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[kikiyo]

the lesbian experience of being loved yet not loving

[ollieolliewrld]

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If I may request DMC- and take your time with it -what kind of partner the twins would realistically prefer. Whether it be personality types, deal breakers, what they are willing to compromise for/with, what they expect etc. I'm curious of others takes on these types of things and I'd like to see yours, when you have the time. Whether it's DMC 3 or 5 (or post 5) era, is up to you.

Happy writing! Again, take your time and polish as much as you feel you need to. Have fun!

Love, love, love this! Thank you for the request and the kind words <3 I’ll be taking the DMC 5 and post 5 era but I may revisit this once I finish playing DMC 3 fully!

**This is not a fluff piece it is a bit more serious** 

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Dante

✭ Ideal Partner

-Dante’s ideal partner would be someone who has a good understanding of their surroundings

-He’s looking for someone perceptive so that you both share a mutual understanding of situations 

-Basically, he doesn’t want to hold their hand and baby them through life

-If something happens he is going to make sure they are ok but also expects that they will not crumble completely

-Dante has been through hell and back when it’s time for him to settle down he is not playing games 

-He’s a grown man who wants his chance to finally relax

-The cocky attitude he keeps up can get him through a lot but his partner is the one who truly pulls him through it all

✭ Deal Breakers

-Will not put up with tantrums

-He can understand if you get emotional at times, he doesn’t expect you to have it all together 24/7 

-But you cannot throw a fit if something does not go your way

-Dante cannot be everywhere at once and with the state of things there are going to be times when he will have to cancel a date or movie night 

-If you cannot understand that he will not stay

-If he is going to be with someone long-term they need to be understanding of his background 

✭ Compromises

-Dante would not want his partner anywhere near combat unless they have proven to be fully capable

-After that, if you really wanted to he would be willing to let you take on some missions of your own

-He would also compromise if his partner wanted to do very typical couple things

-Like he would get a matching jacket with you or something like that but he would not do anything with writing or graphics

-If you two are going to do something it will be done tastefully and hopefully in red

-Dante wouldn’t have many things he would not compromise on, if he truly wants to stay with you he will make it work and swallow his pride once in a while as long as you are willing to put the work in to meet him halfway

✭ Expectations

-He expects that you have life skills

-You would not need to be a pro at finance or a god in the kitchen but you would need to know how to live on your own

-Dante cannot always be there even though he wants to be and he does not want the additional worry that you are going to explode when he leaves

-His ideal partner would have their head screwed on, not perfect, but able to pick themselves back up when they get knocked down

-He also expects you to support him and be there for him

-There are times when he needs a shoulder to rest on and he would expect his partner to be willing to be that

✭ Must-Have Qualities

-Dante requires someone with a sense of humor

-You need to be able to laugh and understand his jokes

-You would also need to be a good listener 

-He won’t talk your ear off but he needs you to remember what he tells you 

-It would mean a lot to him if you remembered the small things too

-Being sociable/outgoing must be your personality type

-He needs someone who can go out into the world with him and interact

-Yes he enjoys spending time rotting on a couch with you but when you two are out he wants to show you off proudly 

-Having you being confident and able to explore with him is a must

Vergil

✭ Ideal Partner

-Vergil needs a patient lover

-He is not socially inept but he is not extremely experienced in how to lead an average life and relationship

-Ideally, they would be willing to understand what he has been through and all that has shaped him into the man that he is today

-He is a loyal lover who needs someone that will stay with him through it all

-Someone resilient would fit him

-Again, like his brother, he is a grown man he does not have it in him to baby someone through life, you need to be able to stand on your own before he could settle down

✭ Deal Breakers

-He is not messing around

-No one-night stands, no FWB, he is going for the long-term

-It is end game or nothing with him

-If you could not take things seriously he would leave

-Vergil looks at life with seriousness he is not going to be with someone who continuously makes jokes every two seconds

-He is also looking for someone more submissive as in they will follow the decisions he makes without fighting him

-He is willing to take the time to explain why he made the decision but he will not take the time to go back and forth with you when he knows what the right thing to do is

✭ Compromises

-Vergil can be a little too serious at times and forgets to relax

-He wants to get things done the right way and will lose himself to his work

-Being with someone who can let loose and live would be a change in pace for him but he would be willing to compromise 

-As long as everything is handled he could spend time with you having fun

-It is very hard for him to let go of his control as he wants to be constantly motivated However, learning to take a step back and take a breath is not going to throw all of his work out the window

-Once he sees that you could slowly work him up to the very mundane aspects of life like reading a book at the beach together

✭ Expectations

-He expects you to be willing to work with him

-As I have been saying, you need to be patient with him

-Vergil is willing to learn and change but he has his own problems he is working through

-Life has not been kind to him and he will be open about that so he would expect that you do not hold that against him

-Any mistakes he makes are not done to harm you, they are done because of a lack of experience 

-He is not in tune with his emotions and has a hard time expressing his feelings as well as picking up on yours

-Hopefully, you would be able to work with this and understand where he is coming from

✭ Must-Have Qualities

-It cannot be stressed enough that he is looking for someone patient

-You do not have to be a saint he will be working with you as much as you are working with him 

-He doesn't want you to give up on him

-Vergil is looking for someone who is level-headed, not over-emotional

-He just does not know how to be around someone who can fluctuate in emotions very quickly

-You would need to be intelligent, not like a genius, but able to understand directions and pick up on your surrounding 

-He wants you to be a safe place for him so you being understanding and willing to take the time to get to know him means a lot 

-It will take some time for Vergil to open up to you fully but once he does the man is locked into you and not going anywhere

Author’s Note: I really hope this is to your liking! I would love to hear what you think and if anyone has any opinions of their own! <3<3

I had a blast brainstorming this, thank you for sending in this request!

[calmcoldevening]

Can i request slashers x male!reader who really obsessed with them? Not in a scary yandere way more in a he's constantly talking about how much he loves them and he's a blushing mess whenever they're there and like he practically deactivates when they're gone. He makes it his entire personality y'know? Sorry if this doesn't make any sense lol 🫠 thank you!

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Slashers x obsessed!male!reader

Michael Myers

• At first, Michael was a little annoyed at how clingy you could be towards him. Michael is basically not a relationship person, it's quite difficult for him to open up to a person or let someone come to him. But you seemed different to him, special.

• It took a while before Michael fully accepted you as his boyfriend and your clinginess. If it annoyed him at first, it has now become a routine. It annoyed Michael when he didn't get your attention.

• When you were very busy with work and, purely due to lack of time, you did not pay the usual amount of attention to Michael, he began to get angry. You were sitting at your computer and working when Michael came up behind you. He knelt down and wrapped his arms around your waist, squeezing tightly. God, that puppy missed you.

• He needs time to accept the fact that sometimes you need to work, and after that you can pay attention to him. Michael was jealous of your job.

• After that, he usually went to work for a long time to relieve stress. When he returned home, he found you crying on the bed in the bedroom. Michael climbed into bed behind you, wrapping his arm around your waist. You turned to face him in surprise. Matted hair, tear-stained eyes and swollen lips. Michael's heart fluttered at the sight of you in such a state, but after that, this slight pride was replaced by an unusual pain for him. He didn't want to bring you to this.

