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sometimes it feels like lewis has a degree of distance from the rest of the grid that makes it hard to connect to him (i, a newer fan, took a while to even get a proper sense of his vibes). he’s such a legend and icon in the sport there’s always a little bit of separation i think — maybe subconsciously for some of the older drivers, but i think it’s more prevalent in the younger drivers because so many of them actually idolized him for years and are suddenly racing with him. max may be getting there but he also grew up with most of the grid, and he has his funky little hobbies (twitch streaming sim races) that give fans a glimpse of him casually. i’m not sure why lewis doesn’t participate in grill the grid/f1 videos but when you think about it that’s how a lot of people get some more casual impressions of the drivers they don’t follow as closely (or at all), and then he’s not there. there’s just this air of legendary about him so when you see him standing alone it seems intentional, in a way. he is always standing on his own as a leader in many (metaphorical) ways so i can understand why the drivers might see him minding his business during the parade and think he wants the space.
anyway all this to say there is a special kind of happiness in seeing charles decide to break through the wall of godliness to keep lewis company and bring him back to their level. lewis seems so much more engaged and lively and mortal when he’s happy chatting with the other drivers and being a bit mischievous and it’s like oh, i’m finally seeing the lewis hamilton he was before the myth and fame and weight of leadership. i think he’s really going to seem like a whole new person next season with charles and ferrari for those of us who didn’t know that lewis and i really really like the idea of getting to meet him ❤️
#idk how to even word it properly but it’s like. he’s Lewis Hamilton#he’s always seemed like a standup guy with the activism and awareness he brings to things#but even that sort of… leadership and bravery to take action with his platform is possible because he HAS a platform#there’s no escaping it#i always liked him fine but I’m starting to LIKE him you know#(this is not max slander btw i love max and he’s a leader in his own way and very supportive of the other drivers too)#(it’s just different energy around them… the generational gap i think)#thinking about lewis stealing charles phone during an interview and it’s like this kind of feels like pre trauma brocedes lewis#fun! and lively! and connected!#idk I am slightly sleep deprived and weirdly emotional about this#charles leclerc#lewis hamilton#I’m becoming an idle 1644 supporter#1644
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they really put alicent in bridgerton blue on the reunion and genuinely expected me to think that she didn’t in fact march all the way to dragonstone to get wifed up? bfr

#I am only a girl living in a society#I make connections#she looks so pretty in blue though I want more#also you’re telling me that rhaenyra saw her walk in all cute looking to not completely crumble at the sight of her?#like my girl got all dolled up for you do something#rhaenyra IS a puppy dog when it comes to those bambi eyes shut up#Alicent was like you think you want her? I’m the love of your life you moron#and rhaenyra is like I KNOW#like she’s been trying to get the other woman to realize that very thing for the last 15+ years#and alicent’s all heartbroken like oh so you’re taking her to wife#and rhaenyra is like nO? WHAT?? all dumb and speechless cause jealous alicent was definitely not on her bingo card this year#whilst also having her own mental breakdown#because how on earth is she meant to explain this to her councel#or jace for that matter#that sure was goint to be a fun future conversation to have with her heir#but also Alicent just strutted into the room and started acting like a scorned wife?#which left rhaenyra feeling like the asshole parent who stopped paying for child support after the divorce#but also she never wanted a divorce in the first place?? and alicent doesn’t seem to get this?#like she’s already figuring out how to most efficiently empty daemon’s chambers for the woman to move in permanently#but alicent’s still yapping off about not having a place in court anymore and fleeing across the sea#and rhaenyra can’t help the bitter taste in her mouth as she states how that ship came in a little too late for them and it is messyyyy#hotd leaks#house of the dragon leaks#hotd spoilers#house of the dragon#house of the dragon spoilers#rhaenicent#alicent hightower#rhaenyra targaryen#bridgerton
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"But doorkeay doesn't make sense because Michael and Gerard never met in the canon timeline -" Canonically, Gertrude has four different dates of death. The timeline is what you make of it.
