Informant Really Does Care (About Family)
I got brain worms the other night so (arms stretched wide) hi everyone thanks for tuning in to yet another analysis of this guy
this one's a combination of a continuation to my older 'he cares about the townspeople' analysis and also a third parter to my analysis about his family
spoilers under the cut as always ^_^
Initially i had thought that Informant didn't truly like his family, with how dismissive he was when he first revealed himself to felix in the forest-- his words being 'i had to leave my friends, home, and family' with family being the last in the list (mild hinting at how he wasnt really a fan of them from the start)
or how when informant and felix first reunited, they had almost gotten into 2 arguments, first one due to felix almost resigning as the mayor and informant trying to convince him not to do so, which led to informant revealing that felix has never really listened to him when they were children and was always making decisions for him
the second argument being how felix wants informant to come back and throw away his life of being the informant and just live as his brother which leads to informant cutting himself off from the family
but in the scene where he decides to cut himself off from his family, he says this
but the thing is that even with how detached he acts towards felix, he genuinely does care still
like.. informant was going to sacrifice himself by becoming the wolf forever for the sake of felix, to put his worries at ease, and just before he was going to do it, he asked me to give him a locket which contained a picture of him and felix when they were young and he says this
'it reminded me of what truly matters'
or when he had to submit to the witch to figure out why he was acting so recklessly, (the thought parasite arc) the thing that calmed him down was a childhood memory and he has also kept keepsakes from their childhood. I Am Crazy
I feel like this strained behavior that he has around his family is connected to an inferiority complex he has,
similarly to how he doesn't talk about himself much, he also tends to brush his own issues aside
note how he says it has a passing remark, lets it linger for a bit and then just moves on as if it isn't a big deal
"i still bring my loved ones so much trouble" and "i thought felix would be better off with me"
i think this was a product of the thing that felix had said to him just before informant disappeared
"I have no time. There's a pile of papers i have to deal with"
and while felix did admit that the paperwork was more important to him than informant at the time, his disappearance was a burden on his shoulders <- his words
and reminder, informant was already a pretty solitary person (and frankly, quite lonely) before he became the werewolf, a person who had always kept to himself
i imagine felix saying this was also a blow to his self esteem. He never felt he fit in with the people around him, and now his own family is turning him away? it must be hard to have to warm up to family again after being apart for so long
he misses him, but he acts detached, arguing as if they were young and then cutting himself off from the family... Informant feels too kind for his own good if i could be honest, kind and independent to a fault.
i was absolutely fooled by him.. he truly does care...
ALSO i don't know if i mentioned this in the previous family analysis stuff but one thing i love about felix and informant is how they perceive each other's actions differently
Felix is protective of informant because he's his little brother, and by quite a large age gap too so its natural for him to feel like an instinct to worry and want the best for him but but informant perceives that as felix being controlling
and WHILE YES, THAT BEHAVIOUR ESSENTIALLY MAKES FELIX NOT QUITE CARE ABOUT HOW INFORMANT FEELS ABOUT THE DECISION MAKING, FELIX'S INTENTIONS ARE OVERALL GOOD BUT INFORMANT TAKES THAT AS NEGATIVE
and Informant wanting to take back that control of his life.. felix perceives that as informant rebelling and "not him" because informant had been obedient to him for so long and now that informant's doing his own thing felix feels apprehensive to it
blood is thicker than water but neither water or blood can account for separation from it's source. they've existed outside their roles as siblings for so long with different experiences that they're just different people at this point
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Funny ask cause you said Helena is stressed when her parents are visiting, what would be her reaction if baby or toddler MC ran up to hug them first time meeting them?
Panic. Actual panic. She’d quickly lunge for the MC and grab you, holding you in her arms so you didn’t rush at her parents.
If she wasn’t able to do so and you reached Elizabeth and Rainier?
Well… Rainier would offer you a smile, albeit a small one, and sort of give a small head nod in acknowledgment of your presence, but he wouldn’t do much more than that. “It seems your child is in high spirits, Helena.” Maneuvering away from your touch, making room for his daughter to grab you, he tilts his head. “I assume it’s something they’ve acquired from Saraya?”
Elizabeth? She’d completely stiffen up the moment you made contact with her leg and she’d get a look on her face that’d be almost impossible to decipher. She’d pat your head but then sort of shoo you away. “What a delightful—” Her lips purse, clearly trying to work over a polite adjective, ruby eyes meeting her daughter’s. “—creature you have here, Helena. Do you plan to keep this one too?”
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sangsoo have such an interesting and compelling dynamic bc they're so different that the contrast between their personalities is so chef's kiss.... han sooyoung is all rough edges, anger, bluntness, tsundere, tough meanie persona on the outside (but actually so full of love) while yoo sangah is so calm, composed, kind, intelligent, perceptive, and i love the way she teases han sooyoung...
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these days i look at arthur & wonder if he'd have changed had he not contracted tb... bc he already knew that the world doesnt allow outlaws. he already knew or at least suspected that dutch didnt have the gang's best interest. he already knew how things would turn out... or at least suspected.
bc i feel like even without tb, arthur still wouldve tried to save ppl simply bc thats just who he is; hes a responsible, caring person beneath all that tough guy act. & even if dutch was his father that man was tearing the family apart w his madness & bringing other ppl—innocent ppl—down w him too...
he might have grumbled, huffed & puffed, & self-deprecated his way through but he would have still helped people in ch5 & ch6 w/o the tb... the illness just accelerated everything...
("i aint a do-gooder" mhmhmm so why did you help albert mason even tho you had nothing to gain from his friendship? why do you keep helping strangers that have nothing to benefit you financially? why did you rescue a young girl from a murderous incestuous cult, sent her back home, & refused the money her mom was offering you for her return? why do you keep rescuing & helping ppl left right & center everywhere you go?
low honor arthur is canon but high honor arthur is even more so bc of all the things you can do in some of the stranger missions... where youre basically forced by the narrative to help them. sure, some of them do give money to arthur but some dont... some of the stranger missions he does are truly out of the goodness thats hidden in him.)
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She would’ve expected the softness to have been beaten out of him by everything that had happened. She knew it would have been beaten out of her, if she were in his shoes. In some ways, he had hardened up. He was harsher, colder, more pragmatic. It fit him, made him seem more mature as a sect leader. And yet, by some strange miracle, she was allowed to see beyond the facade of Jiang Wanyin, sect leader. Hidden beneath those hard layers was a boy that still cared with such an intensity it would someday tear him apart.
For reasons she could not fathom, he shed that shell around her, and trusted her with the soft interior. She did not feel like she should be trusted with this vulnerable core of his person, but to explain why would be to change everything, so she took the vulnerability he handed her and did her best not to shake.
I've finally finished the Golden Core reveal part of my chengqing fake marriage au! this fic ended up way longer than I planned because I enjoyed writing Wen Qing's POV too much. oops.
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