#hopefully. hopefully i will free all fandom posts from likes jail one day but today is not that day

[welcometoteyvat]

clearing out my likes has the side effect of reminding me of every single media obsession I’ve had over the past year or so

[hale-13]

Zero Days Without Incident

By Hale13

For the Summer of Whump Day 20 Prompt - Defiance

The ‘Days Without Incident’ sign in Tony Stark’s private workshop has nothing to do with engineering or science mishaps and all to do with a bet between him and a certain Spiderling.

Words: 1783, Chapters: 1/1 (Complete), Language: English

Fandoms: Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)

Rating: Gen

Relationships: Peter Parker & Tony Stark

Characters: Peter Parker, Tony Stark, Happy Hogan

TW: Stabbing

Read on AO3 or below the line break.

“Peter you have thirty minutes until your curfew,” Karen warned him, already plotting a course home and throwing it up on his HUD.

It was a balmy spring evening and Peter had spent most of his patrol leisurely swinging through Queens or relaxing on a hammock made from his webs. There had been a few petty crimes he had dealt with, some grand theft bicycle, a cat stuck in a tree but, all in all, he couldn’t really complain. He loved being Spider-Man and helping his neighborhood but it was nice to have a slow day sometimes.

A scream sounded in the distance.

“Spoke too soon,” he mumbled, altering his course and picking up speed. “Can you get me directions K?”

“Of course Peter,” Karen answered, as chirpy and happy as normal, re-routing him away from his apartment and toward the sounds of discourse in the distance. When he dropped in on the scene it seemed to be a mugging in progress and Peter rolled his eyes – didn’t people have anything better to do on a random Tuesday in April? God just seriously rethink your life choices.

“I would say its knife to meet you but I’ve definitely used that pun in the last couple weeks and I don’t want to be accused of not being original,” Peter called down, making both the assailant and victim flinch and look up to where he was perched on the wall above them. “Where did even get that thing? The renaissance fair? Who robs people with a full on dagger anyway? Run out of kitchen knives?” Peter quipped, flipping down and pushing the mugger away with a well placed kick to the arm that made the man stumble back.

“This has nothing to do with you bug,” the man snarled, brandishing the weapon at Peter now and making him roll his eyes. “Don’t get in my way and I won’t have to use this on ya.”

“Spiders are arachnids actually, not bugs” Peter pointed out, shooing the stunned woman out of the alley and on her way out of any potential danger. “And how about you not stab anybody today huh? If you promise to behave I won’t web you to the wall and call the police. Sounds like a fair trade right?”

The man snarled at him with irritation. “You talk too much.”

“So I’ve been told,” Peter agreed easily with a nod. “But what do you say? Ready to give up your life of crime for the straight and narrow?”

“No,” the man grumbled and, with literally no warning, lunged forward and stabbed his knife directly into Peter’s gut.

They both stared at each other in stunned silence before Peter processed the pain with a loud ‘fuck!’.

“You motherfucker,” Peter grunted, backing away to lean against the wall, holding the knife still with one hand so as to not dislodge it. “I can’t believe you stabbed me!”

“I thought you would dodge! You always dodge!” The man said, reaching up both hands to dig into his hair. “I stabbed Spider-Man what the fuck!”

“God this is just-,” Peter grumbled using his free arm to fire webbing at the guy and secure him to the nearby dumpster. “I’ve gone three weeks without having to go to the MedBay! Three weeks! All I had to do was last one more and then I got to pick the movie at movie night for the next month! God I can’t believe it! Mr. Stark is going to be so insufferable now!”

“You could just… not tell him?” The man asked hopefully, not even bothering to struggle against the webs and Peter blew out a breath as he sank down to sit on the gritty ground – he was starting to feel a little cold and dizzy from either the blood loss or shock, he couldn’t tell which. Not that it mattered, his fierce anger overshadowed everything.

“Not an option,” Peter grunted, leaning his head back and closing his eyes against the helpful countdown timer Karen had started displaying the second Tony had entered the Iron Man armor and started jetting to him. “He already knows.” Curse the Baby-monitor Protocol! He and Ned would need to remove it again…

“He track you or something?” The man asked questioningly, head quirked to the side in obvious curiosity.

“Or something,” Peter agreed.

“That’s wack man,” he said. “An invasion of privacy. A, uh… violation of your constitutional rights as a free American!”

“Do you honestly think Tony Stark cares about an something as simple as an invasion of privacy? I’m lucky he hasn’t microchipped me yet,” Peter pointed out. Or, at least, he didn’t think Tony had microchipped him. He’d have to check that and remove it post haste if he found something.

“Dude,” knife guy said commiserating and Peter had to fight the eye roll. Of course the person who stabbed him felt remorseful now.

“I know,” Peter agreed, peering down at his side to look at where the knife was embedded into him. He was pretty good around blood as long as it wasn’t his own and, looking at the way his suit was slick and blood was beginning to pool under his thighs in a puddle made Peter lightheaded so he closed his eyes again. “He’s probably going to be pretty pissed at you by the way,” Peter warned. “He has pretty good lawyers so I wouldn’t have high hopes of getting out of this without jail time.”

The man groaned and Peter just shrugged. Don’t do the crime if you can’t do the time and all that – also don’t stab people and leave them to the ministrations of their helicopter mentors. Same thing really. The sound of repulsers neared and Peter braced himself – he wasn’t looking forward to dealing with this.

“I guess that we can change the ‘Days Without Incident’ sign back to zero eh Spiderling?” Tony teased as he landed in the mouth of the alley, disengaging his suit and walking over to kneel next to Peter. “You were doing so good too – your longest streak ever in fact.”

“Don’t remind me,” Peter hissed as Tony prodded around the wound carefully with a pre-gloved hand. “Can you not touch that?”

“No can do buddy,” Tony said, not sounding the least bit apologetic. “Gotta anchor it in so it doesn’t fall out on the ride back. Happy’s on his way to pick us up.”