• Michael lifts the edge of his mask, exposing his chin with light stubble, and leans towards you. His dry lips touch yours in a sweet, gentle kiss. His actions are still inept, but filled with feelings, a slight longing. He pulls away after a couple of minutes, his hand on your cheek gently stroking your skin. "Mine. My boy. Only mine."

•Over time, Michael realizes that his presence directly affects your emotional state. This subconsciously pleases him. That's why he decides to provide some kind of emotional support and attention towards you, he just doesn't like to see tears on your face. If someone makes you cry, Michael will personally strangle them with his own hands.

Jason Voorhees

• Jason loves you completely and completely, so he doesn't really care about your behavior as long as you love him back.

• He likes to see your blushing face. If he says anything to you in sign language, you immediately blush. Jason specially taught you simple phrases like "I love you" or "You're my beautiful boy" so that you can see your cute blushing cheeks more often.

• Jason likes the fact that you love him and worry about him, but sometimes it bothers him. In those moments when he should be hunting victims. You either follow their footsteps, footprints, so that no creature harms your boyfriend, or you sit at home and feel sad because he's gone. Jason doesn't want you to get hurt, but he doesn't want you to be sad either.

• Over time, you will have a lot of plush toys so that you can hug them when Jason is not at home. Surprisingly, the toys smell like his scent. It calms you down.

• Jason loves hugging, so in his free time he will give you as much attention as you need. He will hold you tightly in his arms, stroking your back, and humming some soothing song. He likes to take care of you when you're depressed, so he knows for sure that you need him.

Bubba Sawyer

• Bubba really liked that you were his boyfriend. At first, he was very shy and insecure about himself, especially about his body and mask, after all, he didn't have the sweetest life. But with your appearance, it's like new colors have appeared in his life. You loved him, you took care of him, Bubba was just happy.

• There were days when he stayed in the basement for a long time to butcher the victims. At such moments, you would lock yourself in your room and be sad. Bubba would find you later on the bed, his heart aching. All evening and all night after that, Bubba didn't leave your side and tried to make amends. He will hug you, kiss you and squeeze you in his arms.

• He loves those sweet moments when you try to protect him or warn him about a possible victim strike. You're so caring. One of your passionate and loving looks makes Bubba's face turn red like a scarlet rose, and her heart starts beating wildly in her chest.

• He absolutely gives you flowers. Bubba has no experience of relationships with anyone, but it seems to him that flowers can always cheer up. They are so beautiful, besides, this flower highlights your charming eyes.

• Bubba is very proud to be called your boyfriend, he always tries to hold your hand when you are together. He loves to put you on his lap. And he also likes it when you hug him and he can nuzzle your chest. You smell so good, your scent calms him down.

• Sometimes Bubba has sad thoughts that you might leave him for someone better, but you always prove the opposite to him. Bubba's heart feels so good. You're his favorite boy.

Bo Sinclair

• This gorgeous man is extremely glad that you are obsessed with him. The truth is, he's obsessed with you too. He likes everything about you, your face, your body, your voice.

• Extremely jealous. Even if you tell him a million times that you only need him and you can't see your life without him, he's still jealous of you. Bo is really afraid that a handsome man like you will be taken away from him. But you're just his boy, right?

• He's flattered that sometimes you act like a devoted puppy around him, so cute. He can feel the tension growing in the air. At such moments, he can pin you to any nearby surface, squeezing your ass with his hands and kissing you passionately. His every action is filled with burning emotions and desire.

• Bo is extremely narcissistic, so he can deliberately lead you to jealousy. Did you see him chatting with that power girl at the gas station? Come on, it's not true. Bo watches with a grin as you frown with reddened ears. He likes to see you so possessive. He wraps his arm around your waist and showers kisses on your neck. "Silly, I only need you."

• If he does not receive proper attention from you (for example, you are very busy working or helping his brothers), he feels strangely incomplete, an unpleasant longing corrodes his heart. He would even be ready to go to you with something and drag you into your bedroom, forcing you to think only of him, but his pride simply does not allow him to do this. Bo doesn't want you to think that he's addicted to you too. You're his personal drug.

Brahms Heelshire

• Brahms is crazy about your attention. He loves hugging, kissing you and he just needs you so much.

• Calls you Daddy. With his low, husky voice, it sounds damn hot, which gives you goosebumps. He gently takes your hands and interlaces your fingers. "Night kiss?" He mumbles, and you can see the gleam of pleasure in his eyes on the other side of the mask.

• Brahms is a very clingy boy, so he likes that you spend so much time with him. Hug him, kiss him, touch him, just don't leave. He loves it when you cook for him and basically take care of him.

• But he is sad from his tears, so he tries not to make you sad for nothing. He's a good boy. Your good boy.

• He is a very loyal and obedient partner, he will do whatever you tell him to do. But he's going to get a reward for it, right? Brahms likes to belong to you, he feels needed and loved. His favorite activity is when you leave bright red hickeys on his neck as a sign that he belongs to you

[moodyseal]

I got too deep into the Schema Theory while writing the paper for one of my exams and it got me thinking about Apollo's coping mechanisms yk

Basically the gist of this theory is that, in the eventuality that their primary needs are not satisfied during their formative years, a child might develop a bunch of different behavioural schemes in their adult life (which are too many to be listed here oh my god) that are a direct reflection of how the parent failed them during childhood

For example, one of these schemes is emotional deprivation, which is a person's tendency to emotionally distance themselves from other people due to the fact that they believe they won't be able to comfort them, and it's a scheme that's formed due to the guardian not satisfying the child's emotional needs. Basically it's formed through a "If my parent couldn't do it, then how could others?" sort of mentality

Another one, which I believe is very relevant here, is the sense of failure, which originates due to the guardian's immensely overbearing nature and the continuous dissatisfaction with the child's efforts. As an adult, the child in question believes that they're inept at everything, even if evidence points to the contrary, because of the fundamental belief that they hold that they're a failure

(Does it remind you of anyone?)

Now, these schemes tend to go hand in hand with modes, which are essentially coping mechanisms that the person uses to deal with whatever life throws at them and whatever negative emotion these schemes bring on. One of these modes is the *squints* scheme overcompensation? Anyway what it says on the article I got the info from is that basically people who use this coping mechanism tend to do the opposite of what their behavioural scheme tells them to do. If they're ashamed, they put down others. If they feel like a failure, they boast. (Again. Who does this sound like.)

AT FIRST it seems like a good coping mechanism but it's actually not, because the overcompensation leads to this vicious cycle where the more a person overcompensates, the more the scheme worsens. In Apollo's case, the scheme we're examining here is his sense of failure; in his overcompensation mode, to avoid feeling incompetent he tries to constantly put himself in the spotlight, drawing attention to his talents. However, he does it in such a ridiculous way (perhaps actually in some form of self-sabotage?) that the people around him insult those talents, call him a failure, and thus worsen his feeling of worthlessness.

