#i am so sad i am so hollow and im still going on and doing things and its like fine i miss him but he's not here

[aqqleshiqqing-archive]

um hello again hk community <3

I AM NOT BEATING THE KNIGHT IN SHINING ARMOR ALLEGATIONS .....

thank you to the number one superfan bestie @lovinglin for enabling me so bad she made hollow x ivie content faster than I did <3 please follow her <3

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[buriesitsteeth]

just venting again I’m sorry

[diomedrian]

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[allamericanb-tch]

crimson rivers thoughts (12)

@tastetherainbow290

chapter 26

rip james potter’s leg he’s gone full peeta

sirius is visiting reg

reg ☹️

talking about throwing up is arguably the worst part of this fic so far

“It's fine. I didn't even like this shirt. (Sirius really liked this shirt.)”

i am legitimately shaking but i don’t know if this is important so i need to read it

please stop talking about throwing up

poor regulus i feel so bad

and hes throwing up again

i cant even think about this what if i just skim the rest

ok pov switch thank god

oh no i forgot remus has to go back… 

sirius is so considerate

nooo remu

sirius pov again im praying there isn’t any more throwing up

and there it is.

poor regulus ahhhhh i just feel so bad for him like. i want to give him a hug.

why doesn’t regulus want to see james ☹️

sirius is visiting james now

that was sweet. sad, but sweet.

remus pov again

remu ❤️‍🩹

can someone tell me why the rat is my 5th most used emoji

"You're so precious to me, did you know that?"

remus loves sirius (duh)

chapter 27

i’m sad for wolfstar what’s gonna happen

"You can trust that the only person I have an interest in seeing naked is your brother." 😭

this hallow drama is actually hilarious

reggie 💔

i’m scared that pandora is going to die in the future bc we have t seen any of her pov

this is so sad.

no thoughts just sadness.

“i’m collecting them all” i’m glad to see you making jokes reg

"Oh, this is just the bruise finally blooming from where I tripped and fell the moment I saw you,"

this was a lighter chapter but still sad

chapter 28

back to james pov

oh no a nightmare

CRAP I FORGOT ABT MY MATH HOMEWORK it was due yesterday but she hasn’t graded it yet so if i turn it in now she won’t take of points for it being late

math homework is finished! back to reading (suffering)

oh yeah. nightmare. ☹️

"I wasn't supposed to go through this," no james, you were not. i’m sad now (i have been sad)

james leave regulus aloneeee (don’t leave him alone)

shrodinger’s cat mention

“james”

i’m actually crying right now.

nooo why are the fighting

james is getting his glasses back soon!!! huzzah

"I don't want to be a great, big tragedy anymore,"

baby

“it’s a parting gift” i’m crying again

regulus and remus friendship <3

“we broke up” “you were together?” 😭

ugh this is so sad. already i’ve cried more times than reading atyd AND choices and ive barely made a dent in cr

oh no interview prep

evan mention 💔

every time i see the word hallow in this fic im like “i need to add this (hallow/hollow) to my list of homophones” and i never do bc im writing all my thoughts in my notes app and my homophones list is in a different folder than my marauders thoughts 

chapter 29

oh me oh my hanky panky happening in this chapter i wonder for who

every time i call sex hanky panky i give myself the ick

"We broke up? This is news to me” james 😭

“No one needs romantic love to be fulfilled as a person. Not everyone wants it, and then there are those who aren't ready, and all of it is okay. That doesn't mean there's an absence of love, or that you're getting it wrong. You're not, Regulus, I promise." 

they’re holding hands (but for sad reasons)

interview time i’m scared

evan ☹️☹️☹️

vanity ☹️☹️☹️

“We love your love, don't we?" 💔

this is so sad omg i genuinely don’t know how im going to survive this

GLASSES!!!!!!

so he’s just been wearing contacts this whole time?

ok i need to go do my duolingo. 

i am back from duolingo.

james telling sirius to go have sex with remus on their last night 😭 i mean fair. they should

"I'm absolutely thinking about your brother right now." oh, james

james telling sirius about him and reg 😭 poor sirius

sirius asking james for tips 💀

“i expect all the details” james fleamont potter 😭

sirius is such a good brother. i love him. 

remus pov !!

“i would not have known joy if i did not have the pleasure of knowing you”

ugh wolfstar. i love you. 

😯 hanky panky

spine has been realigned

ok but any time any of them ever talk about getting off it just makes me think about one time when i was at a district choir concert and when we were practicing one of our songs the director said “there won’t be a dry seat in the audience” (he meant dry eye, bc the song was beautiful, but it just came out like everyone in the audience would dream their pants 😭) but. unnecessary story and it isn’t really that funny unless you were there but. 

chapter 30 (?!)

evan 💔

god.

remus ‘reading’ sirius’ mind 😭

they have to say goodbye ☹️

barty mention!!!!

*singing* i just miss you and i just wish you were a better man

“i love you” eeeeeeeee

omg kissing

and it’s over.

