#gonna go eat soup now bye bye

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finally, my raszageth visage design!

and some flat color / lineart for reference. :) really hoping we get an official design one day, but maybe this will satisfy me for now.

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You Didn't Know?

This is an Evan Buckley imagine, requested by Anon, I finished this one so quickly. Thank you for all the requests I am slowly working through them. Feedback is always lovely.

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Evan Buckley Masterlist

Summary: Evan is secretly dating the Captain's daughter, but when (Y/n) has a miscarriage and the 118 turn up on the scene, everyone finds out.

-Descriptions of miscarriage.

Enjoy.

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"What's wrong, you've hardly eaten anything."

"Nothing's wrong, I'm just not hungry." (Y/n) shrugged and pushed her plate across the table to signal that she was finished.

Her eyes looked up and locked with her dad sitting across from her but she shrank down in her seat when she noticed his confused expression, mixed with worry burning in his eyes.

She never turned down his cooking. Bobby had never made a dish that (Y/n) didn't eat. Even when she wasn't feeling well, he made her some vegetable soup and she ate it all. But she hadn't touched the carbonara that he made this afternoon and the whole point of being here at the station was to spend time with the team and have lunch.

Bobby's schedule had been hectic recently so (Y/n) had come down to the station to see her dad and have lunch with him and the team. But after a few mouthfuls, she wasn't feeling well enough to eat and she couldn't tell him the reason why.

"You never turn down my cooking."

"Dad… I'm just not feeling great today, stop worrying." She pursed her lips and waited until he relented and nodded.

Boy, was (Y/n) glad Evan wasn't at the table to see her leave her food. He would know something was up and he wouldn't let it go.

When Bobby took the empty plates and headed over to the sink, (Y/n) leaned back in her chair and glanced her eyes down to her stomach. God, she would have to tell them both soon.

She had to tell Evan first. He had to be her first point of call. (Y/n) had to sit Evan down and tell him she was pregnant. It was planned out, she was going to get a pair of baby boots and place them in a box along with the pregnancy test she had taken. She knew what his reaction was going to be, Evan was going to light up the room and be thrilled that he was going to be a dad.

But then they would have to tackle her dad.

Bobby didn't know they were together yet. He didn't know (Y/n) had moved in with Evan either. It was hard to tell him when (Y/n) felt like she was doing something wrong. Bobby thought of Evan as his son and Evan knew he was stepping on Bobby's toes by going out with his daughter.

That was why they decided to keep it to themselves for now and then find a way to tell Bobby and the rest of the team and hope it didn't complicate things. But a baby was going to complicate everything. Everyone would have to know now.

"I'm gonna head off now dad, I'll see you for dinner on Tuesday." (Y/n) got up and hooked her bag over her shoulder before she wandered over to the kitchen.

She was having dinner at her dad's on Tuesday with him, May and Athena. That would be the perfect time to bring Evan with her and explain so her dad couldn't explode on them with Athena there to play referee. She couldn't drop the baby bombshell then though, it would be too much all at once.

"Okay sweetheart, I'll ring you later."

She pushed up on her toes and kissed his cheek, whispering a quiet "Bye," in his ear as she hugged him.

She waved across at Chimney before she made her way downstairs and looked around. Eddie was in the gym, Hen was re-stocking the ambulance, and (Y/n) knew exactly where Evan had gone. He went to get changed. He'd bumped into Hen in the kitchen and spilt half his dinner down his uniform.

(Y/n) knew she couldn't leave without saying a quiet goodbye to Evan, he wouldn't let her live it down if she did.

Her footsteps were light and quiet as she hurried down the hall and turned into the locker room.

She tapped her knuckles on the door, just in case anyone else was in there with him. But when she opened the door, her lips curved into a smirk and she whistled and leant against the door frame. Her eyes wandered up and down Evan's frame as he whipped around to face her, wearing nothing but his boxers.

She didn't move when Evan advanced towards her but she did gasp when his hands found her hips and he turned her so her back was flush against the wall, pinning her beneath him with no means of escape. Her arms moved to wrap around his neck and she tangled her fingers in his hair that was starting to curl up at all angles.

"Just thought I'd tell you that I'm leaving now."

Evan's fingertips dug achingly into the flesh around her hips and she could feel every inch of him pressing up against her when he pushed forward. His slightly damp chest moulded against hers and he brought his forehead down to press against her temple.

"You're leaving me?" He murmured softly as he pressed his lips to her cheek in a small, tender kiss.

"You're not making it easy, Buckley."

He could feel her words floating around in the air between them and each breath she took fanned against his lips when he pulled up. Causing him to reach his tongue out to swipe over his lower lip that was curved into a grin.

"Do you know how hard it is to stay away from you when you come down here, looking like that?" He muttered the words breathlessly against her lips before he closed the distance between them and kissed her.

It became increasingly difficult for Evan to see (Y/n) turn up at the station or be at the frequent barbecues at Bobby's house and not be able to reach out and touch her. He had to remember to keep a safe distance between them and be considerate and wary of everyone else round them.

He didn't like not wrapping his arm around her waist or having to refrain from resting his hand on her hip or pressing his lips to her forehead. He could refrain from kissing her, but it was the no touching part that he found so hard. His hands were always itching to move, to reach out and grab her and reel her in and he yearned to feel her pressed up against him like this.

"Hm, I know." (Y/n) whispered quietly as she moved one hand to brush across his cheek and she dragged her thumb along his sharp jaw which made him shiver.

A whine bubbled at the back of (Y/n)'s throat when Evan caught her bottom lip between his teeth and lightly tugged before kissing it.

"I gotta go before we get caught."

"Go on then,"

He released his grip on her sides and lowered his arms back down as if he was giving in. But Evan took one measly step back that didn't stop them from touching. His legs were still brushing hers, his chest was so close that if (Y/n) breathed deep enough, her chest would merge with his. And with her back still being pressed into the wall, she didn't have enough space to slip away from him.

"You're a bad influence, you know that?" (Y/n) brought her hands up to cup his face and pulled him down for another kiss that caused Evan to reach out and plant his hands down on the wall either side of her head. Caging her back in his embrace that he knew she didn't want to leave.

"So you keep telling me, baby."

(Y/n) trailed her fingertips down his chest and followed her touch with kisses that she peppered against his neck and down the middle of his sternum to fog up his mind. He tipped his head back, eyes closed in bliss and a deep growl left his lips at the feel of her teeth grazing his chest that drove him wild. But just as he felt himself melting into her touch, (Y/n) ducked under his arm and backed up out the doorway.

"I'll see you when you get home, Evan." She knew it drove him mad when she said his name instead of calling him Buck like everyone else did.

She turned on her heels and bit down on her lower lip when she felt his hand reach out to hit her bum before she got too far away. She heard him whisper "Bye baby," before she closed the door and made her way back down the hall.

Evan was on a double shift and the station was short staffed so (Y/n) wasn't going to see Evan until tomorrow night or later, depending on when he finally got finished.

It was going to feel like an eternity until he came home.

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Opening her eyes, (Y/n) tried to look around the room but she couldn't get her eyes to focus. A groan tumbled past her lips and she buried her face into the pillow as her arms pressed into her stomach.

She felt sick. She felt like she was on fire. Her stomach was aching-

Her stomach was cramping.

Her eyes opened again and she did her best to push herself up so she was sitting up in bed. Why was her stomach hurting? She shouldn't be feeling any cramps, she was pregnant, she wasn't due to have her period but that was what it felt like.

She tossed the cover onto Evan's side of the bed and turned the bedside lamp on, but her lips parted and wobbled, letting out a cry when she looked down.

Blood.

Blood was starting to smear across her inner thighs and when (Y/n) gingerly lifted Evan's shirt that she was wearing, she could see the substance soaking into the bedsheet. This didn't look good.

What was she supposed to do?

She wanted Evan.

Her lips quivered and she pushed her chin down into her chest and pressed both her hands tightly into her stomach. How was she supposed to call Evan and tell him what was going on when he didn't even know she was pregnant yet? She had it all planned out to tell him in a few days, she was going to make it a surprise and tell him. This wasn't how he was supposed to find out.

A broken cry burst past her lips when another pain coursed through her stomach and she hurriedly grabbed her underwear and pulled them down. Choking again when she saw even more blood soaked into them and streaks smeared down her legs when she removed them.

She was losing the baby.

(Y/n) coiled her knees up to her stomach and sobbed when the pain got worse until she felt like a duke box vibrating and pulsing with how hard and loud her pulse was throbbing in her veins.

What had she done? Why did she deserve this?

Ragged breaths ran away from her and her chest burned when she looked down between her legs.

No. No. No.

Slumping to the right, (Y/n) flopped onto her side like a fish and shuffled across onto Evan's side of the bed. She felt her lungs start to ache and clench as she started to hyperventilate. She couldn't breathe. Her heart was pounding so fast in her chest that it was actually hurting to fele her heart beating. Her head hurt. Her stomach was cramping and her legs were shaking back and forth into her stomach.

One arm stayed around her waist but her other hand moved. Her crimson, sticky palm smothered against her mouth causing her shallow breaths to wheeze and snuffle between her fingers. She could feel the blood on her hands transferring onto her lips and the metallic taste made her gag. Her elbows pinned into either side of her waist and she began slowly swaying on her side.

Pushing her face into Evan's pillow to see if his scent would calm her down, but it didn't.

She could feel the blood sticking between her thighs and making her legs itch with each cramp that burned through her abdomen and her body was still shaking.

She felt like she was beginning to overheat, despite the bedroom being very cold and only wearing Evan's cotton shirt.

What was she going to do? What kind of conversation was she going to have with Evan when he eventually came home? How was she going to explain to him that she had lost their baby while he'd been out at work?

She wanted to be wrapped up in his comforting embrace and pretend that this was all just a nightmare.

Even though she knew he would be heartbroken, conflicted and desperate to help her, she wanted him here. She wanted the affection and comfort Evan would make her feel.

Each breath started to run away without her again and (Y/n) could feel her chest shuddering as she gasped and cried and gagged. She couldn't breathe. She wanted Evan. She needed to do something. She couldn't just lay here all night and wait for him to come home. (Y/n) had to call for help and get to the hospital. Once she had been seen by a nurse and sorted out, then she could focus on trying to explain this situation to Evan.

She didn't realise how badly she was shaking until she tried to reach for her phone and bashed it about on the side table trying to curl her fingers around it.

"911, what's your emergency?"

"I- help." (Y/n) hated how her voice sounded broken and cracked and how she had to wheeze to try and take a proper breath.

"Can you tell me your name?"

"(Y/n)… baby, I m-miscarried." Her heart thundered against her ribs when the words passed through her lips. Why did she have to admit what she'd done? Why did she have to say outloud what her body had just put her through? Why couldn't the woman on the line just telepathically find out the problem and send help?

"Okay honey, can you tell me how far along you were?" She sounded kind, she seemed like a caring person, but (Y/n) didn't want that care and concern. She didn't want help but she knew she needed it.

"Don't k-know, there's… there's a lot of blood, really hurts."

"Help is coming to you, (Y/n). I can see the apartment building you're in, can you tell me which floor and flat you're in please?"

"Fourth floor, four-B."

"Dispatch to one-eighteen?"

"This is Captain Nash, go ahead."

Evan masked the groan he could feel in his chest and tilted his head back into the seat. They had barely pulled away from their car crash scene they had just finished up with. Three hours they had been stuck evacuating people, cutting them out from their cars and sending everyone through to the hospital. Chimney and Hen had come back to the scene in the ambulance by the time everything was all sorted and now they were on their way back to the station.

It was time for them to have a break, grab a drink and have a five-minute rest. Did they really have to go out on another call so soon?

It was eleven o'clock at night and the whole team was flagging, except for Bobby who seemed alert and ready as if he hadn't just been on a long, excruciating call.

"I have a young woman two blocks from your location needing medical assistance. She's at home experiencing a miscarriage, losing a lot of blood."

A round of perplexed, curling lips flooded the truck. This wasn't something they dealt with very often and nobody wanted to be on these kind of calls, but it was their job.

"Okay, what's the location?"

"Hillside Court, apartment four-B on the fourth floor. Thank you."

Every ounce of blood in Evan's body drained down to his toes, leaving his complexion a gritty shade of grey. He could feel his jaw coming loose and his nose crinkled as he tried to work out if he had just imagined that or if he heard dispatch right.

That had to be a mistake. That was Evan's apartment.

(Y/n) wasn't pregnant. She would have told him. He would have known. She had been fine when he saw her yesterday morning before he left for work. (Y/n) wasn't having a baby- she wasn't losing a baby either. That had to be a mistake.

But it couldn't be. Dispatch didn't make those kind of mistakes and unless this was a hoax, which was extremely unlikely, it wasn't plausable that a young woman would give the wrong address or get her address wrong when she was in an emergency.

