever. Fuck you die don't even perceive me. We do share custody yeah. Shut up though". It's even a Mansplain (Manslaughter) and Girlboss (Girlmurder) relationship…….. God I love these two. The world's most fucked up and insane least heterosexual straight people [/joking]

[Continuation]

Oooh yeah that makes sense !! Its an exchange that doesn't drain their own power source, but that leaves them tired anyway because it's an intense activity then ? It's kinda like like a bank then, like sharing an account and having loans and whatnot :D and Mother works well as a title ! Moms really are just like that.

Also thats so funny im sorry. Imagine being the [second] most powerful thing in the universe only to get turned into an animal without arms. I love that. Poetic justice

[wooahaes]

feeling that way about sex (or smut) isn't stupid. so don't feel like its weird. and its not not normal. just as there's a ton of people who might have sex on the first week of dating, there's people out there who would wait much longer. with the amount of people on this earth, i promise you that a great handful of people would be willing to wait for you until you feel completely reassured. and maybe this is me thinking hopefully, but you're not abnormal for feeling this way, the way you feel is completely valid. it's hard but try thinking on the bright side of things! you're telling me that there is about 7.8 billion people in this world and not a single one would be willing to wait? keep ur head up <3 and i totally understand the concept of doing intimate things without it turning into sex, the bathing together hc was really cute. so continue to post soft domestic things like that because u are not the only one who feels this way :) i hope this also doesn't sound too bossy 😭 i'm rereading it thinking i might sound a bit harsh but imagine someone with a soft and comforting voice saying this to you because tone conveyed through text is pretty hard sometimes (but anyways... enough of me rambling) i hope u feel better

gonna put all of my response under a readmore bc i can already tell i have thoughts lol sdfkhsdf

i think the way society talks about sex a lot now is like... basically tipping it hard into the other direction of things. it feels like it used to be a taboo topic that no one ever spoke about because it's a private thing, and now it feels like people have gone entirely in the idea of sex being something that should be 100% open and if you try to have a private life, you're a prude. if you wait, you're prudish and boring. i fully know it's not everyone (i have friends who are sexually active and don't give me shit for not being bc they recognize that being sex positive is the decision to choose whether you want to or not and getting support either way).

i think it's just discouraging to be someone who like... knows i can't just do that sort of thing without knowing i'm not going to get fucked over again by someone who just wants to get off and feels some need to pull someone else into it bc they know someone's vulnerable. that i'm not going to trust the wrong person again and walk away used again. it just feels like no one's going to hear that and want to stay because it's baggage, and that anyone who stays is going to eventually walk away because i took too long.

you're fine, anon, don't worry. it kinda helps until my mind starts spiraling a little (which i deleted out from this ask) and im just... a mess, i guess. i like writing domestic things, though. it's nice to just have non-sexual intimacy in my fics.

i literally have nothing against writers who write smut (as long as they're not hardcore glorifying shitty behaviors--it's one thing to explore those kinds of things in writing, it's another to promote it like it's something good and condoning people who actively want it because fucking trust me, i've seen that shit before), some of my mutuals do and i love them even if i have to hardcore avoid tht sort of thing sometimes (it rly depends on my mental state on whether i can like... cope with it lol). i just want more non-sexual intimacy in fics, y'know? i don't always want to read about getting dick when the prompt involved giving someone a massage or something. that's good for the people who do want that sort of thing, but not everyone does and that's okay.

although if someone does take an innocent/fluffy/domestic prompt and turn it into smut with zero warnings anywhere, i will bite them to death. tag your content correctly. thank u.

anyway thank u for taking the time to write this anon. i appreciate it a lot <3

[bonesandthebees]

what would you say is your favourite part of writing?

aw man that's hard because there's so many things i like, but I guess the broadest way I can put it is that I love seeing the stories in my head come to life.

I always say I started writing when I was around 13-14, but that was just when I started writing seriously. I actually started writing my own stories as soon as I knew how to read. I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 7 years old, and I had a tendency to zone out all the time. I have an extremely strong imagination, and would always get lost in these wild stories I made up in my head. But also thanks to the adhd, I'd often get distracted and lose my 'place' in the story I was playing out in my head, so I started writing them down to prevent that

so yeah. I love writing because I get to see all these stories in my head actually come to life on a page. I get to feel the things my characters feel, I can paint beautiful pictures with words, and then I get to share it so others can finally see the same things I see in my head :)

maybe I'm a self-fulfilling prophecy bc when my mom was pregnant with me, she told her friend what name she'd decided on and the first thing her friend said was that it sounded like a writers name. neither of my parents particularly like reading, they're both sporty and neither one even considered writing as something that could be enjoyable, so it was very out of left field. my parents didn't actively encourage me to read or write either outside of school stuff, I just gravitated towards it on my own. could just be confirmation bias, but either way, writing is my thing and I can't really imagine doing anything else

[blackberry-gingham]

💖because I'm curious

🤗because I need some

✨because you deserve it, queen

Rnskdkdo gosh, I feel so special 😭💖💖 thank you so much for the ask!!! Sorry this is another long one lol, but I hope you enjoy, these were fun!

