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non-comprehensive haruhi autism creature comp
i mean just look at him she's literally
#kiss kiss fall in love :|#i'm not kidding there's so many panels like this. haruhi is a little bug with big beautiful brown eyes. literally (O_O)#nobody else is drawn like this in the manga it's just haruhi#still going through the manga yippee#ohshc#ohshc manga#fujioka haruhi#haruhi fujioka#i am a big believer in autistic haruhi and this isn't the biggest reason but it is a funny reason to me#also hitting haruhi with the he/she headcanon beam. i can't help it but also i mean. maybe a little more justifiable with haruhi than anyon#else i can think of. like just look at the show idk read the manga#ouran high school host club#ouran koukou host club#woahh fancy fancy pulling out all the stops (i guess)#eugh i should stop writing tags my laundry's been done sitting in the dryer for like. 20 minutes#also sorry these images are so small and busted i uh didn't look at them before posting and am not going to fix them <3
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another theory i have is that Saiki doesnāt exactly have a protective āspiritā. instead he has nendou. nendou is basically his protective spirit. Canon supports this and i am weirdly passionate about this theory. like it is basically canon to me.
#nensai#think about it. actually think about it. it makes sense right?#nendou is saikiās first close friend after akechi and the incident#he shows up before anyone else and attaches himself to saiki for little reason#he gets beat up to protect him#he saves him multiple MULTIPLE so many times both in small ways and really big ones#heās always the first to defend saiki AND always knows what saiki needs internally- often moreso than saiki himself#heās basically always around saiki#without him saikiās whole life gets fucked over and he becomes a whole ass background character#when saiki is trapped in the dream world he meets nendou and is only able to wake up when he finally recognizes nendou#likeā¦like heās his protective spiritā¦#this is also why i have a guardian angel nensai au
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my fellow anxiety havers what is one of your mundane day-to-day tasks that should by no means be anything remarkable but feels like you are being hunted for sport. iāll go first: putting all of your groceries on the conveyor belt during checkout is like a long series of quick time events to me
#marzi speaks#itās bc like. you have a cart Full of groceries#there is a cashier looking to scan the groceries#there is (often) a bagger looking to bag the groceries and put them back in your cart#goal: get as many groceries onto that belt as fast as possible#REMEMBER: heaviest items go first so that nothing gets crushed when the bagger puts the groceries back in your cart#it is so stressful. move so fast āwhich of these items is gonna be heavierā getting to the end and realizing you missed like 3 cansā¦#itās even worse if there are ppl behind you. i live in texas so i can at least make socially acceptable conversation with the cashier#EXCEPT iām already way overthinking the conveyor belt situation. iām already frazzled#and now i gotta do small talk? oh god#on the bright side i am so fast at it itās insane. i move faster than the cashier can keep up with#which is A Good Thing. bc that means i am at max efficiency#but like. WAAAUUGHH#and then u pay and hope the card reader isnāt gonna be a bitch#and you sit there for a moment while the cashier and bagger bag the rest of your groceries#and ur like āā¦.should i help should i stay hereā#tbh checkout is why i like never go grocery shopping alone if i know i wonāt have self check out#bc what if there is no bagger. then i gotta balance Get Groceries On Belt. Pay For Groceries. AND Bag The Groceries#ouh god the time concerns. no . never. you canāt make me do that alone#someone handles the transaction while the other person bags itās the only reasonable way to do it#i KNOW logically that it is not a big deal. but i hate the idea of making anyone wait for me
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#just a small request#since this is something that many of us have experienced over the course of time writing rare pairs#if you read a rare pair fic and choose to comment#please do not say something along the lines of#i would have preferred seeing a with b instead of c#or#it was hard to read a fic where a was friends with b but romantically with c#even if it's sandwiched between nice statements#that's... not the fic we chose to write and that's not the fic YOU CHOSE to read#i defo do get it if you would prefer to read the most popular pairing in the fandom... it's popular for a reason#but you can either go out and find the fic someone else has written that is a similar story but with the pairing you prefer#or you can try to write it with your preferred pairing you know?#and you can just leave the writer of the rare pair out of that lol#i promise we already know what we are writing is not to the liking or preferences of most everyone out there#we definitely know#thank you for giving it a try! i know that's a big big deal for a lot of people!#buuuuut also it just... does take a little bit of the shininess and enjoyment out of it seeing these kinds of things too#thaaaaaank youuuuuuu and please know i'm saying this with love and kindness and understanding#and that i really hope i'm not making anyone feel directly pointed at or lectured or anything#just wanted to maybe give a gentle reminder/make a request hehe
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ā„ todayās akito is from kohaneās untrained āa world full of excitementā card!!
