#i could use a lobotomy tbh

[honeyedbrie]

I love all of those memes from 2020 like "it's 2023, covids over" because guess what hoes, it is 2023, and I am officially in isolation for the THIRD TIME IN 3 MONTHS because Yet Another of my family members has covid.

[d10nyx]

sunflower

ft. chris redfield x fem!reader

cw: 18+ content, fluff, ddlg, use of princess parts(sorry) oral(f!recieving), mating press, really sweet chris tbh, pacifier usage, non-sexual intimacy also included, hand holding during sex, p in v, creampie, squirting, multiple orgasms(reader)

a/n: more ddlg w chris... he's so perfect for it sorry... same universe as 'sweet girl' but a complete standalone. ddlg always scares me to write sksjsksjs but hope you all like it <3 feedback appreciated as always :3

word count: 1.6k words

Chris can feel the stress radiating from your body as soon as you walk into the home. He hears you drop the car keys haphazardly on the table. He walks out of his office just as you're hanging your coat up, brows furrowed in frustration with your jaw clenched.

You always got like this after visiting your dad. Chris isn't even allowed to come with you anymore after the last time. He came close to breaking the asshole's nose after he made you cry. He didn't even know why you still put up with him after everything he's done to you, but you always tell Chris ‘family is family’, and he doesn't want to push you.

He'd always be there for you when you got back, anyway. He walks up to you slowly, pulling you into his arms. He can feel the tension in your body, and it makes him frown. He tilts your head up to look at him, his thumb gently rubbing at the crease between your brows until it softens and you're looking up at him with those bright eyes he loves so much.

“There's my baby.” He coos, leaning down to plant kisses all over your face with a smile. He combs his fingers through your hair, carefully untangling a few knots that formed. He finds himself smiling even wider when you finally start to relax in his arms, rubbing your cheek against his chest sweetly.

“Daddy…” You breathe out, hugging him tight. His large hand runs down your back, stopping before rubbing small circles right above your ass. He hums softly, kissing the crown of your head. He knew you needed this when you got like this. Needed him.

“It's okay, baby. Daddy's got you. Let me take care of you, yeah?” He whispers, his breath tickling your hairline as he leans down slightly to be more on your level.

He runs a bath for you, peeling the clothes off of your body slowly. He even puts in your favourite glittery pink bath bomb, despite it being a pain in the ass to clean up. He'd be scrubbing the discolouration off the tub for weeks, and by then, you'd have used it again. An endless cycle, but one he'd endure for as long as he lived if it was for you. He picks you up and sets you in, massaging soap into your body as you sit in the warm water. You melt under his touches, practically purring like a little kitten.

He's careful not to get your hair wet as he washes you, being as gentle as he can. He dries you off with the fluffiest towel in the cabinet and slips you into the comfiest pyjamas you own.  He ends up setting you between his legs in the bedroom with your pacifier in your mouth and hair supplies in his hand, the TV playing Tangled for the fourth time this week. 

It's Wednesday.

He genuinely thinks he might have to get a lobotomy if he hopes to ever get ‘I Have A Dream’ out of his head. He's more than ashamed to admit he's been humming it between sets at the gym. Oh, well. A small price to pay for your happiness.

He cares for your hair as you focus on the movie, detangling any knots gently, just as you’ve taught him to do before. He tries his best to part your hair into two sections, but it ends up being a little messy. At least he learned how to braid. He was quite proud of himself for that one. It only took a dozen YouTube tutorials to figure it out. He carefully twists your hair into two plaits, kissing the nape of your neck once he's done.

“You're so cute, princess.” He coos, his big hands coming to rest on your waist so he can tug you into his lap. He runs his hands under your shirt, gently caressing the skin of your stomach. “I could just eat you up.”

He runs his stubble against your neck, feeling warmth flood his chest as you start to squirm and giggle, teeth clinging onto your pacifier to keep it in place. He laughs softly at the sight, nipping the side of your neck playfully before picking you up, lying you down on your back in the bed. He raises your shirt up, dipping his head down to your stomach.

“Maybe I should. You look so sweet.” He teases, planting kisses all over your soft stomach as you wriggle underneath him. Your paci slips from your mouth as you laugh, your hands coming down to try and push him away by his head. 

