#guanyin temple scene

[wangxianficrecs]

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by justdoityoufucker (orphan_account)

T, 2k, Wangxian

Summary: Wen Ning doesn’t hear everything, not at first. He can tell that Lan Xichen and Jin Guangyao are speaking, within the temple complex, but he cannot get the specifics of what the men are saying until he presses himself closer to the rear walls. - Or, Wen Ning listens in. Kay's comments: What I love about Wen Ning as a character is that he's literally a sweet cinnamon roll, too good for this world too pure, but if you mess with Wei Wuxian, you should sleep with one eye open. Relateable king. In this story, it's Lan Xichen who messes with Wei Wuxian and Wen Ning is around to hear it aka the character assassination of Lan Xichen we all deserved. Also, rest in pieces Jin Guangyao. Also, also, another Wen Ning hit against Jiang Cheng that just hits right. Excerpt: “With the ways in which he looked and talked to you when he saved you and hid you in that cave, even someone who was blind or deaf could perceive his feelings, which was why my uncle was in such anger. Wangji was a model for the disciples when he was young, and a prominent cultivator when he grew up. In his whole life he had been honest and righteous and immaculate—you were the only mistake he made! And you say—and you say you do not know. Wei-gongzi, after you returned like this, how did you pester him and confess to him? Every night…every night, you had to—and you say you do not know? If you did not know, why did you do such things?” Suddenly, Wen Ning cannot continue to stand idly by. That Lan-zongzhu would blame Wei-gongzi for Lan-er-gongzi's actions— —oh, he has only felt this angry twice, the first when they killed a-jie in front of him, the second only the night before when Jiang Wanyin also had the audacity to blame Wei-gongzi for things he could not control.

pov wen ning, canon divergence, guanyin temple scene, bamf wen ning, protective wen ning, good friend wen ning, love confessions, pov outsider on lan wangji/wei wuxian

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[petirrojo57]

One of my absolute favorite moments in the shitshow that is the Guanyin Temple showdown in The Untamed is when Yubin in full Wen Ning doesn’t give a shit because he’s dealing with an angry Baxia is so focused that he doesn’t even look to step over the severed (prop) arm of Jin Guangyao. And yet, and yet, just seconds before in a prior long shot it is not in the way.

Can we all accept that Wen Ning subconsciously/consciously did a little sidestep to stomp on it and not think of it as a continuity error?

[dimpledlianfang]

A tiny sketch based on Jiggy's manhua hairstyle.

The hairstyle under the hat🌟

Hair reference 👇👇👇

[benevolenterrancy]

finally in the process of reading the Guanyin Temple scene and holy shit if WWX isn't the protagonist of all time. We're in the Big Final Confrontation and so far my man has done fuck all except cuddle in LWJ's lap while everyone else is losing their shit and when he DOES finally do something he summons an army of naked, writhing, moaning sex corpses that even his allies just desperately wish Were Not There. stupendous, no notes

[melonnade]

joked about this a while back and finally decided to make an edit

[waitineedaname]

the great thing about the yunmeng bros is that the hits just don't stop coming. every time they reach a low point and you're like "wow, it really can't get worse than this," they somehow find a way to make things more painful

[piosplayhouse]

I'm just like shen yuan except insteadof knowing about worldbuilding I just have an encyclopedic knowledge of every time a character has an emotional breakdown

[jaimebluesq]

3 things I feel you wouldn't write-

a fix it!... for Jin Guangshan (as in what he would consider to be a fix it)

nhs and jgy agreeing to let bygones be bygones (no for realsies, nobody else quite believes it either)

NHS as a bad Xuanwu owner :-(

Okay, so I chose #2 and I thought this would be simple, but 2k words later... yeah, I have thoughts!!!!! Let's see if Tumblr has a word limit lol.

If anyone would rather read it on AO3, I've put it there as well - Burying the hatchet, Yunping style

Now for the main event:

Burying the hatchet, Yunping style

The lightning flashed outside Guanyin Temple and a chill ran through the room. Jiang Cheng glared at Jin Guangyao from where he was huddled over his nephew's trembling form. Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji's hands were gripped so tightly they were white at the knuckles. Lan Xichen's disbelieving eyes followed Jin Guangyao's progress as he paced back and forth in the temple, muttering to himself.