#akito shinonome#kohane azusawa#an shiraishi#toya aoyagi#vivid bad squad#project sekai#proseka#pjsk#prsk#does anyone else feel like kohaneās mic looks super tiny#i guess thereās no reason for it to be bigger but it just looks small#actually i tend to feel like the card artists draw hands quite small#itās usually only noticeable when they have their hands up near their heads#they draw heads really big sometimes too#i think those were more so problems with the earlier cards#they have definitely improved the card art in many ways#i feel like thereās been a big jump in quality of the untrained since around the 3rd anni#daily akito#does anyone actually read all my tags?#cause i chatter in the tags a lot#OK if you read the tags this far reply to this post with like a hamster emoji or something
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might sound weird to say as a person with a couple ocs who have Big Horrible Event(s) in their backstories or as a person who has like 3 ocs total bc he sucks at writing and as a person who hopes their ocs arent too Boring with [the thing im about to mention] but the thing about writing [characters] and [people] is that like.
any little thing a person experiences can take up their whole existence... its actually something "fun" to experience as i meet new ppl and do more things. My friend had something happen that she'll be talking about forever. I had several things happen last year that ill never stop talking about, some of which other ppl think werent that bad actually. In the same way I'll forever remember about the way my sister accidentally insulted me almost 10 years ago, it's really interesting and Fun to find and assign smaller things like that to characters...its really Real. some people's dealbreakers are other people's solvable problems etc etc
#(as well as the opposite: Big Event that maybe shocks everyone around em but they genuinely werent shaken by)#though this one is more common and leads to those ''ohh i didnt know that was normal oops'' moments#talkys#inspired by recent me and friend events#and also recent events where i told sum ppl more stuff about Thing and they responded as if it wasnt a big deal. but it was to me.#and also how i thought a part of al's childhood backstory was kind of maybe dumb and not realistically as impactful as id expect#but i saw someone on reddit almost word for word write that as their experience and how its shaped em as a person#and thats it like... the small things are boring and hard to keep track of sometimes#its not like you'll include every single little event your oc was shaped by in their bio#but idk. its like Fun to piece together for fun. to mold a human being#ykwim? wld be silly to tell everyone ''oh my oc struggles with self image due to many instances like... when their sister called em ugly''#or write it anywhere but it is fun to Know and have in your head. and its real !#just like if a friend told you about something that happened to em#long post#delete later#sorry i keep saying stupid obvious shit lately ive always been bad at oc making AND socializing so im learning everything late#but anyway yes. idk even as i keep making ocs that are ''similar'' its like. every person so different#people can react to anything in any way for any reason. i love people#this is why i struggle a bit with keeping ocs to archetypes i guess bc like. what is ooc for an oc. people contain contradictions all the#time. you can change yourself at any time.#ok nobody will read this far so ill go to the real insane rambling#part of this has been a part of my chats with talon while trying to get him to share more info#like. yeah ok you're 400+ years old the things that happened to you were such a comparatively small part of your life#but humans dont live as long and think about small things until they die. i dont think time would heal all wounds actually. not all of em#some thoughts just always come to gnaw at your brain. its ok to not be over things. i feel ill never be over some things#and also complainerism can be fun but thats something else entirely wee hee ^_^
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Do you ever think fairly oddparents would do a episode with this https://www.tumblr.com/bjdavis5/758473581068992512/thoughs-this-would-be-the-theme?source=share
Due to it not breaking the timeline of channel chasers?