#Also the fun of fandom is putting characters into situations that they were never in in canon but that's not the point of this post#TBH I actually think the “missed connection” aspect of them never meeting in canon makes me ship them more. Because what if they got to mee#and talk about their lives that are so different and yet so similar?#tma#the magnus archives#magnus archives
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Curtwen Week Day 6: Happy Ending
#I like to believe that there is a universe where they get to grow old together#just one#look once upon a time I read a fic that had me bawling my fuckin eyes out where they get to grow old together#I do want to say that I believe in personal growth and I think that Curt can 100% have a happy ending without Owen- where he can grow#away from that experience and where he can healthily cope with the trauma he ended up with#where he can find solace in something other than alcohol and where he can find it in himself to forge new relationships and build his#connections with people like Tatiana#etc etc#I just want to make it known that this is one of many happy endings that could happen#(amongst the several sad ones that I know also exist)#ALSO I wanted to draw the old men and I do what I want#but yeah something something if the universe is infinite /ref#maybe this is a universe where the banana incident never happened and they were able to retire together#ough#the curtwen feels are really getting me today#I adore them#also I used a new brush ive been having fun with this past week#doesn’t it look cool?#I really like drawing with it and I like how it looks so#we might be seeing more of this one in the future#although 6b is still my guy#damn y’know hypothetically- if Owen (depending on the au) and Curt lived to be in their 60s (at least) they would witness the first Pride#god can you imagine that?#At the very least Curt being around for stonewall and everything that came after that with queer rights#FUCK anyways#fun fact: a group of frogs is called an army#isn’t that cute#reminds me of that one person on TikTok that raised like a thousand frogs- they had a literal army of frogs#crazy#curtwen week
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Doing an oc's house layout map sounds really fun actually. Fucking hate drawing anything other than people tho, so
#dungeon meshi's house maps opened my eyes to how fucking cool they could be tbh#i think i could have fun just thinking ab who lives w who and like the general vibes of their houses#tetsuo lives with his dad#tsuki and sora both lived with Daisuke but he eventually kicked them both out#unsure if they still live together but they probably figured smthn out#daisuke's house probably either doubles as or connects directly to whatever medical building they have#so he also just always has extra beds and space#the twins ofc live together but are otherwise alone since their dad died#tetsuo probably offered them to move in w him and Maru once they made space#but they declined#the Hatake's as a whole are nomadic and move + rebuild everything from scratch every couple of years#so their homes living situations and layouts change constantly#probably none of them live alone tho#daisuke discounted bc people are constantly in his fucking space#anyways yeah drawing this sounds kind of fun (if painful)#ive been doodling Daisuke and Tsuki's mom interacting so maybe Ill draw some homes and include that w it when I post stuff#Daisuke kicking out Tsuki and Sora deserves to be drawn tbh#birds rambles#wolves of the woods
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So that new cast change huh?
How we feeling, rolling stock? Do we dig the new fellas or are we feeling unsure about anything?
I'm glad to see Asher is staying as the new first-cast Electra, because I do like them a lot as 2024 Leccy. I'm guessing the characters who didn't get shown with a new first-cast actor are going to keep their actor, so we may still have Marianthe as Orange Flash, Ollie as Volta, Jaydon as Hydra, Lewis as Porter, Harrison as Lumber, and Jade as Momma - If they're staying, then I'm happy they're the ones we're keeping.
But I'm gonna miss Jeevan, Kayna, Tom, Eva, Cath, and Lilliana so much 😭
#Tbh I'll get used to the new cast eventually I just suck at adapting to change as an ND#I just hope the new cast will keep making funny in-costume tiktoks & do lives like the current cast do#bc its honestly so enjoyable to watch and also it makes them feel more connected to the fans#starlight express#stex#stex revival#stex london 2024#(Also instead of “how we feeling chat” I think “how we feeling rolling stock” sounds more fun for the community lmao)
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hey wait a minute
so it's the start of AvA part 7 and Chosen and Dark are talking, right? and the former has this vision of terrible things happening if they don't stop the latter, right here and now.
they see the ViraBots descending on the last remnants of stick kind with Dark as their leader (or Lord if you will. ha ha) and i, trusting viewer, took their assessment as reliable*. we JUST saw Dark getting uncomfortably violent in earlier scenes after all
but
however
notwithstanding
unless Chosen has demonstrable prophetic powers (like how Orange has** in the past seen things currently happening (horizontally-prophetic let's call it: seeing faraway in the current time) (there's probably a better word for this but let's move on)), how did they know this was definitely what Dark was leading up to?