“Oh great,” Peter groused, letting Tony lean him forward a little so he could start wrapping roll gauze around the knife. “He loves to complain when I get blood on the seats.”

“Only when you get impaled,” Tony said brightly, pulling the gauze tight almost vindictively and making Peter wince. “Wouldn’t want to deprive him now would we?”

“You could just let me bleed out and die here,” Peter suggested seriously. “Since my life is basically over now anyway.

“You’re such a dramatic little shit,” Tony groused, tying off the gauze and levering Peter up off the ground to slump into his side for the extra support. “Now say ‘goodbye’ to your friend, he won’t be seeing the real world for a long, long time,” Tony’s voice had an edge of steel as he said this, dragging Peter to the end of the alley and ignoring the muggers ‘Aw man, c’mon!” as they passed. Peter just shrugged a ‘what can you do?” and wiggled his fingers in a facsimile of a wave as he was pulled away.

Happy, to his credit, was efficient and must have already been in the area because he was quick to pull up with a surly look already cemented onto his face as he surveyed where Peter was leaning into Tony and dribbling blood onto the sidewalk in large, heavy droplets. “I already called the cleaning crew,” he told them through the open window. “They’ll be here before the police to scrub up any possible radioactive DNA.”

“Best forehead of security ever,” Tony crooned lovingly as he carefully situated Peter onto the pile of towels Happy had put into the backseat to soak up the blood and keep it off his leather seats. Happy glared at the both of them in the rearview mirror before rolling up the partition. Tony snorted in undisguised mirth.

“How you feeling kiddie?” He asked as he peeled Peter’s mask from his sweaty face. “Not going to pass out on me again right?”

“Uh…” Peter groaned, squeezing his eyes shut tight to stop the spinning and grey dots that were clouding his vision. “No promises. Sorry.” Tony just let out a put upon sigh like he expected as much and pushed Peter to lay down across the seats, grabbing one of the extra towels to press tightly around the knife and making Peter let out a whining moan at the pressure. “Yeah I might pass out,” he said faintly as his vision started to tunnel.

“Go on then,” Tony said, running a hand through Peter’s damp curls and smoothing them away from his face. “At least you don’t sass me when you’re unconscious.” Peter felt the man lift his legs to slid a few wadded up towels underneath… like that would actually help keep him awake.

“Rude,” Peter grumbled before losing his grip on reality – he trusted Tony to take care of things for now.

——————————————

“I hate this movie,” Peter grumbled groggily, as he pulled himself awake some time later. He was lying in one of the beds in the MedBay, attached to a blood transfusion and with a thick padding of gauze on his abdomen. Tony, seated next to him and munching on popcorn, just sent him a shit eating grin and held up the whiteboard that had been hanging in his workshop displaying ‘Days Without Incident’ with a large 0 written under it in obnoxious red ink.

“This is such bullshit,” Peter said petulantly, picking at the tape holding the IV in place. “I can’t escape! Go watch your garbage movie somewhere else.”

“Excuse me you brat,” Tony said imperiously. “The Breakfast Club is a cult classic thank you very much and besides,” he continued, offering Peter the bowl of popcorn, “someone clearly has to educate you on good movies.”

“I’m going back to sleep,” Peter said, flicking a kernel of popcorn playfully at his mentor (and missing damn – he must be on drugs) and letting his tired eyes slip closed again.

“Sore loser,” he heard Tony tease as he fell asleep and that did it. When he won their next bet they were marathoning the whole Star Wars series from beginning to end, including all of the Clone Wars and the Mandalorian, and he didn’t care what Mr. Stark said.

[hamiltalian-creates]

I recently saw a post daring people to mash up their first fandoms with their newest fandoms and, for me, that’s Ninjago and Sanders Sides, respectively. So, I wrote the first of I don’t know how many potential chapters in this AU. There’s not much exposition, so feel free to ask whatever questions you might have. 

There was nothing that soothed the soul quite like the soft music of a flute, Thomas found. Despite the stress of being in charge of four teenagers, he always managed to completely let go when he was playing his favorite wooden flute. In fact, he was so relaxed, he almost didn’t notice the shuriken that lodged itself into a wooden support beam, inches from his head. 

Thomas’s eyes snapped open and he sat up as soon as he realized how close he’d been to death, turning to face where the other four were supposed to be having a simple sparring match. Instead, what he saw was Logan, his lightning powered pupil, and Roman, his firey explosion of s student, on the ground wrestling, practically foaming at the mouth as they fought to hurt each other. 

Reacting as quickly as he could, Thomas jumped up and grabbed the two by the collar, yanking them apart and refusing to let go. 

“What is going on here?! I space out for two minutes and you two are trying to kill each other again?!” 

Thomas got a response, but it was far from a clear one, the two teenagers yelling over each other until they were shocked into silence by a minor earthquake. Thomas glanced over at Virgil, fighting a smile over the fact that he was accepting his earth powers. 

“Can you two ever shut up?” Virgil asked, pulling the blade of his scythe out of the ground. “He just asked a simple question.” 

As Roman glared and growled in Virgil’s direction, Logan gave Thomas the clear response that he needed. 

“It did start out as a simple sparring match. I had beaten Patton and Roman had beaten Virgil, so the two of us were up and I almost had the match won when Roman said, and I quote, ‘How could a wimp like you have beaten Patton? Lightning isn’t a real element, anyways,’ to which I responded by saying that I didn’t need elements to beat a pretty boy like him and he made the first attack.”

“He deserved it!” Roman snapped. “I was clearly just joking around and just because he’s not nearly as pretty as I am-”

“Guys!” Patton whined. “If you two keep fighting like this every time we train, how can we ever think of beating any bad guys?”

“Patton’s right, you guys,” Thomas pointed out, releasing his grip on the two. “How can you expect to work as a team when you can’t even train together?”

