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hinamie · 3 months

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i mean he's got all the outfits now might as well show them off

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jjk atla!au with @philosophiums

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #itadori yuuji #yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jjk atla!au #atla!au: art #atla!au: illust #lmhs #listen . i would have done cool action poses for all 4 elements i had every intention to do all of them on one page #but there just..... arent any good kicky airbending stances i scoured high and low :((((#2 be fair i mean waterbending ws also tricky to make Leg-centric but i had a vision so i think i made it work :>#but by the time i got to air i got tired ! i gave up ! sue me !#everything is handstands and arm motions smh dont they know i have an Agenda. didnt they read the lore scroll.#im sending a strongly worded email as we speak #plus yuuji doesnt like airbending so when u rly think abt it im doing it for him <3 #i think this pose is more in character than him using his airbending in combat #sorry 2 airbender yuuji enjoyers ! i do not like drawing him in the outfit !#the air acolyte robes only look good on toge and yuuta change my mind . u cant i will die on this hill #anyway earth and water r fine buut him firebending looked cooler in the sketch . th outfit looks better from the front but what can u do :/#also i wld like 2 thank those japanese pose catalogues of schoolgirls doing martial arts and Also the cinderace pyro ball swsh animation <3

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luck-of-the-drawings · 6 months

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[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]

saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi riptide #gillion tidestrider #GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS #REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT #NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS #THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of #another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her #idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had #when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think #i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that #AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE #I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME #THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE #WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL #in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad #this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi #gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show #i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM

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sneez · 3 months

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more of them :-) the first one is based on a promotional photograph for the 1928 film and the second is based on an extremely ugly lamp i found in an antique shop. please don't tag as body horror or anything similar [id in alt text]

#the man who laughs #l'homme qui rit #gwynplaine #dea #artwork #i cannot stop thinking about them i am having so many dreams they are consuming my entire life (positive)#less positively i finished the book the other day and it made me so upset i couldnt sleep and then i had horrible dreams. even though i kne #exactly what was going to happen. i thought i was prepared. dear reader i was not prepared #the next time i am in paris i am going to give hugo's grave a sharp kick for what he has done to me & all of us #it will be worth being escorted off the premises. or maybe arrested. i feel like they wouldnt like me doing that in the panthéon #anyway the lamp the second one is based on was so hideous i kind of wish i had bought it i sort of love it i think #it was just one of those classic old lady lamps with a little porcelain couple on the base (and the tree was the. stem? whatever that bit o #a lamp is called)#i was wandering around with my gran and grandpa and then saw it and immediately went GWYN AND DEA and took a covert Image #anyway i still havent fully decided how i want gwyn's esclavine to work. i cant find any pictures of leather ones but all the fabric #esclavines i have found hang much further down over the shoulders so i am not sure if i am drawing an esclavine at all #i shall continue to draw it this way until i make my mind up. gwyn wont mind i dont think #i hope you are all doing well my friends :D hug you kiss you etc #also i didnt even notice this until rebecca pointed it out but the lamp can be a metaphor for gwynplaine being light/the sun. crying 4 Ever

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hella1975 · 2 months

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would you like to talk about how bad the mha ending was hella

as much as i would love to give like. a comprehensive response i genuinely dont think i can get my words together just yet without it being a constant unintelligble stream of 'AND ANOTHER THING-' and bc it's become quite torn in the fandom on if the chapter was good or bad i want like. an actual coherent response here. so i will reblog this if/when i can word it but know IM NOT FUCKING HAPPY

