#hakim khan

[ancientfrozenglaciershark]

How the Doctor satisfies alien tastebuds on Earth, headcanons:)

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*Yaz in tears after kissing the Doctor, both having forgotten that the Doctor had just snacked on a handful of red pepper flakes*

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*The Khans watching her eat a whole lemon, peel and all, because she was ‘craving something sweet’*: O_O 0_0 o_o 0_0

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*Out at a Japanese restaurant* “And can we get a very large bowl of sliced ginger on the side please? Oh and like a cup of wasabi.”

“Um.. Sure.”

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Yaz: “This.. this mouthwash was full yesterday..”

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*Khans order some pizza* *Doctor rummaging through their cabinets looking for something to add on top* “You guys wouldn’t miss these candy canes from December, right?”

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Hakim: *Cooking* “Where did the paprika go? It was just here?”

Doctor: *Stirring her tea* “…You’re all out…”

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Najia: “How? Just… How?”

Doctor: “Oh.. I, uh, lost quite a few of my tastebuds in a.. Football incident!”

Najia and also the Doctor: 🤔🤔

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*After convincing the Fam to go trick or treating with her* *Negotiates hard, almost threateningly, for all of their sours*

[evviejo]

characters in the thirteenth doctor’s era: najia, hakim, & sonya khan and when you get back, you can tell me the truth about how you know the doctor.

[teaminstinctinwonderland]

While we're discussing the doctor in domestic bliss. How about Thirteen with the Khans? Trying to cook with Hakim while comparing conspiracy theories. Sharing stories of Susan with Umbreen. Sneaking off to Mars for a quick trip with Sonya.

[thirteensfavoritetoy]

(Hologram13 & Yaz are having tea with Yaz's family)

Hakim: Sorry ya can't actually...well, have tea with us, Doctor.

Hologram13: Oh that's alright.

(she raises her hand & a holographic cup of tea appears in it; she takes a sip, closing her eyes at the pleasurable taste & sensation)

Sonya: How didja do that?

Hologram13: Disgracefully.

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arachnids in the UK spoilers without context

[13thdoctorshitposts]

Thirteenth Doctor + Incorrect Quotes                                   ↳ 147/?

[buzdansermaye]

Ramadan Mubarak!

As we are less than two days away from Ramadan, here are some of the videos I have taken inspiration from while planning for the holy month:

Ramadan Prep 2024 | Dr. Omar Suleiman & Sh. Yaser Birjas

Ramadan Joy and Gaza Depression | Khutbah by Dr. Omar Suleiman

Fueling Your Faith: A Guide to Preparing for Ramadan | Dr. Omar Suleiman

How To Start Ramadan Right | Khutbah by Dr. Omar Suleiman

Preparing for Ramadan 2024 - Nouman Ali Khan, Live at NHIEC

What is Your Goal for Ramadan? Dr. Haifaa Younis | Mifftaah

Tahajjud: Waking Soul & Society | Ramadan Prep

Making Every Moment Count – Abdur Rahman ibn Yusuf Mangera

Get Ramadan Ready – Abdal Hakim Murad: Keynote Speech

[molkolsdal]

Spiritual Couplets (Masnavi) by Maulana Jalal al-Din Rumi

Kashmir, 24th December 1827

The sweet lyrics of Rumi are among the gems of world literature, and his Masnavi is one of the most well-known works of Islamic Sufism. This copy's small nasta'liq script, arranged in ornate horizontal and vertical verses and ornamented with vibrant blue and gold, was written by the scribe Ahmadallah, also called Hakim Masih al-Zaman, who was also the author of a medical treatise (Khulasat al-tibb).

