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Random questions since you have the book of Bill
Does it mention the axolotl having a gender?
I keep seeing people mentioning the axolotl in he/him pronouns and I can't tell if that's a head Cannon or a fact because I tried searching it up and I literally have nothing it just said the "axolotl has a confirmed gender" and it did not tell me what it was
This is for art purposes by the way I want to draw the axolotl in a pretty dress
Well.. from my quick look through the end of the book, I found only two mentions of any gender terms for The axolotl.


"Frilly guy" & "He"
But, Since the axolotl is a god being, I don't think it really matters that much.
I mean, the god christians believe in doesn't have a defined gender, but many still call it with he and him prounouns.
But IF we were to go based on these two words, I guess The Axolotl could go by he/him pronouns. But for what I know, its not really confirmed what Gender The Axolotl is.
Just draw The Axolotl how you want, in the end, I don't think anyone would really care if you "made it the wrong gender"
#gravity falls#book of bill#the book of bill#the axolotl#genders are for nerds anyway#*cough cough*#im a nerd
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it’s actually such a difficult time to be someone who’s unironically and genuinely and wholeheartedly into space travel, and believes in space for everyone, and thinks it’s bonkers that we have had zero (0) people who aren’t white American men who have set foot on the moon, but also who hates Elon Musk and Jeff Bezos. (but also tbh it’s been hard for us Elon Musk hating space nerds out here for a long time.)
like I’m 100% not a fan of this billionaire Katy Perry space tourism… thing, but also. you don’t gotta write off space travel as a concept entirely as always imperialist/the realm of billionaires/pointless/etc. it doesn’t have to be this way come with me and I can show you a better world.
#I’m being a little bit dramatic but also I’m not#anyway I def love space more than Katy Perry does#can guarantee it#don’t think it’s fair that she gets to go and not me but I promise that’s not my biggest issue with this#anyway I’m more like. I don’t know where to go with non-scientists and people who aren’t space nerds (TM) with whom I’m aligned politically#who (rightfully) decry this kind of space tourism but do so in the tone of ‘why go to space instead of spending your energy and money#on concerns on Earth’#which like. fair enough#but like have you never looked up at the stars and felt so small and infinite and don’t you just wanna fucking know#yknow#anyway there’s some stuff on Decolonial space science happening now!#I’m not in the field but like. I know there’s conferences and stuff#I just genuinely don’t know how to bridge that gap of wonder and discovery for discovery’s sake sometimes#and maybe that’s on me#I just reread the lady astronaut books and those capture it so perfectly for me#bc it’s all of that wonder and joy and discovery but also the harsh realities of space programs and the replication of gender/class/racial#dynamics in who Gets to go to space#they’re so good I adore those books#they make me emotional though bc every time I read them I know with More Certainty that I’m never going to space yknow?#but they’re incredible I highly recommend#text post#my post#space#stem#2025 is an experience
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transfem loop + siffrin... you agree
i does agree.... i does in fact ... write a 7k word essay on the subject..... if you would like to perhaps click that link and read it if you were not already aware...... kisses u on the forehead......... sorry its that long but i had to cover all of my bases you know how it is with textual analysis when you're trying to draw a distinction between "headcanon" and "reading of the text" because those are different things.... to meeeeeeee.......
#a headcanon is when i say shit like loop has feetie pyjamas.#a reading of the text is when i go jesus christ dude im not sure someone that repressed has a particularly great grasp on their ideal Self#lucabytetalks#isat spoilers#back on the homestuck tangent sometimes i think about how ppl picked up on the trans coding of roxy but were so set in their ways that#they thought it mustve been in the past and not a potential future... and then got real mad about a character being like.#complexly transmasc with a nuianced relationship to gender and not Easily Brushed Off Before The Narrative Begins Binary Trans Woman#one of the few times i think ive seen it be That way around? but i think it comes down to that whole. visible transgenderism happening#during the plot vs Invisible transgenderism that shh its okay you dont have to actually think about you can just say for brownie points#BUT MAYHAPS THAT IS MEAN. mayhaps that is mean. but i know what i saw back in the day.#sighs homestuck tangent over anyway uhhh yeah hold on isat fans ill throw you a new bone instead of getting off topic uhhh#isabeau seems like such a pragmatic planner to me i think theyve got contingency plans for whatever family they want to have in future#logical nerd with his transition timeline planned out and it includes a flowchart with an 'IF partner has X then i need Y to have a kid'#shrodingers op isabeau . guy with a gender spreadsheet and punnet squares. i think it being that methodical is funny#it also speaks to his occasional hesitance but thats too dark of a read i think im not going to stake anything serious on that#i have thoughts on isa but they're more obviously aligned with what he literally says with his words in-game. not really much worth#elaborating on besides poking at how his insecurities and appeasement to others might inform his literal decisions#i have maybe a few bullet points in my head for him. not 7k words
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On the subject of that last reblog, I was thinking about possible trans characters in yugioh earlier and I think the best possible character to hit with the transgender beam is Ryou.
