#he didnt know it wasnt achilles

[coolunspokenforname]

I want to hug Hector, prince of Troy. Have I read much of the Iliad? No. Was that one scene I read in book 6 where he's looking around Troy for his son and wife enough to make me forgive him for (almost) everything he has done and will do? Yes. When I read him praying to Zeus to have his son grow up to be a better man than him, knowing that he would probably die soon, I also died.

[jacksjargon]

WANNA KNOW SOMETHING THAT REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE BEEN GLOSSED OVER IN PJO????? THEM HOLDING THE FUCKING SKY. THAT SHOULD HAVE MADE A LASTING IMPRESSION. LIKE, ANNABETH, EVEN WITH ARTEMIS' BLESSING CARRIED THE WEIGHT OF TGE WORLD ON HER SHOULDERS FOR 22 HOURS. WHAT THE FUCK. PERCY HELD THE WEIGHT FOR A WAY SMALLER AMOUNT OF TIME, BUT ON HIS OWN MOTHERFUCKING STRENGTH. AND??? ANNABETH AND PERCY HAVE SHARED TRAUMA WITH ARTEMIS, NOW???? GREEK GODDESS WOULD-KILL-A-MAN-FOR-BEING-A-PRICK-JUST-AS-SOON-AS-SHED-SMITE-A-FUCKING-GIANT-COUGH-ORION-COUGH ARTEMIS???? AND THAT WASNT REALLY UTILIZED???

ANYWAY, HERES A LIST OF THINGS THAT ARE MY PERSONAL HEADCANONS FOR THE AFTERMATH OF HOLDING THE MOTHERFUVKING SKY:

-BASED ON DIFFERENT TELLINGS OF THE MYTH, ATLAS WAS EITHER HOLDING THE SKY OR THE EARTH, SO GUESS WHAT. THE REASON WHY ITS SO DRAINING ISNT ONLY JUST BECAUSE YOURE HOLDING THE S K Y, BUT ALSO BECAUSE YOURE BODY AND CONSCIOUSNESS IS BEING DIVIDED OVER AND OVER SO AS TO BE ABLE TO HOLD THE ENTIRE SKY, BECAUSE LAST TIME I CHECKED, THE FUCKING SKY WASNT ANCHORED TO ONE POINT. I SAY THAT THAT STUPID MOUNTAIN WAS JUST THE EASIEST PLACE TO ACCESS THAT POINT OF DIVISION

-ALONG WITH THE PREVIOUS ONE, BECAUSE CONSCIOUSNESS WAS DIVIDED, TGE HOLDERS HAVE I N S A N E FUCKING GEOGRAPHY SKILLS. LIKE, PERCY HAD THEM BEFORE, BUT NOW HE AND ANNABETH CAN CASUALLY GO, LIKE, OH, LUXEMBOURG, YEAH THATS OVER BY WHATEVERTHEFUCK. THEYRE VERY POPULAR AT TRIVIA, NOW

-CHRONIC MOTHERFUVKING PAIN. THIS HAS BEEN MENTIONED BEFORE, BUT I'D IMAGINE THAT TGE SKY IS REALLY F U C K I N G HEAVY. THATS GOTTA BE HELL ON YOUR WRISTS AND BACK. ADD IN TARTURUS SHIT AND YOU HAVE CHRONIC PAIN FOR L I F E.

-THE GRAY STREAKS SHOULD HAVE STAYED. I DONT GUVE A SHIT IF THEYRE STRESS INDUCED OR WHATEVER. ITS A MAGICAL PHENOMENON, IT CAN HAVE ITS OWN RULES. LIKE THE MARK OF FUCKING ACHILLES, BUT THATS ANOTHER STORY.

-AS MENTIONED BEFORE, THEY PACK BONDED WITH ARTEMIS A BIT??? BUT IT DIDNT COME UP AGAIN??? LIKE, SURE, SHE DIDNT WANT HIM TO DIE, BUT THE THREE OF THEM WERE LIKE??? ALL IN THAT TOGETHER??? AND LOST ZOE?? I DYNNO. MAYBE THATS TOO FAR, BUT STILL

THATS REALLY ALL I CAN THINK OF RIGHT NOW, BUT IM SURE THERES MORE. BUT WHAT GHE FUCK WAS THAT.

[swiftfootedachilles]

@mickeysgaymom OK SO WELCOME TO TODAYS INSTALLMENT OF ACHILLES THE PLAYWRIGHT. THE GANG FAKES A DEATH AGAIN!! this is long so under the cut it goes!!

one of the disappointments for me regarding s10&11 is that they totally dropped mickeys cartel storyline. like the only time its even alluded to is when mickeys being racist (toward the Mexican family living with the Gallaghers & him throwing a fucking tortilla on the ground to "make it look like Mexicans" robbed the bike shop...) but i cant imagine a drug cartel not even trying to track down someone that rolled on them. so yes i think it makes sense for mickey to fake his own death to lose some heat. obviously this would be similar to the frank plotline in s1e6&7. sorry if that sounds like ~recycling stories~ believe it or not different characters can experience the same things.

so anyway this would definitely need to be a lot more planned out and involving more people than s1. the cops would definitely need to be in on it. cue everyones fav corrupt cop: tony!!! yes i would 1000% bring tony back for this storyline. we need more than just rookie cop/bartender carl, and i imagine tony could be easily persuaded (bribed) to help out some old friends. i imagine hed gone up in rank since we last saw him in s6, which makes his cooperation even more important.