[ajmalherbaldawakhana]

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[apnaran]

A Legacy of Healing: The Life and Contributions of Hakim Ajmal Khan

Hakim Ajmal Khan, a prominent Indian physician and philanthropist, was born on 11th July 1868 in Delhi and passed away on 29th December 1927. He was a man of multiple talents, not only was he a renowned Unani physician, but also an educationist, political leader, and a great social reformer. He is best remembered for his contributions to the field of medicine and for his role in establishing the…

[ancientfrozenglaciershark]

The Doctor loves sleepovers at the Khans! (Headcanons)

-It’s almost as if Yaz chooses to fall asleep during movies. And most of the rest of the Khans are nearly out by the end, but The Doctor and Umbreen have gotten to know each other in many long, late night conversations spoken softly over a sleeping Yaz in the Doctors lap

-Sonya walks in on Yaz brushing the Doctor's teeth for her because the Doctor's ‘hands are sleepy’

-The Doctor popping over to France and back to get some fancy wine to impress Hakim and Najia (not that she will drink any) And popping to Brazil for giant oranges for the absolute freshest juice for breakfast with the people she adores :)

-Najia: " -_- ... Ok. New rule. Only English words aloud in scrabble."

Doctor: "Oi.. But winning is so fun :( "

Yaz: "Yeah. You should let someone else experience it for once.."

Feel free to add on!

[companion-showdown]

Family Feud Nominations, Who is the Best Doctor Who Family

If I've missed a character out of one of the families let me know (within reason, I imagine all these families are massive in the EU, so prioritise tv or significant characters)

Currently, the only rule is no families may inculde anyone who is even ambiguously The Doctor, it'll get super complicated super fast imo

Any characters, eg River, who can link up multiple different families to create a single massive family unit will be treated on a case by case basis. If it is possible to pick one of the smaller family units that they are a part of to include them in while not including them in any of the others (in a way everyone will agree at least makes sense) they will be included in that family only, otherwise they will not be included

Please bare in mind when you are nominating that I am hoping to keep the number of nominations under 64 to run this as a mini-tournament. This is not a hard rule so if nominations do exceed 64 its not a big deal, just something I'd like everyone to bare in mind

Nominees

Foreman-Campbell (Susan, David, Alex)

Chesterton-Wright (Ian, Barbara, implied to be married after they leave)

McCrimmon (Jamie, Heather, V.M.McCrimmon, various others)

Waterfield (Victoria, Edward (father))

Lethbridge-Stewart (Kate, The Brigadier, Doris (Brig's wife in Battlefield), Archibald Hamish (TUAT), Gordon (Kate's son in Downtime))

Grant/Jones (Jo, Cliff, Santiago (Jo's grandson in Death of the Doctor))

Smith (Sarah-Jane, Lavinia (aunt), Brendan Richards, Luke, Sky, Mr Smith, K9 (they are her family and I will not be hearing otherwise), Barbara, Eddie (parents in Temptation of Sarah-Jane Smith))

Leela, Andred, Veega, Rayo

Adric and Varsh (brothers)

Nyssa, Tremas, and Kassia (daughter, father, step-mother)

Jovanka (Tegan, Vanessa (aunt in Logopolis), Colin (cousin in Arc of Infinity))

Turlough (Vislor, Malkon (brother in Planet of Fire))

McShane (Ace, Audrey (mother), Kathleen (grandmother), Liam (brother))

Tyler (Rose, Jackie, Pete, Tony (baby mentioned in Journey's End), no I will not be adding the metacrisis to this list)

Another Smith (Mickey, Rita (grandmother))

Slitheen

Harkness (Jack, Grey, parents, Alice Carter (daughter), Steven Carter(grandson))

Isolas (Fear Her)

Jones (Martha, Francine, Clive, Tish, Leo, Leo has a baby as well, Adeola Oshodi)

The Family of Blood

Mott-Noble-Temple (Donna, Sylvia, Wilf, Shaun, Rose)

The Adipose

Pond-Williams (Amy, Rory, River, Brian, Anthony, Amy's aunt and parents)

Owens: (Craig, Sophie, Stormageddon Dark Lord of All)

Gillyflower (Mrs Gillyflower, Ada)

Paternoster (Jenny, Vastra)

Oswald (Clara, Ellie, Dave (parents), grandmother, and I'm going to say Danny makes the cut, Orson)

Potts (Bill, Mother, Moira (foster mother))

O'Brien-Sinclair (Graham, Ryan, Grace, Aaron (Ryan's father))

Khan (Yaz, Najia (mother), Hakim (father), Sonya (sister), Umbreen (grandmother))

Lewis (Dan, Eileen (mother), Neville (father))

