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honeyed-disgraceful · 2 months

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My grief at this point is just anger because I'm in a cage made for me by others and I either kill myself or keep going. But people need me so I'm gonna be fucking angry about it. Then one day I Will kill myself

#i fucking hate this family and their inherent need of me #i fucking hate all the trauma and health issues they caused me #everyone had a hand in my undoing here and i am pissed about it.#imagine i had a healthy relationship with literally anything instead of having to cope like a little bitch #because NO MATTER how much i help and no matter how much i fucking do #they still have the same self awareness and ability to change as a fucking floor tile.#i am the only fucking person here doing anything to try and remove the fucking dysfunctionality piece by fucking piece all on my own #and i hate all of them for making me fo it #every day i am more angry at them for not changing their toxic behaviour ingrained in them #and every day i am pissed at myself for having pity and hope and help to fucking give #i should become like my brother. i should take from them and leave them for dead. especially my brother. every day i hope he perishes #at his own fucking hand #he is the catalyst of all problems right now and ngl i am fucking tired of him #every single day he does his best to worsen everything for everyone #and no this is not a 'omg they were mean to me' rant #this is 'fuck they are dependent on me financially emotionally and physically and im forced to help because #even though they have never helped me with anything and beaten me down in a hole; i still have my own morals that i cannot seem to let go of #type thing.#i would be so well off if i didnt have to deal with this fucking bullshit #every single day i regret not killing myself at 19 actually #because now i have not only my burdens that THEY put over my head but also theirs because they cannot fucking regulate themselves. adults.#i am bone deep tired #i am 24 in 2 days and i just wish i was 3m under dirt.#misc

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aurosoulart · 7 months

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I had someone ask me about 'The World Has Been Changed' tshirts and since I took down all my merch shops here's the print file for free if you wanna print it yourself. donate to a random charity for the tax benefits if you download! or don't! go crazy go wild I don't care!!!!

also I hiked up a ridge and made a cool dragon video that's up as early access on Patreon rn. (I only have one Patreon tier and it costs $3)

ALSO also I'm hosting a Drawpile get-together in my Patreon discord tomorrow night starting at 5pm PST, so if you join to see the dragon video you are free to come to that as well. :) (once ppl join the Patreon discord I don't kick them out even if they stop being patrons btw)

#auropost #and don't feel guilty if you can't do a donation or be a patron or whatever it's just a gesture #and the patreon is just a tip jar really #if you're reading this i'm just glad you're here and it's all good #anyways can you tell i am just bone-deep tired right now #i scrolled thru instagram the other day (mistake) and felt like i was in plato's cave #like holy FUCK none of this is real!!!!!!!! it's ALL just Product Advertisement #perpetually a hair's breadth away from deleting all my social media these days #wanna play with holograms touch grass make art with my friends and that's IT!!!!

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attractthecrows · 4 months

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sick and tired of being sick and tired

#yes i know its song lyrics but theyre TRUE #im so tired #i am bone-deep exhausted #just living

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maskyartist · 11 months

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No one understands the intricacies of Ozpin starting out as headmaster and huntsman and one of Ozma’s younger souls and lives as being extremely skinny and overworked, only to get not only fatter but happier and more relaxed as life goes on because he learns to rely on the people around him and trust in uncertainty and enjoy life’s little things while he still can before he can’t remember them at all like PLEASE UNDERSTAND THE INTRICACIES-

#masky says #professor ozpin #I’m loving the flood of chubby Ozpin lately but I need us all on the same page #as a fat bitch myself I’m obsessed with this trend #Ozpin learning to let go love himself and let himself just be without scrutinizing himself because of imperfections…#because he has this expectation put on him by Ozma and the council and teachers and himself #that he needs to look a certain way to be seen as professional as official as worthy of the attention and praise he’s gotten #working himself to the bone and being skinny but so worn down and exhausted and unhappy #bags under his eyes so deep it’s like he’s a skeleton #until he gets older wiser more tired and decides it’s not worth the struggle #keeping up with everyone isn’t worth it. he knows what he likes why can’t he run his school how he wants #why can’t he live his life and eventually this life as his own for just a bit longer #why can’t he just BE #so he starts…being.#enjoying the little things. leisure time that extra cookie after lunch baking and long naps #he takes it all in he lets himself love it all again #yes he’s tired. yes he’s worked to the bone.#but he’s softer now. less pointed. less ready to bolt at the first sign of peril. less likely to push those he loves away.#he learns to let life lead him instead of leading his life.#LIKE I AM SO FUCKED UP OVER THIS NONE OF YOU GET HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME

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aropride · 7 months

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was thinking like Classes four days a week is already so awful How the fuck did i handle five a week in freshman year. and then i was like Well i didnt. i judt didnt go to classes

#text #i am like. so fucking bone deep exhausted #im just so fucking tired. and its only one class per day most days #how do normal people handle everything #i dont wnat to keep doing things i want to not be doing things anymore please. god.#neg

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seedlessmuffins · 11 months

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#i think ive been burnt out for awhile #like exhausted nothing makes me happy anymore burnt out #i know i need to work to be able to afford things but it is so much and my job is so draining in every way #i feel guilty because i was late to work today i slept through my alarm #but it is because im so stressed all the time my body just doesnt respond anymore #ive worked like 8-13 hour days every day for the past two months and at this point im tired #i dont know if i can do this anymore but genuinely if i dont i will not be able to afford school next year #its a struggle #and then i feel guilty not answering texts or asks even though i love getting them and reading them #because i legitimately dont have the energy to reply #its also why ive been a bit less active but i dont have the energy for it #it makes me feel guilty which makes me feel worse and just sends me deeper into the spiral #it will get better but im not at the positivity place yet #it will get better but right now it fucking sucks and i am absolutely bone deep exhausted and tired of waking up #im in an ok place but i just need to be taken out of time for a bit #k.