ok. phase 1: the plan. stage a murder scene somewhere mickey usually isnt at (it would be pretty odd if mickey got murdered in their apartment and then he showed back up a month later.) tony finds ian and breaks the news. im very sorry mr gallagher but i need you to come with me. theyve found a body in the Cap Sauers Holding Nature Preserve and we'd like you to come with us to identify the body. sorry ian but mickey knows youre a bad actor and didnt tell you ahead of him that his plan to get the cartel off his back included faking his death because the body cam footage wouldnt be believable at all!! bring ian and the rest of the immediate family to the precinct to meet a disguised mickey in the basement and get the dl on whats going on give statements

sorry for scaring you! i love you! no i couldnt have told you, mr play what cool, you wouldve blown the whole plan immediately! dont ask where i got the cadaver from! btw tell liam and carl i owe them big time

the story. some old friend of terrys heard the milkovich queer was moving back to the southside and wasnt too happy. him and his buddies grabbed mickey while he was walking to the L, drove him to a secluded area, and shot him with a pistol+silencer. liam an anonymous eyewitness called in the kidnapping this morning from a payphone. sandy's old fling a UIC criminology student was jogging in the reserve when she saw a shoe and what she believed to be fresh drag marks in the wet grass off the walking path. she followed it to find a gruesome scene. carl's old partner was one of the first on the scene and recognized him from the alibi. blah blah blah okay time to start phase 2.

phase 2: the funeral. this would be the most similar to s1, except with a cadaver instead of raw meat. the wake could be at the gallagher house like before (if they still own it) or they could p easily pay off a small funeral home to hold a little service. as silly funny goofy it would be to see mickey pretend to be dead like frank did, i imagine that if any cartel members did come, theyd want proof. it would be pretty suspicious if they went to cut off an ear and the body started gushing blood, so cadaver lookalike it is! makeup and maybe even prosthetics to make the body look believable. in my head, i imagine a scene of a couple cartel members coming to "pay their respects" only to find a closed casket wake. they try to "get one last look at our uhh old friend from jail" but the mourning family doesnt want to see mickeys injuries (they're scared shitless that mandy and debbies collective makeup skills arent believable enough) until a fight breaks out and the cartel guys knock over the casket. to their surprise, out rolls mickey milkovich with a hole in his head! awkward silence. debbies award winning acting skills save the day by leading the gallaghers and (very few) milkoviches in getting upset, crying and yelling at the men for "ruining a beautiful service to remember a beautiful man!!" the cartel guys awkwardly put "mickey" back in the casket and reset the scene, whispering in Spanish to each other, bickering about what the fuck they're gonna do now, before one of them decides to quickly cut off an ear, shoving it in his pocket, and closing the casket. they apologize and are forced out of the funeral home by a wave of screeching and kinda-shittily-fake-sobbing gallagher-milkoviches. the guys get their hands on crime scene photos and the body cam footage and decide yeah this bitch is dead. they have the body cremated and scattered in "mickeys favorite place" the lake for obvious reasons

phase 3: cleaning up the tracks. dont tell anyone who doesnt need to know. and DEFINITELY dont tell anyone who cant keep their mouths fucking shut. keep funeral VERY lowkey. if the wrong person hears about mickeys death and then sees him walking around totally alive later, things will get MESSY. no obituary in the paper, nothing posted on social media. take this shit to the GRAVE. NOBODY can know of this fake death plot.

as for the murder part of this? doesnt even go to trial. the idiot cops cant find the perps. just another example of negligent pigs unable to do their job. mickeys just gotta lay low and should probably finally get that last name changed. personally i love the idea of gallavich having a hyphenated last name but i think for the sake of mickeys safety, he should just drop the milkovich altogether.

ok thats pretty much it. end of episode. bye

[johaerys-writes]

I kind of wanna share a short incorrect quote type thingy

So like in some texts from what I know they used to cut their hair as a sign of grief when somebody died. And Achilles did that when Pat died.

So this means achilles died as a short haired man or with his hair being significantly shorter than it used to.

So I imagined the two men having this moment in the elysium

So they both are lying next to each other and cuddling. Patroclus is habitually running his fingers through achilles' hair. He loves to do that and he feels a little melancholic with how short it is. Achilles immidiately senses that and he feels sad seeing his boyfriend sad. To cheer him up a little he comes up with an idea.

Achilles: do you think my hairstyle is ugly

Pat: *a bit taken aback* um no.....

Achilles: you miss my long hair right

Pat: Honestly....yeah I do but-

Achilles:*puts his face in his hands pretends to cry* *sniff**sniff* so I am ugly

Pat: *in a serious tone* no you will never ever ever be ugly to me, sure i do miss your long hair but you will always be the most beautiful person in my life and nothing will change that. Besides *smiles a little*.....your short hair kind of grew on me.

Achilles: *peeks from his hands* I KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS LOVE ME I CAN ALWAYS TRUST YOU. I was joking a bit

Pat:- *smiles falls* that wasnt a funny joke I am offended

Achilles:- *is a little scared*I am sorry I didnt mean to *gets kissed on the lips by Pat*

Lol yeah Achilles would so do that

[halion-halion-aito]

istg the soa fandom will be the fucking death of me

[fandomsandfeminism]

Yall want to know something wild?

Ok, so we all know that Greek mythology as an oral and religious tradition stretched back to at least the 14th century BCE. Artistic depictions of recognizable figures predate the earliest written accounts of these stories, and many different versions of these stories exist. Depending on time, location, religious sect, the stories vary considerably.

Obviously, the versions that were eventually written down ( motions to Homer and Sophacles ) were more likely to be passed on. We even know about certain collections of written myths that DIDNT survive because later writers mention them, but it's impossible to know how similar the later retellings are or how they changed over time.

But you know where the versions of the myths YOU, dear modern reader (assuming you are an American like me), know best come from? When you think of Io and Daphne and Arachne, which version of the story are you most aware of?

Ovid's. Ovid, Roman poet, lived during the BCE/AD switch over. Specifically his collection Metamorphoses which was very intentionally an adaption of Greek myths.

And we KNOW his versions made specific changes and for specific reasons. He wasnt a historian or a priest- he was a poet and he was writing an adaptation. Like Song of Achilles or Disneys Hercules, adherence to the original wasnt his intention, but rather to transform the original myths for his thematic goals. (His retelling of Io is a good example of this)

But those versions exist fully in tact and so are better remembered than a lot of earlier Greek sources (many of which are fragmentary or lost now.)

