i hat ehow constantly angry i have been recently. like. minor inconveniences piss me off to tremendous extents. I got a little bit of water on my shirt and pants and actually growled out loud. people will message me with nothing but the best intentions and I will for some reason get comically stressed and irritated over it. my cat keeps yelling at me and nothing i do helps and i get so close to yelling and it upsets me. literally no fucking clue why this is. it is. infuriating. which only makes the constantly angry problem worse.
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So your dom or sir "per se" must be either king or ryan. Those are the only two other who like so much of your personal stuff.
Is it really that important to you, anon? Do you really need to know the details of the "relationship" I have with every person I talk to on here? Every person I do slutty things for on here?
If you must know, yes, the Sir I referenced in the picture I posted of my ass is theblindking94. We talk a lot, I do slutty things for him, he's a great guy, and I'm really glad I convinced him to join the dark side (come back to tumblr from reddit 😅). He also thinks it's hilarious that you so desperately need to know any of this.
Ryan is a friend and mutual who probably doesn't wanna be dragged into this weird, jealous nonsense. Leave him be.
Not sure if you're jealous or just really freaking nosey.
Either way, gonna remind everyone that I talk to lots of people on here. I've been on this site for over 10 years. I've been slutting it up on here for at least that long. I've talked to soooo many people. I have people i started talking to in 2015 who I still talk to from here. Like I'm gonna be a slut, I'm gonna talk to a variety of people, and if I wanna "publicly" (on my blog) do something for someone on here, like Sir, then I'll do it, and I'd prefer to do it without jealous anons worrying about who my "dom" is.
Also, to be clear, I deeply appreciate the relationship I have with my 2 mains (Sir ❤️and Dad 🩷) and other people on here as well, but...
No one owns me.
No one owns me.
No one.
Not a single person I've ever talked to owns me in the way it feels like you're implying by saying dom or sir and trying to figure out who my "dom" is.
I'm not owned. This isn't an exclusive situation. I talk to as many or as few people as I want on here.
You jealous? You want to talk to me?
Then fucking do it.
But be interesting, be respectful of my boundaries, don't try to own me, and understand that sometimes I won't reply. Sometimes, I disappear for a bit. Sometimes, other people in my dms take priority. Sometimes, the vibe just isn't right. Sometimes, talking on here is meant to be more casual, and that's okay. Either be okay with these things or like go. Lol
Anyways, thank you, Sir, for letting me set the record straight for these silly jealous anons. ❤️
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You're not being rude and it's perfectly understandable to not wanting it to have been a suicide. I hoped for that too. But eunwoo's and mj's letter and mj's post today pretty much point to suicide, which is heart-rending. Mj said in his post that bin was worried about the team and members until the last moment, so I'm sure he left at least some kind of message to some people, but unfortunately a lot of times the idea that people leave a note is false. I've had people close to me that tried to commit suicide and there was no note or anything. What you're feeling is real and sad. Bin was an amazing person. It's ok to be sad and not okay, for as long as you need. I miss him too
And I'd encourage you to ignore the people that say those vile things. They don't know what they're talking about and they can't even begin to imagine how much he must've been suffering, all alone, to take such a drastic decision when we know he was such a loving person. If he wasn't t ihose closest to him wouldn't be suffering as they are right now.
thank you for being kind. life has had me in a chokehold so as ugly as it sounds, i havent had much time to be angry about it, but now im thinking about it again and its still baffling to me.
im so sorry to hear about your friends’ attempts and i genuinely hope theyre doing better now. youre right, not everyone leaves a note, and i think i was still trying to make sense of his passing all those weeks ago. not that its gotten any easier …… but i guess i shouldnt spend so much time wondering about the why of it even to myself. harsh as this sounds, it is what it is (i say as i still struggle to come to terms with it) and life continues onwards.
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idk im just real sick of waiting weeks to see if a new medication works for me and then having to start over when it doesnt. i havent been able to work in four months and ive changed meds like four times and i have to taper onto the one im on now which means i wont have the full dose for a month and even then theres no guarantee itll do much and i have so little energy and motivation that im actually out of clean clothes to wear but cant do laundry and im so fucking bored but i dont have the energy to do anything and i have to just wait until the new meds kick in and i hate this in between period and i hate that i have to go back to it every time i switch meds. i found a medication that worked really well but i also had really bad side effects so i had to go off it and i almost feel worse now because i caught a glimpse of like how my life could be if i could get this shit under control and now i have something to compare my current bullshit to and im just. tired. im feeling a little better today than i have since i started on the new meds so i think theyre finally starting to kick in but im so behind on chores and general life maintainance stuff that theres no way im gonna be able to catch up any time soon and the best ill be able to do today is like maybe do some laundry so i have pants i can leave the house in
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