"Buck, you okay? You look a little pale." Eddie nudged Evan's leg with his knee and smiled but his brows furrowed when Evan just stared down at his hands that were knotted together in his lap.

When the truck pulled up, Evan tore off the headset and his belt and scrambled down from the truck. He didn't wait for Eddie to grab his medic bag or for Hen and Chimney to get out the ambulance and get the gurney out. He didn't even wait for Bobby- oh God, Bobby.

If this was (Y/n), Bobby was going to get the shock of his life.

Evan stormed up to the complex door and punched in the keycode, praying no one would notice but it didn't really matter. In a few minutes they were going to learn everything about him.

He knew Chimney and Hen would have to wait for the lift, they wouldn't drag the gurney up four flights of stairs. But Evan didn't wait. He pounded up the stairs two at a time and flung himself around each twisting corner that now became his enemy.

"Buck slow down- Jesus what's gotten into you?"

When he reached the right floor, Evan prayed. He prayed for some other young girl next door or on the next floor to cry out and say she was the one who needed help. For someone else to have this dilemma and be in pain and agony instead of (Y/n). Evan didn't care how selfish that made him, he prayed and prayed while he fumbled above the door ledge for the spare key up there for emergencies. He didn't have his keys on him, they were safe in his locker so he didn't lose them on a call.

"Baby? (Y/n), baby where are you?" He bashed the bathroom door open and peered round the door before he looked ahead at the living room. The lights were off, she couldn't be down there.

He grabbed the bannister and propelled himself up the steps, barely out of breath until he stormed into the bedroom.

Then all the air disappeared from his lungs and his brain seemed to short-circuit.

Dispatch had been right. It was (Y/n). She had been pregnant, and Evan didn't know anything.

Terror pulsed through Evan's body as he tripped over his feet and stumbled over to the bed. There was his girl. (Y/n) was laid on his side of the bed, her face smothered in the pillow and both her arms cocooned tightly around her abdomen. She was shaking back and forth, wearing one of Evan's pyjama shirts while blood was caked between her thighs and creating a puddle on the bed beneath her.

"Oh Christ," Evan rolled his eyes to the ceiling to look away before he leaned over the bed and grabbed the edge of the quilt. He dragged it over the other blood stain on the bed so he didn't have to look before he pressed his knees into the edge of the bed and leant down.

He reached his hands out and gently cupped (Y/n)'s face, smoothing his thumbs beneath her eyes to swipe away her tears. While he tilted her head so she wasn't hidden away in the pillow and she could see him.

"Baby, baby it's me, come here."

(Y/n) couldn't stop herself from crying out when she looked up. Why did Evan have to get this call? Why did he have to see her like this? She thought a paramedic team from the hospital would get to her, not the station that was her family.

She thought she would have time to come up with a way to explain all of this to Evan before she had to face him.

She moved a trembling hand from her waist to curl around Evan's hand and when he pressed his lips to her burning forehead, she cried again. She smothered her face against his wrist and pulled until he tried to hold her better.

"I'm here. It's okay, I've got you baby girl." Evan curled his hand round to cup the back of her neck while he wound his other arm beneath her waist and carefully lifted her up.

He moved to sit down on the end of the bed next to the pillow and he slowly eased (Y/n) back until she was propped up against his chest. He stayed motionless when (Y/n) started to move and he let her squirm around and try to settle herself in his arms. She hooked both arms around his neck until his head bent forward and he started to shake along with her. Her chest pressed up into Evan's and her legs stayed curled beneath her with her knees pressed into his thigh.

His arm stayed around her waist and he tangled his fingers in her hair at the back of her neck, brushing his thumb up and down her skin. And he pressed his lips against the top of her head when (Y/n) smothered her face against his shoulder.

"I- Evan I'm s…sorry-"

"Don't you dare. I don't wanna hear that from you." He hushed against her temple as he started to sway them back and forth.

He wouldn't listen to any form of apology. (Y/n) hadn't done anything wrong and Evan wouldn't let her believe otherwise. She was hurt and in pain and he was glad it came through dispatch so he could be here with her. He wouldn't want strangers coming in to try and look after her and he would rather help her than find out hours later what had happened.

"Buck what th- oh… oh no, is she…" Eddie dumped the medic bag on the end of the bed and sat down by (Y/n)'s feet. He dared to lift the cover when he saw the trail of blood lead onto the other side of the bed but when Evan kicked him in the shin, he dropped the cover immediately.

He didn't need to see that.

"It's my… she- this is my home. My girl." Evan kept his lips pressed against (Y/n)'s head and he didn't look anywhere but down at her form in his arms. This was his call. This was his home, his girl, his lost child and his scene. This was one for Evan to take charge of.

"Okay. Can I check her over?" Eddie grabbed a stethoscope from his bag but when he turned back round, his face fell and he stared at the girl in front of him. "(Y/n)? Oh Buck you didn't?"

He had slept with the Captain's daughter. He had gotten into a relationship with (Y/n) without telling Bobby and now he'd gotten her pregnant.

"Cap's on his way up-"

"No! No p-please… I c-can't-"

Eddie slammed his hand down on the bed and slung the stethoscope around his neck before he bolted. If (Y/n) didn't want Bobby to see her like this that was entirely her choice, but they needed to keep him at bay if that was the case. They could get (Y/n) prepped and ready to move to the hospital and then Bobby could find out once they were in the ambulance.

He bolted down the stairs and moved to the door just as Chimney and Hen came in with the gurney. He looked between them and Bobby who was stood behind them, waiting for something to come to mind to stop them.

"It's Buck's girlfriend, this is his place… she doesn't want everyone crowding round seeing her like that. Give us five minutes to prep her, please?"

There was nothing else Eddie could say that his team would believe or understand. He couldn't tell them to step outside and wait for no good reason. And he had to tell them something they would believe about why he and Evan were the only ones who could look after this patient.

"Oh God. Leave the gurney here, tell Buck we'll wait back down by the truck and radio if you need assistance getting her down." Bobby waved the pair of them away and Eddie could have fainted.

They left the gurney in the hallway and nodded, understanding and pain in their eyes as they turned around.

No one knew Evan was so serious about his new mystery girl. The team knew he had met someone, he was brighter when he came to work. Happier, desperate to go home and he was actually going somewhere on his days off rather than hanging around with the team, unsure what to do with himself.

But they didn't realise he was this serious, or that he was so fond of this girl and going steady enough to get pregnant.

Eddie turned and jogged back up the stairs and moved to sit down on the bed where he had been before. "They're waiting outside. Hey (Y/n), can I take a look at you?" He rubbed his hand up and down (Y/n)'s leg to get her attention.

She slowly unravelled her arms from Evan's neck but kept her head on his shoulders. Her arms curved back around her waist and she held Evan's arm that draped across her front. Her nails scratched into his arm as she held him as tight as possible and nodded over at Eddie. She didn't want Eddie to see her like this, but she was grateful for his help all the same.

Eddie leaned forward and listened to her heartbeat, then checked her breathing before he swapped the stethoscope for a blood pressure cuff. He could see the tightness around her arm made her lightheaded and her eyes moved towards the back of her head before she seemed to come back round again.

"How's the pain, is it constant or coming and going?" He looked up at Evan as if checking for permission before he went ahead and lifted (Y/n)'s shirt so he could assess her stomach.

He pressed his fingertips around her abdomen, biting his lip when (Y/n) winced and shuddered back into Evan.

"Dull cramps."

"Okay… Buck, I need to take a look." Eddie indicated his head to the right. He had to check the bed and they both knew what for. He lifted the cover and leaned over, holding his breath before he looked back at (Y/n). "The doctor will have to check, but I think… I think everything came away. That's good. But you're still bleeding, I'll give you something for that. Do you want any morphine?"

If (Y/n) didn't miscarriage properly and something was still retained, she could gain an infection and it would be dangerous. Eddie wasn't an expert, this wasn't his medical field of expertese, but he would guess from what he could see that nothing was retained. That was what they wanted, so (Y/n) didn't have to go through any more unnecessary trauma.

"Morphine, please." (Y/n) closed her eyes and held onto Evan's arm while she tilted her head forward and pressed her lips against his arm to try and control her breathing.

She felt Eddie inject something into her stomach and she whimpered into Evan's arm, pushing back until he tightened his arms around her and quietly shushed her. She knew it was morphine that Eddie injected into her thigh next. It tingled and fizzled and made her feel sick and lightheaded and drunk all at once, but she knew it would work soon and take away the cramps.

"Vitals all look good, I think it's safe to move you then in the ambulance I'll get you on an IV to boost your levels up. Buck… you wanna get her downstairs?"

Packing the bag, Eddie slung it on his shoulder and headed downstairs to move the gurney towards the stairs, giving the couple a moment together.

"Alright baby, let's move you."

As slowly as he could, Evan slid out from behind (Y/n) and stood up so he was leaning over the bed again. But he paused when (Y/n) cupped his chin and stared up at him.

"I was- I was gonna tell you-"

"I know you would, and it's okay."

"It's not."

It wasn't okay. Nothing was okay because (Y/n) didn't get the chance to tell him first. Evan had to hear over the radio that she was pregnant and had lost the baby, all in one swift motion. The moment he found out was the moment he learned she'd lost it. That wasn't right. She should have told him the moment she found out, not let this happen instead.

"Dad's o-outside, I don't wanna tell him." (Y/n) slumped her head forward onto Evan's shoulder and curled her arms around his neck again.

She didn't want her dad to see her like this. She didn't want him finding out everything like this, but she didn't have a choice. Her body had made all these decisions for her and taken away any choice she may have had before.

"Baby, please. Please, just let me look after you, okay? I'll deal with your dad and the team but I need you to let me get you sorted first. So come here."

Evan would sort it. He would talk to Bobby and make sure the team didn't get in the way. He would deal with all the backlash (Y/n) was afraid of, but he had to help her first. He had to get her downstairs and in the ambulance so she could see a doctor before he dealt with everything else.

(Y/n) came first.

When she stayed quiet, Evan took it as his sign. He curved an arm around her back and slipped the other arm beneath her knees, carefully lifting her up into his arms bridal style. He felt the way she shivered and started to shake again so he tightened his arms and held her closer until his ribs started to ache from how deeply he pressed her against his chest.

He had carried her up and down the stairs a few times, but never like this. Never when (Y/n) was in this much agony and crying into his neck like this.

"Okay, there we go." Evan slowly eased (Y/n) down on the gurney, watching with tears in his eyes as she brought her knees up to her stomach and curled up on her side.

She stayed still and compliant as Eddie held her left wrist out and swabbed the back of her hand so he could get a needle into her vein. He taped it in place and connected the IV bag which he placed on the end of the gurney beside (Y/n)'s feet.

"How exactly are we gonna do this?" Eddie murmured once they were in the lift. Neither of them could technically hide (Y/n) and Eddie doubted they would be able to rush her into the ambulance without Bobby clocking who she was.

And they had no idea how Bobby was going to react to this.

Evan shrugged his shoulders and kept his eyes focused on (Y/n). He dragged his fingers through her hair and let her hold his arm against her chest until the lift opened and he had to go back to steering the gurney again.

"Are we ready to go?" Hen clasped her hands together in front of her and tried to smile sympathetically towards Evan when they came outside.

None of them knew how to play this or what to do. They hadn't had an intimate situation like this on call before. But when Hen looked down at the gurney, her smiled faded and her shoulders dropped immediately. She knew who that girl was. She had seen that girl hundreds of times at Athena's house and her pictures were dotted all around the house and along the walls.

"Buck, do you need us to call anyone for you? We've got your shift covered-"

"Nope." Evan kept his head down and followed Eddie's lead, pushing the gurney ahead towards the ambulance. He let his eyes stay on (Y/n) as she reached her hand out and curled her fingers tightly around his wrist near her head.

They almost made it. They almost got to the ambulance, but Bobby moved at the wrong second. He moved just as Evan juttered the gurney down off the pavement, onto the road.

"Is- (Y/n)? Is that my daughter? Buck what the Hell have you done?!"

Evan cringed and tipped his chin down into his chest as they stopped walking. He could feel his whole body rattling like a cage and he felt (Y/n)'s nails puncture into his wrist deep enough to draw blood.

(Y/n) tried to keep her eyes closed, but she couldn't manage it. She just had to look up and see what kind of expression her dad was wearing. He had gone red. His jaw was grinding from side to side and she could see the vein throbbing in his neck. His hands were balled into fists but when he looked at her, he almost broke.

That was his daughter. That was Bobby's little girl. The one part of his family that hadn't been snatched away from him. And Evan had taken her. Evan was like a son to Bobby, but now he had wormed his way into (Y/n)'s life and he didn't have the decency to tell Bobby. He had to find out like this, that they were clearly in a relationship and now his daughter had lost a child he had no idea about.

