#ftm singing

[clovericlare]

August 27, 2021 - 3.5 years on T

[prettyprettyboyy]

aw, baby, you like these boots? yeah, they're new. i bought them just for you to grind your cute little cock against <3

[elliott-the-queer-artist]

my singing voice is masculine so peak gender euphoria for me is karaoke honestly.

[the-girl-who-didnt-smile]

Lost Child, Come Home

[angelic-transsexual]

one thing i will say about testosterone that no one told me about, is having adapt to your new voice when singing. like i was very aware that my voice would deepen but i was never given advice on how to adapt and sing with my new voice. that shit was a journey.

[sincerelystesichorus]

trans joy rant for the timeline or whatever

i don't really have anywhere else to put these thoughts and my cis friends just don't really get it and neither do my enbies because they're not medically transitioning and yeah

i've been on T for 10 months now!!

and the most grating part of my dysphoria beforehand was my voice. i have no words to describe my voice beforehand other than,, if the dysphoria didn't zap my brain every time i talked and practiced, i could've made a great gig as the next disney princess.

i've done classical singing my entire life. i was a mezzo soprano forcing myself to be an alto and chronically wishing i could be a tenor. i've never felt more jealousy in my life than when i was 16 and a girl in my choir was a contratenor. i would listen to the aladdin and little shop of horror soundtracks and just hold back tears sometimes before i was out to even myself. i just did not understand the gender envy i was experiencing from male singing. it felt like something was missing and i spent so much of my singing career wondering why i couldn't just get ahold of my voice. it's because i couldn't stand the sound of it no matter how polished it was. i still can't listen back to old clips of me talking, nonetheless singing. it's crazy because my voice has only been dropped for a few months but i can't imagine it any other way than the 2014 justin bieber prototype it's fell into. i love it.

i hope to get to a point i can be comfortable with my old voice, but the point of this post: my new voice is my favorite thing about myself. i genuinely love to hear myself talk. vocal training doesn't feel disheartening anymore. i'm a tenor now!!!!!

and even more exciting,, i just extended the bottom of my range by two notes. when fully warmed up, i can now hit down to A2 pretty consistently, it just needs work!! i am now the countratenor i was so envious over. it gets better.

[transboysoprano]

In other news, I sang tenor for the first time last night. I talked to my choir director about it, and she agreed to let me try it out for our next concert. There are two choirs I'm in, the treble and mixed choirs, so I still get to get my fill of singing soprano in the treble while stretching my low range in the mixed.

I immediately fell in love. I bottom out around F3 right now (pre-T, still), but the pieces we're doing almost never go lower than that. I thought I wouldn't be able to sight-read as easily or it wouldn't be as satisfying as singing soprano but I am SO happy to be wrong. I LOVED singing in the middle of chords and feeling my voice rumbling in my chest. It's exciting and novel and it made me feel like I was falling in love with choral singing all over again.

My best trans girl friend also sings tenor in that choir, and my fiancé sings baritone, so I was grateful to get to sit between them. I'm usually pretty quiet and serious in choral rehearsals but we had so much fun sitting together. Even just being on the other side of the room for once felt like my whole world was different.

It's silly sometimes how big the small things are and how small the big things are. I thought I could only ever be a soprano. That was my lot. I was good at it and I'd never done anything else so I could never be anything else. Then one day I try something new and I realize it's not that different. I still know how to read music, I still know how to sing, it still feels good. Even better in some ways. But what felt momentously different was how much I felt like I belonged there. My voice didn't stick out nearly as much as I thought it would. I still know how to blend to the voices around me. Even just responding to "tenors" or "tenors and basses" rather than to "sopranos" or "sopranos and altos" felt like I finally was where I always wanted to be. Being surrounded by my loved ones helped of course, but I just felt... welcome there.

I am filled with hope today. I really think I can do this. I think I'm ready for whatever happens come May. Testosterone, please let me be a tenor. I found where I want to be.

[iconsumethesoulsofthedamned]

Me when I get voice dysphoria and am scared my voice is too high pitched and feminine but the part I can sing best in les’mis is javerts-

[arielthedaydreamer]

Learning to sing better so that one day I can gather a group of talented female musicians and form a gothic metal band where all the members are women and I'm the only man and lead singer, and I use mostly clean operatic vocals and shoot music videos dressed like a prince and being the eye candy, and there is another female vocalist who growls and maybe we date idk

[clovericlare]

eat lobster it's good it's good

July 3, 2023 - 5.5 years on T

[prettyprettyboyy]

Not enough ftm degradation content that isn't misgen. Yes, I'm reducing you to your cunt. But in a hot guy sort of way.

[non-un-topo]

Thoughts at the bar this Friday. I also started reading Pageboy, and although it sometimes hits close to home, it's giving me some good gender-affirming feelings. Elliot Page and I have a roughly 2-inch height difference.

[musicmushi]

I sang this song because in my head I can sound like him but I cut out all the parts of my speaking? Anyway this is a sort of voice update but also this song is trans vibes for me and affirming af!!

[waveofmutilation-uksurfmix]

hey uhh people on testosterone who sing is it normal for your voice to get strained way easier when it’s dropping and does that go away when it’s settled

[transboysoprano]

~1 month on Testosterone:

Findings:

I have ambient tension in my larynx throughout the day. It’s not bad, I’m just more aware of the inner front of my throat than usual. I presume these are growing pains, but I will talk to my teacher and doctor about it this week. In the meantime I’m trying to hydrate and stretch my neck muscles. Everyone has now confirmed that my speaking voice sits lower. I’m not as worried about it as I thought I would be.

So far, I have lost only about a third on the top, which is not as dire as I thought it would be by this time. Expecting to lose more in the coming days.

I have also gained about a half step on the bottom! Hoping to gain more in the coming days!

Most interestingly, the break between my head and chest voice remains in the exact same place (albeit MUCH harder to control. I am working HARD to maintain flexibility, especially descending/switching from head to chest) while about one fifth of what used to be the top of my head voice is now all whistle tone. It’s all still there, just in a completely different register.

My entire range has gotten heavier/louder.

Fatigue sets in a lot earlier than it used to, but it varies from day to day, I think depending on how much I used it the previous day. Three days ago I could only sing for about 10 minutes. Two days ago I could sing for over an hour just fine (church gigs). Yesterday I could barely sing at all :( and today I went a solid 30 minutes.

More data to come!

[transkingbee]

Self duet 🙌🙌🏳️‍⚧️🏳️‍⚧️