Anyway. That's also the earliest written account we have of the myth of Arachne. We have no earlier Greek sources for her story at all.

[jackassbroadcast]

Thcscus aka the writer of passerine just ended a space on twt! I joined a bit late but here are some points i loved i think is worth to share for people that missed that!

one of Tommy's reincarnations described in chapter 7 is theseus!

Techno catching dream by the heel is a reference to Achilles heel!

Ranboo was supposed to be in passerine and was supposed to be in the green army and face off tubbo but Thcscus didnt know how to reference him without being too obvious

Possible continuation of passerine story about passerine! Dream team

Fun fact: the wife of niki's neighbor that took care of her flower shop died because she fought in the blue vally

Phil's wife in passerine is actually supposed to be the Samsung smart fridge and not trixtin

The weird smell that tommy mentioned smelling in the camp before the war in chapter 4 was the sulfur!!

The ending is up to interpretation!! People that thought wilbur came into techno's room in the end to tell him phil is back are as valid as people thinking phil wasnt back until they were all dead

Fun fact! If u go through the lyrics in the chapter titles (that are from "Passerine" by Oh Hellos) you'll see the lyrics in the last chapters comes before the first one to showcase the loop!

Thcscus listened to megalomania, pigstep and trap music while writing the fight scenes

Not a fact about the fic but Thcscus just found out george and sapnap has a ao3 account, she is currently losing it

Also not a fic fact but Thcscus and her friends narrowed it down to 3 ccs that will probably read the fics and those are: Sapnap, Jack manifold and Ranboo

Bee duo enthusiasts expect a fic in about a month!!

Thcscus killed tommy because she couldn't bring herself to kill Wilbur because hes her favorite in sbi

Thcscus has been exposed as a Passerine!dream kin

'Did phil ever think about techno after leaving him in the arctic?' "Yeah ofc he did" EMERALD DUO STAY WINNING

The things techno did with phil in the arctic are the same things he and Wilbur did in the end ( making tea, playing chess, ex.)

"Passerine niki my beloved, you deserved better"

Update: they are singing the filipino anthem and are hating over the filipino government (they are filipino)

Sapnap has been with his lover's corpse at least up until the corpse became bones

Thcscus is currently re writing parts of passerine after learning some aspects of it can be harmful and is going to dm people from the effected communitys right after ending the space to help her with it!!

The person that burries sapnap in the end is Passerine!George !!

Passerine!Purpled is one of the mercenaries passerine!Wilbur hired!

Thcscus's cousin is her inspiration for how she wrote techno's sister

Same cousin was the same one that got Thcscus into the dsmp so yall owe passerine to a 6 y/o

Passerine!Tommy canonically wears crocs

All fanfics are canon in passerine bc of the multiverse, therefore heatwaves is canon in it as well

Expanding upon the last point made: Passerine!Dream, the all powerful god just makes himself be a minecraft youtuber bc hes bored

Thcscus is freaking out and losing her shit live bc sapnap tweeted this on his priv:

Apparently Thcscus is old and drinking water is an old people thing now

Space ended bc Thcscus needs to get some sleep before quackity lore L

[yungadltfrictn]

Jegulus Headcannons <3

james is pan

regulus is gay

regulus hates being touched but physical touch is also his love language cuz he wasnt hugged enough as a kid

james loves cuddles

like a lot

reg is really into greek mythology

his favorite story is of achilles and patroclus (obviously)

when james cant sleep reg tells him about achilles and patroclus and how they were definetly in love and the real tradgedy isnt that patroclus is dead, james, its that now achilles has to learn to live without him

regulus is always awake until 3 in the morning at least

at this point hes living on black coffee and spite

regulus pretends that he hates it when james calls him reggie but he secretly loves it because regulus sounds to formal and reminds him of grimmauld place

james thinks it hot that theyre on opposing quiddich teams

james thinks its REALLY hot that regulus can completely demolish him on the pitch

james is a reckless quiddich player

like in a hanging upsidedown on his broom with the quaffle and flying vertically with only on hand on the broom kind of way and is it really a quiddich game if i dont almost fall to my death?

this gives reg a heartattack every time but he also thinks its super hot

james had never been with anyone before reg so he didnt really know what to expect when it came to sex

reg, on the other hand, was super experienced, and found james' nerves adorable

their first time was in the astronomy tower

reg is a top/dom

james is the most bottom/sub to ever live

in james' seventh year he gives regulus a ring

its a silver snake with emrald eyes

on the inside it has J+R carved into it

once he puts it on regulus never takes it off

james promised to write to regulus every day over the summer and regulus promises to write back

after about a week james stops getting replys

he gets really worried and he asks remus to help him with a locator spell

it shows that reg is a random cave in the middle of the sea

james is overrun with fear, thinking that its some cruel punishment from walburga for refusing to get the mark

remus begs james not to follow him because he doesnt know what could be in the cave

james waits until the middle of the night to grab his broom and fly to save his reg

when he gets to the cave all he sees is water

he called out for reg but no one answers

he looks into the water and sees decaying faces staring back at him

james doesnt leave, even when the bodies start to move

he is still calling out for reg

he doesnt leave, even when they are getting up out of the water

reg still doesnt answer

he only stops calling out when he notices something on one of the bodies

a ring

a snake, to be exact, with emrald eyes

regs face was scratched and bloody

his skin was thin and falling off of the bone

his eyes where hollow and dead

the left arm of his shirt had been torn off

james can barely process what hes seeing.

he grabs his broom and leaves when he notices the dark mark on his arm

[honeydew-mel0n]

Comfort.

The reader gets attacked outside of their workplace. Fearing that the person who did will follow her home, she goes to the only place where she knows she'll be safe. Dantes trailer.

Reboot! Dante x reader

Capitalism sucks.

Especially when you have to work a 10 hour shift at a very popular store, full of cheaply made over priced lingerie and ugly fast fashion. Because of the continence of the store you work in, the customers arent that hard to deal with. Teen girls and middle aged moms, and of course the occasional Karen. All shit you can deal with.

