#i am very undecisive

[voidpidgeon]

11, 15 and 21 for the ask game?

11. What do you think c!Dream’s life would have been like in season 2?

Hmm, I think would start quite pleasant, just building shitty bases, making new friends, and the grind(tm). With a haunting shadow over it, aches and glimpses of the past. Eventually conflict would start up again, but the alliances and severity might differ?

(I always wondered how far does the memory wipe go? There are many characters, that had relationships before the SMP, are those memories gone too?)

(also on a meta level, i think we would have gotten to the point again where nobody wants to be the villain and Dream would have recovered his memories or something lol)

15.What's your favourite c!Dream AU?

Man… that is a difficult choice. hrrrg look there is to many good ones, but here are three I really like?

To Tear Asunder - Sunshine-in-a-bottles's Dragon age AU (think Fantasy rpg game) translates the characters in really fun ways into the universe through a Series of short and not so short fics! So good, can recommend! No mans land - Hidding-in-the-Vault's canon divergent dsmp AU, the relationship between Dream and XD is sooo fun! he is just a little guy you know Eldritch Dream - the-final-sif, the premise is just kind of fun, i like the eldritch lore in it and the contrast of perspective between dream and everyone else is at once devastating and reeeally fuuunny lsglkd

21. Which c!Dream piece are you the most proud of?

I think this one! though i really enjoy both of the dreblrtine piece did too

[katyspersonal]

It is always so hard to recover the default settings of my brain after someone had already fiddled with them.

I live completely settled and accepting that nothing in my life will ever get better. That Russia will just keep getting digged deeper and deeper into its grave and I'll never be able to leave it (I am poor, nor I have qualifications important enough). That I'll just die here, and alone, and unloved, and very soon after my mom passes away because I can't fully care for myself. That everything will just keep getting worse, that I'll never reach the civilized world, that I'll always struggle with money for as much as food, that nobody will want to be my family.

But I accepted it, there is no need to worry too much if nothing can be changed. So it hurts even stronger when some asshole crawls back, telling me that he can't have a future without me, how much he wants to take me out of this mess and give me better life, how he has money to buy everything he ever wanted but it all means nothing if he can't buy me gifts and see places with me and meet holidays with me. How he just wanted to have a family at last in his life and only saw me as such - not because I was the only one who would accept, but because he only liked me. Because in the end I dropped my guard and felt hope. My brain completely rebuilt my concept of life and future from "dying alone, cold, unloved and pretty soon" to imagining doing everything there is to do in life together with someone I love.

But apparently he got too scared and uncomfortable with how fixated I became on meeting irl already, since I kept asking him about it? Of course I was impatient! I could not wait to take walks in the places he showed me together, and let him teach me how to cook, and watch all the shows he wanted me to show together, and do house stuff like picking furniture, cosplaying, decorating for holidays, taking care of pets, having long talks before falling asleep etc.. Yet he thought that was cringe and it made me sound "obsessive and entitled" and he went all "woah chill, you should be more HUMBLE and grateful for the OFFER, actually I was not in my right mind when I offered you, I am not really that desperate for you so why can't you just visit me once in a while for holidays or something :)"

And I just can't rebuild myself back to how I used to be right away. The vision of a better future became so apparent, so integral for my thoughts and feelings every day, that I kind of lost the idea. Like walking out of a house only for the door to lock itself behind me, so I can't even walk back in and am stuck outside.

I feel like my life just tries to teach me that I can't be loved or wanted. Why else I keep facing betrayals? Because it should be apparent that if something sounds too good to be true - then it IS.

[myownwholewildworld]

writing fanfiction sometimes is very hard for an undecisive bitch like me 😣 like i have this clear image in my head about the endgame for "wherever you go", and that's not changed, but suddenly another idea has come across my mind about how to get there. so now i have two different paths that i could take to reach the same end, but one is waaaaaaaaayyyyyy more dramatic than the other. like, trigger warning dramatic. WHAT DO I DO 😭 WHY AM I THE WAY THAT I AM?? exhausting honestly.

