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wawataka · 2 years

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if you still don’t believe that teru naturally has bad fashion sense i need you to look at this and look me in the eyes and say that again

#mob psycho 100 #mp100 #teruki hanazawa #crying real tears #what is wrong with you #i was about to go to sleep #now i’m gonna be thinking about this for the next hour #mf should’ve stayed in the closet what the hell man #the fucking heels….#okay but in all seriousness #ONE’s style has been really improving #i feel like his anatomy has definitely gotten better #like before he focused on dynamic it seemed but his anatomy’s gotten good too #it’s just. why do you have to show it with teru. god.#this is all /lh btw

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californiaquail · 2 days

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just in case anyone thought i was exaggerating about how stupid my coworkers think i am today one of them told me i could write "turbid which is like the scientific word for cloudy" on a urinalysis sticker. i have a college degree in a science

#god and the worst part is i think theyre partially correct #like i'm not As dumb as they think i am but i am definitely stupider than i used to be and it is driving me completely insane #i genuinely don't know if its the depression or chronic weed use or like i'm just suddenly brain damaged in the last 6 months or so #but it's really really bad. i think it has gotten a little better since starting my current antidepressant but my short term memory is like #unbelievably bad. it was never good but i literally cannot remember anything now. i have to stop thinking about this or i will start crying #my intelligence has always been like one of the things i have a weird complex about due to not getting an education until high school #and being barely socialized etc and it was more or less all i had going for me #and now it's like. ok i got nothing lmao #i don't even think it's covid brain damage because i felt this way before i got covid #although it definitely got worse after getting the job but i think thats a combination of not knowing what i'm doing + being treated like #garbage + sleep deprivation #my therapist who i haven't seen in months because he was stressing me out thought i was smart as hell for some reason. which was flattering #but like i said he was stressing me out. he had too good of a read on me and i can't get over my trust issues with men #“you should go to therapy about that” you might say and you would be right but. well #me

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missrosegold · 15 days

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Looks like I just lost another close friend to guy who isn't worth a pile of dog shit. 😊

#my best friend no less #i cried about this shit practically all afternoon but i'm all out of tears and now i'm just pissed off.#this shit has been going on for a long ass time but i've finally reached my breaking point with it #i love her #but she is delusional #and it kills me to say that #but that whole “relationship” (if you even want to call it that) is fake. all he cares about is money not her #the worst part is that she knows it too #oh but she “loves him” and “wants to give him one last chance” girl what the fuck?#oh but better yet he dumped her once 2 years ago already and i've hated his punk ass since #never should've gotten back tother after that and i told her as much even back then #all he does is make her cry #not do anything arount their town house #and sit on his ass and watch tv or sleep when he's not working #that's the tame stuff too i could say sooo much worse but i'm actually not trying to air her dirty laundry out her #i'm just pissed off #but suddenly IM the bad guy when tell her i won't support her or this “relationship” when she told me they were getting back together today #this is after i helped her and her parents ans brother move all her stuff out of the town house last Monday and back to her parents place #after she told me they were done for good #but IM the bad guy for bringing up all of fhe reasons listed above and all of the REALLY bad things about the relationship #when i tell her i won't be supporting her any longer and that i'll be walking away if she goes back to him #best part is her family agrees with me and they tell her all the things i say about him and then some #but when i go out on the line and put my heart down on the table for her and all i get back is a text saying:#“i don't really like how you're texting right now so we'll talk about this later.”#girl #i don't know whether or not i want to cry harder or strangle her #i think it's both #so yeah i think i just lost my best friend to a guy who doesn't remotly deserve her and everything kicks rocks rn #it's just like my other friend all over again #why do my friend have such dog shit taste in men

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lovecoredeity · 1 year

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guess who’s back on their bullshit with this, lmk what you think!

#deity dialogue #deity’s doodles #also I’ve realized recently that ppl will probably find this blog anyways without me telling them my url because I’m reposting art or #finally finishing art #which is fine as long as you’re not an irl or one of the uncomfortable creeps I have blocked #not that this warning will make anyone in the group listen to me #anyways I still need a better art tag #anyways about this! I figured I should try and like work on it again #I decided to add some jelwery and shit I’ll probs add more #when I eventually make trinkets character inventory he will also get a ton of jewelry and stuff #idk it’s fun #I’m trying to enjoy art and life and all that dumb shit #my tome for saying this however does not reflect this as I am one sick two sad and three have gotten a combine five hours (at best) of sleep #I’m the past two days and it’s getting to me besties I cannot sleep

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aw-bean-s · 3 months

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I think I got possibly the absolute worst outcome for the tribunal you could possibly get and then slept from 12pm to 7pm

