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lolobizarreadventuresshatpost · 1 year

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Yes, Kakyoin passed away, but in truth he came back as an undead and he is having a good time. Yes, they loaded the coffin in the Ronald McDonald’s shoe car, it’s their limousine. Yes Kakyoin prints out pictures from the internet.

#prom king zombie king #just married #jjba #puts the sh1t in sh1tpost #god what the hell am I even doing lol #incomprehensible #Stardust Crusaders #noriaki kakyoin #Jotaro Kujo #it's romantic #spoilers part 3 #Jotaro #jojo meme #lolo original art

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 5 months

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let me get that for you.

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hella1975 · 11 months

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you ever have a fic get you in such a chokehold you start pacing your room and talking to yourself

#THIS FIC WAS WRITTEN FOR ME SPECIFICALLY #BURN IT ALL DOWN BY DOROTHYCANFLY ON AO3 THIS IS GENUINELY ONE OF MY TOP 5 FICS OF ALL TIME EVER #IT'S GOT THE BEST DABI CHARACTERISATION IVE EVER COME ACROSS IT'S GOT REALLY WELL WRITTEN DABIHAWKS #THAT FITS BOTH OF THEM LIKE THEY'RE MEAN AS HELL ABOUT IT AT FIRST #IT'S GOT STUPIDLY DEVOTED TOUYA-SHOUTO IT'S GOT PROTECTIVE BIG BROTHER TOUYA #IT'S GOT MENTAL ANGST WRITTEN LIKE A DREAM THE WRITING IN GENERAL IS INSANE #IT'S ACTION PACKED BUT DONE WELL SO THAT IT'S NOT TEDIOUS IT'S FUNNY IT'S GOT TWISTS #IT'S KEEPING ME ON MY TOES I NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING OR HOW FAR THE AUTHOR IS WILLING TO GO #IVE LITERALLY READ 300K WORDS IN TWO DAYS AT THIS POINT LIKE I AM ABSOLUTELY FINISHING THIS TONIGHT #WHAT THE FUCK EVEN AM I GONNA DO WITH MYSELF AFTER THIS #EVERY NEW THING THAT HAPPENS LITERALLY HAS ME GETTING UP TO PACE ABOUT #I CLOCKED OUT OF MY MUM TELLING ME OFF EARLIER BC I WAS THINKING ABOUT THIS FIC #DO U KNOW HOW DANGEROUS THAT IS BASO JUST SIGNED MY DEATH WARRANT BUT I DIDNT CARE #losing my goddamn mind respectfully <3 if anyone has read this pls yell with me about it #and if anyone knows mha and wants a fic rec PLEASE let it be this one it's my fav mha fic ever and ive read A LOT #it gets quite smutty in the middle but if that's not ur thing the author tws very well and u can kinda just scroll #so that u still get the important character developments without it being just pure smut lol #god this FIC. holding it in my fucking fist and squeezing the everloving life out of it im going INSANE #i cant remember the last time a fic got me this way im literally giggling about it all #HE FOUND A REASON TO LIVE AGAIN THEY TOOK THIS MANGLED BLOODY BOY AND SAID WE LOVE YOU #YOU ARE GOOD YOU CAN STAY YOU CAN REST NOW WE'LL TAKE CARE OF YOU AND HE CHOSE THEM! HE CHOSE THEM!#OVER HIS REVENGE AND HIS RAGE HE CHOSE THEM! IM GOING TO BE VIOLENTLY SICK #like the author LETS DABI BE A CUNT. the first chunk of the fic he's actively not a good person #and his coping mechanisms are shot to shit and we WATCH HIM GROW FROM THAT i have cried several times over the most mundane shit #goddddddddDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDAKSJFJKAGSFIUAHGJKAKG #mha #fic rec

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dandyshucks · 2 months

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whyyyy does nobody ever come back to this group fjdkdl they show up once for a first time and then never return !!! its kind of crushing bc some ppl I've been like... excited at the prospect of seeing them again and then they just never show up ever again :')

