#gah just thinking about Scott makes me sad

[nocturnegyser]

The feels

Warren x Reader (raccoon)

A/N: I’ve had this typed out for a while and I wanted to go do more Warren x Raccoon material, I just decided to actually go through it, it still probably sucks but I tried. I’m not a professional in any sense, anyways, enjoy :3

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Summary: Warrens been acting strange.. (y/n) tries to find out what’s happening with him, wonder what it is?

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Having only been going to her new school for 2 months, (y/n) has already met so many cool people. She even started her band called ‘Clean Trash’, ironically not with Warren on the drums.

The one replacing Warren on drums was a 5th grader named Ryan Husk, his muatation allows to move any liquid with his mind, their bassist being an 8th grader named Mars Palenski, his mutation gives him a giant rats tail and ears, pretty similar to (y/n)’s raccoon ears and tail.

Needless to say, (y/n) was getting along just fine, she was keeping up with her classes, nothing perfect but she didn’t care, just as long as she was passing.

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Waking up one morning for breakfast, (y/n) nader her way to the kitchen for hopefully some marshmallow mateys, one she got there she saw Warren standing at the stove preparing food, both locking eyes when she walked in.

This reminded (y/n) of their first proper time meeting, although instead of giving Warren a death look, she smiled and wished him a good morning.

Warren doing the same, (y/n) was grabbing the cereal and milk, in the midst of preparing her breakfast.

“I can make you some french toast if you want” Warren offered

“Huh?.. oh.. yea ok” the still waking up very tired raccoon girl sitting down at the counter

Peter and Alex then walking in greeting both a good morning, then returning a good morning back.

Peter then smelling the french toast “Oh man! I love your french toast!” Peter getting excited

“Fuck off, I’m not making you anymore after what happened last time” Warren staring daggers at Peter while setting a plate in front of (y/n) and himself

“What happened last time?” (y/n) asked pouring syrup on her stack

“Well basically-“ Peter started then Alex shortly cutting him off “He finished all 24 pieces Warren spent almost an hour making, he didn’t even get a single bite”

“Dang” (y/n) responded while taking a bite “Hey, what do you expect from me? I was too hungry!”

“Some damn self control would be nice” Warren still staring daggers at Peter, both opting to eat the same marshmallow mateys (y/n) was planning on eating

———

After finishing (y/n) washed her dishes and offered to help Warren clean up but he insisted she go and get ready for classes, she took him up on it and go ready for the day, washed her face, brushed her teeth, hair, ears and tail.

(y/n) and Warren didn’t have any classes together, their schedules didn’t really cross paths a lot, even morning breakfasts like that were rare, (y/n) was content with their schedules not matching up all the time, she was happy with whatever time they did spend together if any at all.

(y/n) mostly ate lunch with Jubilee and if she wasn’t available for lunch then Mars and Ryan would eat with her.

It was after classes when Clean Trash would practice in the unused music room, that is if neither Ryan or Mars had homework.

She had a policy if either of them had homework before coming to practice they would have to finish it before they turn the amps on, or if they got in trouble they wouldn’t practice that day, they didn’t practice on the weekends though.

“You guys got any homework?” (y/n) asked her band mates, “No,” both answered truthfully

“Ok, let’s begin with ‘My heart is a futon’” (y/n) taking initiative

“How do you come up with these song names?” Mars asked

“I dunno, just whatever comes to mind, mind counting us off Ryan?” (y/n) pointing at Ryan, guitar pick in hand

“One, two, three, four, one two!”

Warren just so happened to be passing by the music room the band was in and overheard them playing.

Wanting to go unnoticed, he peeked in through the window watching and listening to them play, mostly focusing on (y/n) though.

Jean shortly caught him watching them and overheard what he was thinking

She has a really good singing voice, not to mention how her hair falls perfectly while playing..

“Wow,” Jean interrupting his thought “Never seen you this head over heels for someone, must be pretty special”

“Hey! I’m not ‘head over heels’, okay?“ Warren realizing she knows exactly what she’s talking about “They just sound really good is all”

“Right, just like what you thought on the ride to the movies” Jean flustering the already flustered angel boy even more “You think you’re ever going to tell her?”

“How do you- look, quit reading my thoughts okay? I don’t have anything to tell her” Warren becoming a little defensive “We’re just friends”

“Warren, you’re only friends for so long before she moves on” Jean trying to convince him

“Moves on? what’s that supposed to mean?” Warren asked confused

“You’re going to see what I mean, just waiting around doing nothing” Jean then walking off

Move on?... does she mean... no

Warren takes one more glance of (y/n) playing before walking off

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In his room who he shared with Kurt, laying on his bed thinking to himself

Should I tell her?... Will someone else come along?...

Kurt and Alex bursting in throwing Warrens train of thought off, both seeing his worry almost immediately

Kurt, trying to be a good friend crouched down near Warren “You have immense sadness in your eyes friend, tell us what’s wrong?”

Warren, not wanting to talk about it, but not wanting to come off too mean, “Ok Blue, listen, I don’t want to talk about anything, especially with you” eventually just walking out in a huff

“... Think it was something I said?” Kurts ears flopped in a sad manner, Peter assuring him it was him “Ah jeez, he’s been like this since our horror movie trip plan fell through, must’ve really wanted to watch that movie..”

What would I ever say.. How would I even say it... when.. should I say... GAH! I hate this! I’m going to workout

Walking in the locker room , he ran into Scott already talking to friends.

His friends having already gotten ready before him, they went on ahead leaving Scott alone with Warren.

“Hey Warren! I haven’t talked to you since the horror movie fail, how’ve you been man?” Scott trying to spark a small conversation getting ready

“Yeah I’ve been fine” Warren already disconnecting from the world around him

“Yeah, you never told us how your trip to the music shop with (y/n) was” Scott joked

“It was fine” Warren replied coldly

“Fine enough you started acting less cranky all the time?”

“It was until you opened your mouth” Warren getting done before Scott and heading into the gym

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In her room, (y/n) and Jubilee are planning the elementary classes Summer picnic, it was a special request by Charles.

“So that’s 25 turkey sandwiches for the kids with nut allergies.. and 45 pb & j’s.. in total thats.. 70 sandwiches, whoooff” (y/n) laying back in her bed just wanting to go to sleep even thought it was only 4:37pm

“Ok Scott called the ice cream parlor and they did have each classes flavor selections, but we do have to go pick them up ourselves the day of,” (y/n), Jubilee, Scott and Jean have all been tasked in helping plan this picnic for some time.

“Ok I guess that just leaves... actually making the sandwiches, sorting the sandwiches, and picking up everything else.. ugh, I don’t hate these kids but why do there have to be so many of them” (y/n) was super exhausted

“Doesn’t your reality manipulation allow you to multiply objects?”

“I don’t have it under control yet, so as of the moment.. no”

“Well not taking the easy way goes to show how much you care right? Besides, isn’t one of your band members attending this picnic? Ryan Dust, right?”

“Husk, and yes, he is coincidentally in the class I’ll be helping supervise”

“You see? wouldn’t it be just awesome for little Ryan to his bands leader working hard?”

“Ugh... I guess so”

“Well I gotta get going” Jubilee started packing her things, “I gotta meet with Jane and discuss seating arrangements, see if you can get any help with the sandwiches, maybe ask Warren?”

“Why Warren?” (y/n) confused why Jubilee specifically said Warren

“Why not Warren? Doesnt Ryan look up to Warren as a drummer? I’m sure it would make Ryan super motivated to see two people he looks up to working so hard”

“Yea ok but-“

“Hold that but. I gotta go, talk later”

With that over, for now, (y/n) started cleaning up the mess of papers on her bed and grabbed her phone to call Warren, voicemail.

Huh... guess he’s busy right now.. I’ll ask again later... but I might forget to ask later and he might over book his schedule, he really needs to stop doing that... Oh! I know! I’ll set a reminder on my phone! this phone has a reminder app doesn’t it?

Navigating her phone proved to be more difficult than she anticipated, considering she’s had her phone longer than a month, it was still her first phone, her brother got it for her before she left, she never really got around to learning how to use it.

Getting frustrated not finding what she needed using her phone, (y/n) opted to asking Warren in person

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Running around the whole mansion looking for Warren and even asking people who knew him if they saw him around, no luck.

Until she ran into Kurt and Peter in the main hall, (y/n) immediately running up to them and asking both if the saw him anywhere.

“Uh, yeah last we saw him, he was heading to the gym, looked like he was going through it,” Peter answered, Kurt immediately agreeing, “Ja, He stormed off after I asked him what was wrong..”

What was wrong? Going through it? What’s happening with Warren?

Peter then reassuring Kurt it wasn’t his fault Warren was upset, “Dude, I told you, he’s been like this since that movie we went to go see sold out on movie tickets, like I said, he’s probably just pissed he didn’t get to see it”

“Been like what?” (y/n) now concerned

“Well it’s kinda difficult to explain but more happy in a way kinda, but also crank now that he’s more happy, y’know?”

(y/n) understood what he meant, “Yea.. well I’ll ask him about it once I find him, thank guys,” (y/n) then running off towards the gym, the two boys nodding and continuing on with their day.

———

(y/n) made it to the gym, not having really used it yet, she just ran in looking for Warren, she figured she’d look for his wings since they were easy to spot.

After a few minutes of looking, (y/n) eventually spotted Warren lifting weights on a bench in the back.

She was waving and shouting to him hoping he’d notice but he wasn’t paying attention and had his music in.

(y/n) decided she’d approach him and get his attention that way, upon approaching him she tapped his shoulder hoping it would get his attention, big mistake.

Tapping Warrens shoulder triggered his fight instincts and whipped around with full wing span, cutting (y/n) in the face.

She fell to the ground dazed holding her face, Warren immediately realizing what he’s done he immediately runs to her and gives her a towel to cover her cut with.

Scott noticing the commotion ran over to help Warren rush (y/n) to med.

———

Outside of med Warren was pacing back and forth while Scott was sitting on a bench, both waiting for Hank and (y/n).

Warren couldn’t stop pacing, Scott tried to relieve him,” Hey look, worst case scenario, she just has some light scarring..”

Warren immediately erupting, “No! Don’t you get it??! This whole thing means I haven’t changed a bit since Apocalypse!!,” Warren having remembered his nature when he aligned with Apocalypse over 2 years ago.

“Hey! Now don’t say that! You obviously didn’t mean to hurt her, you obviously aren’t the same from then“ Scott trying to assure Warren he isn’t the same from back then, “Look! even you and Kurt can live in the same room! Surely that means something”

“Yea, not like we ever talk,” Warren denying everything Scott was saying, Scott still trying to convince him otherwise, “Even Kurt considers you a friend now, he never saw you as a bad guy Warren, no one has, not even Charles”

Warren still not listening stormed off again, tears almost forming in his eyes, not too long after, Hank brought (y/n) with a clean bill of health apart from the bandage on her face, and a lollipop

“Nothing too bad, the bleeding stopped, it’s best to keep the bandage on to prevent bacteria from getting in,” Hank explained to Scott

“Thanks Mr. Hank, also for the lollipop” (y/n) gratefully thanked, then looking around for Warren “Where’d Warren go?”

