#him: never <3

[septembersghost]

Lol, one time I saw a twitter post that made me think of your blog- here is another (different) video that brought that moment back (youtu.)be/JyW64K6Qcr0 It was because of the Jess & Dean names referenced- you post Dean pics a bit. I realized upon watching part of twitter clip that it was about Rory Gilmore’s Love triangle. (Coincidentally played by the guy who ends up as the brother of Dean Winchester on Supernatural after GG). Also some mention that the mom looks like an older, brunette TS.

bestie. in our many delightful pop culture conversations, i need you to know that, through no fault of your own, this message cut me to the quick (lightheartedly. mostly). i thought about it all day. i ran to @arthurwilde about it. i paced in circles. i lamented. i threw myself prostrate on the ground (figuratively).

you post Dean pics a bit.

i stared at that sentence for hours. i am haunted by it. it's so casual. so irreverent.

*dramatic miette-inspired voice*

a bit. i post. dean pics. a bit? oh i am wounded. i have failed in my duties if this can be addressed in such a calm manner. i have wholly lost my way, my identity. my blog has no path. who even am i? i am utterly destroyed if you think that the "jared played a character named dean on gilmore girls (a show i have watched all the way through multiple times) before he was on supernatural (a show i watched, without fail, through every horror and slight, through many dangers, toils, and snares, from premiere on my birthday september 13, 2005 to finale november 19, 2020) with a brother named dean" isn't like the most basic arcane lore in the arsenal. as if the last three episodes and the mass devastation and fallout that occurred isn't why this entire page exists (i started blogging on here right before the penultimate episode). i post...a whisper of dean? a small dash? a sprinkling? a smidgen of dean? my heart is torn asunder. i'm lost wandering the moors. dean. my dean? core of my blog? light in the dark, raft in the ocean, fire of my soul? dean, whom i love so tremendously, with such an abject and ardent love, that i have been publicly renounced and executed for it in the past. sent anon hate off and on for months. fought bloody battles. i post him. a bit??? dean who is my best friend love of my life visits my dreams real person to me (normal and sane response). lord have mercy. as if the way i loved you, in and of itself, is not me with dean versus me with any other fictional character i love. as if, in fact, a significant portion of her discography isn't simply dean coded to me. yeah. i've been FAR TOO RESTRAINED LATELY, IT WOULD SEEM. SEND HELP.

[ineed-to-sleep]

Collection of bg3 sketches I've been nibbling at over the month. teehee

[fermentedrice]

[durgestarion] kissing the murder puppy 🐶

[watchingwisteria]

listen there really was just something about how in the book, snow’s 3-page descent from hesitant lover boy to deluded psychopath happens entirely in his mind. lucy gray gives him no indication whatsoever that she suspects him, that she’s going to leave or betray him. he’s just sitting quietly in the cabin waiting for her to return when that seed of calculated suspicion, which he has needed to survive the capitol, takes a hold of him and chokes the life out of any goodness left inside him. it really drives home your terror as a reader that “oh my god did he kill her? did she escape? what happened to her? why would he even think that?” in a way that when the movie had to adjust for visualization it lost some of that holy shit this guy has lost it emphasis.

[ssalballoon]

oh! you made gale laugh! 🌷💞

[lenin-it-to-win-it]

Frodo: Sam hates Gollum, but that is what I shall become once I have lost myself to the ring... he’ll despise me... 

Sam if Frodo did turn into a Gollum: That’s a very nice fish you caught with your bare hands, Mr. Frodo, and its very smart of you to eat it raw, saves us the trouble of starting a fire. I knitted you a sweater in case you get cold running around in that loincloth of yours. Is the sun hurting your eyes? I’ll kill it if it’s bothering you. I’ll kill the sun

[triona-tribblescore]

Concept from a few days ago that has been ROTTING my brain. BIKER ANGEL BABYYY!!! Something I didn't know I needed in life-

Hes so cool and like, idk I just need to consume more media where angel is being badass. DGMW!!! I LOVE HIS PRETTY FEM SIDE. But also I think ppl forget he's a chaos maker/ prankster/ turf war participator who will run you down without hesitation if in a fight uvu

[bevirspnsblmnt]

crowstarion saved my ass a handful of times during the game

[asharaks]

it is, i think, symptomatic of the way larian has built this brand: bg3 was always marketed as being mature (read: sexual), and that was one of the big draws for players - myself included! especially as media pulls more towards extremes, with mainstream video games starting to get increasingly graphically sexual, graphically violent, and the vogue for 'grey morality' becomes the norm, those boundaries get pushed, and it becomes more and more of a selling point.

larian obviously focused on this, along with the How Do You Do, Fellow Kids brand, the increased accessibility of game devs on twitter, and adopted it heavily into their marketing strategy, and are now pretty reliant on the horny gamer crowd for a lot of their audience, and more importantly, they're doing this on purpose.

which is how you end up in situations like this.

characters (white men) the players want to fuck get centred: they get updates, they get more content, they get favoured. halsin's gone from a side character in EA to a half-fledged romance option, to a full romance option: he shows up in the promotional material, is larian's poster boy for the sex scenes, he gets more content with every update.

now gortash gets more heavily implied situationship lines with the dark urge, because players are horny for him. nevermind that some people aren't playing that way, or that he was originally set up to be a lower-level antagonist; nevermind that if the durge's storyline needed expansion, it should've been with orin and sarevok and bhaal, or that it muddies the writing for the rest of gortash's arc + characterisation: people want to fuck him, so it gets put in the game. it's not even to do with karlach, whose quest so desperately needs expansion! it's specifically catering to the people who want their character to have a Relationship with the slaver, because they're either not interested in or not able to focus on strengthening the weak spots in the narrative: they're just doing things that will net the 'my favourite dating sim' people lmfao.

meanwhile, literal main character wyll gets his quest demoted to a subquest, doesn't get bugfixes, doesn't get a single unique romance greeting after 6 patches and months of requests. he's not a Horny character, so he doesn't get the focus: he's not a player favourite, so he gets nothing. it's just... so unbelievably, indisputably racist, and it's incredibly grim and disappointing to watch it happen in real-time.

[toxooz]

also been thinking abt pooki with his cunty scarf💅

if my next drawing post isnt the comic update take me out back and shoot me like a sick dog

[lazylittledragon]

Hello I love your bg3 content and your Dorian is so lovely! Can we get like an alternative reality with Dorian and Ascended Astarion? What would your headcannon be for them? 🙇

something like this, probably

[finderedacted]

[potatoes-tomatoes]

[pokeberry5]

tim "faking" a bicycle accident to get his neighbor to come help him, based on @upswings's post, which gripped me by the throat the moment i read it

extras:

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

a couple scribbles i cleaned up. also i think i like drawing him in varying states of distress

[relaxxattack]

this line in particular is pretty good sollux characterization imo. this is like his whole deal. you broke sollux down to his bare essentials