“i don’t want to hurt you anymore” 💔

eeeee they’re kissing again

“it’ll take a while but later—much later—james will look back on this and wonder, sadly, if it was a parting gift, too.” WHAT

sirius kissing the mask so remus will always have a sirius kiss

i love pandora

wolfstar goodbye 💔

the fact that all of this happened in the span of two weeks

effie and monty!!!!!!!!!!

the next chapter is lily… should i read it or go to sleep 

[lesbian-empress-nero]

“You have to be the dumbest person I have ever had the misfortune of interacting with!”

Akechi stood in front of Ryuji, glowering and livid.

And Ryuji was having none of his shit.

“I’m the dumb one? We figured out your whole shtick because of pancakes! Effin’ pancakes, dude! And you’re the one who let it slip!”

Akechi folded his arms, scowling beneath his mask. “Yes. And once again, I have proven myself to be a valuable asset to the team- unlike yourself. You blunder around, miss attacks, get knocked on your ass every three turns... Honestly, it’s a miracle you’re still allowed to be a Phantom Thief.”

It felt like Ryuji had been punched. It felt like Kamoshida had broken his leg again, like his father was screaming at him, like Mona was calling him pathetic and useless.

“....Y’know what, actually? For once, you’re right. Why am I still a Phantom Thief?”

Akechi shifted, now silent. Ryuji vaguely wondered if he was the reason ol’ Black Mask was quiet. Yeah, right. As if he, of all people, could be clever enough to shut someone up.

“Sakamoto...?” Akechi’s voice was sickeningly quiet. Ryuji wanted Akechi to yell, to scream and shout at him. He wanted to hear the fury in Akechi’s voice, the sorrow and heartbreak and every ugly emotion after.

Ryuji wanted Akechi to hit him. He wanted to feel something other than the hollow pit in his gut, he wanted to feel something other than guilt at his own uselessness. He wanted Akechi to take his attention from his pathetic self-pity and direct it at something else, something like hitting. It seemed like that was all Ryuji was good for anyways.

A good little attack dog, biting and maiming whatever he was told to. Thrashing limbs and bloodied teeth were all Ryuji knew now. It made him sick.

“Sakamoto-”

“Tell the others I’m staying behind. Make something up, say I’m keeping watch for Shadows or something. But tell them I’m not catching up.”

Suddenly, he felt hands on his shoulders. It was now that he realised he was shaking.

“Sakamoto, you are coming with us. I won’t let you do something stupid and risk your life for us again,” Akechi said with finality. Ryuji couldn’t find it in himself to argue. He couldn’t even push Akechi off.

“Whaddya mean ‘again’...?” Was what he said instead, desperately fighting back tears.

“Time and time again you’ve thrown yourself headfirst into danger, never giving it a second thought. It’s always been to protect us, but it’s as though you don’t even spare yourself a single thought.”

Because he didn’t. He never thought about himself, about his safety. If his friends were unharmed, he’d gladly take as many hits as his body could handle.

“...It keeps you all safe, doesn’t it...?”

He was met with silence.

Though this time, it was arguably worse.

RYUGORO KAKJDJDBDBDNDBFB HOW IVE MISSED YOU!!!! I WAS going to say the girls are fighting but as that went on the girls got sad... RYUJI LISTEN TO AKECHI ryuji risks his life for everyone and gets absolutely nothing in return. just because he loves them so much and wants to protect them but they never give him credit for it. they are ASSHOLES to him sometimes but he still can't let them go because he feels like they're all he has.... im getting thoughts...

[m00nl1ght-sun25]

Heya! I'm the greenflower request sjxnks

I really don't have preference

But you can make something connecting with when they live in Darkley, like, Brad or Lloyd remember something similar happened in their children's

Maybe after the s8, or any season after s8 likee s10 or s15

Ok! :D also i realized like a sentence or two before I finished it that I didn’t really have lloyd sick- i was more focused of hurt/comfort and like darklys and all- im really sorry, if you want I can do a part 2 where it focuses more on lloyd being sick, again i’m really sorry. But i hope you enjoy and also if you do end up disliking this fanfic please tell me and and I can always remake it- so the fanfic will be under the cut and also if you do not know, I am dyslexic so to anyone reading, please don’t be rude or mean if I misspell anything wrong or phrase stuff wrong, you can always politely tell me and I will gladly fix it, please and thank you! :D

Heads up

This is after seabound/season 15

I hc that after nya left lloyd ran away to live with brad in a apartment so that’s where lloyd is :)

This takes place after the burning fate oneshot :P

Trigger warning

Suicidal thoughts

Cussing

Depression

Implied Self harm

Implied and mentioned Child abuse(different parts)

Mentioned Suicide attempt

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You and I Drink The Poison From The Same Vile

The rain was falling around Lloyd as he blankly looked over the balcony and into the busy streets on the busy city. He often stood here, just wondering what would happen if he jumped off and ended it all… would anyone miss him? No. No one would. 

He was letting him tired mind wonder in this moment of sorrow. He thought about many things… Nya, The others, His parents, Master Wu… He was thinking about it. How this was all his fault. If he wasn’t the fucking green ninja none of this would’ve happened. Nya would still be here if he wasn’t a shitty leader or friend. 