Nodding his head, Evan looked at Eddie who got the hint and slowly backed up into the ambulance, pulling the gurney with him as Evan lifted it up. They couldn't stand and argue, they didn't have the time.

"You have no right to keep this from me!" Reaching a hand out, Bobby grabbed Evan roughly by the shoulder and wrenched him back before he had the chance to climb up into the ambulance. He pulled him back onto the road and spun him round so they were level.

Their expressions mirrored with locked jaws, bloodshot eyes and tears falling from their eyes.

"This isn't your call. It's mine."

"What the Hell did you just say to me?"

Evan froze when Bobby's hands latched back around his shoulders and forced him back until he was pinned up against the side of the ambulance. He couldn't find it in himself to care about the fury burning in his Captain's eyes. Usually seeing Bobby so upset with him would have crumbled Evan into a million little pieces.

But not today. Not anymore. Not after what he'd just seen (Y/n) go through.

"You two need to stop!" Eddie leaned his head around the side of the ambulance, fury burning in his eyes. How could they stand and argue this out here in the street when (Y/n) needed to get to a doctor? They were her family, they needed to support her not fight over her.

He could see neither of them were paying his words any attention. And Hen and Chimney stepped in to pull Bobby back and keep a safe distance between them both.

"If you give a fuck about her you'll pack it in because she's haemorrhaging again so get in here and let's go."

***

"She wants to see you." Evan expected some kind of snarky response when he leaned against the door and looked over at Bobby. He was waiting for something awful to be thrown his way, for a dirty look or a grimace or just something that would make him feel even worse about all of this.

All he got was Bobby's shoulder nudging his as he bypassed him and walked into the room.

"Buck-"

"Don't. Alright, just don't." He waved his hand towards Chimney before he turned round and shut the door. He wasn't in the mood for a lecture. He knew he should have told Bobby and the rest of the team, but Evan didn't want their sympathy or their words of advice.

He didn't want anything right now. It was bad enough that he knew Chimney, Hen and Eddie were going to be sat out there in the waiting room until Bobby was ready to go back to the station. They wouldn't leave until they knew (Y/n) was definitely okay and that Bobby and Evan weren't going to start a fight in the hospital.

(Y/n) looked up from her hands when the door closed. She watched her dad head her way like a train on full speed while Evan stayed near the door in case he needed a swift exit or one of the team to come play referee.

As soon as her dad was within reach, (Y/n) opened her arms and reached out for him. She locked her arms around his neck and pulled him down until he sat down on the edge of the bed. She couldn't stop the tears. When her face pressed into her dad's shoulder, she started to shake and quiet sobs muffled into his shirt.

She felt his arms go around her tightly and he held her just like he used to when she was a teenager, waking up with nightmares about the fire.

His arm deadlocked around her waist and his other hand moved to tangle in her hair as he kissed the top of her head.

"It's okay, it's okay sweetheart. You're okay."

"I'm sorry dad." (Y/n) kept her arms tight around Bobby's neck and stayed attached to his front so she didn't have to pull back and look up to see his broken expression.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

"The first time you brought (Y/n) to the station, you told me and Eddie not to get any ideas. Would you have been happy for us if we told you?" Evan pushed off the door frame and moved to slump down in the chair next to the bed. He could feel all the energy draining out of his body almost immediately as he flopped his elbows down onto his thighs.

When (Y/n) first came down to the station, Bobby warned everyone not to try anything with her. Eddie and Evan had been the single guys at the time and they had gotten along well with (Y/n), that was enough to put Bobby on edge and warn then away from his daughter.

He didn't want her getting her heart broken by anyone in his team and if they got into a relationship and it ended badly, that would complicate things for the team. Not to mention, Bobby thought of Evan as his son so it didn't naturally go together in his mind for Evan to be with his daughter.

"I would try to understand." Something softened in Bobby's eyes when he looked over at Evan, despite the anger he could still feel rolling through him in waves.

He wished Athena would hurry up and get here. She was much better at sorting out family affairs and situations like this.

"We we're going to tell you at dinner next week… I was, I was trying to find a way to tell you both, about the baby."

(Y/n) finally leaned back and dropped her hands down to her lap as her eye stayed focused on her nails she began to scratch. There was no excuse for hiding this from her dad, but they had to explain that they were about to tell him. They never wanted him to find out like this.

"You didn't know?" Panic and pain burned bright in Bobby's eyes when he looked across at Evan who simply shook his head.

He had no idea fate decided he might have been given the chance to be a dad. He wouldn't have been able to hide it or contain himself if he knew, and that would have made him crash further when this situation happened. Evan still couldn't quite process the fact that they had lost a child. It didn't seem real, it wasn't cemented in yet.

"Okay. You need to get some rest now, we can talk about all of this over dinner when we get you home. You can tell me everything."

(Y/n) looked up from her hands with a flicker of confusion in her eyes as she looked up at her dad.

She was expecting the third degree lecture. She was waiting for him to tell her how much she'd hurt him by hiding this. She thought he would ask why she wanted to be with Evan when she knew how much he meant to Bobby and how close he was to their family.

Neither of them were expecting Bobby to relent and try to process this so quickly and easily.

"You- you mean it?"

"You should have told me, I'm still not thrilled about finding out like this… but Buck, you mean a lot to me. And seeing you with (Y/n) tonight, there's no one else I'd trust more with my daughter than you."

[samoankpoper21]

With Love, Oikawa

A/N Still reeling from the loss of my cousin '^^ It's not an easy experience to lose someone, it never will be. Surround yourselves with your loved ones, tell them you love them daily because you never know when they'll pass. I'm glad I was able to tell my cousin that I loved him before he passed so please don't mind this post '^^ I just needed to get this out of my system ^^ hope that makes sense and as usual hope y'all enjoy this drabble. T/W: Small mention of unaliving oneself

Word count: 1880

It was a freak accident. At least that's how the doctor's described it.

Morning of you woke up and your inner being was off, something felt misaligned. You peered over to your smirking husband as he reached over to tuck a stray hair behind your ear. "Morning love."

"Morning." you whispered. Years of dating and 2 years of marriage Oikawa could sense when something was bothering you. His eyebrows scrunched together studying your face. "What's wrong?" Taking a shaky breath you answered, "Honestly I don't know. I woke up feeling...weird."

"Anything I can do to alleviate that weirdness?" he wiggles his eyebrows suggestively pulling you closer to him. You giggle giving him an eskimo kiss. "I'm sure it's nothing babe." You both lay there staring at each other, the love for one another apparent in your eyes. He sighs contently kissing your forehead. "What did I do to deserve you?" you hum in response. "Come on babe, gotta get ready for work." He groaned, interlocking your legs together. "Gimme 5 more minutes. 5 more minutes."

"Babe I would love to but I have an important meeting today." He pouted hugging you impossibly tighter. You couldn't resist his pouty face so you chuckled, hugging him back promising, "5 minutes top Toru."

"Yes!"

15 minutes had passed and Oikawa was walking you to the door watching as you slipped your flats on. "What do you feel like eating for dinner babe?"

"You know I'm fine with-you know what, scratch that. Maybe bone broth soup? It's starting to get cold."

"Ok love, I'll get it from that shop in town."

"You're a god send."

"You're just now realizing." You pinched his arm pulling him close. Leaning down to your height, cupping your face, he says, "I love you you know that? Not more than myself but you're alright." You giggled lightly smacking his arm. "I guess you're alright too." He pecked you once, twice, the third time his arms snaking around your plush waist pulling you close, your hands instantly weaving in his light brown locks, his cologne and scent filling your nostrils. "Okay, okay I have to go. Seriously Toru." Trying to pry his arms away from you he pouted dramatically. "What am I gonna do without you for 8 whole hours?"

"Babe you're more than enough entertainment for yourself. Chill."

"You're right. I am pretty awesome." Chuckling, shaking your head, you gave him a quick peck again turning around to wave at him. "I love you."

"Love you more."

The meetings seemed to drag forever. You just wanted to rush home into your husband's arms as he held you. Just one more hour. This was the mantra that was getting you through this work week. It finally hit 5PM and you rushed to the kiosk swiping your card. "Bye everyone! Have a good weekend! Good work today!" you rushed out bowing to your superiors before rushing to your car pushing on the accelerator. Pulling into the driveway you noticed Toru's car not there. Probably went to get dinner. Stepping out you couldn't help but notice how eerily quiet your neighborhood was. Usually there would be some type of noise but everything was...still. You tried shaking off the anxious, dreadful feeling that stayed with you since the morning but it just wouldn't dissipate. Slipping off your shoes at the entrance you changed into your house slippers when the shrill notes of your ringtone broke the silence. Frowning at the unrecognized number you debated on whether you should ignore the call but something in you urged, nagged, you to pick up. "Hello?"

"Hello is this Mrs. Oikawa?"

"This is she."

"My name is Ito Asahi. I'm calling from Midori hospital in regards to your husband." With a quivering voice and shaky hands you ask, "Is...is he ok?"

"Your husband was involved in an accident."

"I don't-I don't understand." the dispatch cleared his throat, clearly uncomfortable with the news he was about to deliver. "Mrs. Oikawa, your husband was hit head on by a drunk driver and was pronounced dead-" the phone dropped, everything sounding muffled, your breathing ragged. You clutched at your chest, tears falling down your eyes, trying to focus on what to do next. Why was it so got damn hard to breathe? "Mrs. Oikawa? Mrs. Oikawa? Mrs. Oikawa?!" Ito's voice slowly brought you back, your hearing now accompanied by a ringing in your ear. "He...he's dead?"

"I'm sorry." you broke down sobbing clutching at your chest. Fumbling for your phone you dialed Hajime. "Hey Y/N-chan."

"Ha-Hajime," your voice broke.

"Y/N? What's wrong? Are you ok? Is everything ok?"

"T-T-Toru,"

"What about him? Did he hurt you?" shaking your head you continued. "T-T-Toru -hic- i-is -hic gone. -hic- He's gone Hajime!" The sound of shoes fumbling and keys being thrown into a pocket could be heard when Hajime blurts out, "Stay there I'm coming to get you."

Hajime found you sitting on the floor in the dark staring numbly ahead. Gently he helped you up, put on your shoes and coat, and asked where Oikawa was. Surprisingly you were able to utter, "Midori Hospital." The drive there was silent, Hajime having already called your mother-in-law. You watched as the green trees and pink hued sky zoomed by, your ears still ringing. The emergency room doors slid open, the bustling of the the patients being wheeled past and nurses zooming by brought you back to the present. You could hear monitors beeping, the intercom paging a doctor to the maternity ward, nurses taking note of vitals from patients sitting out in the lobby. Hajime lead you to the reception area stating, "Hello. We're looking for an Oikawa Toru." the nurse quickly clacked away at her keyboard when she affirms, "Go through the double doors on your left hand side, his room is 1-B which will be on your right. We were waiting for next of kin before wheeling him away."

"Thank you."

You were numb. Everything felt off. It was as if your body was merely a shell and you were just a third party watching, observing as you and Hajime made your way to his room. With shaky hands, Hajime slowly peeled the green curtains back only to find Oikawa's lifeless form covered by a white and green plaid blanket. "Oi," Hajime's voice broke. "Oi trashy-kun wake up. Wake up! Oikawa Toru wake up!" the sobs began racking through Hajime's body, you began rubbing his back. Shortly after your mother-in-law appeared beside you, her shrill wailing piercing the air, your tears silently falling.

The funeral procession went by smoothly and quickly, you being on autopilot. Former and present teammates came to wish their condolences. You instantly recognized the short, orange haired wing spiker and Oikawa's junior setter looking down cast for the first time. "Thank you for being here." you mutter. Numbly you watched as the casket lowered into the ground, the thud of the casket deafening. Iwaizumi escorted you home. "Are you sure you'll be ok Y/N-chan?"

"I'll be fine thank you Hajime."

"Are you sure? If you need anything-"

"I just...I just need time alone." Worried he gave you one last glance before engulfing you in a hug. "Call me? For anything."

"I will." The door silently clicked close as you dragged your feet towards your shared bedroom. Plopping down on the bed you clutched and inhaled Oikawa's San Juan jersey. You got a whiff of his scent and cologne, the dam you tried to hold in your chest finally bursting. Your sobs came out in waves racking your whole body folding the jersey within the confines of your pudgy body, your chest.

4 months later

Since Oikawa's passing you have been on leave for bereavement; you weren't ready to face work, reality really. Hajime and your mother-in-law made it a habit to check in on you; concerned when you brought it to their attention that you would be taking a trip to Kamakura. You reassured them that you would be okay and that you had no intention of ending your life. Walking the shores of Kamakura you peered out towards the ocean with Oikawa's jersey in your beach bag. Laying your towel down in a spot near the shade, you took out your notebook, his jersey and began journaling.