and I didn't even get to draw anything good while sitting there !!! AUGH

#bleaseeee come back shfkdl im the only person that goes every week !!!#theres one other person who occasionally shows up but fjdkdl otherwise its just me #and then new ppl every time #and i cannot help but feel like im doing smth wrong and making them not want to return fhfkdl #i even get ppl to talk in the latter half once I've figured their vibe out and they seem genuinely happy to engage w convos #i somehow land on a topic we all enjoy and then we have a fun convo #and im very careful to not talk too much or too little djfkdl i am constantly adjusting to make sure I'm matching whats needed #i kind of have conversations irl down to a science dhdksl its ridiculous honestly but. it is what's gotten me thru life lmao #and I've been told countless times how good i am at connecting w ppl and making ppl feel comfortable #so im just like. what am i doing wrong !! how do i make this group enjoyable so ppl will come back !!#i know it's not my job lol im just an attendee and not a leader but i feel like i Have To if i want ppl to return #idk i just. god. there were cool ppl last week and this week it was some other new person who seemed like she did not want to be there #and i doubt I'll ever see those cool ppl last week ever again #i just want to cry a little bit sbdjdkl today was such a waste of time except for the fact i was able to get out of this hell house fhfkdl #i will just keep hoping that someone actually enjoys it enough to return i guess but this is getting a bit crushing to have happen so much #but... at least i am getting to talk to ppl face to face outside of my mother every week i suppose #vent //#dandy.cmd

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pepprs · 11 months

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prefacing this by saying im fine and its whatever and im mostly numb to it. but it kinda fucking sucks that being gaslit about my own sexuality leads to… doubting my own sexuality lol!

#purrs #just went to my first ever lavender graduation ceremony and had a convo w my dad after that touched on the EXACT horrors lol like i need to #learn to not bring this shit up around my parents bc they’re just gonna say the same things. and also it doesn’t matter bc idc about labels #and (to quote ricky) it’s a conversation not a constant. but like fucking hell. just bc ive never ‘’’’’’been with anybody’’’’’’ doesn’t #mean that i can’t know im not straight. the HORRIFIC psychic damage that did to me 5 years ago this month. the way i can’t think about #sexuality or being part of the lgbtq community since and like before then when that happened i thought i was a lesbian and was gonna try to #get involved with the school lgbtq student union . like it’s so ficking stupid and sad. and i can’t trust myself anymore i can’t tell if #anything ive ever felt for anyone is actually real bc according to my (straight and biphobic) parents ‘crushes don’t count’ and i haven’t #even had a crush in months anyway and yeah ive never ‘been with’ anybody. but like god damn. you DO NOT get to tell me i have to call myself #questioning. yeah im questioning but only i can call it that and only if i want to. i get to know me. i get to call me what i am. which also #means i get to work through the years of psychic damage this thread of conversation coming from my own parents has done to me #but i own that. i want to own that. ive had the feelings i have had. maybe they were wrong and misplaced and maybe there are other ways to #interpret them like me jus t having projection issues and whatever. but they were real to me and are real to me and shape how i show up #every single day. i get to know myself. i get to call myself what i am. even though you’re my parents you don’t get to tell me that. and you #should be sorry for how fucked in the head this has made me and how cut off i have become from other people who have felt what i have felt #and from the parts of myself that felt and hurt and loved. like lolllll. i was in a good mood and then that happened and now my heart hurts.#delete later #like i don’t talk abt this shit anymore for a reason 🤪✌️ i am not involved in lgbtq groups or communities online or offline for a reason 🤪✌️#and it’s yet another manifestation of impostor syndrome too like. ppl wonder why im like this…. there is a very good reason 💖

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#the thing abt me is that if u complement me in an academic context i will melt #me walking into every interview: fuck this school. i dont wanna go there. im sad. on one is gonna want me. i can hardly function. fuck this #me walking out of every interview: fuck. the project is cool and they said nice things abt me 😭#fuck. the guy from the lab i interviewed with basically said if u wanna be here i can make it happen. i like ur style and i think ur a #super good candidate 😭 and he quoted my wanky writing bc i got a bit flowery and idealistic lol #and hes on the admissions committee so he was like: yea i can support u if u want just let me kno #and fucking hell the project is cool. but the thing is i think id have to be less of a sad sac bc i think he expects a lot and is hands off #but it is a big institution with a lot of creative ppl and theyre good abt supporting interdisciplinary work #so like the opportunities there would be pretty fucking great i think. hhhhhh god. theres no way i could take the uk one now #fuck. wtf am i gonna do abt that? do i bow out now before ive committed so they have a shot with another person #or is it too late for that bc they already put my name forward to the committee #god dammit. this was the one i was supposed to b like yea no shot am i getting this. and now im like fucking considering it like #the opportunities.... but id have to live in new jersey... it would b closer to home i guess. id b back on east coast time #and i could work with Yellowstone organisms. and i bet the classes r pretty fucking rad education wise #god. decisions. im gonna play Choices by the Hoosiers like a million times #thats what i did wjen i was deciding to go for undergrad. and then i didnt even decide. i was just like... well i dont wanna go to the #place all my classmates r going. i will go 3hrs away. then 12hrs by plane for my masters #fuck. at least it went well. everyone was nice and the 2nd guy i talked to was like:#even if u dont go here. email me if u end up working with zinc and i can help. and i was like 😭#i got a bit rambly with him but whatever he was 15min late so we're even lol #i was way too nervous. but it was ok. but also i dont understand wtf other incoming phd students r like??#like they say im a good candidate and ive got good background and im like ??? what sort of losers r u looking at if u think im good?#i just think maybe what i wanna do is unique and very specific so im like not trying to do just anything. i have standards lol #and apparently im more coherent than i give myself credit for. i talk good sometimes and i have enthusiasm when i dont feel like im dying #god. i was not expecting this. i dont belong at a school working with tech startups like wtf. i come from a place of slightly trash #universities lol. well my undergrad uni wasnt so bad... well i mean the city is the butt of a lot of ohio related jokes tho. im looking at #u klinger. fucking mean streets of toledo. whatever the school im at now is worse. couldnt even keep my boss here smh #anyway what the fuck. and i got a lotta writing done today what the fuck #me being competent???? unheard of. god. imagine if i had my shit together. i could kill god. algae and other scientists would fear me #unrelated