(Embedded link to post by @bjdavis5 . Iāll go reblog the post as well in a moment by Iāll be sharing my thoughts on the general premise here)
I loved the Hall of Timmy as a kid ā moments like that are why so many people want to at least know more about Timmy in ANW, and why so far Iāve emphasized his importance to Peri, Cosmo and Wanda in my fanart/fics
Do I think the Hall of Timmy will come back, and if it does, will Hazel use magic to talk to the ten year old snapshot of Timmy there? Eeeeh, Iām actually not sure.
On one hand, I just donāt see Timmy playing a big part in Hazelās story. The show has brought back characters that are connected to Timmy ā Crocker and AJ ā and reintroduced them in ways that, if you didnāt watch the original show, you probably wouldnāt notice the lack of Timmy through them ā AJ is the grown up child genius who started an institute, and while Crocker both references and name drops Timmy, Cosmo also specifically notes that Crocker was once his and Wandaās godkid, changing the relationship connections from being primarily through Timmy to being to them. Cosmo and Wanda themselves were given a ten thousand year gap between Timmy and Hazel, and while I refuse to believe they donāt love him or see him as a son any more, thatās enough time that it makes sense they donāt bring him up that often ā itās enough time that they probably donāt compare Timmy and Hazel at all or think of them in the same category
The only character I can see as a way to connect Timmy to Hazel is Peri because of the big brothers connection, and throughout season one Peri never actually brings up Timmy himself and Hazel doesnāt actually get one-on-one bonding time with him
Plus like, as much as I love the Hall of Timmy, it almost seems like it would be a cheap way to bring him back? Unless they find a way to do it to make it land, I canāt see them bringing back the biggest character in the series as a picture-clone ā maybe they could have Hazel wander through Cosmo and Wandaās house and stumble upon the Hall as a way to reintroduce Timmy, before later actually showing up adult Timmy, but not using the picture-clone thing, OR Timmy being brought up in a way that emphasizes his importance to Cosmo, Wanda, and Peri, which includes a reference to the Hall, which Hazel later seeks out and uses magic to make a picture-clone (I canāt see her stealing a wand, so it would require her either getting her own wand ā return of Fairy!Hazel and Lezah? ā or maybe, maybe, Peri coming with her and using his magic). It would have to be part of a multi-episode arc to work in my mind, basically
All that saidā¦ eh, I trust the writers, and theyāve surprised me with the characters/rules/concepts theyāve brought back. Plus, the writers clearly love the original show. The Hall of Timmy, even if it was just in the end of one episode, felt like a big deal. Itās one of the earliest and most tangible ways Cosmo and Wanda have shown their love for Timmy. It just feels like the kind of thing the writers would take advantage of.
So yeah, basically Iām skeptical, but I would also be surprised if the writers never at least considered taking advantage of it
Buuuut, if anyone has a fanfic about this premise, Iād be down to hear about it
#ask#anon#fairly oddparent#fop#Timmy coming back in any official capacity is A Big Deal#thereās a reason why there were so many negative reactions to not-Timmy before the writers got on twitter to say he was not Timmy#the Hall of Timmy ā for as big a deal it was ā just feels like it would be too small a way to bring him back ya know?
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It's rough out here right now, hope you're doing ok
Awwww, this is really sweet, and thank you, I'm doing okay, I hope you are as well!
#I have a lot of complicated feelings but most of them are fandom-reaction-related vs. liam himself#i'm in the camp of it's tragic to see someone die so young even if it wasn't surprising given what he was going thru (and for so long)#my heart goes out especially to his son and to maya and to the rest of his nearest and dearest as well#and to those who felt touched enough to come back to a space they'd long abandoned to feel that reconnection#but ALSO also there's some hypocrisy on multiple fronts that fills me with (more than likely misplaced) fury#i'm doing my damnedest to block that shit out because the rage is for reasons both big and small and i can read a room#against my better judgement i have lurked#and dear god#what i could put on my salty sideblog#it's not the time nor the place--the man in question had many faults but that level of pettiness wasn't one of them
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the way everyone is talking about how illegal the mcl38 is but the car doesn't even have enough of an advantage for it to be benefiting that much from whatever they're doing. If charles had defended better the result in baku would be different, oscar won on his own merit and (finally) with mclaren making the right calls.