(This might be tied to the punitive scheme as well, maybe? Considering how keen Zeus was on punishment, Apollo might've developed this scheme as a result, though over the centuries it could've shifted its focus from everyone to just him idk. The change between "I'm punishing everything and everyone for being so stupid, even my own son + this Ptolemaic god who breathed wrong in my direction" to "Actually I'm chill" seems pretty suspicious to me tbh)

ANYWAY all of this is to say that everything he does is so intrinsically tied to the damage Zeus did to him that it hurts. All his behaviours all his coping mechanisms. Everything

The arrogance is not just a façade he built over the years to hide his feeling of unhappiness and guilt!! It's quite literally an abuse response!!!!

And yeah maybe Leto was the one who spent the most time with him and Artemis and who took the most care of them so technically she should be considered his figure of attachment instead of Zeus but then again. How much time did Apollo spend beside her compared to the time he spent at Zeus' side, after the twins became Olympians? What do a few moments with her in a year do against entire centuries with him?

Leto's influence never really mattered. He was doomed since the beginning

[dreamsndmadness]

Hello!! Me again, :)

I read the newest chapter(of bloodlines, which was awesome) and I was wondering about Paul. What about Feyd endears Paul? Honestly, Feyd doesn’t seem like someone Paul would be with given the choice especially considering Feyds first impression. It seems to me that at this point even tho Paul and his mother are still being the plotting little schemers we know and love and that Paul’s affections could be apart of some plan of theirs, his emotional boundaries are still somewhat being chipped away at by Feyd.

Also btw this isn’t relevant to the characters but I love how you worked your way around feyds social ineptness to give the readers hints to understanding Paul, for example in chapter 6 when they’re talking about the spice shipments and Paul says “it’s only been a few weeks since the change” and he gets a cloudy look in his eyes; I interpreted that as him also reflecting on how short it’s been since his father died and how his life has been drastically changed but Feyd doesn’t pick up on that at allllll lol.

Also do u mind if ppl draw fanart of ur fic? I’m a very slow artist but I’d love to draw some of ur scenes :3

Another wonderful question 😍.

To be quite honest about what Paul feels for Feyd, there really isn’t affection for him on Paul’s side (at this point!!). Feyd fell pretty fast and hard for obvious reasons. But there are so many more layers surrounding how Paul feels about Feyd. His kinda philosophy going into this was to basically have sex with him because he has to and remain extremely emotionally distant from this person who is part of the family that murdered his beloved father and destroyed his whole world. He very much would not have picked Feyd as a partner if situations were different. Which is part of the reason I am finding writing this story so fun, because it’s picking apart these characters' brains and figuring out a way they can fit together.

Very slight inklings of affection have been creeping up on him and will continue on to creep up on him in the coming chapters. But it is going to be a very slow burn for Paul emotionally. Where Feyd, at this point, is almost in love with him. I feel like each chapter represents another step forward in their relationship, for Feyd and Paul and oftentimes it means different things to them personally.

Paul is only just coming to acknowledge and accept that he’s physically attracted to this person, which in itself was a hard conclusion for him to come to as he was raped on his wedding night. Which was a frankly awful experience for him. Which is why we see him not physically turned on by Feyd for several encounters after that. He’s afraid and in his head and deeply uncomfortable. But Feyd has been pretty relentless about making sure Paul has an orgasm every time they fuck, so Paul was like “hold up… am I enjoying this?”. Basically, chapter 7 was him being like “okay, I enjoy having sex. But I think in order to make this better for the both of us, we need to come to some understandings about how we are going to have sex in the future”. He’s trying to figure out what he likes sexually as he was in fact a virgin before all of this went down. Basically he’s a little more comfortable around Feyd now, hence the slight playfulness in chapter 7 where he tickles him and then laughs at Feyd’s reaction. Honestly such a favorite moment of mine.

(Side note, Paul is going to have a POV chapter soon which will help to elucidate some of this).

So chapter 8 for Paul, that little interaction at the end. He's starting to see and understand that they have a common enemy and see how this could potentially open up some trust between them as they’ve both been hurt by this person. If anyone was wondering, yes I do think Paul knows about Feyd’s CSA. While I haven’t read the book yet, the movies seem to indicate that he gets flashes about people beside himself i.e. Dr Kynes when he knows that she loved and lost a Fremen warrior. In this story, Paul knows Feyd was sexually abused by his uncle. It helps give some perspective on this violent and frankly terrifying person in a way that allows him to feel sympathy and give a little more understanding and context to him as a person and their relationship as a whole. And the fact that at the end of chapter 8 Feyd seeks him out in a protective way rather than to demand sex, goes a long way in Paul having some more good will towards him.

In the next chapter, something else will happen as another step/layer to their relationship that will give Paul another “aha” moment. It’s going to help him feel even more comfortable in their marriage and kinda understand better how their dynamic is going to continue going forward (in a sexual and non sexual way).

Paul and Feyd are such different people with extremely disparate upbringings. Paul was deeply loved and protected by his parents who modeled love and affection for him and raised him to be an intelligent and empathetic person. However, he has little context for having friendships and relationships with people his own age or arguably at all. His only friends seemed to be his parents and much older mentor figures who were old enough to be his father or grandfather. Feyd is not only much younger than those people, but has absolutely no emotional maturity. So there's this very wide divide between them. To bridge that gap is going to take years. Which is why there is going to be more stories after bloodlines. It will not happen by the end of this fic. However, they are going to come to a (hopefully) satisfying emotional understanding by the last chapter. At least I’m very satisfied by it and excited to share it 😝.

If I could pinpoint what specifically endears Feyd to Paul, at this point… honestly not a lot… He is so so different from anyone he’s known before. I think he likes (sometimes), that Feyd surprises him (when it’s not a bad surprise, which honestly most of them have been). He’s much more of an instinctual and spontaneous person where Paul is thoughtful and analytical. I think he appreciates that Feyd seems to like him taking the lead in their sexual relationship. And I think he likes that Feyd seems to respect his intelligence and fighting abilities and actively seeks his council and input.

Oh my goodness this is incredibly long. Hopefully all of that makes sense 😝. Also, yes to Feyd not getting the implication behind Paul’s words in the scene about the time between the change.

ALSO YES PLEASE!!! Oh my goodness!!!!! If you made art for this story, I am not joking when I say I will print it out and frame 🥹❤️. (As long as you are okay with that, that is). Basically, I would be so honored and delighted.

[anonymouspuzzler]

I MIGHT BE A BIT LATE BUT I MUST ALSO HAVE ANSWERS /nf

For the ask game!! Questions 1, 5, 21, 35 (for da entire Trio™) !! And Question A for you :3c

combining these for ease of answerin'! thank you All for Question's... (some of these i answered before but I went and dug up the answers to combine/add/etc! readmore for length also)

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

Very Very Little for all of them. Davey fares the best, but only barely, and only because if you have him sit still with nothing to do he'll just fully doze off. Minnie's the next best, though she gets fidgety and annoyed very quickly, and meanwhile Buck I think will Actually have a breakdown and/or panic attack if you leave him sitting still with nothing to do for any significant amount of time.