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teja-has-puppet-autism · 3 months

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bros and brudettes iam drink

also fUckin I wish that my energy was an even bastard like some butter

wish i could spread my energy across my interests toast as smooth as i wantes

I JUST WANNA HAVE EMERGY TO REAPOND TO COOL DUDE BUT NOOOO too much work for my brain apPARENTLY 😖😭

#hello tags i am livign in here hi #gugs listen to me hear me rq this dude this person IOH NO IDK IF THEY USE DUDE #this lerson is so cool and they talk about deep things and character analysis bit also lidten I am such a tired guy #im so sleepy eepy owwy coded #my bones dictate my life and my bones have extra bones on them and rhat makes them hurt and hurt makes them say FUCKA U UR TOO TIEWD TO TALK #abi5ut your BLROBIS

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hael987 · 1 year

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I’m so busy and depressed, I’m so worn down. I don’t even have the time or energy to watch my shows. I haven’t even been able to watch any Between Us since ep 6(?) and that was ages ago

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#honestly my pals I am sad and tired #like bone deep tired

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damnedifivoodoo · 7 months

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#i am so bone deep goddamned tired. this year can go fuck itself.

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kyonite · 1 year

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Aren't you all so fucking tired? I'm so fucking tired. I will continue because I can't afford to do anything else, but good fucking lord above I'm so tired.

#this is both about the new hp thing #but also about just life in general #aren't you all so fucking tired #it just feels so bad y'know? like you have a bone deep weariness in you that nobody else recognizes #and the closest I can get to describing it is tiredness #but it's not quite right #and just leaves people saying 'well get more sleep!'#but that won't help #I can get 8 hours every night. I am still just eternally weary

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terezicaptor · 9 months

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what if I wasn't exhausted. Wild idea guys

#txt #I mowed the lawn earlier and I am on my period and I'm so bone deep tired. And i have 2 interviews tomorrow..#At least I will probably sleep easier tonight

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frogbi · 1 year

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#suicide //#i would just love to stop feeling so fucking suicidal and just bone deep exhausted and negative with myself #so i can talk to my friends i miss them i just cant talk to anyone and it's like a never ending cycle of bad and worse days and idk how to #talk to people and its not getting better and i am so isolated and lonely and depressed and suicidal #i am so so tired #idk i just need this to end #it's just getting worse and worse and idk how long my friends or people around me will put up with me and my bullshit #i thought itd be better to write it but that just makes it worse and idk i genuinely need to go to therapy or something #i dont even have the strength to just push myself to do anything

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nicojoe · 2 years

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Public Service Announcement

apologies to everyone who followed this blog exclusively for ‘The Old Guard’ content... it might become a bit overrun with different immortals for a little while.

i was just wondering how the fuck i'll survive the wait until TOG 2... when AMC's blatantly and unabashedly queer 'Interview with the Vampire' falls right into my lap. my gay immortals throughout history needs are being met, and then some.

Joe & Nicky are my Functional® immortal (enemies to lovers) husbands and Lestat & Louis are my Dysfunctional® immortal (lovers to enemies... back to lovers?) husbands

#personal #believe me i will still post TOG content especially closer to the sequel's release... but that likely isn't until next summer #and Netflix is known for giving us absolutely NOTHING in terms of anticipatory promo #i can't last that long on fumes... it's already been 2 years and i am bone-deep tired y'all #it looks like AMC is actually aware of this fandom and is already feeding it which is more than i can say about that glorified streaming co #IWTV #amc iwtv #interview with the vampire

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daddyjackfrost · 1 year

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why am i……. so tired?

#not like #yawn #tired #but deep within my bones #generational tired #yk #like i could sleep for 14 hours and still be tired #is this depression #am i just spewing symptoms #pls say no #anyways #hana’s.trash!

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literalite · 2 years

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i’ve got no words for these askers anymore 😧

me neither. asks off

#actually yeah u know what i am tired #i am bone deep exhausted of how miserably lifelessly bored some people on this site are to take it out on others for no reason ✌️#ask #reply #anonymous

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ashfdhfgdsfk · 1 year

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convinced im meant to be nocturnal

#me all day: lethargic. sleepy in that bone deep tired kind of way #me the second it gets later than 6pm: Fucking Restless Hyper #i need to rip someone apart with my teeth i feel like im going insane #its only 12am there are so many hours left in the night how am i going to survive this #why do i not want to be social at all during the day but the second its night i have the overwhelming urge to call up everyone ive ever #had a single conversation with #this cant be normal what the hellll

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