#this isn't a dig at charles btw#it's simply that oscar was better#ferrari had the pace to win#the reason why mclaren have lost so many races is because any small mistake costs them immensely#they don't have a big margin over the rest.#oscar piastri#charles leclerc#mclaren#ferrari#red bull racing
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1. Saw the length of the video and wondered if Spine was actually going to say anything nice about GG (Answer: Not really. Had a few things to say about Spider-Man though.)
2. GG has multiple bodies
#idk if he was referring to Delilah or what but hey thatās pretty freaky#it sounds about right#curious to know how the bots deal with her when sheās giant#TBF in the first Radio Adventure episode I automatically aussumed GG was giant for some reason#the big booming voice and the nervousness from the bots about her other features made me think she was massive though I know sheās small#so maybe itās that#or maybe heās referring to that time she turned into a dragon#IDK#point is#GG can be giant if she wants to#I like to think that she only has the choice between her tiny body and her massive body#so she chooses her tiny body for the sake of convenience#now imagine if she manages to get her consciousness into that tiny little figurine too#then how many bodies will she have??#steam powered giraffe#spg#the spine spg#gg the giraffe#my stuff
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alright. know what? with Secrets of the Obscure right around the corner and plenty of new Mists-related sky island settings coming with it, I'll just bite the bullet and interest-check a little something I've been turning in my head for a long, long while.
would YOU be interested in a Mists-based GW2 roleplay guild that uses a lore compliant multiverse system to allow canon, canon-adjacent, lore-breaking, and otherwise 'contradictory' muses to coexist in the same setting?
simply put: every writer's cast would be set in their own self-contained universe. as such, everyone could bring whatever muses they want with their own personal headcanons, and no one could dictate what is or isn't canon for anyone else. so long as your muses are GW2-based, you're good to go! bring your Commanders, bring your canon-divergent OCs, bring your canon muses-- and yes, even the ones that are 'supposed' to be dead. who can say what might have happened in a strange world far across the Mists, after all?
neutral hubs and in-character safety guardrails would be in place to keep all muses on a relatively even playing field regardless of their power, history, and prestige, too. play hardball if you like, but it might not end quite the way you'd hope. the main rule would be to maintain good OOC etiquette at all times: no godmodding, no metagaming, no theft, don't blend IC and OOC, and so-on.
if that sounds like something you might have interest in, please interact with this post! and if you've got questions or concerns, I'd love to hear them; feel free to send an ask or a DM, or just reply to this post!
#GW2 roleplay#GW2 rp#GW2#my posts#so there's a LOT of reasons why I'm putting this forward#but the biggest is that I really want there to be a place that's actually inclusive for all the creativity that exists in this fandom#there was exactly one Mists multiverse event a while back and it was well-received from everything I saw!#i know i for one had a lot of fun AND felt a lot more welcome and comfortable than i have at any other event#and then... we proceeded to just never have another again.#like. we could have more of that. that niche could still use filling! we can do SO much more with this!!!#and especially with SotO coming out we could have some REALLY interesting locations to meet up too!#I'd be happy to kickstart this stuff but the thing is: it WILL need support. I just can't do it all alone and that's a fact#example: if we want a guild hall in-game we'd have to work together to get one; that'd be great for hosting public and private events#my personal goal is 5-10 participants so that we can have enough to run small events and mingle muses a bit#IF there's enough interest i'll roll out more information at that time. for now tho i'll just leave it at this to test the waters#reblogs are HIGHLY appreciate here: i'm a smallfry in a big sea and not many people check the tags. spread the word if you want to see this#on that note: thanks for reading and hopefully i'll hear from some of you soon. o/#(side detail: that sky pic is a screen i snapped at night in Istan. it's so pretty there ok)
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*BLASTS YOU WITH MY "OC DOODLE DUMP" CANNON*
it's Eyhm time.