💖 What made you start writing?

Oh gosh, I've been writing since I was 13 I think lol, so a little hard to say 😂😂 I've always had a really strong imagination I suppose, so when I'd consume a new type of media or "fandom" I always wanted to do so much more with the characters then what little I was given on the TV screen, so I started writing my own adventures for them :D

And look at me now 😂👍🏻

🤗 Advice for new writers?

Well I did answer here technically lol, but I do love to pretend I'm all that when it comes to writing, so I can drop another tip 😂😂

I feel like maybe this kind of relates back to the original answer I gave? but typing out a characters inner thoughts can be just as important as writing out their dialogue, ESPECIALLY if you're dealing with a particularly complex, or even disturbed, character. Yes yes, it helps build atmosphere and prose in your writing, but more importantly it gives us as the reader a chance to relate to or at the very least, understand said character and their feelings/motivations

How much or how little you let us peer into a character's psyche depends on how much you want us to either hate or else emphasize with the character, after all. For example Sabretooth, when written to his fullest, is an extremely disturbed individual of course- he doesn't see people or lives, he sees objects to maim and destroy. Killing is fun for him, and the bloodier the better.

You could only frame his mindset about killing for fun and not seeing people as people to make us despise him- that way we feel our emotional investment is paid off if/when he is defeated later on. On the other hand, sabretooth kills and hates people (*cough*humans) because he was severely and horrifically abused, even tortured tbh, as a child so invoking information like that and certainly his own memories of those times could be used to make us feel sympathy for him instead, if that's what you wanted.

Either way, it's all about getting your readers to feel- and no better way then to get your character to tell us what they're REALLY thinking by putting us in their heads 👍🏻

✨ Complement your own work, mwahahaha

Smskslsls another hard one 😭😂 Well a little secret of mine is that I will basically never write about a situation or story unless either I myself have experienced it, I witnessed someone in my personal life experience it, or I have taken the adequate time to become EXTREMELY familiar with the circumstances surrounding what I'm writing- simply bc I strive to write as realistic as possible for my readers

I guess I do like that a lot about my writing lol. Often times I'll read other fics, particularly reader inserts, and it just feels extremely obvious (to me at least) that the person writing it has never experienced, or at least never closely studied, the emotional situation they're writing about. It immediately triggers this very intense case of "real people do not and furthermore, would never, act this way in these circumstances" and pulls me out of the story you know?

So yeah, I'm proud that I pour out my heart and soul to try (with over all success, I'd dare say) my utmost to make sure my readers never get that jarring feeling while reading my work

[nathank77]

4/22/24

2:37 a.m edited..

So after a thorough investigation of fb, you can't hide your tags if the post is public if it's someone else's post. All you can do is untag yourself.

You only have full control over your posts. I mean you have control over your tags but I know you're not removing and re-adding your tags. I tested it with my multiple fb accounts bc I had to know. I'm actually a, "victim," of the metaverse/keyword data tracking. I went on my computer and searched first name last name family reunion, bam its there. First name last name ex husband's name bam.

So If I haven't terrified you and made you think I'm a complete psychotic mess, I mean you probably were waiting for me to make this discovery. Although I'm going to be real.

You're scared of me, you think I'm a crazy stalker, that I'm insane and you prob only come to my tumblr to make sure you and your family are safe.

I probably scared the shit out of you posting about your divorce, I could only imagine. I didn't type in info to find the photos, Elise. All i typed was your first and last name and fb constantly changed what was tagged under your name... and I thought you were communicating with me bc when I searched things up about tagging and fb I couldn't find direct answers.

Anyways If you aren't scared of me, I'm sorry I lost myself. I guess I'll check your actual fb occasionally like once a month or something. Cause that never changes and generally that's all you have control over. Unless you want to untag and re-tag yourself which isn't realistic.

I feel like a fucking idiot.

Wake up by silverstein really fits right now. I can only imagine what you see when you look at me.

As of this moment i have this:

1) your pose change

2) the fact you haven't blocked me or rejected it- which could be a way to protect yourself from me...

3) it going from everyone to friends the day before i went to the brass mill mall.

4) it going from friends to everyone the day before i went to the west farms mall.

5) your bio and profile picture changing the day after I posted about your divorce from your ex husband and how it appears he left your daughters without a father. And I posted shape shift the day before.

99% of this could be circumstantial. I mean the pose the day you blocked me is a little hard to believe unless you're protecting yourself... I don't think it was circumstantial...

The friends to everyone and back I mean it could be a way to say I'm reading...

Either way my intentions were good and fb really played with me. You never did.

I hope you don't see a psychotic crazy guy you need to protect yourself from. I'm not coming for you. I wish you'd come for me though.

I don't expect anything from you. I never expect to see or hear from you again. I can only imagine how I look. Over here like this post changed. Omg you posted this. Christ I want to jump off a bridge.

The worse part is only bc I have psychosis am I beating myself up over it- I would have assumed you could control individually what shows up when someone searches you...