“Daddy, you can't eat me!” You say between giggles, kicking your feet out slightly. He doesn't relent, blowing raspberries against your tummy, making you squeal. “You're so silly.”

“Oh, but I can.” He says, grinning against your soft skin. His head trails lower, nudging your clit through the fabric of your pyjama shorts, peeking up at your face as he hears a soft gasp coming from you. “In fact, I thought you liked when daddy did that.”

You don't really get a chance to reply, ‘cause he's grabbing your discarded pacifier and slotting it into your mouth, tapping your hips twice in a gesture that you've come to understand means up.

He slips your shorts and panties off in one motion, his eyes locked onto the sticky string of arousal that connects the gusset of your panties to your pretty cunt as he peels them off. He shudders as he chucks then to the side, his big hands grabbing the fat of your thighs to spread your legs. He dives in, pressing a kiss to the hood of your clit. He chuckles as you whine, the vibrations sending jolts of pleasure up your spine.

“You like it when daddy kisses your princess parts, baby?” His tone is sickly sweet as he speaks just before diving in, tonguing into your entrance to gather up the slick pooling there. All you can do is nod dumbly, biting down on the pacifier in your mouth as you moan around it, your noises muffled by the plastic.

He only ever pauses in fucking you with his tongue to shower you with kisses and praise, talking about how pretty you are as he presses his lips against your tummy and the inside of your thighs. He coos at you and squeezes your hips in his hands, making sure to show you how much he loves you.

He laps eagerly at your release when you finally tense up and come, relishing in the sweet taste that coats his tongue, lips and stubble. He just pulls back and grins, wiping it off with the bottom of his shirt before tugging it up entirely.

Your gaze is locked onto him as he strips, the pacifier in your mouth bobbing as you suck on it. You wriggle slightly on the bed, propping yourself up against the plush pillows so you can watch as he prods at you before slowly sinking into you with a groan.

“You okay, sweetheart?” He says through gritted teeth, doing his best to stay still as your tight heat envelops him. “Not too sensitive?”

“M'good, daddy.” You slur around your paci, your brows furrowed slightly from the stretch of his fat cock. Your thighs are shaking slightly, but he trusts you're telling the truth. His little princess knows better than to lie to daddy.

“Good… good girl.” He hums, running a hand up your side, gripping your waist before he starts to move his hips, slowly fucking into you.  He moves his hands to the back of your knees, pulling your ass flush against his thighs before folding you in half, pressing your knees to your chest by leaning his weight down on you, your legs thrown over his shoulders.

“Fuuuuck.” He hisses, kissing the tip of your nose before pressing his forehead against yours, fucking deep into you with every thrust. He gets so deep like this - filling every inch of you up in a way that has you gasping and whining.

Your pacifier slips from your mouth and drops onto the bed again, one of your hands opening and closing in a grabbing motion. “Hand, daddy.”

His hand finds yours, locking your fingers together and giving it a little squeeze. He smiles softly, his thick length rutting into you as he presses you further into the mattress. He grunts as he feels your walls starting to clamp down on him, his breaths coming out in short pants.

“That's it, cutie. Cum for me.”

“Daddy!” You moan, back arching as your orgasm hits. You squirt all over him, bursts of sticky fluid covering his lower abdomen. It drips down his cock and coats his balls, soaking the sheets underneath you.

“Such a messy baby, huh?” He breathes out, his hips stuttering as you flutter around him, his grip on your hand tightening almost painfully. “Your pretty sheets are all ruined.”

He drops his head into the crook of your shoulder, panting as he bottoms out, shooting thick ropes of cum deep into your pussy. He can't bring himself to pull out, so he pulls you against his body and manoeuvres you so you're lying on top of him without ever leaving you.

“There we go. Such a good girl. My precious angel.” He whispers breathlessly, his chest heaving slightly from the intensity of the orgasm. He runs his hand up and down your back, petting you gently.

“I love you, princess.” He murmurs against the shell of your ear, kissing it lightly.

“Love you more, daddy.”