(also guess who just started growing their first real mustache hairs ššš)
some spooky friends :)
(don't worry fake's nice unless you piss him off too much.)
yeah
(crawling back into my hole now to try and motivate myself to draw the comics some more.)
#a buncha random things i've drawn the past couple days. wheeeeeeeeeeee#my art#pizza tower oc#oc art#that uh. the fake peppino one was not originally gonna be as high effort as that but oh well. take my good babies.#still riding off the high and excitement of my art trade though~ half the reason i drew this many eyhms heh#anyways cringe is illegal now and if anyone tells you otherwise i'll fight them.#put your funny cat from a completely unrelated previous project into Pizza Tower. nobody can stop you. not even god.#hell i'd mod her in if i knew how to. and. if uhh. i didn't have to draw 5000 frames of animation for her.#mcpig what the fuck.#if anyone's wondering too. sugary spire eyhm is named Mac. based off Big Mac but name pending because mcdonalds sucks ass.#he's a good boy though. all eyhms are good eyhms really. just don't be a very small and potentially delicious creature near them.#eyhm stuff
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okay Iām annoying yk that and I know that.
I love to see what non bkdk shippers think will happen with the manga, bc this way I can learn and see things outside of my special interest for the chapters. And I was reading some interpretations of Ochako being weird in 425.
Some people are right here expecting izuku to go and support her. Some people saw him being this sad, yet only could think about him worrying about Ochakoās feelings over her fight, not Izukuās fight. they think this will lead to a beautiful confession, in which she cries how she couldnāt save himiko, that izuku noticed, and that heāll call her his hero and theyāll kiss. And I canāt help but feel like this is bc he is the boy. Because he is the boy in that ship, he is the one that supports, not gets supported. When I was reading those little scenarios, I thought they would explain deku would cry with her about his own fight and bond over it, or something like that. But noā¦ they believe dekuās strange reactions come from being worried over Ochako only. and itās so sad, to see how gender expectations are being pushed like that in something as simple as a āwhat I want to happen in the mangaā scenario. Itās sad how people think this is how it should work, when actually that would make me even sadder -as I said, for the most part I didnāt care about that ship, I accepted it as inevitable, but this isnāt fair. Romance irl is not perfect, but in a story for this to be a resolution when the character who hasnāt talked about his feeling keeps not talking about them and just supports her before confessingā¦
Even hetero relationships should have some balance, right?
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someone brought up bkdk lmao. They explained how the confession from ochako could get answered: happy ending is izuku loving her back, bad ending is him saying he likes katsuki, and medium ending him liking mei. I canāt even lmao.
another person argued deli just has shown a brotherly bond with him (weird) and that he only thought of him at that dinner with the Im too blessed, and the last time he followed him was in season 1. people need to learn how to read, and connect the dots, literally. No matter how you see their relationship in canon as platonic or romantic (or queer platonic), itās clear their bond is strong and that Izuku depends on katsuki as much as katsuki depends on izuku on emotional levels -izuku losing control over and over and over again with him, AFO explaining he is the closest to midoriya, katsuki going towards him no matter how injured he is, looking for each other and the time stops, etc.