Logan and Roman sighed and glanced at each other before looking back at Thomas apologetically. 

“We got carried away..” Roman muttered. “We’re both at fault and we’ll both try not to let it happen again.” 

“I don’t need Roman to speak for me, but I do agree,” Logan reluctantly added. 

Thomas sighed and opened his mouth to speak once more, interrupted by the radio that the boys kept on. 

“We interrupt this broadcast with an emergency message. People of Edis Village are warned to stay inside after the sighting of some sort of thug disguised as a serpentine.”

Roman scoffed. “The same kind our parents used to warn us about in fairy tales?”

“The exact same threat that children are told about in fairy tales!” 

“You guys should go check it out,” Thomas said. “Never put off for tomorrow what can be done today.”

“It’s probably just some kid scaring the town, surely the police can handle it. We need to train,” Logan argued. 

“Thomas is our teacher.. I think we should at least check it out, since he told us,” Patton added, going to yank his shuriken back out from where Logan threw it at the wooden beam. “Besides, if it really is just some kid, it shouldn’t take us too long.” 

Virgil nodded. “Patton’s right. We go check it out, then we train.” 

“Fine,” Logan grumbled. 

“Let’s make this quick,” Roman sighed as he picked up his discarded sword. 

It was a fairly short trip down to the village and an even shorter time was spent finding the source of their troubles. 

Over the radio, the kid was described to be around their age with half of his face was seemingly painted with scales. He’d even went so far as to give himself as snake-like eye, but he hadn’t bothered changing out of the pajamas that the others identified him by: a simple yellow shirt and black sweat pants.

“Excuse me,” Roman demanded, stepping in front of his team. “What exactly do you think you’re doing?” 

The disguised teen, facing away from the four, groaned and slumped forward a bit, seemingly irritated. “What? Are you here to chase me out too? I just wanted some food, now leave me-” The second the kid turned around, he froze in fear, the same way anybody would if they saw someone carrying a flaming sword or a sparking pair of nunchucks. 

Easily the least threatening, Patton stepped in front of Roman to speak to the boy. “Listen, we don’t want to hurt you, but- Hey!” the icy ninja exclaimed as the kid ran off, leading the chase through the village paths. 

With every passing step, the kid seemed to grow a bit faster, almost losing the ninja a few times until he finally cornered himself, staring back at the group with rage. “I’ve done nothing! Just let me go and-”

Patton threw a shuriken near the kid’s feet and smiled as he was incased in ice from the neck down. “And you’re under arrest.” 

The kid was silent as the four dragged him and his icy prison to jail and stayed that way even as he was put in a cell, almost seeming unbothered by the situation. 

“I knew that would be easy!” Patton cheered as they walked back towards their monastery, spinning his shurikens in his hands. 

“Well, yeah, it was just some kid who thought it’d be smart to celebrate Halloween early,” Virgil sneered, rolling his eyes. 

“An enemy is an enemy,” Roman pointed out as they entered the monastery. 

“And what did you learn from this enemy?” Thomas asked, waiting behind the entrance. 

Logan shrugged. “It was a minor threat, as we thought. Just a kid who wanted to scare some people.” 

“He was probably trying to scare himself some free pizza,” Roman added. “He said something about wanting food before he saw us.” 

Thomas furrowed his eyebrows. “Sounds a bit odd. What else did he say?”

Logan shrugged. “As most trouble makers in his situation would, he asked to be let go.”

“Hm.. Well... It sounds like he shouldn’t be a problem anymore. I guess that’s what matters,” Thomas said as he lead the four back inside. “For now, it’s back to training.”

And train they did, but there was a thought looming in the back of all of their minds as the day went on and even as it came to a close. 

What did that kid really want? 

The next morning could not have come fast enough, Patton being the first two awake to cook. He hummed along to his music as he stirred the pancake batter, figuring it was okay for his team to have a treat of blueberry pancakes after their small victory the day before. Patton made quick work of pouring the batter and serving them onto plates, giving everyone more than enough so they could keep up their strength for the day. As he plated the last ones, though, his music was interrupted by some news. 

“We interrupt this broadcast with an emergency message. A prisoner captured yesterday in Edis Village has escaped and is nowhere to be found. The suspect was last seen wearing a yellow shirt, black pants, and with scales painted over half of his face. Anybody who sees this young man should take great caution and call the police station immediately.”

“Guys!” Patton yelled as he ran over to their large, shared bedroom. “Guys, wake up! That kid from yesterday escaped!” He rummaged through his clothes and pulled out his ninja uniform, quickly changing. 

“We put him in prison, Patton, how could he have escaped?” Roman muttered. 

“Yeah, someone probably just saw something that looked like him or whatever,” Virgil added, pulling his pillow over his head. 

“No, they described exactly him! They said he escaped from his prison cell!”

Confused, but alert, the other three jumped out of bed and got dressed, following Patton back down to the village and running towards what sounded like screams. 

When they reached its source, they did indeed find the kid from before running out of a shop with a sack over his back. 

“Hey, stop!” Roman cried out as he and Virgil began the chase, Patton and Logan staying behind to find out what happened. 

“He just came in and started loading his bag with food,” the shopkeeper told them. “Then he reached into his pockets, he must have had some sort of weapon on him!” 

“We’ll make sure you get paid for everything he took,” Patton promised with an ironically warm smile. 

“I don’t care about that.. I’m just glad nobody was hurt.”  

Roman and Virgil chased the kid out of the village into the nearby woods, wanting to get him away from the people, but also wanting to get back whatever he stole. But as dense as those trees were, it wasn’t long before they both lost sight of him, even with how much the yellow stood out against the trees. 

“Did you see where he turned?” Roman asked as he slowed to a stop. 

“No.. Dang it! We almost had him, too,” Virgil said, dropping his arms and his scythe to his sides. 

“At least he’s out of town.. Hopefully, he won’t be terrorizing anybody anymore, knowing that we’re around.”