He wonders how different life would be if he hadn’t gotten kicked out of Darklys… would Nya still be here? Yes. She would. Because then Lloyd likely wouldn’t have become the green ninja and so she wouldn’t of had the sacrifice herself for his stupidity. 

Hair falls in his face but he doesn’t have the strength to move it… he’s so tired and his wrists sting so badly and he’s so fucking tired form being unable to get sleep without having night terrors. But he deserves it, does he not? He doesn’t deserve to be content and happy in life. Not after he was the reason Nya, his (adopted) sister, is gone. 

Everyone probably hates him. Why hasn’t Brad broke up with him? He’s a monster. He killed his own sister. All he does is kill. His father, Harumi, Zane with the overlord, Morro, and… Nya. He could’ve saved all these people or taken their place and things would’ve been so much better. But no, their paying the price. The price he deserves, not them…. Okay maybe Morro does deserve to die… but… Even if he did hurt Lloyd so much, Lloyd still feels sick thinking like how Morro does. 

“You’re going to get sick like this, Lloyd…”

The sudden voice made Lloyd jump and he quickly looked back into the apartment balcony door to see Brad, his boyfriend, give him a worried look… Lloyd still can’t get that look out of his face from when Brad “saved him” from committing. The absolute terror and sadness Brad had in his eyes that day… it as only a couple of weeks ago. Lloyd feels like a absolute dick for making Brad so worried. He’s such a burden for Brad. He should just jump. Maybe this time nothing will be in his way and he would make Brad so much happier.

Lloyd flinches a bit when Brad took Lloyds hand in his. Gently intertwining their fingers and giving Lloyd a soft smile. He gently pulled Lloyd into the apartment and closed the balcony door behind him. Brad pulled Lloyd to the couch, which Lloyd followed him with hollow eyes that kept their gaze on the ground. 

Lloyd didn’t say or do anything as Brad sat him on the couch with a soft but worried expression. Ever since Lloyds last attempt Brad has been even more protective and watchful of Lloyd. 

His dull green eyes looked up to see Brad walk into their bedroom and walk out with a blanket a second later. When Brad walked up to Lloyd he draped it across his shoulders and Lloyd looked to the ground as Brads soft blue eyes tried to lock with his.

Brad gently sighed and plopped on the couch next to his blonde lover. The blue eyed boy wrapped his fingers around the green eyed boy’s. A look of love was on Brads face as he looked at the beautiful blonde. 

“Do you want to talk about it Lloyd…?”

Brad tried to tilt his head so he could be in Lloyd’s field of vision but Lloyd turned his head to the side so he couldn’t look at brad. Lloyds shoulders tensed and he shook his head.

Brad was upset but he knew it would only get better if Lloyd talked about it, he gently squeezed Lloyds hand in his and rubbed his thumb across the back of Lloyds hand as he said in a soft voice.

“Please, I just want to help.”

Lloyd knew that Brad wouldn’t stop until Lloyd told him what was bothering him so Lloyd just sighed and leaned onto Brads side and whispered with his voice filled with guilt.

“I was thinking about Nya… and how different things would’ve been if I was never kicked out of Darklys. Like… would I still be the green ninja? Would Nya still be here? Just so many questions….”

Brad flinched as Lloyd mentioned Darklys, the place was hard for them both. But especially Lloyd. The teachers knew how good Lloyd was so they thought that beating it into him would “fix” him. It didn’t. It just made him more traumatized. 

So, Brad thought for a moment of how to respond to Lloyd. He wrapped his arm around Lloyds shoulders and kissed his cheek, Lloyd glanced at Brad with that but then looked away. Brad understood how much pressure Lloyd put on himself… so he didn’t mind. He knew Lloyd loved him.

“Lloyd… I think, in full honesty, being kicked out of Darklys was honestly the best thing for you… I don’t think you would’ve… I don’t think you would’ve survived. They were so brutal, and to you the most. You… You were so skinny and always had cuts and bruises… And with Nya. That wasn’t your fault. It was no one’s. Nya choose to do that, and I don’t think she would want you to blame yourself for her decision.”

Lloyd sat quietly thinking about it, he laid his head on Brads shoulder as he looked up at Brad. He tensed when Brad mentioned how harsh Darklys was… he understood why Brad thought that, but maybe just give Lloyd a few years and he would’ve been just like his father in that hellhole. 

Then he thought about what Brad said about Nya, and how she wouldn’t want him to blame himself. Now, he can see that. But that doesn’t stop him. He feels like a failure, and that’s never going to go away. He’s the leader. It’s supposed to be his role to keep everyone safe, and he failed. He couldn’t save her. He quit when she needed him most…. ninja never quit? Well he must not be a ninja then. 

Brad carried his fingers through Lloyds soft blonde hair, and kissed his forehead. Lloyd felt like melting at the affection. But at the same time he felt like yelling at Brad and telling him to stop, Lloyd doesn’t deserve this. He doesn’t deserve Brad. Or anyone for a matter of fact. 

Instead of doing anything though Lloyd just laid in Brads arms. He was still a bit wet and shaking from standing in the rain… Brad was right, Lloyd would get sick… great. 