Swarm and Azure

Sunday (Ruby, Carla, Cherry, many many foster siblings)

The TARDIS and Lolita

Little House of Cwej

The House of Lungbarrow (Grandfater Paradox, Qenceus, Inocet, various cousins, Irving Braxiatel, Maggie Matsumoto, Ulysses, Penelope GAte, Anna Joyce)

The House of Dvora (Morbius, The War King, Thessalia, Romana, various others)

Langer (Clyde, Carla (mother), Paul (father))

Jackson (Maria, Alan, Chrissie)

Chandra (Rani, Haresh, Gita)

The Wu Diaspora (Cindy Wu and her clones)

Munmeth and Mutmunna (Medicine Man)

Ada and Alice Obiefune

Who (Susan, Barbara, Louise)

Jones-Davies (Ianto, Rhiannon, Johnny, David, Mica)

Summerfield (Bernice, Issac, Claire, Jason Kane, Peter, Wolsey, Keith, Rebecca)

Miller (Lucie, Pat (aunt))

Schofield (Hex, Cassie, Hilda)

House of Witforge (Narvin, Lenaris, Helico, Narvin's father, Rexin)

Faction Paradox

Pollard (Charley, Louisa, Richard, Margaret, Cecelia, Edward Grove, The Sound Creature)

Mesh Cos, Lon Shel, Julian White Mammoth Tusk

Cooper-Williams (Gwen, Rhys, Anwen, Geraint, Mary (Gwen's parents))

Nominations will be open until Friday (03/05), I will try and give a more specific time then

[capybaraonabicycle]

Hiii!! :) I am curious how you sort the #5: Companion's parents (+ assorted family members)

Hi! Thank you!! I didn't manage to include all of them - some I just don't have a strong opinion on (like most of Moffat parents, that really wasn't the focus of his series, was it?) others I am undecided on and I am sure I also forgot about a few. Also, I've only watched Newwho. But here you go, there is still a large number of family members in the end:

I'll blabber a little about it under the cut if you like :) Also, because I am not quite sure whether everyone is recognisable 😅

But anyway thank you so much for the ask, this was fun!

Since most of them are on the same spectrum from travelling to booping, let's start at the left bottom corner and work our way up and around:

Obviously, Najia Khan is the one I would most like to travel with - okay, I guess that isn't actually obvious except to me. It might have something to do with the fact that I already knew Shobna Gulati from Everybody's talking about Jamie, but I saw Najia and went "I like her, I trust her, she's perfect." And then everything that happened confirmed that. She's cool, she's badass, she's constantly trying to set her daughter up. (Which is obviously overstepping a line but also so mum). I don't know why but I am pretty certain we could work really well together. But also she's not very cuddly, so she rates lowest on the boop scale.

Then come the three people I know would be great at time and space travel. Brian did very well all things considered, he even had some fun on that spaceship. And he's just very sweet, so I definitely want to hug him, too <3 (That said, he is on the very right of the three because I am a little angry with him for playing favourites with Amy over Rory - but I don't actually want to punch him.) And Eileen and Neville, come on. They were Sontaran fighters within a week (?). They'd be badass timetravel companions and they seem like fun people to be around as well.

Then Francine, slightly higher up because she gets a few less trust and a few more affection points. I love her, a lot. And I would trust her to be a competent and kind travel companion. But she hurt Martha and herself on accident by trusting the wrong person, which - while totally understandable - might initially stand between us more than, say, the playing favourites thing of Brian's. Plus, I absolutely adore her and a hug from her could probably fix me, so the desire to hug her is much higher than for the other four.

I obviously don't want to punch Grace, not even a little bit, but she is on the same step as Francine and there is only that much space here. But yeah, definitely would travel with her in a heartbeat (we would see so many frogs, can you imagine??) But also I think a hug from her would actually be perfection.

I want to date Tish, so that puts her perfectly in the middle between travel and boop. She has such a nice aura, she is kind and driven and curious and I kinda wish she would have travelled with the TARDIS in s3. That would definitely have led to some change in 10's comportment towards Martha and we could have had sister dynamics! (Then again, there's the family of blood arc, maybe rather not. It's bad enough Martha had to go through that. On the other hand, the ending of s3 is not better at all.)

