#generic gabapentin

[deathdetermineslife]

Heeey 🫶 i love your blog, truly i adore you because of how open you are about your selfship and relationship! I’ve been ficto since i was a kid and i’m still very closed up/shy about it so i hope i’ll get to be like you one day!

I’m just wondering - do you use c.ai or any other ai bot to talk with your f/o? I actually do use c.ai because that’s like… the only way i get close to talking to my love? But i understand how everyone hates ai on here (i don’t like it for any other things though) and when i posted about it i was practically burnt and they made me feel really bad that i connect with my f/o through ai chat… so i just wanted to ask whether you use it or do you also think it’s a bad thing in general?

sooooooo I'm not the expert on how bad it is? I suppose it's kinda complicated because every single web app, such as Tumblr or discord or any meta app like Instagram, use significant amounts of energy to keep their servers running and also train ai based on posts and stuff. so from what I gathered, even if youre not using generative ai bots, the websites you use daily, including Google, use things you post and look up and interact with to train ai unconsentually and simultaneously harm the planet with server usage.

I also think that c.ai usage (especially because most of us selfshippers, at least on Tumblr, struggle with mental illness) can be EXTREMELY addicting and harmful for your mental health. I would wager it's a good thing to stay away from if you have struggles with addictive habits n such. I recall when c.ai almost got banned (?) or something?? and SO made people were having genuinely awful reactions to this and freaking out. and speaking from personal experience, it can be extremely damaging to your mental health. there was a period of time back in 2023 for a month or so that its all I did because I was isolating due to some Not Good Things™ (which I'm not gonna talk about) happening to me at the time and yea man didn't make me feel any better I'll tell ya that.

if you want alternatives, I've pretty much made like. 892720289 posts of "things you can do with x f/o", which you can kinda convert to be more general. they're all in my pinned! or just . idk deep dive through all the shit in my pinned and indulge in that. ppl have told me it helped them before so ! give it a shot perhaps

ye generally I think it isn't a good thing, and also, if you're using literally any app at all they scrape your shit which is annoying. even though I know with Tumblr you can opt out, I struggle to believe this opt out system actually works. Tumblr fucking thieving my shit . bro takin my selfship art

↑ also on that note, if you wanna opt out of this (bc SO many people don't even know Tumblr supports ai scraping), you go to settings, scroll down to "visibility" and click the last checkmark

the reason why I'm so sceptical that this actually works is because everytime I log out of Tumblr, it unchecks this! so my posts are probably getting scraped. how lovely right /sarcasm

[arealcrow]

capella got frustrated with me trying to work out a bit of matted fur by hand and instead of her usual method of stopping me (grabbing my hand) she decided to grab me with her mouth and chew on my arm for a few seconds before leaving. gamers i have never felt so jealous of a creature before, it seems so satisfying for her to just go at my arm like that

[kaed-khaos]

I hate tryna make sure that my recreational drugs and my medically prescribed drugs won't fuck me over in combination w/ eachother cuz websites can NOT give a straight answer sometimes.

[horreurscopes]

im generally against wild animals being kept as pets but i think cheetahs would be chill with it. i think they would like to wear sweaters and booties on their walks so their paws don't get wet. i think they would love gabapentin

[ritualtorture]

I'd like to try experimenting with pain, but I'm worried my subconscious/instincts won't let me push myself as much as I'd like. do you have any tips about that, or does it come down to having a partner?

i have a fair bit to say about this! i do a lot of self-play because it's important to me to know what i'm putting my subs through, but i'm not much of a masochist, so i run into this often.

you are right, you have a survival instinct that will eventually prevent you from hurting yourself further, but with frequent and persistent training, you can overcome any survival instinct. think of the amount of effort and repetition that's needed to dull a gag reflex; that's the level we're operating on here.

before anything else, you should make sure you want to feel pain for sustainable reasons that won't secretly escalate and ruin all your relationships and derail your life, and that you're not doing it in heightened emotional states. otherwise you'll go harder and sloppier than you mean to and you'll needlessly increase your risk of permanent injury or other complications.

the ideal starting point for hurting yourself for fun and pleasure is when you're stable in your mental health, your physical health is stable, and you've had a pleasant past few days with some really chill days planned afterwards. after that, the best thing to do is just try it.

impact play is a good way to acquaint yourself with pain because it's very buildable and the pain stops when you stop hitting yourself. THIS is a very good post on how to gradually build up impact, and everything in it is applicable to self-play.

