#fun with chronic pain

[madmaryholiday]

god i wish i could skip physical therapy today. i'm even more tired than usual because the dog has been bugging me for the last 48 hours straight to go outside, and even after taking excedrin, my head is still killing me.

but i had to cancel last week, so i need to go today.

i know once i get there i'll be fine, but drumming up the will to actually GO is agonizing.

i guess if i have to i can just tell them i'm not running at full capacity today and need to take it a little easier.

i also didn't get to do the ONE exercise i was instructed to do very much because it required a very sturdy chair, which we don't have. so now i get to sheepishly admit that i did not in fact master this ONE exercise over the last two weeks like i was instructed to.

it's not even a very strenuous exercise! but i'm mega-fat, and our only available chairs are 30yo+ rickety-ass kitchen chairs that we've been repairing the last 10 years with parts salvaged from one chair that did completely fall apart...or rickety-ass 20yo+ folding chairs that are stored in either the basement or garage. so i've been doing it using the couch, which i think is too low and squishy to really do the exercise properly.

like i said, once i actually get there i'll probably be fine. i just hate the lead-up, you know? willingly going to a place i know will exhaust me is difficult lmao.

[xbittersweet-nostalgiax]

Being in consistent pain from a possibly herniated lumbar disc while having my sleep schedule off kilter is unfun

I can't even use my heating pad rn bc I've been using it too much and got itchy

There's only so long I can spend laying in bed while watching my comfort yt videos and my mind is too tired to focus on video games for very long either

I want to take ibuprofen for the pain (it's been long enough since my last dose that i can take it again) but I honestly don't know if it would even really help and/or be worth the possible side-effects

[mcr-themed-brain]

As someone with an undiagnosed disability (99% sure its fibromyalgia) that I've had since I was a little kid, I've never understood why adults feel the need to enter the Pain Olympics whenever a kid says they're in pain.

I cannot tell you how many times an adult told me over the years that "you're too young to be in that kind of pain" or the classic "wait until you're my age", insinuating that I was a little bitch who could never grasp what true pain really is.

Just yesterday I was in class and a guy near me mentioned that his back hurt, which our teacher heard and said "you're too young, just wait until your 50s, then it'll really hurt", and I hear this guy very quietly say that he has scoliosis.

It's so annoying. Why do you need to win the Pain Olympics? Why do you need to prove to a child that your life is harder than theirs? This is the reason I didn't know I had chronic pain until I was 16

[chronicpaingirlie]

i feel like for abled people who don’t have to spend a huge portion of their waking life in bed, it’s really easy for them to imagine it as some sort of constant relaxing vacation from ‘real life’ or from effort and feeling and working or whatever else

when in reality it’s like. im so restless. im so tired of being in bed. it isn’t comfortable. i Hurt. im hurting all the time and if i could not be in bed without being in huge amounts of pain, i would!! i miss being able to do things!! laying in bed helps the most, but a lot of the time it feels like a trap, not a comfort. a lot of the time it hurts too much to be doing anything else

i miss when laying down was a choice i could make for relaxation, when napping was an indulgence and not a necessity, when i could spend time and energy being upright and it didn’t even feel like effort !!! i don’t want to do this. this isn’t something relaxing or fun the majority of the time. it’s painful & frustrating. i wish people understood that better :(

[tofu-bento-box]

perhaps i am simply a delicate spoiled houseplant but i don’t think having a fun productive day should give you multi-day hangovers

[ptr-sqloint]

lab grown angel wip

[tridentkickflipper123]

something something whatever

[fruitdragon]

Reminder to wear what you want even if it's not the occasion. I did not leave the house today, I still did my hair, threw on some WIP pants and some fun belts and jewelry and had a good day

[davidzochi]

im not immune to tenna propaganda

[madmaryholiday]

got my blood results back, and it looks like my ferritin is uhhhhh

25.

which is TECHNICALLY in the "normal" range, but from what i understand, anything below 100 can fuck with you.

my iron is also on the very low end of normal, which is fun.

i got some other results, too, but i don't know what they mean. i'll have to wait for my physician to let me know, i guess. my glucose was kinda high, but i had also just eaten within an hour of getting my blood drawn, so idk how much that skews results?

anyway, i also had therapy a bit ago, and my therapist thinks i should maybe talk to the psychiatrist about upping my meds. not that i'm spiraling or anything, but because my stress levels have been consistently higher than usual even after quitting my job, and things are unlikely to get LESS stressful in the near future.

so upping my meds for awhile might help me function better during this period of extra stress, you know?

idk if i'll call the clinic about it today. i only have an hour before the doc heads out for the day, so it's unlikely he'd be able to see me right now anyway.

maybe i'll take the weekend to think about it. i'm reluctant to up my psych meds because, well, they're psych meds, and i haven't changed my dosage in like. probably close to 10 years? so you know. change is scary and all that. plus now that i know my ferritin and iron are not awesome, i'm wondering if addressing that might give me more energy?

but also that would take awhile to make me feel better anyway--but the change in meds might ALSO take awhile to make me feel better.

you see my dilemma, yes?

yeah, i think i might wait until monday to call. give my brain some time to work on the problem in the background.

in the meantime, i am tired as hell, so i'm gonna watch some streamers play lethal company for a bit and then get some lunch.

edit: ok, looking up some of the other things that were tested, i think i have some kind of anemia. idk what type, but all of the "abnormal" counts i looked up were indicators of anemia in some capacity. guess we'll see what the physician has to say about that.

[xbittersweet-nostalgiax]

We're about to get a HUGE temperature shift tomorrow where the next few days are going to be warm af and idk if it's the barometric pressure or what but my knees are really acting up eugh

[spookyboywhump]

I’m curious and theorizing about smth

I always feel like it’s really common for whump writers to also experience some kind of physical disability. I know a lot of us here are neurodivergent but I’m curious about the physical stuff too so for the purposes of this poll please don’t vote yes for things like ADHD, Autism, ect.

[xannerz]

trying to go for a toonier look

[jrwi-headcanons]

William had chronic pain his whole life but thought Everyone was just Like That until he died the first time and the pain Stopped

Also since I’m here, since he became the whisperer I think he doesn’t Feel pain, a lot of his reactions are mostly him being caught off guard

-🔩

(Wow I can talk abt other characters too /j)

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[incorrect-batfam-quotes-mostly]

My GOOD leg is acting up and honestly, the betrayal. The audacity. How dare it. I'm offended and insulted.

I expect this behavior from my bad leg, I expect better of the only good leg I got smh

[davidzochi]

hope you brought an umbrella because is pouring today!

found shelter from the rain someplace else?