2. How easy is it for your character to laugh?

Minnie and Buck are both extremely guarded with their emotions (laughter included) and, publicly, are more prone to their Practiced Performative Villain Laughs than anything actually genuine. Of the two Minnie is much tougher to crack when it comes to genuinely laughing; Buck at least will loosen up for Davey Specifically (who can get him to crack up fairly consistently).

5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

Extremely, extremely easy for all three, though it manifests in very different ways. Between "She Is 13 and thus Thinks She Knows Better Than Everyone" and her general upbringing, Minnie tends to default to distrusting everyone around her, and it's very difficult to convince her otherwise (in part because she's not self-aware enough to recognize how distrusting she is or how much that kind of behavior ultimately harms her). Buck, similarly, has lived the kind of life where vulnerability is Extremely dangerous for him, and defaults to distrusting people as a rule (Davey being the major hard-won exception to the rule). Davey's mistrust is subtler because he's a generally amicable and sociable guy, but if you look close you'll realize he really doesn't give up any kind of personal or vulnerable information, and while he mostly tries to give people the benefit of the doubt, if you do anything to give him significant reason to feel unsafe with you he will NOT let that go easily.

11. How do they cope with confusion (seek clarification, pretend they understand, etc)?

Minnie's a stubborn thing who's the exact age to be most Well I Know Everything am Basically A Grownup Actually, so she usually pretends she understands and attempts to brute force her way through. results of this approach may vary wildly.

14. What animal do they fear most?

she doesn't really fear Any, specifically because she knows a lot about animals! like, I think she would have a healthy caution-slash-respect for Large Creatures What Which Can Kill You, but nothing she's particularly afraid of. Probably the closest thing would be the Bioengineered Monster Hybrids of side character Animal, since those are very much Not natural animals she's learned about, and thus she can't really make educated guesses about their behavior.

19. What is their favorite number?

I don't know if she would have one! I don't think she'd think too hard about that kind of thing. she'd probably call you a nerd if you asked her this because she's a little shit

21. Why do they get up in the morning? 

I think all three would answer something along the lines of "because I have to". Like, what's the alternative? Not getting up? (I think Buck and Davey definitely use each other, and little by little Minnie, as motivation on this front, Davey especially - he gets up because he's got a family to take care of, y'know?) Minnie's also excited to learn the Villain Lifestyle, especially early on, so that keeps her getting up every morning too.

32. Do they have a go-to story in conversation? Or a joke? 

I don't think any of them do, for exact opposite reasons - Buck and Minnie are both Extremely socially inept and don't like sharing a lot about themselves in conversation, so they don't have a good go-to, meanwhile Davey is a conversationalist so he likes to vary things up based on the audience more. (He's also deceptively private about his life, so also not a lot to share there that makes for a funny casual convo story.)

35. How do they treat the things their friends come to them excited about? Are they supportive? 

It varies wildly depending on the thing and the friend. Buck and Minnie are both very under-socialized and very socially inept as a result, and Minnie in particular is kind of a little shithead, so I think if someone was talking about something they're excited about but Buck and/or Minnie weren't, they'd be kind of blunt about it, like, hey, I don't care about that actually. (Buck's at least slightly less actively malicious about it than Minnie, and has gotten better about it with age - though mostly with Davey, who, like. he's in love with that man. Davey could talk about Basically Anything and Buck would be down.) Davey, on the other hand, LOVES to hear people talk about things they love, especially people he cares about - listening to Buck ramble on about cars for hours on end is like his Favorite Activity - so he's generally VERY engaged and supportive in such scenarios.

A. Why are you excited about this character?

I Just Think They're Neat :) (but seriously, I think their dynamics with each other and the world around them are really interesting and fun to explore, and I'm a sucker for Family Of Choice and Becoming Better Thanks To Your Bonds With People Who Love You shit, so.)

[17magpiesinatrenchcoat]

TELL US YOUR PK HEADCANONS!!! (if you wanna)

Oh HELL yeah

I’ve already said a bunch of these on ig… but you guys get to have more 😈😈

putting a cut here bc it’s fuckin long lol 💀💀

My fan name for him is Astennu!! Means god of the moon.. and WL’s name is Faraway :D

pan/polygamous: ]

autistic ofc bc I love projecting he's very bad at masking too, he's good at keeping up one specific persona (typical cold ruler mask..) but as soon as someone doesn't act the exact way he expects them to do he doesn't know how to react, and the mask slips, very practiced and good but only in very specific circumstances, another reason why he's so antisocial

he is good at heart and has strong morals, but they're usually overpowered by fear, so he usually just does what's easiest instead of what's right, even though it hurts him more in the long run

he doesn't give a shit about gender, everyone just started calling him a guy and he was like "ok lol"

likes singing and is quite good at it too!! (or. in the case of my au, he was before his voice got messed up)

NO spacial awareness whatsoever, always gets lost in thought, constantly bumping into shit, , he has a bunch of gnarly scars just from that

his godly powers are too much for his mortal-ish body, he regularly gets sick bevause of them, and it was even worse before he used most of them to create hallownest, he was basically permanently in pain lol LOSER

he can't control his glow, so it betrays his emotions a lot (and he can accidentally flashbang people when he feels really strong emotions)

refuses to be vulnerable at all. pushes everyone away, somewhat consciously too, believing himself to be a burden and that they'd be better off without him

drinks literally nothing but coffee {or the hallownest equivalent to it anyway)

very bad memory (projecting again)

he doesn't know how to interact with. people. much less be a parent. he's a terrible parent LOL he tries but he's just not good at it whatsoever

kind of a shitty immune system due to his powers making him sick so often, another reason he's reclusive

ameteur painter (he doesn't understand it much but it makes lurien really happy so)

his special interest is just. inventing intricate technology in general, he completely hyper focuses on it and would spend literal days doing it if it wasn't for wl dragging him out of his workshop LOL

EXTREMELY deadpan and can be very rude without realising it

Stuff always gets stuck in his horns and he usually doesn’t notice until it gets pointed out (which usually take hours bc wl and lurien think it’s funny lol)

Literally does not know how to make connections with people whatsoever every connection he has made has been accidental

dating both lurien and wl obviously 🫶🫶🫶(wl is also dating dryya but I haven’t put much thought into that one yet I should) the gods do not care for monogamy

Hmm.. for his relationships with some of the other characters..

realising that I have not fleshed out his relationship with wl really omg what’s wrong with me I need to fix that ☹️☹️ but uh here’s the other characters for now lol

him and lurien are both deranged autism buddies <33 lurien does not take any form of authority seriously at all, and doesn’t like taking orders (pathological demand avoidance, autistic thing, pretty sure I have it lol) and so.. he never like. acted like pk was a god. he just treated him like a normal person. and pk had no clue how to react to that so he could not keep up his mask around lurien at all.. so eventually they ended up realising they have common interests and ended up becoming friends.. and later.. hmmm?? they are both incredibly awkward and socially inept lol so it took way longer to happen then it should 💀

but yeah they have a very funky dynamic LOL they can talk for hours about their common interests <3 and hmm.. their dynamic is basically this

