#god I’m such an asshole

[jasper-dracona]

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[vmkhoneyy]

“People are inherently terrible” no!!! Have you ever seen a child wait for their friend while they tie their shoelaces? Have you ever known someone who would bring hurt squirrels and rabbits and mice to the nearest vet just so it doesn’t suffer? Have you seen someone grieve? Have you ever read something that hit your heart like a freight train? Have you looked at the stars and felt an unexplainable joy? Have you ever baked bread? Have you shared a meal with a friend? Have you not seen it? All the love? All the good? I know it’s hard to see sometimes, I know there’s pain everywhere. But look, there’s a child helping another up after a hard fall. Look, there’s someone giving their umbrella to a stranger. Look, there’s someone admiring the spring flowers. Look, there’s good, there’s good, there’s good. Look!!!!

[kalofi]

happy pride month here’s my contribution of trans nanami who didn’t transition until after he left jjtech and so when he comes back a brick shithouse it throws everyone for a loop. the group chat and i have dubbed this pre-t version of him nananiña. naniña for short

[dansemacabre]

i’ve been thinking about “sixer, it would eat you alive” since i read it and. man. every layer you peel back makes it worse. im not a bill apologist but. shit

if you (1) take it at face value, it paints bill as an apologetic murderer in his single (and maybe sole) open moment of regret. he doesn’t let his walls down often- only with ford do we even get to see the remnant of his galaxy, see the “actual remorse” ford describes, get just a hint of his origins. but he does it, because he thinks ford should know.

if you (2) take it from ford’s point of view, as something he committed to journal three, like. wow. imagine being so committed to a being that you’d hunt down and kill the monster that destroyed his home, only to (assumably) figure out later that that being was the monster. the small moments of trust, the “good times”, are so key to manipulation. how long did ford hold onto that one shred of vulnerability? no wonder ford stayed for as long as he did. in his eyes, bill was a survivor. ford wanted to survive too.

(slight tw below for unreality- any time i mention our reality, i mean “our reality” as a narrative device used in the book of bill as a proxy for the idea of bill being in our reality, since he can’t actually be in our reality. all of this is a fictional theory about a show/book with fictional contents!)

but if you (3) remember that “even his lies are lies” and absolutely Nothing bill says should be trusted. Whoo boy. if i read tbob right the book itself is being created in the theraprism (even tho it shows up with the ciphertologists at some point? idk that’s a whole other post). it’s meant to show what the reader wants to see; it manifests in our reality as what the collective fandom wants to see. so if we want to see truth, if we want to see where bill ended up and who he actually is, there’s a non-zero chance that the whole interaction was a complete fabrication.

imagine bill, stuck in the actively harmful, probably earth-illegal theraprism, once again being forced to be “fixed” and molded into something more palatable, being forced to conform no matter how much it hurts. (i know natural uncontrollable mutation ≠ just so much murder and destruction and chaos, but. you can’t ignore the similarities. bill has obviously been thinking about those silly straws.)

he looks back on everything that went wrong, back on his relationship with ford, back through every dimension where he wins. would that one moment, that one truth amid centuries of lies, have saved him from purgatory? if he had just been open? shown his damage? maybe he did think of his parents, or his henchmaniacs (especially the oracle). people who he might have once opened up to. maybe he just wanted to open up to someone again.

so in his own weird way, stuck in a cell, he reshaped reality again. in this reality, for this fleeting moment, he had been someone worth believing. and ford had listened, hell, ford had wanted to help. looking back, knowing how he treated ford, knowing how ford ended up because of it, maybe bill would have said the most honest thing he’d ever told ford: i am the monster, i am not worth your time or belief, and i will eat you alive.

[frnkiebby]

who gave him the right to be so fucking pretty????~🎃

[firehose118]

okay but something about a major theme of 9-1-1 being that people can really thrive and be their best selves when they’re given the right environment

and lou indisputably doing the best acting we’ve ever seen from him in s7 of this show. giving layered, nuanced performances

lou saying that he’s usually typecast as a “beefcake” and isn’t given the opportunity to play deep characters

but also lou saying now that he’s playing tommy, people are seeing him for who he really is

because lou is hot, yes, very intentionally so—but he’s also sweet and sensitive and silly. and him getting to play any of that is such a rarity in his career so far. and tommy is all of that

something about tim seeing him in s2 and bringing him back because he remembered how charming he was. tim seeing potential in him to flourish and give this storyline the weight it needs

9-1-1 being a force for positive change not only within the show itself but also for its actors

[rainedropsart]

something something, side effects of superpowers

bonus doodle

[otrtbs]

tuned into my art podcast to see if they were gonna say anything about the newly found caravaggio and instead i find out the tories are trying to ban free museum entry in the UK and make everyone pay 🧍‍♀️ starting with the british museum 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

[j00stkl31n]

🖤His face is so expressive holy shit 🖤

[st4rd0lly]

Possessive Dazai is soo fcking real

But honestly, what would make it even better (worse) if Reader was just like a bully, not like a stereotypical bully, but if they just actively put him in his place, teasing, insulting, and even going along with his antics, maybe even making it worse by encouraging it all while Dazai is looking at them like they built the universe while everyone around them is just like, “Are you blind? Can you not see what a terrible person they are?“ even more if the reader has multiple sexual partners and they don't view him like that but love the attention they receive from him. (NOT A REQUEST!)

OH MY GODUAHAHHDND in love with this <333 dazai isn’t stupid, he knows you don’t actually love him and he knows he’s indulging you every time you two interact but what you don’t seem to understand is how hooked he is when it comes to you and how far he’ll go exactly. this easily turns into a yandere!dazai route. he’ll play along with you, not really building up any resentment, and everything will just seem to stay the same the more you two dance around like this.

that is until the usual people you start hooking up with start growing distant, they all don’t seem to be interested in you anymore really and in fact, seem to avoid you now. dazai’s still there, but you figured it’s no big deal !! you can just find someone else to sleep with, that’s no problem for you. but then people you actively seek out start actively avoiding you and what’s even worse is that dazai seems to be pulling away from you too, he seems pretty much uninterested now. he figures if you want to bat him around like you two are in a cat and mouse game, he’ll return the favor. <3

you really don’t know what to do, so instead you just think it’s better to stay alone. you don’t need anyone right? you were fine before. but it’s driving you crazy that dazai isn’t into you anymore when you swore you had him wrapped around your finger.. you get so caught up in why he of all people just dropped you all of sudden, even though your friends tell you that’s what you should’ve expected from him and besides they said, you weren’t into him anyways… but you swore he was different, wait when did you start defending him to your friends?? as if you two were dating??

this is all of course part of dazai’s plan, and everything plays out perfectly. you’re so silly for thinking you could win this game !! you walk up to him one day just before he could slip away, asking very awkwardly if he’d be interested if he wanted to grab some drinks or stay for dinner, and he relishes the way your eyes light up when he agrees <333

[myokk]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIN HUI

@lamieboo

[simcardiac-arrested]

wait, that elias?

[chyarui]

Headcanon Jon plays the violin cause like, the intro music had to have come from SOMEWHERE

actually maybe Elias playing would have fit more…

project for next time!

[bibibbbb99]

On your knees😌

[amidnight--dreary]

My brain is getting tired of magic and space and high stakes I am THIS CLOSE to writing a human no powers Notting Hill AU please send help

[telestoapologist]

hit with a massive wave of embarrassment bc i was listening to saint talk during solstice and playfully said something along the lines of “awww i wonder if he and osiris would mind a third” and our new clanmate was so startled and thought it was said out of nowhere bc this. isn’t normally stuff he engages with/talks about