I would like to travel with both Wilf and Jackie and I am pretty sure that'd work out reasonably well in either case. But also they are precious and I want to hug both so bad.

And Sonya and Hakim are just the most beloved characters, please, please let me hug them and have dinner with them! I am sure I would love Hakim's food: everyone (= my sisters) says they don't like my father's food either but it's my favourite, so i am sure it'd be the same with Hakim! And afterwards Sonya could explain video games to me :) I don't need to travel with them, and I am not sure they would make the best travelling companions for me, but just one night at their place, for conspiracy theories and games, please!

Sylvia would definitely have been further down in the punch corner if not for the 60th anniversary special. Now I still want to give her a stern talking to for how she messed up Donna, but I also want to boop her gently for getting this much better and trying her best with Rose and keeping her family safe.

Moira is only below her, because I care about her less in either direction. I still want to punch some sense into her (verbally, probably) because she has literally the best possible adoptive daugther and she speaks to her like that??? Woman, do yourself a favour and get to know Bill? Like, you are so lucky to be living with her, HOW are you not seeing that? She is also a tiny bit in the 'want to travel time and space with' direction because if you could just make her see, you know?

[sappysapphic13]

It’s the last day of the school term before the Summer holidays and after a terrible week, all Yasmin Khan, the school's Pastoral Support Officer, wants is to fly home to the nest and nestle beneath her mother’s wing. Her parents’ idyllic country cottage 'Swallow’s Rest' couldn’t be a more perfect place for Yaz to unwind and forget her troubles. For one blissful month, she’ll have her dinners prepared for her, fresh-scented bedding provided, and coffee set on the kitchen table before she’s even sat down for breakfast. Just Yaz, her doting mother, her eccentric father, and her lovingly teasing little sister… Oh. And chaos incarnate in navy dungarees: the Khans' gardener, Jesse Smith.

"Where you tend a rose, my lad, A thistle cannot grow.” ― Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden

Rating:

Mature

Archive Warning:

No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories:

F/F, Other

Fandoms:

Doctor Who, Doctor Who (2005), Doctor Who & Related Fandoms

Relationships:

Thasmin - Relationship, Thirteenth Doctor/Yasmin Khan, Najia Khan/Hakim Khan, Thirteen/Yaz, Thirteenth Doctor/Yaz Khan, Thirteenth Doctor & River Song

Characters:

The Doctor, Thirteen, Thirteenth Doctor, Yasmin Khan, Yaz Khan, Najia Khan, Hakim Khan, Sonya Khan, The Master (Dhawan), The Master (Doctor Who), River Song (briefly)

Additional Tags:

Idiots in Love, gay pining, self discovery, In which Yasmin Khan is an oblivious idiot and Jesse is a goodhearted weirdo, Country cottage AU, Slow Burn, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Enemies to Lovers, Enemies to Friends to Lovers, Whump, Yasmin Khan is having a very bad no good time, for now, Neurodivergent enby gardener!Thirteen, School pastoral support officer!Yaz, Bill Potts - Freeform, Potter!Potts, Donna Noble - Freeform, Donna Temple , Therapist!Donna

Language: English Stats:Published: 2023-09-05 Updated: 2024-03-31 Words: 79,052 Chapters: 26/? Comments: 307 Kudos: 146 Bookmarks: 8 Hits: 3,138

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So Then I Took My Turn

Fandom: Doctor Who

Ship: Thirteenth Doctor/Yasmin Khan

Summary: The Doctor and Yaz need to stop by her parent's flat to pick up some supplies, only someone unexpected is there - and she wants to speak to the Doctor. Thirteen finds herself reevaluating decisions she's made. Title from Yellow - Jodie Whittaker (Coldplay cover)

AN: A conversation between these two is something that's been floating about in my head for a while - enjoy :) and massive thanks to @logically-blue for reading this for me <333 Read on AO3

The Khan family flat was usually quiet this late on a Sunday evening; Sonya absent-mindedly watching the Real Housewives while scrolling through Instagram, occasionally interrupted by Najia and Hakim bickering over the cleaning. So when the doorbell rang seven times in a row, followed by rather anxious knocking, naturally they were all surprised, even more so when Najia opened the door.