** ⬆ examples of Orange horizontally-prophesizing in AvM episode 11, SkyBlock (unconfirmed but referenced as, "uh? well maybe??? maybe i didn't think about it yet-" (abridged quote from AvG react video)) (op will die /j /extremely pos if this is used again in AvA 11 (HAH they'd both be episode 11 (op just giggled maniacally)))
Dark doesn't even have his control bracelets on.
because Chosen didn't know about them yet.
because this is not a prophetic vision.
Chosen is just that... reactive. what was it. @compressedrage (hi o/ ) had a good wording let me find it. yeah i guess it was reactionary
the ONLY time we've seen them stop to think things through is actually just a terrified anxiety breakdown while they stand there, frozen, imagining the worst, until they snap out of it JUST in time to impact their reality.
but with no time left for debate. reasoning. they assumed Dark was beyond reasoning from the moment he showed off what his device could do............. because they were beyond reasoning out of fear.
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#okay im not sure about that final phrase after the dots but it sounded epic so i kept it in#*im trying to call up the phrase “unreliable narrator” here#that chosen's instincts weren't accurate. obviously Dark's weapons CAN harm stick figures deeply...#...and when push comes to shove they do (a self-fulfilling prophecy if you will?)...#...but let's look at the ViraBot gun and the portals. one direct-connects (hehe) to IP addresses.#keep in mind Dark didn't know about Alan's new buddies chilling on his PC#the others go to YouTube; Twitter; Reddit; Google; Twitch; Wikipedia; Discord.#these aren't places where stick figures live at all. in some corners of them but not primarily. there's a city RIGHT THERE-!#-but he doesn't care about it. im saying obv it's still not awesome of him to target human-centric websites either-#-did he change tho? if chosen listened long enough to hear him out? was his plan to go back to when cho was having fun too?#i can't know for sure but i sure am having fun thinking about it#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava the chosen one#ava the dark lord#ava orange#ava the second coming#subpixels
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Blows them up
#Idk they're so silly to me#Me when the symbolism of two bugs that lived their lives for another#They make me indescribably sad#Also update from my playthrough#Quirrel is just a nail in the sand now 😭#digital art#art#quirrelhollow#hk quirrel#hk the hollow knight#Silly little bugs talking about life on a rocks edge#I have another few drawings of quirrelhollow i have to finish that aren't like this and are more “rendered” I guess#But I like linearting it's really fun :]#Literally “ooh those lines connect there and do that thing and make that shape”
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obligatory pokemon au time!!
#milgram project#haruka sakurai#yuno kashiki#fuuta kajiyama#muu kusunoki#shidou kirisaki#mahiru shiina#kazui mukuhara#amane momose#mikoto kayano#kotoko yuzuriha#woah what the fuck u can do 30 images at once now#i didn't draw es with their singular eevee bc i thought the limit was 10 still whoops#anyways--#haru has a singular tiny budew that follows him around and loves him. he is afraid of it#yuno has a furfrou bc she loves big dogs. and liepard bc she's cat coded#i like to think fuuta makes really amateur lowpoly 3d renders so i think itd be fun if he had boys to make art w him#muu got herself a BIG HERACROSS when she was tiny and her mom was like. cringes. don't you want a girl pokemon for girls??#and baby muu was like SHE'S PINK!!!!! and would not let go of her buggy#a sableye approached her and tried to eat her earrings. the vivillon is from her dad#my friend pointed out shidou would be the exact age for playing gen I hence the squirtle#blissey bc nurse joy. his blissey used to carry around the gloom in her lil pouch when she was just an oddish#the eldegoss is his wife's!! but she tends to tumble about in the breeze and find shidou a lot#i actually started these drawings bc mahiru going OVERHEATTT in her t1 song made me think incineroar#she treats him like a big kitten!! and her phantump is her tiny baby#OK I CAN'T FIND W HO BUT SOMEONE DREW KAZUI WITH A SHINY APPLIN AND IT'S THE FUNNIEST FUCKING THING TO EXIST#he's got a lil bisharp that wants to be a kingambit but hasn't been able to evolve#and kazui is like. ah. action figure bug. for boys. cant live up to his manly potential. i relate deeply with this man#amane got an espurr bc she deserves a cute kitty. castform reminds me of her cult's cloud symbol thing#mikoto=morpeko connection has been made a billion times but it's true. he finds it eating his redbull cans at the office
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The way I be watching Jack & Joker and Peaceful Property every week

#jack and joker#peaceful property#they were supposed to fun and funny#but now I'm getting stories about how money ruins lives#and the rich get away with everything while the poor suffer#yet even the rich kids are trying to make a connection#and now nobody is all bad#and no one is all good#and everyone is just trying to survive and find people who support them#and everything hurts!