#paragraphs and paragraphs about the villains' endings alone. hawks hpsc president. midoriya's ending #the fact hero society is barely changed and the changes that do happen feel very much TELLING the reader it happened #as opposed to actually showing us how society changed on it. this is smthn ik people will argue w me about #bc yes it was a 400+ chapter manga arguably showing us how society changed but like. did it actually show that #like do u honestly think any community would watch televised battles between TEENAGERS and bad guys #and have the majority of them go 'gah! i cant help but sympathise with the bad guy who just suckerpunched child extra no.28!'#so like. why are they all suddenly on board with massive systemic reinvention. where's the rage where's the bitterness #this wasn't a story on showing the villains as redeemable and working towards society sympathising with them #and slowly painfully coming to a conclusion where japan was ready to change as a COLLECTIVE #this was a story of showing a group of redeemable villains (first step CHECK) getting DEFEATED IN BATTLE #THEY ALL FUCKING DIED EXCEPT SPINNER AND PRESUMABLY COMPRESS #WE DONT EVEN FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO DABI AT THE END ONLY THAT HE WAS PUT IN THE EXACT SAME POSITION #HE WAS IN WHEN HE WOKE UP FROM HIS COMA AND DABI WAS BORN. 'DABI' AS A PERSONA MEANT NOTHING #we still have an abuser who didn't come to justice. we still have the corrupt government body now being led by the guy they trafficked #and abused and conditioned into the perfect soldier. do u think maybe his opinions are a little biased in regards to that gov. body #maybe. perhaps. slightly. and we still have hero charts!!!!!! every kid in the last chap is still obsessed w becoming a hero!!!!#and dont get me STARTEDDDDDDDDD on midoriya being a teacher. 'i think it's cute he finally gets a life of peace 🥺#this way he can help the next generation directly 🥺' womp to the fucking womp he was supposed to be the world's no.1 hero #he barely sees his friends anymore. 'it's realistic to adulthood!' i dont want realism in my superpowered teen and up manga #put them in the avengers mansion NOW #so as you can see i waffled regardless of saying i specifically wasn't gonna do that and some of these points bother me more than others #with some being personal I Didn't Like It and some being i genuinely truly believe it to be bad writing #but my summary is mha ultimately felt like a story where a group of individuals unlearned (eh) the beliefs of a toxic society #and tried to save the people that society failed and then they themselves DID NOT FUCKING SAVE THEM #(i have a hit on the redemption via death trope on the dark web for ten bajillion pounds)#and while yeah that isn't objectively an evil story to tell i think 1) it was done poorly #and 2) isn't what a lot of people believed the premise to be nor what i think horikoshi himself was trying to write #ask #mha spoilers #mha

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nerime · 6 months

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my coworkers are being turbo transphobic and literally refuse to listen to answers to questions they fucking ask argh!!! I can just tell you!!! I can just answer you!!!!! I have answers!!! to the ridiculous questions you ask in a mocking way!!!! if you listen for one second I can just fucking explain!!!! 😡😭😡😭

#they ask why would trans men NEED tampons for men since they are WOMEN why cant they juat use WOMEN ones those stupid silly women ugh #they keep coming back to the topic #and im like hey they are not women ^_^ and try to explain the concept #in easy kindergarten terms like hey you know how you wouldnt want to buy pink girly items because you are a (cis) guy! well #and them im cut off with more transphobic shit before i can say anything else #my coworker literally said her son told her and her husband they were playing spin the bottle on a school trip #and she asked so did you kiss any girls? and he said #sure when it landed on a girl then i kissed a girl (implying he also kissed guys)#and she said her husband was so shocked because hes conservative #while she said she just ordered the son not to say anything else #and she tells us 'i think he was just testing us or something'#wtf. i said well okay maybe he was testing your reactions and now hes not gonna tell you shit anymore #and she went like hm 🤔#also the irony of saying her HUSBAND is conservative while she fucking. misgenders trans men all day and jokes about gay men constantly #in a nasty way #all of them do #im so tired #she complained kids nowadays are so caaual about gay people #and i said okay well i love it personally they should keep it up #and NO ONE at the table supported/agreed with me #sorry i am on a work trip and suffering #transphobia tw #neri stfu

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local-magpie · 1 month

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"i like to packbond with everything" is um. a really fucking concerning statement to make when discussing AI, especially the question of if AI can reach sentience. that really should be the very first alarm bell you learn to watch for when you get into studying AI 😬