"Yasmin Khan!! It is 10:45pm, is this really the best time you could come up with to visit??" she scolded, but fondly, as she pulled her daughter into a warm hug. She couldn't even remember how many weeks it had been, but based on the guilty look on Yaz's face, it must have been longer than she had liked.

"Sorry, sorry. Can we come in, mum? We needed to borrow some stuff. And all the shops are closed."

"Course, love, come on. Wait, we?"

"Hiya, Yaz's mum!" said a familiar voice from behind the door, although Najia noted a tinge of apprehension that she hadn't before - was the Doctor seriously scared of her after their last conversation? She couldn't help but smile to herself at the thought.

"Doctor, hello. Right, let's get you lot some tea - hang on, where are your other friends?"

"Oh, they're uh. Asleep?" Yaz quickly responded, sighing at herself for not being able to come up with a better alibi. Najia didn't appreciate knowing her daughter was lying to her, whilst also knowing there was no way she'd have it explained to her any time soon.

Setting her annoyance aside, she ushered the pair of them in, and waved them towards the living room as she put the kettle on.

The Doctor walked behind Yaz down the corridor, unusually silent.

"Come on Doctor, what's the big deal?" she thought to herself."It's just the Khans. You love the Khans! Okay, well, yeah. In fact, Doctor, maybe that's the issue. Why do they make you so nervous? Maybe you are just socially awkward. Or is it because-"

Her reasoning with herself came to an abrupt halt when she made contact with a pair of eyes she hadn't seen in a while. Well, it hadn't been so long for her. For Umbreen, it had been 75 years.

"Nani! I didn't know you were here" Yaz beamed at her grandmother, "this is my friend. You can call her the Doctor".

Suddenly, Yaz realised the weight of this meeting. Surely, Umbreen wouldn't recognise her? It had been so long, after all. She felt her heart pound as she looked anxiously between the two of them. She thought that her Nani had a certain glint in her eye, although that may have just been a response to the Doctor's bum bag, which she had insisted on wearing yet again.

"Doctor, lovely to meet you" she said, "how did you two meet?"

This question was monumentally less intimidating than when her own daughter had asked it years ago, and Yaz found herself able to answer this time.

"We met while I was on the job, and we've been travelling a little with our other friends.(Not even technically a lie, nice one Yaz)"

Umbreen didn't respond, but smiled softly. Knowingly? The Doctor looked at Yaz, both clearly thinking the same thing. The eye contact didn't end, and somehow didn't feel awkward, but they both felt the weight of their conversation only the other week weighing down on them a little more with every second they didn't look away. The Doctor gave Yaz a little smile, and she finally forced herself to turn her head.

That just wasn't fair, Yaz thought. For the Doctor to look at her like that, to smile at her like that, when she was the only thing stopping them from being together. And that isn't fair either, she thought, to be thinking that. It seemed as though the universe was doing its best to get in the way of them. It wasn't the Doctor's fault, she knew that, but in moments like this it felt better to have something to hold against her. It felt easier then to pretend she wasn't that bothered by it. That she could even be in the same room as the Doctor anymore without thinking of the beach, the stone, the jokes, the tears.

That damned beach.

Umbreen, meanwhile, had been watching this intense eye contact, followed by uncomfortable silence, intrigued by this side of her granddaughter she hadn't seen in, well, ever. But she knew Yaz well enough to tell that she was hurting, no matter how hard she tried to pretend she wasn't, and she imagined it had something to do with this woman decked in rainbows. She'd have to do something about that.

Everyone exited their respective trains of thought when Najia came rattling in with cups of tea.

"Your dad's on his way to pick up Son from some party." she explained, as she passed the drinks around. "What was it you needed to borrow, love?"

"Oh, the Doctor needed something for a... a project she's working on..." she looked towards the Doctor expectantly, who was again looking a little less assertive than usual. Yaz knew how much her mother would be enjoying this.

"Just some coffee beans! I've got pretty much everything else I need, but the TAR- um, my... landlord? Yeah, my landlord, she does NOT trust me with coffee. Neither does Yaz, actually. Or anyone." she continued a little sheepishly.