However, on days like this, you get the creeps. "Sir, I'm going to have to ask you to buy something or leave." You say, trying to stay calm. He'd been at the register talking to you for the past 20 minutes, and had taken to ogling your tits. "Actually I don't, if I'm such a problem. Give me your number, and I'll leave." He flashes you a- I'd say toothy smile , but there were so many rotten and missing that it would probably be cruel.

"I uh, I can't." You look around for any of your coworkers, now all somewhere out of sight. "I'm not allowed to when I'm clocked in." That was a total lie, but he wouldnt take a normal. 'Fuck off old man.' Just as irritation begins to show on his face you spot a head of blond hair headed to the register. Relief sweaps through your body.

He walks behind the other cash register, then spots the man. Standing at checkout, with nothing to check out. Your eyes lock and he sees the fear immediately. "Is there something I can help you with, sir?" The man chortles. "Yes, actually, I'd like to speak with a manager about your awful employee."

Instant joy spreads through your body. Your boss lifts the little card around his neck, showing off the big red letters spelling 'Manager.' "You are, so do you want to tell me why you've been standing here for almost 30 minutes and bothering one of my girls?"

___

You slide on your jacket, laughing along with your coworkers. All deciding to poke fun at the bastard who wouldnt leave you alone. "Thanks again Kyle, but I gotta go. See you tomorrow!" You wave at your boss before heading out of the store and into the the main walkways of the mall. You wave at the janitor before pushing out into the parking lot.

The lot was almost barren, only the employee cars. Dispite this, the large lot made it hard to find anything. You'd be struggling to find your own car if it weren't for the 'I ❤ hot moms' bumper sticker. You squat and look under the car, hoping there isnt anyone going to cut your Achilles tendon. Then you look through the back window.

Big mistake.

A hand comes to the back of your head, slamming your head against the glass. He grabs onto your shirt, pulling you down onto the ground. You scream and try to fight him, eyes hazy from the impact. You kick at his legs, but for a geezer he can sure take a hit. You hear people run over and panic more.

'Shit, am I gonna be trafficked!?'

You're lifted off the ground and someone pulls the man away. "Are you okay? Crap, you're bleeding." It wasnt someone you knew, but it was probably someone who worked in another store. You take a deep breath and lean on your car. The man running off. "Mother fucker..." you mumble.

_________

A cigarette sits burning in an ash tray, because currently the only thing on his lips was a bottle of cheap beer. Tuesday nights suck, clubs are dead and the dancers are just trying to get their jobs done. So he was alone. Dante eyes the cigarette, before getting distracted by the knock on the trailer door.

He sets the beer bottle down, rolling his eyes. Wonder which fucker it is this time? "Look man, I havent done anything tonight. Can ya just get of my-" he opens the door and is greeted by a familiar face. You look down, bleary eyed and sigh. "I'm sorry, I just didnt know if he followed me and I didnt want to go home if he was. I didnt want to... die."

"What. Happened."

You told him everything, sitting on that smoke scented couch as he cleans the blood from your face and neck. You told him you could do it but he didnt listen, guess its paying back his dues. Seeing as how you'd spent your teen years doing the same thing for him.

Eventually he'd found himself pacing around the trailer. Irritated and running his hands through his deep brown hair.

"What did he look like?" He says, looking around for Ebony and Ivory. You've had to bail him out of jail before, you dont want to have to do that for murder. "Dante, no. There's a thousand old men who look exactly like him in Limbo alone!" "Then I'll take out all of them!"

You flinch at his raised voice, all of his irritation faids away. He quickly takes his seat on the couch. "Shit, I'm sorry." He goes to pull you into a hug, and you practically throw yourself at him. Burying your face into his chest, you begin to shake as you hold in tears. You don't want to cry. You cant cry.

His hand comes to the back of your head, smoothing down the hair as you shake. It's kinda funny how you're the only one who gets to see this side of him. "I'm not gonna let anyone hurt you, got it?" You nod and bury your face further, taking in the sent of musk and cigarettes.

"Good."

[topflights]

tagged by @sldghmmr thank u so much for the tag!! i always end up being rlly excited to be tagged in these and then forget to do them for a couple days then come back to it and am like. oh no. oh no i didnt do it. and then get worried it would b awkward and never post it so im doing this RN IMMEDIATELY thank u!!!

relationship status: single! im not great w talking to ppl every day or texting ppl first so it’s for the best trust me akjdufhg

favorite color: oooo if we’re gonna do like, general color, probably blue. i like any shade of blue. but if i get to be all pretentious and annoying, then i really like sea foam green.

favorite food: im... so sorry. my favorite food is pizza. ill show myself out now

song stuck in your head: ok so at this VERY moment it’s that tiktok song with the kid talkin abt how much he loves corn. before like three minutes ago it was 2 minutes to midnight by iron maiden

last thing you googled: this is so embarrassing but uh. plagiarism. just plagiarism. so i could basically plagiarize google and not sound stupid when i defined it for my college course 

time: 12:22 am

dream trip: italy!!! id love to see rome and pompeii in particular. ancient rome is so interesting and pompeii is so fascinating and horrifying and it would be amazing to visit and see everything up close

last book you read: song of achilles

last book you enjoyed: also song of achilles actually!!

last book you hated reading: i think the last time i REALLY disliked reading a book that wasnt entirely based on the fact that school was forcing me to read it was crispin: the cross of lead back when i was in... sixth grade? but i think it just freaked me out more than anything and i feel like it was probably an important read since it DID make me so uncomfortable

favorite thing to bake/cook: I REALLY love baking cake and cookies. i have a problem baking brownies specifically bc i dont have a good recipe yet but. im workin on it ill figure it out then onto the next thing

most niche dislike: oil pastels. i cant do it. i just cant. the texture is so so bad and aaaaa nooooo!!!

opinion on the circus: dont know enough abt it. got a friend that was a clown for barnum and bailey for a long time but im also terrified of clowns so hes not allowed to show me any pictures from back then. 

do you have a sense of direction: not even a little bit. i got LOST in MANHATTAN. the streets are NUMBERED!!! it’s a GRID SYSTEM and i was COMPLETELY LOST!!! ive lived in the same area of georgia for all 21 years of my life and i still dont know anything past a 5 minute radius from my house

tagging: anybody who wants to do it!!! this was super duper fun!!! i rlly liked it!!