“Hopefully..” Virgil muttered as the two began the trek back to the village. 

Far above their heads, a certain teenager pulled an apple from his bag, moaning as the taste hit his tongue. He couldn’t remember the last time he ate something so sweet and he knew it’d probably be the last time before he’d have something like that again, but he did have a long day. And, after pulling those cell bars open, he had to regain his strength somehow. At least he got to keep his money.

[working-on-becoming-a-better-me]

Day 253—Mar. 23, 2021

Okay, so the numbers for my previous consecutive posts were off by a day (like a day ahead) and February 7′s math was way off, but I googled this! so from here on out, we will be accurate! let’s go bois!

BIG UPDATE BOIS! Essentially? I’VE GOTTEN BETTER! Mental health is better, habits are better, outlook on life is better, productivity... isn’t as high as it was when I first started the blog, but it’s doing MUCH better than November and even January.

coping with minecraft:

So, I’m still addicted to the dream smp minecraft fandom. my friend got me a dream hoodie, bucket hat, and a georgenotfound hoodie for my birthday. but! I’m coping better. I’m behind on streams, and am now catching up during Spring Break. For a while, I was pushing back school work to watch and catch up on streams. I promised myself that during free periods I would work since I was catching up on streams at home, and then... yeah. ANYWAY! I’ve gotten a lot better at that recently by noticing that even fanart accounts (accounts dedicated to mcyt-ers) were talking about how they didn’t watch a phasmaphobia stream because they weren’t interested in it, or talking about how they were behind on streams... it really helped me accept the fact that I can be a real fan and not watch every single stream.

cultural convention:

My international school does events with other international schools but because of covid, we can’t travel. I act and made varsity drama (we call it a different name, but yeah!) and we had virtual conferences. I was incredibly friendly and loud and there were tons of zoom calls. Our schools kinda known for being... uh, stuck up? and kinda elitist. Not like I was being fake, but I was making an effort to talk during calls and be active on group chats made. I joke-flirt a lot and focused my attention on one person. A whole thing ensued, but some of the other actors in my school (there were only 11 of us) were joking abut sending me to “horny jail” and one girl kept apologizing for me. During “lounge sessions” I would interject with what I thought were funny comments and she’d say “again, I’d like to apologize for her behavior” and... uh... I cried at school. Cuz I’ve heard way too many times from too many different people about how I’m embarrassing... BUT.

What really helped was the fact that there were late night zoom calls and I was one of only three kids from my school the first night on a call with around 25 people. Other people said I helped give them a really good first impression of our school, especially considering all the things they’d heard previously. The guy I joke-flirted with (I previously dmed him asking if he was okay with it and he said he was) said on a call that I was one of the funniest people he’d met in a while. It was a huge confidence booster in knowing that the efforts I was making were paying off :)

confidence:

Since starting this blog, I’ve been trying to be nicer to myself. I’ve been practicing more positive self speak and have recently realized the difference between the way I speak about and to myself and how some other people do. Being nicer to myself out loud has helped a lot in feeling better and more comfortable.

I wanted to try wearing black masks, but my mom bought the wrong kind. They had patterns and I was really nervous because I didn’t really want to stand out. I used to not care, but... I dunno. Teenagehood and whatnot. We wear uniforms too, so the only differences are in accessories, hair, etc. I’m not sure why, but I was really nervous to wear the new mask patterns to school. But I told myself it was an experiment, to force me to be more confident. I actually forgot I was wearing it until I saw myself. And since I’d posted on my private story saying I was doing this to try and be more comfortable, some of my friends came up to me and told me it was actually cute. Shows that I really had nothing to stress for. Not that it was really self-expression, but for me, and anyone else who needs to hear this, no one cares. Maybe they even wish they had the courage to wear different things as well.

mcyt mantra:

I have a mantra now! adapted from something drunk Wilbur Soot said during Quackity’s livestream, I think. I repeat it when I’m happy and when I’m nervous or scared and I guess... I dunno, I’m like classically conditioning myself? Except not really since I’m doing it out of order. But yeah! get yourself a mantra!!!

character day:

more with confidence! spirit week is just an excuse for kids to not wear their uniforms, but I put a lot of effort into an Ace Ventura outfit I put together. I only saw around two or three other people actually dressed up as characters, but I had so much fun and thought I looked amazing. I was proud that I wasn’t a normie ;]

Also... it’s so humid in this country and the rubber bottoms of my boots actually stuck to the pavement and fell off. I spent the day without the bottoms of my shoes and it was so funny. Even my mom laughed after (she laughed for so long, it was adorable) and she said only I could pull it off and that the friend I walk to school with everyday is lucky to have me as a friend. My mom was telling me about how she never had a friend like me growing up, just so weird and goofy. And it made me happy to think that I can bring so much... zaniness to people’s lives

ao3:

been writing a lot more recently! haven’t been posting on my writing blog since it’s all fanfiction, but it’s helping me write! I update one of my stories every two weeks. When I feel like I’m not doing enough, it’s a nice reminder that I actually can be consistent. I may be getting better... who knows :)

nehs:

been editing lots of papers even though I don’t need to anymore since I made vp of my school’s nehs chapter. but it’s helping me learn too! I’m very instinctual when writing, but obviously when I’m editing I can’t just ask them to change something because “it doesn’t sound right”. So I google explanations and then tell the people who’s papers I’m editing. It helps both them and me!

ipad/drawing:

got a new ipad for my birthday. been messing around with procreate. been doodling in class (only dream team characters so far lol). might be getting better... hopefully I am!

also have a sticky notes app on my ipad and been creating to-do lists! yay!

teaching:

been teaching students in cambodia! last year I had a teaching partner who guided lessons mostly. this year I’m the leading teacher. It’s helping with my fear of leadership and responsibility.

social:

still not the most social, but more active on snapchat now with keeping in contact with some of the cultural convention kids. covids made it harder to keep in contact, and I’ve been trying to reach out more to my closest friend who I’ve not hung out with in a while. not that we don’t see each other at lunch every other day, but I walk to school with, share a class and after school study hall with another friend. so comparably, I’ve spent less time with my closest friend.

recently had a spa day with my small neighborhood gang! my friend painted my other guy friend’s nails! yes! we used face masks as well :)

general update:

- went to the pool the other day and now I’m hecka burnt

- yesterday I wrote letters for honor society points, caught up on math hw, wrote a reflection and plan for a class, reviewed chinese with my mom, met up with my “mentor” for a class

- have been helping a lot of people! am currently a part of two people’s pieces for their theater class and I have a rehearsal later today!