#i never formally went into AI research due to a mixture of disdain for the majority of commercial AI products + undergrad almost killing me #but ive kept up more or less with where things are at and like #a) we are still using a statistical model #b) we still dont understand how the brain utilizes its heuristics to switch between them #which is first of all the main failure of AI to generalize (or even just not hyper specialize)#when you compare it to the human brain like #the brain has all kinds of weird statistical models (approximately) right #these are heuristics #just ways of determining is thing x #we can more or less do this task with AI!#the PROBLEM is that the brain then can determine Which Heuristic Is Most Appropriate (more or less)#we have no fucking clue how it does that #or really how the feedback loop of learning actually works for meat #the statistical model was sort of our first/most popular attempt to try simulating a feedback learning loop in the brain #and like. mixed results! again! AI can't generalize and we dont even know how the brain works properly #so my personal opinion is that we cannot simulate the human brain any better with current approaches to the problem #and like. if we cant even simulate the bare bones functionality of the brain.#how the everliving fuck do you think it can simulate thought or existence?#we dont know how that works either but like its clearly generated by SOMETHING in the brains functionality #without that you got no hope of a sentient computer #flat out. it isnt happening.#what we DO know though is that the human brain is an anthropomorphizing machine #it can interpret anything as alive or humanlike #we know however this is a fucking trap in regards to intellectual pursuits #ergo: talking about pack bonding and AI study in the same breath?#you are victim to one of the human brain's fondest delusions and it will hold you back from truly studying anything on the topic #yelling at the void

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carcarrot · 4 months

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do i really want to make individual drinks again

#reaching back into the file cabinets of my mind to remember how i made certain drinks when i worked at the cafe #in preparation for the possibility of this new job #it would certainly mean far less goofing off time than i have at my current job. and i value my goofing off time dearly #but the people here are so fucking annoying lmao. i hate them soooo much #not that the people at this new job would be any better. we're still dealing with investment bankers #godddddd. what i really would want (which would be impossible)#would be to go back to working at the cafe but like. still have paid time off and insurance lmao #but the cafe was a small business and he was not offering paid time off and insurance. and the pay was way less #but i did get to play whatever music i wanted. unfortunately you cant live on that #like i can always say no to this new job if its offered to me. but is my goofing off time worth:#2 dollars less in pay and a half hour to an hour's more commute. well i dont know #a shorter commute would mean i could sleep more. and have more time at home .#i mean i probably don't Need all this goofing off time. but its nice #i dont knowwwwwww #like even though im a bit nervous abt doing it again i know that i would easily fall back into the routine of making drinks #which i was fairly good at. my one drawback is that i cant do latte art but i dont know that theyd really care here #and (because i found the menu of where id work) theres not a ton of drink options?? just the standard stuff #its being called a starbucks cafe but 1) its not managed by them and 2) it does not have their 5 billion drink options #so thats good. less to worry about #doesnt look like i even have to make anything foodwise which i had to at the cafe #here it looks like people can just buy a pastry and thats it #the hours are like. the same i work now. also good #sorry im like using this post to think through my thoughts.#uhhhh oh i looked up the manager who looks like a weenie so im not keen on the prospect of interviewing with him #but i probably would have thought that about my current manager if id seen a pic of him prior to interviewing. i guess???#and with these kind of catering units it seems you dont often deal directly with the manager that much anyway #i just gotta see if i get good vibes #rn i have unsure vibes. but i need a sign to see if this could be good for me #oh id also save money on transportation. and taxes! bc i wouldnt be working in ny anymore #lol oops tag limit. well i hope you enjoyed my job thoughts you probably didnt i know i didnt

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triglycercule · 6 days

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i love doodling swapinverse like hello drawing characters aside from the normal mtt is lowkey therapeutic 🧡🧡🧡 anyways i FINALLY FINALLY finished crash's lore!!!! and vice.SER is connected to him,,,, theyre interconnected!!! i forgot how much i liked crash's design (not the design but all the little gimmicks in the design. figuring out all the hanging ribbon bits is annoying but hey it looks good)