#SEVEN FUCKING PEOPLE DEAD #jesus christ #i dont think it couldve gone worse #im googling two seconds #yep jesus christ the only possible death i didnt get was kourtenar and i dont think i wouldve given a shit if he died #what the hell hiw did i fuck it up so unbelievably fucking bad #i failed some checks i really fucking shouldnt have #jesus this is what i get for being bad at murder mysteries #motherfucker #i actually feel genuinely really awful like sick to my stomach #my teeth started chattering during it i was so hopped up and stresssssed #fuck im tempted to cheese it to try get a better outcome but shit man i dont think i personally could #i have no idea how i could have fixed any of it i fucked up before i even walked into it #god what the fuck #im like genuinely embarrassed and kind of ashamed?#someone said you have to let shanky run how do you do that i genuinely do not remember a decision like that #fuckin cheesecloth brain fucking hell #couldnt have gone worse if ibfuckin tried #motherfucking disco elysium #this is so embarrassing admitting this #the power of friendship DID in fact fail me #well now i have to play the game and not fuck up like an idiot #god i feel so terrible how did i screw things uo so much #admittedly maybe i should be nicer to myself considering i'd maybe gotten 3 hours of sleep yesterday and had been awake for nearly 24 hours #(ive been sleeping weird dont worry about it)#but man i dont think i couldve made it go much better but even 6 deaths is better than 7 #sprry for the long tags i am just miserable #i also think im sick? maybe a covid test in my future

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cloudbells · 9 months

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I impulsively bought a drawing tablet at like, 3am last night and that's all I've been preoccupied with all day. And probably tomorrow. I guess I DO like art!

#me my mine #i drew a selfsona and it turned out very inhuman #I was initially going for a cutesy design but then I looked and was like....hmmmm not very me #and now it's very tall/triangle head/one eye/dimension door torso/one pole leg/halo/scribbles and i love it #i got one of the cheaper drawing tablets btw since i am a beginner and yeah i really like it #I kept thinking about oyasumi punpun while drawing it #also if i ever refer to my selfsona as “he” don't think too much about it #i just have a deeply ingrained habit of not referring to myself as a she online because of years and years of misogyny #i've gotten better at that though #i'll most likely call the selfsona “it” though cause it's a creature rather than a person and i like being perceived that way #i am also sleep deprived again so sorry if none of this makes sense LMAO

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seithr · 5 months

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Randomly remembered the half-reason i call my oc-verse by the name it has while laying in bed. One-half of the reason i still knew, but I had forgotten what had truly, really cemented it jointly until now

(it was a song from my favourite band I haven't listened to in a while.)

(the song fit so well at the time, still does, that i needed to hold onto it for the main protagonists forever, by partially naming their story in reference.)

Does this explanation make any sense? Does anyone know why I'm tearing up remembering this. Aahh

#(I'm emotional because I've been feeling bad about it all lately. enjoying things I make I mean—art or ocs or frivilous things.)#(So remembering that song and when it came out. That I couldn't see them in person. But i held onto it my own way. As something I loved)#(Something I still do love a lot... Parts of me saying no—you don't hate it. No. I'll help you remember more. I'm a little misty about it.)#The song is just The Killers - Run For Cover. I couldn't see them in person all those years ago—family went without me.#All my new oc rework with Zin and Hunter and Caia were like a year old or so.#It's a little silly. But the character Zin's derived from was a lightning mage so I stuck to it—I like monhun's zinogre for what its worth #So there's recurring theme and imagery. Thunder's not lightning but the sound and the feeling after the flash the flame and strike.#There's that meaningful thought—the story is the aftermath of a big tragedy. It matches what I like in monsters and other chars.#And at that time—my favourite band I missed out on puts out a really good song I download everywhere and it goes like:#He motioned me to the sky/ I heard heaven and thunder cry/ Run for cover/ Run while you can baby don't look back/ You gotta run for cover #And it goes on of course. The rest of the song's still really good. There's more that fits but point is; More evocative imagery.#So there. Why my bundle of OCs—Zinadia Hunter and Caia's story—is called Thunder 20XX. minus the 20XX. That's tongue-in-cheek #About some day I'll manage to make something tangeable or broadly shareable with them. I guarentee this century!#Thunder... oh my darling Thunder. Eight years man. More than that if I really want to count pre-rework INTO the complete original work. but #I like that it's definably 8. I like that I remembered I've always loved them a lot. Always been my thing to lean on even by name...#I need to get to sleep. Ive gotten a little more emotional over one song than I'd rather regularly be. Give it a listen maybe? Goodnight #Armour clanking #I need an oc tag #What have you gathered to report to your progenitors?🎶Are your excuses any better than your senator's🎶He held a conference #and his wife was standing by his side🎶He did her dirty but no-one died🎶#I saw Sonny Liston on the street last-night black-fisted and strong singing🎶Redemption song🎶#He motioned me to the sky🎶I heard heaven and thunder cry🎶RUN FOR COVER #What are you waiting for—a kiss or an apology?🎶You think by now you'd have an A in toxicology🎶#It's hard to pack the car when all you do is shame us🎶Even harder when the dirtbag's famous🎶#I saw my mother on the street last night all pretty and strong singin🎶The road is long🎶#I said 'Mama I know you tried!'🎶But she fell on her knees and cried🎶RUN FOR COVER #Just run for cover - you've got nothin left to lose...