[gaslightgatekeepgirlbosscombat]

Group H, Round 3, Poll 4:

Propaganda under the cut

Nadja of Antipaxos

Gaslights her fellow vampires when she knows she's wrong, gatekeeps info from familiar Guillermo, girlbosses by running her own doomed nightclub

She is the Girlboss, but also Girlloser of the show. Turned her own husband into a vampire (taking charge in a male-dominated field!) And further, in Season 3 she came out on top when her and Nandor were fighting over who would truly lead the Vampiric Council. Opened her own Vampire Nightclub! (Which she embezzled to death but shhh!) As for Gatekeep, she definitely gatekeeps both vampirism (Guillermo) and her friendship (The Guide). Does hypnosis count as Gaslight? I'm gonna count it in because she does hypnotize a lot of people. I could go on and on, but anyways Nadja is an icon and a queen and I love her.

Ianthe Tridentarius

She is trying so hard to be the main character by lying and manipulating her sister, her cavalier, her mentor, her ?love interests? (Spoiler???) And also god. Not sure how it's working out for her but she does love to lie and manipulate

Worstie Ianthe is the DEFINITION of gaslight, gatekeep, girlboss. She is one of a set of necromancer twins that are the heirs to their houses rule. Except wait, only she is a necromancer and she has spent their entire lives doing necromancy for the both of them. She is constantly mean to their cavalier, Naberius, who she occasionally nibbles on like a chew toy, before eventually killing and eating him to ascend to sainthood. She goes to gods spaceship with another woman who ascended to sainthood who she has a crush on, this other woman is like…. Both incredibly mentally unwell and also haunted by at least 211 ghosts. Ianthes method of flirting with her? Gaslighting her about the corpse that keeps moving around and hiding under her bed. For no real reason tbh. She is clearly plotting to overthrow god, and at the moment that consists of her manipulating him while he’s too sad about his long term partners betraying him and subsequently exploding to really care. She dresses in terrible outfits and makes soup by burning onions to the bottom of a pot, putting meat in and some vegetables and then it doesn’t taste like anything so she puts in a few teaspoons of salt so it tastes like a few teaspoons of salt. She had her crush amputate her arm and regrow her a new one out of bone and it’s one of the horniest things I’ve read in my life.

"Gaslight = told her lobotomized (she helped), schizophrenic girlobsession that there was no corpse under their bed, even tho there totally was. Gatekeep = girl did NOT share the secret to god-like ascension. She kept that shit to herself until it was time to eat her boytoy, and by then everyone knew already. Girlboss = she has a non-necromancer twin sister, and literally Everyone thinks they r both necromancers because Ianthe is so good at it. She reverse engineered ascending to the aforementioned ascension without even completing any of the supplementary tasks. She held her own in a fight against a 10k year old lyctor. She becomes the figurehead of her entire empire. "

She uses a man as a chewtoy in the first book, literally gaslights the protagonist of the second book about a corpse, and elder-abuses God when he gets depressed in the third book. Nobody is doing it like her.

Dives headfirst with no regrets while basically laughing and covered in blood into murdering her cavalier once she realizes what the gothic locked room mystery/competition leads to while everyone else is questioning it, helps perform lobotomy on harrow so she doesn't remember the person she loves, manipulates everyone to get to the top

idk just everything about her

her relationship with her sister is incredibly Bad, she fosters codependency and views Corona(the sister) as an extension of herself. This does not stop her from keeping up the con that Corona actually has magic (She doesn't, it was always just Ianthe) for 22ish years and every single person who interacts with them falls for it. She killed a man against his will (most dying for this purpose specifically go willingly) and she consumed him and she will be burning his soul for eternity. She's completely repulsive and still somehow incredibly hot.

she takes advantage of the fact that the main character is prone to hallucinations. at one point she gaslights the mc into believing that the corpse under her bed isn't real just because she can. she reverse engineered a set of very complex trials on her own without anyone realizing she had the skills to complete them normally. she's also babysat god through his drunk and pathetic era.

Artist: @starcanist

[charactersmashorpass]

"smash coz shes serving nb lesbian, she used to be rich so you KNOW shes into that freak shit (affectionate), one time she ripped someone's arm off (hot), and also shes a tea drinker so tbh i bet the aftercare would be great as hell also. she could make me worse and id let her"

[notjesuschristpornostar]

HII intro post. TOTALLY. WAS NOT Jesuschr1stpornostar and stuff like that.. INTRO POST!