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Tuesday Tidbits:
~One minute of passionate kissing burns 6.4 calories. (Pucker up😘).
~A tiny, male marsupial in Australia, has sex for up to 12 hours straight. The exhausted males drop dead shortly after. (I'm all for being an overachiever, but this seems counterproductive). 😬😜
~70% of people surveyed said they lied on their resumes. 37% of those people admitted to lying at work frequently. 👀🤥
~Exercise improves brain performance & helps you sleep better. 🧠🏋️ #fact
~A female orgasm can burn between 60-100 calories, where male orgasms only burn 3-5. (Raise your hand, ladies, if you want to drop some calories). 🙋😂
~Men & women who perform oral sex on their partners are healthier & happier than those who don't. (I've been saying this for years). 🤣🤷
~It costs nothing to be kind. ✌️💜🖤✌️
Have a fabulous Tuesday & don't forget to laugh a little!
~beccawise7 💜🖤
#tuesday tidbits#my thoughts#laughter#live laugh love#sense of humor#laugh a little#tuesday morning#tuesdays#my mind#fun facts#funny shit#funny post#connection#be kind#kindness is free#laughs#beccawise7#coffee time#smile
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new fandom culture is interesting especially surrounding shipping. specifically with wicked why do so maybe fans think canon ships are the only legitimate or acceptable ones?
#we all know what happens in part 2 why do fiyeraba’s think that’s a gotcha? 😭#usually the better ships are the ones that arent canon#like fiyeros entire character is only there to support elphaba#he isnt complex enough for me to ship with anybody 😭#the two with a much deeper connection that ends in tragedy feel more romantic and real#long story short wicked is fanfiction of a fanfiction so you can’t be mad when its enjoyers make even more fanfiction#live a little!! whatever happened to fun???#also none of this is that serious to argue over :/#fiyero tigelaar#elphaba thropp#glinda upland#wicked movie#fiyeraba#wicked#gelphie
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OWEN WILSON and RAFAEL CASAL in LOKI S2 (2023)
#mobius#owen wilson#rafael casal#lokiedit#mcuedit#marveledit#loki#i've never been prouder of being user mobius-m-mobius look at my man with his fries pie shake and endless swag combo 💕#btw pour one out for the me who could easily spend hours waxing poetic about the lokius connection#bc yes true but also getting thrown under the bus for the me who wants flirty fun free mobius w/ every cute guy in sight lmao 🙃#it's what he deserves!!#(a mcdonald's promo is really easier to color and more hq than any of the trailers disney puts out... what a world we live in 😂)#marvel#owenwilsonedit#loki spoilers#dianagifs
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A pegasus who's capable of miracles no unicorn can do.
Clara and Daniil as ponies because that's what comes to me every winter idk.