Hi babe, it's me again. It's been 4 months since you've been gone and I can't say that it's getting easier. Hajime and mom have been checking up on me regularly, making sure that I put a little something in my stomach, especially on the days that I don't feel like it. Remember babe when you promised me that we would go to the beach? You kept telling me about how beautiful the beaches in San Juan were and how they don't compare to your beauty so I'm taking a solo trip to Kamakura. I figured this beach is probably on par as San Juan and your essence ha ha ha. How are you? I miss you. I'm taking it minute by minute, the whole bullshit about taking it day by day is hard. As each day comes to a close it gets hard to sleep because I'm always expecting you to come through the door yelling, 'Baaaaaaabeeee I'm hooooooomeeeee.' Each day has its struggles. Some days I'm okay, other days I find myself sobbing nonstop, others I sit there numbly staring at the wall. Pathetic huh? I just know you're probably giving me shit about not doing things extravagantly ha ha ha When is this gonna end? This empty feeling I mean. Since you left there's a gaping hole in my heart that will be tough to fill. Tough but not impossible. You wouldn't be you if you didn't leave me with a little surprise. I found out earlier this week that I'm pregnant. We're having a boy baby! Can you believe it?! When the doctor told me I had tears of joy, sadness, and just remember this feeling of being scared. How am I gonna do this without you? :(( I'm thinking of naming our son either Touki for winter pleasure since that's when he's due or Towa for eternal peace; I'm leaning towards Towa kekeke Oikawa Touki? Oikawa Towa? Has a funny ring to it ^^ What do you think? I've already told mom and Hajime that I have news for them once I get back home late tonight. I want them to be the first to know. I miss you babe. I love you. I will tell our son all about how flamboyant, egotistical, loving, and romantic his dad was and how amazing of a setter you were. Are you playing up there? Wherever you are. Every time I see a clear, starry night it takes me back to when you asked me to marry you^^ Sorry. I know I'm going all over the place but I just really, really, really wanted to let you know that I love you. so so very much. And I miss you more than words can describe. Talk to you later. Sending kisses to the sky. Wait for me my love. I have a lot of work to do here before I can join you^^ love love love you. With love, Y/N.

[sweetiesicheng]

hoshi - sick

word count : 575

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"babe, you really shouldn't come over. i'll just order food for myself in a bit," you said to hoshi.

the two of you were talking over the phone, and he kept pestering you to let him bring you his mom's food that he got the day before because you didn’t feel good enough to get up and cook for yourself.

"but baby, you're gonna starve. my mom made a lot, so i can bring half of it to you," hoshi said to you. "i'll drop it off by the front door, don't order anything."

"hoshi, don't."

"too late. i'm already leaving. i'll text you when i get there," he said to you. "love you," he said in a lovey-dovey tone.

you sighed, "love you too. see you soon."

"bye."

the call ended and the music you were listening to earlier started playing again. you adjusted the cold compress that was on your forehead and start dozing off again due to how tired being sick was making you.

—

"oh shoot. not that."

you heard hoshi's voice and started to think you were dreaming. you opened your eyes and checked your phone to see that it was around one o'clock in the afternoon, which meant you napped for almost a whole hour.

you sighed and got out of your bed before walking out of your room. you walked into the kitchen and crossed your arms at the sight in front of you.

"you said that you were going to leave the food by the door," you said to hoshi, who turned around when you spoke.

"i wanted to make sure you ate something," he said to you. "sit! i'm almost done."

you nodded and sat down at the table. hoshi poured you a cup of water and set it down in front of you before returning his attention to the stove.

"don't you have work?" you asked him since he had been busy lately.

"we just have a recording later," he answered. "don't move, this is hot."

hoshi placed a big bowl of soup in front of you. he handed you a spoon, and you started eating.

"your mom is the best," you said when you picked up the glass of water, "i should visit them soon."

"when my schedule clears up, we could go together," hoshi said to you and went to your fridge. he opened it and you noticed that the other containers of food he had brought were already in the fridge. "do you have any side dishes in here?" he asked, looking at the shelves.

"probably just kimchi right now," you replied to him.

"oh, spicy probably isn't a good idea for right now," he replied. he grabbed a drink before closing the fridge. "feel any better?" he asked, turning around to face you.

you nodded, "yea. thank you."

hoshi sat down at the table across from you. he took out his phone.

"let me take a photo. carats will think i'm such a good boyfriend," he said with a smile and took a photo.

"i better not be in it," you said to him.

"it's just the table and your hands. i promise," he said to you and started going through his phone. "now they'll think i'm not such a klutz," he said while laughing.

"you weren’t even the one who cooked."

"it’s the thought that counts.”

“you literally just brought containers over and heated stuff up.”

“be quiet and eat.”

[myships-storys]

your cool no matter what part 2

Chapter name: sick love

FLUFFY TIME

this is based off my headcanon of what happens when sevens sick

Also @biblicallyaccuratefour is in this

Cover by @almostholysandwich

Nine pov:

I was hanging out with two, as they were teasing me about what happened yesterday with seven. "Somebody's in love~" Two said mocking me

"I AM NOT" I yelled out, feeling embarrassed. All the sudden I felt something wrap their arms around me, I tuned around to see it was seven. I was flustered out of my mind from this.

Two noticed seven didn't look so well "hey seven, umm your not looking so great today, are you ok" Two asked. I looked at sevento notice he didn't look so good, making me worried.

I placed my arm on his to feel he had a fever. "Sev seems to have a fever" I said as seven tightened his grip on me making me blush a little more. "I need help~" Seven said ad he grumbled

"I think me and two could help" I said as I looked at two. "Uhhh I actually gotta go so uh, bye" two said as they disappeared

I was mad at the fact two left me, but I had to focus on seven right now. "Come on let's head your place, I think you'd be more comfortable with that" I said as I dragged seven to her place.

When we got there, I went to the coach to sit down, followed with seven sitting close to me. "Ok so I will watch over you for the day until you get better, you got that" I asked as I looked at seven. Seven looked at me and started clinging on to me as the looked at me all sad like, making me blush slightly "but your gonna get sick though" seven whined as I sighed. "I don't care, your my friend, so I can't just leave a friend sick like this. So try to get better ok" I said to seven, almost sounding like a parent. "Oh- ok" seven said with a groan at the end

a few hours have passed with seven getting worse by the second. I was getting worried about her, I didn't know if this was normal or not. I thought about getting some soup, but I realized I would just start a fire. I had to find four or x to get some soup. I walked to seven who was sitting on the couch, covered with blankets.

"I'm going to get some soup from four and X, so wait here" I said to sev as I started to walk away. All the sudden I felt something pulling my leg, I turned around to see it was seven, I was blushing like crazy from this. "S-sev! Let me go! You need to get rest! I have to go to four and X to get some soup, we both know I will just start a fire if I tried to cook" I said, as I was super embarrassed.

"Nooooo! I'll die here alone"sev said as he was on the ground trying to get mw to stay. All the sudden I herd a knock on the door. "Seven? You in there, what's going on" I herd faux af the door, making me sigh in relief

I opened the door to let him in. "Nine? What are you doing here" "sev is sick and is clinging on to me so I have to take care of him" I explained to faux about the situation. "Say could you make sev some soup, I'd do it but I'd somehow burn the milk or something" I asked looking concerned. Faux sighed then looked at me "fine I'll help" he sad making me happy and relieved

"But after that I got to go, I have to go to the hospital to see ten with eight" faux explained to me "ok bro, I understand" I said. After a few minutes, faux finished the soup and brought it to me "There you go, now I have to go, see ya" faux said as he left the house. I walked upstairs to see seven in bed, he had a super high fever so I had to give him the soup.

"Here's some soup bro, eat up" I said, holding a spoon full of the soup and having it out so seven could eat. Seven chuckled and looked at me, "how about I eat you instead, because of the joke 7 8 ni-" seven said, as i blushed alot from the joke "just eat this please" is said cutting seven up. Eventually seven ate the soup.

I checked up on her a few minutes later, and they're fever was starting to go down. "I'm so bored~" seven whined out. I looked around for something, then found sevens tablet, seven didn't have a password so it was easy for me to get in. I put on war of wonderland (my object show I'm working on) as she started watching it, laughing at the funny parts.

I blushed at sevens laugh, it was kinda... cute- WAIT NO?! I shouldn't have these thoughts, sevens just a friend, right? I had these thoughts yesterday also, what is going on?! I looked back at seven who wad relaxed. I sat down on a chair next to sevens bed, and watched war if wonderland with her.

To be continued

Hope you guys enjoyed chapter 2. See you next chapter

[idontplaytrack]

Tough

Rosa Diaz x teen daughter! reader

Warnings: none?

In which, Rosa comes down with a cold and the squad shoos her home but she refuses- so reader comes to the rescue

“You look like hell, Rosa.”

“I’m fine.” Rosa spat.

“No, you are not.” Jake continues. Rosa only rolled her eyes before resuming her work. “Lieu, would you please tell her she looks like crap.”

Jeffords turned around and said, “You look like crap.”

“I’m working.”

“You’re sick. Literally not one of us have seen you this pale.” Terry continues.

“At least take this.” Charles put a pill on her desk- an antihistamine.

“No.”

“Ha ha.” Amy quipped, “I called your daughter.”

“Amy, are you insane? Why would you do that?” Rosa laid back in her seat, “Why would you call my daughter over this?”

“Because out of everyone you know, I know you’d listen to her.” Amy shrugged.

“I’m gonna kill you.”

“No, you are not.” Amy replies calmly, “Just go home and take it easy for the rest of the day.”

“But you might want to wait for your daughter to get here.” Holt’s voice cut through the room. “I do not think it is safe for you to make your own way home. She should be here in 16 minutes. Her school has let out for the day.”

“Whaaat? Still crazy to hear that.” Jake laughs.

“Get back to work.” Terry reminded, “Rosa stop doing your work.”

“Fine, whatever.” She gave up, saving the document onto her desktop then just laid back in her chair to wait for you.

————

“Bye, Rosa.” Jake grins. Rosa grumbles, putting her jacket on while you went to press the lift button.

“You know, I love you but I don’t see how having you take a detour to go home with me will keep either of us safer.”

“Okay, but it did shut them up, didn’t it?”

Rosa chuckles, “Didn’t you have something on?”

“I did. But I decided not to go.”

“I’m a little afraid to ask, but why?”

“That’s a problem for another day. You just focus on resting today.” You told her.

“y/n.” She warned.

“The guy’s a douchebag.” You gave in, “Apparently he orders the most expensive thing on the menu then makes his date pay every time. And he doesn’t exactly take no for an answer, if you get what I mean.”

“Okay, that’s good- don’t ever feel like you need to go on dates because you don’t want to cancel on people.”

“I know.” You assured, “How are you feeling?”

“Never felt this sick in 10 years.” She snorted, “But, I bounce back quick.”

“That’d be right.” You stifled a laugh, “I’ll make us some soup when we get back- and you, take a shower and get into bed.”

“Yes, ma’am.” She joked, “I’m tough.”

“Oh, there’s no denying that.” You put an arm around her, and you see a tiny little smile tug on her lips, “You are tough. You’re a badass.”

“I mean, so are you, y’know?” She continues.

“Barely.”

“Please, you’re my daughter. I taught you everything you know. You’re a badass too, mamita.”

“Oh, boy we need to get you into bed.”

“y/n, I’m not trying to be funny.”

“You realise none of my dates have went well so far?”

“So? It’s not your fault the people who’ve tried to take you out are jerks or you just didn’t vibe with them.”

“Maybe I’m the problem.”

“No one’s perfect but you can’t say that because I see you as you are and I can confidently say you’re a good person.” Rosa spoke tiredly, “There are plenty of people in the city. You’ll meet someone before you know it.”

“You mean it?”

“Fuck do you mean? Of course I do.” She answered straightforwardly, “Don’t be so hard on yourself.”

“Ah…I guess after three suckish dates in a row, my confidence has taken a hit. But thanks, Mom.”

The rest of your walk home was rather quiet with Rosa trying to keep warm in this chilly weather while her body temperature rose. So, once you both got home, you quickly turned the heat up so she would be more comfortable. “I’m gonna take a shower now, then I’m off to bed.”

“Good, you’d better. I’ll wake you up when the food’s done so you can eat some then take something for your fever.”

“Okay, honey.” Rosa rolled her eyes playfully, “Be careful.”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“I said that first.”

[emo-gremlin]

Hey, you're cool! *hands you more MFN as memes/vines*

🎬

Lenard: what's cooler than being cool?