For one, their intro chapter has this page:
(note: when I first read this chapter, this page caused me to feel indescribable pain for reasons I could not fully articulate at age ten.)
And the other reason is: Ryou & Bakura's relationship is so much fun, and I love imagining ways it might be more fucked up.
So, the train of thought is as follows: Ryou has extreme gender dysphoria but does not realize it due to the environment she's in. The idea of "growing into a man" is extremely viscerally unpleasant for reasons she cannot articulate. But also everything about Ryou's life is shit so she doesn't even recognize the discomfort as being there in the first place.
But Bakura has direct access to her soul, and can recognize it as A Problem.
And Bakura is just so helpful to his "landlord." If the idea of "growing into a man" is so awful, why not do something about it?
So Bakura possesses Ryou, breaks into a pharmacy, and steals a bunch of estrogen and t-blockers.
The doses are slightly more sporadic than normal, on account of "It's hard to possess his landlord every night" and "Bakura doesn't know shit about proper dosages", but it gets the job done. Ryou's skin gets softer. Body hair isn't as much of an issue. Her voice never cracks.
Ryou has no idea why, and assumes that she just got lucky. She still has to wear the boy's uniform, but, she's seen some of her classmates. It could be much worse.
And then, she meets Bakura
and Bakura reveals that puberty didn't just pass her by.
"You say you want me gone, but where would you be without me? Did you really think you avoided puberty by chance?"
And Ryou is suddenly. Extremely conflicted. She wanted that but she didn't realize she wanted that but also he didn't even ask before doing it and she feels violated but she also feels grateful but also she's terrified because she's possessed by a ghost with absolutely zero compunctions about permanently modifying her body without her knowledge.
Events proceed as normal - Bakura challenges Yugi & Co. to a game of Monster World, Ryou eventually breaks free and sabotages Bakura, causing him to lose the game and be "banished", etc.
A few weeks later, Ryou turns her room upside down and finds the HRT that Bakura had hidden from her. She's still extremely conflicted about it, but not having it means her hormones aren't being kept in check anymore and it is hell. She doesn't forgive Bakura at all, but... maybe this was fine.
Unfortunately, Bakura was only able to steal so much. There's not much left. And Ryou has no idea how to get more.
So when Bakura shows up again... Ryou is starting to get just a little bit desperate. She doesn't want Bakura to hurt her friends, but now... it turns out she does need his help.
#yugioh#me; seeing Ryou & Bakura: could this perhaps get *more* fucked up and codependent? as a treat? for me?#''why would bakura forcefem ryou when he shares the body'' well you see i feel like when you're a bodiless ghost for 3000 years#''gender identity'' is one of those things that kinda falls by the wayside in favor of ''all consuming hatred''#bakura does not care if the body he's using has boobs. but it matters to his landlord and he is nothing if not manipulative#anyways you may now imagine ryou dressed in full gothic lolita. because of course she would wear that; the little occult nerd.
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I hate when fellow queer people do gender essentialism, even if accidental.
"Men and Women just think differently" TF WE DO NOT! Men and Women are more alike than you think.
You'd just rather say "oh they're just like that" without understanding the complexities of the system we live in.
#And these bitches deadass think they trans/nonbinary inclusive!#No you can't just say “thank you for defying the system by being you” while actively supporting it.#I know they're not being actively malicious and I'm being chronically online about it but I gotta vent cause this genuinely makes me so mad#How can you be a feminist when the phrase “men and women are the same” is such a foreign concept to you.#Anyways that's my rant sorry back to doing art stuff and talking about nerd shit#gender essentialism#lgbtq#lgbtq community#gender essentialism is the mind killer#queer#vent#nyanbles#PS: I'm genderfluid so this is not me butting into queer topics just to start shit cause I genuinely can't stand this nonsense.