“Oh, Warren... he needed to go... take care of something,” Scott nervously told (y/n) not wanting to worry her by telling her he stormed off because he’s afraid he’s the same as when he was with Apocalypse

“Oh... I just needed to talk to him about something..”

“About the sandwiches for the picnic right? Jubilee asked Peter if he could help, with Peter the sandwiches will be done in a second”

(y/n) shaking her head, “No, not that... I needed to ask him about.. something else”

Scott a little confused but realizing, “You’re not.. mad at Warren now are you?” Scott reluctantly asked (y/n)

(y/n) shaking her head again, “Of course not, I probably shouldn’t have snuck up on him like that, it’s just as much my fault I got this that it his,” (y/n) immediately placing the blame on herself for something that obviously wasn’t her fault or Warrens

Both Hank and Scott try to reassure it wasn’t either sides fault

“Well, I know he didn’t mean to hurt me, I just... I need to talk to him”

“Well.. it’s probably not the best time to... bother him, he’s got some .. things to take care of right now,” Scott trying to avoid even more problems between them

“Maybe, but he’s.. my friend, I need to know if he’s alright” (y/n) then speed walking off to go find Warren

“Ah jeez...” Scott sighed

“Think they’re... actually going to talk about... that?” Hank asked

“I dunno, I just hope they’re able to work things out”

———

Having run through the whole mansion looking for Warren once again, (y/n) was certain she knew where he was, but to no avail. On her way back to her room, she noticed the attic ceiling hatch and realized.

“Tch- could he...,” (y/n) began opening the hatch letting the ladder down then ascending up into the attic.

“Hello-“ (y/n) checking to see if anyone was up there, then there he was. Not wanting to alarm him again, she slowly arose from the hatch and go up slowly as to not to alarm him. Warren was just sitting on a window sill looking out, lost in thought

W: *Why did I do that... I told myself she.. I was going to...*

(y/n): *Ok, I can see he isn’t paying attention again... this time I’ll... I’ll call him softly as to not to trigger his attack again*

(y/n) reluctantly took a step closer, stepping on a creaky floorboard thus alerting Warren, Warren looked over and sat up immediately, panic in his eyes.

“(y/n)!” Warren stuttered

“Hi! uh.. I just wanted to check up on you ‘cus I heard from Peter and Kurt that-“ (y/n) trying to be friendly with Warren then cutting her off

“(y/n)! y-you shouldn’t be here, it’s not-“ Warren spat out nervously with (y/n) cutting him off in return

“Ok ok I know I know, you had some stuff to think about but, I just wanted to say I’m sorry I snuck up on you like that, I should have probably alerted you before approaching you, you just had your music in I didn’t know-“ Warren then cutting her off once again “Look. (y/n), I am truly sorry I cut your face but.. you shouldn’t be around me, I’m just-“

“What? Dangerous? just ‘cause you have metal wings? there are people in this world without metal wings who I’m scared of more than you”

“(y/n)-”

“I know you didn’t mean to hurt me like that I just.. at first I wanted to ask you about sandwiches but.. Peter and Kurt told me you’ve been ‘going through it’, their words not mine, and I just wanted to see exactly... what it is you’re going through..”

“(y/n), listen, you don’t understand, I’m the Archangel of Death! I don’t belong anywhere here, I just-“ Warren spewed out with (y/n) cutting him off again

“Warren! just shut up and listen to what I have to say!” she bursted out, continuing “I know you don’t mean any harm even whatever happened in the past, I’m not sure what all happened but that’s hopefully why I’m here, I just want to be there for someone who makes this place feel more like home even though we don’t meet up a lot”

“y/n), I-“

“Being here was scary but being here with you.. made it less scary, I don’t know if you feel the same way about me but.. I want. to be there for you when I can, Warren” (y/n) then taking a step closer knowing Warren can’t go anywhere

“Being around you.. I feel.. like maybe being here isn’t so bad, like maybe I can actually make something of myself here, like maybe.. you aren’t so bad..” (y/n) holding herself with tears welling up in her eyes

“I don’t know if you feel the same around me but.. that’s how I feel.. about you” (y/n) finally finishing

“(y/n)...” (y/n) holding for impact, entirely expecting him to reject her feeling, “I feel the same way about you,” Warren then taking a step closer

(y/n) almost gasped not believing what she heard

“Being around you.. brings me to a simpler time in my life and.. whenever we do meet up or bump into each other that feeling washes over me completely and.. I thought you hated my guts when we first met. You calling me angel boy, me calling you trash panda.. I never thought you’d want to talk to me ‘cus..” Warren expanding his wings and motion to them “I also wanted to be there for you when I could but.. I never saw you during the day, so I just..”

Both of them just stood there, looking into each other’s eye, then both taking another step closer to one another.

“Can I..” Warren started, looking deep into (y/n)’s yellow golden eyes, “Can I.. kiss.. you?”

(y/n) tears streaming down her face, just stood there looking up at Warren, not even answering him, she jumped up wrapping her arms around his neck just going for it. They kissed, Warren holding her close to him, (y/n) hasn’t felt so safe since she moved, Warrens wings around both of them. After what felt like forever only being 8 seconds, they separated kissing still holding each other.

“Well... ever kiss a raccoon face girl?” (y/n) joked

“He he, uh.. no but it was definitely a fine start”

Both chuckling before kissing again

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A/N: if this sucked plz tell me, bully me if it was actually bad :D

[lavenderglassgirl]

749 pm tues dec 10

I was thinking about self harming this evening, considering it. Considering what i could do in lieu of it. Thinking about my parents. It reminded me of something

I remember when my mom found all my cutting supplies one time she searched my room. I had a bag full of blood soaked paper towels and my journal with the blade i used taped inside. My mom found the bag and asked me what i used to cut with. I showed her the blade, and she got so mad because it was rusted. I got a lecture because it could have killed me. I went to therapy and I don’t think i got grounded, i may have already been grounded at this point too I don’t recall. THis was sometime in middle school so chances were high that i was. But regardless, I didn’t get into any more trouble for this, yet I remember feeling like i was. I remember feeling like my parents were angry at me, they didn’t trust me, they were ashamed of me, they felt i was being over dramatic, just an emotional teenager.

I was talking to Scott today, NPD fresh on my mind from some research for Jesse (will get to that aha) and i went over my lack of privacy. They read my diary when i was 16, brought it to my while i was in the hospital for suicidal ideation. As part of the leaving process for this facility which i was desperately trying to leave (nothing spurs your will to live than prison- er mental health facilities) I was told that i had a session with my therapist (who i had had one 30 minute conversation with) and my parents, whom she had advised per program protocol to search my room. So they searched. They pulled out the half smoked blunt and i got some generic mark lecture about drugs and his house and this that and the other, and words from Laura regarding how it impaires your brain growth and depression and blah blah. Of course what they didn’t bring up was that after this session they would both go home to smoke it off while i went back to my plastic cot where i was allowed to keep a book and my blanket and a pillow from home. After i spent Christmas surrounded by strangers who treated me kinder than my parents in a place that felt like a prison.

And they read my journal. They pulled quotes like it was fucking Shakespeare- we don’t understand why you hate him so much, we don’t understand, we think youre using this as a way to make yourself more upset, we think this is too triggering, were not giving it back.

They kept my diary. My mom had it in the back of her drawer for a long time before i had the nerve to ask for it back, maybe a couple years.

Do you wanna know how they justified all this? What started it?

My biological father got in contact with me again after my 17th birthday. He got the date wrong and I’m pretty sure he thought i was 18 and that’s why he did it. He found my number on facebook, and texted me some bullshit.

My parents allowed me to have a relationship with him- on their terms. I was texting him too late into the night, and too much at school. It was not to interfere with sleep or my school work.

Why? Because my parents didn’t want my grades to slip. No, not because it was causing any actual problems. I was doing really well in my classes, they were just watching my texts and keeping tabs on when i was texting him. They told him and me the same thing, and the next day he texted me while i was between classes and i messaged him back during my free periods, lunch, etc. Genuinely following the heart of the rule which I hadn’t before (i snuck my phone during class) and figuring it would be fine.

Got home, Mark asks if i talked to Eric (should have known he knew) said no, he said i have proof of 36 messages, give me your phone. Really? Yeah.

I handed it over and v o w e d to not say a single word to my parents. It was almost Christmas, and i was grounded for an indefinite amount of time (i think they sat me down after and justified it somehow and i got a month. A month. For texting my biological father. Lmao) They were concerned about our relationship but rather than addressing their concerns in a valid way i just got punished for continuing it. SO i was completely silent for two days. I figured 1) there wasn’t a damn thing they could do to make things worse. They’ve already taken everything before, and i usually cave and kiss ass for the last three weeks because it makes my life more pleasant and fuck them they did not deserve that for this and 2) if they were going to not let me talk to Eric i sure as shit wasn’t going to let them hear from me.

The head came when my mom wrote some trash apology letter to me (i wish i still had it but i shredded it as soon as i read it) that was really an attack on me disguised as an apology that she took no real accountability in. I felt so disgusting, so alone, i saw no way out. Genuinely in that moment i wanted to bleed out in my tub and i wanted Laura to find me. I took a shower and sliced my wrists, a lot. Not the long way, but deeper than i ever had, more than i ever had, and with every intention of getting to that point. I sat in the shower for a long while just watching my wrists bleed and then just kind of came to. THere was this brief panic that over took me and i went into my room and dressed in my giant sweats and sweatshirt and she came in and I showed her my wrists and we went to the er and i got hospitalized.

Yes, i was still grounded when i got out of the hospital. They gave me one day that we celebrated Christmas then they took all my presents until my grounding was done.

This is on par with my 18th birthday. I’m trying to remember why i was grounded this time. Probably weed. I got really smart about almost everything, and i feel like weed was one of them... I had my own car so it wasn’t fucking up theirs... I genuinely W I S H i could remember but honestly I don’t even know. But i was mid grounding on my birthday and they gave me my present, and then left me alone all night, so i figured out how to assemble it myself and cried most of the time.

They grounded me for a month for shaving half my head. They also came into my room while I was sleeping to shave the other half of my head. I refused. They haven’t ever crossed a physical barrier. I would have had them then. I think they might have known that...

I feel broken. Like, a scratched DVD. Like i feel like I’m just skipping at the part where i figure out how to process this shit.