Suddenly the temple doors opened to admit another cultivator. Su Minshan entered carrying an unconscious man in his arms, their bodies outlined by another flash of lightning. “I found someone else lurking nearby,” he announced as he entered and moved to drop the man on the floor.

“Be gentle,” Jin Guangyao instructed once he'd realized the man in Su Minshan's arms was Nie Huaisang. The pale-clothed cultivator nodded and eased Nie Huaisang to the floor gently. “He's always been so delicate.”

“Why don't you just let us go?” Jiang Cheng snapped. “Or are you waiting for every other sect leader in the area to make an appearance.”

Jin Guangyao ignored him and motioned to the open door, and Su Minshan moved to close it.

“I still don't understand,” Lan Xichen said mournfully. “How could you do what you've been accused of? Why would you hurt Da-ge like that?”

“Do you think I wanted to?” Jin Guangyao turned to Lan Xichen with a mournful look of his own. “Do you think I wanted to take his life? But there was no other way-”

“There is <i>always</i> another way,” Lan Xichen insisted.

Jin Guangyao sighed and knelt next to his sworn brother. “You and I both know Da-ge was going to die anyway. His qi deviations were getting worse and worse before I ever started playing for him. I gave him a merciful death-”

“How is a fatal qi deviation merciful?”

“It is when my father was ready to hire an assassin to take him out if I didn't.” Jin Guangyao reached out to touch Lan Xichen's hand but was immediately rebuffed. “And he was. And you know my father – he didn't care about how efficient or ethical the assassins would be, he'd only want the job done. And we both know how unkind the cheaper assassins can be. This was the only way I could end his life with any ease or dignity. And without the threat of assassins or outside political influence, it meant A-Sang's cousins were less likely to conduct a coup to overtake him.”

Lan Xichen shook his head. “You still act like you care for him, when you murdered his brother? The only family he had left alive?”

“But he hasn't been alone,” Jin Guangyao insisted. “He's had <i>us</i>. It's what Da-ge would have wanted.”

The eyes in the room were so focused on the confrontation that they didn't notice Nie Huaisang slowly sitting up and turning his eyes to Jin Guangyao. A tear trailed down from the centre of his right eye and he reached up to brush it away. Finally he could stay still no longer, and he got unsteadily up onto his feet.

“Is it true?” Nie Huaisang finally muttered aloud, drawing every other pair of eyes in the room.

“Don't listen to him, Nie-xiong,” Wei Wuxian warned.

“He's just going to lie to you like he has to everyone else,” Jiang Cheng scolded.

Lan Xichen merely looked up at Nie Huaisang with pity.

“What part?” Jin Guangyao said, and it was as if in a single moment, his mask was dropped. “Ask, and I'll answer.”

“All of it?” Nie Huaisang took a step forward. “About Da-ge dying before you ever played. About Jin Guangshan-”

“Yes, all of it,” Jin Guangyao nodded.

“Then why didn't you kill him instead of Da-ge?” Nie Huaisang's voice shook almost as much as his hands.

Jin Guangyao stepped forward to meet Nie Huaisang in the middle of the temple chamber, reaching out to take the other man by the shoulders. “I couldn't, he didn't trust me enough – I couldn't get close enough to make it happen,” he explained. “The only reason I was able to take him out when I did was because Da-ge's death proved to him that I was trustworthy.”

Nie Huaisang opened his mouth to speak, but was interrupted.

“More lies,” Jiang Cheng huffed.

“Mn,” Lan Wangji agreed.

“That's a lot of dead bodies for something that isn't your fault,” Wei Wuxian commented, twirling his dizi around the fingers of his free hand.

“Stop confusing him, Guangyao,” Lan Xichen shook his head. “You know how he gets.”

Jin Guangyao shot a glare at the others. “The only one in this room who deserves to confront me over any of this is A-Sang. I promised him truth – and only him – and I will give it. It's what I owe him.” He returned his attention to the man before him. “What else do you want to know?”

“Da-ge's head – why did you keep it?”

“Part of it was because of the resentful energy around it. I had all of Wei Wuxian's papers, and it was originally my hope that I could find a way to disperse it, so that Da-ge could be at peace and be reborn. But when that failed, I... missed him, and having him close helped me keep my eyes open about the truth of what I've done to get where I am. I wanted to make certain that his and my father's deaths were the last ones I would ever be responsible for.”

“And Rusong?”