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I am seized with a burning and sudden need to Get Super Weird With It except I'm also going to meet my partner's other side of the family soon and if I happen to Get Even Slightly Weird With It where they can see it, I will probably get to experience being the butt of uncle jokes, so I cannot do that right now.
But the moment nobody is looking I'm going to be so goddamn bizarre on purpose and who's going to stop me? No one. Definitely not me.
(And maybe I'll declare Fuck It We Ball and paint my nails anyway. Who give a shit. Well, unless my partner specifically doesn't want me to do that, in which case I guess I'll take it off again before meeting anybody.)
#not even sure how to define 'it' here I'm just feeling like#extremely Internet Weirdo And Proud Of It whatever that means#like yes I AM the queer trans plural disabled nonhuman pagan witch nerd your normie friends warned you about. thanks for noticing!#for my next trick I'll become a furry (already an honorary furry)#tbh I'm so good at passing for a reasonably normal just some guy lately that I think I'm getting bored...#which is like. okay hashtag goals I guess. but it's pride month and I contain FOUR completely different queers! so I'm a little pressurized#tfw you're simultaneously genderqueer + nonbinary trans man + masc-flavored agender + A Trickster God (male)#and the genders list is getting crowded. (at least now I know why I feel like so many different things?)#also like a full 1/2 of your Selves are just straight up Guys From Fiction and that feels like it needs Acknowledged?#how the fuck do you do that? idk. I've been letting them just talk as themselves a lot more on Discord but while that's been nice...#...it's also rapidly feeling like Not Quite Enough.#well what the hell else do we got. like really. especially when I'm gonna have to get us all on board with pretending we're just one guy.#because partner's family does NOT need that info about me lmao. (tbh I haven't even told my own.)#anyway yeah of course I'm thinking too hard it's 4am and I should be sleeping lmao. it be like that
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Friend: So who was your Gender awakening?
Me: ??? I didn't know that was a thing??? Who was yours?
Friend: hmm. Pidge Holt, I think--
Me: --OMG MY GENDER AWAKENING WAS PIDGE
#i don't even like the show#like. what#how#why#i have so many questions#why did i only now realize this#she was my favorite character#like. a science nerd whose gender is unclear throughout most of the show#woh did i notsee this sooner#anyway yeah#pidge holt#voltron#nonbinary#transgender
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Okay here’s the thing, some of you are asking for the 2019 Aziracrow Cosplay Pics** in my inbox, and upon reflection how could we not. You’re gonna get so much more lore than you could’ve ever asked for or wanted,though. This is a long post, and I almost want to apologize for it. **Pre-HRT baby face pics ahead
For context, Damien and I have known each other since freshmen year of high school, 2012. In fact, we had like no classes together, and whenever one of us mentioned our nerd shit in class the first couple of days, kids kept telling us we HAD to meet each other. We finally met in a history class after they got transferred into it, and exchanged fandom memes back and forth after school on the sidewalk that day until our rides picked us up, and pretty much from then on freshmen year EVERYONE thought and asked if we were two little queer kids dating in our Catholic School.
And of course we weren’t— we just sat in each others’ laps a lot, or grabbed at each other a lot, and were a little inseparable for a while. Neither of us read anything into this. We were also, very importantly, cringey little 14-15 year old SuperWhoLock girlies, only I didn’t watch Supernatural, and they didn’t really watch Doctor Who, and we both thought Sherlock was pretty good. We supplemented our own love for our special little shows for the other. We were so inseparable that Damien’s 1-month-long-freshmen-boyfriend got them a Doctor Who gift for Valentine’s Day. The key to the Eleventh Doctor’s TARDIS. (My favorite, at the time, and also one that I knew they definitely sold at the comic book shop up the block.) They break up with him for giving them chocolates with nuts(allergy), and immediately give my little autistic ass the TARDIS key at lunch. Neither of us read anything into this. This is a common theme.
Damien, at some point, tells me to read a book they love, Good Omens. Due to my brain being the way it is, it takes about 3-4 business years, until college, to read Good Omens at their recommendation.
Damien is one of my best friends throughout high school and college. I also think it’s important to note that they were a jock, and I was a theatre kid. And the only time I convinced them to do something, a haunted house, with the drama club, to share a hobby maybe, they got hit in the head with a lightsaber by a 1st grader and needed stitches immediately after we started.
ANYWAYS.
I get Damien into cosplay a year or so later- 2013? 2014?