It’s hard its really really hard. I mean talking about it makes it less hard, and I’m glad i was able to talk to Scott. He didn’t seem to really get it until i told him about the diary thing. It’s different for everyone, the part that makes it click when i share my story. It’s usually something they understand personally for one reason or another.

But its hard. I don’t think anyone really gets it, like I don’t think this sort of stuff is fit for conversation with anyone but trained professionals and myself.

My finger hurts and my tummy hurts i think because i had soda and I wanna be more stoned but i also just... wanna not. I thought writing a little might help me feel better but its just making more depressed.

I guess that’s the mood.

Jesses going into a really rough period. He’s having a really really hard time, and just i wish I were in a better space for him. I so so wish i was better at handling my jelousy and insecurities. I’m just trying to feel good about myself. I’m trying to be supportive and kind. I just want to be open and honest. I just want to be helpful and useful. And i know i am those things really often but right now i feel like a nagging annoying ugly morbid monster with a rotting smile and scaley skin and two bellies like a fucking cow. I know i know i know it doesn’t matter if i do but like... it feel like that on the inside. I feel like, there’s just nothing i can do to fill that void, like i feel purposeless right now i guess. I don’t know why I’m here I don’t know what I’m doing nothing makes me feel full i just feel like I’m distracting myself from the empty and i know i know i know i just need to keep pushing forward and taking care of myself but sometime i just don’t want to. I wonder who I’m doing to for.

It should be for me but often i feel like I’m living just because there’s nothing else to do. ANd that’s true but its not a great way to feel. It keeps me going. I know ill get to the good moments again, and probably a lot sooner than i think. I’m just still having a hard time. I’m still struggling to process. I still need to find a therapist among a million other things.

My stomach really hurts UGH.

I wish i had more to share but I don’t. I just hurt and everything is making me sad and I’m just GAH

I wish i knew something to try I wish i had something new i wish there was a way to turn it off for like ten minutes to just remember what it feels like to exist.

AND NOW MY HEAD HURTS

Boi. Ruin m e

In conclusion, i really want to kill myself, but i wont, i really want to cut myself, but i wont, and I’m really sad and i want more coping skills and some serotonin.

Goodnight 😴

[alexis-writes-sometimes]

11/11/11 Tag Game!

I got tagged by @joyful-soul-collector, @tracle0​ and @mousestache but instead of making three seperate posts, I'm going to squish them all into one really long Mega Post.

@joyful-soul-collector's questions!

1. What is your favorite OC quote? : "Time's getting shorter. The elite get cockier, and more sure of their own positions each day! Are we going to let them, or are we going to show them that we won't be stomped over?" -- Rowan DaSilva. (I'm actually really proud of that one tbh.)

2. What’s your favorite font? I really like Times New Roman. Not really sure why.

3. Which OC has the saddest backstory? (or the least happy?) All of them. But if I had to pick one, I'd say Sierra and Kezia.

4. Which OC has the happiest? (or the least sad?) Adrian Ross.

5. What’s a vague spoiler for one of your WIPs? Death. I'm just going to leave that there.

6. Do any of your WIPs carry the same themes? What themes?

Quite a few of them have independence/freedom a main theme, along with (platonic/familial!) love.

7. What are your favorite character/situation tropes? Edgy girl meets equally edgy partner. *cough* Juliette and Kez *cough*

8. What do you like most about yourself? My sarcastic sense of humor.

9. Which on of your ocs is your favorite character to write? Hmmm. That's a difficult one. But I really like writing for Rowan and Adrian.

10. What is the longest you’ve ever written for?

Longest time in a single sitting? Or longest time staggered over more than one day? Or longest as in amount of pages?

The longest I've written in a single sitting was like two and a half hours, and the longest over a period of time was a good four months or so. The longest amount of pages I wrote was like, 70 or something.

11. Favorite food? Stuffed shells! (sO gOoD)

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@tracle0's  questions!

1) What’s the first book you remember reading? -

Definitely the first Magic Tree House book was the first book I remember reading. (I think it was called Dinosaurs before Dawn???? I don't remember the title exactly, but I remember loving it.)

2) What’s the first book/story you remember writing? The first story I remember writing was this thing about dragons, but other than that, I can't really remember much about it. 3) What’s a piece of media (book, series, film, whatever) that you go back to when you’re sad?

Definitely any of the PJO books. 4) Can you draw parallels between your OCs and characters in published fiction?

Rowan is the only one that I can think of off the top of my head, but I'm sure as I develop the rest of my OCs more will come to mind. Although I draw inspiration for my characters from lots of things that I've read, I realized the Rowan has a lot of parellels to Enjolras from Les Miserables and Katniss from Hunger Games, but she didn't start out that way... or did she?

5) Think of an OC. Any OC. Now express their general mood in their story in one (1) emoji. 

Rowan: 😤

6) What’s a plot point that makes you cackle when you think about it because omg it’s such good writing? Literally any of mine, because that's not really one of my strong suits, so whenever I come up with one I'm like: hA YES! *victory dance*

7) Have you ever done an Accidental Smart in your writing? If so, what?  

Not really? I mean, I probably have, but I can't think of one.

8) What songs do you associate with your stories? Boulevard of Broken Dreams, Do You Hear the People Sing, Speechless by Naomi Scott. (That song reminds me especially of Radio Silence and Rowan in particular.)

 9) Are you better at dialogue or description? Description.

10) Have you ever gotten better at doing something because you put it in a story and had to research? If so, what?

  For one of my fantasy stories I added archery in, (I already had a bow, but I didn't use it too often since we didn't have a target and my mom wouldn't let me make one since she was afraid the arrow would embed in the siding. (It did at one point) but that's not relevant or where I was going with this.) But I wanted to be as accurate as possible so I ended up going to an archery range and practiced about once every week or so.

11) Have you had a drink of water recently? Go on, drink some water. It’s good for you. Thank you for the reminder!

　

@mousetache's questions!

What’s your favorite genre to read ? Fantasy.

What’s your favorite genre to write ? Historical fiction or Dystopian.

Which OC is the most like you ? Honestly, I'm not really sure, but if I had to pick one, I'd probably say Kez or Adrian.

There’s always a little bit of an author in a person’s work. What piece of you have you left in your WIP ? My soul.

What is your go-to writing playlist ?

 Basically any musical but then I end up singing along and getting distracted or movie soundtrack.

(If you prefer writing in silence, attach your favorite Vine !)

Are any of your OCs disabled ? Yes! I have one character, who is in a wheelchair and she's a tech queen and she's awesome and GAH I LOVE HER SO MUCH.

What is the most meaningful piece of writing advice have you received ? Write what you need to hear, because there is someone else who needs to hear it too.

 What was your first venture in writing ? My aforementioned dragon story.

Angst or romance ? aNGST

Action-adventure or slice of life ? Action adventure!

What comment about your writing made you just grin ear-to-ear ?  I kid you not, literally all of them.

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My questions!

Favorite book?

What would your MC have to say about you?

Which OC are you least likely to get along with?

Do you have any fidgets?

If you could travel to one place in time, where would you go and why?

What’s the weirdest thing that inspired you to create an OC? Which OC was it?

If you could teach any class you wanted, which class would it be? (Real or imaginary)

If you could DELETE any book or movie from existence, which would you choose?

MBTI type?

What OC are you least likely to get along with?

Favorite song?

I'm tagging : @eternalvertigos, @kalis-scribbles, @mousetache, @nightmares-and-fireflies, @redaniels-writes, @tracle0 and anyone else who wants to play! Please don't feel like you have to do this if you don't want to! (Also if you don't like being tagged in these, PLEASE let me know and I won't tag you!)

[icyxmischief]

MAJOR SPOILERS WITHIN. Part two liveblog/reflections of Endgame. 

Leave Tony Stark alone, Jesus.  Why is everyone so mad at him for not wanting to risk making things worse?  “I got my second chance right here, Cap.” Yep. Not the one to make the hero play? From film one to film four, yes he is.  Always.

Kinda glad they have Hulk and Bruce integrated into one being. That’s a pretty cool metaphor for owning your disability and living with it.  Kinda sad Bruce and Tony aren’t bros very much anymore though. But I...don’t like....how different Bruce’s personality is now? He used to be so sweet and gentle, and now he’s kind of flippant? I mean, NOT always. See below, he’s more himself around Thor.  

Lmao, poor Scott.  “Let me guess, he turned into a baby” lol Tony. I feel like Scott is Charlie Brown. 

From this point out, the movie gets BAD, to be honest. Clunky, boring, contrived, confusing, and inappropriate humor at the expense of people in pain. 

I’m glad New Asgard is a thing after all, and I think that’s where my Loki muse will end up in his canon verse, but....gah Thor.... I REALLY WISH they had just stuck with the beard and long hair and the commentary about the stink in the house to show how far he’s fallen, without making him “a funny fat guy” again.  Hemsworth DID try to salvage the scene though, the closest I came to crying so far in watching this was his reaction to Bruce saying “Thanos,” and Bruce is so kind and gentle in handling his grief. 

Yikes poor Clint really backslid.  Interesting they show the people who backslid in grief, Thor and Clint, back to back.  Both were emotionally dependent on family, did you notice?  Without Loki Thor is helpless, and without his wife and kids, so is Clint. 

I DESPISE THOUGH HOW THEY REDUCE THOR TO A JOKE SO THAT THEY DON’T HAVE TO DEAL WITH HOW POWERFUL HE IS. 

AND WHY WHEN HE MENTIONS THE EVENTS OF THE DARK WORLD DOES HE NOT. GET SAD. ABOUT LOKI. OR EVEN MENTION HIS PART IN SAVING THOR’S ASS AS WELL AS JANE’S????

I adore Rhodey. Always have. 

“So Back to the Future’s a bunch of bullshit?” Lol, I would like to read more of quantum theory before I decide if this was just a joke to cover up a plot hole but yeah.

Okay it was kind of funny when Thor snuck past Loki’s cell but....I...wish he would have...stopped to say hi.....  or just shown sadness that Loki dies.  

And why are we making fun of Thor crying over his dead mother and dead subjects and dead father? Why is that a joke? Why is Rocket smacking his face because of a panic attack a joke ? How is any of that acceptable? Thor has lost more than anyone. 

Oh Frigga <3 Frigga I wish you’d gotten to live. 

The Morag thing really is convoluted. Jeez. 