He wrapped the blanket from Brad more around himself and then sneezed. His noise started to leak and Brad playfully rolled his eyes and joked to Lloyd.

“Now, what was it I said about you getting sick by standing out there?”

Lloyd just whined in response and Brad playfully rolled his eyes. He stood up and handed his hand out to Lloyd as he smiled to him.

“Let’s go get you cleaned up.”

[foxtriestobiteandmaimandkilland]

Hiiii :33333 im Cayden and i am incredibly abnormal about jrwi teehee ^_^ and im also the #1 silliest guy in the world [TRUE] [FACTUAL] [DONT FACT CHECK ME] [IM RIGJHT] [ALWAYS] I use he/him and she/her since we r sillyyyyy now (if u use they/them on me u explode by meteor. SAD!)

@spaghett-onaplate is my mostest bestest homoerotic bestiest in the whole wide world :3333 he posts about fandoms i dont understand go follow him rn <3 <- u will be rewarded with 1 thousand unicorns.

(Flash warning 4 below the cut ^_^)

I am rhe worst tagger on all of tumblr HOWEVER. i am like the eclipse and both the sun and the moon and my AWESOME ORIGINAL HIGH QUALITY POSTS are tagged either

#day thoughts - [partially comprehensible posts]

or

#night thoughts - [you shall need to study the wizards texts for 10000 years to begin to understand these]

I am like an eclipse i am day and night and sun and moon and dyke and fag and so chill w it and so scared.

ALSO:

#asks :3 - [semi-consistent ask tag which i will definitely forget one day and have done in the past my mind is like an iron trap except made of not iron. Made of. Jelly :3]

#art thoughts - [i used this like once i dont post art ever but might do ??,?, in the future]

THINGS I AM, HAVE BEEN, OR WILL BE, INCREDIBLT AUTISTIC ABOUT #swag

JRWI - i have seen riptide 3.5 times. And bitb 3 times. And apothy twice. And i shall not stop there. This podcast has enthralled me in its grip and it shall enthrall you too. Youtube dot com forward slash just roll with it. Go. Venture forth.

QSMP - i literally have like only watched phil + charlie slimecicle BUT. I am the #3 juanaflippa fan ever ever ever.

LIFE SERIES - only been watchin since like double life AND IM A PEARL MAIN 4EVER however i do like the sillies :3c

[THOSE 3 R LIKE MY BIG BIG ONES RN BUT EVERYTHING BELOW IS STILL SO DEAR TO ME]

MINECRAFT - i mean. What can i say. Yeah im a gamer BOOM KACHOW FIRE EXPLOSIONS FIREWORKS SPARKLES GLITTER CONFETTI WOOOOO

OMORI - this game changed me 4everz no questions asked

HOLLOW KNIGHT - worst gamer alive right here took me like a month 2 beat hornet. But i love it nonetheless. This too is yuri.

LIFE IS STRANGE - truly it is. This game changed me. As well. Games tend to do that

LITTLE NIGHTMARES - holy fuck the Guys.

PHOTOGRAPHY - i dont post abt it much But i fucking love photography ^_^

I have a cat as well he is called jack he is my baby boy my sweetie pie my honey baby my dearest my world my everything. You will love him. <- not a choice, but an obligation.

[akirameta84]

Dragon AU Question time! When THK awoke in the Black Egg Temple, did they fit through the entrance properly? I imagine they bonked thier horns on it and then truely realized thier acual change, shock and confusion would easily allow them to just crawl out first thing in the, well, morning.

these reference this au (and this post links to an earlier post, even) so check it out cough

1. not really but they. "fixed" the entrance via accidental brute force. its a good thing nobody was gonna want to go back in there again because it wasnt in the greatest state before their horns took out any structural support the entrace had

2. there was an attempt to stop them from entering houses and shops that still had an intact doorframe but they just looked so sad that the bugs of dirtmouth decided that doorframes were an old trend anyways lmfao

3. hornet "borrowed" jijis cave. she walked in and asked if anyone was using it and didnt wait for an answer (the answer she got was too scared by the dragon and half dragon half spider and her weapon to refuse. not that she would have. there are far worse roommates than the only living descendants of the fabled king, after all)

4. i adore how you imagined those spells so those interpretations are pretty damn great. i hadn't thought much about how soul magic would be altered but thats a damn good way to do it <3 so i say they work just like that lmfao

5. they could weild a nail but they prefer to just bite and claw and stab things with their tail. all of those in combination with spells are more than effective.

anyways. thank you so much for the asks i am obsessed with this new au and im glad someone else enjoys it too <3

hornet and her wyrm siblings (after godhome)/hornet and the feral vessel that made her realize that the hollow knight was supposed to also look more like a wyrm than they did before the spells were destroyed (before godhome happened). the small one with too much energy who has slain gods and the big one with depression <3

[lordrandreaming]

Unwanted Arcana opinion that might put me in hot water below:

I think the writing is incredibly lackluster, for personalities, interactions, and so on.

