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raspberry-gloaming · 5 months

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I keep seeing videos online being like "back in my day we wanted toys and things that were popular and people around us also wanted for Christmas but now my kid wants trendy things and an Iphone 15"

and ive seen it phrased so many times that their idk 8 year old is like "I need the iPhone 15 for Christmas and I'm you bought me the iPhone 14 for my birthday but now that's old and crusty" and acting like wow my kid is so spoilt and bratty kids these days suck like - YOU ARE TJE ONE WHO BOUGHT A KID THE IPHONE 14 FOR THEIR BIRTHDAY?! THEY'RE 8. YOURE DOING THIS!

They act like it's the kids fault when really they're growing up with access to things they really oughtened to, and some of the other things are just "my friend thinks it's cool and the rich kids at school have it so I want it" like you millenia parent didn't do the exact same thing just with other things. I hate that they're making fun of the kids due to their parenting choices.

#their Christmas list in entirety adds up to so much money!#how am I gonna afford all this?#I've also seen parents claiming their kids are so spoilt and bratty because #but like... aren't Christmas lists normally a “here's a bunch of things I'd love and then you pick some stuff off it so I get a surprise!”#dudes and girlypops #both as gender neutral terms #your doing this to yourself #creating a negative attitude towards your own children #girl I never expected my Christmas list and in still a teen so not too long ago I was that age #I asked for at least one type of animal every year (degus - chinchillas - rabbits - snakes - leopard geckos - dogs - cats - chickens -#bearded dragons - the lot)#knowing for well I'd never get them #and my parents wouldn't because no you don't get everything you want this is a wishlist not an everything shopping list #but holding out a teeny hope that Santa would take pity #but my point is that those among other things I knew I wasn't likely to get #millenials #parenting #gen alpha #Christmas

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grave-st0ned · 9 months

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GAYS, GHOULS, AND EVERYONE IN BETWEEN:

THEY’RE MAKING MORE THIS IS NOT A DRILL

*idk when these will drop but i will update when/if i find out*

**UPDATE 8/24 THESE ARE DROPPING FRIDAY 8/25 (TOMORROW) 9a PST !!!!!**

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mildmayfoxe · 3 months

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yknow it is crazy to think about how much i have been able to improve my quality of life by selling art as a supplementary form of income. like obviously it's a second job and it's taxing but it's also so rewarding to know how much people enjoy my work and how much good it is doing me to like, feel like i can buy snacks at the store. to be able to get takeout every once in a while. like obviously those are extremely minor changes or things most people take for granted but to me it's huge. having berries in the house when they're out of season and more expensive. buying things for CONVENIENCE??! it feels so crazy to me to have such a sense of luxury which i know says more about the bleak feeling of poverty that's followed me around my entire adult life than anything else but i feel so much gratitude that i am afforded these small luxuries at least in part because of people that like my art. not to mention how nice is is to make things consistently again when, prior to 2020, i hadn't made art regularly in almost a decade. anyway. it's cool!

#of course there are extenuating circumstances! i finished my student loans in 2020 with help from family #i moved to a cheaper place in 2020. i get paid more now than i did then; even though i'm only working four days a week #obviously i am not RICH; i cannot afford to live by myself. housing here is crazy. but i can buy MEAT at the STORE #not only do i have SNACKS in the house i also have MULTIPLE KINDS! do you know how crazy that is.#and now of course a lot of it is combatting my wicked sense of guilt for buying anything i dont 'need'. like snacks.#but obviously i still buy them i just make myself feel bad about it for a while first. lmao #i mean i haven't done my taxes for 2023 yet who knows maybe i'll be hit with some big fees and i'll take this all back #but idk you gotta be grateful. anyway i think i'm gonna order pizza later #chatpost #i used patreon money to buy a new desk chair a couple years ago. a NEW one!! not one from the street!

