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irawhiti · 9 months

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do you guys fucking hear yourselves i'm just wondering. like be fucking for real here. everyone who says that millionaires aren't rich or some other shit because of inflation and prices going up owes every homeless person who has to read this shit $3000. guess what, things are just as expensive for the filthy poors WITHOUT a million dollars, too! usually a hell of a lot more expensive in the long run, actually! the cost of living getting more expensive affects EVERYONE. a flat $1000 is almost nothing to a millionaire while being a fucking life changer for many people living in poverty! come on now.

#i am so tired of seeing this shit. i can't believe i have to say a person with millions of dollars is not fucking poor.#'ohhh millionaires aren't rich they're your allies in the same boat! it's BILLIONAIRES you should care about'#'the middle class doesn't exist anymore and people making hundreds of thousands a year are lower class now'#it all just translates to fucking Well poor people should shut up and stop complaining about people having more money! we're ALL suffering!#yeah! and the people who sleep on the streets are suffering more than the people who make 100k a year! hello!#none of this is even getting into the amount of money and power that money holds in the third world and how that's by design #bc i'm not qualified to speak on that. but you have to be a level of ignorant i cannot comprehend to believe this and i see it so often

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advisorsage · 4 months

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I honestly can't remember the last time I wasn't nauseous. Was it five days ago? Seven? Who knows. Certainly not me.

#this is about the persistant stomach bug I've had since i got food poisoning on the 17th #I'm just. so damn tired of feeling like my stomach is going to crawl out my throat #I've thrown up more times in the past week than i have in the past ten years and I'm really upset about it #not to mention the pain that's happening #and I'm just supposed to carry on with my life!#I've had to talk to my work because i can't do the shifts i usually do and ask i seem capable of is fucking sleeping #OR #doing classwork #the only reason my class is going well is that it's in the morning and i can do the work for it with a ton of breaks to use the bathroom #and it doesn't seem to matter what i eat #I'm nauseous but not throwing up in the morning and then in the afternoon i start throwing up and by the time i take my evening pills...#i can't keep anything down #i can't even keep water down #i fucking love water #but nooooooo #my body wants to reject even that #i don't know what to do #hopefully this goes away or the CT shows what's going on so i can live my fucking life again #anyway #rant over #drink water you heathens

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mxgyver · 4 months

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how I'm feeling right now because the first week of my semester just started and I've already had some of my classes changed TWICE

#i had to email my DON my new work schedule because of school #THEN my clinical date got changed before class started so I had to email her... again and felt so guilty #(even though she said she was excited for me to start school)#AND NOW!!!! NOW!!!!!#my sim lab date (which was supposed to be tomorrow) got changed to... FRIDAY EVENING WHEN I WORK #so i just texted my DON and was like 'hey sooooo I can't work on friday'#y'all I am so tired enough as is bc I didn't sleep well last night & had to get up really early to get to class early #and it was my long day #I need a nap or something because wtf 😭#i knew nursing school was going to be stressful but i didn't think it would start this fucking soon #sierra speaks #sierra goes to school

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jovalencia · 3 months

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I'm an emotional wreck rn for absolutely no reason and I know I've been saying this every night I've been home since literal may but I think I might go lay sleep in my mom's bed with her tonight. like a child.

#already in bed since I have to wake up way early tomorrow but I don't think I'll be able to sleep #I haven't eaten basically anything all day because I've been so anxious about my stupid fucking paper #bc I read a couple pieces of feedback on my outline and I don't take feedback well on a good day but I just took it Really #bad this time for some reason. and it's fine I'll be fine I'll go to class and it's Fine but I'm just such a mess about it for no reason #and I want things to just be good again like in general it's been nonstop all year can't I just have fun #because if I'm being honest the whole anxiety so bad it makes me nauseous and I can't eat thing is back and I'm not particularly #enjoying it #carmen.txt

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sassymajesty · 2 years

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I JUST FINISHED MY LAST EXAM OF THIS GODDAMN SEMESTER FROM HELL!!!!!!!!! I'M FREE!!!!!!!!!!!!