this is just canon. Thereās no arguing about it. Idk why intimate bonds between two male characters means they are like brothers. Is it bc if they are not related, thereās no way to not see it as gay?/gen but also /s
#grrr talking#I want to make another post about the ways Izu//ocha could have been developed easily#Like extremely easily#What was the reason to give the thing that was supposed to connect ochako to deku#To himiko and ochako#What was the reason to also make that connection an all might keychain which doesnāt hold any weight for her bc sheās not a huge am fan#Why having himiko grab that symbol they now share and cover it completely with her hand#Why not giving izuku another physical symbol of her#Why bringing up the childhood cards instead when we almost knew nothing about them#Why have them be explicitly connected to each other thru a dream they have to share together for it to be worth it#For bkdk to become friends again they didnāt need all of this#You donāt need to share your life n be connected to someone in order to become friends again#Or to atone for the bullying#They could have been shown working to be friends ever since the apology#And have small moments of them trying to just be that#And focus those big efforts into izu////ocha scenes#But no#we get this shit#Wtf#the contrast between Izuku reuniting with Katsuki vs with Ochako is a lot#N it could have been more implied the romance!#Like have him be surprised instead of just sad -it would show he notices she is acting weird n gets worried bc of it#Or have ochako show a bittersweet face like saying pls deku kun donāt make me say it now#So many options and yet#They donāt get disappointed bc itās a het ship n they believe that makes it canon#JUST LIKE WITH FUCKING TODO///MOMO LIKE ITS CUTE IDC BUT HOW CAN YOU THINK THAT MAKES SENSE FOR CANON#No problem with these fanon ships bUT WHEN THEY ACT LIKE THEY ARE REAL N THE REST R āDELUSIONALā
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why does everything i get really into always end up being so god damn niche. by the year 2035 i am going to be blogging exclusively about the interpersonal relationships between the pillbugs and snails hiding underneath the bricks lining the flowerbeds in my parent's garden.
#im falling hard into the virvox guys rn sowwy. i like em a lot hee hee. i didnt realize just how small the fanbase for em was tho#actually i didnt realize how small the company that makes them were either. i got so used to the yamahas and cryptons of the vsynth world#that i forgot that like honestly. a lot of the voicebank makers and some of the software makers themselves#theyre like companies of like maybe 5 employees with like no funding LOL not a bad thing but i forgor#but yeah i was looking up to see if there was like. a fanon reason why people shipped takehiro and ryusei? not judging because i get it#i like took one look at the virvox guys and immediately slotted them as a very strange boyband (a catboy and a middle aged dragon man....)#and also took a second look at takehiro and ryusei and assumed they were childhood friends. i saw the doujin flash before my eyes#but also looking into it it seems the fanbase is also like. 20 people. and like 3 of them ship that#and at least one person ships whiteCUL and ryusei? why not LOL when it comes to vsynths sometimes a ship can be spearheaded by like#one very prolific artist HGDJKDFSHDJK which actually reminds me. honestly i dont really have many vsynth ships#i guess i dont really partake in a lot of shipping stuff deeply but i like romance!! you know i like love stories. you know this#i mean i keep calling the eclipsed sounds characters the celestial polycule for a reason tho. im not joking around about this#this is serious to me. they are stars and moons and suns and together they hang out and kiss. in the sky. this is serious to me#also i do like solaria x eleanor forte actually. its a bit random but i understand it. i understand it#and of course the aformentioned takehiro x ryusei. and also the whole virvox polycule. get that old man in here too#(what do they call people like me. a multishipper? i do that a lot. you know this from my otome game fanart LOL)#OH and i dont remember either of their names rn but i like that the cevio bank anju inami voiced has like a big fat crush on like#that girl with the brown hair. i like that theyre like. besties (turning into something more wink wonk)#thinks with all my brain. i think thats it. i dont know why theres so little. i think its because i think of them as like#audio sample libraries first and foremost and i forget about their characters and relationships LOL#but im not against the idea of making some audio sample libraries kiss...... not at all#picks up a guitar sampler and a sound effect cd. presses them together.#hee hee. they kiss
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why the fuck do i miss pigeons