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cinnamon-phrog · 2 months

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I feel too sick to sleep right now, everything's' too cold or too hot and I can't even breathe without thinking I'm gonna throw up

#it's because i've been drinking diluted juice #i swear the shit they put in that makes me delirious with fever #ughhhh so sick wish a nice big strong mechanoid could help me rn :( real shame #gonna drink water till the middle of the night. there goes my plans for a better nights' sleep :<#i do genuinely feel awful and i have been feeling so for a while and it's all my own doing. not eating healthy. stressing out and barely-#-sleeping. i have stretch marks from losing weight and circles under my eyes. everything's fuzzy. i keep forgetting basic things.#i'm worried about my future. i'm too disabled to function with a job but not disabled 'enough' just because i can speak 'clearly'#i've got no irl friends or family to fall back on. i can only travel so far and i get meltdowns far easier now #months ago i was treated like a pet. now i'm an adult before i ever got to be a child.#i want to be held. be loved without even having to say a word to each other. not even by an f//o but by someone who'll be willing to love m #but all i am now is sick and hungry and hot and cold and tired and awake.#i can't imagine how much worse it is for other people though. i've seen awful images and they're not even a taste of how terrible it is #i worry i won't be able to afford food in the future. or have a stable flat or apartment. that social services will let me down again #this year was meant to be a break but i'm constantly worrying about the time i become 18. my autism and lack of any social life-#will impact me and i'll be fucked over easier than ever. and that happens often #college brought me panic attacks where i'd physically harm myself till i got migraines in front of people and they didn't bat an eye #i could be kicking and screaming and begging for help but they'll just ignore me or infantilise me

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vixenicks · 1 month

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sorry for reblogging fugly trends from 2012 it's for my enrichment

#have i ever told u guys about my early 2010s fashion and pop culture fixation #i got a gen you ine aeropostle skirt recently ive never been happier #also gonna try and get my hands on some freshtops tanks #eventually #also their shorts though ive only found one secondhand listing in my size #i need the naked1 pallet or i'll die #its funny to me because like #yes within fashionblogging and lifestyle teen youtube girls from that era #consummerism was a massive thing (it still is but its so obvious when you look at blog archives and videos from that era)#youtubers with non disclosed sponsorships #bethany mota and amanda steele vaguely saying “this brand sent me this product to give to you guys!”#it was really just watching the birth of what we know as influencers today and its really interesting to me #theres a lack of cuts theres a lack of scripting theres long tangents #people were only just then realizing you can make money via haul videos and makeup tutorials #bethany mota had a fashion line at aeropostle purely because of her status as a youtuber #there was a big rise at the time of people being against flaunting overpriced designer during that time because of the recession #but there was still a hugggeee hold with consumerism and classism #hauls with brandy and f21 and ae like i cant afford that im sure you cant afford $600 at american eagle on a weekly basis #i have lots of thoughts idk #anyways backtracked #i think its funny because here i am talking about how horribly i need b&bw and vs pink #but like its all secondhand shit for $15 online now #nobody wants this stuff!!!!!! cycles!!! capitalism!!!! i dont know you get what i mean!!!!!!!!!!!#skyler posting

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cassynite · 4 months

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#cassy bitches #i am. so fucking tired and annoyed and stressed #our fucking shower hasn't worked in two weeks bc my parter decided to remodel and then didnt finish the job!#and now her fucking sibling fucked up our dishwasher and it leaked water EVERYWHERE including apparently under the floorboards #and im pretty sure i can smell black mold in the kitchen now which! great! another nightmare we're gonna have to fix ourselves #since we cant afford to get a contractor and even if we could no one ever returns our calls when we do try to hire someone #AND my friend went to surgery for appendicitis and that's freaking me out #and ON TOP of that ive been creatively juiced out and feeling like shit about the things i make and my ocs and like. me #like everyone's just been secretly tolerating me all this time and if i disappear no one's going to notice #i feel like nothing i make or am doing is worthwhile and im just GROSS and ANGRY and ANNOYING #and even complaining in tags on a post makes me feel like a whiny baby like. there are wars etc why am i complaining boo hoo #so i cant even talk to people about how i feel bc it makes me so ashamed that im feeling this way to begin with #ive been resisting the urge to just delete everything at this point bc then at least i wont have the urge to check everything and feel wors #why does awful shit always happen right around my birthday. why am i cursed like this

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du-hjarta-skulblaka · 27 days

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So yeah avoiding my phone didn't work and also meant I sat on the kitchen floor staring into space for about 3 hours before Alfie woke up but hey at least I didn't break anything

Them being around is helping a little but they're also struggling and it fuckin sucks bc I know we're both just. Rotating money stress in our minds