Gordon: financial stability

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Lilianna: an octopus is just a wet spider

Ricky: WHAT HAVE YOU DONE

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Lenard: SOMEBODY ONCE TOLD ME THE WORLD WAS GONNA-

George: end on December 21, 2012. I bought all this fucking pasta as a way to celebrate the end of the world and now I'm $10,000 in debt, my taxi got towed and I have wet pasta everywhere in my house

Lenard: ...I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed

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Ricky: swear words are illegal now, say one and you'll be fined

Handy: heck

Ricky: you're on thin fucking ice

Ricky: oh no

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Lenard: what if mayonnaise came in cans?

Lilianna: that would suck because you can't microwave metal...

Noir: *walking by drinking coffee* good morning to everyone except you people

🎬

Noir: anyone wanna get into an argument with me?

Ricky: ok cream cheese isn't that good

Noir: I was kidding but you know what fuck you for real

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Unfriendly Lenard: I hate being high, why I hear footsteps?

Craig: are you walking?

Unfriendly Lenard: oh shit

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Junebug: vanilla soy latte is just 3 bean soup

Gordon: why must you do this at 5am

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George: a haiku for the bus drive who deliberately cut me off

George: *clears throat*

George: I swear to God bruh, let me catch you in the streets, bruh I swear to God

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Unfriendly Lilianna: I find the fact I will never experience a sword fight in my entire life terribly tragic

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Lenard: sorry, liberals, there's only 0 genders

Junebug: there's one gender ad we have to share

Craig: Gordon said its my turn on the gender

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Norman: I wanna jump off a building and not die. Just relieve stress by slamming into the sidewalk and then get up and go get a slurpee or something

Ricky: Norman are you ok

Norman: no ❤️

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Norman: *screams into jar* everything is fine :)

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Gordon: I saw your last report card

Noir: *not even looking up from his phone* congrats you can see

Gordon: oh so you wanna be smart?

Noir: that's why I go to school

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Gordon: hey Junebug how are you today?

Junebug: I swallowed a golf ball!

Gordon: uh- are you ok?

Junebug: I can't poop! :D

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Ricky: hey Lillianna

Lillianna: can you get in the oven and clean it?

Ricky: bye Lillianna

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Junebug: if it weren't illegal I would eat cereal for every meal of the day

Gordon: I have some wonderful news for you

🎬

Gordon: Noir asked everyone at dinner what color Norman's new shirt was. After we all said grey, he turned to him and said, "Now tell them what color you think it is." And Norman just quietly replied, "Dark white."

🎬

Lilianna: Lasagna is just spaghetti flavored cake

Fritz: I will pay you money to never speak again

🎬

George: fellas is it gay to fall in love with another man and spend your life with him

Gordon: that is the literal definition of gay

George: :0

🎬

Gordon: *texting the puppets* At airport! Bye guys! Love ya to the moon and back, you're the best! Bust a nut!

Noir: I'm not sure Gordon knows what that means

Tax: I Physically cannot breathe

🎬

Lilianna: God released me into the wild and now he's hunting me for sport

🎬

Fritz: where can I order a pretty face

George: from your mirror

Tax: WHEN DID EVERYONE IN THIS HELL STUDIO BECOME SMOOTH AF

Lenard: 2023: the year the Neighborhood learned how to flirt

Norman: oh my

🎬

Noir: 1 universe, 9 planets, 7 seas, 7 continents, 809 islands, 204 countries, and I had the unfortunate luck of meeting you

Tax: THERE ARE 8 PLANETS YOU UNCULTURED SWINE

Noir: VIVA LA PLUTO FUCK YOU

Gordon: I'm pretty sure 'viva la Pluto fuck you' is the best sentence I've ever heard

🎬

Craig, Fritz and UF Fritz belong to: @gayfraggle

[sarahrogersevans]

You’re More Important To Me- Sebastian Stan xreader fic

Summary: Y/N is sick and Sebastian stays home to take care of Y/N and comforts her

Warnings: a bit of angst and a lot of comfort fluff, mentions of being sick, not a lot of warnings

(Y/N’s POV)

I was starting to feel a bit under the weather the last few days but today I just felt worse and I went and took a hot shower to see if I’d feel better but I just felt like crap. I called up my boss and said “hi, so I’m sorry to do this but I have the flu and I’m gonna stay home today, I hope I can make up the hours later?” My boss said “I hope you feel better Y/N and don’t even worry take as much time as you need ok?” I loved my boss a lot and I said “ok I will thank you so much, bye.” I put my phone down and went to say goodbye to my boyfriend Sebastian before he left for work and I walked over to hug him and Sebastian noticed how I was feeling and said “hey darling you ok??” I didn’t wanna worry him so I said “yea I’m fine just need a hug before you go.” Sebastian felt my forehead and said “oooh Y/N you feel warm, let’s get you back in bed ok?” I nodded and Sebastian helped me into bed and he made sure I had enough of the blanket on me and kissed my forehead and said “now get some rest doll I’ll take care of you.”

I freaked out and said “wait what about your movie honey?? Don’t you need to go in to work today?” Seb shook his head after taking off his coat and said “no doll you’re more important to me Y/N I don’t wanna leave you knowing you’re not feeling well, I love you and I wanna do this.” I blushed and said “Aw thank you so much my love you’re amazing.” I still felt guilty inside knowing he’d miss a day of filming. Sebastian tucked me in a bit more then kissed my cheek and said “now close your eyes and I’ll go make you some ramen soup and I’ll come right back ok?”

(Sebastian’s POV)

Poor Y/N I hate seeing her feeling miserable, I don’t wanna leave her alone and I love taking care of her. I just made her some chicken ramen soup and put a few crackers in a bowl and put everything on a tray to bring to her. I walked into the bedroom and put the tray on her bedside table and kissed Y/N’s forehead and whispered “hey darling I made you your favorite soup and brought some crackers to go with it, wanna try and eat??” She sat up and looked at the soup and said “yea soup sounds really good, thank you Seb.” I sat down by Y/N and handed her the bowl carefully and said “careful it’s hot.” She sipped some of the soup on the spoon and said “yum! I love ramen it’s so good, I love when it’s hot.” I let her eat and then said “ok here sweetheart time to take some ibuprofen ok?” She took the medicine cup and drank the meds and I said “good girl.” then she handed me everything and said “thank you Sebastian that was such a good lunch.” I kissed her head and said “my pleasure doll, I’ll take everything into the kitchen and come back and we can cuddle ok?”

(Y/N’s POV)

I love my boyfriend he’s wonderful, he came back into our bedroom and got into bed next to me and opened his arms and said “come here sweetheart let’s cuddle.” I scooted over to Seb and laid on his chest and I felt the medicine start to kick in and I closed my eyes and I felt Sebastian pull me closer and he said “rest well sweet girl you’ll feel better I love you.”

Hey lovelies!! I’m back with another fic!! 😊♥️♥️ hope you all enjoy!! xx

Taglist:

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@nana1000night

@peaches1958

@marvelstarker-mha98

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@imyourbratzdoll

@chrisevansdaughter

[thatkdpoh]

Introduction i think?

Ok so I’ve been like really excited to do this I don’t know why but this is I think controversy? I don’t know how controversy works but this is how it happened.

I am 12 yrs old, My height is 5,1 and holy shit wanna kms but I am 130 pounds. This will flucate and idk how to spell it but it’s like a line with a dot in the front or end and it goes left to right so I flucate to 130 to 140 I hate that.

How I know about ED/Backstory/rant (cringy ik sorry :c :

I was always a fat kid and I’ve hated it, I understand that I didn’t care about my weight but when I was like what 8 to 9 whenever my dad would say cow to me in taqvaylit I don’t know how to write it but I know something’s like amcic or tizizwith or afkroune which is cat, bee and turtle in that order. I would feel self conscious and sometimes cry to because I’m very sensitive which is like cringy i know lol. My heaviest had to been this year like 140 pounds but I think it was water weight and shit. Anyways my mom tried to get me to fast and she would force me or smth maybe not force but like tried to get me to lose weight. She’d say it directly and it would always make me feel bad but like I understand being 130 for like 8 yrs or 9 to 12 is very heavy and embarrassing considering I always saw kids would be more skinner than me I’d feel very bad. Until recently like last year in 6th grade I was reading fanfics of a human au of TMNT i didnt know what ED’s were so when it showed up the word bulimia I thought it meant bullshit but it didn’t sound right so I searched it up and saw the symptoms that’s when I also learned about anorexia and pica etc. When I saw the symptoms I started copying them now this is the part that I think is controversy I copied the symptoms which I know was bad but I was fucking lazy and still am couldn’t do a workout for the life of me or restrict food, I was used to eating a lot and when I saw the symptoms I copied them and they worked!! I loved it and then the minute I knew how to starve myself, I actually don’t know how to continue with that but I didn’t know how much of a deeper hole I got into but I really loved it and still do EMBARRASING. I did do exercise I did like 100 sit ups a day which did nothing but it did make my body ache and stopped, 5th grade was the worst out of all my grades for now but 6th might be second but it wasn’t that bad just a lot of crying and seeing how fat I am made me cry that’s it. Now if I don’t starve at all or try too I would feel like shit. In 6th grade I also saw that purging was a symptom so I made myself throw up but only if I ate way to fucking much and I’m so bloated it hurts and I can’t take the pressure so I throw up just to take off a little pressure and go back but then I’d feel sick which sucked :C. When Ramandan came though I was A BEAST not an actual beast but like it was my oppertuinity to fast without anyone questioning because I live in a studio apartment with 5 other people that are my family >_<. Obviously with my blabber mouth which I hate told everything to my mom but I think she thinks that I’m ok now :D. Any way I’d only eat 5 tablespoons of soup every night and I was very tired and I lost 6 pounds!! Which isn’t a lot but I made it to 124 pounds!! But then I gained it all back in summer break, cried, tried to fast for 3 days but fainted on the 36 hour?? I’m not sure because when I stopped the fast because my mom told me to eat and spoiler alert I cried cause I have little bitchitas if u know Kubz scouts u know. I paused at the 38 hour so like 36 is my highest to fast which is embarrassing again. ANYWAY NOW IM IN 7TH GRADE STUGGLIJG EITH THIS THINGY :]] I sound like those I guess I deserve it heh thing but like no I’m not seriously I just wanted to be silly. Anyway I’m gonna try that ABC diet which I think seems kind of mid to hard but I think fitnesspal would help me with it <33

BYE EVERYONE HAVE A GREAT DAY OR NIGHT HAVE A GREAT THANKSGIVING SND MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! :33

[jessysapphireblue]

One Piece Advent Calender Door 3

Today you spend a Day with our beloved Nami.

Door 3: A day with a Cat

Still under the covers with Luffy, he was hugging you close, drooling a little on your head, you were woken up by a loud bang. “WAKE UP!!!”, Nami barged in and you sat up, groaning. “Nami, what is-” “LUFFY!!!!”, Sanji joined in by your door, both of them looking like they could kill your boyfriend. suddenly, you were wide awake.

“Jessy, be a dear and step out for a short moment”, smiled Nami and freed you from Luffy grasp, your captain slowly waking up, and guided you outside, Sanji giving you his coat before the door to your room closed. The soundproof barrier around your room made you even more anxious before the door opened, both stepping out. “Thank you, Sanji” “It was a pleasure”, both said serious and gave each other a high five. “W-What happened?” “Oh my beloved Goddess! Luffy sneaked away at night to eat the storage room empty!” “He got what he deserved...why are you still with him?! You can pull so much better guys!” “But Nami, he brings me to laugh and makes me happy!”, you beamed at the Navigator, so full of love that she hugged you. “You´re an Angel, my dear!” “After breakfast, I sit down with you and check what we need ok? I even give you some money if it´s too short” “You Goddess!! Kya~ I´m so blessed with you here. But now go change, it´s pretty cold today”

Nodding you handed Sanji his coat back before walking into your room, seeing your boyfriend all messed up by these two. Sighing softly, head hung, you bend down to touch Luffy, using your heals on him. “Thank you”, he smiled at you, jumping up. “Why didn´t you woke me up?” “I tried! But you were out for good. So I got up and went to grab food...” “Haaa, my sweet idiot. You ate too much”, cupping his cheeks, you pressed a gentle kiss on his lips as you two changed.

It was after the breakfast that you sat down with Nami, Sanji listing what everything was missing, as you wrote it down, Nami began calculating. “I go to town then. Be careful, my precious ladies~~” “You also, Sanji”, you smiled as he slipped his jacket on. “Ah~ it scents now like my goddess~ Like a warm hug on a blessed day”, he swooned and walked out, making Nami sigh. “such an idiot” “Nami, all guys are idiots” “True. I can only count on Robin and you”, she lied her head onto your shoulder.