But it also takes us years to cosplay together- we would help with each others’ cosplays a lot. By that I mean I built a bunch of their props and they helped by getting the supplies with me and generally just hanging out. It takes us until 2019 to cosplay together.
Good Omens is out on Amazon Prime.
We text each other.
“Do you want to do a couple’s cosplay of this?
Yes, yes of course I do.
And yes, of course you’re Crowley, and of course I’m Aziraphale. And of course I’m Crowley, and of course you’re Aziraphale.”

Pretty much every week that summer, we built our wings from scratch, from wire and masking tape and ethically sourced goose and duck feathers and mall Chinese food. We go out and plan and shop for our gay little outfits. We sit and talk in their car, in my driveway, for ages every time, every night.
Another fun fact: this was the same convention that I painstakingly painted their tits blue for. And also painstakingly helped them wash blue off of in the shower, drunk, later that night. Unrelated, Aziraphale was the first cosplay I felt comfortable in.
Another fun fact: while getting ready for the photo shoot we booked that morning, my family dog scared my cat Almondmilk, and he peed all over my Aziraphale cosplay, and I yelled a bit. Our photographer rescheduled, blessedly, and a few hours later our photographer was asking how we wanted to stage the kiss, since of COURSE there had to be a kiss, but instead we sort of just—

“We’re really good friends— We’ve known each other since high school— We’ve already seen so much of each other this is no big deal— Do you need another shot?”
“Uh-huh,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “I think maybe one more, if we’re comfortable with—“
“Oh yeah, no problem at all-“
“Uh-huh, Yeah,” Our photographer says, knowingly. “Tilt your head up more.”
Not many couples can say they somehow managed to get their first kiss documented and edited in HD.



Damien got nauseous at the last day of the con, and the only thing we had to help were these honey sticks from a tea shop booth. They couldn’t open the little sticks themself, with their fangs in, so I took them and ripped them open with my teeth to give to them. Completely, totally unrelated, though, I think this was the summer I began to realize, perhaps realize once more, that I was so absolutely done for for Damien.
Anyways all of that went SO well, that we were planning every Ineffable Husbands cosplay we could. Somehow, our most logical next choice was a fun and very quick, messy little boudoir photo shoot in my college dorm room, while they were visiting me 3+ hours away from their school.




Down so bad you lovingly pack wigs to go to college with so that you can have your best friend sit in your lap for your little ship.
We did that as Just Good Friends, literally in front of an old friend who took the photos and helped us stage the poses a bit.
We went to sleep that night in that bed. It was big enough to fit 3, maybe even 4 people if you were in a pinch. The bed was not treated like it was that big. (Note, we now sleep on a full sized bed, and it’s suddenly too small.)
And we talked for a while and we went to bed and all I could think about was how much I loved them no matter the sense of the word. And how many nights we sat talking in your car in my driveway for way too long, wondering if I should ask if I could kiss you. (A quick pronoun change, because I know you’re reading this.)
And
Nothing
Came
Of
This
For
LIKE
FOUr
MORE
YEARS.
Just good friends. Just good, good friends.
And that’s how Good Omens helped me realize, in retrospect of 2019, how in love I was with my Crowley best friend.
#long post#sorry for the gay oversharing nerd ass romance story when all y’all were asking for was cosplay pics.#hiiiiiiii damien this is close enough to our anniversary (next week?) that I can be gay on main hardcore mode.#also everyone say happy birthday Damien bc that IS today#the hilarity of 2019 especially. how we didn’t end up dating after that con alone is beyond me.#We probably Were Not Ready but anyways. it’s a good fucking cosplay. I still have that cosplay.#this cosplay gave me gender euphoria pre-hrt which was hard to come by in costumes/theatre/cosplay#ineffable husbands#aziracrow#good omens cosplay#aziraphale cosplay#crowley cosplay#we beat the toxic codependent sapphic teenage friendship by transing our genders <333333#andrew’s face#ask to tag for the boudoir ones. however they’re also incredibly tame bc a friend was photographing us and we were trying to play so cool#I was at least
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Sequel to this post! I think I finally figured out the cybertronian design :) The alt mode is based on a VW caddy kombi. At least I'm pretty sure it is to the best of my memory lol Not shown in this image is the bumper covered in dumb bumper stickers.