He never thought that much of herrah other than being vaguely scared of her;; but she fucking hated him LOL she thought he was an inept cowardly moron

but.. the more time she spent as queen, she grew to understand him a lot more as she felt how much that role and pressure could tear someone down

She still doesn’t like him that much, but she understands why he is the way he is now, and tries to be nicer bevause she knows how it feels

He and monomon have a very weird relationship.. they’re kinda friends but also kinda fucking hate each other LOL;; like;; theyre really fucking mean and hostile to each other but it’s not really genuine, it’s more out of habit than anything, and they do care about each other and look out for each other, it’s just sort of the manifestation of them both being emotionally inept assholes who don’t know how to communicate, so they sorta take it out on each other, but neither of them mind, they know neither of them actually mean it

so yeah sorta like;; idk weird ass friendship where they both pretend to hate each other to vent at how shit the world is but they both know neither of them mean it bevause the anger isn’t directed at each other at all, and it’s kinda become a game between them who can come up with the most ridiculous insults LOL

Uhhh I guess that’s it lol!! Yeah I said there was a lot 💀 if you have any questions or more headcanon ideas for me… well you know where to find me 💜💜

[genshingorlsrevengeance]

(GFL) AN-94 Relationship HC's

BEST GIRL

94 is very aloof in the relationship, though it's not because she doesn't love her S/O.

She just doesn't know how to.

With her team, she's very socially inept, AK-12 teasing her a lot on that subject, and even sometimes AK-15 and RPK-16.

Though thanks to getting to know her S/O, she slowly learns how to express herself more and more.

Though it's still a bit of work.

(AN-94) "Hm? I didn't laugh? ...The joke was indeed quite funny, but... Alright, I will laugh again for you." (Direct game dialogue)

= More under the cut! =

One of the first things 94 learns in the relationship is how much she likes to be physically close to her S/O.

Not only to protect them should anything happen but...it feels...nice? She was unsure what a T-DOLL should even feel, considering they were weapons.

Things like her basic instincts for survival and taste were kept intact, but everything outside of combat was new to her.

Doubly so the feeling of love.

94 feels comfort, yet she feels strange. Was she...nervous?

She looks uncomfortable, yet when S/O tries to pull away:

(AN-94) "Oh, my apologies, I'm not uncomfortable...Please, stay."

As time goes on, her smile starts to grow a bit at a time, to the point Team DEFY realizes how she's acting when S/O isn't around.

AK-12 is the person 94 goes to when she has no idea what to do, which is a majority of the time, so AK-12 has become both of their wingman.

Before 94 is deployed on operations, she makes a note to personally see S/O before and after it is completed.

Even if she's critically injured, 94 refuses to go to the Repair Bay first until she's let S/O know she's okay.

(AN-94) "I apologize for making you worry. But, thank you for caring as always, S/O."

94 keeps her formal tone, even years into the relationship, but she grows much softer and shows far more emotion than before.

She still isn't human, and won't be, but she's damn close to being one.

...

(AK-12) "Wow, your smile's bigger than mine!"

(AN-94) "...H-Huh?"

(RPK-16) "Oh, that's cute. Still thinking about S/O?"

(AN-94) "Ah, I did not mean to ignore the current conversation, I-"

(AK-15) "Relax, they're just teasing. And you two, knock it off."

(AK-12) "Hm, alright. But you let me know how your date goes later tonight, got it?"

(AN-94) "S/O is taking us out to dinner...Though, I don't need to eat-"

(AK-15) "Just enjoy the moment."

(RPK-16) "You should smile like us, you won't win your own darling over. I've seen how you look at the Co-"

(AK-15) "Shut up."

[trashbin-nie]

Someone on TT made a video claiming that if you criticize/hate Endeavor for his parenting you should hold that same energy, and criticize Mitsuki Bakugou for hers; to which I offer this point.

We see very little of Mitsuki in the anime/manga until more recently which I think, since we don't see too much of how they (katsuki and mitsuki) interact as a normal family unit it allows us to form this illusion or ideology that she is a perfect parent, which is very obviously not the case.

However, I think to compare Mitsuki to Enji is like comparing apples to a garbage fire. You can very obviously tell that Mitsuki loves her son. We see that in the way she tells Aizawa and All Might how she knew the praise that Katsuki got as a child turned him into the ego maniac that he was, and partially still is, and she acknowledges the changes in his personality since Starting at U.A. and how much it has helped him grow as a person. She wants her son to succeed, but she sees the mistakes that she made along the way.

Obviously I don't think she should have hit katsuki and told him he was "weak" and that "if he were stronger he wouldn't have gotten kidnapped in the first place" that was kinda fucked up he's only 16, but i feel she believes that comes from a place of encouragement and worry because she knows Katsuki doesn't respond to heartfelt emotions, or just any emotion other than calm and pure rage, very well, and he cant handle his own emotions, but that does not excuse her actions at all. We all know he is emotionally constipated and that is partially because of how he was raised.

The dynamic between Katsuki and Mitsuki is also something you need to consider, because of his brash and abrasive personality and Mitsuki's equally as abrasive one they are on more of an equal playing field.

Comparing Mitsuki to Enji is something that doesn't really line up to me, but again Enji's abuse of all of his children is handed to you on a silver platter, which I am going to bullet now because there is just so much and I don't want to get all up into why Enji sucks as a person, and parent. This is a criticism of a comparison, and so a list of Enji's abuse.

-He had one child, and was ok until he realized that because his wife had. An ice quirk, his first son's flame quirk ended up doing nothing but harm him. May have caused Enji trauma.

-He then decided to tell him that he could never be a hero, and made it his life's mission to have the perfect child.

-First Fuyumi. Ended up being an ice user. Not perfect, try again

-Natsuo, ice user. Wrong doesn't have both, try again.

-Shoto. This is where everything changes; he finally has his prodigy, and neglects his three other children.

Touya spends his days training trying to gain his fathers approval which he never gets and burns himself alive due to the overwhelming emotion and lack of outlet and pain he has put himself through and his father had caused him, and he became a villain (dabi) because of his childhood thinking no one cares about him, and ends up despising his father, and Shoto purely because shoto got what he (touya) always wanted

Instead of letting Shoto socialize he isolates him from his whole family and as a result he becomes socially inept and awkward (i love shoto but it's true) and after years of abuse from her husband, Rei (who i genuinely despise) throws scalding hot tea water on his face scarring him forever.

Shoto then spends his days being worked to the bone from the age of five until he turned 16. For eleven years he's been isolated from his family and denied any chance at making friends and learning basic social skills, and develops an anger that he doesn't know how to deal with and nearly injures himself due to his refusal to use all of his quirk, because his father only saw, and treated him as a tool to reach a goal that Enji himself did not have the ability to achieve.

The dynamics of the two are entirely different. Where Mitsuki and Bakugou have always been on a pretty even playing field, when it comes to Enji and Shoto (and his whole family quite frankly) there is a clear definitive line between the abuser and the person/people being abused.

I guess my point is to compare the two is entirely ignorant, and while everyone has the right to their opinion on this topic and any other topic, it is completely ignorant and in bad taste to compare Enji Todoroki, to Mitsuki Bakugou.