Yet that doesn't matter. I'm sorry I can only imagine what you see when you look at me.

I'm sure you think I'm a psychotic stalker. I'm sure you don't see me as the boy across the Webcam anymore. I'm sure at this point our eye contacts only means one thing to you- I don't see Nathan behind those eyes anymore.

I'm sorry you met me. I'm not sorry I met you. You're still a poem earth wrote to keep me alive. Although I'm sure I'll never hear from you.

"I saw the light, I went to hell

But the devil never looked my way"

"Flatlines now I've lost my tomorrow

I've paid the debt of the time I've been borrowing

Nothing can save me

There's nothing in the mirror

Now all I am is a dead reflection"

I'll assume you are protecting yourself and you think I'm insane.

All I am is a dead reflection- I went to hell (psychosis) but the devil didn't look my way- bc I only ever meant to love you even if loving you meant never knowing you.

I truly hope you're happy and I hope I didn't terrify you. All I ever wanted was for you to be happy.

Goodbye Elise.

[misteriios]

cont'd from ✗ bc of beta | brianna & jamie ( @redjamie2 )

❝ thank you. i am hundred percent certain you will too ❞ someone as smart as her father, she is sure he will start to learn most things. everything you need to survive in a more modern society than what he was used to. some things remained the same. brianna is proud of her parents too, how far they have come. her mom who could just change her whole living situation when she wanted to live in the same time as jamie, that was something she admired about her. for her hadn't it been as easy, but she learned to live with the new life. she's glad her kids grew up in their times, the year she's from, she did not think it was much better and she had no family there either. not with frank gone, she had no one left, except from roger. she belong more in the past than the future too, so she wanted her kids to have what she never had, a big family to grow up with.

❝ it's sad i never got the chance to meet them. did mom meet them? your parents. good you have the younger generation to teach you things you do not know ❞ she teased, laughed ❝ ian has learned me things i didn't know and you too. we all learn from each other. ❞ she loved to talk about the family, they meant the world to her.

she nodded when he said he has complicated feelings about frank. bree can understand he has. can't be easy to know another man raised your child in another time and you didn't know about her ❝ from what i can remember of him wasn't he a bad father, he did the best he could even though i am sure he knew i wasn't his biological daughter. i cannot imagine how it must be to know such a thing and yet do the best you can do in that situation because you want someone to have a good life. i am sure he had mixed feelings about you as well, knowing mom loved you too, or more probably. made me wonder if she only was together with frank after she came back for me and they somehow tried to make it work. ❞ she shrugged.

difficult to know and her dad was gone, so she could never ask him about the whole situation and why they were still together. what he felt about everything ❝ yes, he made me feel safe. i'm sure mom felt it too ❞ she couldn't speak for claire's feelings, she only guessed. deep down was bree sure her mother loved frank too.

listening to the story about the past made her sad. on the other hand she understood it was to protect the both of them. just sad he had to go through it. she knew jamie had been through much, and no good person deserved any of it. how he still stood with both of his feet on the ground was impressive, very inspiring ❝ did you know about me, then? if you asked her to go back. i understand you did it to protect us even though you didn't know if you probably would see her again or meet me. did you ever think of it? that you wouldn't be able to hold her in your arms again? i cannot imagine what it must be like to know someone you love is so far away. roger and i were away from each other, but we found our way back to each other, just like you and mom ❞ perhaps were they similar in that way, they knew they would meet each other again. you shouldn't give up your hopes too quickly.

brianna sighed. it was so hard to think how their life were. not more complicated and messy as anyone else. they just had a long family history. with much history that has shaped the future they know about today. little did they probably know their choices would mean something. those wars they fought to keep everyone safe, these brave men who went out there to fight for their country without knowing if they would survive or not. she read much about it in the library here in dc, she knew how it went ❝ i know you lost the war, i read about it, but at least you tried, right? and that's what counts, to fight for your country and the future to make it a better place ❞ important to do everything you could. you can't always win, even though you wish you did.

❝ oh? ❞ she smiled when jamie said he fainted, seeing claire again after so many years had passed by ❝ not sure if that is charming or not. i guess, it is a normal reaction sometimes ❞ she tried to make it sound as it wasn't so bad. people could faint when they saw someone they hadn't met on a while, she had seen it on tv.

her eyebrows raised. too embarrassed to get too many hugs? well, perhaps not anything wrong with it. some people didn't like to get too many hugs ❝ why, was it not normal back then? the year i grew up, i think it was pretty normal, people hugged their friends when they met. what i saw... i didn't have many friends ❞ she didn't care much about it, friendships could be complicated ❝ ah okay, glad you two have somewhere to live. both of you are always welcome to visit me. maybe i one day can try to cook something from your time? your favorite dish, if you had one ❞

better with the food now, than then. more maybe better recipes? she tried to make good food in the past so her kids wouldn't go around being hungry ❝ by the way, i just have to mention that you were all inspiring people. everyone i had the chance to meet. i do not regret a second that i decided to go through the stones, it has been my best decision i have ever made. well, if you forget the first minutes i had there, but not everything can be good ❞