I noticed, as I neared the end of Julian's route, the writing lost it's fire. It seemed.. Confused. Like whoever wrote it had no idea where this was all going. You can tell, there was a change in writing.

Lucio, Muriel, and Portia are especially victims of this sudden change, because it just felt like they were given 'filler' personalities and stories. No one is hit harder than Portia. Followed by Muriel.. Followed by Lucio.

Now I like Lucio. But.. He wasn't done justice. You can say, that living the pampered life turned this count whos been in various bloody fights, raised out in the cold harsh winter environment, would make him this squishy, soggy idiot we know.

But.. His characterisation really could have been better. I see him more as 'Sorry not sorry I did that lol' not 'I need everyone to forgive me or im crying' (its not actually like that, but it's pretty close.) And then fucking off for adventure.

In my opinion, which yes, is just an opinion, Lucio should have stayed in Vesuvia and make up for what he's done by lending a helping hand. Yes everyone hates him, as he was written to be the *worst* character..

I think it's unfair what happened to all the routes by the end. Im assuming, If Julain's near-ending was so cobbled together, that Nadia and Asra's routes suffer the same fate.

As a writer, I care about the character's I am writing. I can see clearly that in the end, none of the M6 were cared about. They were made to be appealing and draw people in, because it was "the Thing" at the time.

It makes me incredibly sad, that now I see how cobbled together everything is. Some amount of thought went into the story, but it could have been so much better..

There isn't alot to do, for one. And I know.. 'Its just a game!' However, as a consumer of said media, it's extremely lacking and doesn't stimulate me like I'd hoped. It's like a false promise- but there was no promise to begin with.

When I first seen the Arcana, I was not at all interested. And for good reason.. As advertised was not what we got. I got into it about, two years ago now.

Yes, I was late, but.. The fandom was near death when I came into the scene. Yes yes, I know, people of course are still heavily into it, and I still love it myself but.. It makes me sad.

The character's clearly weren't cared about. They were put out there for visual appearance to lure in lonely gay people. Lesbians, Bi, everyone. They included everyone so they can pull in more people.

Nothing wrong with that- alot of games and industries tend to do this. But they never stick with what they said..

You can say: Mori, why are you bitching about this? It doesn't matter anymore!

Or

If your so unhappy, why don't you just stop caring?

Because.. It started out as a passion, you can see, and quickly as people left, new people kept coming in and that passion was quickly lost.

It saddens me, as an artist and writer. The love was lost.. And the Arcana became hollow anymore. As I played through it a second time, it just felt empty. It was so thrown together- the ingredients just didn't mix.

Id re-write the whole damn game if I could. And like hell I'm going on Dorian.

I appriciate that the people who still love the fandom, want to make and create and that Dorian allows that to happen, but I don't vibe with the fact that anything you post on there is now Dorian's to claim and use.

You can be mad at me, say that I'm wrong because Im dumb and didn't play all the routes, or tell me that I'm just seeing 'face value'. But I'm not changing my opinion because people are mad at me.

This isn't a post meant to rile up or insult anyone. Im not starting a debate. This is just my heartfelt opinion, and that opinion is the state the Arcana was left in was shit. It could have been more interactive, we could have had so much more, but ultimately, we are left with a hollow possibility of what could have been, but never was.

[blues-valentine]

Agree with all ur shadow and bone thoughts, im honestly so disappointed.. they just forgot to add the sankta alina followers in the show which was always so interesting and important to me, like wth was the mal reveal it was terrible, like wheres the angst? Wheres alinas hunger for power that starts to scare her? Like it all felt so hollow.

Yeah, honestly the Sankta Alina plot was always interesting to me and I think it not only added so many layers to Alina’s character but it also provided a change of dynamic instead of the same Alina’s powers vs Darkling situation that was frankly a bit repetitive. The Apparant if done right could’ve been an great antagonist and they literally introduced him on Season 1 and planted the seeds for this plot only to just blatantly ignore it because they desperately wanted the spin off which I get but I still believe is a disregard to Alina Starkov and a disrespect to Jessie and everyone from the S&B cast.

This religious symbol that Alina represents beyond the Sun Summoner plus her big following was another aspect to Alina’s conflict that gave her layers they just didn’t want to explore. It was truly disappointing and as you just mentioned, hollow. Tolya and Tamar had a really particular devotion and loyalty to Alina, similar to Inej’s because of what she represents in their belief and this was not added on. The twins were basically more involved for Nikolai and the crows’s plot than what they were supposed to mean for Alina’s story line, which was allowing her to understand that side of her and give us a different perspective of her role not just as a savior or queen, but as a whole. Also, the whole Apparat plot gave us really cool moments with all the characters that we’ll probably never going to get such as them in the church ruins. Mal training the Grisha for the upcoming war and all of those cool scenes. It would’ve made sense why they would want Mal as leader of the guards too because he basically takes that role throughout the books. Like, all of these issues is what convinced Alina that she needed to become a queen. Something she did not want. Mal being a great military strategist was never mentioned or brought into the show. Alina didn’t want to be a queen, she wasn’t compelled by the “glamorous” vibe of it all and that’s precisely what they made her up to be.