"Right... well, you can help yourself, there's plenty in the kitchen" Najia responded, barely surprised at this bizarre statement.

The Doctor got up, and Yaz was just about to follow her, when she felt a hand on her arm.

"You stay here and catch up with your mum, beti. I'll go and show the Doctor where everything is." Yaz opened her mouth to argue, but Umbreen made a face at her that she knew better than to talk back to, and moved towards the kitchen.

The Doctor was already busy foraging through cupboards when Umbreen came in. The rustling of packets was interrupted with a calm, yet attention-commanding statement.

"I haven't forgotten, you know."

"Crap. Crap. Shit! Oi, language, Doctor. But seriously, what now??" her mind raced as she tried desperately to avoid eye contact, without seeming any more suspicious than she already did.

Umbreen sensed her trying to wiggle her way out of this, and thought it best to keep going.

"I mean really, Doctor, a hyperactive blonde in a big bright coat with a magic wand is not something I saw every day in Lahore. Especially not one who spoke Punjabi! What did you expect?"

"Yeah, maybe should have thought that one through a little. Could have gone a tad more local. Or not come at all... I told them! I said to Yaz, very tricky business! Too many risks! But she kept asking, and you know I couldn't..." the Doctor stopped herself abruptly.

Umbreen smiled. "It is hard to say no to that sweet girl's face, I know."

The Doctor felt herself smile too. Relax a little, even. Najia and Yaz were well out of earshot; she heard them chatting faintly, and she smiled a little more upon hearing Yaz laugh - a proper, happy laugh. One that sounded like those first few months of travelling together. One she didn't hear so much anymore.

"And whose fault is that, Doctor?"

The smile fell. Silence, too, for a moment.

"Doctor, may I ask you something?"

"Yeah, course."

"You knew Prem and I would not have the life we dreamt of. And yet, you married us, bound us together. You told us about love and hope and faith. Why?"

"Just like I said. You were so certain in each other. Nothing - no forces, no hate, no demons - no-one could ever come above that."

"Would you not rather have saved us the pain of losing each other? Made it so that we had nothing to lose? Tell me Doctor, what was the point if we had no hope of forever?"

The Doctor paused. Umbreen saw pain - veiled, but there - flash across her face. "A wonderful person once told me this, and I might not like it, but I do stand by it. Happy ever after doesn't mean forever. It just means time."

"Wait."

The point of this conversation clicked.

"Umbreen." the Doctor sighed, "This is a more difficult situation than I can really convey. I understand, truly, I do, but I... I don't HAVE time. I have nothing to offer anyone that won't end in pain. Pain that will last lifetimes. Not just for me. For them too. ...For her."

"I never said you did. My question is, did you ever offer it in the first place?"

"You want to see her get hurt? Because that's where this goes, Umbreen. That's where this always goes. I know you see it between us, the whole bloodyuniverse,seems to see it, but it's too late. It was always too late. No matter when I start, no matter what I do, I will never,ever, have enough time left. Never enough time to keep them safe, to explain it all, to give them what they deserve. It's not worth the pain. It's not worth another ending."

"That does not seem like your choice alone to make."

The Doctor sat, a look on her face that said the conversation was over. That it was all fine. But beneath that, Umbreen could see pain. It reminded her of her own Yasmin, all those years ago. The face, the smile, that screamed she was fine, but the eyes that pleaded for help. She didn't know this mysterious figure enough to push much further. Only one card was left for her to play, the one she used without fail, time and time again, on her children and grandchildren alike.

"How would it feel if this were happening to you?"

"...What?"

"How would it feel if someone, who had lifted you out of loss and pain and darkness, told you no? Not letting you choose the difficult road that meant more time with them? Even if you knew that time was short?"

Frozen between one heartbeat and the next.

"If they told you that you weren't getting a say. That their mind was made up and it was too late to do anything about it."

Push that button, Doctor, it will go off in your own face.

"That they wanted you to move on with your life and find something better, to pretend they never meant anything to you!"

Tell me about her.