I actually really like this I think :) It's been a while since I made a tfsona and it's so different to my old one lol
#transformers#tfsona#tfp oc#self insert#fanart#It's been a while since I made a tfsona and it's so different to my old one lol#I still look at my old one with love but I feel like I can see my improved confidence and clearer sense of self + gender imo#and also improved robot drawing + transformer designing skills lol but yk#Also I included a couple of details in the design that are a nod to the hl1 hev suit cuz I keep dreaming I'm gordon freeman#it happens so often so I figured my subconscious just really sees something there?? idk man lol#I did used to get mad gender envy from that tired nerd for some reason tho lol so yk maybe that's it#Anyway hi + bye :)
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Okay I might not have anyone here whos able to contribute to this question but, in the past, I have used 'Hermaphrodite" as a purely scientific word, with heavy stressing that it is not to be confused with the definition of intersex or used to describe actual human beings under any circumstances. This is in part because I've never actually found a good term to replace it, as a lot of suggested terms are... unfitting or somewhat mismatched in a strictly scientific/biological sense. A lot of the suggested terms from more worldbuilding-focused individuals are used more (or strictly) for plants, or at least in 99% of contexts tend to be used for plants or describe slightly more specific things than just "Animal with both sexual systems at once." Plants as a whole have like... god, like ten different terms for various sexual setups because they can be stupidly complicated in a way that you just aren't likely to see with most animals, which tend to be more simplistic (at least slightly, lmao). There's also the slightly more niche issue that a lot of suggested alternatives address the topic from the strict goal of 'replace the word' and thus haven't yet spread to cover some of the specific forms that can apply too, although this would probably be a pretty easy fix if everyone can agree on a term, but at least as it is I still seems like everyone is split 5 different ways on which to use. In terms of fiction/casual use I've generally been defaulting to duel-sexed, which isn't an actual used term as far as I know, just because its pretty self descriptive and also wouldn't have some fringe specific scientific use- which is an issue I'd think you'd only really be bothered by if you were dipped in a lot of discussions about fringe animal biology- which is where I think a lot of suggestions from individuals more on the intersex activism side tend to fall when the terms they raise clash against niche situational biology things. Ive also used non-gonochoristic which is both clunkier and less easily picked up by less familiar individuals, but is also basically strictly 'animal' in use. Recently I've seen cosexual, which admittedly I seemed to have missed because yet again its a term where 99% of its use is isolated to plants, although it seems like there is a handful of uses cases that applied it specifically to animals (But still ultimately fall back on the other term in order to clarify the specifics). At least in terms of recent suggestions its probably the one I think would be most likely to pick up traction as a replacement, but its definitely still mired in the problematic terminology (In that basically everything I've seen use it only commits to using it alongside the other term, rather than attempt to replace it) and also still heavily plant related. Although not to the degrees of some of the popular suggestions like 'monoecious' which is a fairly common and well known word- but its specific relationship with other plant terminology makes it feel ill-fitted for the role when its not going to mixed with plant bullshit. Seriously look at this:
I've also seen bigenital suggested recently, which I frankly think is a much worse/weaker word both in terms of just, terminology and also its finer application. And then a handful of terms that just very blatantly have too much crossover with other things. Also a dozen other words that I've seen floating around over the years, but they definitely exist as mostly peoples personal suggestions/solutions and not ones with any real traction. It's a problem I've seen repeatedly brought up, but have yet to actually see any sort of formal correction take hold. And I think part of that is almost certainly a bit of a clash between nerds trying to maintain the specific definitions of things in an area where theres already a lot of confusing overlap, Activists who rightfully want get things changed but aren't clued in as hard to more niche scientific terminology concerns like "This is specifically for plants who have a specific type of reproduction system organization with their flowers, and thus doesn't quiet work for something that doesn't have multiple sets of genitals in different arrangements as most animals do" and well meaning scientists who want to avoid the word and try using alternatives but ultimately fall back on the one people know and that they know scientifically describes the thing they want to describe even if it also carries a historically negative connotation with it. Which is where I'm realizing I've kinda been sitting, because things really haven't shifted once you sit down and read the stuff that gets put out, and unlike some... other words its specific use case is a bit less easily swapped out with synonyms. So you just fall back in on the less ideal but accepted within the bubble youre working in term. So I guess the question is, has anyone here actually seen something make some ground past just sort of 'this would be a nice replacement'? I'd frankly love if I've just somehow missed a big shift in language in the scientific community, but so often I just see people claim that one term is the new standard when its like... standard in that its used heavily in botany, and there generally is a split between botany and zoology in terms of terminology that people would want to maintain. (God don't let anyone tell you 'male and female' are the only options or bring up that stupid 'its 1st grade biology' bullshit. The world is so stupidly complicated and this would not be an issue if it was so simple but unfortunately we need terminology for all the weird shit exclusively found in three species of cactus) Anyway, I typed this whole thing up kinda just to see if anyone else had yet more terms they've seen around or even used actually properly in a scientific paper, and its a whole mess thats been bothering me with specbio for years and at the end of typing this I'm honestly just hoping more that cosexed/cosexual catches on. I think it forms a nice trifecta with perisexed/intersexed/cosexed. And hey, maybe it has caught on more in the sex and gender side of things (let me know if so, if you happen to be more familiar with that) cause I certainly am more clued in to the non-human biology stuff which is where you get weird things one single species of rose has decided to do we now have to name. On a lighter note. God I hate plants. They give me headaches.
