#he was the closest i ever came to that

[solitarelee]

All the posts going around about imaginary friends keeps making me nostalgically reminisce about mine and then I remember that they were in fact untreated childhood onset schizophrenia and that their absence was one of the most important steps for my mental health and ability to function in society.

...

Still kinda miss em sometimes though tbh,

[nyctoheart]

I’m not watching another hollywood animated movie again unless it has the same level of outside-the-box creativity put into Puss in Boots: The Last Wish

[boypussydilf]

“Nova was basically OBSESSED with Casper.” HATE. HATE. HATE. HATE. HATE. THERE IS HATRED IN MY SOUL AND IN MY BODY. ANGER

[filmnoirsbian]

When i was like 14 [and out as bi w a strong preference for women mind u] i had to block a friend of mine that id literally known since i was eight bc he randomly told me that a mutual friend of ours had had wet dreams about me and that he "couldn't keep it in anymore"

This was after asking me for a kiss out of nowhere

That wet dream thing is actually a specific tactic I've experienced from these guys, in which they tell you that your other guy friends are into you in an effort to separate you from them and ingratiate themselves to you as "one of the good ones you can trust," basically acting like they're protecting you from other men when in reality they're manipulating the situation or even sometimes outright lying. Obviously you guys were kids so I'm assuming his technique wasn't exactly honed, but I've had grown men I considered friends do this so they would be the only man in my life and earn my trust.

[jettison-my-gift]

So wait. The explanation as to why 10s face came back was because he desperately needed a rest and he was subconsciously seeking out Donna (Donna! Arguably the least restful friend he’s ever had) to settle down with? But like he only knew Donna for a couple of years, thousands of years ago. From the Doctor’s point of view they knew Amy, Rory, and River for centuries… but Donna is still more important to the current Doctor? Really?

[sonknuxadow]

see i can accept the idea of shadow struggling with the concept of friendship and being hesitant to get super close with people or label them as his friends and not being super openly affectionate with the friends he does have. but the idea that he doesnt have friends at all is just so strange. yes he does ? theres plenty of people who like shadow and care about shadow and he seems to feel the same about them at least a little bit. why did sega give shadow friends and then pretend that they didnt actually write all that stuff

[quietwingsinthesky]

Hiiiii! So, a few days ago you were talking about the whole thing with Amy, Rory, and River. And when I saw those posts a thought arose in my head and I wish to share it with you.

Since River grew up with Amy and Rory as Mels. And Mels was Amy's best friend do you think that they ever talked about children? Since I know that it can come up when talking with friends, and like... do you think that Amy might've ever expressed whether or not she wanted children?

And if she didn't, that Mels would've had to listen to her mother say that she doesn't want children? The idea is so heartbreaking and sooo interesting.

What do you think about it?

no, no, see, you're so right and this drives me wild.

because, the way i see it, i don't think amy wanted children. she's somewhere on the 'hasn't thought about it' to 'vaguely negative feelings about it happening' range to me, which falls sharply into 'Not Happening Ever Again' post-s6. (specifically, in terms of having a kid herself, even if she could, i really don't think she would. i do love that she and rory end up adopting a kid later, because that does make sense, for amy pond who grew up alone in one universe with her family swallowed by cracks in time before the doctor helped her set it right again, for her to want to make sure another child won't be alone in the world like she was. getting off-track here.)

and that's so. because the first real memory river/mels has of amy is of amy shooting at her. and depending on how well the silence fucked up the rest of her memory, it might be one of the very first memories she has at all. that's how she met her mother, crying for help and getting a bullet instead. her mother tried to kill her, so of course, you have to think. she must have needed to hear that she was wanted, right? even if she was taken away, even if amy shot her, at some point, melody must have been wanted?

river is good at getting people to do what she wants, but she is very, very bad at subtlety. and mels is younger, has less practice, so when she wants to know this, she's just going to ask. blunt and quick, easy enough because amy's used to the way mels will open her mouth and you just have to be ready to roll with what comes out if you want to keep up. it's why they're such good friends (like mother, like daughter.)

they're nine, and mels asks if amy wants kids, and amy wrinkles up her nose and says she won't have time for children, obviously, once her raggedy doctor finally comes back. they're fifteen, and amy and rory dance will they-won't they in a way that makes mels twitchy to watch, and taunting amy about wanting to have rory's babies is a good way to get on her nerves. but amy calls her gross, tells her she's got more life planned than children would leave room for, and besides, imagine her, a mom? it'd be a disaster.

mels does. a lot. she looks at her mother and just sees her best friend instead. she's not even sure what she wishes was there, but. maybe amy's right. and besides. imagine her, a daughter, instead of the ticking time bomb she really is? it'd be a disaster.

they're sixteen, seventeen, eighteen, and on. mels stands on the outside of a love story that births a universe. and her. how do you compete with that? not that she would know, not yet, she hasn't been there. but it doesn't make her feel any less alienated when amy and rory talk in whispers about a half-remembered world that's bled through to this life, about roman soldiers and boxes and the big bang of belief.