Jin Guangyao's expression took on a note of grief. “I had nothing to do with that. I know it looks convenient considering the truth about me and A-Su, but I swear I would never have hurt my son. You must know that.”

Nie Huaisang nodded. The others in the temple began to speak but Jin Guangyao motioned to Su Minshan, who used the Lan silencing spell on them.

“I'm sorry about A-Su,” Nie Huaisang said softly, his shoulders straightening back in a way they hadn't since before Nie Mingjue's death. “I never wanted to see her take her own life.”

Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang looked into each others' eyes, and suddenly Jin Guangyao's blew wide open. “I've... played the mantis to your oriole, haven't I.” Nie Huaisang nodded. “And here I thought you were simply traumatized from Da-ge's death. I should have known better.”

“You should have. You knew me before then, San-ge.”

“I watched you capture how many birds for your collection? And never did I suspect you would try to capture me, too.”

The temple around them was silent with none daring to move – not even Su Minshan, who was the only other cultivator with his abilities unhindered and whose voice was unimpaired.

“How could I not? You killed my brother.”

“Understandable. When did you realize?”

“I wasn't even out of my white funeral robes,” Nie Huaisang shrugged. “I was upset and Er-ge played Clarity for me to help – and it wasn't the version I heard you play, though they were almost identical.”

Jin Guangyao gave a sad smile. “You always were more perceptive than anyone gave you credit for. I used to think I was the only one who saw it.”

Nie Huaisang returned the sad smile with one of his own. “You were. It's why I wanted to destroy you so utterly – because you'd betrayed me as well as Da-ge.”

“So Mo Xuanyu?”

“You remember the crush he used to have on me. He came to me after leaving Koi Tower and told me a few things. I couldn't keep him with me, it would have raised your suspicions, but I tried to keep in touch with him if only to make certain he didn't do anything rash. And when I found out he was determined to take his life, I tried to talk him out of it – but I admit I was in a bad way myself, overwhelmed and unable to see an end to this misery, and in no place to give him hope when I had none of my own. He made the decision in the end, said it was for the both of us – the only thing I did was make certain he told me when he would do it, and strongly suggest the one he should bring back.”

“You've always been loyal to those you consider friends.”

“And both Wei-xiong and Lan Wangji deserved a second chance.”

Jin Guangyao chuckled. “Ever the romantic.” He sighed and took his hands back after one final squeeze to Nie Huaisang's shoulders. “So, where do we go from here, A-Sang? We can't go back to where we used to be.”

Nie Huaisang tilted his head. “It's not completely irreparable. The situation with A-Su is more sympathetic than anything else, and killing Jin Guangshan was a public service. If I support some of your assertions about killing Da-ge and publicly proclaim my forgiveness, then who would dare speak against us? I'm the last Nie of my line, and my word is law in Qinghe.”

“You've been hiding your sect's strength these past ten years, haven't you,” Jin Guangyao accused respectfully. Nie Huaisang smiled. “Together, our sects do outnumber all the others combined. None could stand against us no matter what we state.”

“But the simpler and easier to believe, the better. And occasionally, truth is better than overly complicated lies”

“I did, however, encourage that siege of the burial mounds.”

“Because you thought the Yiling Patriarch to be a threat – which you now know to be wrong. And wasn't the one to do the actual sabotaging Su Minshan?”

Both of them turned their heads to the man in question, whose eyes widened comically. “You can't mean-”

“A scapegoat is a scapegoat,” Jin Guangyao sighed. “It would be more believable if he's dead and unable to argue our points.”

Nie Huaisang shook his head. “Hasn't there been more than enough blood on our hands, San-ge?”

Jin Guangyao nodded. “Remove the silencing spell from them, then gather your things and leave the country – I hear Dongying is pleasant at this time of year. You can use the plans I had in place for myself.”

“You can't be serious!” Su Minshan protested.

“May I?” Nie Huaisang asked Jin Guangyao, who nodded his assent. “I would do as San-ge said, Su-zongzhu, otherwise more people will hear about that little incident with the teahouse owner's daughter in Zhangde.”

Su Minshan's shoulders dropped in defeat. “Do I have enough time to settle my sect's affairs?”

“Of course,” Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang replied in unison.

Su Minshan grumbled, waved to disperse the silencing spell, and stomped out of the temple, allowing the door to bang shut behind him.