[canaryatlaw]

OKAY. well today was pretty sweet. I had my alarm set for 10:00 am but ended up waking up at 9:42 am and just said fuck it and got up. I checked my messages and as expected I had a message from Jess asking about getting brunch and then confirmed our plans for the rest of the day. I got dressed and we met up at the spot, which had more people around it than usual because the place that’s right there was doing a branding makeover and I got a free sample of pie so that was cool lol. we went to the vegetarian place for brunch, and while we were eating it started snowing which is super fucking annoying because it’s the fucking END OF APRIL we shouldn’t have to still be dealing with this lol. we had some autographs to mail out and the ups store is right next to the vegetarian place so we ended up going there once we finished eating and mailed the two domestic ones, I have the international one that I’ll mail from the post office on Monday because ups has an international surcharge that would’ve made it super fucking expensive to mail from the ups store. once that was done we walked back through the snow to where Jess had parked her car and started our journey for the day. we were heading up to the suburbs because Jess had managed to get some emissions check thing get lit up in her car because she tried to top off the gas but apparently her gas tank is very sensitive (it’s one of those that doesn’t have an actual cap to it) and according to the internet it was something about a software error that was recalled because of it so basically we had to bring it up to the dealership so they could fix that, hopefully for free, and that is what ended up happening, we brought it in and told them what was going on, they took a look and confirmed what they had to do, so we waited for like 45 minutes or so (I wasn’t actually keeping track of the time but it was around there) until it was done and we were good to go. It had overall taken less time than we’d expected, but we moved on to the next part of our plans, which was late lunch at the cheesecake factory, then we would return to actually get cheesecake after we saw the movie that evening. Since it was, you know, lunch time, we could get the lunch sized version of the pastas we always get to which I was like wow I could actually finish this! and then my acid reflux kicked into high gear for no particular reason and I was like okay I can not in fact finish this, so sadly I didn’t end up eating all that much of it. The movie showing we had tickets to wasn’t until 5 and at that point it was only a little after 2 so we checked to see if we could get tickets to any earlier showing, but they were all sold out, so we just had to kill some time. Normally this wouldn’t be an issue since there’s a whole mall there, but given that it was still snowing and it’s an outdoor mall made it a bit trickier. but we started at forever 21 as always since it was right there and had big signs for sale lol. we each ended up getting something from their buy one get one free clearance, Jess got this hideous jacket (she enjoys ugly clothing) and I got a somewhat equally hideous (as do I sometimes) cardigan along with a pair of floral pants that I saw and knew I needed in my life, then when we were going to check out there was a pair of “avo-cat-o” socks, which had an avocado with a cat peeking through where the pit would be on them so of course we had to get those, and then we picked up a bag of hi-chew at the counter. Once we checked out there we walked around a bit and went into a few stores in search of sunglasses, and ultimately ended up each getting a pair from Francesca’s. We continued to wander for a bit and got bubble tea at some point (where I could confirm I have the legit stuff they actually use, so that was validating) then waited for the movie theatre to start letting people into the theatre for our showing. In case you haven’t figured it out by now, of course we’re seeing Avengers Endgame, THIS POST FROM HERE ON WILL CONTAIN ENDGAME SPOILERS, I WILL TRY TO TAG IT WITH EVERYTHING YOU COULD POSSIBLY BLACKLIST BUT READ ON FROM HERE AT YOUR OWN RISK. We got some popcorn and waited in the fancy theatre for it to start. Overall reaction, I liked it a lot, I really wasn’t crazy about Infinity War so I wasn’t sure how I’d feel about this but I ended up liking it a lot. I thought it was a very good choice narratively to have Thanos get offed way at the beginning of the movie (to be fair to Thor, if I were him I probably would’ve chopped Thanos’ head off as soon as they got in the door, so I can’t really blame him) and then focus the movie on bringing everyone back, only to bring him back in the end, that was good storytelling IMO. THAT HAIRCUT THOUGH, I was dying, just looking at it like I. NEED. THIS. that haircut spoke to me okay lol, my hair is longer than it’s been in like three years right now but it’s not going to last very much longer. I probably can’t get that exact haircut because, you know, work shit, but I’m sure we could figure something out. I was kinda disappointed that she wasn’t in more of the movie, her presence in the beginning was perfect, I was dying when they were like “where are you going?” and she’s just like “to kill Thanos, I’ll let you know when I’m done” so nonchalantly and perfect and like, the scenes of her coming through the atmosphere and everything was so damn cool and GAH I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I had gotten spoiled, willingly though because I don’t really care about these things, as to the two major character deaths of the remaining alive characters, but that definitely did not make it any easier to see. MORGAN STARK IS SO FUCKING PRECIOUS I would die for her and also I’m so fucking glad they didn’t have Cassie Lang get dusted because I would’ve been pissed about that, Scott coming back from the quantum realm and finding her five years later was so damn emotional, it killed me. I appreciated them finding Thor in what was clearly filmed in a coastal new england town, getting fat and playing video games, lol. I know of course him looking fat was fake, but it looked so damn funny. I do take issue with several of the choices they made with how the time traveling was working because there were definitely quite a few logic jumps in there that went unexplained, but for the most part I’ll give them a pass for not wanting to get too into the nitty-gritty of it all. Their journeys into the past were interesting, the New York trip was great and everything involving Loki, I was fucking dying when Cap was just whispered “heil Hydra” and they just totally handed over this huge weapon to him 😂that was pretty funny. Then there was their trip to the 70′s, which messed with me that 1945 would only have been 25 years prior to 1970, like that kinda blows my mind lol. Tony’s whole conversation with his dad was so damn precious, I was like ready to cry at any given point really, and then there was Steve getting into Peggy’s office and watching her and not doing anything and I was like UGH you’re killing me Rogers lol but at least they got back to that at the end. Then there was Clint and Natasha on the planet with the soul stone that randomly featured red skull?? not sure where he came from. that whole sequence was so fucking heartbreaking, they really did it so well, and I definitely cried when they were literally trying to jump off the cliff before the other because they didn’t want the other person to sacrifice themselves, but in the end Nat gave her life because Clint had his family to get back to and man I had all the feels. Then of course there was our third team with Rhodey, Nebula, and Rocket, who end up tying Thanos back into the plot again, which was interesting but ultimately well done I think. When they all got back to the Avengers headquarters and Nat wasn’t there I was like 😭this is so damn sad. but then of course they’re able to have Hulk!Banner snap and you just get the first hints of it working before they immediately get launched into a huge battle. Not gonna lie, for a while there it was looking like they were really fucking screwed when they had armies upon armies ready to fight them, BUT THEN THAT SCENE where everyone comes back god I was crying, it was so fucking perfectly done I just cried at all of it, getting to see everyone back like that in such a triumphant way was too damn great. I liked that when Captain Marvel showed back up she was legit able to take on Thanos and literally had to be stopped by the full power of an infinity stone. I ultimately liked how they did it with the stones going to Tony while you didn’t realize it until Thanos snapped and you see all of them with Tony, and he then snaps and all of them turn to dust and just like, it was so great. Now of course I knew Tony was going to go, but I was glad it was ultimately the most heroic thing that really saved the day, he truly went out as a hero that saved literally everyone in our universe, which is really quite the achievement. The funeral scene killed me of course, especially with the little girl, but you know she’s gonna grow up surrounded by all these awesome people and she’s gonna end up being just fine. I was at least glad they put the stones back in where they were taking from, even if their time travel theory was flawed in a few parts. Cap coming back as an old man after having lived his life with Peggy was so damn good, I cried just because it was all so damn good and pure. And of course we had Peter meeting back up with Ned which was the cutest damn thing really. and yeah, I guess that’s it. I did like it a lot and will probably watch it again at some point once it’s available outside of theatres. Once we had confirmed there was no post credit scenes (thanks internet) we headed out and walked back through the snow (because it was still snowing like 10 hours after it started!!!) to the cheesecake factory where we ended up doing apps and dessert, except we didn’t get quite through our apps and ended up taking the cheesecake home with us. We split the fried mac and cheese balls and Jess got a salad, and I got their grilled artichoke which I’ve had before and is always really good, but takes forever to actually eat (so many layers!!) so I ended up taking some of that home too. Thankfully the snow hadn’t managed to stick to the roads much at all so the drive home was mostly safe. Jess dropped me at my place after she was convinced it wouldn’t be covered in snow (they’re bad about plowing the side streets, but none of the snow ended up sticking on the roads so it was ok), I put my stuff down and then grabbed my pajamas to get in the shower and get ready for bed and then started writing this, and now I’m here. It’s 12:34 am and I did volunteer to take a shift in the babies’ room at church tomorrow morning so I should definitely be getting to bed now. Goodnight loves. Hope you had an awesome Saturday.

[knightofbalance-13]

https://sokumotanaka.tumblr.com/post/174162891984/makas-character-vs-rubys-lack-of-it

I barely know much about Soul Eater...and yet even I knew you’re full of shit

Sad thing is: you’re making SOUL EATER look bad, not RWBY.

“I struggled what to call this hell what to even talk about given ruby’s lacking characterization.

In this waste of post I want to talk about how miles in unfair to soul eater by ignoring maka’s character and point on the already known lacking bits of ruby’s.“

Spoiler alert: He’s gonna be FAR more unfair to both parties but especially Maka.

Now if you’re not familiar with soul eater I suggest watching the anime then reading the manga do to it branching off from the anime (But I say do both cause you’ll miss some amazing voice acting, animation and music from skipping the anime.)

Seriously? You are gonna argue Maka Albarn’s character...by recommending the ANIME?

The same anime that COMPLETELY fucked over Maka’s character into being an unlikeable, obnoxious bitch who randomly assaults male characters for showing attraction to female characters as well as being irrational about her father to the point that she has to be FORCED to spend time with a man who literally revolves his life around her? 

See, this kind of paints a bad picture of you Soku: YOU SOUND LIKE A SOUL EATER STAN. You sound like you are so blind with admiration for the series that it can do no wrong in your eyes, despite the fact that the anime fucked over Maka by flanderizing aspects of her character to the point of making her unlikeable (believe me, I tried my DAMNDEST to like Maka in the anime) and making a DEUS EX MACHINA ENDING. No amount of animation, voice acting and music can salvage something like these two.

Maka’s a scythe master, a cheerful young girl she’s direct, she loves books to the point of having to be dragged outside by friends and she’s a brilliant strategist. I love maka cause she’s very hardworking as we would see evident to both media she’s from she’s constantly striving to reach goals better fighters can get to on pure strength and shows that a strong mind can overcome a stronger fighter.

And the best part is we’re shown her reading books, she’s often reading something that catches her interest or studying to better herself. (It’s even a plot point when needed to learn more about a scholar and powerful fighter from the past.) Although she’s now without her flaws, she grows past them to work alongside her friends even if certain one’s can try her patience. 

Funny how you don’t mention these flaws and just gloss over them. Almost as though you feel insecure about Maka.

Let me inform everyone about Maka’s flaws: She’s irrational. She hates her dad for cheating on her mom which is understandable...to an extent. Thing is, her dad Soul REVOLVES HIS LIFE AROUND HER. He makes it constantly clear that he loves Maka with all his heart and soul and is constantly CRUSHED by her rejections. It’s said that Maka does this because she fears rejection but if that were the case then why would she subject her own father to that?