#like. i went out earlier to get bread #just bread bc we cant afford anything else #got just enough in the bank to cover the work thing but since management stjll hasnt gotten back to me on HOW to pay it its like #our electricity is already in debt lol it has a thing where you can go £10 into debt before it switches off #and it usually wont switch off over weekends #presumably bc all but 1 places nearby thst we can top it up at are shut on weekends but anyway #so we're like. okay. it MIGHT last today and if it does thst SHOULD mean itll last till monday.#but then itll be at least a tenner in debt #then we only have to last till thursday but its. do we keep this money thats for The Thing that is once again unclear on how urgent it is #or do we spend it on the Soon To Be Immdiately Urgent thing #and thats not even CONSIDERING food lmao we. i got 2 loaves of bread so we can at least survive on toast for a few days #we got 3 maybe 4 meals worth of stuff still in the kitchen #like...at this point i dont even care if i have to go a few days without eating at all to make it to thursday but its.#its so fucked up those are the terms im thinking in #and this isnt asking for more donations i really cannot take that today im at the fuckin bottom of my barrel #and already feel hopeless and useless and an active drain to everything around me #but its. like. how. why. why is it still like this. why is it looking extremely unlikely its ever gonna change.#whats the point if its all for a few scattered handful hours of actual peace and comfort never mind happiness #tldr yes i am once again suicidal but small s #like in the sense of i would feel immense relief if a truck came at me on my way to work tomorrow and would not step out of the way but #dont have it in me to actually consciously act upon

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deoidesign · 1 year

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did anything or anyone influence you makings steve trans? aside from the obvious adam and steve jokes. was there ever a point where he was not trans or that you decided he would be? have you drawn him with top surgery scars or is he a no op/supernatural op guy?

Uhhhh honestly i didn't think about the Adam and Steve thing I just wanted to hit him with my trans beam. I think over like 50% of my characters aren't cis at this point (but I don't like... count so idk)

I also don't ever really feel like I "decide" characters are trans, it feels more like they eventually come out to me, honestly. So I don't feel like there was any point he wasn't trans, even if that might be objectively true haha

I didn't start talking about it til recently, though, cause I wasn't sure if I'd run into any issues making it canon, but obviously that's not an issue I was just really scared about everything when I first started my contract haha (And I mean Everything, at one point I was worried it wouldn't be okay for Steve to be??? hairy???? I legitimately asked if that's okay cause I was scared I'd get in trouble. I dont remember why anymore)

I didn't realize I'd basically be allowed to do whatever I want, and Steve being trans is very much something I want!

I draw him with top surgery scars in any human AUs, but I decided he's supernatural op in canon basically. Werewolves are shapeshifters, so why not?

#ask #long answer lol sorry #I also feel like this makes. no sense.#listen #as someone who grew up in an incredibly homophobic household #and an even MORE transphobic one #it was. unreal to me #to think that I would just be... allowed... to make anyone gay and trans #especially with how media is in general #like the amount of freedom I am afforded is incredible.#I really thought I would be facing some kind of corporate pushback but webtoon really doesn't care at all #so now that I know I've got the freedom to explore these things I'm goin full hog season 2 is gonna be GREAT #ttawebcomic #time and time again #steve #asks #writing rambles

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rithmeres · 8 months

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whenever i have absolutely nothing going on and don’t need to be anywhere or do anything, everyone around me is perfectly healthy but when i have huge things that i absolutely cannot afford to miss then half my family gets sick at once with different diseases

#WHY ARE THEY SICK ALL THE TIME BUT SPECIFICALLY ONLY WHEN I DESPERATELY NEED TO STAY HEALTHY #i’m gonna start killing. i have a big thing on friday and a concert next week and a tattoo coming up and i need to be okay for all of those #and i’m running things at the community house for two weeks straight. i cannot afford to be out of commission for even a few days.#& nobody gets it. for me being sick is not just unfortunate it is literally hell on earth. the worst possible thing that could happen to me #i’d rather break a bone or sprain my ankle or have an ibs flare or crash my car. literally anything else #AND DO NOT GET ME STARTED ON OTHER TYPES OF ILLNESS. I WILL KILL EVERYONE IN THIS HOUSE AND THEN MYSELF.#tell me. why. when i was living with 4 roommates in a cramped apartment for 4 years. i only got sick twice.#but living with my family. for 9 months. i have gotten sick 4 times. and most times it was directly traceable to someone else in the house.#i am filled with such unspeakable violence i need to leave i need to leave i need to leave #GUESS IM NOT GONNA EAT FOR A WEEK BECAUSE GOD FORBID I INTRODUCE A PATHOGEN INTO MY SYSTEM #<- i know this is not how it works but that is how my brain has rationalized it for decades