- was doing a lot of work as an officer of thespian honor society—I’m likely going to be on the officer team again next year and, until a few weeks ago, I hadn’t felt like I’d been doing much and was feeling unworthy. but then I was proactive about something and updated our sponser (school’s drama director) on what we as officers decided. felt... prettyyy goooodddd :)

- !!! yesterday I went on a walk and brought money and my student ID, ready to buy bubble tea, but then... I mustered up what little willpower I had and then didn’t buy it. Instead, I bought surprise lilies for my mom (and some groceries she asked me to get)   - been trying to cut out unnecessary sugars and foods. if I’m not hungry, I shouldn’t eat, but also... I listen to my body and if I’m feeling really snacky, I’ll indulge   - recently been craving ice cream, but not the flavors in my fridge so instead I’m just not eating ice cream at all and ate an apple once as a substitute :D

- not sure if I’ve been sleeping more, but it kinda feels like I have been?

- started taking pictures of the world when I think it’s pretty one sunny afternoon when I was laughing lots with a friend... especially right after cul con, I was taking a lot more pictures...

- just been more active (not physically... though occasionally, when bored, I’ll stretch some... but I should try and get more active (I mean... the walk yesterday?))... creatively speaking (ao3, with art), socially online (cul con kids), in person (making plans over spring break!)...

- I just feel like I’ve been putting more effort into life

of course, there are the down bits, like for one project based class where the end product is due in May-ish and it focuses on the “process”... I’m just... not... process-ing. I chose a writing project (why). I’m focusing a lot on my side projects, but not my class writing one :/ as well as that, when assignments pick up, I do too, but when I get down time I feel like I deserve it (which I do!) but I don’t work ahead. I’ve been really busy though. Teaching got cancelled because the school in Cambodia shut down unfortunately due to covid. But before spring break, I was teaching, editing papers, writing my own for lang, doing cul con and then catching up on work I missed because of cul con, studying for tests, attending rehearsals... there’s a lot going on and I need to recognize that I am doing so well, especially compared with a few months prior when I was in a much darker place.

mostly stress has been my plague, but yeah! also in the span of one week, two classes bumped up a grade (or half a grade... we have letters and + system (no -)) so my previously low gpa became slightly less low! It gave me confidence that I can end the semester strong!

procrastination: another plague. I keep delaying setting up college counseling meetings and have delayed this update for a while now... and the project-class...

also have babysitting jobs again so we gon get some monnaayyyyy! (job is not from people we met at the pool, but we did meet people at the pool and their kids liked me so much they asked me mom to get me to babysit them... another boost to confidence! yay :) I’m a likeable person :] )

thanks for sticking around! I’m glad I’m getting this update in because I’m doing... really well :D hope you guys are also doing well or that it gets better!

[insufferable-git]

Tag thingy:

I got tagged by @staganddragon WHO IS MY ABSOLUTE FAV SERIOUSLY GO CHECK OUT HER BLOG I LOVE HER SHE JUST HIT 1K!!!! IM SO PROUD OF HER????

1ST RULE: Tag 9 people you want to get to know better

UHHHHHHHHHH EVERYONE I THOUGHT TO TAG ALREADY GOT TAGGED IN THIS SO IF YOU WANT ME TO GET TO KNOW YOU BETTER GO AHEAD AND SAY THAT I TAGGED YOU! I would love to get to know you all!

2ND RULE: BOLD the statements that are true

APPEARANCE:

I am 5'7" or taller (I think I’m 5’7” exactly???)

I wear glasses

I have at least one tattoo

I have at least one piercing (ears count right?)

I have blonde hair (it’s getting darker as I get older tho :( )

I have brown eyes

I have short hair (sort of??? It’s a ton shorter than it used to be)

My abs are at least somewhat defined

I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY:

I love meeting new people (I LOVE MEETING NEW PEOPLE BUT IM A BIT SHY PLEASE FEEL FREE TO TALK TO ME!!!)

People tell me that Im funny (occasionally)

Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me

I enjoy physical challenges

I enjoy mental challenges

Im playfully rude with people I know well

I started saying things ironically and now I can’t stop saying it. (I say Rip and Lmao a lot)

ABILITY:

I can sing well (sort of? Could be better. Eh I might start taking lessons to get better)

I can play instruments (yup! I play the ukulele and violin! I’m also attempting to teach myself piano(I’m bad at it still tho))

I can do over 30 push-ups without stopping

Im a fast runner

I can draw (I like to think I can)

I have a good memory

Im good at doing math in my head (fairly good, could be better!)

I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute

I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling

I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch

I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES:

I enjoy playing sports (lol I play golf)

Im on a sports team at my school or somewhere else (I used to be on the girls golf team at my highschool but now I’m in college soooo)

Im in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else (I USED TO BE- hopefully I can join a local orchestra soon!)

I have learned a new song in the past week

I work out at least once a week (no but I really should)

I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months

I have drawn something in the past month

I enjoy writing (but for some reason I don’t write enough???)