[wickedpact]

your regularly scheduled ttt Thots

first main thought: sad. sad sad sad. poor achilles

second main thought: i was thinking abt this as i went to sleep but the difference in 'what an author wants to communicate with a piece of media' and 'what an audience wishes to take from a piece of media' are two different things that ive never thought of much before.

i mean when i read ttt issues, what i want is Lore. i want to learn about the characters, i want to see what makes them tick, i want to learn about their relationships with each other and see how they grow over the years. but thats not necessarily what the authors want to explore with their stories-- like, the nicky story tells you actually very little about nicky as a person or nicky and joe's relationship (at least it doesnt tell you anything we dont already know), and thats not really seemingly the point of the story itself.

but anyways.

ACHILLLESSSSSS

i was honestly expecting smth very different from this one, primarily bc the blurb mentioned andy 'returning' after leaving achilles and i thought that meant her returning to the squad. and bc booker became immortal around the time andy was with achilles, i thought this story would be about them meeting and the obvious clash they would have over andy mourning her relationship (that ended due to her immortality, that she had to let go of due to her immortality) and booker refusing to end his relationships bc he doesnt have the experience there that andy had.

but 'returning' meant returning to her and achilles' house and her finding out how she died, which. rip. i just kind of assumed he died of old age.

AND IT SUCKS bc she left specifically so he wouldnt get hurt, and all she ended up rlly doing is leaving him to die violently alone

i was kind of upset we didnt rlly learned much abt their relationship (what did andy love abt achilles? what did he love abt her? what did they spend their days doing after they retired?) i did love the little bits showing how the two were different, especially in regards to how his life as a runaway slave affected him (and didnt affect andy)

something something andy's immortality granted her the confidence to set aside her weapons so thoroughly for so long, while achilles' past as a slave and respective mortality didnt allow him to be so hasty

but anyways the fact that andy wanted peace so bad-- i mean, like ive said before, we kind of see some of the worst of andy (well, maybe not the worst worst of her) even within the movie. but regardless of how much andy is tired of humanity's shit and how much she likes to swing her axe, she's still a person who wants peace and quiet and safety at the end of the day like anyone else.

its one of a million things i like abt andy. she can be a vengeful god and a doting mother and a thousands-year-long mourning daughter and a tired mercenary & on top of all of those Layers(TM) she can be Just A Person Who Wants Peace. her multitudes are wild to think abt sometimes, how many lives she's led

'but the older she gets the harder she finds conjuring their love in her memory when she comes here. all thats left is the hate and rage that destroyed this place. and that will last forever' 😭

tbh this issue is kind of a monument to how much the immortals lose to bigotry & hatred

and speaking of, the nicky one was alright. like i said you dont really... . learn much abt nicky or joeandnicky. i mean

1. nicky misses joe when hes gone. shocker

2. nicky kills violent racists. double shocker

3. all the violence and hatred nicky witnesses over this period bothers him. huge shocker!

i mean nothing it goes over is a surprise and (unpopular opinion here) im not usually a fan of shmoopy romantic stuff. joe's speech is a huge exception to me and i think its bc the speech is Romance With A Point. that speech isnt just a bunch of flowery sentiments, but it actually tells the viewer quite a bit about joe and nicky's relationship.

(i remember in one of luca's interviews he mentioned that, while reading the tog script, he wondered what a 900 year long relationship would be like, but the answer to his question was pretty much all in the van speech.)

also i think ive mentioned this before, but i tend not to like joenicky fics where joe or nicky have a Big Speech for the other bc pretty much all other romantic sentiment pales in comparison to the van speech for me. and nicky's letter in this story is the same way for me. you can read the whole thing here if you want (the rest of the dialogue within this story is mostly just confederates being racist and nicky being like 'thats nice' before he kills them lmao)

i dunno the whole thing is like. im so sad and lonely. and im killing a bunch of people and that sucks. and im so lonely. and sad. did i mention i was killing people. the sun is mocking me. these clouds symbolize the storm in my heart. im so lonely. and also sad.

i dunno, it didnt unzip me. tho i like how the wine was spiked with that sweet 'joe as the sun' symbolism, love that for us

its also kind of ironically Another TTT Story dealing with 'nicky is killing a bunch of people and hes having a crisis over it'. ive said before, im not a big fan of nicky angst personally + the fact that there isnt much here to actually learn abt nicky + the fact i wasnt huge for nicky's Poetic Liberties + the lack of a solo joe to match this solo nicky kind of made me 'eh' abt it. it wasnt poorly written or anything! i just wasnt ham for it

like with the other ones (moon landing one for instance) even when there was stuff i wasnt huge for, there was other stuff i liked, like most of us didnt care for the depiction of joe and nicky's argument in that story, but the stuff with andy and joe arguing about the moon was cute, and the stuff with nicky and Booker's Relationship Advice was cute. but for this one it was mostly just the letter. and i wasnt huge for the letter, haha

also. mutton chop man

god did this to me bc i bitched too much abut the goatee. he saw my weakness and punished me for it

BUT HOLY FUCK DID YALL SEE THE SHAKESPEARE SONNET QUOTE IN THERE???? ? SONNET 43 BABEY EVERY DAY WE GROW CLOSER TO GODS LIGHT

[streets-in-paradise]

And i like Briseis, she is wonderful ! , but just imagine movie without her... Just boys!