However, there is one thing we can all agree on: Inko Midoriya is an absolute angel and deserves the whole world on a silver platter.

Thanks for coming to my ted talk! I like hearing opinions so if you have any PLEASE PLEASE don't hesitate to comment I will read it and maybe you have a different opinion i love seeing different perspectives please send em my way!

Edit: ok i just saw Koji's mom SHES FUCKING ADORABLE I WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO PROTECT HER FROM THE WORLD

[this-strange-obsession]

Okay I’m probably being super annoying by saying this but fuck it. Everyone keeps saying that they cried over these panels, specifically the “broke me” one. Maybe I’M the one misinterpreting why they reacted that way, but I actually chuckled about it. I know that I’m seriously socially/emotionally inept, but I just genuinely don’t get why people were sad over this panel.. please someone explain??

I understand that it’s bittersweet how Robert stopped being a player after his and Henry’s relationship, but that’s the whole reason why the next panel seems like it was a half-joke on Robert’s part. Even his expression conveys that.

How I interpret what he meant by Henry “breaking him” was that he thought that’s just how he would always treat relationships- purely as physical/sexual favors, nothing more. He thought he was mentally stronger than the boys he messed with because he knew when to cut it off and how to not get attached. But when he started doing that shit with Henry, he realized that he had fucked up and was catching feelings. Like… a LOT of feelings. And he realized what he had been doing was toxic and unfair to the other person. The shoe was finally on the other foot, and he didn’t know how to process this new-found attachment to this Scottish nerd.

So when Robert said that Henry broke him, yes, he partially meant that Henry broke his heart, but he was also using it in a joking way like as in he didn’t know how to process what just happened and his brain was buffering, as well as snapping him out of his power-plays. And his expression in that panel is annoyed not upset. He’s annoyed in a “I’m impressed and love you so much but jfc I hate you sometimes for it.” HE’S LITERALLY SMIRKING LIKE—

AND IT WOULDN’T MAKE SENSE EVEN IF HE WAS VISIBLY HEARTBROKEN BECAUSE HIS CHARACTER DOESN’T DO THAT EXCEPT WHEN HE BROKE UP WITH HENRY, AND THAT WAS IN THAT VERY PARTICULAR EMOTIONAL MOMENT THIS IS HIM REMINISCING 15 YEARS LATER??

..ehem…

I just- like genuinely, am I getting all of this wrong or..? I’m not trying to be an asshole, I’m just getting really frustrated with myself because it seems to be a unanimous thing among the fandom that these panels are Robert getting sad, not making a joke, and it seems like I’m the only one who doesn’t get that? HELP?? The most emotional I get about this is that it’s sickeningly sweet how he’s basically saying that his heart only beats for Henry AKA he sees this dummy as his soulmate even though it’s literally been over a decade.

[insufferable-talkstuck]

(HELPP sorry bro gonna ask this blog instead mb 💀😭)

helloo can u classpect me pls (idk heo to do this 🔥) including a little bit of vent for the sake of classpects

basically i am reclusive, secretive, spacey, knowledgeable but not in an arrogant way, creative, pretty absent minded, and very awkward :]

my main interests include TMNT, MBTI, experimental music, psychology, and marine life. (probably says nothing)

i also like drawing but sometimes i get mad jealous over other ppls art

i also have a strong interest in leftism, anti-racism and anti-capitalism. idk what that says tho

i can get RLY obsessive about my interests and i will NOT shut up about whatever im hyperfixating on

i find it extremely difficult to grasp social cues, in other words i am socially inept

i can have a lot of trouble with empathy usually, not saying i have no empathy tho

no social life. 0. not even one (1) friend. offline or online.

if i had a social group tho i think id be the weird one who is very awkward and does not get jokes 😭

i like to consider both logic and emotions when making a decision, but i tend to value logic and rationality more sometimes

i have a tendency to stay up really late, like really late (it is 5 am as i am writing this

(idk of the text below counts as a vent or not but read idk)

ive always been really bad at explaining, wording, or identifying my own emotions, idk why but its just really hard to come up with words that can accurately describe how i feel, which is why im shit at venting

nvm i think im just bad at wording my own thoughts in general, it makes me feel kind of dumb, im just as bad at that on text too 😭😭 communicating is hell

(vent-ish thing is over)

supernatural stuff is pretty cool too idk

ive been told im dry and very monotonous in person 💀 like a robot n shit

i also dont like being wrong but not in an arrogant know-it-all asshole kinda way ❤

idk what else to put here.

Seer of Void

I'm not picking up any sign that you would *want* to be assigned a void player but I don't tell people what they want to hear.

- dissection -

‘ basically — :] ’ in this paragraph you list off some traits that could easily be associated with void

‘ i can RLY — tho ’ classpects aren't political stances and tho some classes and aspects are described as more devoted or revolutionary it doesn't specifically tilt it towards any view on these things. go girl give us nothing

‘ i find it — jokes ’ you're listing traits of autism, not something that could help me classpect you. However in all technicality "lacking" so many things can be written off as void

‘ i like to consider — on text too ’ okay, Dirk strider moment I guess, if you had only left this paragraph i would have given you prince of heart and left it at that

- dissection over -

why I think you're a seer of void

seers struggle to grasp their aspect at first, how it works and how they could relate to it escapes them, but once they learn it they're comfortable in it. you talk like youre rampaging to find fragments of a personality, sloppily putting paragraphs about yourself together, but if you were to take a step back and relax I think you'd be relieved and find comfort in the nothingness, and along with it the unlimited potential you'll master but.. baby steps

bonus round

i think there would be a destructive heart player and/or a mind player in your session, you seem torn between the two, I don't see this talked about amongst the classpecting population but I do think the aspects of the players in your session would affect you. with all my evidence of that coming from the kids and trolls sessions I mean the bond is just so clear

[sadako3d]

actually no i'm gonna get REALLY mean here. i feel like there's been this new wave of people picking up the autism label-- regardless of if it's true of them or not, and that IS speaking as a proudly self diagnosed person aware of the long history of self diagnosis support in autistic activism --and basically just using it as a shorthand for "haha I have highly specific interests and I'm #weird lol" while still viciously bullying and attacking anyone who in genuinely socially inept or out of the increasingly obscure loop of what's In and Cool on here

have you done any research into autistic self advocacy? do you know the difference between a meltdown vs a shutdown vs burnout? do you have any conception of a special interest outside of "whatever fictional piece of media I like right now"? do you know what prosopagnosia is? do you know the developmental reasons for echolalia? do you know anything about how autism can affect motor control? emotional regulation? do you know fucking ANYTHING?

or are you like the people who called themselves adhd when it was trendy and bpd when it was trendy and talked about #anxiety when it was trendy, while treating anyone actually living with those things like shit. I don't think some of you (Some Of You, again, still very pro-self diagnosis here) are autistic I think you're allistics who are so hateful you need to find new communities to invade, to berate people for not meeting the status quo, up close and personal

[donnerpartyofone]