“JE!”, Luffy barged in, a big smile on his face. “Come with us! We´re gonna explore the island” “No”, you hummed. “What?!...Did I do something bad?”, his voice sounded sad. “Apart that we have no food today! She helps today with fixing your black hole of a stomach!”, Nami shouted at Luffy. ”...come with me!” “LUFFY”, Nami said low and a dark aura surrounded her. “Meh! But next time!” “Promise, bub” “Shishishi! Love it when you call me bub”, he cupped your cheeks and pressed a kiss onto your lips. “Bye bye!”, and with that, he was gone from the kitchen. “You know, I have to charge him when you two kiss...we would be swimming in money!”, her eyes flashed berry signs. “Nami, focus” “Oh, yes”

It took a while but you were finally done. “Luffy will pay!” “Like I said, I can always-” “No. This is yours. Luffy will get no more money for AT LEAST 2 months” “Oh he will be sad” “I don´t care...but now. I wanted to talk with you about this Christmas Dinner. What is...or was common by you” “Ehm, every family was different. There was either goose or turky. That was the base. My family made soup, potato dumplings and cabbage. I was always looking forward to it. On Christmas eve we had fish. In fact we had the whole day no meat”

Nami grin devilish. “Oh~ is that so. Hehehe~ perfect” “should I be worried?” “No why”, she smiled lovingly at you, as you sweatdropped. “Maybe I shouldn´t have told you that”, you whispered as she went back to looking evil. In her mind there was already a wicked plan, as you know her.

“Why would you want to know?” “Well~ since you know the most about it, I am thinking if we could ask Sanji to make it” Your eyes widen. “NAMI!”, you cheered and hugged the navigator with glee and happiness. “Nami~ I love you~~” “I love you also~” both of you smiled as “No meat on Christmas eve, hm~” “No. No ham, meat or anything with meat. Just fish, mashed potatoes and cabbage. Was my family tradition” “I like it. When Sanji comes back, we use my charm and your absolute adorableness to swoon him over”

Both of you laughed.

[elliemyun]

Tuesday, 5/2

SLEEP: 5 hours (3:00 AM - 8:00AM)

MEALS:

Lunch: breakfast sandwich, tomato soup

Dinner: PONYO RAMEN, bread

REFLECTION:

안녕하세요 여러분! Today's daily shoutout will be to my girl AshKash @ashleylim. I am actually sitting next to her right now and she is eating some popcorn. Kashley has been nothing but funny, caring, and supportive. Also she has a really loud silly laugh 😂😂😂 Yipee! Today was a pretty ok day. I woke up early at 8AM and for the first time in 4 days, I was able to wake up to my alarm on time. I do not think that I can go on like this anymore. I want to just go to sleep and not wake up. 😂😂for just a few hours. I went to Kerckhoff and ate some bread with Adam and JakeyPoo like the little mice we are. Many of our friends pulled up throughout the next few hours. I went to discussion and saw Anna and Jenny I miss them so much. I got Kerckhoff with Joe and we tried to get grilled cheese and tomato soup but somehow the oven stopped working??? 😂😂😂😂 we got tomato soup and sandwiches tho and talked for a while. uhm then i went to office hours and it was so helpful i love balaji my TA. i went to kerckhoff and at the moment i was gonna collapse for real. then i hungout with my bro JakeyPoopoo. we played foosball and had a litle picnic and talked for a long time. we got dinner at feast with kayla and talked for a really long time about silly little things. i fell asleep and now am in rieber terrace with my mooooooooos. good night . i prob wont sleep tho bye.

TIME STAMP: 11:53 PM

[mtnkat3]

2.43pm

Grinning..

Yeah when I got into the shower earlier I started thinking about this post. But I have been going none stop since! I've put ~50 miles just for bloodwork & lunch. 🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

I started singing the air force song.. flying high into the sun... & then giggling. As I used to know all of them, ranks for all, & a lot of ribbons too. Only can remember green E right now. Sigh. But I realized how much a nerd I am!

One of the new regional eatery places that's opened up is in the main flight path for a municipal airport so while everybody else there is oblivious.. I'm staring at jets all the way down to single prop Cessna's coming in! Close enough watching them deploying landing gear! I love it! Course it also reminds me of C.A.P. & then high school. Sigh. Memories.. & goals!

And then remembered while at the pizzeria today. [Half the bread, 4 fries & all the meat! Good kat!😁]

that as much as I detest the mark of the beast the cgm is to me.. when I'm asked about it I stop whatever I'm doing & talk to the person. People wanna know, they're scared & if I can help with my own experiences belay their fears then I will.

It's very simple, 1 poke, 10 days of wear, & 288 tests [every 5 minutes] in 24hrs vs the 4 test strips insurance allows with regular meter usage. It gives the wearer more knowledge & control over their eating habits.

Heck, it's showing me just how much stress affects blood sugar! When I saw endo after my sunburn/poisoning in August, they could see my shoulders, arms & toe. They reminded me of this. Stress effects ABSOLUTELY freaking everything! Blood sugar, pressure, heart rate, breathing, etc. Like D'oh t! I knew, I grew up around people that lost vision, toes, even life. Because remember.. too much sugar in the blood stream. Heck, it's affect is on psoriasis too! And since mine is mainly on my face, neck, & ears I see the evidence in the mirror & can't do a dang thing about it but to watch my food & stress. And yes, not eating also causes blood sugar to rise. The body thinks it's in starvation mode & that's where gut eright comes in. Until that has gotten as far ad the body is ok with then goes to other areas. Me, its trunk. A bit of cellulite arms & legs. But I have the "fat that kills."

Why do I talk about all this stuff?

So anyone that has questions or needs to know these things doesn't feel alone.

It sucks to have the alphabet soup.. pcos, ibs, complex headaches, dm2, cdk, psoriasis... "hyperactive immune system" allergies thru the roof!, asthma induced by allergies & more but. These are my trials.

And I bow to God's Wisdom & Grace.

He alone can Guide me to His healing. & Miracles!

And I can overcome all the mirade issues I have. It takes hard work, dedication & discipline.

I realized last night that I got depressed & lazy because of my circumstances.

Let's just say.. that put my hackles up. And really f*ckin pissed off Tijgeress. At me! I don't like that. At all. This is a huge part of my daily struggle, to fight what I am around.

To be the woman that I am. The one that doesn't go out without brushing hair, teeth, washing face, at least sponges bath, & putting on "public clothes" & showing that I care about myself.

I have gotten to the point that I rarely wear makeup though. It bothers my skin. And I even tried Its cosmetics 'Bye Bye' moisturizer! It felt heavy to me. People gonna just see my rosy complexion & lip balm. Unless I feel fancy like..🎶 grinning. Right now though.. Levi's & tees.

Long haired country girl with a lead foot. Shoulda seen me driving though! Windows down, radio jacked up, hair flying everywhere & flying the currents.. grin. That's me.

I am me.

I'm a nice woman to everybody I encounter. And I had to tell myself when I saw what looked like a traffic accident & grass fire while driving 80mph in a clump of cars that I saw the drivers, & they were mobile. And that emergency personnel had been called. But I feel like shit. I should've turned to get there & helped. Sigh.

Yes. That's me too.

Did I ever say I'm not complex?🤨🤔🤓🙄🤦‍♀️🤷‍♀️

Anyways.. that's been my day.

I know most think I'm crazy, treating this like my diary. But I'm not. Well no more than the next empathetic, infj, overthinking, marshmallow hearted woman! Lmao! Yeah.. ok. I'm unique! 😁

Anyways! I do this so wherever & whomever the heck my soul's mates are.. he knows what's happening in my life! Well I mean I think knows more than these writings.. that's my gut, intuition & soul's feelings anyways. So I write to my loves & I write to help others. Otherwise... crickets. There are days when I talk to my cat & have to clear my throat because I haven't spoken in so long! Lol!

Now that the chauffeuring is done.. back to work! I gots plenty of both daily chores & tasks to my goals to get done!

Discipline & sacrifice t. Not to mention life goals. And making God happy to have Created me! And that He will Bless my life by the work I do in His Name!

If that won't move my butt to swishin nothing could! Grinning.

Yes. I'm in a good mood today!

I was able to take a hot shower & not trip!😎 I feel better about myself for every righteous thing I accomplish!

Motivation.

Yes, as I look out at my huge pine & other trees, seeing the sunlight, listening.. I feel better. I much rather go out into the forest & not hear people but be rejuvenated by nature!

Yes. I love planes & flying too!

Yep. Right now.. put me in as hot tub to soak my bones then stand in the cold air & watch the goose pimples! I think that would energize my butt! Lmao!

Ok. Deep breath. Gotta get back to it.

Wherever & whomever the heck You are!

I freakin love & adore you!

And I miss you so badly I'm ready to scream, roar, hiss, growl, & shout down the mountains.. that I could fly my Phoenix wings to you!

So. God Knows. And I believe you do too.

I pray to get my life right so I am made aware, more than my senses.. so that I am face to face with you. Sharing breath.. heartbeats.. drowning in your eyes. You are everything to me. And I'm sick to death of being separated from you!

Daughter... patience.

Bowing my head. Yes Father.

Deep breath. Focus. Calm. Breathe. Relax. Get my butt moving. Repeat.

I will not ever give up.

I believe. In God. In Love. In us.

I work as I move my butt & await.. God. & you.

~True love never dies & true love always waits.~

Your faithful complex warrior queen daughter.

~Tijgeress kat Phoenix. 🌺

👩🤓⚓🙏🙇‍♀️💡☔🌂🔗⛓🧰⚙⚒🛠⚔⚖🗽🦅🥧🍁🧣🥾🍎🥤🍋🥮🍯🍼☕🍫🍑🍒 🐯🐾🐐🦉🐢🐛🦋🌱🌺🌹🌻🌷🌳🧶🧵 ⌚⚡🌠🗝🔱⚜💝🐻🦌🧩♠️♾🎯🧭🕯🎶💋

Fr.10.21.2022 4.01pm est.

Yeah.. "love is in the air", usaf anthem, No Body by Blake Shelton.. bunches of goodies today! Makes for happy kat! 😎🥰😁🎶

[princessrarijacklestia]

Intro post for my account

Hey, I just remembered I never actually formally introduced myself here! I figured I would do this then head to bed or something.

Sooo, my name is Finn or Finney (either or is fine, but I like it when people use them interchangeably). I use any pronouns, I'm genderfluid, and bisexual.

I'm an age regressor, pet regressor, and caregiver. My little ages are around 0-5 (1-2 is where I usually land when I regress) and when my species are cat (I haven't really figured out which breeds yet), dog (Irish Wolfhound/Cardigan Welsh Corgi/Yorkshire Terrier), and lion. I've been interested in the communities for 5 years now but only recently have I been really dipping my toes into them. I regress because of stress and mental illness (ADHD + anxiety + depression is like eating a peanut butter and pickle sandwich but the bread is a tortilla, it isn't a fun combination at all.)

Some of my triggers are:

When I'm under stress

Dissociating? (I'm not sure if it is dissociation, I just can't really describe it any other way.)

Reading/writing agere/petre fanfics

When I'm in my caregiver/pet/little headspace (the ol' switcharoo)

Listening to ASMR

Stimboards (I'm not autistic, but these changed my life ngl)

Watching cartoons

Bathing/being messy

Fear/anxiety (I am terrified of the ocean/dark water, mirrors, the dark, ghosts, and home intruders which contribute to this)

My favorite regression foods:

Chicken noodle soup

Applesauce

Mac and cheese with shells

Cottage Cheese

Blackberries

Chamomile tea and milk

Chicken

Swedish fish

Watermelon

My favorite regression shows and movies:

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (I couldn't tell)

Blues Clues

Scooby Doo

The Lady and the Tramp

The Lion King

My favorite regression music:

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic soundtrack

Music box songs

The Beatles/solo projects

High School Musical movies soundtrack

Disney movies soundtrack

Other things I like when regressed:

Art

Napping

Writing

Gardening

Crafting

Reading

Watching movies/shows

Listening to music

Going outside

Things I don't like:

Certain smells (things like garbage, sewage, maple syrup)

Being dirty for too long

Certain textures (looking at you velvet and cotton)

Getting upset/frustrated

Certain sounds (I swear, ASMR is like my bestie but sometimes the triggers make me want to throw my phone at the wall)/yelling

These are just the stuff I like when in little/petspace, I would add what I like in cg mode but it's about the same. Like I said earlier, I've just started getting into and feeling around this side of myself, so this is just the tip of the iceberg. I'm gonna go catch some fat Z's, now. Good-bye!