The thing about Alina’s power is that she’s slowly losing it to the point it scares her and everyone around her. Mal was starting to be afraid too of her hurting herself. It’s what pull him on high alert throughout the whole thing. It’s why Darkling’s visitations become more present, because she’s battling into letting herself be consumed by power. The mental tool it took taking the second amplifier was not explored as it should have been because that changed Alina in a lot of ways. The moment I got into episode 4 and saw that they were already doing the R&R plot I was like, uhm, anyways. It was just so anticlimactic and it sadly was because there was not build up to it.

Like, I am glad I have the books but yeah, it would’ve been great to watch it display on the show correctly because I believe Jessie really stepped up this season in terms of delivery. But I believe maybe this is why they changed that Season 2 ending, like they are clearly going for Alina being corrupted by power — which might simulate Siege and Storm but there was not need to change it this much and it was clear that their priority wasn’t on Alina which is why many other characters ended up having more screen time than the female heroine of color they’ve spent season 1 patting themselves on the back for and the one female they’ve build the whole grishaverse upon – and it’s truly sad.

[ankhisms]

ok ive finished both eps 42 and 43 of kingoh now so heres my messy thoughts on things

as a disclaimer!!! this is not at all me saying that i dont like kingohger or that i think its a bad sentai show or anything like that! i really have loved kingohger and have had a lot of fun watching it!! i really love the characters and im going to miss them when its over. this is all just my personal opinion and relates to my own tastes in writing and such and im not at all trying to ruin peoples fun or stop people from enjoying the aspects that i dont really like. im not wanting to be mean or anything like that.

ok that out of the way. you would probably expect that as someone who really loves the different sibling relationships in toku shows and is really deeply moved by them to be more emotional about racles and gira but i just... have not. very early on in the show i was hoping so badly that we would get some parallels on the brothers and how they differ and that we could also have some parallels to the other sibling relationships in the show, gira with his little sister and brother and suzume and kaguragi vs gira and racles relationships. i had thought that exploring those parallels could be really interesting and good, and i still think that if they had chosen to explore that early on it wouldve been interesting and couldve also been used to have the reveal later on have more impact.

ive never really been a racles stan, although i do absolutely admire and enjoy his actors performance hes fantastic and has always done a great job in his role- but i dont like the sudden redemption happening. when the twist first happened i thought it was interesting and was thinking maybe it wouldve been motivated by racles being selfish, but i felt like episode 42 was very... idk the word. hollow maybe. we hadnt gotten any kind of hints that racles was actually a double agent or that he was doing things for giras or the peoples sake (so i dont really get people who say they knew it all along im sorry gnmgh) and its like. this again could have worked out better if there was some foreshadowing and hints to what was going on or at least some kind of build up. episode 43 kind of vaguely touches on how many people racles has gotten killed and how he says he wants to go down in history as the worst ruler ever and its like.... idk it feels like a retcon in a way to be like oh yeah btw all these horrible atrocities and war crimes he committed were actually for the good of the people! maybe im just being too much of a bleeding heart commie gmgmy but i do think there would have been more impact if racles actually HADNT been a double agent this whole time and if he actually had to face his actions and have some kind of change of heart while also not being totally 100% nice all of the sudden.

again i really did early on want more development on the brothers and wanted exploration of the contrasts between them as people, and i think both gira and racles actors are wonderful and did a great job in their roles. it makes me sad that i didnt.. really feel emotionally moved seeing the brothers scenes in these last two episodes and i think it just comes down to lack of build up and feeling like things are coming out of nowhere and rushed and like no actions have any real weight or consequences

like for example ive mentioned this before but the whole deal with yanma destroying the laptop and watching it youre going oh shit the whole kingdom is fucked he made this huge sacrifice. and then its totally fine a few episodes later. or how they kill the pink jester and in the moment its presented as this huge deal. and then shes fine. it feels like that just kind of continues to happen and its something that frustrates me because kingohger is really fun and has great concepts but then nothing holds any weight, the stakes you set up are meaningless when nothing actually has any consequences

and to just say it again. i AM enjoying kingohger. im having a lot of fun with it! i like this show and its characters a lot! which is part of why my brain notices these things and why i want to analyse it because i can see how i wish it could be better in certain aspects. i really like this show but i dont really agree when i see people saying that its a masterpiece of sentai writing

also i really wish suzume hadnt become another victim to genre typical misogyny where it feels like her character just revolves around racles and liking him and it feels like we lost so much potential with her character i still love her and her actress but early on i was so excited for her having some kind of depth but well.

and another thing i was thinking of as i was watching ep 43 was... why have all of the kings of shugodom thru history be secretly against dugded. it again feels like something that would have more weight and impact to it if there were some kings who really were on dugdeds side and then giras dad decides that hes not going to fall in line and is going to actually do something to try and save his people.

idk as i finish typing this i kind of feel like im being nitpicky and i really dont want to be a downer or ruin peoples fun 😭 i really do like this show i promise thats why i think about this stuff. thanks if u read this mwah

[journeysfable]

DERPINA!?