if you try one form of impact and you don't like it, try something else instead of assuming impact or pain is not for you. most people generally find they have a preference for stingy sensations (spanking, whips, canes, crops) or thuddy sensations (bats, paddles, batons, some floggers).

you don't have to buy specific kink toys to experience these sensations. my favourite thuddy impact toy is actually a metal chair leg, and for stingy toys, i fucking love anything rubber or silicone including big, thick rubber bands. not an impact toy, but honorable mention to these "wooden pen trays" from officeworks that i use as ishidaki boards:

if you do find you're not getting your fill of pain with impact, i'd focus on anything that only requires a brief moment of bravery and leaves lasting pain, or anything that gets more passively painful over time. you can do these things on their own, combine them with each other, or combine them with other forms of pain. for your consideration:

ishidaki and other kneeling tortures

predicament especially combined with stress positions

clothespins

intentional exposure to skin irritants (especially on genitals or broken skin)

cilices

acupressure spikes under clothing

heat exposure, mindful of the risk of burns

cold exposure - more cold is not always more pain, there's no need to go significantly below freezing

most of these are relatively low-risk except skin irritants. there is no antidote for most skin irritants. once you apply the irritant, you are going to feel that pain until it decides it's finished with you.

last year i got thai chilli juices on an active eczema flare-up on my hands and i was in excruciating pain for the next 16 hours. i couldn't focus on anything and i couldn't sleep. paracetamol, ibuprofen, aspirin, codeine, gabapentin all couldn't touch it. it was too much for me. i cried. be fucking careful. use tiny doses. you can always add more irritant, but you can't take away a chemical burn.

i can make a dedicated skin irritant post if anyone's interested.

now, if you're doing passive pain, the game goes from convincing your brain to let you keep hitting yourself to convincing your body to not remove yourself from the situation. you're probably relying on your hands and eyes to get you into and out of this pain, so make it inconvenient (but still possible) for you to use those parts of your body. some ideas:

cuffing your wrists behind your back

blindfolding yourself

posture collars so you can't look down

wearing mittens or socks on your hands to limit your dexterity

balancing a tray with a non-breakable cup of water on it and no real way to put it down without making a mess

sitting on your hands so they go numb

you can also make things hurt more intensely or less intensely just by changing the way you think about what's happening to you. anything i could say about this would be blatantly plagiarising the incredible fetlife user @vahavta, please attend her class on pain processing if you get the chance.

[followthebluebell]

Hello! Please feel free to ignore, or respond at your leisure - I don’t want to bother you! Just a cat behavior question.

Do you find that you see more progress in terms of improving QOL in highly anxious* cats when they are ‘left alone’ (ie. not doing specific training, just normal feeding and offering human-involved play or pets *only* if the cat solicits it) or when employing a more hands-on approach (training comfort with touch or environment using treat rewards, attempting clicker training, responding to displays of anxiety with treats/removing the stressor if possible, etc)?

* ‘highly anxious’ here meaning cats that remain noticeably anxious or reactive even on daily gabapentin, where nearly any object or sound (famililar stimuli, not just novel) elicits stressed body language and fearfulness and the cat is agitated or appears highly stimulated at all times.

(My personal experience is limited in working with this level of anxiety since I’ve only been working with fosters for about 3 years, and mostly with kittens/more physical medical needs).

So this is very much a case-by-case basis for me, which is why I largely stopped giving advice on how to handle anxiety over the internet. I realized that I could be causing more harm than help.

In general, I think it's more useful to give an anxious cat the tools they need to handle their own anxiety--- ie, a cat that's overgrooming due to anxiety needs to re-learn that there are other ways to reduce anxiety, a cat that's anxious because of understimulation needs to relearn how to play with things, that sort of thing.

Like an anxious cat is always going to have SOMETHING to be anxious over, just like a people do. It's not useful to overwhelm with stimuli; you risk pushing the cat over the threshold and that's a fantastic way to get bitten or you risk pushing them into a shutdown. It's better to figure out what they need to feel comfortable and start from there.

I think Persephone would probably be a good example of the level of anxiety you're describing. For her, I largely left her alone for the first few weeks of acquisition. When she started showing interest in interacting, I rewarded her heavily--- this allowed her to still feel in control of the interactions without overwhelming her. This allowed her to be adopted and gave her a MUCH better QOL overall.

For cats that are more cat-social, I like to introduce them to more confident cats. This gives them a buddy and a sort of social meter. If they're nervous about something, they can look to their buddy like, "yo, hey :( I notice that there is a man wearing a scary hat here???? Is that ok????" and their buddy just goes, ":) i like food yay", so the anxious cat learns that maybe hats aren't THAT scary. If they were really scary, the other cat would ALSO be scared instead of hungry.