#outertale does not exist in swapinverse anymore. how quaint #dude thalia and melpomene are th only ones that r like. 100% good #I NEED TO MAKE MORE GOOD AND NICE CHARACTERS😭😭😭😭#mst..... recreators (qip name 4 siphon n crash?) and vice.SER........ theyre all EVIL (or have evil goals)#i WAS thinking doing something with reaper because i adore his design and aesthetic and i wanna combine it with SOMETHING idk what #anyways if core frisk error which is supposed to be vice.SER exists then should normal core frisk exist too?????#i mean i dont think that just because a core frisk role esque person exists doesnt mean the role is instantly filled up #the mst and mtt co exist in swapinverse but those 3 are like.... NORMAL aus. not outcodss n stuff #i love the giant lance thing i gave crash. i mean the ribbons can form any weapon and take any shape (kinda like puella magi mami's guns)#but like..... it just is so cool i love characters that use multiple weapons #i LOVE (haha) every single little gimmick thing i give swapinverse characters. the tiny details is what i adore giving them #if you catch me not posting 4 a bit its probably just bc im working on swapinverse or jk fashion au. or maybe ive seriously just lost motiva #anyways i have a few banger rants in my drafts ive yet to elaborate om but just like....... i dont feel like it #someon needs to wrangle those posts out of my tired lazy arms #lowkey why do siphon and crash remind me of kanade and mafuyu. idk i cant explain #if you cut vice.ser in half it would be like jelly with binary in it. i wanna eat him #he would tingle on my tongue but thats just the static. eating yhe glasses would be difficult bit they dont have lenses so its ok #i drew them both looking at us but i think that vice.ser is the only true one always looking at US.looking out from inside #god i love swapinverse sooo much i wish i could get it done faster and be goatedly good with motivation. a shame #but i do think that i may be finishing up the character descriptions 500% ish sure #SO THEN THAT MEANS I CAN WORK ON THE ACTUAL STORY!!!! WOOOOO #ive already decided that theres gonna be mentions of me myself and i in it. i love meta storytelling #im cursed with perpetually sweaty hands i hate having to draw on slighty damp paper. nobody understands me #UGH im getting too happy in life im starting to act weird in public and offering to help people. i need to stop #anyways just school doodles!!! because in the period where they take our phones i have naught to do but draw #i need to get back (start) my english reading. and then help my friend with a few questions on her homework. how joyous #and then i can get back to my BETTER homework (working on swapinverse :3)#crash managed to destroy outertale in his lore i wonder how many worlds vice.SER will destroy #actually if hes supposed to be core frisk error then i should make him NOT destroy worlds right???? right #tricule rant

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mimir97477906 · 6 months

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im so sosry for ranting abour this again but auhgufhgh im making a ref sheet of my ocs for myself beacse EVERYTIME I DRAW THEM THEY LOOK SOOOSK DIFFERENT os i thoguht maybe this can help me memorize their faces but EVEN THO IM USING GUIDELINES THE SAME CHARACTER LOOKS LIKE DIFFERENT PEOPLE ITS JUST A HEAD TURN AROUND I CANT DO THIS I FEEL SO VIOLENT WHY IS MY ART STYLE HAVING AN IDENTITY CRISIS HOWWWWWWW DO I FIX THIS

#everytime when im drawing any of my ocs and someone mixes them up with another oc my heart shatters to 7463874693 pieces #that either means everyone i draw looks the same or the same oc i draw looks so different every time #at that point they just went with whoever they think is the closest #im having the hardest time making my sentences right now what is going on my talkşng abilites have went down to zero #no like also ive always struggled w same face syndrome without realising #all my art life i had ocs that looked exactly the same from an outsiders view but they looked sososooo different to me #like i just erased my ocs frrom existence when i was 12 cuz everyone mixed them up and it frustrated me so bad #and i look back at that era AND THEY REALLY ARE EXACTLY THE SAME I CANT TELL WHO IS WHO #AND THIS KEPT HAPPENING until i got into sims which pushed me to egt out of my comfort zone #this is why its very important to be obsessed with the ugliest character u can find ^_^(NERVOUS SUBJECT)#and now im scared i once again convinced myslef that my ocs look very different when they actually arent #ok maybe this is a transitional period from having a same face syndrome to being able depict different kinds of people #and im in between rn cuz since im nnot used to this i just cant draw the same face again #and everytime i draw it loks like a dfifferent stuyle whatfevrrrr whatevr #wow writing down your feelings really do work maybe i should get a journal #ramblings