Not only that, Maka has a SEVERE tendency to assault male characters for acting perverted. Like, I know this is a thing in anime but with the way the she acts, you’d think she’s assault Mineta or Master Roshi, not guys casually remarking about people’s attractiveness. In fact, Maka’s pretty tempermental as well, attacking a lot of people who annoy her. Not to mention how she doesn’t read to better herself, she does it because she’s competitive and insecure, to the point it fucks with her in battles and in school. And for a few these (like her issues with her father): She never gets over.

Which is FINE. It’s her character. Not this Mary Sue cardboard cut out you made. The Maka YOU described sounds boring, unrelatable and fucking bad.

Now let’s go over Ruby

Despite ruby’s quick deterioration as a character she did have some characteristics to her in the past, in volume 1 she was afraid to branch out and used her sister as a security blanket, she had a fondness for weapons but it has dropped for a while then only brought up once, she was optimistic to a fault as that was the only trait she has as we continued, and she also likes books but mentioned it once and we’ve yet to see her bring it up again.

Gah! see this is me genuinely trying to like ruby as a character but sadly she’s not got as much to offer as maka does. Ruby as does many other character in rwby start deconstructing as characters as the series continues, I can’t remember the last time ruby did something smart enough for anyone to consider her a strategist (I mean I guess shooting nora was smart but  you could accomplish the same thing by giving her electric dust, and the plan falters when you all smile tipping the villian off.)

yeah yeah, misrepresenting RWBY because you’re so insecure you feel a need to manipulate info.

Ruby is socially awkward. This shows numerous times throughout the series from not wanting to go to Beacon due to hwo weird she’d look there to being unable to communicate with Weiss properly due to her missing out on sarcasm and freezing up to her inability to talk things out with Weiss to her awkwardness at the dance to even meeting Winter. Look I listed like five examples.

Ruby is also heroic to a fault, rushing in against opponents without thinking as well as prioritizing others above her self. She attacked the Nevermore without thinking. She went after Cinder by herself without reinforcements. She goes up against the Nevermore in Volume 3 without thinking. She bottles up her emotions like in volumes 4 and 5.

Ruby is also flexible in her beliefs as seen in volumes 4 and 5 where she acknowledges she was wrong about how she viewed the world but still kept her beliefs by adjusting them to how her worldview has changed.

She’s inspiring as shown in how people tend to follow her example, like Jaune did in Jaunedice. Or how Blake’s view of things changed to be more like Ruby’s Or how she literally caused the events of Volumes 4 and 5 by being unwilling to let things go in Volume 3, inspiring JNR to follow her. 

She’s also kind and trusting, like how she never tries to kill her opponents as well as trying to get Raven on her side in Volume 5.

And she’s gotten a will that would match up with a Gainax protagonist with how much shit she takes.

And even here you’re wrong because Ruby used the distraction of Blake’s arrival to send her best fighter to retrieve the Relic before the bad guy’s could!

Again, you sound insecure, like the moment you actually talk about Ruby she’ll outshine even your Mary Sue version of Maka so you jut shake your hand and avoid the topic.

It makes me think miles didn’t actually bother reading/watching soul eater and in terms of character hell in terms all around, fighter, character, positive female role model maka triumphs over ruby no doubt about it.

....

Maka can’t fight worth a shit without Soul and even then her feats, at ebst, are BARELY better than Ruby’s.

This Maka HAS no character aside from Mary Sue.

And this Maka has no flaws so why aspire to be her instead of the flawed but determined and kind Ruby?

Yeah, this is why I don’t want you to talk about Soul Eater and RWBY: You seem so insecure that you try to cover up Soul Eater’s ‘flaws’ but end up making it look worse. God I doubt YOU’VE read Soul Eater. I've shown a deeper knowledge of it and I barely have any first hand experience with it. Most of what I know is from friends and the wiki.

I made this cause  wanted people whom know about soul eater and don’t to know the diservice miles did in writing it off instead of learning from it and using it to improve his story.

... this sentence makes no sense. Even I write better than this.

Best I can say here is: you never provide a link to the Soul Eater thing Miles said. And I don’t find it ANYWHERE. So I’m just gonna assume you lied.

And honestly Soku, You’ve done such a disservice to Soul Eater I think you turned people off it. You made their main character look like a damn Mary Sue and made it look so weak that it needs help beating fucking RWBY. I honestly believe you’re a misguided Soul Eater Stan.

Tune in next whenever when I talk about how one sided a ruby vs maka death battle would be. 

Listen, nobody wants Maka to win more than me. Not because I like Soul Eater mind you but because I want Ben and Chad to get out of this scott free and I know you’ll assault them if they say otherwise.

HOWEVER I looked up Maka and Ruby on Vs. Battle Wiki...

http://vsbattles.wikia.com/wiki/Maka_Albarn

http://vsbattles.wikia.com/wiki/Ruby_Rose

... Yeah, Maka’s best feats are all reliant on the Black Blood Armor against Asura...which only WORKS with Asura or great amounts of Madness so it doesn’t work with Ruby.

So lets’ take the feats that actually work against normal people:

Maka:

Attack Potency: Building Level

Speed: Hypersonic+

Lifting Strength: Class 5

Striking Strength: Building level

Durability: Building Level

Stamina: Large

Ranga: Extended Melee, Several Meters with porjectiles

Intelligence: High

Ruby:

Attack Potency: Large Building

Speed: Hypersonic+ (WITHOUT her Semblance)

Lifting Strength: Class K

Striking Strength: Large Building

Durability: Large Building

Stamina: High

Range: Extended Melee, Several hundred Meters with Crescent Rose

Intelligence: High

... Yeah...

Things are NOT looking good for Maka. Her best powers only work against opponents in HER world while Ruby’s are so general that they can be applied universally.

I might be wrong here: I’m gonna read Soul Eater more after this to learn more but...even my friends who know Soul Eater say things are really close.

Just stop doing this Soku! You’re making SOUL EATER look bad!

[stilesssolo]

23

23. What’s the nicest review you’ve ever gotten?

Oh, this is hard, because I’ve gotten SO many nice reviews. When I’m feeling sad I go back and reread all the comments on Pas de Deux. But I think the nicest one has to be what Allison wrote on and we’ll fight to the end because it STILL makes me cry: 

(It’s long so under the cut)

Send me a number! 

Sabrina.

SABRINA.

This is just....a jewel of a ficlet. I love so muhc about this story.

First, I love that I made you do it. Can I be like, a permanent enforcer (?) of all things Stydia fiction for you? Because I have so many things that I just want you to create with your incredible words.

It's just...the thing that makes your fics stand out so beautifully is your attention to detail. NO ONE else writes with the kind of detail that you do. The pictures that you create make your stories that much more rich and beautiful. Like, "Looking out over the town now, dappled light shining through the tree cover at the edge of the lookout" Most people would leave it with the looking over the town part. But YOU. You take that moment and infuse this beautiful imagery that makes it that much more perfect. Or the line with Lydia "her hand wrapped around Stiles’s bicep, her body tucked into his side." I just took a moment after reading that sentence to just revel in the picture that you had me imagine. It's such a joy as a reader to settle into the world you create.

And of course, the moments where you include Allison. "This town is the place where Allison Argent rests..." GAH that line just...MURDERED me. You have these beautiful pictures that you create by weaving words and details together, and then you write something as simple as that line, and it just guts me. They wouldn't forget her. She will forever be linked to that town because that's where she will lie forever. And it's UNFAIR. But it's also beautiful how her life enabled them to continue and gather strength.

And oh, Scott's vision. I think I love it so much because...after 6a, it's what we ALL could see. It spawned a hundred fics and left scope to the imagination, and it was so beautiful to think of them leaving this town and creating lives for themselves but also with each other weaved through, as well. 6a was an imperfect gift wrapped in this beautiful bow, and it allowed us to be able to see just how these characters would continue to pour into each other's lives.

Then 6b happened and blew it all to shit, but I'm not going to go into a diatribe about that here, because this fic is too perfect to waste character limits on 6b.

My heart just swelled with happiness and warmth at the picnic scene that you created. I loved their feeling of home and pack and family and safety, and I just want them to live in that and have that SO BADLY.

AND THEN YOU BROUGHT IN KIRA AND YOU KILLED ME FOR REAL. I....just...no words there. Other than just perfect.

Finally, I loved this line: "The early autumn air is crisp, signaling the changing of seasons. The changing of everything." I loved that parallel. How it mirrors Stiles' line, "everything's changed."

Seriously, Sabrina, even though 6b was a monstrosity, you have the ability with this fic to make me forget for a little while how absolutely terrible it has been. You make me want to live in the worlds you create for all of the forevers. Thanks for this gift.

[lozenger8]

Gah Ijust love your Sciles fics so much!!! There's something about Stiles who is a whirlwind of energy being able to shut that off because of Scott. I also think Stiles can do the same for Scott. While Scott is calm he definitely lives in his head worrying and caring about others. Stiles is able to get him to shut it down while he takes him apart.

Scott tries not to listen to the inner voice that likes to remind him of his failures and mistakes. The one that insists he’ll never be strong enough, good enough, enough in general. It sounds a lot like his dad some days, like Gerard others, like himself in his darkest moments. 

Scott doesn’t hate himself, but he doesn’t exactly love himself either. He’s not sure if it’s necessary, when it comes down to it. He does what he has to do to survive, and if that means there are weeks when he’s not truly living, he has damn fine excuses. But not loving himself occasionally leads to him wondering how anyone else could love him either – even though he trusts, he knows that they do. His mom, his pack, they all care for him, and he cares double in return.

It’s just – every little kindness is a welcome shock to him. Something that has him smiling, instinctive. A brush of a hand against his own, slow and reassuring. An anonymous benefactor who ensured his bike was fixed. A movie night screening of all his favorites. The past month has seen his friends showing their love for him, and every single time, he’s been overwhelmingly grateful and a little amazed. 

Stiles has surprised him the most. Actual human emotion has always been something Stiles has tried to avoid in the past, but lately, he’s been opening up – telling Scott about some of his fears, explaining past actions, and casually, carefully, giving Scott words of encouragement. 

“You should be proud of yourself,” Stiles says after Scott successfully negotiates a deal with a neighboring pack. “But if you can’t be yet, I’ll be proud enough for the both of us.”

“You look really good in blue,” he says a few days later. “And green. Red. Yellow. Black. White. Basically, anything. You just look really good.”

“I think you should treat yourself this week,” Stiles murmurs absently as he patches up a scrape on Scott’s torso. It’s from an arrow laced with wolfsbane so it won’t heal without some tender, loving care. “Go extravagant. You’ve more than earned it.”