STUPID IDIOT MOTHERFUCKING DERPINA GOD DAMN MITW SHIPPER WORM EATING FILHO DA PUTA FRANGO VERMELHO BIGGEST CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS LAUGHED OUT OF TOWN FEATHERED ASS MOTHERFUCKING DERPINA

STOP PINNING ME WHEN I TALK ABOUT DERPINA I HATE THEM SO MUCH WHY DO THEY SHIP MITW SO MUCH WHY DO THEY CONSTANTLY TALK ABOUT IT IS HE DEAD IS HE A BIG RED CHICKEN HAS SUCH A VISCERAL AFFECT ON ME NOT EVEN IN THE ROOM NEVER EVEN HEARD THEM SPEAK OR CLUCK BUT I KNOW THEY HAVE THE SHITTIEST SYRINX GET AWAY FROM ME

if i wanted to get into heaven and god said Derpinas waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the sole purpose of getting sent back down

if i have to deal with Derpina speaking one word with a VA in an episode of Chume Labs not only will i close the tab i will remove the playlist from my yt library out of spite and have to rewatch the entire series again for the experience of being able to skip all the times when they are on screen and alive

i dont even know why i hate them so much. They ship MITW but i am just mad because i am angy

They better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if they're just a fan who cannot comprehend a deep platonic bond between two men I will go ham

BETTER just like imagining ppl in romantic relationships for the sake if it or I will infodump about dinosaurs and birds so they know how much of a stain they leave on their ancestors legacy

paypal.com/IFuckingHateDerpina

episodes not even about them. vaguely mentioned needing their help.

where the fuck is Derpina if hes still alive im going to so deeply wish he wasnt

Big fucking red chicken

ill punch Derpina and their sad frail hollow bones will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and they will disintegrate until all thats left is one final feather with the cursed ink of a mitw fic

im not breathing im hyperventilating at this point

i hope theres a date given for when Derpina died or will die so i can make it a reminder on my phone

everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the bird who encroached upon a sacred (and toxically codependent but shh thats not the point) bromance

[jjackrabbitt]

hi!! this is rlly random but i wanted to know ur thoughts on the various loop sentences mentioned in mpmow! such as the tree kid being put on an island without trees, or the crazy ship loop that one peculiar was sent to (i think bc she pretended to be a ymbryne and killed some kids?). ik the book mentions that, since peculiars live for so long, the long sentences arent rlly much but i think the conditions they're put in r terrible and i cant help but go "wow this sounds like a pretty terrifying society to live in, when u ignore the already glaring issue hollows and wights".. but maybe im applying too much of a real-world lense to this silly little ya series. from ur posts, u seem to be someone who is willing to make a critique on how the lore is handled in a sociopolitical (am i using that word correctly???) sense, so i would love to hear ur thoughts!

Anon I am kissing you passionately. I am sorry it took me like three days to answer this but it was because I was too busy making out with you. I fucking love questions like these so much you can not imagine

Okay first of all I don’t believe that bull crap about “oh well we live so long that it doesn’t really matter” because that’s not how humans work. Even if you live to be really really old and dusty you are still a human person and will react to things in a human way. If you put a person, like the tree guy, in a situation where they are not getting some sort of need met they will suffer for it and it will follow a similar timeline to the same situation outside of a time loop. Actually it might even be worse for the person because we had it established in the first book that people stay mentally/physically/etc. pretty much the same as they were when they enter a loop so like who knows, maybe if you stick a person in there with any kind of psychological state then that’s just average now. So if you go in there feeling super terrible (because you murdered a guy, got convicted, and are in a new place without something you care about deeply) then idk, fuck you i guess??Be sad for 100 years. Intentionally putting people under psychological distress, especially for extended periods of time, is torture by the way. And as a horticulture student, that tree guy was right. Beyond that, i don’t agree with the current way prisons are used and don’t think that they should exist the way they do now. So I really don’t agree with how the ymbrynnic justice system seems to work.

I don’t think you’re applying too much of a real world lens to this book, it takes place in our world. Just because all the information ain’t there don’t mean you’re taking this too seriously. That’s one of my favourite ways to approach this book! I love looking at this stuff and thinking about how this would actually work! I could go into more detail but I don’t have the books in front of me at the moment. If anyone wants to talk about this more I’ll be glad to!!

[allamericanb-tch]

crimson rivers thoughts (8)

@tastetherainbow290 do you still want to be tagged in these?

chapter 15

oh. my.

regulus ❤️‍🩹

evan “on three or after three” rosier (he is so me)

“i don’t think i’ll be able to walk” really james? i thought you had two working legs.

james now is NOT the time to flirt

i’ve never stepped in a bear trap before and now i never want to

regulus threatening sirius’ hair. yeah he would

i love evan and james friendship

“i don’t want them to change you” regulus 💔

nooo a problem

nooo regulus don’t leave him

KISS ALREADY come on.

ok forehead kiss i see you

“a parting gift” tears. crying. my heart is shattered. why did you have to make this sad.

not them both leaving james behind

james pov. ugh why is this so sad

wow regulus again ok. i mean james is just sitting in a cave so this makes sense

oh no. where did mulciber go.