#i miss pony viruses sooooo much i loved it :(#pathologic plot is actually really fitting to be a pony virus#i made the bachelor a unicorn because. you know. most of them literally live in the main city.#and many of them got ambitions and that “oh what a DIVA you are” ahh personality#which is literally about dankovsky#clara is a pegasus because it would be no fun if a miracle was made by a unicorn. it would be normal bruh#and not an earth pony since. well. i wanted to make three main protagonists be of three different pony races#and a pegasus is not fitting for burakh. and i'm not even talking about complexity#it's that the haruspex's trait is about his 'connection to earth'#and an earth pony is the best for him. so clara is a pegasus. and i also like the parallels like she can be actually perceived as an angel#or saint it doesn't really matter#and she is also not just a pegasus but a changeling (what a coincidence)#pathologic#pathologic classic hd#pathologic art#pathologic bachelor#the bachelor#pathologic daniil#daniil pathologic#daniil dankovsky#pathologic changeling#pathologic clara#clara the changeling#clara saburova#мор утопия#даниил данковский#клара самозванка#artists on tumblr#polufabrikat draws#polufabrikat thinks
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vierapril day 15 - alternate universe
#i've got The Nauseas so i wanted something sweet and cozy...#ideally i wanted to curl up into a ball and sleep but lying down is making it worse so we struggle on upright#warrior of light#Ardbert#fanart#speedpaint#i draw sometimes#Final Fantasy XIV#hei muumid#idk if it's gonna sound surprising or not but i don't actually have many aus for wol#i have some vague snippets of thoughts about a modern au that i'll occasionally rotate around in my head#but then i run up against problems like Locations and Jobs and The Ears Are Too Essential#ofc ardbert lives is an au but it's canon for wol so i don't really think of it as such#but the moomin au is a fun little sandbox to play around in. it's not really a fusion more me just borrowing the style +#some tonal elements from the 90s anime and the books#in this wol is kind of a guardian of (or against) a forest. what passes for echo in this allows him to navigate it safely#but ends up getting roped into more of the non-foresty shenanigans (he does always belong in the sun. to me)#(ardbert lost his friends and his way in the forest and became a kind of a ghost after long isolation#he basically operates on invisible child rules in that connection + affection makes him more visible and tangible)
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Rewatching episode one, I noticed that when Ragatha and Jax are talking to each other about Jax having a key, Pomni flinches away from, and lifts her arms to protect her face and head, when Jax toys with the key and catches it near her.
I wonder if she is that jumpy around others normally or if it's just when she's in a stressful situation (like suddenly being trapped in the circus) what do you think?
OK. ok. you mention this. and ive never said anything about it but i have genuinely noticed this almost every time ive seen that scene. i think about it a LOT but i havent been able to figure out my thoughts on it. but i think about it genuinely a LOT...
(i went on a huge tangent abt her thats like. only sporadically related to this specific moment SORRY. it was hard to address this moment without discussing a LOT about her i feel)
for the sake of clarity in the event someone reading this is unfamiliar, what this ask is referring to is this:
with the way that she so quickly dissociates and HARD (not that most people Never experience dissociation or smth, but its the intensity of it and how quick into this situation she starts dissociating is like. it makes it seem like its smth her body and mind are Used To Doing) she REALLY gives off the feeling that she had pre-existing mental health problems (i struggle to place anything TOO specific with the limited information we have but i feel like theres definitely a few things she has going on) before she even got to the circus, and like she COULD just be a naturally jumpy person, but with the dissociation thing and general distrust towards others, it feels like her jumpiness is also related to these issues
while her being naturally nervous is sort of implied and clear (though i think the extent of it is exaggerated by the circumstances of the pilot in particular) there ARE a few other examples that stand out to me
i THINK this can largely be passed off as her just being on edge from the horror adventure, but i this is IS notable that she reacts genuinely pretty strongly to what is a relatively minor 'jumpscare.' it happens later too w kinger pressing the tape recorder
in general she seems VERY easily startled by people, and frankly it reads a lot like it stems more from people being near her than just things happening abruptly. she notably doesnt jump hard when the angel arrives- she DOES get scared, but she isnt necessarily startled. she DOES react very strongly to ghostly, but i think its notable that she seems to find his visual appearance frightening and debatably not necessarily startling, but thats not really 100%. the times she reacts the strongest have to do with people, which imo ties HARD into her not trusting people
episode 2 breaks down her distrust of people well, and i dont think its a self consciousness thing. it seems more that she just doesnt tend to find people trustworthy- if something bad was happening to her, she would sooner assume theyd let it happen rather than help her. it could be argued that its partially a guilt or projection thing with ragatha, but im not actually so sure. pomni seems to be ashamed of leaving her behind, but particularly through ep 2 she doesnt seemed Plagued With Guilt by the way she acts towards ragatha, which implies that the dream didnt have to do with her projecting that shame in a way shed assume ragatha would turn back on her, too