I think that the main narrative flaw of the movie is that it didnt do much with the girls. I understand that it focus on the fighting, but they could have done much more with them. Helen, for example. They hinted and created for her a backstory of abuse that wasnt explored. ( In the sparta scenes Menelaus shows abusive behaviour, but no one adresses this again. Hector adressing her as Paris's prize when he is arguing with Priam after their arrival to Troy is an example. Hector was in Sparta, he witnessed this behaviours and he still is going to think that Helen escaped only as his brother's prize?? This girl wanted to run the hell away from her husband and Hector is a smart man, he knows that it was more than a whim of Paris)

I love Briseis, the scene where she shuts everyone up in Agamemnon's tent is awesome. What i would have liked for her is more development of her relationships with her family, more time to bond with Patroclus and have a bit of the friendship they developed in the source ( like in the illiad she feels trully sorry for his death and he was the kindest presence of the camp). One more thing is more emphasis in her Cassandra like characterization.

Imagine that Briseis became a priestess because she wanted to get the gift of prophecy and thought that serving Apollo was the best route for it. Give me a bit of the grimm Cassandra vibe and despite she is so sweet and a very kind girl, make her be a bit of the loved weirdo of her family.

Think in the film canon's characterization: she is fearless to speak her mind, she has very clear moral standpoints and she shows an impressive courage. In a culture as deeply religious as the trojan shows to be ( think on hector being conditionated by the choices of the priests) the gift of prophecy could mean power to her voice. Briseis could have ambitioned to be listened, to reach the highest position that a woman could in the hierarchy of religious circles.

Achilles said to her in their meeting scene " You have spent years talking down to men." ... What if it was more than a guessing joke? It is mostly an addition to her unexplored past, but it explains a few things about them. After all, in the film Briseis seemed to have noticed that she fell for him after discussing religious philosophy.

This is just one idea for a possible point using the Cassandra route that the movie hinted for her when they made her a trojan princess and a priestess. The Cassandra connection is also hinted in her dynamic with Agamemnon. She killing him instead of Clytemnestra feels like a revenge for Cassandra's fate in the source texts ( and I love it )

She has the Cassandra vibes.

[sohyuki]

** tsoa spoilers!!

ure right. the fact that everything was written in patroclus’ pov made everything achilles do seem beautiful. the whole time i was in complete awe of him istg. throughout the whole book, i cried during multiple scenes. one of it was when patroclus was facing hector, and he begged for his life not bcs he’s afraid, rather because he knows if hector kills him, achilles will kill hector which will lead to achilles’ death. that one line where it’s like ( "the last thing on my mind was : achilles" ) it’s a crazy type of love when you’re certain that the other would kill for you :( oh and when patroclus died and all achilles could say is his name, holy shit i bawled. OH OH WHEN BRISEIS AND ACHILLES ARGUED. ( “ you’re not the only person who loved him” ) and when priam asked who patroclus is and achilles said "most beloved". GOD. i cried at so many points of this book that my eyes were red after🚶‍♂

dont get me started on the foreshadowing. “what has hector ever done to me?” when all along it should be what / will / hector ever do to me. i wasnt into greek myths before this book so i didnt know there would be a twist to this. that line has made me feel uncomfortable and nervous but i couldn't quite predict what would happen firsthand.

i havent read the circe yet, no! its in my list though!

oh and also. if it makes u feel better. i was told that in the myth, odysseus visited the underworld and saw achilles and patroclus together. in my head they are happy now </3

JSJHSGHJDGS CRYING WDYM ODYSSEUS SAW THEM TOGETHER MAZE YOU CAN'T SPRING THIS ON ME OUT OF THE BLUE

you listing out all those scenes just reminded of how devastated i was during each of them. ESPECIALLY the aftermath of patroclus' death when the first thing achilles wanted to do was slit his throat. i read that line three times before putting down the book and walking away it for a good hour. god, this book was like a warm hug and an execution at the same time. don't even get me started on "most beloved"

i completely get what you mean by being in awe of achilles throughtout the whole book and i feel that through patroclus' pov, you also feel the same anguish while watching achilles slowly lose his self. like i too was hoping to see the golden haired youth just one more time before the inevitable end.

speaking of greek myths, because i grew up as a pjo kid, i knew what i was getting into but oh boy, i did not! expect the emotional distress that came along with it. but you are so right with the foreshadowing!! the one that made me go "oh shit" was the prophecy thetis told achilles about the best of the myrmidons dying before two years is up and then a few chapters later briseis calls patroclus the exact same title and i was like *head in hands* i know where this is going.

in my head, the book ended when patroclus found achilles again. the end. close the book, end of story. nothing happened after. NOTHING.

[losingface-mp3]

analysis of eight by sleeping at last and how it relates to aliveburs character

sorry its not super good, i hadnt done this is a while and this is a few months old, just figures i should post it here