Fandoms are my #1 passion (one of my #1 passions, there’s lots)

I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES:

I have had my first kiss

I have had alcohol

I have scored the winning goal in a sports game

I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting

I have been at an overnight event

I have been in a taxi

I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year (yup lmao)

I have beaten a video game in one day (I. LOVE. Video. Games)

I have visited another country (yup! I’ve been to japan! I would love to see Europe though!)

I have been to several of my favourite bands concerts (I’ve only gone to a few concerts in my life!)

RELATIONSHIPS:

Im in a relationship

I have a crush on a celebrity

I have a crush on someone I know

I have been in at least 3 relationships (only 3 to be exact lol)

I have never been in a relationship

I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them

I get crushes easily

I have had a crush on someone for over a year

I have been in a relationship for at least a year

I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE:

I have at least one person I consider a best friend

I live close to my school (I live on my universities campus if that counts lmao)

My parents are still together

I have at least one sibling (yup! I have a twin sister!)

I live in the United States

There is snow right now where I live

I have hung out with a friend in the past month

I have a smartphone

I have at least 50 CDs (between my family we have way more than 50... we all share most of the CDs so I guess it counts???)

I share my room with someone (at college I do, but I’m going to be moving back home in like a week so I’ll be back to having my own room again!)

RANDOM SHIT:

I have breakdanced (aw HELL YEAH)

I have had a teacher with a last name thats hard to pronounce

I have dyed my hair

Im listening to one song on repeat right now

I have punched someone in the last week

I know someone who has gone to jail

I have broken a bone

I have eaten a waffle today

I know what I want to do with my life (lol NOPE)

I speak at least 2 languages

(I GOT TAGGED ON MY MAIN BLOG TOO SO IM SORRY IF YOU SEE THIS POST TWICE)

[goldenshowerrequiem]

Ooh, I got tagged by @shsl-gangster to do a thing. Looks like it’s time to post something about myself rather than a JoJo meme for once.

Rules: Bold those statements that are true for you (but I’m probably gonna be all extra and add more info). Tag 9 people you’d like to know better. APPEARANCE I am 5′7″ or taller (damnit I’m like 5′6.5″) I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo (nope, that shit terrifies me) I have blond hair (dark blond now, used to be lighter) I have brown eyes (I don’t even know what colour my eyes are, sort of greenish-grey I guess?) I have short hair (eh, kinda average length for a dude) My abs are at least somewhat defined ( I wish, getting there tho. I can dream) I have or have had braces. PERSONALITY I love meeting people People tell me that I’m funny (sarcastically most of the time) Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me (it depends on the problem but I like to think I’ve been helpful on a number of occasions) I enjoy physical challenges (I held my breath for like 2 minutes once out of water, proudest achievement of my life) I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well (I’m far meaner to my friends than anyone else, but it’s a mutual thing) I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There’s something I’d change about my personality (I’d love to not be lazy) ABILITY I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 push-ups without stopping (Had to check before answering this one) I’m a fast runner I can draw well (I really wish I could but I’m too lazy/busy to try at the moment) I have a good memory I’m good at doing math in my head (no clue if I’m better than average at this or not) I can’t hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people on arm wrestling (I think so at least) I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch (I’m not exactly great at it but I enjoy cooking) I know how to throw a proper punch (I’d like to think so, but I’m sure a martial artist would tell me otherwise) 

HOBBIES I enjoy playing sports (only some sports tho, swimming being my favourite) I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I’ve learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months (ngl I hate running) I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing (kinda? I guess. I like writing a lot about my favourite series online but I’m more of a thinker and a talker than a writer) FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION (idk for this one, but I definitely like getting involved in them) I do or have done martial arts (a long time ago)

EXPERIENCE I have had my first kiss (It’ll happen someday... hopefully) I have had alcohol (like twice) I have scored the winning goal in sports game (I mean I probably have at least once but I don’t remember) I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting (again, I probably have but I don’t remember) I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi (like once but It wasn’t even a proper taxi ride) I have been in the hospital or ER in the past years (general anaesthetic is fun) I have beaten a video game in one day (too many) I have visited another country (went to the Netherlands once, loved it) I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts (don’t really have a favourite band) RELATIONSHIPS I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship (I mean I was kinda in a relationship once but not really) I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have had feelings for a friend

(people have told me that I might be “aromantic” before, but idk. Most people on here probably know a lot more about that kind of stuff than I do)

MY LIFE I have at least one person I consider a best friend I live close to my school (HA, I wish) My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I lived in the United States (I’m a Brit) There’s snow right now where I live (not the Scottish kind of Brit) I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CDs (don’t own any) I share my room with someone RANDOM SHIT I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie (well this is oddly specific) I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce (sorry French people but I really struggle with your names (and language in general)) I have dyed my hair I’m listening to a song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the last week (not seriously tho) I know someone who has gone to jail I have broken a bone (I have lucked my way through life so far, hopefully this will continue to be the case) I know what I want to do with my life (at least for the next few years)  I have eaten a waffle today (I’d love to eat a waffle but I’m being tested for a wheat allergy at the moment and it’s hell) I speak at least 2 languages (I got a B in GCSE German, that’s about as close to speaking another language as I get) I have made a new friend in the past year (a bunch of ‘em)

This made me realise that I really haven’t said much about myself on this blog. I probably should. I’m 17 years old, male, straight, and I like JoJo (as you probably know), The Elder Scrolls (I’m a huge nerd for this one), Dragon Ball, Danganronpa, Pokemon, Halo, Mount and Blade and a bunch of other games/anime. Other than that, I’m into science (particularly microbiology, zoology and food science) and history (especially ancient history and Mesoamerican history). Not much more to say that I can think of. Feel free to message or ask me about anything.

Anyway, this is the part where I tag people. I won’t be able to tag 9, but I’ll tag a few. Don’t feel obliged to do it or anything. @diavolo-senpai (my first follower) @badlydrawnjojo2star (my favourite art blog, all of your art is super awesome and it really shows that you both love and understand best JoJo) @lupus-lunarem (my biggest fan, thanks for all the support!) @dayferismad @machacapigeon @shitty-yama (other rad people who I appreciate). Oh, and if you want a... cleaner version of this template, you should probably get it from @shsl-gangster . Thanks again for the tag!