#stress levels at an all time high i haven't slept well in two weeks today i woke up with my NOSE numb with how anxious i was #i failed two classes and got catapulted into the worst pain flare up from the last three years but it's finally over #i love learning about biochem and everything that goes into that major i really truly do #i fucking hate professors who put their ego and personal drama above teaching students #and ableist professors who are either condescending or don't believe me despite the page long list of issues my doctor sent them #and more than anything: i hate group projects #i'm talking half the ''suggested'' (aka mandatory) classes next semester i don't care i need to be in less pain than this #i forgot how to relax i'm balding i'm breaking out i can't sleep without anxiety dreams #now i get to spend half my winter break recovering from a procedure that i wouldn't even need if not for the rampant ableism #anyway! I LIVED BITCH someone hug me #nina says things

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yeonban · 5 months

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Kolya and who?

#muse: nikolai gogol.#HELLOOO I AM AWAKE!! And I've finished changing my pfp into the adorable festive Kolya too!#I'll go grab a bite and then I'll see about either being here or replying to dms :thonks: I kind of want to do more of the webweaves I owe #Good news though is that I only have f2f classes on Mon & Tue and then some online on Wed & Thur AND THEEEN I'M FREE FOR 2 WEEKS #Can't wait to finally get some well-deserved sleep in my system (<- guy who woke up from a 12h nap after not really sleeping for 3 days)#and also I can't wait to be on here <3 as I said this month I'm mainly focusing on the xmas stuff (mistletoe & webweaving gifts) BUT #hopefully I'll be able to sprinkle in some 'normal' replies in there somewhere too! @ My muses if you'd be so kind as to work w me. :)

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shikai-the-storyteller · 1 year

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Watched all of Rubius’ r/place videos while pounding a bottle of wine I’ve been trying to get rid of for ages and MAN. MANNNN. I really love Rubius. r/place was such an incredible experience, and watching his videos reminded me of just how hype and fun the r/place phenomenon was

#i talk #mcyt talk #I guess #Rubius is NOT a mcyt-er but I don't have another ''catch all'' tag for this so whatever #also to be completely transparent: this wine is like 50% juice because I keep tossing juice I can't finish in there #because like what else am I gonna do - waste juice? heck no #always drink responsibly #but anyways HOOO BOY THAT WAS SO MUCH FUN #was feeling a bit ''agh'' because I'm going back into the office tomorrow for the first time in ages #and that always stresses me out even though I work remotely 90% of the time #but I feel a bit better after watching all that #even though I know I'll be suffering in a few hours because No Sleep #it is what it is I suppose #hashtag worth it #I really do feel like my spanish is - somehow - becoming better #I think it's a mix of me translating stuff for KarmaIand's english community #and translating words I don't know over and over and then remembering them after the 10th time or whatever #I'm someone who Really Can't Learn Languages outside of a (well-structured well-taught) class #but this is more progress than I've made in ages and it makes me feel good #I'll always be grateful to Quackity for helping me feel more comfortable trying to learn again #without feeling ashamed that I didn't already know Spanish #anyways #I'd love to do more translation stuff for KarmaIand #been learning even MORE fun new sony vegas tricks thanks to my shenanigans on the other blog so that's been fun #night y'all #r place #rplace

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catastrxblues · 10 months

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fucking hate tuesdays

#i’m feeling the effects right now #i went home and just collapsed on the floor i hate it i hate it i hate it #the back of my eyes are hurting #my head is throbbing #i want to throw up but i can’t which is worse #my head got worse the second time i woke up this afternoon #there’s no way i can attend the class now i won’t be able to understand anything he’d say #i could barely think straight now much less studying another language #i say this a lot #but i really am so tired and exhausted and drained #are you sure the end of the week isn’t upon us right now it feels like we’ve been here for ages #i want to cry but i can't #i want to sleep but i know i will just wake up feeling worse than now if i do what the fuck am i supposed to do #i can’t wait until this week is over i’m so fed up of having to be well and functional enough to get shit done #sorry for the vent #i need to get it out of my chest #tw vent #nadirants

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chemicalarospec · 11 months

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Ough. Sick in an unknown spot between the head and heart.