[mnemo-sick]

poll for chromedome-sympathizer's potential new username

because I am undecisive

(these are all anagrams btw... hehe)

and if very few people vote I reserve the right to reject your collective opinion. this is your incentive to vote

*or any permutation of the words

[perelka-l]

Lots of fun seeing your perspective on ArcherGio with Giovanni never letting him get too intimate, bc as a hedonistic Gio truther I only considered that with having such a pretty and loyal to a fault guy at the palm of his hand wouldn't even be a question to hin. Of course he'd hit

I like both and I am a TINY BIT undecisive so I like to consider all scenarios that I like... It's pretty normal for me to have conflicting scenarios in my head ;;;w;;;

But indeed I think Gio is very likely to just go for it. He has so many pretty and dedicated people serving him and honestly, it would be a crime (hehe) to leave them longing like this as well. All reward and no risk really. Archer would be also just so so happy about this, the happiest doggie in the region really. Just an added benefit, not that Archer would work any less hard for Giovanni in any circumstances but. Yanno. (Does it even make sense)

Also, it makes Archer more heartbroken once Giovanni goes and disappears so hey, the additional angst is just moved to a different spot :Dc

But ye ye I fully understand where you're coming from with this perspective. Gio is an opportunist and he's having a very good opportunity sharing an office with him hehehe~~

[astrosky33]

Hey Sky! I‘m currently studying cyber security in uni and already feel like it’s not fitting me at all. My 10th house ruler is Taurus and my Venus is in my 11th house Gemini. I feel like I want something more creative, but am really undecisive and unsure at the same time, are my placements hinting at a specific path in higher education?🤍

Hey 💙 Since the 9th house represents higher education check your 9th house sign, 9th house ruler, and 9th house planets (if you have any)

Also Asteroid Academia seems to be very accurate in implying the best path in education - code: 829

With your 10th house ruler in the 11th house though any career involving technology is great

[bluekat12345]

I've been thinking about getting Pokémon Violet.

I already have Pokémon Scarlet and I have played through it all, and I have thought of resetting my adventure again, or going back to revisit my other Pokémon games.

Usually, I avoid getting two versions since they're pretty much the same game. I did it once with Pokémon Sword and Shield, since there were two different gym leaders in those games, and while it was fun,

But I figured since it takes in a different academy, has a different professor, and different paradox Pokémon, it would be different enough to have fun. Plus, it could be fun to try out different teams with the version exclusives. (Mostly, I just want a Ceruledge)

But I also feel that the amount of version exclusive Pokémon is rather small, excluding the paradox Pokémon, and the storyline is still the same, I have the same opponents, the same goals, right up until the end of the game.

I am very undecisive, as you probably know by now.

I'll let you all know what I decide to do.

[coffee-ouji]

So I do this cuz I am very undecisive and it's not helping...

Thanks for letting me procastinate on this tho' 🙏BLESS🙏

i wanna do that thing where ppl modify the HTML and put a pretty picture in the bg t make it cooler while scrolling but idk how that works tho'

[that-one-cat-meow]

I made another blog

This time it's ask blog

Cuz I wanna to get more asks

@bendy-is-here

(I made them first with other email

But I deleted it

Srr if I already followed you

I AM A VERY UNDECISION

I'M SORRRYYYYYY)

(pls send asks)

[little-tangerines]

service announcement

hello!! apologies for the unprompted textpost but ive been thinking of changing mrs afton's name to rosemary BUT ive already called her isabella at least twice so i wanted to check in if youd be okay with such a change. especially since the panels where she's refered to as isabella would probably remain unchanged. its nothing big but i am undecisive and, well, you know. thank you in advance!

edit: okay thank you all very much!! mrs afton is officially going through a name change and will now be known as rosemary afton! thank you once again :)

[rejector-of-mortal-flesh]

Please change it to projector of mortal flesh! We the (singular) trans person(s) crave proper representation.which is . Embrace crypticness become beyond gender. Gender is rejection of mortal flesh. Do it. Do it. Do it pretty pretty please??

(All said in a very silly light hearted way! You do you, and do what makes you happy! Still... rejection of mortal flesh is SUCH a badass name)

I like the name but I am also favorable to ballitwefuck. It does sound pretty cool but I'm super undecisive.

[hyponell3]

FELLOW S.T.A.R.S LOVERS!!!

I am currently thinking up the rest of the STARS members' possible animals for my little Resident-Crossing thing!!

I have a few in mind, though I am undecisive as always!!

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Richard: OK, I'm debating on either Anteater, Squirrel, or Bird for him. Honestly, I REALLY want to make him an Anteater, I think he would be so adorable as one-

Joseph: He gives me SO MUCH monkey vibes, super energetic, little bastard that's super curious and social. Also mf is definitely the prankster of STARS along with Chris, you can't tell me otherwise.