“Stiles, are you trying to be my life coach? A perennial pep talk? What’s going on?”

Stiles looks up from his task and presses his lips together tightly. He clearly purposely doesn’t look away from Scott’s eyes. “I’m saying everything I used to think and never had the courage to say.”

“Why would it be so hard for you to be supportive?” Scott asks, and he can feel his frown, an extension of his confusion. “Not that you weren’t supportive. You always were. But, in words. I mean. Not only actions. Not that the actions were only. You must know what I mean. Stop me anytime you like here.”

Stiles smiles at him softly, an edge of sadness to it, but affection too. “Because then you’d know exactly how I feel about you and I was afraid it’d make things awkward.”

Scott nearly gasps. He’d been hoping Stiles loved him like he’d come to acknowledge he loved Stiles, as something different than a friend, something potentially risky and troublesome, but he hadn’t wanted to assume. He wraps his hand around Stiles’ wrist, strokes his pulse point.

“Doesn’t feel awkward to me,” he says.

When they kiss, it’s slow and measured. Stiles’ kisses are all-consuming and  involving. Scott loses track of time, of himself for a while. Stiles holds onto him like he’s precious and Scott realizes he’s not lost at all, he’s just been found. He stops thinking about it, about anything, and enjoys the moment. 

[fatelessbard]

Drabble: ~1000 words Quest: Please Find My Chickens!

The task seemed simple enough. Just gather a few chickens and help out one of the NPCs and maybe something will come of it. Like any of the other side-quests they’ve had right?

No.

This whole ordeal was starting to end up… fowl, literary funnies aside. Kiwi had spent since the crack of dawn rummaging and scurrying about for the darned mothercluckers left and right. Resorting to all sorts of methods of acquisition, be it involving traps or just outright trying to snatch them in a grand chase. Ok, many grand chases. The little devils seemed to just want to wriggle and squirm right out of Kiwi’s grasp whenever it came to.

Their efforts were paying off, at least. They’d managed to corral seven of the required eight. Even if it took several hours to get this far in the first place. It’d been grueling but, let it be known that Kiwi would never underestimate just how desperate a chicken can be when wanting to be away from its owner. The sheer amount of scrambling they had to do to get a couple of them was daunting as is; so, knowing they had to gather just one more was both a relief and tiring to think about.

They rolled up their sleeves and winced at the pain that shot up to their shoulders. Scratches littered their hands and arms, aching with dull pain after being exposed to the late-day sun.

“ I really ought to get these taken care of later… ” Kiwi hissed under their breath, biting back the sting each wound gave. Seeing the lack of red blood caused them a slight spike of anxiety and almost made them woozy. Thankfully, after a deep breath and covering their arms back, they recovered and stood up to start looking for the final feathered fiend.

“ Ok… No more lazing about!! Heeeere chicken, chicken… ” Cooing and calling, clapping here and there, Kiwi went more into the city. Passing by familiar sites of previous birds, they recollected briefly on how they had to end up doing a bit of parkour over some boxes and stands for one of them. Having to explain seemed to get them scott-free from the merchants but, they still felt bad.

It was such a strange thing… these NPCs. The way they spoke about things and went about their lives really struck chords with them. Not in the ‘haha! Wow, how funny!’ kind of way either. Everything about this island, tragic situation or otherwise, just resounded a bunch of bad memories for them. It was sad, really. Even if they had their interesting quirks, like the gal they were gathering these birds for in the first place… The dialogue spoken to them always felt so jarring and just… out of place. They fit the situation of course but they never really struck what feels completely real and–

cluck cluck clck

Head snapped upwards and out of thought, they spot it. The chicken they need. Clucking away at the side of a bridge– right there in the open. Kiwi’s eyes widened and instantly, they crouch downwards and begin to engage slowly. The usual existential awareness of this place will have to wait a little bit longer,

“ Now, now…. Don’t make this hard on me. You’re the last one of all your little buddies… C’mon… ” Closer and closer still. The bird wasn’t even looking at Kiwi, opting to begin pecking in between the cracks of the bridge’s planks. A hand inches until finally grazing the tail-feathers, ever so slightly. Then…

That’s when its head snapped right towards Kiwi to stare them down.

Before they could even utter a peep, a frenzy of feathers erupts in an instant. Vision completely blocked by the chicken boldly slamming themselves against their face.

“ GAH!! WAIT–THIS ISN’T WHAT I MEANT WHEN I SAID CMON! ” It took all for Kiwi not to swat at their own face at every single peck and clawing stroke the bird decided to deal at them. Instead, In an act of stupidity, their body thought it would be lovely idea to do all the recoiling for them and dunk themselves in the shallow water with a dramatic Sploosh.

Coughing out feathers and splashing to get their bearings, Kiwi’s hands grip the chicken as firmly as possible to try and pry them off. Oh, and did that chicken caw and screech as soon as they did. Clearly, they were offended that their attack was utterly thwarted by their victim having hands to keep their stingy clawed feet and pointy pecker at bay.

Kiwi could only laugh tiredly, watching the bird try to peck at their hands to only be met with their fingerless gloves. As long as it didn’t catch on that their fingers were exposed this would be fine. They lifted their now soggy body up from the water and tucked the chicken under their arm. Keeping it close to them as they trudged back to turn it in.

At least it didn’t run away, right?

-----

“ Oh thank you so much! You actually got all eight of them! ” The familiar chipper voice of the young girl chirped as the final bird was ungracefully dropped in the pen with the others.

They wanted to almost make a sly remark about ‘counting chickens before they hatch’ before the girl simply ushered another catch-all statement,

“ I’d hug you in a form of gratitude but, I’m afraid you’ll cause my reaction with all the man-handling you’ve done to my hens! ” She laughed to herself in a particularly fake-sugary sweet fashion before continuing,

“ I’ll mark the quest as finished as soon as I can. Thank you again! ”

   So, that was that? 

      Nothing of note… Nothing… major…?

Kiwi felt themselves flop on their bum in realization they were done with this particular nonsense. Maybe they should have tried gathering the weeds instead of this fiasco. They rubbed their face and leaned against the wooded corral and felt their eyes drift just a bit. The soft clucking of the chickens easing them into a light sleep.

Maybe… just a few hours. Just to rest up… Yeah.

[majorxbennyxboy]

Mom Watches TURN: S1E1

First of all, good news, lads, she likes it! She says it’s a little slow starting off but she’s definitely intrigued and Ready to Go. Fair warning that the following commentary contains her uncensored first impressions of certain characters and may be considered offensive by some audiences. Hell, I was offended by one of them. That said, *Hamilton Voice* Le’z go.

We’re two episodes in and so there may be some overlap contextually, but alas,

First time hearing Abe speak, "his voice made me think of that guy in...in...Unfortunate Events- the guy who was also in Last Samurai! The Scottish Guy, just- rewind it- RIGHT THERE." (Billy Connolly. She thought Abe sounded like Billy Connolly.)

Baker comes out of the house, she makes this derisive, kind of ‘judging him’ noise, "Was he just out of the whorehouse" "that's THEIR house ma" "was there someone in th-" "MA"

While Mary's making the bed and they talk about Baker staying there, "aw do they take in people as a little extra wage?" She was horrified when I told her the Woodhulls are not getting paid.

She cringed pretty expressively at the shot of red water, and then, and the exact quote, as Welsh walks around stabbing people, (imagine, if you will, a YIKE tone) "OOHHHH!! Oh Wow. AH!"

First sight of the Rangers, "who is on whose side"

there's really no accurate transcription for the Soft Gasp™ when Ben opened his eyes, but it was followed by,

*Gasp* “HE CAN'T LET NOBODY KNOW HE'S ALIVE. OH NO. OHHH Oh goddd GGASP OOHHH “ *sucks breath through teeth as Welsh approaches* “AwwwwWWW”

As Ben stabs Welsh, "GOOD FOR YOU BUDDY GOOD FOR YOU"

*pained sounds as Ben stabs the dead dragoon* *soft “oh :( “* Doesn't react at all when Ben gets shot but the second he gets up and keeps running, she says, completely deadpan but also vaguely distressed, "He ain't got a chance"

I have reason to believe she thought he died or something bc later when Ben's talking to Abe (more on that in a minute) she didnae realize That Was Him but idk maybe she just assumed after his convo with Scott he was still actually Recovering or something idk

"why are there bugs in the cabbage that's nasty" she sounded so disappointed. There was this air of being personally affronted by the fact that there were bugs in the cabbage. It was amazing.

As Abe heads to the tavern,"So what side is he on"

*pained noises during 'fight’*

No reaction to seeing *annavoice* Hewlett *normal voice* but after he got in a few lines she just,"WAIT A MINUTE. GET OUT. GUPPY???" *Richard walks up* "THE PIRATE? Woooowwww. They've lived many lives, haven't they."

As Hewlett speaks, "I'm not believing that VOICE"

(On Richard and his relation to Gibbs) "He needs the long long long thick sideburns and something else" (as Selah's being frogmarched to the stocks)"Are they gonna kill him???"

Abruptly, as the Cabbages come back in view, "don't they say something about maggot-y crops in lord of the ri- MAGGOTY BREAD. THREE STINKIN DAYS"

Seeing Mary as if for the first time, "He has a wife?? But he's in love with that other woman????"

(After Richard's speech about the Smiths, the Strongs, the Tallmadges) "That's what's wrong with us. We married into the Smiths. They chose the wrong side long ago- or are they on the right side?" "They're Patriots ma" "...oh. So we just got some bad Smiths."

(Turpin Hero starts up) "What's he gon try to do with that cabbage. he tryna replant? or just dig up the old???? Where's he going with rotted cabbage?"

"He's there with the rotted cabbage. To what avail"

(On Caleb) "oh, now he looks- LOOKS" (I have not deciphered what this particular reaction Means. )

(during the Abe + Ben interview. The Benterview I'll show myself the door) "He looks familiar" "Who, Ben?" "mm the other one" *shot pans to Ben* "that Thing" "..that's Ben" "OHHH"

It was at this point I Realized and was compelled to explain that in this case he is Familiar because she just saw him a few scenes back. "He's the Boy? the 'we need a friend in-' OH."

(On Abe's bartering) "I'd want more than twelve pounds"

(utterly dismayed) "He's gonna bury his money right there that close to the-???"

(on Simcoe) "THAT UGLY GUY THERE. HE'S HIDEOUS LIKE FRANCIS. I grew to love Francis but I will never love this freak. He's awful, I can't stand that guy. I've sniffed him out already. I hate him."

(As Simcoe crawls out of the safehouse)

"simcoe LIVES? gah."

"ohhh GAH he looks like a HIDEOUS version of Francis"

*laughs at Robeson's expression after Abraham's Sham-Vow*

"He didn't want to do that, I guess. Did his father want him to do that? Is his father playing both sides of the fence? Oh."