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chaotictomtom · 10 months

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hehe hoho feeling absolute rage!!!!!!!!!

#i thought mothers in laws being the worst human possible was a myth. guess what #GOING BALLISTIC 👍#i don't give a shit abt her being all lovey dovey and shit but straight up homophobic and transphobic in my back.#even if after months and months living (hell) with her she never misgendered me nor say anything abt her son being with a man #kinda impressive to be that respectful for this amount of time then in reality being the biggest bigot on earth #like damn. she do be commited to the bit huh (making ppl she's not bothered by my existence) (when in reality she kinda wants me dead)#but like. ALL THE OTHER THINGS.....#IM USED TO THE HATE CRIMED BUT HAVE TRULY LESS TOLERANCE ABT THE TURMOIL BF IS GOING THROUGH BC OF HER LOL #thank fuck so many good ppl who also know who horrible she is are supporting bf with me #the more i learn abt her the more!!!!!! im loosing my temper lmao help im never angry what am I supposed to do with all this #IT'S NOT ONLY SHIT SHE DOES TO HER OWN SON SHE'S TERRIBLE WITH OTHER PPL 💀💀💀💀#i want so badly to warn that company abt the abuse she did to one of the worker going there but i caaaan't #and god knows it reminds me of my groomer and how there's a risk she could do that to other ppl if no one does anything 💀#I mean abt my groomer it is a certainty as he did abuse another wee lad after me and started with another lass and. idk what he's up to now #and it does not help with sleeping at night. but anyway hoping that she won't pull out shit like that with the other workers #she drove everybody working at that company away for having the reputation of being absolutely horrible anyway lmao 💀💀💀💀#sorry for renting no one gives a shit but im simply!!!! loosing it ++++++#need to find a way to channel this anger now lol help!!!!!!!! what do now #tomtom_is_rambling #tomtom_is_venting

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shopcat · 1 year

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"how can you not like jonathan and nancy if steve's your fave" well because i actually like him ☠️

the litmus test for actually liking steve is u have to love robin and the litmus test for actually understanding steve is you can't like st4ncy

#asks #also not sure what brought this on but you people are gonna get me killed #To soothe any troubled souls i will just rehash very quickly i like nancy just fine but i like her potential and i don't want her AROUND #HIM RIGHT NOW they need a restraining order 300 feet #and i like jonathan when he's with his family and when he's with argyle and otherwise he is kind of a flop especially re steve obviously #but really i just like whatever fanon jonathan that's been magicked up i never vibed w him to begin w bc i found him annoying and tiring #SORRY!!!! but i hate the ohhhhhuuhhhhh i just want to listen to the smiths and read poetry i'm so tortured types We would not be friends #but then again i wouldn't be friends with like. eddie. also i didn't like eddie either LOL i had to warm up to him as i watched #AAAND. i don't personally like nancy No but i think ppl fall for the misogyny because the duffer brothers are. misogynists.#i would wager platonic st0nathan do still have potential bc the fact really is they just haven't interacted at ALL #i don't even think they've said an actual word to each other since season 1 really #and i am AWARE his little season 4 STEVE? was meant to be lighthearted and then nancy's response is like to open up however the hell #they're going to attempt to fix the st0ncy triangle BUT GOOD GOD loving a character who the narrative hates is soul crushing OKAY #bc i fear they will not fix it in a way that doesn't completely decimate his character let alone nancy's either. Okay let's go outside #oh and i like when ppl like do the fix it nancy treatment like i said i do like her and her potential i think they can all be besties #but s4 also traumatised me #sts