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nomairuins · 5 days

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how it feels to randomly get rly overwhelmed and frustrated and bitchy and feel like youre going insane

#like its so dumb i shouldnt be this upset its not just rhe stupid drawing everything is literally wrong . i need everythinf 2 stop 4ever #i want to eat something savory but i cant bc rly what i want is a spambowl but i cant fucking make spambowl bc everybody in the house will #lose their shit that i didnt offer to make any for them <- uncharitable. at most lamp would make a joke abt it. but i also just dont want to #cook. but nobody else can make spam bowls #well lamp can but they prefer when i make them. but we have 4 pieces of leftover spam i need to use up bc theyre jusr in a ziploc #and thats enough for A spambowl. but iii dont feel like it #it wouldnt even be that like. actually no incouldnt thered be too much rice #we only have boil in a bag rn. and 1 bag is for 2 #so if i want spambowl id Have to share w lamp which i dont mind its easy 2 like. yk. 2 spambowl is what i usually make so i can do it pretty #easy. but im like om the verge of tears for no reason so i cant be in the kitchen #'for no reason' well my periods coming up inliterally got rhe notif for it. thats the reason #i need to get back on t i need to get a job i need to graduate. slamming my head into the wall #i feel like now its been too long since i worked and nobody will hire me . man #but i also like. idk i. id probably be better if i had a job bc id have to be but i feel like i cant keeo anything stable #i cant even keep my fucking sleep schedule steady i get it fixed for a week and then i fuck it up #im so tired i wish things were easy. whateber man . i think maybe i just need to sleep

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minhmynchi · 11 days

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(venting in the tags ignore this lol)

#minhmy.rambles #(i just need to shout this somewhere where my friends don't see so they don't worry too much about me)#but oh my god work just got worse for this week im already working every day but tomorrow (aka in six and a half hours)#i will start at 5am and end at 9pm aka a double shift bc my coworker tested positive and there's no one else that can work #just for tomorrow but the rest of the week ill be working 1-9 #which i hate even though im used to it night shifts are just boringgggg and takes up a lot of my time #which i already have so little of #my mom said i should clean my closet and i was going to tomorrow bc i wanted to play grandfest today but now i cant do that #bc ill literally be at work all day lol #and god its just so hard its so so hard but it could be worse. it literally could be worse #i cant be here as much anymore bc im so busy and tired i just draw when i can and drop them all here and leave #and i miss writing a lot but i have even less time and even less motivation and the more i work the more awful i feel #and i don't want to worry anyone like . i just don't #but its so difficult for me it really is #theres so many things i want to do but i cant do any of it and im so tired im literally so tired #like im not gonna end my life kinda tired i have a lot to look forward to. but work just really sucks and i am Tired #and i Like my job its literally the easiest and ill never have something like this again #but urghghghh. urggfhhghgh. death pain and suffering #if i draw more sif and loop suffering lol. this is why. i need to get the emotions out somehow and i don't want to cry over it #i cant cry bc i need to work i just have to keep my head up i just have to keep at it i just have to be strong and not break #i can do it i can.. i know i can i've been through worse #its just. augh.#ok done. sorry i rly rly should sleep soon bc of my 16 hour shift tmrw lol its past 10:30pm already

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gaytoddhoward · 3 months

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i kind of need to be like skinned or put into a meat grinder or something . lol .