"I know you think you're being kind, Doctor. I don't doubt that for a second. But I know what truly hurts my granddaughter the most. And it's not rough days, because she knows how to get through those. It's not endings, or sadness, or loss. It's the feeling that she isn't worth those things." Umbreen silently left both the kitchen, and the loud thoughts that she could almost hear the Doctor thinking.

People like me and you, we should say things to one another. And I'm going to say them now.

The walk back to the TARDIS felt at least five times as long as usual."Maybe it is, maybe you've moved" thought the Doctor, "if you're trying to get me to talk to her first.""Maybe I should do it now. So if it all goes wrong and she never wants to see me again, at least she hasn't got as far to walk back." The Doctor was snapped out of her thoughts at the feeling of a cold hand brushing lightly past her own, gently bumping into her as they walked.

"Are you alright?"

Yaz wondered if she would ever get an actual answer to that question. Try rephrasing, maybe.

"...what did Nani say?"

The sound of footsteps stopped.

"Did I really make you think you weren't worth it?" she replied, her voice cracking a little.

Yaz looked up, and was shocked to see tears brimming in her shining eyes.

"Doctor, what do you mean? Worth what?" she took the Doctor's trembling hands into her own, looking to her for permission. The Doctor held on as if Yaz's touch could undo these months, years, decades of hurting.

"I didn't... I neverwantedto shut you out. I was only ever trying to protect you. I have never, for a single second of our time together, thought that you weren't worth the pain. Really, not once. Scout's honour. I just-"

The Doctor felt Yaz's thumb rub gently over her own, encouraging her but never rushing her. She felt her cold metal rings, the two carefully chosen heartbeats that Yaz thought she didn't notice, pressing against the palm of her shaky hand.

"I just thought thatIwasn't worth that. I didn't want to take your life away from you, Yaz."

Yaz sighed. She never would understand how one person could be so quick, so bright, but also so very stupid about these things.

"Doctor, that exact thing has happened to me three times before. Once when I was in school. You know the time I mean." the Doctor squeezed Yaz's hand even tighter. "But the other two times were probably even worse. My life was taken away from me for ten months, and then for almost four years!"

"See, that's what I mean, Yaz. I couldn't stop you getting stuck in the past, how can I risk you getting lost somewhere I can't get to you?"

"It's a good thing she's cute," Yaz thought,"or I so would have kicked her by now."

"Not that, bighead. That wasn't the problem, not really.

The only thing you could ever do to take my life away from me isleave."

The Doctor met Yaz's gaze. Years upon years of nothing but kindness, patience, loyalty,carebeamed back at her.

"Now or never, Yaz."

"I know you want to look after me. The thing is, I want to look after you too," Yaz grinned, "And technically, you are still a witness from a crime scene on a train,Madam. Which means I've got to make sure you're alright. You know. Duty of care."

The Doctor gave no response except a wide-open mouth. Yaz took that as a yes.

"So... what now?"

I guess we're both just gonna have to be brave.

...Let her be brave.

Yaz felt chapped lips gently, experimentally, press against hers, a hand tangled in her hair. It was brief, unpolished, maybe even desperate, but tender. She heard a huge sigh of contentment and almost immediately felt the Doctor's cold face jammed between her shoulder and her neck, arms coiled tightly around her waist. Fighting back tears that came flooding at this moment she'd waited so long for, Yaz held the Doctor close and buried her face in her hair. She lightly kissed the top of her head before they took a step back, smiling at each other warmly, but a little cautiously. This was new.

"Yasmin Khan.My Yasmin Khan.

You wanna try that whole 'date' thing again?" End Notes: The Doctor needed coffee for a science experiment, btw. Did the science experiment involve her trying the coffee with disastrous consequences, maybe. Still very new to this writing thing, so any comments/tips much appreciated :)

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بول | BOL (2011) dir. Shoaib Mansoor Zainub Khan has been found guilty by Pakistan's Courts and is to be hanged. Her last wish is to tell her story before the media, and after approval, she relates how her family was compelled to leave Delhi during 1948 and re-locate to Lahore. This is where her father, Hakim Sayed Hashmutallah Khan, married Suraiya, and hoping to sire a son, instead ended up with 7 daughters and an intersex son whom he does not accept. (link in title)