#i said this #idk i just woke up this morninh from a detailed dream that i couldn't decide whether it made me feel good or bad #and i opened up tumblr to search for the source of my feelings #i was on tumblr in the dream and quite a lot recently #i can't really decide how i feel about some things #i think i might just be stressed and afraid since I'll be very busy essentially until... well depending on how my classes go until next june #idk maybe it's because i messaged people yesterday and haven't for a while so it threw my social feelings off?#maybe i just need more sleep #i need something

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depresseddepot · 1 year

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don't know how to describe it without metaphors. audhd feels like I have 10 strings hooked into my body pulling me in opposite directions and leaning towards one string to try and "fix" that problem (cooking, cleaning, classwork, etc) just makes the other strings pull tighter and hurt more. this point of this whole post is to explain that when I see someone older than me who also struggles with exactly the same things to the same extent that I do, it makes a couple of those strings loosen and stop pulling. not forever, because they always start pulling again, but having the expectation lifted of needing to have a "normal functioning life" by age whatever is so nice. everything still hurts but for now at least that part of my brain can rest.

#i understand how the reverse can seem too #but idk. its always been such a weight off my shoulders #probably in part for selfish reasons but it helps me like. slow down #like i cannot solve all of my problems tonight. i probably can't even solve them in the next 20 years #so i can slow down. other people are alive like this. other people make their lives work like this. i can do it too #i need to be medicated so fucking badly but i can't until im off my parents health insurance #and even then im so scared it'll make my autism symptoms harder for me to deal with and ill like. lose my job or something #but i can't fucking live like this so idk what to do! lmao!#ive been trying to pay closer attention to my anxiety and stress lately so i can pinpoint causes and like. try to stop them #but all ive learned is that i am never Not stressed.#if my room is cleaned im not eating well. if im exercising well im not cleaning well.#if im on top of classwork im not taking care of myself at all. etc etc #it is always a push and pull. i can't just solve these problems #because i have to clean well and eat well and exercise often and sleep well and cook often and socialize often and work hard and save money #and and and #im always not doing something to make room for something else and bc of that i will ALWAYS have those strings pulling me so tightly it hurts #i know in my head how i can loosen the strings but that all comes at the expense of living like a ''normal'' person #i will have a dirty house. i will have lots of canned and frozen foods. i will leave my house for work only.#im so tired my bones hurt. my strings are tight again and classes are starting again soon and my room is a mess and i ate like shit today #and i havent excersized in a while and im not showering as often as i should and im drinking too much and im sleeping too much #im so tired #vent #sorry #i feel like i need to curl up and die. like my body is sending some signal that there isn't much more i can fucking take #and that this continuous pushing and struggling and picking up the pieces is worthless #i feel like that blood robot. im old and rusted and slowing down and i have achieved nothing #i will die having not achieved anything and i will be struggling until my very last second #i shouldn't have been the twin that survived. they would have been so much better than this

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ofpd · 1 year

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when i was choosing where to go to college i really should've considered the factor of which ones get out before barricade day

#remember when i said i was gonna try so hard to get my projects done before barricade day. well i didn't succeed at that #gonna go to sleep now. i think I'll delete the tumblr app/block it on my browser for the day bc i can't resist it. really sad #but i do really need to pass my classes LOL. so #funny how. in a roundabout way. if it wasn't for les mis i might not need to get my finals done early like i currently do.#txt

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camellia-thea · 1 year

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#vent #bad time. *bad time*.#i'm not going well.#desperately needed to shower because i felt like i was sitting in my own filth but we were out of hot water #so i hyperventilated on the shower floor while i washed and i don't even feel clean #and i haven't warmed up yet (in bed wearing merino wool)#i have no energy left i am still shivering and i want to curl into a ball and sleep for 5 years minimum #and i'm not going to class tomorrow because of this #but now my brain is being bad about it because clearly i can't keep up with academia and clearly i need to drop out #(i cannot drop out. i *cannot*. i lose all the money i get if i drop out. i would not afford rent. i would not be able to eat.)#i just hate this #i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it #i just want to be secure enough not to worry about this shit.#i want to have enough money to live without needing obscene student loans #and not have to worry about being sick and missing class #or if i'm going to have the energy to look after myself #and i hate that that feels like i'm asking too much from the world #i just. want to be taken care of. just a bit.