“Now, as for the rest of you,” Jin Guangyao began as he looked over the remaining cultivators. “I hope we can leave this little incident behind us and continue being civil with one another.” His response was stunned silence.

“I'm certain we can all manage that,” Nie Huaisang encouraged. “And now that A-Su is no longer with us, you can remarry as you wish – preferably someone not of Jin Guangshan's lineage-”

“Of course.”

“-and even though you have my forgiveness, San-ge, it may take some a little longer. It might be best for Jin Ling to return to Yunmeng with Jiang-xiong. In fact, he would never have spoken it aloud, but I've always thought he secretly wished to keep his nephew with him and make him his heir. That would certainly go a long way toward ensuring civility between sects.”

“It makes perfect sense.” Jin Guangyao gave a sad smile to Jin Ling. “I have done things I'm not proud of, and it will take time for me to earn back my nephew's trust. But I do love him, and hope that one day we can move on from this little hiccup.”

Nie Huaisang nodded. “Well, with that settled... I'm feeling a little peckish. That bakery here in Yunping, the one with the amazing pork buns-”

Jin Guangyao grinned. “Yes, it's still open at this time of night. They like to cater to the late crowd.”

“Then shall we?”

“We shall.”

Jin Guangyao and Nie Huaisang linked arms and exited the temple.

For a moment there was nothing but silence, then Jiang Cheng and Wei Wuxian looked at one another.

“What the fuck just happened?!?!” they chorused, their perplexed voices echoing throughout the temple's chamber.

[louscribbles]

cannot be anyone but you...!

[guqin-and-flute]

I sincerely apologize to Mr. Liu Haikuan for looking at some of these upshots of Xichen and my only thought being "tiddies<3' 😔

[skalidris]

I think one of the things I'd like most about an lxc pov would be the flip to a different kind of unreliable narrator. He is full of love and kindness and chances, but also its constantly at war with his desire to follow the teachings and rectify them with those urges when they don't gel. Reading someone jgy from lxc's perspective and getting gut punched even harder at the temple..... Oooh sweet tragedy

augh yeah... he's shaping himself and the rules against some ideal of love and kindness and chances for sure and that doesn't work well in the first place and then there's Everything That Happens

i'm not sure where i think the rectification, or maybe reconciliation, of those complicated things really happens--like, if he puts that need to make them gel on himself, on others, on some abstract fact, or... idk. that'd be one thing i'd be interested in seeing. my gut says he's not actually resolving those contradictions, and on purpose, but idk!!

..i'm also, personally, fond of lxc as a confident person ^^ i think there's a particular ... arrogance? (i don't know if that's an appropriate word here) to him that would make him an interesting comparison to wwx for sure

[leatherbookmark]

exr doesn’t have that, but when xy sees jgy fix his hat*, he asks “so what’s up with that?” 幸灾乐祸-ly. 幸灾乐祸 means “to enjoy other people’s misfortune; schadenfreude” and i love it

[dimpledlianfang]

Everyone have been drawing fierce corpse Jiggy lately. So here's mine.

(I always picture how he would look as a fierce corpse tho. But there weren't much content on that)

[lazycranberrydoodles]

its prosecutor jiang wanyin!!!! oh fuck!!! / gifs + au rambling below the cut / follow for more mdzs x aa crossover stuff :3

all the gifs i made (poses traced off franziska):

hes so similar to franziska when you think about it. theyre both deeply insecure tsundere adoptive younger sibling of successful main characters. who carry whips. something something edgeworth choosing death and wwx actually dying also

his share code is HWFEFF if you wanna use him in a trial! you can't share backgrounds but heres the scenery from the donghua i used.

the easiest way to put custom stuff into objection.lol is to send it in discord and then use the link from opening it in your browser :)

a whole lot of AU stuff

the art im making is for if mdzs was an ace attorney game, playing from WWX's POV to solve various mysteries/cases over the course of the plot. so this scene would be from turnabout goddess, which would loosely cover the dafan mountain mystery.

cases include:

Turnabout Revenge (Mo Manor, quick introductory first case)

Turnabout Goddess (Dafan mountain, the good times flashback)

Turnabout Saber (the man-eating castle (omg hiii nhs))

The Blind Turnabout (Yi City arc)

Turnabout Deviation (the Koi Tower conference, Empathy on NMJ ala turnabout memories or beginnings. opening cutscene is his qi deviation)