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thompsborn · 1 year

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hey y’all watching insidious the red room and !!!!!!!!!!! i love ty he’s a great actor and i’ve loved him since the first insidious movie and (i was like 11 and was like woah holy shit look at this little dude go i bet i could do that when in fact i would instantly die if i ever encountered anything even REMOTELY scary like the shit that happens in insidious) and then iron man 3 came out and i didnt recognize him as the same kid until like a year later and then i was like HOLY SHIT SAME DUDE!! and then ever since have just been distantly rooting for him and like

obviously since parkner became a thing i have mostly associated ty with harley even though i knew him from insidious first which is just my long winded way of saying this very simple thing:

artist harley.

k anyway bye i’m gonna finish watching this and then continue to think about all the ways this could apply to any sort of scenario with harley xoxo byyyyye

#still need to watch the whale too #i’ve been wanting to watch it since i first heard about it but when i found out ty was in it too i got SO hyped #but still havent gotten around to watching it #n e ways #harley keener i would die for u and ty i would also die for u bc u brought these characters to life #including dalton tbh like i know i said i associate ty with harley first but it’s definitely dalton second and i wanna protect this poor kid #from any and every scary thing imaginable #he deserves so much better )):#HE SLEEPS WITH A NIGHT LIGHT )))):

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carrieway · 11 months

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i just think ghosting someone should be illegal

#esp if the person has bpd . no this isnt about me (it is)#it's just bad boss #ive slowly gotten better at trying not to think about the person but alas . they're appearing in my nightmares .#not much i can do about that besides feeling awful n just trying not to sleep after #idk ! idk i tried . i tried to not be like a previous friend i had who was rlly gross n manipulative to me #whilst Also being much older (i was seventeen n they were twenty four or twenty six i dont remember)#idk. ethan says i wasnt bad but its still gripping onto my brain yknow #also it just sucks being ghosted sucks this is the second time it's happened from someone i trusted #[united states of whatever voice] whatever #(it's more like . Wuhtevr .)#nothing i can do but cope with random f/n/af videos #im watching a person i like try to be sister l/o/cation blindfolded :] they're doing well even with how hard it is #i cant even beat night four Seeing things (well barely seeing things bc its so dark i genuinely cant see)#so it's rlly neat . also i know how to skip the night now bc of a joke he made >:D #also to anyone reading this i am not trying to come across as like Woe Is Me Feel Bad For Me bc like ew #NDNDNDN my tone is very just flat n matter of fact rather than trying to garner sympathy #but also i dont necessarily think it's bad to want sympathy however i dislike it when people go about it in such a way #where it's like . being down on themselves to such an amount that you Know they're playing it up . does that make sense #idk . im saying nothing <3 n im very tired n doing bad so im not making much sense my apologies #does a ditty before kickflipping my way back to f/n/af video world #blabs

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miodiodavinci · 1 year

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ouhghgh , , , reached the point where my throat is in so much pain i can't sleep, even with cough drops , , , , i keep waking up every hour coughing so hard i start to throw up by the end , , , , it looks like my fever might finally be going down (original peak of 100.9, now down to 98.8) but god , , , , the agony , , , , , ,

#i gotta sleep too because i have a mandatory orientation at 9am tomorrow #(online conference thank god)#i'm just. frustrated and feeling helpless.#laid into my brother a bit over discord when he gave me a non-apology when i told him to keep this whole mess in mind #next time he plans on leaving his mask at home #i want to feel better soon ; ; ; ;#i have work i need to do and notes i need to take and i miss my partner a lot ; ; ; ; ; ; ; ;#i'm constantly thinking about how much of my room is just coated in covid particles at this point #and how hard it'll be to disinfect all of it when it comes time to end quarantine ; ; ;#i'm trying to cover my coughs but when i'm literally choking to the point that i'm practically retching into my trash can it's. hard;;;#ughghg ; ; ;#i'm frustrated i'm frustrated i'm frustrated ; ; ;#i want to go back in time and yell at my brother a hundred different times for all the stupid selfish ways he's been so careless #“ough this has just never happened before even during all the other times i've gone without a mask :(((”#“it seems my bad luck and poor immune system just got the better of me :(((”#just say you've gotten bold and careless and that this was just one huge risk in a long string of risks you've been taking since day one #you figured you were immune to consequences and now i'm paying the toll #couldn't even get him to promise to take a mask with him everywhere from now on until i laid into him for several minutes . . .#. . .

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asexualjedi · 1 year

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My friend posted about how he regrets every day not going to the burial of our friend who died by suicide and. It. I also didn’t go and. Made me feel like if I was wrong to do so. Idk I just. I was falling apart and didn’t want to fall apart in front of his family as they were going through so much and I did not know his family well at all and I wonder if that truly was the best move or if I was just centering myself. Idk.