all these memories, they never mention children. on amy's wedding day, she's different, not like someone remembering a dream but someone who lived it. rory stands straighter, won't leave her side, and they're both so much older than they were yesterday. maybe now, right? a wedding's as good a time as any to decide you want kids.

mels not being at amy & rory's wedding is such an obvious lazy way of them trying to explain why they totally didn't just throw this plot twist together at the last minute that i'm not even going to acknowledge it. of course she was at their wedding. she's their best friend. there's too many people around the doctor, and she wasn't ready today of all days, so despite this horrible burning need under her skin to strike, she stays her hand. doesn't let him dance with her because she might just tear his throat out if he gets too close. stays with amy and rory as the maid of honor should. she must have been there for the awkward questions that always gets asked, 'so, any plans for a baby?' 'when am i getting grandkids?' 'oh, you two are going to have gorgeous children together.' standing a few feet from amy in her wedding dress and watching her mother tense and grit her teeth and brush off the questions. watching her look nervously at rory but never ask if he means it when his mom asks him if he'd prefer a son or a daughter, and rory answers 'either one, some day, not anytime soon.'

god i'm just going on and on, aren't i. but really, what's it like to know that amy never changed her mind. the next time she sees them, she's already been born and stolen. i don't like let's kill hitler for. so many reasons. but there is something compelling about how recklessly river lashes out at the world, at the doctor. even her sacrifice at the end is almost suicidal, throwing all her regenerations into this man without knowing if that will even work or if it might kill her to do it. but it makes more sense in the context of someone who has reached the end of a long, long wait for some kind of indication, any kind, that her mother wanted to have her. and finally been told, no. she didn't choose melody.

[pjshermann]

Little Jude dreaming of travelling to faraway places

Older Jude 'dreaming' of travelling to faraway places

[chelseasdagger]

the love i have for my little brother is immeasurable

[seventh-fantasy]

他居然是朕的儿子里面最像朕的。// 这个臭小子资质不错，的确有我当年的风范。

[fistfuloflightning]

Yet my own oath holds; and thus we are all ensnared.

[crest-of-gautier]

the day reload was announced was great because cat put this in splatoon :)

[monstermoviedean]

having a dean winchester meltdown because i listened to iris by the goo goo dolls. typical thursday night

[modernmutiny]

being trans is so weird bc the more comfortable I get in my gender and my transition the more I gravitate towards things I didn't allow myself to have/enjoy because of said gender

like. im afab and so ive always steered away from girly shit bc it was forced on me. my childhood bedroom was hot pink with sparkles at my moms insistence. i was forced to wear tights and heels and dresses and skirts to school. i had to wear makeup and curl my hair etc etc

now that im older and out and no one has any expectations of me, I'm starting to find myself enjoying all that again. I just bought a tacky pink watch bc I thought it was cute. I own three pairs of heels bc I like feeling tall and how they make me look, and I just bought a cute flowy skirt bc I wanted to and I like flowy skirts (w pockets ofc). I wear a little makeup and am taking steps to get my hair's natural curls back. I'm letting myself have and enjoy all the things that felt like they were restrictive requirements growing up, and I don't feel bad about it, or feel like I'm any less trans. If anything, I'd say it makes me feel more trans because I'm enjoying all these things in the same way a particularly feminine gay man would. I've met leagues of self-proclaimed fairies who are way more feminine than I am with half the self-consciousness that I've been instilled with and I find that freeing. I can cut off my tits and have a dick and short hair and also wear bright red lipstick to the club because that's what makes me feel hot and no one can make me feel like less of a man for that (insofar as I am a man, I consider myself genderqueer but if I were amab I have no doubt that I would consider myself just a particularly feminine cis queer man)

anyways idk if this resonates with anyone else but I'm super glad I've gotten to this place now where I can buy and wear and do what I want no matter if society deems it feminine or masculine just because I'm secure enough in my gender that I don't have to worry about it anymore. I'm me, and anyone who has a problem with that can fuck off out of my life.

[crystalkleure]

Funniest shit in the world, though I don’t really see it utilized very much, is when the poor weak, sickly, hospital-bound character is cured of whatever ailment is confining them to the hospital bed, and then once they get their energy back and are actually capable of doing more than just Be Unconscious For Most Of The Day, you realize they are an absolute fucking menace lmfao

They are a reckless, moderately insane, fuck-around-and-find-out type who has weeks, months, or YEARS of pent-up Desire For Chaos And Carnage inside of them that is finally unleashed the moment they are freed from their beloathed medical facility. They get home, everybody celebrates, and then the first thing they do as soon as they are left unsupervised for like half a minute is set off a firecracker inside the house or something. Tomorrow they are going to drive the lawnmower to Wal-Mart. They decide to take up archery and promptly elect to practice on the neighbour’s lawn flamingoes. They’ve started a centipede collection in the guest bathroom. Everybody who is used to only knowing them as the Sad Sick Pitiful Guy Who Can’t Really Do Anything now has to learn [hopefully very quickly] that if anything is suddenly on fire for no reason then it is probably Hospital Guy’s fault.

[angorwhosebabyisthis]

having a lot of feelings about the vatborn in this chili's tonight, lads