(this just in, she does not find Anyone 'particularly delightful' and has professed a desire that "a tasty morsel will come along" she said her tastes were leaning toward "the guy who got shot but he's getting on my nerves"

"What the what mom what has he possibly done in the space of two episodes to-"

"-He's all over that girl!"

"mom who are you talking about Ben doesn't even know what girls are he hasn't been anywhere near a girl"

"The guy who got hurt he was laying down and stabbed the guy who was going to stab him- he was gonna be a spy!"

"Mom no that's Ben and he has not- he wasn’t going to be a spy, he said they need spies- Abe's the one who's got the Tension with Anna, but-"

"No not HIM, they were in Bed and talking about spies"

"JANDRE MA. THAT IS JOHN ANDRE" "mm. andre.  ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) " "YEAH? AND HE'S A REDCOAT MOM DON'T BRING BEN INTO THIS" "...oh. well in that case I’m leaning toward the soldier who got shot. There’s Hope for him, there’s Potential" shes gonna lov my son *thumbs up*

"...what's the pirate's name" "Gibbs???" "Gibbs I like his son" "Richard's son" "Yeah but not in a swooning way I like him because he seems like a helpful sort of person" "just u wait ma" "what" "I have a soft spot for him but the fandom hates him and its so sad because he deserves love too" "WHY WOULD THEY HATE HIM HE'S HAVING A HARD TIME HE'S GOT BUGS IN HIS CABBAGE GIVE HIM A BREAK" "RIGHT?"

[hockeyandhorses]

Heartland re-watch 1x11 - Thicker Than Water

> Snowy Alberta!

> “I tripped in a gopher hole.” Mmhmm, sure Amy! Good thing Ty was there to catch ya!

> Jack’s cutting his own slices of bacon?!?

> Lou is so confused right now, it’s hilarious! She thought Jack would be throwing a fit once he heard about Tim coming over.

> Ty practicing roping on Mallory!  “Be the cow, Mallory!” Haha

> “Oh, honey, nobody looks good in hip waders.” - Maggie to Lisa

> Maggie knows what’s up. She’s like the founder of Team Jisa.

> Amy and Lou grilling/teasing Jack about the fishing trip is so cute.

> Love the Ty/Mallory scenes in this episode. Their relationship is so awesome!

> Tim arrives with a horse in tow. At least that helps things be less awkward for Amy.

> Man, you can practically see the heart eyes Amy’s giving Ty when he walks away.

> Kinda makes me sad for Tim when he sees inside his former home for the first time in years. So many good memories, so many bad, so many missed....

> Mallory giving Lou the sad puppy eyes through the window! Way to work it!

> Uh-oh, Lou’s getting jealous of all the attention Tim is giving Amy.

> That fishing cabin and view though...I would love to escape to a place like that!

> Ty is so proud of his roping skills, but I’m with Mallory: try roping a moving target!

> Jack is just LOVING Lisa’s fly fishing struggles.

> “I didn’t know fishing was a team sport.” Neither did we Lisa, but we’re glad it turned out that way so we could get some cute Jisa moments!

> Lou is really brave for jumping Spartan when she hasn’t jumped in years! I know she wants to impress Tim, but couldn’t she have done something else? That could’ve ended badly! At least she had a helmet on, though.

> The flashbacks to Tim’s accident at the Calgary Stampede are re-invigorating my desire for a Heartland prequel centered around Tim, Marion, Jack, Lou and Scott.

> In the credits, it says the young Lou in the flashback is 15 years old.

> Aww, the way Jack lights up when he talks about Lyndy. 

> Another High River reference! 

> Love how Lisa classes things up for their meal by bringing some wine.

>  Also I love hearing Jack talk about his rodeo days. Adds so much more to the character.

> Millarville reference! I think that’s where they film a lot of rodeo ground scenes.

> Jack being open and honest and Lisa toasting that.

> So much baggage between Tim, Lou, and Amy. But you gotta start “unpacking” somewhere. That’s why I wish Tim would’ve hugged them after Lou mentioned she didn’t remember much hugging back during Tim’s rodeo days.

> So, I’m gonna assume Amy’s the horse and Ty’s the cow in this relationship example?

> Ty’s idea was still good...even if he used a Jersey cow.

> Gah! That almost Jisa kiss ruined by the snoops waiting on the porch!

> Jack using fishing lingo when talking about Lisa is the funniest.

> Amy’s favors are one of a kind: like needing a dozen heifers! 

> Lisa is hooked alright...on Jack more than fly fishing! Val’s reaction is priceless!

> You kinda get how small the town is and how well neighbors know each other. Usually, people knock on the front door, but Val goes around to the side/back door. I guess it just strikes me as a small town neighbor thing to do. Or it just gives Val a chance to snoop around!

> It’s Val’s visit to Jack that has me wondering, is she upset that Jack didn’t tell her he was seeing Lisa or just upset that he’s seeing Lisa?

> Haha, it’s okay with Jack if Tim comes around as long as he has a date with Lisa during that time. Can’t fool, Amy!

> Tim says Amy’s got the “cutter’s slump”, so if you’re wondering what that is, it’s when the riders back posture is relaxed and bent. Thanks google!

> Lou finally admits that she stopped riding after Tim’s accident. I can understand that. It’s hard to love/do something that has seriously injured a loved one.

> Lou used to tap dance when she was younger! 

> Lou and Amy having these heart to heart’s is so great for their relationship. Some things get resolved and some don’t, but you can see them getting closer and understanding each other a lot better.

> Love the camera angle and that you can see Amy’s reflection in Lou’s mirror. Love those little details.

> So proud that Lou’s finishing her “crash course” with horses, even if the cat’s already out the bag.

> Amy: Anything you want to talk about?

      Ty: No. I’m good with just sitting.

> End song: “The Long Way Home” by Catherine MacLellan

[alverlanche]

                                BABES. I. AM. IN. SHOCK. 

honestly, when I revamped Lance I NEVER thought I would hit such a large milestone - or that I would find so many new friends by bringing him back!!! It warms my heart that so many people have given this hot headed dork so much love from a tv show from YEARS ago - so I thought I’d give some love back

So - before I get into the mushy gushy stuff. The giveaway. It’s not exactly your...usual type of giveaway? Pretty much if our characters have interacted/have a friendship/relationship you can send a lil  ❤ and I’ll made a small fanvideo of Lance and your muse! Obviously your character will need to have a live action or cartoon faceclaim (or be from the show) for me to do so - but I thought it would be kind of fun to try and do! So you can just send me a  ❤ in case you’re too shy to ask ooc and I’ll find a lil song (or you can send one in you think fits them!) and I’ll try my best to make a little video celebrating their relationship! Hence the Valentine themed giveaway which I bet totally flops lol :3

                   AND NOW THE MUSHY STUFF UNDER THE CUT!

@darcybby - ha. ok. you’ll pretty much be on every follow forever?? on any blog??? you’re gonna have to deal with that. you’ve been through four blogs with me now (I’m terrible) but even if we can’t interact on some of them I still adore chatting to you ooc! Did you know you’re the only person I actually talk to on skype??? the rest I just chat with. I’m sorry we’ve not called recently (damn anxiety) but I still know you’re there if I need you and I hope you feel the same way <3 

@prydefully - I have started shipping Lancitty in a way I never even thought I could tbh. AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT! somehow a ship from a tv show which was very forced if we’re honest pushed by the writers for a romance between both sides of the teams has developed into one of the most damn. angsty. thing. I love it, I love it so much and I love talking to you ooc, you never fail to make me laugh over one thing or another <3 

@windsweptsilver​ - *drags hands across my face* can I just???? jesus, you’ve written Pietro for years, and it shows. each response  and reaction from Pietro is just spot on to what I think would be  from x-men evolutions version of Pietro. and as for headcanons - all of the ones you chat to me about make my heart hurt for him, and fit in around the shows screentime for him so well that I constantly find myself expecting some episodes to mention some of your ideas just because they fit so well. Lance and Pietro are such an interesting and fucked up relationship, I’m so happy we chat ooc about the dynamics of their relationship, as emotional as it makes me <3

@vestiica​ - how do I even?? shipping these two grumpy hot headed nerds wasn’t something I ever thought would happen - and yet here we are! well over a year later and after a blog revamp these two are still as weird and awkward as ever, and I wouldn’t have it any other way! (well....maybe I’d like them to get together properly soon - I mean, they need to sort their shit out XD) every thread we have I adore, and I only wish they had more interactions within the actual show! then again....maybe then I wouldn’t imagine them sharing pizza and learning how to swim in the way we’ve chatted about, which would be a tragedy in itself <3

@wildtsukai​ - THESE TWO I SWEAR. Lance and Toad are hilarious, and I’m so so so happy that you’re on tumblr to write with! You’re such a talented writer, you’ve gotten both sides of Todd down, the sad and the funny, Some of your backstory and headcanons make me pause and re-watch episodes with Todd’s lines, seeing them, in a completely different light, which honestly, is amazing. All of our threads have made me laugh multiple times if I’m honest, and I hope we can write them getting into more hijinks together <3  

@phcenixgirl​ - gah, another friendship that I adore Lance having! I mean...who’d of guessed Scott Summers spawn would be actually kind of cool? Lance certainly didn’t. But it’s brilliant, and I love our little threads ^^ but I also love our talks out of character,  even if recently its been me whining about my baby bro crying all the time <3 

@maximoffgirl / @multiplejamies / @idreamofjean - I still can’t believe I didn’t link your personal to your deviantart work to be honest, I’m almost ashamed of myself XD I love writing with you, on whichcever blog you have muse for really, and even if we haven’t started the thread on Jamie properly yet I’m sure I’ll love that too! ^^ Talking about evoltuion with you is so fun (and funny), especially when it’s about some of the reactions in the show, it’s always priceless! <3 

@bitebxck​ - *breaths heavily I don’t even know how to...gahhh, I adore your style of writing. Honestly, it’s so detailed and in depth, I’m always excited to see your replies when you’re done, even if I take FOREVER to respond back! I’m already super excited about writing on your other blog with you, so hopefully I’ll get round to that part of my drafts soon!! <3 

@welookoutforourown / @creepingnightmares - wellllll, lets just see how much I can gush about your art and your writing, shall we? seriously, I’m such a fan I’ve even showed a couple of friends your artwork because I think it’s so incredible (and they agree XD) and talked probably a little too much to them about how cute Maddy is! Her character is such a wonderful one, and you have an incredible way of writing her sweet character, while still being able to write Isaak as a very aggravating and cruel muse too - something that is honestly so impressive. I love seeing you on my dash, and I just wanna recommend you to all my followers <3  