I remember the minute It was like a switch was flipped -wilbur snapping at tommy when he lead schlatt to pogtopia, seemed out of nowhere at the time I was just a kid who grew up strong enough To pick this armor up -he had the charisma and the people to start a nation with violence, but was against it, he didnt want to stoop to dream's level And suddenly it fit -when he came into power God, that was so long ago, long ago, long ago I was little, I was weak and perfectly naive -looking back and thinking how stupid he mustve been to try and run a nation with words And I grew up too quick -was given power before he learned that violence was a necessary evil Now you won't see all that I have to lose -he cant let go of his power, even in pogtopia, when everyone is supposed to be equal, you can see how he takes up a leader-like role And all I've lost in the fight to protect it -canon lives, allies, friendships, his son, ect. I won't let you in, I swore never again -trusted schlatt to vouch for them, but just used them to get on the server to try and get his own power, what if techno does the same thing? I can't afford, no, I refuse to be rejected -'if i cant have Manberg, no one can have Manberg I want to break these bones 'til they're better -he believes that violence solves problems I want to break them right and feel alive -self destructive tendencies and poor coping mechanisms, even before pogtopia, he didnt have anyone to vent to, sure he would smoke with big Q but even then he couldnt tell him everything because he was convinced that it was a weakness. he would yell and lash out at people ruin relationships, ect. You were wrong, you were wrong, you were wrong My healing needed more than time -likely something philza said to him as a kid, his dad always said things when he didnt understand the full story, he called him a terrorist only to do the same thing 2 months later When I see fragile things, helpless things, broken things I see the familiar -not only is this how he sees himself, but how he sees the people around him, babying fundy, 'you will never be president tommy', 'are you saying i shouldnt do this because of niki?' I was little, I was weak, I was perfect, too Now I'm a broken mirror -reflecting on who he used to be, but also showing how hes become the tyrant he promised to bring to justice, a warped version of all the people he hates I can't afford to let myself be blindsided I'm standing guard, I'm falling apart -he cant let anyone else take advantage of him, so he pushes the people he trusts away so they dont get close enough to betray him And all I want is to trust you Show me how to lay my sword down For long enough to let you through -he wants to trust tommy, he wants to trust the people he loves, but he's scared that without his power he'll be the reason everything and everyone he loves will be taken from him Here I am, pry me open What do you want to know? -talking to tommy and tubbo about how he doesnt care, he will blow up manberg, almost hoping to be asked why, again, there was no one to vent to I'm just a kid who grew up scared enough To hold the door shut -ghostbur talked about how alivebur cried a lot during his presidency and how he wasnt nearly as calm or confident as he let on And bury my innocence -he became callused and more distant from the people he cares about But here's a map, here's a shovel Here's my Achilles' heel -he became dream's vassal, he gave dream exactly what he needed to weaken their shared enemies and himself, and was fully aware that dream knew this too I'm all in, palms out I'm at your mercy now and I'm ready to begin -more about being dreams vassal, how he cant step out now I am strong, I am strong, I am strong enough to let you in -he has cut his emotional ties with l'manberg, it isnt his lmanberg anymore, he's fucked and he will not go down without a fight I'ma shake the ground with all my might And I will pull my whole heart up to the surface For the innocent, for the vulnerable And I'll show up on the front lines with a purpose -he understands that he's become a bad person and he doesnt care but he knows he should so he goes into batle, knowing it would be his last, and hes content with that fact, its for the best And I'll give all I have, I'll give my blood, give my sweat -he will make sure that he, and manberg, are dead An ocean of tears will spill for what is broken I'm shattered porcelain, glued back together again -he knows people will be upset, but theyll be crying for who he used to be, not who he is now Invincible like I've never been -he goes into war with the same air hes had everytime, still acting like he's invincable, like hes at the top of everything, but this time his confidence comes from him knowing that either way, no matter what he does, he will be dead by the end of it all

[nountokei]

when you see constant discourse abt achilles being a child hidden at skyros and that's why people thought he was a girl even tho he was of child bearing age and even HAD one fleeing skyros after

people flinging around recent labels like saying he was a drag queen or a trans women in secret as if that's not homophobic and stereotypical

people calling him a twink, twunk, a gay icon when it's been debated for centuries and homosexuality as we know it *WASNT a thing*

don't even get me started about who people deemed the "top" or the "bottom" depending on who had a beard and who didnt, who was older etc

and YES there was an age diff :) and yes they were related :)

[theworldsoul]

Uhh warning VENT!!! Talks about self harm and shit... also religious bullshit and gender bullshit??? Like I'm really trans and also Catholicism really fucked me up so if ur uncomfy with that just... skip this post. Also if ur Christian and can't handle seeing ur shit defaced then skip this post. Also if ur gonna clown on this post as "cringe atheism" then fuck you because I'm literally coping with pain lol

:readmore:

Anways now that the disclaimer is over... here comes the real shit.

I... have been going through a LOT lately, jesus christ. I was HAPPY today, yknow? I thought I was gonna be happy the whole day.

I was dancing today. That's how happy I was. For the first time in like... a whole year... I was really so happy. I thought I was gonna cry. But then I got home. And well,,,, I did cry. But not from happiness. I just got my math grade back. A fucking 49 percent. MY AVERAGE RIGHT NOW IS A 57 PERCENT. I MIGHT FAIL MATH 20. I MIGHT HAVE TO RETAKE IT. oh my god I'm such a failure I cant do anything ever i try SO fucking hard but honestly??? I cant fucking do this. I can't, I'm not mentally capable. "Just work harder"... BITCH I AM WORKING AS HARD AS I CAN. I AM SPENDING HOURS AND HOURS OF MY LIFE STUDYING AND PRACTICING. I'm starting to think that how hard i try doesn't even fucking matter because I'm STUPID and all i know how to do is PAINT SHIT!!!! NOBODY CARES ABOUT ART!!!! IF I FAIL THIS CLASS I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO HAVE A HOUSE IN THE FUTURE!!!! A HOUSE!!!!!

I dont even want to be a fucking orthodontist. Okay??? I wanna do what I love: painting. But NOOOO. I have to get a "respectable" job that will "pay me enough money to live". WHY SHOULD I HAVE TO MAKE MONEY TO LIVE??? WTF??? THATS LITERALLY SO FUCKED UP. everyone deserves to live (unless they like murdered someone? I guess? Idk) BUT LIKE I DIDNT KILL NO ONE SO WHATS ALL THIS BS ABOUT WORKING TO LIVE???? WTF??? I rly gotta do all this shit I hate, all this shit I'm mentally incapable of doing... so i can have a house. Fuck this. Yknow with my average at a 57... I might fail this class even if I get a really good grade on my next quiz. Can you fucking believe it??? I'm literally so fucking stupid I cant even pass a dumb fucking math class god i hate myself. I cant fail this class. I've NEVER failed a class. Almost failed... but never HAD TO RETAKE A CLASS. that's the ultimate failure. I think my parents would hate me if I failed this.

And on top of that... I'm really struggling with uhhh, dysphoria and body image... and it's so fucking horrible man I want to rip all my skin off I want to suffocate god I want to KILL him I want to MAKE HIM SUFFER. I want to gouge his eyes out and force him to eat them. WHY WOULD HE MAKE ME LIKE THIS????? WHY????? WHATS THE POINT IN MAKING A CHILD SUFFER SO MUCH???