Forest: God, this was tough, but I want to make him something COOL looking, with the Eagle and Lion being the coolest to me. I think the Lion would fit with his LUCIOUS HAIR and just swagger looks. Though a Wolf also seems fitting???? Lion though-

Enrico: Like Barry, he gives me Bear vibes, very beeg man and honestly, he just gives me those vibes. The big papa bears of their groups, yknow

Edward: TBH, I sometimes forget about him, and I feel bad yall- I think maybe a Tiger could fit him well.

Kenneth: My mannnn, I was thinking one of the bigger animals, like the Rhino or Elephant. Maybe a Rhino more though.

Brad: Chicken. I know, I know its the basic go to. BUT, I drew him as one in my doodle dump and now I love it too much. ChickenHeart through and through.

[onyxisnotuniqueenough]

Hmmm what's your favorite book?

I don't have an exact favorite in mind, so this answer is not very straighforward

i. am. an. undecisive. person. and cannot choose a single work to call my favorite, especially because I don't read as much as I want to

so here goes :

i really like murder mysteries, wether that's in books or tv/movies, and i have a special emotional attachment to detective shows

so i really like agatha christie books, especially hercule poirot

believe or not i've never read sherlock and the pages of study in scarlet are rotting away in my room as we speak

but also

i really like theater, so i like reading plays! there are some classics that i'm actually thankful that i got introduced to in high school

i enjoy molière's work especially and i sometimes find him genuinely funny

and last on the list :

philosophy books!

i must admit that I usually stick to individual essays or generalizations of philosopher's ideologies, but i do have a few that i've enjoyed and some that i'm planning to read all the way through

i know that's not that clear of an answer, but you probably get the idea

thank you for asking!

[otterlis]

17 questions!! tagged by @jelliedoodles, thank you ♡

nickname: ellis 🦦

sign: aries 🐑

height: 163 cm! so, like. 5'4?

last thing googled: the great british sewing bee season 7 contestants 💀

song stuck in my head: help let me go by danny gonzalez

number of followers: every day growing thanks to a huge influx of sexy naked ladies <3

amount of sleep: around 8 hours every night 🌃

lucky number: 16! 4 too

dream job: none. but if i had to choose then a full time artist or a cook 🍲

wearing: "i'm the boss" nct t-shirt and yoga pants

movies/book that summarize me: little green monster by haruki murakami. no movies come to my mind 🤔

favorite song: who i am by nive, oh death by sugr or lights out by exo i am VERY undecisive

favorite instrument: guzheng

my aesthetic: comfy <3 (which includes a lot of anime and band t-shirts)

favorite author: hm. well. lu xun?? and terry pratchett

favorite animal noise: cat startup sound. you know, that "mmmrrrpt?". yeah, that.

random: i kind of am a published author? my story and a few of my art works were included in a short story and poetry collection!

not tagging anyone because!! it seems like everyone i'd tag already done this/is tagged by someone else. but if you see this and wish to do it i am tagging you telepathically 🫵

[libidomechanica]

Deep sleep fellow exceptics who read the sky, from

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[kdonsetproduction]

Filming the Dinner Scene

In this particular class, we were given a script to shoot a dinner scene where I worked as a Gaffer. I think I am keen on learning more about lights and learning how to handle them. Therefore, for the last two weeks, I have been acting as a gaffer in the class.

In this particular scene, the DOP needed a chandelier hence I set up a bounce attached to the C-Stand and hit it with 1000-watt Arri lights. The light was really strong and was spilling in places we did not want. We tried to shape the lights but due to limitations in space, we could not fit another C-Stand with a flag so I had to hold the flag during the take. Anyhow we also created a backlight with Nanlite and put on a blue gel to give a moonlight effect. However, Andrew did point out that having an outside source light without actually showing the source feels a bit fake, in this case, the window. I think that was such important information because it made me realize that gaffers should also question the frame and what the lights depict in the frame even though the DP has the final say. Last but not least we used Keno Celeb to provide the fill light, however, we just used that for the master shot and got rid of it when we went to the close-ups.

I think I want to Gaffer a lot more to understand lights. As of now, I have confidence with the camera, however, when it comes to lights I am very much undecisive.