The Blood-Soaked Turnabout (second Burial Mounds siege, flashbacks: Xuanwu, Sunshot, YLLZ, Nightless City massacre)

Turnabout Lotus Seeds (testimony about JGY, tree scene, golden core reveal, bathtub scene. opening cutscene could be JGS' death but that would make it canon rather than ambiguous)

Turnabout Confession (Guanyin temple)

the problem with splitting novel!mdzs into turnabouts is that flashbacks are a huge chunk of the book but they don't have mysteries/ cases to solve so they've gotta be lumped together with present day stuff. imo? many of the flashbacks would likely have to be abridged so they could be retold ala DL-6, SL-9, or the fourth grade incident, where characters talk about it over some pieces of art. this is really difficult when theres a metric ton of unspoken, complex, and signifcant history between every character lmao

there's not as much of a problem with the cql timeline but i have not finished it. so.

the opening cutscenes in ace attorney always show the murder and/or the murderer plotting. the first cutscene of the game would be MXY summoning WWX, muttering about getting revenge on his family (it would also be good for him to mention the yllz being dead because that's how the novel starts.) cut to WWX's POV as he wakes up covered in blood and the investigation segment begins.

for investigations of monsters (goddess, saber, etc) the cutscene would be a scene of some poor throwaway cultivator getting their shit wrecked.

it would be cool to make a breakdown for JGY but again I need to review that scene cause I don't know who I'd base him on. maybe Vasquez or Dahlia.

tell me your thoughts!! i'm working off of a mdzs summary/ skimming the novel because i don't remember it too well so if i get anything wrong please yell at me

Jin Ling's sprites & Nie Huaisang's sprites / masterpost

[khattikeri]

you ever wake up and think about nie huaisang's entirely off-screen journey?

(thirteen years.) do you think about how easy and yet nauseating it must've felt for nie huaisang to use his own childhood self as a mask? to maintain the appearance of a vapid child quick to run to others and whine instead of setting aside hobbies and trying to figure out how to work through responsibility?

(thirteen years.) what was he thinking? surely he didn't formulate everything to a tee in one sitting. how long had he taken until he was fully sinking into the balancing act of pretending he hadn't changed one bit in front of all the other clans, in front of his elder brother's close sworn brothers, while running the qinghe nie sect well enough behind the scenes to still maintain their unequivocal loyalty and respect?

(thirteen years.) do you think he hated himself now and then for becoming so quietly manipulative and focused on the ends over the means? looked at himself in the mirror at times and had to turn away because he saw a flicker of the one man he was trying to permanently unravel in revenge, the man his brother despised for always stooping to trickery?

(thirteen years.) how often did he get nightmares of qi deviations and being attacked, of that near-miss opportunity to save his older brother? the war and aftermath changed his school friends permanently and nie huaisang, in spite of his ability to worm his way out of things he didn't want to confront, was not an exception. how long until he got used to shoving his own squeamishness aside, accepting losses and violence and collateral damage and pain to other people for his own goals?

(thirteen years.) it drives me crazy. it drives me so damn crazy that mdzs is a story told from the perspective of wei wuxian. crazy that a few choice words and meaningful reactions at guanyin temple are the only reason we know even a fraction of what nie huaisang did over those years and why.

(thirteen years.) lan wangji and jiang wanyin were not the only ones who had to bear with the weight of time on their grief.

how many fans and paintbrushes can a person collect in thirteen years? (i don't know, i don't know, i don't know.)

[rejectedfables]

Lan Xichen is clearly shaken by what WWX and LWJ tell him about NMJ’s death after the discussion conference. He has doubts, he is concerned, and in response to this he decides to USE THE EVIL SPIRIT AFFECTING MUSIC ON HIMSELF to SEE IF IT HARMS HIM. 

(A normal and hinged thing to do)

(it harmed him)

If we use Nie Mingjue’s behavior as a metric for what this selection from the Collection of Spirit Turmoil does to a person, we can reasonably assume it causes or exacerbates at least SOME of the following:

Disrupts spiritual energy such that a person progresses towards qi deviation

Emotional instability

Violent outbursts

Prone to suspicion or paranoia

Nie Mingjue is already prone to literally all of these things, but they ARE also the things the seem notably exacerbated at the end of his life. Whether it was The Song itself or merely the proximity to qi deviation which caused/exacerbated these things, we cannot be sure, but as the latter is caused by the former, there is no functional difference.