[i-mi]

Get to know me meme and a brief ramble

Thanks to @scottishly for tagging me! 

Figured this gives me something to post... I haven’t opened ts2 since my queue last ran out oops. But I promised myself, when I reinstalled the game, that I wasn’t going to put any pressure on myself to play or post regularly, especially with my current health issues. I definitely enjoy the game more taking it at a slower pace. Also, I’m really enjoying simply lurking my dash again and seeing all your lovely games! So thank you for that, guys.

Also, today is my birthday! I’m alone most of today and just trying to rest up, as this evening I’m going out for a meal with my family. This is actually the first time I’ve done any “activity” in the evening since before Christmas, because of how my condition works. I have most energy first thing in the morning, and then that energy rapidly evaporates as the day goes on. Sometimes I’m completely immobile by evening, even if I was good when I first woke up ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. So I’ve been slightly nervous about today for that reason, but of course I want to make the most of today and I’ve been doing better with pacing etc. recently so hopefully it’ll be fine. My family understands anyway. If I’m unconscious by the end of the meal, they won’t hold it against me.

OK, enough of that and onto the meme.

1) Rules: Tag 9 people who you would like to know better.

I have no clue who hasn’t been tagged yet haha. So feel free to ignore especially if you’ve already been tagged. 

@kayleigh-83 @simsterlyrock @allisas @selenaq13 @marvelann @nimitwinklesims @simtzu @deedee-sims @snapdragoned

Relationship Status: single Last Song I Listened To:  Flaws by Litany Last Book Read/Listened To: Nine Folds Make a Paper Swan by Ruth Gilligan (highly recommended, guys!) Favorite Color: blue Top Three Shows: Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell (great mini-series adaptation of one of my favourite books! Just received the dvd as a bday present, so going to rewatch it soon), The Bridge (Swedish/Danish crime series), Broadchurch (I was super late on this one, only just watched series 1 and 2 before the last series. Loved it!) Top Three Characters: I’m sure there are others but right now - Iris from Margaret Atwood’s The Blind Assassin (recently re-read this, so that’s why she came to mind so quickly!), Ellie from Broadchurch (going to miss her so much now the show is over *sobs*), Harry from, well, Harry Potter heheh Top Three Ships: eh, I don’t really know? I never really “ship” characters (and especially not real people, yuck haha). Some recent fictional romantic relationships that I liked then: Hoonie/Yangjin from Pachinko (the book I’m currently reading and actually most of the couples so far I really like), Laura and Kit from Erin Kelly’s He Said/She Said.. can’t think of any others right now!

2) Rules: BOLD the statements that are true for you!

APPEARANCE: I am 5'7" or taller I wear glasses I have at least one tattoo I have at least one piercing I have blonde hair I have brown eyes I have short hair My abs are at least somewhat defined I have or have had braces

PERSONALITY: I love meeting new people People tell me that I’m funny Helping others with their problems is a big priority for me I enjoy physical challenges I enjoy mental challenges I’m playfully rude with people I know well I started saying something ironically and now I can’t stop saying it There is something I would change about my personality

ABILITY: I can sing well I can play an instrument I can do over 30 pushups without stopping I’m a fast runner I can draw well I have a good memory (well I do usually, not with my current health issues though..) I’m good at doing math in my head I can hold my breath underwater for over a minute I have beaten at least 2 people in arm wrestling I know how to cook at least 3 meals from scratch I know how to throw a proper punch

HOBBIES: I enjoy playing sports I’m on a sports team at my school or somewhere else I’m in an orchestra or choir at my school or somewhere else I have learned a new song in the past week I work out at least once a week (depends what we’re counting as a “work out” but yeah haha) I’ve gone for runs at least once a week in the warmer months I have drawn something in the past month I enjoy writing FANDOMS ARE MY #1 PASSION I do or have done martial arts

EXPERIENCES: I have had my first kiss I have had alcohol I have scored the winning goal in a sports game I have watched an entire season of a TV show in one sitting I have been at an overnight event I have been in a taxi I have been in the hospital or ER in the past year I have beaten a video game in one day I have visited another country I have been to one of my favorite band’s concerts

RELATIONSHIPS: I’m in a relationship I have a crush on a celebrity I have a crush on someone I know I have been in at least 3 relationships I have never been in a relationship I have asked someone out or admitted my feelings to them I get crushes easily I have had a crush on someone for over a year I have been in a relationship for at least a year I have had feelings for a friend

MY LIFE: I have at least one person I consider a “best friend” I live close to my school My parents are still together I have at least one sibling I live in the united states There is snow right now where I live I have hung out with a friend in the past month I have a smartphone I have at least 15 CD’s I share my room with someone

RANDOM SHIT: I have breakdanced I know a person named Jamie I have had a teacher with a last name that’s hard to pronounce I have dyed my hair I’m listening to one song on repeat right now I have punched someone in the past week I know someone who has gone to jail

[ikkleosu]

Debunk, Dissect and Destress

OKay rather than dealing with all the anons in my inbox - because although they all say different things the essence is the same - I’m going to make this post, and maybe some others, to hopefully answers your worries.

Generally speaking I’m not a fan of comparing couples, or potential couples, but sadly needs must from your asks so I’m going to warn right now there is “dissing” of the C@rzekiel pairing, there are parallels to R@chonne pairing, so run away now if that’s not your thing.

The main thing people seem to be worried about is Crzekiel happening is more likely than caryl, the alleged parallels in Bury Me Here, and the last scene of the ep, so I’m going to try and allay these fears in this post.