it instead seems to be that she doesnt trust ragatha just... in general. the 'im not a child' thing, while a legitimate problem for pomni to have with ragatha (i love ragatha, and from my place in the audience i know her concern is genuine, and that she truly wants to encourage pomni, and is trying, but from the perspective of people around ragatha, its not an unreasonable assumption that shes JUST being infantilizing and belittling), does illuminate how pomni is seeing ragathas attempts at cheering her up- that it comes from a place of seeing pomni as immature or generally unstable. that pomni is incapable of managing herself and needs to be coaxed. it implies pomni doesnt see ragathas attempts at help as genuine. combined with her dream, that ragatha would allow the worst to happen to her even when she was asking for help, makes it very clear that, even with the 'nicest' person in the circus, pomni just... doesnt really trust her
(it is worth noting that pomni DOES seem to genuinely want to help ragatha in the pilot. she DID try to find caine. but she bolts at the first opportunity. she does care about people, but when stressed, she operates on keeping herself safe first and foremost, that she needs to do anything to get out of a bad situation even if that means leaving someone behind- and with her dream, it does seem that she generally assumes other people operate similarly, or otherwise in their own best interest)
this does, of course, improve by the end of eps 2 and 3. the funeral, and ragatha offering to include her, and how the others talk about abstracted players (combined with her conversation with gummigoo, someone who she has to assure has genuine friendships with those around him despite the lack of a true reality for them to be based upon), are able to convey that oh, these people do actually care about the people around them. theyre being genuine. they arent just looking out for themselves and thats it- they care when bad things happen to each other. and theres no true reason for me to be an exception. which is ALSO why i dont think its a self consciousness thing, she seems able to reason that shes not an exception to the intents of others, so much that when she cant assure herself that others' intents hold her safety as any sort of priority as well, any trust goes out the window. she WANTS to help if she can, but esp in the pilot, as far as shes concerned, its everyone for themself when shit gets bad, including herself
ep 3, she seems more trusting of ragatha- she has neutral and positive interactions w her, rather than assuming a lack of sincerity in it. but its not just ragatha, actually, because even before her talk with him, you can see it in how she interacts with kinger as well
she initially tries to help him run, which isnt too out there- with how she genuinely DID initially try to help ragatha, it doesnt require her to go out of her way to grab him and RUN. she can run AND take him with her. she can help without putting herself in extra danger. but then she DOES go back, which is one of my favorite and imo underrated pomni moments. because THIS is what i think actually highlights an improvement in how she sees the others before her apologizing to ragatha or taking kingers hand. because she puts herself BACK into (percieved, since its not actual sure WHAT the angels intentions were her) danger in order to get kinger away too
(theres probably a case to be made that ragatha didnt seem to be in immediate danger- she was in pain, that much was clear, but kaufmo had ran away by then. but even still, pomni couldnt have known kaufmo would shift gears and start chasing her instead of ragatha that first time. and i dont know if she actually knew death wasnt possible here yet. which isnt very flattering for pomni but also people do not act in flattering ways under extreme stress, esp given a predisposition to not trusting others, which ill elaborate more on in a second here- not that pomnis abandonment was ok OR that it was like evil of her or smth. shes just a person. there is no way she was prepared to know how to act correctly in this situation, and she didnt)
theres also this
which is SUBTLE but highlights a genuine increase in trust even before their heart to heart. now that she knows the cast (save for jax, who she seems to react to the harshest, which is worth noting imo) are not acting solely in their own best interest, that they WILL consider the wellbeing of those around them including her, that their concern for one another is genuine (which is concerning that she even assumes that to begin with, which ill circle back to momentarily), she very clearly has way more faith in them and the idea that she should stick around the others for safety
and of course, ive said it before, but her taking kingers hand has little to do with her enjoying holding hands. its her knowing that, if kingers wrong, this is going to end very, very badly. if holding their breath isnt the solution theyre BOTH going to get possessed, and who knows how theyd get out of that situation. but she decides in that moment that her trust in the others isnt ONLY about looking out for them and believing that theyre sincere in their concern for her. but that she is willing to let the others put her at a potential massive risk. getting possessed was a blatantly immediately traumatic experience- and she lets kinger put her at risk of it happening again. THATS why she holds his hand, at least symbolically. she doesnt like contact. but she can brave something that she doesnt like, she can let him lead her into and through something potentially horrific, because shes deciding to trust him and the others, that theyre not just people she can interact with without fear of ill intentions, but that theyre people who she is going to coexist with. the best thing she can do for herself and the others is trust them and work with them actively