#personal #vent #vent in tags #maybe i can just boil myself alive instead #im so SICK of being the one to be actively concerned with all my friends' health & having to tell them to take care of themselves #'yeah i threw up from a hangover on the way here and i havent eaten in like 3 days and i dont do anything other than work and sleep'#ARE YOU FUCKING WITH ME #'i only shower once a week' we can tell 'and i dont ever use shampoo. and im still surviving off a diet of just top ramen and dr pepper'#MY BROTHER IN CHRIST. TAKE BETTER CARE OF YOURSELF #'i havent made a doctors appointment for this possibly life threatening issue yet' im actually going to start sobbing .#IM NOT. MAD AT ANY OF MY FRIENDS TO BE CLEAR #but god its so fucking tiring. to be one of maybe two people to actually go 'hey that is really concerning please take care of yourself'#and then i cant fucking. take care of myself & i dont have the energy to think about my friends health anymore and i feel bad about it #i am NOT the pinnacle of health. but got damb !! if ur gonna not take care of yourself please do not tell me about it i get so so worried #& then my mother . god. waves vaguely at any interaction i have with her. doesnt make it any better #im so sick i need out of this house & out of this town get me outta here ! id thrive in pokemon put me in the pokeverse or some shit PLEASE #if ur the one person who i mentioned in tags thats also on tumblr pls pls know i am not mad at you im just so stressed always #& i care for u so deeply & it worries me so bad that u/ur family havent made more progress towards getting the issue solved .#(u probably won't see this post anyways but if u do. i just want it to be clear)#ANYWAYS it just crazy how i can bounce so rapidly from 'im not even human' to 'i am Too human'. and iam so so sick .of it.#if a single customer even makes eye contact with me at work tomorrow im going to gnaw my left pinky off in front of them i stg

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ajdrawshq · 10 months

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listening to octopath music and drawing and writing stuff for my octopath pmd au so The Horrors(tm) dont get me

#i am getting WAY too in depth with these character profiles but if i dont hyperfocus on it i will implode .#like. we got species (including fusions/variants) types (may differ due to species) (plus an extra type bc of mixing in octopath mechanics)#also bc they can have up to 3 types at once i calculated everyones weaknesses and resistances which is actually kinda fun w tri-typed mons #also movesets up to 9 moves including 8 from their species(es.?) and 1 from their extra type . bc octopath #and abilities which everyone can have up to 2 of bc of how the older pmd games worked #tho each start with one and gain one in a similar way to octopath which allows for more mismatching #and also making it easier to choose fitting abilities for everyone they otherwise woildnt have access to #their IQ groups (tho. i am mildly tempted to scrap that and make my own groups. no yeah thats my next task now)#held items and general/single use items theyd most likely have #and any other individual notes i have on them 👍 like therion being unable to evolve further bc part of his lineage is a 2 stage evo #ohhh i also need to note where everyone comes from. except maybe therion bc we dont know his hometown at all #thats gonna be kinda hard bc each continent has pretty much all the biomes but psmd changed that up a bit..... hm....#and the sand continent is straight up from psmd only unlike the rest so i need to check if theres anything besides deserts there #bc i could theoretically put 2 travellers per continent and go from there.. OH wait that works hold on. im a genius #maybe i need to replay psmd again and see.. i gotta be at least partway in my current playthrough it camt be too hard #id like to mimic where everyone starts out as much as i can.. tho i cant remember if theres a livable tundra area in pmd #still gotta do those iq groups tho . that goes first #octotag

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doodlboy · 3 months

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I'm in hell actually

#mask making is such a PAIN IN MY ASS #all these ppl doing tutorials and shit 4 therian masks like “oh heres how to make a dog mask” ok what about LITERALLY ANHTHING ELSE #or how do you make masks that are glasses compatable #how do you measure them on your face without wanting to rip your hair out bc all the tutorials have you doing one tiny piece at a time #“start with the muzzle” that's great. on a canine or feline face that works! but it doesn't for a sheep bc it doesnt line up the same #how do you do the planes of the face when the face itself is too different from your own #i cant exactly put the eyes on the side of my head bc then i cant SEE #im overstimulated and pissed off ive been working on this stupid fucking thing ALL DAY #and its not coming out how i want it to at all #and its not like i have any type of base or guide to use so im just winging it and everything looks like shit!#im tired i just want this stupid mask done so i can do other shit #elliot rambles #vent #rant