#anyway I've come away from this with a 'unless someone can give me another answer im on team cosexual'#but I still want to see what else people might know/have seen cause im also realizing that maybe being more clued into the#biological side and looking for solutions for the biology side has made me miss developments on the#sex and gender focused subsect#which is just like. nerd blinders i guess. cant cover everything#And yea scientific stuff is woefully outdated and sometimes youre just used to the outdatedness of it even if you like. Know its not ideal#😔 It also doesn't help that a lot of newer literature is done by students#which means that in the context of being a student you can't as easily work in a shift away from the same language your#professors would expect unless you really like wasting money and time. sure you can make essays about proposed new terms but like#how much is that actually shaking things up#SIGH science and scientists suck. Im included tbh although id like to see things change for the better. A lot of others do too#anyway this rant ended up not going anywhere because it#took me so long to type it kinda answered my own question with 'yea i think cosexual is working. or at least is probably the best#ive seen so far' but im gonna post it anyway if anyone wants to dip their toes in and say whatever#but i dont know how many of you are clued into this specific type of issue lmao#h slur#since really its about that#long post
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sometimes I think about transing yishais gender (and mass effect technology would mean there is no discernable difference whether he is ftm or not at this stage in life if I did go that direction)... but honestly he's kind of just gender indifferent as it is. his body is only a vessel and that vessel is a weapon that he has carved and shaped into a tool to survive. going through the foster system and then ditching his (rather uncaring) foster family and living on the streets as a lone survivor. as little more than a prey animal that just Hopes it'll make it to see the light of day. his relationship with the tenth street reds, the first people to really have his back and look after him (and a gang that he was kind of Forced to join at threat of being beaten to death) treated their rship with him as purely transactional when he no longer wanted to be of use to them as a guard dog and a weapon. he had one relationship that was non-transactional and truly caring, but that was short lived and the death of that one guardian figure was somewhat related to him (gang violence related).
his identity and personal value lies entirely upon the ability to survive and to persist, no matter the cost... and like. there's no problem with the fact he is a man and is referred to as such, but he has no relationship to gender that matters. and i think that's cool
#anyway my cats spilt water on my computer mouse and it doesnt work but ill be around ig later in the evening if i get my new one then!!#all my characters Will have a difficult relationship with humanity and as a result the entire concept of gender is either#1) complicated. or 2) does not apply enough for them to care#ill see ya nerds later tonight when i get my new mouse!!#tbd.#another day in yappersville ☀️ \` * file: OOC.