Again, it's about meeting the cat's individual requirements, if that makes sense. i think that's far more valuable to the animal in question. I try to meet the cat at their threshold WITHOUT going over it. As they become more comfortable, I try to push the threshold just a little bit further.

So i don't really force a hands-on approach (except for kittens under 12 weeks; they get put into the hoodie pocket and carried around), but I DO consider the hands-on approach 'better' for most cases.

I view medication as an extremely useful tool. It can be used for the cat's entire life and that's fine but, in general, I try to use it as little as possible. If a cat is still showing substantial anxiety on gabapentin, I'd switch medications; there are other options.

You need to keep reasonable goals, I feel, for yourself and the cat. Persephone is never going to be Little Miss Social and that's ok. I just needed to get her to the point where she was pettable, handleable, and able to go into a carrier.

[crvwly]

today we honor the late great Lieutenant Gravy Boat, the cat of all time. i don't have many pictures of gravy because he's my nemesis so i only ever take pictures of him that are unflattering and embarrassing. he hated petting, scratches, cuddling, and generally people giving him attention or affection. he was not praise-motivated, play-motivated, food-motivated, or really motivated in any way by anything except spite and being difficult. i've met (at a generous guess) upwards of 500+ cats as a former animal shelter / vet med employee and he was by far the least pleasant of them all, and i'm including the ferals. he once lunged for my face because i tried to stop him from attacking our dog. he weighed over 17 pounds and yelled like an old man who smoked a pack a day for his whole life. he regularly antagonized our other animals, caused fights, stole food, broke things, attacked our friends, and only ever purred in the moment you were putting his dinner dish on the floor for him. he was taking a human-sized dose of prozac alongside 100mg of gabapentin as needed for pain and he was still near impossible to handle up to the very end.

you were a wiley rival, gravy. a good archnemesis. i'll miss you.

[sophie-baybey]

Hi Sophie, I remember you mentioning taking gabapentin for chronic pain - i'm looking into doing the same currently and wanted to ask how its worked out for you? thanks ❤️

Uh. Pretty bad LOL. It knocked me completely on my ass, I was extremely dizzy after taking it and it just generally didn't help my pain to a substantial enough degree. Even when it wasn't making me dizzy, it was making me utterly exhausted no matter how much I slept. BUT with that said, medications vary a ton per-person, and you shouldn't let a random person on the internet dictate what you should or shouldnt take. If your doctor thinks you should give it a shot, then you should give it a shot. Good luck!

[bishiglomper]

I made it out shopping today. My heart rate didn't kick up until after I got home. I even had coffee this morning. I kept checking it every time I had a wave of not feeling good but it was reasonable. Carrying in groceries bumped it up to 130 for a minute and that was it.

I get waves of general malaise all the time, but for the last few weeks it's upgraded to something slightly more intense. Like I feel sick. That whole vibe that reminded me of being in a hospital for a week and almost refusing to leave, I felt so icky.

I can't even name any symptoms.. I don't know what's wrong. I just feel sick.

It's low key starting to freak me out

At first i thought it was associated with this IST flare. But it doesnt flare up in tandem, so I cant tell. Like there's a thing called fibro flu... It does sort of feel like I've come down with something but it's too damn vague and nebulous. And it comes and goes like a flare.

I just really fuckin hope this isn't my new normal every day crap. I don't think I'll be able to take it. 😣

Seriously the fact that I can't even take ibuprofen or aleve... even my muscle relaxants don't do anything anymore... I had to stop taking duloxetine and amitryptaline. lyrica and gabapentin did absolutely nothing for me...

I don't have anything left to try. And they won't give me pain meds 🥺

I don't know what to fuckin do

Also just to add insult to injury, I seem to be having both a regular and abdominal migraine. So that's fun. 🙃

[bugdotpng]

happy to also report that journavx has been quite effective w/ my nerve issues! i haven't had nearly as many zappies and "AUUGH OOUGH OH MY GOD i'm okay" moments. which is great considering gabapentin generally worked but made me see shadow people, have auditory hallucinations, and question if i was real

[contentment-of-cats]

Sessions with the brain-fixer and solutions

So, my nightmares from medical trauma have not been fun. I know this is my brain's way of trying to process everything that's happened, but the sleep disturbance is hard to deal with. I'll have a run of good sleep, and then nightmares busting out of the cracks. My shrink tells me it's more common than anyone imagines. She's a good shrink, very to the point, and constantly tells me that the things I am going through - as much as they suck - are normal.