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thedreadvampy · 7 months

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idk I had a very interesting therap today but I just

like it's all very well to recognise that I gotta have a fucking open-ended breakdown and jump face first into the Sadness Bog sometimes instead of sitting on all my feelings

but like

I still have to go to work, you know? it's like. ok yeah have a breakdown which like until you jump into it you don't know if it's going to last an hour or a year. yeah go ahead that's all grand. you do have to get up in the morning and go to work though. you're not allowed to not do that. or to not pay the rent or not shower or not eat.

like all my friends and loved ones are constantly like 'you know you're allowed to be sad right' and it's like. AM I??? because I STILL HAVE TO PAY RENT.

#red said #the thing my therapist keeps pointing out is like. i got on this adulthood thing WAY too early #metaphorically i have Had To Go To Work In The Morning since i was like. 4. bc i am congenitally incapable of #Not Thinking About Consequences. and it's so important to be Good and Tough and Have It Together #but like. maybe if id done more crying and melting down when i DIDN'T Have To Go To Work In The Morning bc i was a Literal Infant #i might be a more balanced adult now that i actually DO. Have To Go To Work In The Morning.#what do people like. do. when they have to have feelings but also meet adult responsibilities? impossible. gotta choose.#i think it doesn't help that i already really struggle to work a full time job. like I'm already late basically every day bc i a night guy #so it's like. there's no give in this. maybe if i was back into a 3-4 day week? but idk if i can afford that #but also the work is only partly work. it's also like. having human relationships. eating. washing. being a person.#but idk. like. until i have some genuinely open-ended time i think I'm gonna always find it impossible to actually let go #i said in therapy it's like. like sadness specifically is like a thick muddy bog. and i can dip a foot in it #but bc i know i need to be able to keep moving #i can only stick a foot in and deal with a bit of it if I'm holding onto something. so in practise i can only cry #right before it becomes inappropriate to cry. so like. end of a therapy session. heading to a train station after seeing someone.#that kind of thing. it's a safety thing.#it would be much more effectively Dealing With to go dive into the bog and plough through it #but I DON'T KNOW HOW LONG THAT'LL TAKE and i have to like. come out all muddy and deal with that #and there's always somewhere i gotta be soon. i can't just jump into the mud. not cause I'll get hurt i just Don't Have Time #anyway. feelings. how do they work. embarrassed about having them. embarrassed about suppressing them. generally just embarrassed.

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mrcowboydeanwinchester · 10 months

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I'M GOING TO SEE BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN LIVE IN THE WEST END AGAIN. THIS WEEK. OH MY FUCKING GOD

#I JUST BOOKED THE TICKETS I AM SO FUCKING EXCITED #i am also aware just how lucky i am to be able to afford going to see this twice with travel prices and everything #i'm so excited this show has genuinely changed my life #and it's in the round and so i'm sitting opposite to where i sat last time #A WHOLE NEW EXPERIENCE ALL FOR MEEEEEEEE #new angles!!!! getting to see what i missed before !!!!!#GONNA FEEL INSANE #oh my god i didn't think i'd get to go again i am so LUCKY #brokeback mountain #ola.txt

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roachemoji · 7 months

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#bo posting #i have been awake for less than an hour and i am fucking miserable #and for what??? idk #roommate wants to like have fun tomorrow #and all i can think about is how miserable im gonna be waiting for her to wake up #how much ill hate being drunk. how dangerous thatll be #how ill feel like ass being around her drinking #how guilty ill feel about her buying dinner #how im gonna go to bed at like 11 fucking pm because i cant? afford to fuck up my sleep

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quarklynx · 5 months

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How the fuck are people out here buying face creams worth hundreds of dollars?!?? In this economy?? This tiny-ass tenth of an ounce tester I got gifted is worth more than I spent on groceries last week!! I wish I could afford this fancy stuff, my face has literally never felt softer, not even on the day I was born istg, but bro- hundreds of dollars????? Absolutely insane

#lynx thinks #its so nice... but 300 dollars for two ounces of face cream? how the hell #ill keep the packaging probably forever because it's unbelievably wonderful and feels so so so so nice on my skin #but theres no goddamn way I'll probably ever be able to afford to buy it again #which makes me so sad! because as soon as i use this all up itll just be gone and i can never get more #makes me wonder if having a taste of luxury is worse than not knowing of the luxury in the first place #and i cant even cry about it cuz a single use of this stuff is probably worth more than a whole unit of any other cosmetic i own #i cant waste it like that! no way! when else am i ever gonna be able to have this #icb she cared so little for it that she just gave it to me

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bardicious · 5 months

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My levels of spite have always been hilarious.