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yukinyaminyato · 1 year

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last night i edited a meme that makes sense to literally only two ppl (me & my friend) and to my very tired brain it's the funniest thing ever. i think i should do smth more productive than giggle at my laptop screen that has the image open on it but ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

#it's the 'this is fine' meme but edited to accurately represent yesterday's rain situation. it's a masterpiece imo #i sent it to my friend (ofc. i promised to make the meme & i kept my word) and they were like '🥹🥹🥹 THIS IS SO ACCURATE WHAT'. cute <3 #i told them i made it w/ magic and they replied 'cuute' ahahah #i want to sleep but i have one more class today so i can't rlly nap... gonna sleep well during the night then #one of my lectures today was cancelled and i was excited bc that meant time for me to do my laundry during the day. im a responsible adult.#my posts

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lesbeansandpotatos · 1 year

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good night <3

#i have stupid extra irish classes tomorrow #so i have to get up in the morning even tho it's christmas holidays :(#isn't it weird how you can't put a comma in tags?#i guess it kinda makes sense #the gap between tags reads like a comma #but i can't do a little face #hang on #:'(#how have i only just thought of that #christ on a bike #anyway i am going to sleep now #bye bye #sleep well friends

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trvelyans-archive · 2 years

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:pensive::fist:

#being depressed is so cool bc it’s like wow nothing stimulates me at all...#guess i’ll sit here with no energy to do the things i need to and no enjoyment of anything else i need to do instead and then go to sleep #and it’s like days of being like i am wasting my life away #and you just have to like sit with that #i feel like not a single person in the world likes me rn and i feel like i'm always the one trying to make plans #so when i don't nothing happens and no one messages me first and i never leave the house #i wanna be close with my group but i feel like everyone doesn't want that #and i'm also not mentally well enough rn to have one on one conversations so i just don't spend time with anyone #don't even know what i'm doing at this point... i'm doing alright in my classes but i'm not excited about anything and no one #seems to Really genuinely like me. like Actually care about Me as a person and not Maia Who I Know #ugh. this sucks lol #i'm not excited about anything coming up or even sad about anything i just feel Nothing #except the desire to eat NAAN BREAD BUT I CAN'T!!! because of my TEETH!!!#SIGH!#can i have any interests or enjoyment of anything or anyone who likes me @ god? hello?

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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this week's gna be so hellish

#🌙.rambles #my. cramps will eb so much worse bcs i will have si much stress #how am i gna work on all these assignments w all this painnnn #i'm actually so shit w dealing w this sort of physical pain #i'm so dramatic oh god #i want a kiss. give me a hug #sobbing i hate how when i'm physically unwell #goddamn i'm sorry if i'm grumpy or dramatic T_T #but oh no i get clingy as well oh nooooo #i shld sleep soon bcs i'll really need that for tomorrow but #AAAHAHAHHFHFJSJDGMDM #maybe i shld go odl tmrrw. i'll probably die w the cramps n the sleep-deprivation #i swear in class i can't tell if i have neurodivergent tendencies or if it's just my sleep-deprivation n the constant stress #tbf no even when i was a kid #not too obvious i think but idk at all bcs apollo n i are good at masking stuff #so am i normal or not???????#can i just cry #the physical pain n the stress is already enough n #there's smth so. no. i will never open up about it but #i feel like crying this is fucking bullshit #why are all these songs jn this playlist #yk what maybe i'll just cry. maybe that'll take away some of the physical mental n emotional pain #it's so hot i feel like i'm in fucking hell #i want to write abt smth but i shld deny that desire for now #theres sm to write #my private notes aren't even nearly filled with all the secrets of my mind #i can't stop writing until. until i have it all somewhere #so i can remember #i hate and love the fallacy of the mind so much #i'm sorry

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