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chaotic-history · 9 months

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i am. thinking about the barbie movie

#am gonna regret writing this later but. being trans is a special breed of feeling like you have to prove your masculinity #and it's extra fucked up cause whenever you feel like that you immediately feel like shit afterwards cause you know the other side and you #grew up knowing you were queer and now you feel like you're being antithetical to what the queer community is all about and the progress it #has made. like obviously [insert any number of things lol] does not make someone any less of a man. you know that and you know that you'd #never judge anyone else by that standard but at the same time clearly you still fucking believe in it since you judge yourself by it and #what if you're just judging other people unconsciously #and this ties back in to the movie cause the end w ken also rebrought up the question of 'do i actually want a romantic relationship or do #just feel like i *should* have one' and i'm kind of leaning towards the second option. bc it feels Good but in like.. i don't even know how #to describe it. like it's what i should be doing but not because *i* actually want to personally?#and i know that whatever kind/amount of attraction i have is bi but whenever i imagine the kind of relationship that would feel most 'right #(in that weird way) it's always w a girl. which is literally fucking just the beginning of these tags restated. bc that feels like the thin #i 'should' be doing as a guy (lmfaooo mistyped that as gay 💀) n i think the 'this feels right' is literally just gender euphoria which #again is fucking stupid as a shit bc obviously liking girls is not more masculine than liking guys and ofc i don't actually believe that #but then clearly i fucking DO because why the hell else would i feel that way for myself #anyway gonna go play in traffic 🙃 dear god please hit me with a bus. thanks

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isa-ah · 2 years

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🙊 okay maybe ill stir the pot A LITTLE..

#our shithead crazy ex roomie has this gorgeous swarthy new zealand man who wants to be w her so bad #hea just followed along horrible choice to horrible choice begging her to move to new zealand bc hes got his life together #and he wants to daddy her ao bad lmao hes rlly chill. has a good job. is highly respectful. all the things she isnt dhhdhd #i feel bad bc the way she talks about him is so... oh hell always be there begging me so the choice will always be open!#might as well do what i want in the meantime :)#even tho between her two most recent relationships w the same awful guy she lives w now she was 'dating' this dude #then dropped him SO fast again. its so nasty #well oops! guess who just sent me a friend request! her hot kiwi king B) ive never hit accept and texted someone so fast lol #brother i am going to unleash you ita been years you deserve better and she is Not It #(ofc she spins all of her life and stories to him SOOO sideways. he has no idea whats actually going on)#oh my god whcih reminds me. we had a friend stop in who we met thru her who was so shy to talk yo us anymore #bc torie told her she had to call the cops bc we were holding all of her animals hostage and threatening her???#for trying to be with her ugly bf???? lol????????#like just completely outright lied so i assume shes doing that to everyone #which makes me DOUBLY curious why this man sent me a friend req. surely he of all people has been fed some nasty stuff #but lol maybe tories ugly bf cut her off from him. it would be in character

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gorgynei · 2 years

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maybe im just going off the wall rn. but personally. in my opinion. i think the most interesting ending for delilah is redemption and then death

#BUT not like. zuko redemption. not necessarily forgiveness from vox machina/bell's hells.#but just hmmm. understanding on delilah's part that it all went too far and letting herself die/letting go #like a ''oh god.. where is my husband? what am i even doing? god. fuck this. fuck vecna. fuck all of you. none of this matters'' moment #but over time lol. and like way later into c3 #because i know shes tired. i just know it. lady briarwood has been fighting tooth and nail for 30 years i know shes tired #thinking about how fenthras has forgive carved into it. and vex killed delilah and sylas for the last times in c1 #ramblings #if i sound like a crazy person just look away

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jovalencia · 1 year

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not to be dramatic but I literally feel like I’m going insane lol