What did I ever do that was so wrong I deserved all this punishment???

Well FUCK YOU and fuck your stupid book and FUCK THESE STUPID FUCKING SAINTS. WASNT THERE SUPPOSED TO BE A WHOLEASS ANGEL WATCHING OVER ME?? PROTECTING ME??? WHERE THE FUCK IS THAT BITCH NOW?? WHERE WAS THAT BITCH WHEN... when I was being bullied? When I literally wanted to kill myself?

Where was that guardian angel when I kept making THE SAME MISTAKE over and over again and I KNEW it was wrong but I kept doing it anyways because it was the only way I could feel like soemone cared about me????

I bet that angel motherufcker KNEW they didnt care. DID THE ANGEL EVER ONCE HELP ME??? NOOOO. all those times I was bruised and broken... all those times...

Man, I was just a kid. I was SO fucking young. And I would come like a lamb to the slaughter and kneel. I would pray... ask for guidance. I would pray the rosary too, I would read the bible and try my very best to understand it, I would go to church and volunteer at church and do my best to be a Good Boy and never sin. I did EVERYTHING right. I literally fasted at some point, like a religious fast. I was devoted...

Honestly though? I think it was the same mistake I make over and over again, except not with a real person.

And you have me NOTHING. GO GIRL, GIVE US NOTHING!!!!!!! I literally used to self-punish for the sins I couldnt bring myself to confess. At my communion, there was one sin I didn't tell because I knew it was unforgivable. I still hate myself for that. But man, I used to try and do all sorts of things to somehow cleanse myself of it. I figured THAT whole ordeal was why I was constantly being tortured.

But I was stupid and I am stupid and that makes NO SENSE because if the thing I'm being punished for happened when I was a child, WHY DID THE PUNISHMENT BEGIN AT MY BIRTH????

They used to tell me that god handcrafted every part of me specifically for some sort of grand reason.

Why.

Really? This bitch really "handcrafted" me just so I could cry and cut myself nearly every night??? Fuck that. Like why would you make me this way. It hurts more than you can IMAGINE. The only reason I'm not dead yet is because of ME, MY strength, not any of the bullshit YOU gave me. I hate when people say "oh, god made u so hardworking" or "oh, god made you so passionate/hopeful/full of love/fiery/whatever" LIKE STFU BITCH THAT WAS NOT SKYDADDY THAT WAS ME!!!

you wanna know what he made me?

dysphoric, ugly af, yeah.... but the worst part?

He made me feel.

That doesn't sound bad, right? Well it's the worst thing on the list. It is my downfall, my Achilles heel or whatever. This emotions shit??? It RUINED my life. My whole life I was cursed with a fucking monster inside me. I kept trying to tell everyone that it wasnt me!!! I kept telling them that it felt like I was being possessed. But adults are SHIT. I hate adults. I want to kill them all. They failed me and their god failed me. None of them every listened to me. All they knew how to do was punish, punish, punish.

It's like giving an allergic kid some peanuts and then getting angry at them for going into anaphylactic shock or whatever. Nobody ever thought "hey, why don't we stop giving the kid peanuts?"

ALL THE ADULTS AROUND ME ACT LIKE CHILDREN AND THEY ALWAYS HAVE ACTED LIKE CHILDREN FUCK ADULTS

Anwyays that's how I ended up with all these unresolved issues,.... emotion is a tough one, like I literally dont have the ability to control my emotions at all, I can try and like, repress them but I cant make myself actually feel less.

My emotion hurts more than anyone else's and nobody ever understood that. I would tell them that it hurts, it PHYSICALLY HURTS, and they would say I just wanted attention. I would tell them I literally couldnt control what my body said and did, I would tell them I felt like A PUPPET ON STRINGS and no one believed me. Fuck them.

Healthy coping mechanisms? I literally self ship with Snape to cope. I literally self ship with characters my brain made up and put in my dreams to cope. I used to hurt myself so much trying to feel loved and cared about irl. Fiction is so much better. I sound like a loser but its TRUE. The sort of thing I need, the sort of love I need is like... a parent. You can't go looking for a parent in a romantic partner, it fucks everything up and you end up... well, let's just say it proabbly wasnt the most legal thing, but I wasnt thinking strisght at all I mean dude I was So fucked in my head when I did all that...whatever...anyways so thank u for fiction!!! I love fiction. Want to kill someone? Draw it. Then you'll feel much better!!! And you dont go to jail!!!

Well the pics here... idk, it was really calming to do this. It's new, painting over religious shit. I was gonna do the whole bible but I already burnt that shit so.... and I was going to cut but I'm trying really hard to stay clean... like really hard. It's so weird and like, addicting, once I hit styro I don't want to stop, but also it kinda transfers the emotional pain to physical pain, making it way easier to deal with. I just can't keep doing that because I KNOW it's bad and look I thoguht I was clean for a whole year but then I fucked up and WOW, GUESS WHAT MADE ME RELAPSE??? MATH CLASS!!!!

Whatever anyways here are my wonderful works of art I made while crying and cursing god (like I'm so pissed at all this catholic bs I believed in him again just to swear at him lol)

.... but imagine for a moment, a better world. One in whcih these saints whose images I've defaced are actually good people... a world in which they SEE ME AND THEY HEAR ME... and I go unpunished.... and I am embraced by someone who UNDERSTANDS.

I think I would cry.

Too bad that world doesnt exist and I just made it up to try and feel a bit better. Whatever, whatever. I painted the things, they're gonna dry. I work hard, I'm gonna do good on my quiz, I hope. I just have to be making it through, that's all it is, work work work without a break but I can proabbly do it. I'm really slipping I admit like the mental health is slipping it's getting worse like I havent had a "fuck I am afab" moment in such a long time so yeah...

Anwyays I feel so much better now that I did my little art project yknow???