In Guanyin Temple, very shortly after Lan Xichen would have used the song on himself, he is notably distressed, his faith in JGY is further shaken, and he’s manipulated by Huaisang into killing Jin Guangyao-- something that is both understandable in context AND clearly horrifies him for the rest of his life.

Given the circumstances (learning what he’s just learned about JGY’s involvement in NMJ’s death, and then learning everything else he does during this scene), he was going to be upset with Jin Guangyao regardless. He was going to have questions, he was going to have doubts. But I do think it’s WORTH REMEMBERING that this man had JUST used the same song ON HIMSELF that Jin Guangyao used to speed up/cause Nie Mingjue’s qi deviation and death. It provides additional context for his reactions, both within the scene and after it.

Lan Xichen has spent over a decade on the same page with Jin Guangyao about JGY’s motivations, goals, and often even the unfortunate but necessary methods he needed to use to achieve said goals. LXC is not NMJ; he absolutely understood that JGY going undercover during Sunshot involved killing some of their own people, and he understands that that was unfortunate but necessary. He understood JGY’s situation with his father, understood that JGY was not in a position to do anything about JGS’s decisions wrt Xue Yang, supported JGY through everything it took to make the watchtowers a reality. NMJ told LXC about JGY killing his superior officer, and LXC went “I’m sure he had a good reason” and just MOVED ON. He’s not under the impression that JGY has never hurt anyone, broken the rules, or committed a crime-- he just does not care, because he truly believes that JGY is a smart, capable, and well intentioned person and therefore those are things to be understood and compassionate about, rather than condemn and scorn him for. He may not have been aware of the extent of JGY’s crimes, but he didn’t feel like he NEEDED to be. He knew JGY, and that was enough.

Under normal circumstances, Lan Xichen’s wish when finding out something that upsets him (especially with regards to his friends), is clearly to talk about it. The greatest example is when Nie Mingjue loudly and repeatedly threatened Jin Guangyao’s life-- Lan Xichen wanted to talk it out. FOREVER, if need be. This is a man who understands that mitigating circumstances exist (especially when it comes to JGY) but solves problems with people he KNOWS with words.

So he finds out JGY killed NMJ, and his response is horror. And his solution to that horror is that he wants answers. He wants to talk about it. Why didn’t you tell me? If you felt you were backed into a corner, why didn’t you tell me that either?? Why didn’t you come to me??? TALK to me???? It could have all been delayed even longer solved if only--!!!

And yet, despite more than a decade of defending JGY in the face of an entire society blaming JGY for everything they could, in Guanyin Temple he’s swept up in the mood of the scene and condemns JGY with the rest. He knows JGY better than anyone else, but is made to doubt this. He’s left wondering if he ever knew the man at all, simply because he’s shown a new side of him.

And he responds to that feeling with violence.

He lives in a world and holds a position in said world that necessitates and normalizes violence, but he himself is not prone to it, especially with loved ones. Yet he doesn’t threaten to tie JGY up, magically mute him, have him tried for his crimes, nor does he SIMPLY react instinctively in perceived self defense-- it’s notable that he threatens death. While the circumstances are different, he does the same thing Nie Mingjue did (threaten JGY’s life), and I don’t think it’s irrelevant that he must be not entirely himself to get to that point.

In the Untamed, during the Guanyin Temple scene, he even slaps Jin Guangyao. And while I believe this is not canon to the book, I don’t personally think it’s out of character BECAUSE I think it’s a further nod to there being something wrong with him in this scene. 

And his actions in that temple is, again, something he struggles to grapple with and regrets for, as far as we know, the REST OF HIS LIFE. 

Right until the last moment, Guanyin Temple is a scene in which Lan Xichen is made to suspect that he’s never known Jin Guangyao at all, and Jin Guangyao is made to believe that he’s never mattered to Lan Xichen like Lan Xichen does to him. And in the very VERY end, when Lan Xichen chooses to die with him and Jin Guangyao doesn’t let him, they’re both shown that that doubt was unfounded. Jin Guangyao may be many things Lan Xichen was never willing or permitted to see, but he is also, fundamentally, everything Lan Xichen has known him to be. 

And Lan Xichen never, ever, wanted to harm Jin Guangyao