[whyse7vn]

BTS BOYFRIEND TEXTS -

[ ot7 x reader ]

lmao what is this it’s 3 am and i’m tired enjoy ^ ^

SEOKJIN -

jin: you ate without me…

y/n: did do that

jin: you said you’d wait

y/n: lied

jin: you’re not even gonna try and lie and say you tried you wait or something?

y/n: no

jin: we’re over

y/n: damn that sucks

jin: you don’t even care 😓

y/n: i do

seokjin please please please take me back i love you so much please please !!

jin: i guess i’ll give you another chance 🙄

y/n: thanks so much jinjin love you 😍😍🥰🥰🥰‼️‼️‼️‼️💕💕💓💓💓

jin: ew stop

y/n: stop what bae 😓💓

jin: that

y/n: you’re so hard to please

jin: i deserve better than you

y/n: choke

jin: i’m plotting your murder

y/n: it’s giving jin !alpha !hybrid !mafia boss !hard dom (disturbing content) minors dni

jin: i wolf you

y/n: would turn you into a rug

NAMJOON -

namjoon: got a loaf of bread

y/n: smooth like butter

namjoon: also got broke that green bowl so i bought a new one

y/n: haters gonna hate and players gonna play

namjoon: the bowl is blue tho

hope that’s ok

y/n: pretty woman

namjoon: did you eat lunch ?

y/n: everybody say no

namjoon: you should go do that then

y/n: run run run

namjoon: i think there is soup in the fridge

go check

y/n: did you see my bag ?

namjoon: is it there ?

y/n: you’re so big for no reason

namjoon: what ?

y/n: i’m looking at that photo on the fridge

namjoon: the disney one ?

y/n: yeah and you’re standing behind me you a big bitch

namjoon: thanks ?

y/n: ur built like a brick

ur so hot

lord

come home pls

namjoon: i’m on my way love

y/n: DO YOU REMEMBER WHEN THAT INTERVIEWER TOLD YOO TO PLAY UR OWN RACE LMAOOOOO

namjoon: i do

y/n: he really got you like that

foul

i would of laughed if i was there

namjoon: i know

y/n: loud asf too

namjoon: i know babe

y/n: pls he really ate you up

lord i’m laughing now

namjoon: i figured

y/n: still love you tho 🤞🏽❤️

namjoon: love you too

was the soup in the fridge ?

y/n: no

namjoon: k i’ll order something when i get back ok ?

y/n: light it up like dynamite

YOONGI -

y/n: what if i had 1 hour to live and was going bald and my leg was broken and all my family was dying from cancer right now

yoongi: it’s 8am

y/n: what if

yoongi: it’s 8am

y/n: yoongi 🥺

yoongi: it is 8 am.

y/n: ok and i am gonna kms.

what now yoongi ? what now ??

yoongi: bye

y/n: what the frick bro

fuck you

you’re an opp fr

can’t trust anyone

not a soul not even your own bf

this is so sad

all they ever do is leave you in the dirt

this is what fame does to people

man this is so sad

all this money gets to them fr fr

i can’t believe it

you switched like a pussy lil bitch 💔🗣🙏��

agust d too famous for me 😓😓

omg am i the next rap monster but actually black ????

you should get them braids again bae 😍

could be twins

nvm i don’t like you forgot

suga flopped ����‼️

bts disband

skz outsold bts 🗣🗣🗣🗣

felix should replace suga 💯

agust d a flop 🙄

cyphers ain’t even that good

suga old asf

yoongi: i am trying

y/n: omg hey bae 😍😍❤️🥵🥰

yoongi: to sleep

y/n: without me 😩⁉️

yoongi: yes

y/n: omw to america rn btw like fr fr no joke /thisisnotajokeimbeingfr

yoongi: i know

y/n: i can tell you’re so excited ur so cute love you 💞

yoongi: yeah.

going to sleep now.

y/n: rest up bro ‼️‼️‼️

see you soon g 🥱🤞🏽

HOSEOK -

y/n: i had a dream you violently slammed me into a pile of bricks

you had me by the throat

hobi: my fault

y/n: my back is broken now

hobi: sorry

y/n: it’s ok i forgive you

hobi: thank you

y/n: just don’t do it again

hobi: i promise i won’t

y/n: don’t let me down

hobi: ok

y/n: we are in love

hobi: true

y/n: cool

hobi: went into a cake shop today

y/n: what did it smell like

hobi: roses

y/n: interesting

hobi: got a small cake with a strawberry on top

y/n: photo ?

hobi: i dropped it

y/n: oh

hobi: i took a picture of it on the floor tho do you want to see ?

y/n: please

TAEHYUNG -

tae: hiiii

y/n: saw a trumpet on the tv made me think about how shit you sound playing it

tae: fuck you i’ll be great one day

y/n: i take it back ur hot

tae: fanks

y/n: we can get matching trumpets

can we put like sequins on them or will that fuck up the sound or something?

tae: idk

y/n: you should

tae: can we drink tn?

y/n: we can make a lil marching band 🥺🥺🥺

tae: also can we not invite jin this time want it to just be us

y/n: we should learn how to play dynamite

tae: and we are gonna eat yesterday’s leftovers

y/n: but if i see your fucking feet out one time today marching band dreams will come to an end ok ?

tae: but idk if i’m really feeling leftovers yk???

y/n: make sure them dogs are LOCKED away

tae: yeah idk i’ll wait until it’s time to eat then i’ll decide

y/n: what ?

tae: huh?

why are you talking about my feet

y/n: they’re scary 😟

tae: i feel like we’re on the completely different pages rn

JUNGKOOK -

jk: what if i was spiderman ?

y/n: that would be hot

jk: yeah

y/n: why aren’t you spiderman?

jk: racism.

y/n: valid

jk: do you still think i’m hot even tho i’m not spiderman?

y/n: i guess

jk: thanks

y/n: yw

jk: sorry i’m not at my full potential

y/n: i forgive you

jk: ok

y/n: ok

jk: bought a rock today

y/n: a shiny one ?

jk: no

y/n: like just a normal one ?

jk: yeah

y/n: nice.

jk: ikr

y/n: how much was it?

jk: 4k

y/n: what

jk: 4,000

y/n: jungkook

jk: yeah

y/n: what the fuck

jk: the rock seller was very convincing

y/n: can you return it ?

jk: no

y/n: what does the rock do

jk: sit ?

y/n: oh

jk: i’m gonna draw a face on it

y/n: i think i’m gonna take your card for a bit

jk: oh

y/n: yeah

jk: did i do something wrong ?

JIMIN -

jimin: watched 10 fancams of myself today

y/n: watched 10 of v

jimin: go fuck him then ???

y/n: might do that

jimin: no don’t it was a joke /j /j /j /j

y/n: don’t joke like that got my hopes up for nothing 😔💔

jimin: you would never

y/n: try me

jimin: you make me sick

y/n: 🤞🏽🤞🏽

jimin: you make me hard

y/n: i would hope so

jimin: yeah

y/n: yeah

jimin: i’m in our room

y/n: ok

jimin: just thinking

y/n: nice to know your brain still does that

jimin: you ruined it

y/n: my bad bro 🙏🏽

jimin: bro ???

y/n: bestie ?

jimin: ur so annoying

y/n: i’ll try better myself for you jimin 😔

jimin: you cant

you’re too lost

y/n: find me jimin 🥺🥺

pls find me 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

jimin: i’ll try

y/n: that’s so hot 🤤🥵❤️‼️💯

[daikushiji]

hi! i like your "i'm gonna marry this man" with oikawa, suna, and iwaizumi ❤️ can i request the same for tsukishima, osamu, and kita?? 😳👉🏻👈🏻

“I’m gonna marry this man” (pt. 2)

pairings: tsukishima x reader, osamu x reader, kita x reader

a/n: hellooo bby and thank you!!! i hope you gonna like this one too <33

[part 1 and part 3 here!!]

Tsukishima Kei

we all have to thank noya for this one

he was wandering around the school thinking about some new ideas for a tiktok

when he saw you two acting all lovey dovey by the vending machines

you once told tsukki your favourite snack and now he always buys it for you before leaving to go to practice

honestly he knows all your favourite things like the back of his hand

will he ever admit that he’s actually so whipped for you? ofc no

but still there he is offering you the drink that you like so much before you could even say that you’re thirsty

as you drink it, a silent giggle escapes his mouth

with a starstruck look on his face, he reaches out a hand to tuck in a strand of hair behind your ear

and when you look up, his gaze is already on your figure, eyes softening when they meet yours

seeing you smile at him, he feels his heart pounding like never before

and he wants to tell you about it, but he remains silent, just wondering how lucky he was to have met you

needless to say you’re pretty surprised to see the video noya posted where he calls you two a married couple

thinking that it's better to not tell anything to tsukki, you just brush it off

but the first thing you see at school the next morning is your boyfriend charging towards noya 

”what are you doing?”

”i’m gonna delete that dumb video”

”why? you don’t want the world to know how much you love me?”

your teasing tone has him turning his head to the other side to finally face you

amused by his flustered expression, you pull his glasses down

and kiss the indent marked between his eyes, just to see his cheeks getting even more red

Miya Osamu

he videocalls you all the time, especially just to annoy you with the dumbest questions ever

(he’s so glad you can’t hit him through the screen)

”samu?”

”is cereal a soup?”

”bye”

and right after you hang up, he sends you a full paragraph explaining what he thinks

osamu loves to cook or clean on facetime with you because it feels really domestic

he will randomly start drawing doodles around you and then take pictures to set them as his wallpaper 

you often catch him staring at you, but he always plays it off saying he was frozen because your wifi sucks

you make him feel so at ease that the two of you can even just do your own things in silence while on facetime 

and it’s never awkward because you both love being in the company of one another

but his favourite type of calls are when you two fall asleep together

he usually calls while you’re getting ready for bed to chat

and then spending the rest of the night either having deep conversations or taking random screenshots of the other doing weird crap 

no wonder you have so many photos of him sleeping saved on your camera roll

he looks just so adorable with his mouth slightly open and his head sinking in the pillow

so you post some of those saying that the biggest flex of your future husband is being a pretty sleeper

as you two are chilling on the couch, osamu gets a text from his twin

”eew so this is what i look like when i sleep?”

he doesn’t even pay attention to the tiktok, his eyes are fixed on one particular word in the caption

”husband?”

dying of embarrassment, you try to escape his embrace

but he stops you pressing his lips to the corner of your mouth

with his hair brushing your face, you feel him smiling into the kiss

then two arms wrap tightly around you, as he buries his face into your shoulder

”can’t wait for you calling me that”

Kita Shinsuke

he always has his hand on or near you

walking you home, he holds your hand the entire way

when the school halls get crowded, his hand rests on the small of your back to guide you

going out to eat, he wants to sit beside you and not in front of you because he needs to lace your pinkies together under the table

when you two are studying together, he will touch you with either his elbow or his knee the entire time

and then randomly take your hand in his to press them up to his warm cheek 

he’s almost always tracing his fingers across your arm or down your back

and most of the time he’s not even aware that he does it because the feeling of your skin under his fingertips just feel so natural to him

you love to record these lovely moments between you two and sometimes you even post them on tiktok

“i guess that now you’re their boyfriend as well”

pressed into his chest, you’re reading to him some funny comments that your followers left under the videos with him

he chuckles softly, as he keeps smoothing your hair back to press his lips to your temple

then cupping your jaw, he gently tilts your head towards him

“sorry but i’ve already decided to spend the rest of my life only with you”

you nuzzle into his hand, leaving a quick kiss on his palm

“do you think we will get married one day?”

dragging some lazy pecks down to your ear, he engulfs you into a desperate hug

“well i’m gonna ask you for sure, i just hope you’ll say yes”

[that-one-weeb-buts-its-the-main]

Paintings | Xiao

This got really long but I liked it

Genshin Impact Masterlist ♤♤ "here's the dump"

Xiao watched as he sat on a rock. Y/n painting the scene of night infront of them a lantern by her side.

The Wangshu Inn painting almost complete. How she did it he'd never know.

"Who is that," Xiao questioned looking at the small person standing off into the distance on top of the building, holding their hand out and hovering above their palm a star.

"It's you," Y/n responded.

Xiao kept quiet, Y/n making the last few details to the painting before finishing it off with her small little signature at the bottom corner.

"Alright!" Y/n smiled, "it should be dry in a few it is a bit chilly after all."

She started putting her things away in her art satchel and once she was cleaned up she pulled out a small handheld sketchbook. That was something Xiao was never allowed to look into, and he never knew why, but he allowed it. After all, he was a guest in her space. The two couldn't even be considered friends after all.

Xiao had found her one day in the woods, in a hillcurls camp no less. Luckily no abyss mages around. They surrounded her hanging off her back and arm as they watched her there camp.

Y/n smiled as they cheered the ones standing cheering in a circle causing Y/n to chuckle. It was odd seeing such creatures so passive and around a human no less.  Yet they scurried off at the sight of Xiao. Y/n turning her head he found himself hiding quickly behind the trees. His eyes watched her's which scanned the land in wonder but soon returned to her painting, and Hilcurls slowly made their way back to Y/n, finding their previous spots. Y/n finishing the painting up with the last details in their mask. They go back to cheering and even dragging her over to eat with them while the painting dries. They handed her wild fruits, seeds, and nuts. They happily ate together until Y/n had to leave packing up and waving to her new little friends goodbye. She walked through the forest painting in her arms and satchel around her chest.