HIII WAS JesvsChristPornostar boo bjg surprise!

I AM 16!!! (4/18) and a dude.. Important lore is that there is a bullet in my brain that was put there when I was givne a lobotomy at birth out there so I could die instantly. SCITZO, BPD BOY!!! AUTIS RETART!!! .. so such sadness.. before I go any further here is my Spotify if I notice you follow me I'll follow back :3 most of my music I like there go to my Spotify here also if you are an android user and are paying for Spotify go jere to dowjnload spotufyy APK NOW!!! I use this one personally. also postal uncut APK here POSTAL!!! again I use this one personally. I'm VERY FRIENDLY AND TALKIVE TALK TO ME!!! I'm cool! and don't judge tbh just don't be weird with me please!!

I AM TCC!! I like Dylan+Eric (yaoi maxxing), Virginia Tech, red lake shootings, and some other stuff like cults, revenge crimes ECT!! I'll make info posts soon :3!! promise:3 I have dead week soon (as of the time of making this post) and will soon be on break!!! so yay!

if it isn't obvious I'm putting ransoms crap j find cool in here. I LOVE MOVIES SO MANY MOVIES follow my letter boxd fhankoes here I need to update it BUT HERE!! please.. BUT I LOVE Gummo, the matrix TRILOGY. Kids, Don't be a menace to South Central! Zero Day! Duck!, requiem for a dream, trainspotting ECT ect!! A LOT. Music is hardcore punk and funk really, circlejerks, black flag, WEEN. BUTTHOLE SURFERS! DR DRE!!!! bodycount, bad brains, a lot more stuff.. KMFDM, NIN, CHEMLAB! but yeah thanks thanks, I play games too postal, doom, Duke nuke, faith THE UNHOLY TRINTIY!!! n more thanks bye-bye

also song here

[420technoblazeit]

spn characters and whether or not id let them hit it

he has daddy issues and my girlcock boypussy could make him worse. bbgirl when im done with u youll have a whole new set of sexuality issues i prommy

yes but only if it's early show cas when he actually kicked ass instead of just autistic infodumping and being in love with dean

nah im good

OUGH. smash and idc if he'd try to buy my soul afterwards. bb you could suck my soul DRY if you wa- [GUNSHOT]

kind of a milf. reblog

i let him hit it bc he makes cartoon noises during sex. boioioioioinggg

lmao no he was literally an ap student. fuckign nerd

YES in both forms. i can think of one use for those lightning powers

i have daddy issues but this is different this is literally my dad i could never

i let her hit it because she's silly quirky fr let's have minecraft sex bb

she'd probably try and kill me for a spell and id let her

jesus christ. let's get down and dirty in purgatory

kind of a milf but idk. stop hanging out with those british guys and then we can talk

yes but only when he was possessing cas i will not elaborate <3

tbh she's so hot i dont even care that she's british SMASH

once again this is literally just my mom. no

i feel like he'd play cbat idk. depends on whether or not i can get a pair of good quality earplugs

call me dean winchester because bbgirl your profound sense of melancholy is so attractive to me

it's giving me hives just looking at him he's so incredibly british EUGH

she was evil or whatever but i support it. sam had a point here id open the gates of hell for her too

i dont think i could fit my dick with the massive stick he has up his ass. happy for him and adam though <3

the lobotomy thing was kind of a red flag. sorry.

id blue ball him

[house-of-tykayl]

Is there a mandate in Teen Titans Go where they say Robin and Starfire are never allowed to be an actual couple in the show?

I don't understand why they don't want them to be together they make Starfire reject Robin.