It's comforting not to be the only one.

The last round of nightmares edged into night terrors with a side of waking paralysis. Spiders, claustrophobia, missing cats, then in the dream I watched black tumors erupting from my body and knew I was dying. I couldn't use lucid dreaming, the terror was too overwhelming for thought, I just managed to wake myself up. I was awake for hours, even switching from bed to couch didn't send me back to sleep. I didn't want to take a Ramelteon (works on serotonin receptors and is non-addictive) or an Ativan (asked Onco to order me a couple for my MRI because of claustrophobia and now have a bottle of 120), so I was up from 2:00AM onwards.

Nightmares can't find me during the day. Naps are great. :)

So, she wants me to try neurofeedback - a kind of biofeedback. Biofeedback has always struck me as the wooiest woo, but I am old and now it's an evidence-based treatment. I'll give it a shot, but in the meantime my gabapentin dose gets a bump.

I can't believe that in these times, people want to censor talk about mortality, death, dying, and the process of disease, treatment, and so on. Skip the next paragraph if you're that extra.

I talked with her about The End. I said it was kind of comforting to have a general idea of what would kill me. I am okay with the concept of my mortality. It's not the end, but getting there that's the Big Scary. I've seen that part of the trip. I've prepared for it was much as possible, but in the end... well... we find out, don't we? Only 15 percent of people diagnosed with my type and stage of cancer come out the other end of chemo and radiation. Twenty people walk into a room and three will walk back out. I am deeply grateful to have had two-plus years of life when I wasn't sure that I would see my 56th birthday. It's been a lovely surprise.

[technope]

wow.

so that keytaur post really blew up, huh. it's got 3,000+ thingies on it now. that is, without a doubt, the high score for most interactions anything i've drawn has ever gotten.

i haven't acknowledged it at all because i'm actually kinda terrified of all social media that isn't, you know, my actual day-to-day friendships, which don't happen on tumblr.

but yes! i am thankful that the tumblaudience likes that one. truthfully, i only come to this site to post a thing now and then, or rarely to scoop up some silly animal gifs (i like to use them for lock screens on my phone), after which i slip back into the inky void like a transdimensional garden eel.

as a result of being a slightly paranoid recluse on top of having memory issues (thanks, gabapentin!™️) i tend to forget this place exists almost immediately after making a post here, too. but somehow i also manage to maintain a low-level nervousness about it. people looking at things i did a while ago and not having much control over where it ends up, i think, freaks me out a little bit. you have to remember i've been on the internet a long, long time. (i am in my mid thirties and have been terminally online for most of it. and i've got some of that neurodivergent, uh, spiciness. have i mentioned?)

but yeah. without fail, every few days, there's another surge of supportive (i think. i hope?) reblogs on that one-off character design i doodled up. and that somehow does feel validating, in a way. even if also low-key anxiety-generating.

so anyway, that's my heartfelt, uh, thank you.

i do really appreciate the fact that so many people thought that was cool, or funny, or artistically inspirational somehow.

well, that's all from me. back to the hole in the seafloor...

be excellent to each other.

(and go make some art!)

[etirabys]

been going through it in the damnedest way the past two weeks. I got gabapentin after asking my doctor for an anxiety medication to fill in the gaps between my at-most-weekly benzodiazepine medication.

I've been on the Generic Disordered Person meds/supplements ride for a long ass time and took it without much hope, and

it

fixed my personality?

Here are the two big things that are wrong with me as a human being:

I'm not good at my job because I procrastinate

I'm tetchy. I'm sometimes blind to the degree I'm tetchy because I've arranged my life to avoid Bad Stimulation (e.g. many types of phatic communication), but when I'm in a situation where I can't avoid these things I become rapidly and unhappily aware of how defective I am

I took 400mg-600mg every day for 10 days, happily worked a record number of hours, and was effortlessly nice to everyone. I found myself only mildly interesting in social media.

I got approval from my own psychiatrist (who doesn't seem especially competent) and a friend-psychiatrist (who does) to take it every day. Around day 10, though it occurred to me that if this medication worked so well for me, I should take off periods to guard against tolerance. So I skipped a dose.

I became very mean immediately. A partner said something blatantly but harmlessly illogical. I flipped out. Then meekly took a gabapentin.