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screamingay · 3 months

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somehow these current roommates we have are the worst that ive known yet and last semester we literally had a girl who smoked cigs IN her bedroom. list of grievances below lol

#first of all they turn all the lights on all the time. the other day i was hanging out in the living room w one light on bc it was light #enough outside thru the windows and one of them walked in and flipped another light on automatically. then walked through #the living room right to her bedroom... girl youre not even using this room and i was clearly fine with the light level??#they always have all 3 kitchen lights on when they cook and dont turn them off plus none of them have lamps #they all use the Big LED Ceiling Light in their bedrooms which is baffling to us #they dont know how to organize the kitchen and they took up so many of the cabinets with bullshit. like 3 pans here a few plates there #we have like 4 cabinets worth of food and even more of pots and pans and shit bc this is everything we own #and we cant afford to use disposable everything like some of them do #theyre always leaving the fridge open while they cook too and i have to physically hold myself back from becoming my mom #and yelling at them to close the fridge when theyre not actively getting smth out of it!! like theyll stand there cooking and have it open #for 2 minutes straight #theres only room for one water filter pitcher in the fridge and one of them brought a big one which is nice but theyre always forgetting to #refill it which defeats the purpose of even having it #and they always somehow start cooking right when we decide we need to eat #one of them sent this long sort of condescending post abt ants and how it stresses him out when the kitchen is messy so we all need to clean #more and try harder to keep ants away as if 1) ants care at all abt dishes in the sink or stains on the stove and 2) as if the ants will #stop coming around if theres no food out in this building where there are notoriously always ants even on the 4th floor #(we are ground floor this time) and 3) as if he isn't one of the people leaving food around and not taking the trash out #nobody responded to it in the groupchat lmao bc he sounds like a fucking cop!! and is dating an rotc guy??? and also is a streamer or just #likes to play games on vc with friends bc hes always very loudly doing that #but obviously we have sex all the time so we're at a sort of loud noise stalemate where neither of us can complain abt the other #to be clear this is in no way the absolute worst situation theyre nice enough people and havent reported us for anything (they both work for #student housing -_-) and generally things go okay in the apartment #but like. ive never been this annoyed this often with any other roommates #ALSO someone spilled soy sauce all over our designated level of the fridge door where we had all our little bottles of stuff #but also a carton a Paper Carton of milk and a pack of butter standing upright which soaked up the soy sauce and for several days #even after id cleaned the bottom of the carton the best i could i swore it tasted like soy sauce from it soaking into the bottom or smth #but it's still all over everything in there bc it was so much it like. pooled in there and splattered on everything #like. u see that happen u clean it up wtf.??#anyway i just felt like i needed to complain and see if im being silly or if these things really are so annoying

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traumagenica · 5 months

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people claim to understand that progress isn't linear and recovery can take a long time until it becomes personally inconvenient to them and then you're just a stupid lazy bastard to them no matter how you behaved before you became outwardly sick or how hard you've been trying to get better. and i will be mad about that forever

#text post #vent #venting #vent post #chronic illness #mental illness #progress is not linear #recovery takes time #ive only been diagnosed and trying treatments for my autoimmune disease for 1yr #ive been sick for closer to 5 #i just got covid for the second time in january and its fucked up all the progress #that i was making #and now rather than try to support me through a major setback #everyone is acting like i just dont have my shut together and im not trying #meanwhile i am doing my best to keep up when walking a single flight of stairs is still hard for me #and there are very few people who meaningfully recognize how hard this is for me #i used to work three jobs while going to school full time seeing my family frequently #AND having a social life and maintaining my ltr #now im married yeah but i only do one wfm full time job barely engage with my hobbies #see my family and friends infrequently and tbh barely leave my house #and its not for any lack of wanting to #its because i CANT #and even fewer people are making am efforts to accommodate me #so i force myself to occasionally go out and see people #and then need to recover for two weeks #and they dont even appreciate how HARD it is #so much of the effort disabled put into their interactions with abled or just differently #disabled loved ones goes completely unnoticed because its expected as the bare minimum another can do #but rhe bare minimum to them is the absolute best you yourself can give #and nobody cares

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