Xiao would continue to follow her and watch her paint from afar, slowly growing closer each time. Until Y/n had offered him to join her. He now often watches from behind her sat on a rock or log as she paints the scenery in front of her. 

Xiao looked at the painting she had just finished, returning to the present in the process. Y/n still sketching the newest thing in her book. The leather cover is worn through well from her travels. Yet she closed it and started to finish putting her stuff away once again. 

"Are you hungry?" She questioned.

"No." He spoke.

"Okay then," Y/n said, "Im gonna head back, get somethin to snack on."

Xiao watched as she folded up the easel slipping it in her bag even if it stuck out a litte bit. Touching the canvas carefully it was semi dry; tacky to the touch.

She muttered her something to herself and picked up the canvas carefully by the back post.

"Bye then." Y/n spoke, walking off to her home leaving the lantern for Xiao.

He picked up the lantern, following her steps from a far. She followed the path easily, she had taken it multiple times.

"You can come up here if you wish." Y/n spoke stopping in her steps and looking back at him.

Xiao stopped as well. No response to her words. He hoped to stay far away. Not close. Figuring if he got to close she'd blow away with the wind like the petals to a cherry blossom tree.

"Come on." Y/n spoke gesturing for him to come closer.

His feet listened to her, walking up besides her in silence.

"What do you like to eat?" Y/n questioned.

He didn't respond again, he had gotten to close already.

"Perhaps some Miso soup would be nice." Y/n spoke.

"Almond Tofu..." Xiao responded quietly.

"Almond Tofu?" Y/n spoke, "yeah I can do that."

It was silent the rest of the way to her home, she opening the door and two dogs running out in excitement.

"Hey babies!" She cheered careful of the painting. They spinning in circles and tails going a mile a mintue.

"I missed you too! Aw!" Y/n cheered thet barking in response as she walked in the door, the two following, "please! Make yourself at home! Sorry its a mess!"

The dogs ran back to Xiao, sniffing his feet and legs checking him out as they barked at him.

"Shh." Xiao shushed.

The dogs still barking at him, "no. Shh shh!"

The dogs barks only grew louder.

"Hey! Stop it!" Y/n shouted the dogs running off and jumping onto the near by couch.

Y/n returned shortly a hoodie and some sweats in hand.

"These might fit you if you want to relax." Y/n told him, he still standing there akwardly in the center of her living room as he held the lantern.

Walking up she took the lantern then handed him the set of chlothing.

"I don't-"

"I have some soba took if you want that with your Almond Tofu." Y/n spoke pushing the chlothes to Xiao's chest, "relax okay?"

"But I-"

"How many bowl of tofu you want? Hm? I can make a bunch." Y/n smiled, refusing to let Xiao not have a break.

It was silent for a long moment.

"Three...." he responded quietly.

"Three it is!" Y/n cheered, "there's a bathroom just round the corner. Go change. You like tea?"

Xiao nodded, Y/n smiled, "I'll be back then."

With that she left, he going to the bathroom as instructed. He looked at the walls filled with pictures. Large groups of people at a time. Y/n in all of them, happily hugging someone or smiling. She seemed so happy. Finding the bathroom he walked in, diffrent jars with dried paint filled with paint brushes, brush up sat drying. With tacky wallpaper. He pulled his chlothes off, folding them in a stack as he pulled the sweats on, pulling the hoodie on after words. He had no idea what he was doing an at the end of dressing he had put the large hoodie on backwards he confused on why there was the extra cloth but walked out with his chlothes in his arms. His feet feeling chilly from the cold wood floor. He had accidentally wattled his way into the kitchen. She busy getting the dog food ready and placing them on the floor they both happily eating and she washing her hands.

Turning her head she seen him standing there, smiling she dried her hands and walked over.

"You have this one on backwards. Let me help." Y/n spoke.

The chlothes were gently taken from him, and set on the counter.

"Do you mind if I help you?"

He shook his head no, she smiling.

"Here pull your arms out." Y/n told him.

She watched him struggle to pull his arms out, "here I'll help."

She helped him slip his arms out he following her orders as she pulled the hoodie to face the right way.

"Better?"

He nodded as he put his arms in, now feeling much more comfortable.

"Feel free to explore. Nothings off limits." Y/n told him, "you can learn a bit about me now. And then at dinner you can tell me all about yourself hm?"

"My...self?" He questioned Y/n with a smile nodded going to return to cooking leaving Xiao to explore.

He did as he was ordered. His "exploring" taking him down the same hall filled with pictures and paintings. Yet this time he contuined down past the bathroom. Finding a few doors. The first he opened was her room which he immediately closed. His face a bright red once he realized what it was with a short glance.

The second one he found himself more invited in. Her studio room, walking in carefully he looked around.

What a room of chaos. Paint everywhere, both in and out of tubes. Brushes, jars of water. Tarps covering what he assumed was her canvases, both painted and waiting for that splash of color. He looked up at the walls covered in sketches and reference images taped to the original peices.

She had a wall covered in portraits which drew him in the most. He had realized some of them, such as the traveller, and his companion. Some of the Lyuie gods were drawn, he figured she had refrences them from books or ancient carvings. All impressive yes, yet one section caught his eye. Drawings of him, most likely refrences from when he sat with her in silence. Drawings of his hands and tattoos covered diffrent pages, and as he grew closure to the center they got more detailed, more him: drawings that were just his hands soon turned into his face. All holding the same, no existant expression of solitutde.

There was a soft meow as he turned his head, a cat sitting on the open windowsill. Tiliting its head to the side as Xiao copies the motion, the cat having big green eyes as it mewowed. Dropping down to the wooden floor and strolling over to Xiao rubbing its head on his leg.

"Xiao!? I finished!" Y/n called as the dogs rushed into the art room, Xiao scooping up the cat at lighting speed, the dogs barked up at the cat.

"Hey! What did I tell you guys!" She argued, "get in here! And bring Sunny if shes in there!"

The dogs sat down looking at Xiao, the cat jumping out of his arms as one of the dogs picked her up by the back of her neck they rushing away. Xiao following the animals back into the kitchen, Y/n setting a bowl of fish down and the dogs setting the cat down she quickly went over to eat.

Xiao was handed two bowls, he following her lead to her small nook with windows on all sides. She set her bowls down he doing the same, sitting down he expected her to follow but she left. Returning with a tea pot and cups.

"Sakura tea." Y/n spoke with a smile setting a cup down infront of him and pouring the pink liquid.

He watched as the scent filled his nose. It was sweet and welcoming. He didn't remember much about that dinner, he knew the food tasted amazing, but he was focused on her. Her smile as he told her whatever she asked, it was bad.

This was bad. His amber eyes so focused on her smile, she alll ears, and his mouth ran. It ran for miles, he saying things he never should of told her about: he an adapti, he knew Morax, he knew the other adapti, he spilled it all out. Just to get closer to her. To just touch her hand.

How bad this was.

"You sound like you have the quiet handful." Y/n chuckled, "I suppose I should thank you for protecting me without even knowing, so in return anything you want I can get you."

Anything?

Xiao was quiet as he started to finish off the last of his Almond Tofu.

"Hey. I don't know if Adapti sleep. But." Y/n smiled, "wanna stay here for the night?"

Xiao stopped eating, "I...sleep in the same bed as you?"

"Ah well." She spoke rubbing the nape of her neck, her face turning red, "I have a spare bedroom...though if you wanted my bed I usually sleep in my art room."

It was silent, Y/n lifting the cup of tea to her lips. Eyeing Xiao as she did.

"I can tell you don't spend time with people much." Y/n told him setting the cup down, "A bit rough for words?"

Xiao nodding both in thought and answer, causing Y/n to smile.

"That's alright. The only time I talk to anyone human is if Im making a sale. People aren't exactly my thing." She spoke.

"The drawings on the wall?"

"From a distance, picture wise they were mostly forced upon me. But if I do have anyone over I'd like them to think Im not such a loner with a hord of animals." She joked, "truth be told I think your the only human Friend I ever had. You know. And the only adapti friend. Think its one of the reasons I've been able to draw you so much."

Xiao sipped his tea, she just openly admited it? Like it was no big deal.

"Do. Do I only make one expression?" He questioned.

"Ah. I didn't mean it in a bad way. Sorry." Y/n apologized, "honestly, like I said, your the only friend I've really had, you stick around giving me more opportunities."

"And the Hillcurls? Ruin Gaurds?" He questioned.

"Well I helped a Hillcurl from drowning one time. Only a child Im supposing since then all those guys have been sticken around. Sometimes. I open my door and there's a group of them holding things they stolen, they've tried to give me." Y/n told him, "I always give it back to the owner. Or give it to local authorities. Just drop it off in crates infront of there place of bussniess."

"It has vaule. Why don't you sell it?" Xiao questioned, "Humans like mora."

"Mora has no use to me really. I have my own garden, built my own home from scratch. I know how to fish, boil water. I make my own paints, my own canvas." Y/n told him, "I have no reason for Mora. I just take it to be nice. I have Mora all the way from my first painting actually."

"Then why keep it around?"

Y/n shurgged, "Maybe it makes my house just feels fuller. It's not very warm though."

Y/n kept her gaze on the small pool of syrup at the bottom of her almond tofu bowl. Then looked up at him, "say."

He raised his eyebrows in question.

"Let me paint you one day." Y/n spoke, "a big peice. I know a cherry blossom tree that stays pink year round."

"Me?" Xiao spoke.

Y/n nodded, "Yeah. It'd be a nice little picnic. I can make some more almond tofu, I seen you ate all of it."

Xiao flushed looking down at his clean bowl, syurp and all gone, the bowl itself might as well as be clean.

"Whattya say?" Y/n smiled, "A win win right?"

Xiao could only nod in response, he truly had no idea what he was getting into and neither did Y/n.

He had no idea what it would grow into what it did. What did it grow into? Well, Y/n had started off with the simple painting of Xiao under the cherry tree, she was quick at capturing poses, he holding a cherry blossom in hand. Looking at it blankly. She happily submitted it to a Lyuie art show, for fun. Nothing expected out of it. Yet it hit town hard, people echanted by a beatiful man holding a beautiful petal.

Y/n or Xiao didn't get much wind of it they both locked away in her humble abode with smiles starting to grow on each other's face. The next one hit Monstat pretty hard as well. Xiao looking frustrated as he attempted to paint, the cat rest on his shoulders as he did.

She was a faceless name, popularity growing to her name without her even knowing. Slowly everything started to get even more personal, her emotions and paintings included. She couldn't help but feel Xiao tug at her heart every time there was a sleepy good morning fall from his lips. Or a "what's this page about today?'

She loved every moment of it. Paintings grew from just random ideas to daily life, petting dogs, gardening, swinging on a hammock.

Yet at the same time she hated it. How lonely he looked in all them, despite an animal or a line of sight directed towards the audience showing that they were ment to be involved too.

It made her lonely.

Xiao walked into her art studio, cups of tea in hand.

"What's this one today?' He questioned kissing her temple as he found his spot next to her on the bench.

"Some fruit."

Xiao frowned, Fruit? She hated painting, drawing, sketching, shading fruit. With a passion. She never explained why but he knew she didn't like it.

Taking a sip of tea which was handed to her he looked at the blank canvas. She always envisioned her paintings before doing one.

"How come you never paint you?" He questioned.

"You're awful talktive today," Y/n spoke bluntly, realizing her tone she apologized quickly, "Sorry, just. Lost right now."

"Should I come find you?" Xiao questioned drinkimg his teas as Y/n laughed.

"Maybe I need a bit of finding." Y/n spoke.

He smiled smally, leaning over and kissed her on the lips softly, she slowly kissing back.

Slolwy they pulled away Y/n smiling at him as he rubbed her bottom lip.

"I found you." Xiao smiled.

She laughed, snorting a bit as she covered her mouth in reaponse. He covered his mouth.

"Are. Are you laughing at me?" She protested he shaking his head trying not to laugh.

She smiled deviously, "You're laughing because I snorted!?"

He nodded his head not being able to keep a lie and let out a laugh, Y/n smiling at the sound of it.

"Well I know exactly what Im gonna paint now." Y/n protested.

"Yeah? Lets hope it's not a bowl of fruit." He spoke.

"And you're gonna help me."

"Oh really?" He spoke, Y/n with a chuckle leaned over kissing him hard, he smiling kissing back.

The next painting submitted to Mondstat's newest art show was a painting of him in her in the background. Framing the painting was her art room, and a bowl of fruit in the right hand corner.

Signed Y/n and X in the corner.