I don't think it would cause any problem if they become a thing, they can still make comedy jokes in the show while being in a relationship at the same time.

i think TTG is a low effort parody show, so to change something fundamental to the original concept (having TTG robin chase TTG starfire) would take too much effort. the show would have to replace the conflict of unrequited(?) love with another conflict funny enough to move an episodic story forward for an infinite number of seasons.

so yeah, there probably is a mandate/rule (in the show bible or something) to prevent TTG robstar from becoming "official"

(also if you dont find the idea of TTG robstar being unrequited funny, then tbh i feel like TTG's kind of humor and even the original concept of TTG just isnt for u... it's not the 2003 cartoon v2, it's a parody and always was. by this point i feel like it (TTG's parody elements at least) are such a specific kind of humor that 89% of people won't enjoy it, and thats fine)

anyway there's also how TTG had more sincerity in season 1 when it was more like a really weird sitcom, where the titans' relationships (while still subversions of the 2003 cartoon) were mostly genuine bonds even if they acted like lobotomy patients sometimes. the comedy had limits and the characters had empathy. so if TTG robstar would ever have a chance at becoming anything near canon, it would have been back in s1, though still unlikely

but later seasons of TTG can be very mean spirited, overly cynical and deconstructive, depending on who is writing the episode (assuming the episode is even character focused at all, which became less common over time). the show went from a parody of the 2003 cartoon to a parody of everything besides the 2003 cartoon lol. sometimes i feel like post season 1 some of TTGs writers took the mob hate to heart and let negativity poison the original sitcom premise before slowly selling out

so i dont think genuine relationships between the TTG titans can happen anymore, some of the writers hate the characters enough to have broken up their friendships (someone even messed with cyborg & BB once omg), let alone the romantic relationships. except maybe that doesn't matter either because TTG resets most of its continuity every episode?? ironically TTG could still turn the ship around in terms of the series' tone and direction, though i doubt they will if the current direction makes more money

weirdly enough whenever TTG shits out another AU thing, like the big 2018 movie or the night begins to shine universe, suddenly theres unironic robstar shipping/hints in it that are soooooooo cute. besides being shipper bait this is probably because those TTG AUs feel removed from the main TTG series, so their stories feel more free like they're allowed to be sincere again, like the main show's original season 1.

unless the romance is supposed to be a joke, it needs sincerity in order to work. and its impossible to write sincerely when youre a contractual writer buried under 300 layers of irony and cynicism who doesn't even like the show youre writing for... and thats what i feel happened to the main TTG show ,compared to some of its AU stuff

tl;dr i just cope and pretend like TTG is still the goofy sitcom it used to be, partially coz season 1 TTG robstar had the (admittedly very low) potential to be real, and even if it didnt happen at least their friendship was consistently sincere. and very cute

[leafytaffy]

can anyone recommend some affordable games with really good character customization, so much so I can make my blorbos, but also good gameplay too?

stuff I liked in the past for reference, and reasons I stopped playing as well:

Miitopia: ngl I wanna do another playthrough with an Everhood cast, but my main problem with this game is it loses replay value IMMEDIATELY after you beat it. The gameplay is pretty shallow aside from the customization aspect, and the story you already know so it won’t hit differently when you restart of course. Now onto the good: The customization in the switch version is god tier, the story with everyone being miis you cast in each role (excluding our best boy Dominic <3) is amazing, I love playing a fanfic basically!! The personality quirks and relationship aspects are also really fun!!

Cult of the Lamb: more focus on gameplay than customization, but in every damn save I GOTTA make my Everhood blorbos!! For now the little animal followers do well, but I wish modding becomes easier in the future for custom follower forms </3

Flight Rising: I REALLY REALLY want to play this again, but I can’t because the only legal way for me to play it is to use my shitty account I made when I was 16 which used up all username changes and has a TON of shitty cringeworthy forum posts attached to it because it was the pandemic and my social media was extremely restricted with parental controls……. I don’t feel comfortable enough with the moderators and their extremely strict attitudes and rules to just make a new account and not touch my old one.

Sims 3: I wanna play this again so baddddd… I stopped playing sims 2 tonight after a few minutes because tbh? Modern game customization (mainly sims 3 and miis) have absolutely spoiled me to death and I can’t stand having to download a mod for every. Single. Customization I want. It’s so painful.