WHAT

WAIT

WHAT

EVAN

NO

wait guys im actually crying

“i think you two would’ve gotten on well” yeah. rip evan rosier you would have loved barty crouch jr

sirius pov now…

oh my god i am c r y i n g

“hallow is hollow.” BANGER

oh no. please mulciber do not find james.

and just like that its over. omg.

@gardenofrunar how could you tell me to read another knowing what happens ☹️

chapter 16

and he’s found james. lovely.

i love that when anyone refers to james or regulus as the other’s boyfriend they both just go with it

poor james. he is too soft for all of it.

oh they’re fighting

i know james lives but i still am worried for him

james resorting to throwing dirt 💀

james relentlessly beating mulciber with the hatchet after the cannon sounds

rip mulciber you will not be missed

jegulus reunited once more

james is awake again!! 

no don’t talk about evan im gonna cry again

yeah. crying.

remus pov!

remus dating standards 💀 he’s so real honestly

“I'll show you yours if you show me mine." thank the lord for comic relief

effie and monty mention ❤️

remus opening up to sirius

i swear they’re always like “i want to kiss” and then they don’t??

ok im so curious what did remus do

chapter 17

author says they’re excited for this chapter… should i be scared

update i was going to wait until i read this chapter to post but i decided to post anyway

[ipsomaniac]

knackered. went up to cambridge yesterday to visit j’s dad, who has (under fairly traumatic circumstances) now been moved into the care home where he may well spend the rest of his life. it was really tough. i was expecting to feel secondhand sadness - hurting for j and j’s family - but instead i am directly grieving for mike.

mike is a lovely man. before the alzheimer’s progressed, he was a magnificent guitarist. he could litigate in 3 languages. he was an amazing photographer. and he was, and still is, a real gem of a person, very kind, always goofing around. even now that he is mostly incoherent in conversation, his instinct is always to try and gesture towards a joke.

he started exhibiting symptoms of alzheimer’s in his late 50s/early 60s but wasn’t formally diagnosed until about 5 years ago. he is now a wiry 72 year old - not as fit as he used to be but basically physically healthy and mobile. he could conceivably live another decade.

seeing him in that care home... god. even a nice care home is still a care home, it has the dreadful scenes of decrepit old people gormlessly gathered around daytime television, silent communal mealtimes, the faint whiff of piss in the hallways, the glimpses through doors of an aged figure lying in bed garbling to herself. mike, upright, mobile, healthy, sticks out like a sore thumb. the awful thing is that this is the nice care home. the first place he went to, last week, was apparently much worse. here, the care staff are friendly and familiar; there’s a narrow garden area that wraps around the home, with plenty of outside seating. the narrative is meant to be: after all the trauma of the past few weeks, after all the instability in the care situation, finally we have found the right place for him. finally we can rest easy in the knowledge that he’s in a good place.

but he’s not stupid. he’s got dementia but he knows where he is and he has a subjective experience that you have to take seriously. it is easier when someone is so far gone that you can’t empathise and you can let yourself off the hook from imagining yourself in their place, but no such respite with him. he has interiority, he has desires and he clearly states them: “i want to get out of this place”. and there’s nothing you can say. i know. im sorry. you have been buried alive. you have been trapped in a pocket dimension. you are looking down the barrel of years of empty hours, eking out your time in this futureless holding cell. this place was built to house people when they have not yet died but there is no longer a place for them in the world of the living. you are waiting to die; there is nothing to disguse this fact; it may take a very, very, very long time. your illness has made you lonely; now you will reach new depths of loneliness. there will be a stream of visitors in the early days but it will slow to a trickle. i wish i could break you out of here. if i were you i would want to die rather than be forced to live through such torture. but you do not have that choice. you have no choices left to make. im so sorry.

my mind keeps gnawing at it; what is he doing now? what is he feeling now? how does he while away his hollow hours? he is eating his meal in silence, surrounded by decrepit strangers. he finishes his meal; now what? perhaps he wanders around the ugly hallways aimlessly for a while and then settles in front of the tv in absence of any other obvious source of stimulation. perhaps he wanders into his cramped little room overlooking the business park. and then... i run out of ideas. there’s so little to fill his time. somehow he exists until it is time to lie down to sleep in his narrow uncomfortable-looking medical cot and then he sleeps until he must wake and endure all this nothing again tomorrow. i am so miserable contemplating this, so i seek stimulation where i may: i hug my partner and talk with him, go for a walk in the open air, read, write, blob on my computer. and as i do these things i am all too aware that none of these options are available for him. he has so little to cushion the hard blankness of time.

i am grieving for the half life he must live, but i am also so angry that it has come to this. mike is physically healthy, does not require intimate or medical care but basically just needs full-time babysitting - you wouldn’t think it would be impossible to sort out live-in care for him, or find some way to enable him to live in the world. but it’s not. clare has exhausted her options and the right care just isn’t available. instead she must pay a fortune to shut him away - as if this is a privilege! i dont have a good way to end this. i hope he is tired and sleeps quickly.