@quiet-loudmouth - you followed me during a period where I was in a little bit of a rough patch...but every time I posted anything negative you came and chatted to me, and I honestly can’t thank you enough for that. you’re such a sweet person ooc, and your muse is also a total cutie, I knew I just had to write about you on my follow forever <3 

@runawaymutants​ - I’m gonna write about Elle because she’s the one I interact the most with ^^ I know you’re thinking about making me exclusive on skype, and even though I’m not too sure about roleplaying via skype I 100% would if it meant we could keep writing these two. They’re such cuties, I love every thread that we have together, and even if we swap it over to skype I still recommend that people follow you for your other oc Alec, who I don’t write with but I enjoy reading your threads with him all the time <3

@notaseasonsummers - ahhhh another person in the group categorized ‘muses I didn’t realize I would hardcore ship with Lance’! Seriously, Lance’s enemy's brother is just....wow. XD These two are such dorks with each other, and all of your christmas presents were so much fun every day that I think I love your muse even more now because of your blog! seriously, these bro’s are a top ship of mine involving Lance now <3

@vampirestakecareofourown​ - *flails awkwardly* I don’t want to keep repeating myself with the same compliments, but honestly, all of you are such incredible writers, so I have to say it for you too. Honestly, I love Gory and your portrayal, and I love how quickly our two muse are bonding and connecting. Add in the fun little comments and chats ooc and I'm just really grateful that you’re a mutual follower I consider a friend! <3 

@mypralaya - I know we don’t talk THAT much ooc, but I still just want to say that you’re another writer whose threads I enjoy immensely :) Though I’m painfully slow with replies at the moment, know that each thread and each muse you have are super interesting to me, especially since they’re less known than other xmen characters around ^^ I have to admit I’m especially fond of our thread on this account, and can’t wait to see what happens next! <3

@blindedleadingtheblind - well lets be honest, with Lance and Scott? You’re always going to make my list bahaha. Seriously, these two idiots and their ‘macho’ contests just make out already make me laugh so much. In fact, a lot of your asks and interactions are really fun and I ADORE seeing you on my dash! I hope we do more threads in the future <3

@sneakymystique - and last, but SO not least! the way you write Mystique is just....scary. scary GOOD, but still....poor Lance XD our threads have gotten him into a lot of shit so far, but really I wouldn’t have it any other way. Your Mystique is so manipulative and brutal, and such a perfect version of Evolution’s Mystique. Add in your little comments about Evolution tv show as a whole and you’re just a wonderful addition to my ever moving dash! <3

and now I just want to apologize to anyone who I haven’t written about here. there were honestly at least twenty more people I wanted to write about - but as you can probably see this post got waaaayyy too long, and these are people I chat with ooc and feel comfortable writing about. Just know that if I follow you, I adore your writing, your character and whatever threads we have going on. Happy Valentines Day! Mwah <3

[sueboohscorner]

#JaneTheVirgin Chapter 55: Life Goes On

Chapter 55

 Inhala. Exhala. First episode since…Gaaaaaaaaah! I can’t do this, I thought I could, but I…I need a sexy but stern Rafael with a beard to tell me to get over myself and write this dang recap.

The intro starts in darkness. Alba’s voice gently reminds us it will always feel different. It's two weeks after Michael's death and Jane is in bed crying about to spiral into a dark depression. Jane and Alba now have something awful in common; they’re both widows.  Jane asks Alba how she survived losing the love of her life and Alba tells Jane that she had no choice, she had to be strong.  Alba and Jane look at Mateo and Jane realizes she has to be strong for Mateo. Little by little jane moves forward.

Three years later, Jane gets ready for the wedding.  She’s nervous, but MICHAEL’S PICTURE TELLS HER SHE’S GOT THIS.  Gah. Gaaah!

The wedding turns out to be…no one’s really. Ugh, the writers psyched us into thinking someone on this show other than Jane was mature enough to enter into holy matrimony and it's a dang reality-TV wedding.  Rogelio and Darci are happily-ever-aftering on their hit show, The De La Factor Factor. Rogelio tells Darci her love is like winning the lottery and he got “the lump sum of her love.” Ha!  But it’s all fake, because DARCI AND ROGELIO HATE EACH OTHER WITH THE WHITE HOT INTENSITY OF A THOUSAND SUNS. This is a gyp! Justina and Jaime have mad chemistry and the JTV writers are really cheating themselves by keeping these two apart just because Rogelio loves Xiomara. Yeah. Ro is still in love with Xo.

Random people on the street have been throwing Big Gulps on Xo for trying to break up Dargelio (me: #Team Dargelio). Xo has actually been quite happy with Bruce in their snazzy love nest, but the producers of De La Factor Factor have edited the reality show to make it look like Xo is the problem.  Darci and Ro are also childless because of fertility problems. But didn’t Darci freeze her young, ready-to-be fertilized eggs?

Jane is late for the tv wedding because MATEO IS A DEMON!  Jane is lovely in a peach evening dress, but

Mateo is running around in nothing but his drawers like 21 Pilots at the Grammys.  Jane has a weather-based “system” to get Mateo to behave. She claps thunder and if Mateo fails to obey, it’s a rainy day. Girl, I guess. Mateo has gone from the terrible twos to the freakin’ awful fours.  There is lots of thunder and rainy days. His teachers want to get him a shadow to help him get his act together. New Mateo is cute; when he said “I’m sorry I’m a bad boy,” I was like, okay, he can stay. But Jane should consider a hand to the bottom.

Or some advice from Petra. Because PETRA IS THE WORLD’S SECOND BEST MOTHER OF TWINS. (The first is Beyoncé. C’mon, you knew that.) Ellie and Anna are angels and like Blue Ivy, they have a successful mom to look up to.  In addition to being the head of the PTA, Petra has rebranded the Marbella as the second happiest place on earth, a kind of kid-friendly luxury hotel with pirates and parrots and adventures. Petra can’t be too perfect, so she hate-bangs the skeevy guy who owns the adult-themed hotel (the All the Way Inn?) next door.

Rafael is fine. He has a beard. Rafael is fine with or without facial hair, but I do like the beard.  Raf was released from prison totally zen-ed out (must have been federal prison).  Nothing upsets him. He lets Petra handle the Marbella and he tries to find solutions for Mateo’s problems rather than worrying. Oh, and he’s got a girlfriend, Abbey, WHO OWNS A GREETING CARD COMPANY.  Hahahahaha!  That’s funny to me for reasons only I get. But it’s funny. I don’t like Abbey. She seems to be the buffer that keeps Jane in the friend-zone.  Just a couple episodes ago, Rafael was shirtless on top of Catalina and now he’s watching Lifetime TV with Helen of Hallmark.

Jane still has Faith M. Whiskers III! And she still has her dream job, only it’s a nightmare.  Jane’s boss is demanding, but when there’s an opening in an author reading series, Jane screws her courage to the sticking post and submits her novel for consideration. Rafael convinces Jane to enroll Mateo in martial arts (Ellie and Anna take classes) and the discipline seems to help.

Ro turns down another season of DLVFF and a guaranteed chance to star in The Passions of Steve (instead of Rob Lowe) because he doesn’t want Xo vilified. And it turns out Dargelio didn’t have fertility problems; Ro wasn’t sure he wanted to be permanently connected to Darci through a child. Because he loves Xo. That’s where this is going. Snoooze.  Let Xo be happy with Boring Bruce and give us Dargelio!

Mateo is so bad, he doesn’t get an invite to his classmate’s birthday party. Raf talks Petra into convincing the boys mom to invite Mateo to the party.  MATEO KARATE CHOPS THE BIRTHDAY CAKE.  Mateo would’ve got snatched had he been my son. This is annoying. Mothers who can’t see their bad-ass kids are bad are annoying.

Jane thinks Mateo acts out because she was too distracted by her grief to properly care for him. Petra assures her that’s not true. It turns out the day Rafael went to jail, Jane and Petra promised each other an our-baby-daddy-is-in-jail mutual support brunch every week. They helped each other get through Rafael’s incarceration. Awww.

Jane gets a chance to read from her novel!  The night before, Abuela tucks her in. And when she’s alone JANE LISTENS TO A MESSAGE FROM MICHAEL. About oranges. Gah! Gaaaaah! I ugly cried.  I couldn’t breathe.  I was worried the show was getting silly with Mateo and the cake, the Marbella and the pirates, but these moments of genuine grief and sadness and the very real feeling of missing Michael are a perfect  counterpoint to the light and fluffy stuff. Gah.

Turns out Jane’s novel isn’t the story of the Villanueva women; it’s the story of Jane and Michael, Snow Falling. And it’s a romance novel. Everybody shows up, even professor Donaldson who loves the novel. The reading goes well—Jane gets a deal! (Wait, does this make JANE the narrator?)

Petra, who had been trying to get the skeevy guy next door to sign an easement or emolument or something, realizes something and everything works out. I’m horrible with plot. But Yael Grobglas is a frickin’ amazing actress. Know this. When she fought for the easement telling Skeevy Guy that the New Marbella was the first thing that was all hers and she did it for her daughters, that was a great actress making a weak plot point work.

The Marbella Pirate leads the hotel’s children on a fun treasure hunt (in verse, too!) that leads them to the beach where they dig up SCOTT’S CORPSE!!!  Petra said earlier that Scott and Anezka broke up and Scott disappeared. I thought he went off with Michael’s brother and Lina, you know, to that big abandoned story-line in the sky, but SCOTT IS DEAD and since he was blackmailing Petra, she’s probably the main suspect…dun-Dun-DUNNN!

I give this eppy, on a scale of 1-10, a 7.  Last week’s episode was a 10.  This episode felt like we were back to setting up the story pins and, this far into the season, I’m ready to bowl! But the Michael moments were such nice touches and Petra’s story-line earned this eppy a 7.    I could have used more Rogelio and more info about this Abbey woman. But I guess that’s next week.

What do you think? Leave a comment!

XO,

Kellybelle

[allthesenerds]

What age did you lose your virginity?(all the muses)

Kyle: Don´t remember, happened during a party I guess. - Don´t tell mom!

Scott: 15, was a hot guy I met. Don´t remember his name though.

Shelly: Erhm why the fuck should I tell you that?

David: Still have it, hehe….. it´s sad

Tweek: GAH! WHY WOULD YOU KNOW THAT!?!?!

Gregory: Pardon me? That´s not something you just ask people. Well nevertheless since I´m such a genuine person, I´ll tell you. I was around 17. It´s…. complicated, but it happened.

Christophe: When I was born. God fucked me over.

Trent: Don´t want to talk about it

Wendy: Virginity is such a stupid concept. You can loose it whenever, and it´s not even something to lose! It´s sexist bullshit and it just makes me cringe

- I was around 16 I think 

Butters: What…. what is a “virginity”?

Token: You´re a nosy one. But sure, first time I fucked was when I was like 14. Not something I´m proud of.