Not to be mean but people who don't feel love terrify me. Someone I really loved recently used me and threw me away then blankly said they didn't think I'd be that hurt by it when I was literally suicidal. So maybe just being honest up front rather than constantly pretending is better?? But I don't know.... Also like....I feel as if people have this sensationalized idea of what love and connection is supposed to be and when it's not exactly like a Disney movie they basically assign themselves as being totally emotionally and socially inept. Like, my loved ones annoy me but I couldn't possibly imagine not at least passively caring about the people in my life that contribute to my survival like even on a rational level it makes no sense to have ZERO response at all to that person possibly being harmed or going away. Even the sense of love you have for yourself and recognition of that, how can people not recognize that someone else also feels pain and suffers and that it does affect you even if you don't personally give a shit? Like, it affects you even in the basic design that people will think you're a shitty person if you don't even care in a rational sense or that you also might suffer under the justification? How can you function totally ignoring that each person deserves a right to life and happiness just like you do? Like idk this entire thing is just horrifying to me and makes no sense and I'm sorry if this seems like an ignorant response like I am ignorant bc I genuinely don't get it but I just wish people could feel emotions as deeply as I do and I wasn't just constantly suffering because people who don't love anyone but themselves want everyone to bend over backwards for them when they won't do it for anyone else -_- like yeah I'm sure parents also don't want to be nice all the time but they do anyway....just like everyone ever. That doesn't mean they don't love you.....it means they're human...and im sure the same is true about the kid in question....idk I guess im just a horrible person. I have to pretend to not be suffering when I feel extreme emotions so I just won't be convinced that pretending to care when you don't is worse than having to pretend not to care at all when you're exploding inside :/ idk.....I know I sound like an asshole sorry im not trying to argue I'm just throwing my two cents in where no one asked 😭💔

Sorry if I'm not reading you very well but I'm not sure if you are responding more to my description of the Reddit situation, or my description of my life.

If it's the latter, I think if you re-read my (now pinned) post you will find that I do experience compassion and sympathy and love for people, even for people I don't like; it's just that I have a really different emotional vocabulary than most people and it forces me to like translate myself all the time to make sure "normal" people feel cared for, and all I'm saying is that it makes me have to be very deliberate in my relationships where most people can just be reactive, it seems.

If it's the former, I don't really know what to tell you. Neither of us knows that person or what their whole context is. It seems to me that that person felt very conflicted and alienated by their lack of emotional access, which is pitiable. That person's parents are pitiable, too. Sounds like the Redditor has persisted in faking it, and was just venting their feelings on Reddit instead of taking it out on their family. What else can they do? Personally I feel sorry for anyone whose emotional dysfunction or deviation makes their relationship to the world hard. But you don't HAVE TO feel sorry for anyone, it's up to you and your philosophy.

One important fact is, you don't have to be involved with anyone you can't understand or sympathize with. I'm very sorry to hear you were abused. That's not fair and it shouldn't happen. It has happened to me too, and part of the reason is that my own emotional register is a little "weird" and I couldn't tell that someone was hurting me on purpose until it was too late, I thought we were just "having problems". That kind of thing sucks and no one deserves it. But the hope is that you learn from your experience and curate your company a little more safely. (NOT that it was your fault AT ALL, just that we can't control anything but our own choices) Hopefully we can move past obsessing over why people are assholes, or even evil, and gravitate toward healthier social situations in the future. If someone truly has no feelings or is sadistic, judging and worrying doesn't really improve that situation, frankly.

Finally I would pick on something that you noted about how self-love should provide a basis of comparison for how to treat others. That's actually kinda part of the problem, in my layperson's opinion. When I was in abuse situations, it eventually became clear that the abusive person is acting that way because they don't feel enough self-love--which is different from *acting selfish*. The abuser feels insufficient somehow, unlovable, and they're trying to get other people to "fix" their feelings for them. You know, my ex-boyfriend came at me with all this "I'm sad and wounded and only the love of a pure-hearted woman can fix me", and then when my freely-given love did NOT fix him, he decided everything about himself was my fault and I deserved every bad thing he did to me. I've had platonic friends like that too, who made their own happiness everyone else's responsibility and this allowed them to be total assholes to everyone. So like yeah, as cliche as it sounds, people who experience genuine self-love are usually NOT the same people who treat others poorly; assholes are very often turning dissatisfaction with themselves inside out, even though it may not look or feel that way to you and me.

But yeah if you're really just irked by the notion of sociopathy, where someone theoretically just feels nothing for others at all...there's just not too much you can do about that except try to stay away from them if at all possible.

[andtheyweresiblings]

I always like the idea of the unexpected happening. Everyone always has these MiraBruno stories where a great deal of the conflict is centered around people assuming Bruno must have groomed Mirabel or forced her in some way to be with him, but I find the opposite more gripping; what if most of the family saw it as Mirabel taking advantage of her socially inept, mentally unwell, feeble old uncle, maybe claiming she had ulterior motives for pursuing him (such as using him for his gift).

Take it a step further, how would those who blamed Bruno clash with those who blamed Mirabel? Who would side with who? Does it tear marriages apart? Pit siblings against each other? And if there are those who would support Mirabel and Bruno, would this family feud keep them silent?

Oh, very interesting! This is not a scenario I have ever considered. I guess I haven't viewed Bruno as overly vulnerable, and I really like to put him through more emotional torment than Mirabel. But this could work.

Because you're right. His isolation does make him emotionally vulnerable. He could easily fall into the category of being manipulated by the first person who gives him positive attention and care. And Mirabel still doesn't have a tangible gift, so I could see some family members making the argument that she is manipulating him so then she can have power over a gift.

I know I'm basically just rewording what you said here, but I think I need to really think about this before bringing anything new to this idea.

But, okay; this is interesting. Who would blame who? Off the top of my head, I think Alma might lean towards blaming Mirabel. After all, Mirabel not getting a gift is what caused Bruno to leave in the first place, and she later brought the house crashing down.

I could see Pepa also leaning towards blaming Mirabel. I have a headcanon that Bruno and Pepa were close as children. She goes in to hug him first at the end, and she's the one besides Alma who shows the most vitriol towards him when he is estranged. As they say, hate isn't the opposite of love. Even when he is estranged, she still feels a strong emotional connection to him, even if it is negative.

And Bruno is technically her younger brother. She might recall how emotionally vulnerable he was as a child. She might see how emotionally vulnerable he is now and feel some guilt over that. Yes. I'm more and more convinced that if anyone would be blaming Mirabel, it would be Pepa.

I'm not sure where Felix would land in all this. I think he'd want to back Pepa, but I also think this would be pretty conflicting for him.

I'd think Julieta and Augustin would blame Bruno. After all, Mirabel is their daughter. So that would create an interesting dynamic. The triplets would be completely splintered in this scenario. But you did bring up marriages...and I think Julieta could be pretty torn up about this. Hm. I think you could convince me either way on this one.

I'm having a harder time sorting out the grandchildren.

I'm still rather attached to my headcanon that Camilo doesn't trust Bruno and therefore would be on the side of "Bruno is a groomer." But that is totally a headcanon that isn't overly based in canon, so it can really go either way.

I still think Dolores is a neutral party in this. She would probably have the most objective view of their relationship, given her gift.