#personal #I took down all the marvel / dc fanart I had on my portfolio site #Im not taking them down on social media or anything #I just kinda realized a month or two ago that making fanart doesn't make me that happy #so sorry if yall followed me for that x'''''''D I am sorry #(I probably will do one offs sometimes - but realistically I can't afford to spend more time on fanart)#okay theres ONE loki art on my site #but its jotun loki - and I really like how the sketch came out sooooooo #I will accept commissioned work - but I aint doing it on my off hours lmao #i am gonna try to write some fanfic THO - one day x'''''''''''''''''''D #been creating lots more original art the past two months and I think its made a world of difference mentally #also not being on social media as much is great too #anyway - thank you for listening to my rambles <3 still here - just less - and my brain energy is turbulent lmao

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bibiana112 · 7 months

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I'm going to draw wktd fanart (to cope with a highly specific situation) while I still have the time for it (looming employment) and that is a promise to myself (I probably have something else I said I'd work on but whatever)

#I strt at the end of the month and I'm #I'm not even gonna say I'm scared I'm not I'm just not quite excited either? I'll pull through #and hopefully eat better and be able to buy fun things thaNK FUCK #however also taxes. I am not looking forward to taxes #like it's literally an ideal position if I don't manage it for whatever reason that'll be uh. something big for me to find out limits wise #but it's whatever I'm curious and I gotta try #and like I said god I'll be so happy to be able to afford hyper specific autism approved food that's gonna make everything so much easier #oh also the hyper specific situation? don't worry about it. just know I'm going to cry into whatever I draw for that game atm #I mentioned it in the post I made about it these days I literally skimmed through lines of one of the endings and immediately cried a single #Annoying tear. I feel like I don't cry about life things as much as would be healthy to and when I do I don't cry right #so I just get so annoyed at these sudden single tear moments when I'm not even putting effort into anything they just leak out #because something on a screen hit too close to home in an instant but I can't even properly Feel it because I'm focused on something else #and the thing in question has well been Acknowledged and rendered Irrelevant #it's not satisfying like crying for being engrossed on a story and/or characters and I absolutely hate how idk picturesque? it feels #people criticize drawing crying with a pretty single tear all the time it feels so fake and forced to fit the medium in a way that's still #appealing and consumable but I'm just a person with depersonalization issues. reverse derealization. everything's real except me #anyways I wasn't spiraling I will continue to not spiral about that at this moment but that's constantly there in my brain #and I'm going to draw the body horror lesbian polycule about it #Void fala aí #oh yeah I promised field sib content uh I can easily do that as a warm-up on a work day obviously pfft #''end of the month'' she's so pretentious you mean next week

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six-of-ravens · 7 months

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if my brain could give me like One day where it doesn't spiral into "you're going to end up living with your parents next year" and then "okay very best case scenario you buy a house that's big and new and scary" and then "what if you keep your apartment for another year but in doing so you have to give up so much but at least you still have the personal freedom of not having to hide most of yourself that's also scary"

anyway the future is NOT friendly those old telus ads LIED to me I want compensation and I want it to be enough to erase all my financial worries forever.

#ngl was not prepared for the reality of 'youre nearly 30 and make a good salary and have had stable employment #And Yet cannot afford your own apartment'#i just keep thinking like. what am i gonna do with my furniture. it'll all have to go in a storage unit. how much do storage units cost?#I won't be able to keep my own meal schedule bc mom will be upset if i eat lunch at 2 and dinner at 7 #won't have a TV anymore. can't listen to podcasts out loud. will get hell for cooking things i want to cook.#eeeaaaaauuuuuuhhhhhghghgggghh #help i became too much of my own person and I can't squash myself back into something my parents can live with anymore #I don't even do that much!!! my parents are just such sticklers for doing things a certain way and i have #deviated from that and formed my own preferences and routines and such #can the feds pls freeze rent increases again. pls. or like. drop the interest rate. like 3%.

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