anyway that got off-track, the point being that her having to have these ideas instilled in her at all through shared experiences and trauma implies that, while these issues with distrust may have been exacerbated by the stress of everything, they didnt come from nowhere. these are problems she likely already had to some degree. its great that theres been improvement but that improvement directly implies thesse were improvements that needed to be made to begin with. and the fact that the person she gets repeatedly most startled by is jax. who, even with episode 2, she explicitly doesnt trust. in the pilot, at least, her distrust is more vague (i think the dream sequence in ep 2 IS what highlights it best) so her flinching from jax can be passed off as related to a general lack of adjustment to the new environment and situation shes in. but it happens again with jax in episode 3 (and, notably, she pauses afterwards but it takes a moment for her to relax even knowing its just jax), after shes adjusted somewhat, and after shes gained some trust with everyone except for jax (given his absence from the scene at the end of ep 2). it also happens when barons voice plays abruptly next to her
point being that imo, she IS naturally jumpy. she says herself that she doesnt handle jumpscares well, which somewhat implies this even outside of the circumstances of the circus. but with how she reacts to things, it feels like her general jumpiness is far, far worse when it comes to people she doesnt trust (be it because jax is Like That, or because shes not familiar with baron). the way i see it, then, her distrust extends to perceiving physical threats easily around people she hasnt ensured are safe to be around. she IS able to gain this trust in people, but she seems to automatically place the intents of others as being Potentially Unsafe from the jump, especially under stress. she can jump back from it fairly quickly for what its worth, but to be honest, it seems more like she operates on some general, everpresent level of hypervigilance thats just sometimes worse based on the situation
and frankly i dont think we know enough about her as of ep 4 to fully determine if there IS a reason for this. because someone can have a reason to be this jumpy around others, or they can just... be nervous and dislike people moving suddenly near them. combined with the dissociation thing, though, im inclined to think the circus did not cause this, just made it more extreme with more unpleasant stakes. there is hardly any time between her entering the circus and this happening. she hadnt even seen kaufmo yet in that very first example, but she was already on alert for a physical threat, and i just. i think about it all the time...
i think the main takeaway from all of this is that i think she isnt necessarily jumpy like that all the time, but i think trust is not a given with pomni, and her jumpiness massively depends on how much she trusts people near her and the situation shes in to not be a physical threat to her. its definitely worse in the circus, but i think it was probably still something present in a different context in the real world, too
#ask#tadc#tadc pomni#circus discussion#i have no clue if this is like. cohesive at all but i feel like theres a LOT going on w this aspect of her character#but a lot of it isnt definitive#the best i can do is point out what things seem related and which aspects of her character seem related to this#im jsut hoping i didnt miss anything or misremember smth bc if i type this many words abt smth and forget smth vital that changes things#or if i incorrectly attributed things together that dont actually make sense to be connected#ill die badly#if it means anything. and this is more speculative#i think that pomni probably had either some relatively prominent mental health problems. genuine trauma. or both#prior to entering the circus#though i actually dont think the definitive answer of which one or any specifics in general about it matter much#so much as the fact that shes like that and thats. just how she is at this point in her life#from a writing perspective i dont think its quite relevant to know the exact reason if we can deduce that she is the way she is now#it informs who she is now but in a more vague way where knowing an exact why stops mattering#esp in comparison to the idea that she CURRENTLY is having to cope with the things happening NOW#not that the context doesnt matter at all but it likely wouldnt change much abt how shes written#if we get more insight on her wrt this i dont think its going to be descriptive#i think the show gives snippets of their human lives for the purpose of humanizing them and emphasizing the fact#that they did have very realistic human lives before all of this and that cant really be removed from them#it influences who they are today#but knowing about it in extreme detail esp with pomni wouldnt add much and would effectively be redundant#anyway!!! sorry or your welcome for the 2k word response to your ask#not sure if thats what you were hoping for or not HAHA#...and not sure how much of this makes sense honestly ive been working on it for 3 hrs now#so if its a little messy its cus im trying to keep track of everything ive written over 3 hours despite distractions#BUT it was fun to answer!!! i think about her every day#gif
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