The rest is under a cut

ANd let’s start here:

1) Read ALL Melissa’s interviews post-episode:

http://comicbook.com/thewalkingdead/2017/03/12/does-carol-love-daryl-/

https://www.yahoo.com/tv/the-walking-dead-postmortem-melissa-mcbride-on-carols-nightmares-and-daryls-sacrifice-071533000.html

http://www.amc.com/shows/the-walking-dead/talk/2017/03/spoilers-the-walking-dead-qa-melissa-mcbride-carol

Now notice a few things: 1) How often she is asked and talks about Daryl 2) how little she talks about Ezekiel (especially romantically) 3) go back and do 1 again, it’s worth it. :D

Also take notice of this quote from the Yahoo interview, about the “One Way” sign:

“ That was cute. Yeah, it kind of is. As it turns out, I don’t know how much I can get into that, but it just turns… we can read all kinds of stuff into that. And the arrow, I do believe, was pointing backwards. “

Interesting huh that she can’t talk about that and it points AWAY from Kingdom? (I’m not saying I told you so, but I told you so LOl)

Notice also ALL the post-Bury Me Here there were no questions about Carol and Ezekiel romance to Scott Gimple - the man who is both the showrunner and wrote this episode - not a SINGLE ONE. Not even on Talking Dead. 

And in all the reviews I’ve read (over a dozen) only 1 mentions anything about Carol and Ezekiel romantically.

It wasn’t a thing, no matter how much part of the fandom wanted it to be a  thing.

2) Let’s talk about the “parallels”. Now I’m saying straight up I haven’t done extensive research on what the OTHER fans are saying, I’ve seen 3 posts about the parallels, and I’m going off them. If there’s other parallels being claimed, feel free to let me know what I’ve missed.

a) Clear parallels - “Focus on the unhinged guy meanwhile, there's something else brewing with new relationships" “Gimple wrote Clear, which he admitted it was the first time he wrote it with Richonne in mind and it was a Morgan featured episode. And he wrote tonight's episode which featured Morgan. In both episodes it never started off as anything glaring about a romantic setup, but they both ended with glaring possibilities.”

I mean, Lord, do I have to explain why this is NOT a parallel? Why there is nothing parallel in these episodes beyond Gimple writing them and the focus on Morgan’s mental health? I mean they are literally saying, the only connection is there two people interacting in that ep and they later became a couple. That’s it. 

On the same basis, we could claim No Sanctuary was a parallel to Clear - both written by Scott Gimple, both important Morgan episodes, and we have the Carol and Daryl interaction to “parallel” RIchonne.

b) Other R*chonne parallels - 

“Nabila’s words to Ezekiel were incredibly reminiscent of Hershel’s words to Rick right before Michonne showed up to the gates.” 

Yes, they are similar speeches and the parallel is that they are made to leaders who are afraid to act, who want to hide amongst their crops and concentrate on living peacefully behind a fence. And by the end of the episode they have both learned they can’t live like that anymore, that death and destruction will find it’s way inside (the flu, and the weevils) and destroy what you’ve worked hard to grow, but that it can be rebuilt. 

That’s the parallel, not that shortly after this scene Rick talks to Michonne who he later hooks up with.

“Carol tells Ezekiel they must fight, and Ezekiel says he already knows. Just like Michonne and Rick in the jail cell in “Hearts Still Beating” 

Again, yes, this is a parallel between the 2 leaders again - both of them having refused to stand up and go to war, but have this moment of clarity after the death of two of their people (Spencer/Olivia, RIchard/Benjamin). It’s not a romance parallel, it’s a parallel about Rick and Ezekiel AGAIN.

“Ezekiel tells Carol they’re going to fight, but “not today”, which is like when Michonne told Rick they could wait a few more days.”

Well it’s a stretch to be fair, because the meaning of the 2 exchanges is very different.  Ezekiel is acknowledging that rebuilding focusing on Henry and the garden is as important as preparing for war. Whereas Michonne is reassuring Rick they have time to get the weapons they need to get the Junkyard people on side.  Different words (”In a few more days”. ), different meaning but a similar phrase about time. Again if it’s any parallel, it’s the two leaders.

Note NONE of the alleged parallels have been about the relationship between RIck and Michonne.

MEANWHILE, we have DIRECT parallels to Sherry and Dwight and their MARRIED relationship with each other, and speaking of Rick and Michonne, we have “I can’t lose you” - a phrase which has NOT been uttered by anyone except those in a romantic relationship.... soooo 

3) The finale scene in the garden 

I’ve kind of answered this above with the first parallel, but this isn’t a scene about Carol planting roots. This is a scene about 2 characters (technically 3, as Morgan is the same and we see him immediately afterwards) who has come to a realisation - that sometimes sacrifices are needed in order to achieve peace.

This is all about Carol and Ezekiel arriving at the same place in terms of knowing what must be done, but knowing they can survive it. They are doing ti for Henry and others like him. Planting new crops to replace the ones they lost, preparing new growth for the time after the war when they will all needs to see HOPE.

That is what that scene is about HOPE for a future for Henry, that is free from the Saviours.

When you look at it that way, and look at it in context with all the info above, you can see it’s not a big romantic foreshadowing moment.

And here’s a bonus 4) relating to that:

Cast your mind upward to that comment by Melissa about the One Way Sign. In fact let’s have it twice, it’s so good:

“That was cute. Yeah, it kind of is. As it turns out, I don’t know how much I can get into that, but it just turns… we can read all kinds of stuff into that. And the arrow, I do believe, was pointing backwards.”

Now think about that. Think about the fact it’s pointing away from the Kingdom. And think about the fact Melissa is saying she can’t talk about, therefor it has significance. And know this,. when the crzekiel shippers believed the sign was pointing TO the Kingdom, they all said for sure it was showing where Carol’s home was going to be, where she’d settle, where her future lies.

When they found it it’s pointing AWAY from the Kingdom, suddenly it doesn’t mean any of that. now, to me, that says it all about these “signs” for crzekiel.