Rain World: I wish I could play this, I have tons of skin mods including an Everhood one, but it’s too damn hard for me to play (yeah okay Leaf sucks at video games and just needs to git gud and stop whining). The hardest games I play admittedly are Monster Hunter and Everhood’s battle replay, and I absolutely cannot STAND video game time limits. They stress me the fuck out every time and I can’t deal with them at all (shoutout to Mix quitting the call with me fighting the splatoon 3 final boss because I was screaming my guts out and I ended up having to hand the controller to them for me to beat Grizz), and on top of it I have to use a map in order to beat the game, pre-planning my routes every time and not making a single mistake lest the rain get me. I hate it. I hate that I can’t be good at games for fucks sake ughhhhhhhhhhhHHH

Lobotomy Corporation: I like the customization and modding is rather easy but. Come on. It’s lobcorp no fan has beaten the game its even a fandom in joke LOL (though I’ve definitely gotten farther in it that Rain World. CURSE YOU, TIME LIMITS!!! The thing also keeping me from beating Wandersong….)

[afancyartblerg]

Support me on Patreon / Adoptable Patreon / Ko-Fi / Store / Commission me! / Adoptables / YCHs i started this months ago and only now decided to finish it. i could be convinced to clean it up but i would need to be paid for that tbh. i had plans to make a full series of limbco-style ego images, but that is very much in limbo now even if Punishing Bird (Tataru) is very funny to me. The Abnormality in the back is The Snow Queen from Lobotomy Corp, besides the obvious visual and thematic reasons I gave Zenos her EGO she also challenges a random employee to a duel, and the result of that duel determines the fate of other employees. Zenos's outfit could probably use a couple more passes for added complexity but i was drawing primarily from one of his early StB armor designs and there most of the elaborate bits come from metal armor... not sure how to do that but preserve at least some of the EGO's LobCorp look and also keep the similarity to the source Abnormality.

[candiid-caniine]

I think when your piercing has healed you should reward yourself with a vibrating one. If only they made bluetooth ones... And you let your partner turn it on whenever they want. 😏 i wonder how much you'd edge in a day of wearing that, how close you'd be, and how much you'd beg for more, how much you'd beg for it to stop. We all know you can't cum without permission now, what if your partner just made you keep it on until it died?

.....holy shit.

I had been drawn to the idea of a vibrating piercing for awhile but how have I never considered the overstim potential?!

i,, the fact is. my clit is pretty sensitive already. even more so with the piercing (though I'm told you eventually get used to it...not sure I buy it, I'm always sensitive lol). so the idea of a vibrator pressed right under the hood, directly against my helpless, unguarded clit? until it dies?????

it would actually be agony. like, I can't even pull my hood back when I use a vibrator bc it's just too much. that combined with my recently discovered inability to cum without permission? hggghhgb it would be effectively a lobotomy for me,,,, tbh,,,

which is to say: yes. yesyesyes. if anything could get me begging to just have it chopped off, or be locked in chastity forever, that would be it: a thin, vibrating probe pinned exactly where it hurts 💕

[roemantics]

TEW drives me so insane bc the foundation of STEM being ruvik’s unrelenting grief for the one person he treasured and loved in his life could have been so haunting if the writers knew how to handle villains in any other way than just slapping “psychopath bla bla EVIL” on top of them like tbh the torture and mindfuckery and lobotomy shit was enough to convince me he wasn’t like, good, so not sure why they go so ham on the psycho mental health thing (in the second game too with stefano fr??) and then try to show his genuinely upsetting backstory with unfortunately very little depth to it to.. make me feel bad? i think? i genuinely have no clue how we as the player are supposed to interpret ruvik and i. do not like that. it switches from generic sad backstory (that genuinely only has an ounce of nuance if you look at throwaway notes and the character model descriptions) straight to “actually he was always like this he looooves torturing people and having power over them he just uses his sisters death as an outlet to express his sadistic TWISTED tendencies” and then it’s back to his horrific childhood in which i cannot see any way that he would have turned out to not be bad. the game lacks nuance but pretends it has so much of it and it makes it feel so so soooo corny and genuinely idiotic. ruvik establishes a connection between himself and sebastian for a reason... y’know because of grief.. fire-based grief on top of that... and because they wrote sebastian as such a dry fucking character we dont even get to find out why ruvik thought it necessary or beneficial to do that!!! grief is powerful and the writers obviously knew that in some way when they wrote the DLCs but it’s pushed aside in favor of more corny lines trying to convince us ruvik is sick and twisted when WE KNOW. the brains in his house already told me. the monsters born from his own ass mind TOLD ME. every time i got pulled aside by that mfer in the safe room to get told how much ruvik loves torture it was so infuriating because i thought i was going to be told something i didnt already know. corny ahhh game tricked me into thinking it was going to have a haunting story about how grief affects people. where was the part where sebastian realizes that this is who he could have become? ruvik, regardless of his already pre-existing sadistic tendencies, was created because he was consumed by grief and loss. they portray his disfiguration as something to be feared (not even going to comment on this) but then describe in the character model notes how he was often plagued by seizures and other ailments because of it like... oh my god. they could have hit the nail on the head!! if they wanted the psychological elements in this fkcing game to work they could have done it.. they were so so close. regardless it’s a good action horror game or whatever but it fails on almost every department when it comes to the story.