As usual, I don't have a ton of thoughts regarding Antonio. He's just too young in the film for me to have a clear indicator of which way he'd go. Though, Mirabel is his favorite cousin, so that might be worth something.

That leaves Luisa and Isabela. This is where I'm at a complete loss. I think that after all they went through in the movie ("It's a dream when we work as a team"), they'd probably blame Bruno more than anything.

But you could probably make the argument that Isabela is at least a little suspicious of Mirabel's motives. Given their interactions pre-"What Else Can I Do?" AH! I don't know. It physically pains me to even say that, but it is definitely an argument you could make.

As for Luisa, I love Luisa, and I want her to be on Mirabel's side. She's so protective over Mirabel in "Surface Pressure." I personally can't see her not taking Mirabel's side. And because I have such a soft spot for Luisa, I think I see her as one of the first people to be, at least secretly, supportive of Mirabel and Bruno. But I'm undecided on that part.

Plus, I think I'm open-minded enough that like Julieta, you could probably convince me either way for Isabela and/or Luisa.

Hmm. This is scenario introduces so many variables. I'm really going to have to think about this.

I am VERY interested to hear what your thoughts on the topic, if you are willing to share!

Very cool ask. Thank you!

[hawkshadowwrites]

I would like to pick your brain about your beautiful fic Darling domination. Whatever you wanna say, some snippets, fun facts etc. I would love to hear it.

Ahh!!! Sorry I’m the worst at responding to messages/asks, I’ve got the executive dysfunction of a walnut.

Ummm let’s see. I did a lot of research on the wine for chapter 3; it’s based off of an actual launch Penfolds is doing in China. (Penfolds being the brand that did the event with biblebuild.) they launched a regional specific line in China only and the labels are beautiful.

I’m a big wine drinker myself & live out in a HUGE wine region; it’s one of the places known worldwide in terms of regional wine/growth. I’ve gone to a lot of different wineries and love seeing the artwork and labels and things. Even with how much I love wine I still feel very inept with like, *expensive* wine and tasting notes 😂

Darling domination was partially inspired by “Blood Breath and Bone” by Strats & Bells, (In some ways here and there), and there are a few things in the next few chapters that I’ll be exploring that basically I’ve had brain rot since I read their collab. (Don’t worry I’ve talked to them and got permission 😂).

It was also put into creation by Lin ( @blackwatervial ) who desperately wanted an AU with experienced bdsm Pete showing Vegas the ropes (literally and figuratively.) I’ve talked out much of my plot/outline with her and she’s going to be doing more art for it (specifically something special for chapter 5!!).

I also really wanted to explore a darker side of bdsm in the sense of like, emotions and trauma and how those sorta affect and adapt how vegaspete both relate to sex? it’s not as deep as I’d like to go and have other fics for that but really wanted to highlight in ch 2 both top drop and sub drop. I have a lot of growth for Vegas planned and how he uses kink and domination for his own control and self worth and how that’s tied to his relationship with his father and Kinn and how that relates back to his dynamic with Pete.

There’s also a whole exploration with a bdsm club (& world building for that) that I sorta introduced in ch 3 but will be setting up the bdsm club as a central location in the fic for ch 4; some of which I had written out and outlined for an old fic in mdzs that I never wrote/published.

Identity porn has always been one of my favorite tropes and love exploring it, and haven’t really scene anything for vegaspete so far? Like I’m also feral to write a fic where VP meet in a club and fuck with identity shenanigans (either Vegas doesn’t know who Pete is or they both know and have a secret fuck or whatnot). I’m really excited to sorta build up this tension between Vegaspete before snapping it (as it always happens with identity porn/mistaken identity), and how that works with vegaspete.

I’m not sure if I have anything else to say… as of right now that wouldn’t be a spoiler! I haven’t started ch 4 yet bc I’ve been working on eyes on me ch 11 (which is fighting me tooth and nail) but hopefully will start ch 4 when I’m done with EOM 11!

[revclver-jesus]

Oooh, that's an interesting interpretation :o! Especially that I've personally always imagined the exact opposite! As in, physicality tends to be the easiest way to "even out" social "ineptness", for the lack of better word. Most people, when lost on how to form out a positive verbal response (be it thankfulness, sympathy, etc.) AND make it feel unmistakably genuine, tend to just default to simply touching one another. It's also the easiest to "internalize", like, in this particular example, say, recognizing that a child clinging to his forearm seems to find the act somewhat soothing, hence he could probably enhance that, by patting them on the head, or something. And Takaya, specifically, always strucked me as someone who just couldn't care less what is happening to his body, as long as he doesn't feel invaded or threatened, so if hugging somebody gets him out of an emotionally uncomfortable situation, then it's a non-existent price to pay. But also genuinely interesting polar opposite interpretation on your end and I am very glad I sent that ask. Have a nice day :3

(( Hmmm!! Interesting, interesting... I think I see how we're getting the opposite interpretation here! Which is totally valid, because Takaya is just so mysterious in the original game tbh! But unfortunately--- I desperately want to elaborate and you have activated more rambling in me I apologize ahead of time lmao.......

See, I don't think Takaya is socially inept, since apparently Atlus describes him as being "charismatic" and convincing people to his cause, like a politician. He's emotionally inept. And only about his own emotions. Very big difference. He may be weird but he makes it look on purpose if that makes sense lol. He's the cult leader archetype, extremely unusual to most but somehow mesmerizing to the lost and downtrodden. As he says " People hear what they want to hear. " He's emotionally... opportunistic, if manipulative isn't the word, not simply because he's evil but because this is how a traumatized man hides behind 20 layers of smokescreen and emotional disassociation. Takaya holds his head high and aims to be untouchable by tragedy, which basically just means he fears being vulnerable. He does not grieve, he just rationalizes away the need for emotion and calls it acceptance. So basically, his way with words is HOW he gets out of unwanted situations.

He can talk to a dying child and tell them everything's going to be ok and this was meant to happen because words are just words to him, he'll say whatever you need to hear. But that facade cannot endure real request for closeness. He MUST keep his distance. He's charismatic, convincing. But to be so vulnerable and saccharine as to open his arms to actually embrace the child? Suddenly that's much too real, suddenly they're something tangible that is dying and he is losing them-- that's risking real attachment in a world he won't be in for long. Takaya is the wrong lesson to learn from death and loss, he is apathy, and so he cannot heal someone else in that way touch does, he has to talk them into simply not needing that comfort. He has to talk you into his death cult. He can't be a warm presence in the same way the protagonist learns to be. He doesn't know warmth. He's cold as death. If he tries to hold you now, you will immediately see exactly how cold he is, how bitter it is to be held and then let go. But if he decorates despair in poetry and flowers, he can keep you at an arms length.

Takaya doesn't care about his physical body, very true, he takes awful care of it as evident by his appearance. In fact I even headcanon that he has an apathy based eating disorder, but-- that's all due to his depression and being a reckless masochist tempting death lmao. He'll take a million beatings, smoke since he was 16, skip a few too many meals, but he won't accept a hug. He won't accept the touch of another person unless its to push him away.

.... ANYWAYS thank you for enduring the essay if you read that lol-- I hope you have a good day too !! ))