#don't ask me i am going thru it today#ebhehbbehbhebhabh#i miss pigeons dude#oooh the poor little domesticed cuties#kate rambles from here#this is a small detail of the feeling i am feeling#like post leaving nyc is wrecking havoc on my psyche#i don't want to be in the fucking great plains#a few irls don't understand my want for city life- and i didn't know it was this bad until staying there for 4 days-#but my mom's whole family is from the city- i just feel so at home there- and everything i've inherited that way is in my blood#and i just wanna bawl my eyes out#i have been quite a bit but like ik i have a goal now- to move into the city- i've always had that goal to at least move to the city near m#but like nyc was like being somewhere i felt i wanted- it's not that i'm looking to make it big- i miss the noise the water and pigeons#around here you'll hear the occasional car go by- and crickets- i miss the city lights- i keep crying about it for so many reasons but#i just don't know how to actually express it?#because it's such an odd feeling for me to feel? because if yknow me well- i love being at home- i hate sleeping somewhere else-#taking a trip down south this last christmas- i couldn't stand the quiet- it's quieter the more south you go and i can't do this#i've always wanted to leave my small town but ?? like actually being somewhere that has felt home has been unattainable bc every#where in oh hasn't been home... and for once i felt like i could do this- and having to return here- just made me break down and cry#maybe it's the person i live with- that makes me wish to leave- but that's not the full truth- idk maybe a good nap will help#kate rambles#i have a life goal now but i wish i could do it now- i hope sooner rather than later i'll at least live in the city#i've been happily living but now i have a direction i wish to run towards- and i'm gonna chase after it#sure i miss seeing tbz i loved seeing them- but it's not even post concert depression- if that makes sense?#which it doesn't make sense- because for mx it was only pcd- but for nyc it's missing the city... and it feels awful#pls ignore this i just needed to be frustrated somewhere#ig knowing what i'm missing- i can finally work on filling that spot huh? i guess that's what i'll be doing#(also vv small point but the fact that one of the people i live with- refuses to ever visit nyc again- is so comforting to me)#pls don't send me an ask about this i just needed to ramble and i haven't caught up on my daily journal yet to do so- so this is here
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several days and 15 thousand words later, i am relieved to report that the suffocating urge to Write Something has been sated and no longer has me in a chokehold
#Seven.txt#writing stuff#thinking of that post thatās like āu Have To make art or all the ideas stay stuck in ur brain and make u sickā bc yeah thats been the vibe#wish i wasnāt so all or nothing about it tho. but alas. iām that way with everything in my life#i either expect 10k in a day from myself or i donāt write at all for weeks. or months :)#and my average pace is about 500 words per hour. so u can see. how that might be a problem. given how many hours are in a day.#and thatās obviously not sustainable. but idk if itās adhd or what but itās So hard to quickly start and stop tasks just Whenever#i struggle to be one of those ppl that can consistently write like. 500 words a day every day and then wow! soon you have a whole novel#nah. once i get myself in the Zone then iām Goinā and i canāt stop until iām Done or i collapse from ignoring my bodyās needs lmao#itās something i should make an effort to do though bc iād love to be consistently chipping away at things instead of working in bursts#anyways this is a lotta negative self-commentary for what is actually a Positive post! bc yay!! i wrote a thing!! Two things actually!!! š#i got the follow-up to last yearās Matt oneshot done And i wrote the next chapter of Heaven in Hiding after uh. a year and some months#i wanted to blow the dust off the olā keyboard by starting with writing some less. uh. high-stakes(?) stuff#not that i didnāt put my all into writing them. i always do. just that ik theyāll have less of an audience so ill cringe less if they suck#so then i can hopefully do justice to the [N]MbD stuff that iāll be putting out next! ehehe *rubbing my hands together* Finally#the next two [N]MbD fics r already written but the first little one needs a final edit#and then the Big one for. uh. someone (u kno who u r) needs a bit of rewriting i think. i wanna make it Better#so release schedule will be 1. Matt ā¢ 2. HiH Ch.3 ā¢ 3. [N]MbD small fic ā¢ 4. [N]MbD Big fic#then iām gonna write a lil Boothill comfort oneshot. then iāll edit/maybe rewrite and post that Dew (Ghost) OCD comfort oneshot#i āalso wanna keep writing the last couple chapters of HiH before i unintentionally abandon it again#and after/amidst all that maybe iāll manage to get ES Ch.6 written and posted before the end of the year š#anyways ik iāve made posts like this before. talking abt all these Plans of mine. and most of those things r Still stuck in the pipeline#so donāt put too much stock into this plan. i could have another Bad couple of months and get None of it done#but god i sure fucking hope not. iād really like to cling to my creativity. if for no other reason than that it makes me happy
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