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feel like the older I get the more complex and weird my gender feelings get… I can’t tell if it’s me understanding myself more and more and seeing just how outside of average peoples ideas of gender I am, and how much I do not belong or feel comfortable in extremely binary gendered spaces (pretty much everywhere let’s be honest lmao), or that adulthood comes with its own very specific and weird “genderedness” like being a woman in her mid 20’s is such a specific thing, a specific thing that I am NOT. And yet everyone can only see me in that context that I very much do not fit in any way shape or form and I don’t think even many Cis women do… like idk man. I’m getting older and tired and I just feel very out of place the more comfortable I feel with myself which is kind of weird and ironic maybe? Like I know who I am and what I am is just so not any of “this” and it’s very very hard to exist in a space that is very much flatland when I’m a whole fucking sphere, excuse my high school geometry reference LMAO
#anyways#gender weird#callate guero#I always feel weird and dysphoric after long periods of socializing#but at least I feel like if I ever needed to prove to myself how trans I am#I can always point back to these very big feelings I am experiencing more and more often these days#any of you ever watch flatland… I used to be such a huge math nerd and was kinda obsessed w that movie LMAO
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#microphone effect#vent ahead ->#im. really lonely#i miss loving someone.#i miss having a partner.#stuffing my head full of fandom bullshit to distract myself only works for so long yanno#found some old letters from my ex and read them against my better judgement.#good god. we were so in love. that breakup took me by surprise so horribly#i still cant quite comprehend it. and its been over a year#over a year of me being alone and realizing i dont want to be anymore#but im stuck here. in shitville rural conservative midwest. with not many great options for a gender-confused super nerd#still embarrassed about the state of their life at the age theyre in#its just great. /s#anyways i feel really bad. think i need to have a good cry
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My dad is a massive nerd (it's where I get It from) so we watched good omens together, both seasons at release
Yesterday he said to me that he found it odd that they had Aziraphale and Crowley cannonically into eachother and in love in season 2, he said "cause I read the book and they definitely weren't like that in there"
He said "that's the trouble with having a season 2 based solely on the series, these days" and dude I respect and cherish my dad but, all the @neil-gaimen ask posts came to mind in that moment and I just said nothing so
Dad if you ever download tumblr, or god forbid read between the lines of ANY good omens media, I have mercy on your mind and soul
#good omens#uuuuh brainrot#its funny because hes like specifically a book nerd#or well hes more of one than i am#so hes well read and all that#but i feel like (and not to be big of myself or anything) i know possibly more about good omens than he does at this point#which is purely thanks to the perks of my hyperfixation which#didnt even kick in until i watched season 2#so#not to be “I KNOW MORE THAN YOU THEY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN IN LOVE!!!” about it but#they are in love#also dont fret if its the gay “woke” media that bothers you dont even worry abt it bro#theyre technically not even men#theyre like vaguely man shaped creatures of the universe#creations beyond gender#maybe thats worse idk#anyway fem Aziraphale when#weve had crowley its ziras turn
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What up I'm married to a tall person who is basically Milo Thatch but agender, and uhhh, basically, yeah, everyone should be jealous and I LOVE MY CUTE TWINK NERD WIFE!!!!! 😤😤🥰🥰🥰❤❤❤👌👌
#original#i love my wife#had a big crush on that character growing up#you know who else is really into her? EVERY OTHER CHUBBY TRANS GUY IN CHICAGO apparently we just see her and are like OH HELL YEAH#do you know why this is? it is because we have excellent taste that is why.#and also we want non threatening masc people to be into us and respect our gender! that's me anyway#and this is excellent news for her anyway bc we're in an open relationship & she thinks guys like me (her HUSBAND 🥰😁) are incredibly hot#this is also bc she has excellent taste.#but it is a running joke that she keeps getting nice OKC matches that look a lot like me 😂#anyway this post is a thing that would have made young me BOIL with envy if someone else said it but in fact it is ME#and young me grew into me and is in here like AAWWWWWWW YYYEEEEEEEEAAAHHHHH 🤘🤘🤘🤘🚀🚀🚀#she doesn't just look like Milo she also moves and emotes and talks like him. and until recently her glasses would not stay on her face!#she got new ones. nerd. i adore her.#she is so kind to Jack (me) and to my giant anxious pitbull child#she puts his blankie on him as he rests on her toes to make sure she doesn't go anywhere 😭😭❤#she is my best friend and she never makes me feel stupid or fake or undeserving. she just likes me so much and she fkn acts like it!#and we have good boundaries and communication in a very autistic way [positive] and she is so smart and funnyyy#oh i am falling asleep now#probably has something to do with how thinking about my wife makes me feel safe and warm or some gay shit like that 🙄 ;)#edit: omg it just occurred to me that she is like 80% Mill and 20% Jessica Jones. just in terms of like. vibes. XD#she cares a lot about Jessica Jones. I will tell her my findings in the morrow#*80% Milo
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I love you so much for this, especially that the positions are done with the correspondingly numbered House. I genuinely gasped in queer fan-person when I saw them.



— The unknown book pages.

#I was going to put a simple fangirl but no my gender identity said that it couldn't allow that#anyway you art real good and I like it a lot#tlt#the locked tomb#I'm a little stoned and overly honest#if you're still reading this that's wild and thank you for going on this note journey with me#stoned queer goth nerd rambles in the notes
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