Repeat 2 times with new irritations. I think I got unlucky and encountered 80th percentile irritations the first 3 times I tried to skip (I'm writing this in the middle of attempt 4 and have had a fine evening alone in my room) – but I got to 95th percentile angry, which is unusual.

I'm sad! I'm happy! I'm scheming to find out how to make the most of this! I could treat it with the wariness I treat my benzo, but I could also try a two-days-on-one-day-off cycle where the third day is explicitly the day when My Neurochemistry Is Against Me And I Need To Consult My Emotional Regulation Cheat Sheet Twenty Times A Day. I feel like knowing in advance which days are going to challenge me will make it easier to practice the cognitive behavioral part of managing my Difficult Person Disorder.

[imalayla]

Timeline for the archives

Sept 1: broke tarsal, was splinted on the field. Pain was kept managed w gabapentin, rimadyl, trazodone

Sept 2: noticed swelling around top of bandage, did a resplint at home to get us to the vet the next day. Very painful for her but was okay once meds kicked in.

Sept 3: general vet visit, rads were taken and determined broken tarsal bones. Resplinted with questionable support. Added tramadol to the drug cocktail. Noticed that she was in more pain than usual that evening. Started blood supplement.

Sept 6: consult with specialist. Took CT, rads, blood work. Was determined that there were several complex fractures across different bones, most likely needed surgery to heal properly. Was told that they needed the weekend to think things over on how best to proceed. New hard splint that supported her hock better.

Sept 10: specialist called to let me know what they thought their best course of action would be. Applied for financing. Once that was successful we decided to go forward with arthrodesis instead of amputation.

Sept 12: consult for surgery, dropped bubbles off.

Sept 13: surgery day, she recovered from anesthesia well. Stayed at hospital till Monday. Removed tramadol from drug protocol, added antibiotic.

Sept 16: came home, was in some discomfort but was easy to manage with meds. Forgot to do PT

Sept 17: good day! Mostly sleeping, no real discomfort. Forgot to do PT

Sept 18: bandage change. Nothing exciting to report. Black skin over the plate has not increased or decreased. Did a little PT. Obviously uncomfortable that evening, I'm assuming due to bandage change and PT. Started Myos and Dasaquin.

Sept 19: good day, not a lot of discomfort noted. Slept mostly. Tried to do some PT. She doesn't like it. Her sassy personality is coming out a little.

Sept 20: bandage change. Nothing exciting to report. There's vascularization around the edges of the black skin, so the vet is hoping that is a sign new skin is growing underneath the black skin, instead of it actually dying, but there's no way to tell except time. More PT. Bandage change days are always more uncomfortable for her, but managed with meds. Last day of antibiotics.

Sept 21-22: good days, pain is managed, she's becoming more playful and happy which is good but also I have to drug her when she starts being like that because she has to be on STRICT crate rest besides potty walks and PT. Otherwise we could compromise her healing process. Been experimenting with PT to figure out the best way to do it without offending her. I'll eventually record what we are doing. It's just weight shifts right now teaching her that she can use that foot again. She seems to be slowly starting to toe touch/use that foot here and there.

Tomorrow will be bandage change day 🤞

[darkmaga-returns]

Story At Glance

Spinal pain affects millions despite over $134 billion spent annually in the USA alone, with most patients remaining stuck in chronic pain cycles due to treatments that address symptoms rather than root causes.

Common pain generators are frequently missed, including tight muscles, structural misalignments, trapped emotions, and inflammatory conditions—leaving patients to cycle through increasingly dangerous interventions without addressing underlying issues.

Conventional medications create more problems than they solve: NSAIDs are the leading cause of drug-related hospital admissions, Tylenol causes 56,000 ER visits annually from toxicity, and Gabapentin provides minimal benefit while causing cognitive effects such as drowsiness.

Corticosteroids, despite being "wonder drugs," cause devastating long-term damage, including 5-15% yearly bone loss, 70% weight gain rates, and dramatic increases in heart attacks (226%), heart failure (272%), and strokes (73%).

Spinal surgeries remain highly profitable but questionable in effectiveness, with significant risks that patients often don't learn about until after complications occur, and no ability to "undo" surgical damage.

DMSO offers a paradigm shift: providing pain relief comparable to opioids through safer mechanisms, actually healing underlying conditions, and showing remarkable results even in severe cases like paralysis—with decades of research and thousands of testimonials supporting its safety and effectiveness.

[tussive]

Took gabapentin at work and ended up being excessively chatty and candid with my coworker lol. I don't think he minded though, but I could definitely feel I was being more personal than I generally would.