#first of all I must acknowledge the percy of it all. I don’t know how many of you are reading those posts and honestly I’m not conveying #how I feel very well but I’m so deadly serious when I say I feel sick when I think about those books and not even in a bad way necessarily #just nauseous whatever. second most pressing issue is the whole “am I going to drop out transfer suck it up or kill myself”#okay I’m really not considering that last one I have to live to see dani in july but I haven’t the slightest clue what I’m gonna do next #year. on one hand I hope this school explodes on the other transferring sounds so unfun but back to the first hand I hate this city #and I hope it explodes to and I have nobody I know to live with off campus next year and tbh I would rather die than live w sarah suitemate #which brings us to sarah suitemate. how in the hell is my only friend in this god forsaken city like kind of subtly homophobic #In addition to kind of being a bad fucking person. like lol! yes ladies six months deep with no other friends and I Am that desperate #also it’s the very beginning of the quarter and I kind of hate all my classes. okay I know they just started and it’s very early to judge #but I already feel like I’m going crazy I preferred my other two quarters where I was eating literally 12 credits I was satisfied with that #I’m just scared and lonely can I say that outright is it embarrassing to admit that outright at 11am on tumblr #the only thing that gives me comfort genuinely is just repeating that “everything works out in the end” saying bc I really do believe that #even though I hope my closest friend within a reasonable radius of me drops dead and I’m directionless and I want to kill myself #whenever I think about the book I’m reading it will all be okay #anyways time to eat the pastry I got from the campus market is not a good time to tell you guys I didn’t eat breakfast or could you tell #carmen.txt

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zenithpng · 1 year

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#i dknt have anywhere else to vent so like. um.#i was gonna come out to my mom today #and as i started the conversation that i hoped would lead to that we started talking about lgbt rights and youth #i said some stuff about depression and suicide rates in trans kids #and practically as i was opening my mouth to tell her im trans #she starts talking abkuf how she wishes there was more research #not to help gay and trans people but like. to get rid of them.#im sorry for any typos im like. sobbing as i type lol #but yeah.#i really thought she was comjng arounf to the idea of me being queer and i was so happy #but i guess none of it was real.#i just dkmt even know what to do im iterally so fucking depressed lately and i lost my best friend and now this????#like. damn.#its literally midnight too. i have to get up early tomorrow for classes and yet here i am fucking sobbjng #she even said that she hopes im not depressed any more. like.#holy hell mom. YOURE the one causing it!!!!#idk. i dont knlw what to do. i feel like im getting closer to the edge every day and this just shoved me forward #god i need to stop crying my head hurts #anyway.#yeah #vent

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pepprs · 1 year

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hi im gonna say goodbye to her in like 5 mins im waiting for her to wrap up another meeting rn. and i burst into tears in front of my colleagues and VERY visibly just cried 😁👍👍👍👍👍👍

#purrs #i am so INSANELY triggered rn and don’t know how to keep my emotions in check. i don’t want to cry or be messy. oh god. this is the worst #thing that has ever happened to me LMFAOOOOOOOOO actually it’s not. but it’s up there. this is so bad. i feel like im going to die or #explode or both. it’s literally not thst deep bc we’ll keep in touch and she’s not moving away or anything she’s just retiring. but it’s #making me CRAZYYYYYY how i am reliving the same horrors from last year. THE SAME HORRORS. before even having a chance to heal from the FIRST #horrors!!!!!!!! LIKE WHAT THE HELL. i can only take so much. i can’t withstand it all. i couldn’t suppress the tears anymore i just exploded #LOLLLL. the way i ugly cried and might do it again IN FRONT OF HER…. HELP. lol ♥️ and we will only have 10 mins to talk bc she has another t #thing at 12:45 and i squandered so much time crying and having to clean my face off that now i burned our last precious moments. AWESOMEEEEE #delete later

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beeapocalypse · 2 years

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goodnight now. look at this image of the exemplar

#body horror tw #truly love this grody thing. personally think it is a thing made out of two different guys (exalted cultist of--#--the stain and a segment of some eldritch entity fused together) and i hope theres some sort of expansion on the portal in the--#--ground it is hefting itself out of. if not for it specifically then some other guy. maybe a chapter final boss. big pair of--#--freaky hands emerging from a portal (to the space between spaces the shambler and such reside?) whcih represent--#--regret or whatever #that same sort of striking light is also shown in the seething sighs dying light move (WHAT a name. the light is--#--literally dying hope is naught but a torch upon a carriage as the stain swallows the world. what the hell) and one of the altars--#--moves (i do not remember lol) like DUDE. the single Force of the universe both light and dark always circling--#--back to that FLAME (SHRIEKS.) and how the acolytes of dd1 carry around what look like--#--empty torch scones and use them as wands. i am so normal man i am feeling normal thigns abt this #WHY does the exemplars flame head sputter out w certain animations. like ik it could just be a purely technical thing to just--#--not muddy them up or wahtever but the upper body draws power from it. either to manipulate the stain (EXULTATION. LOOKS LIKE IT IS--#--SWEEPING IT THRU THE MERCENARIES' RANKS) or empower the lower body so is it akin to the occultist--#--burning up his own life or whatever for his stuff ? except the exemplar generates its OWN worship ingame like it is its--#--own patron. my god. i dont even get what im saying here i just love this thing and the implications of it so much

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