[stranger-nightmare]

Whoa anon about the special K, you also have to remember it’s the 80s, and ketamine wasn’t a controlled substance yet, it was heavily used in the rave and party scene, a lot of people calling it ‘ecstasy’ it was a very popular street drug at the time. It came in powder, capsules, tablets, injectables, solvents. Like it was a party drug that I don’t think people realized yet how addictive the feeling it gave was going to be. I mean before ketamine they were using PCP as an anesthetic.

Also chrissy asked for something stronger and Eddie probably was like ‘uh stronger how?’ And Chrissy being hunted by vecna, was probably like “something to make me forget for a while just something to make it all stop for a while” like Chrissy was obviously and visually not doing okay, so Eddie suggested Special K because that’s basically what Ketamine is, it’s a dissociative anesthetic, it’s a drug that gives you that ‘out of body’ type feeling.

And Eddie def cared for Chrissy, he made sure she felt safe and comfortable in the woods, the way he was acting and his body language say that. He def had a crush on her in middle school and weather that crush stayed all through high school, well if not it got rekindled when they talked again. Like it was kind of clear in their body language that they liked the other, either just their energy or because they liked the sort of safe feeing of the other.

But like if eddie wanted to just make a quick 20 off Chrissy I don’t think he would have gone out of his way to make her so comfortable and to make her laugh and relax for the brief time they were together.

Remember friends we as the watcher in 2022 have the power of hindsight where we know what special K is and what it could do and that Eddie really probably shouldn’t have been offering that to Chrissy who was desperate for some form of relief of her life and could become real addicted to the dissociative feelings it gave her real fast. But for the characters it’s 1986, Special K is a hella popular party and rave drug, which is probs why refer rick had it and gave it to Eddie to sell if he wanted. It was a party drug. Then in like the 90s-early 2000s it became a controlled substance. So Eddie offering a known ‘take you out of your body for a while’ drug to Chrissy would have been normal for her saying she needed something stronger then weed. As bad as it sounds, Eddie was a drug dealer, he probably had done Special K before, and knew ‘well this does that. So if she really wants it’

Like the 80s were wild. Like less then 30 years before most stay at home moms were popping uppers to be able to ‘be the perfect wife’ like history and drugs is fucked. But that’s another ramble I won’t get on.

-🎸😈

*from your local medical history nerd who just is real into learning about what they would have given me for my mental illnesses through history. From cocaine in the 19th century to a full lobotomy medical history is fucking horrifying but interesting. If people are also into medical history I recommend ‘saw bones. A marital tour of misguided medicine’ it’s 10/10*

you make some very excellent points, thank you for sharing your knowledge with us!! <33

my (limited) knowledge on drugs is mostly from its way back historical use with regards to literary influence, like way back in the days of Wordsworth and Coleridge etc. so we’re mostly talking opium lmao! my modern drug knowledge is uhh yeah severely lacking tbh so thank you for providing this info!!

- hope

[murder-incarnate]

currently considering renaming my durge, who is currently named sabine. i picked that name out quickly and name meaning doesn't usually mean too much to me when i'm doing character design/creation stuff, the sound and aesthetics of the name is usually more important. but as i learned more about durge i feel like there being some importance to the meaning IS called for here, or at least is a nice addition.

(sabine would still exist as KIND of her name, the thing her adoptive family called her, but that name was taken from her. i think there would be a temptation to reclaim it post-lobotomy once some memories start filtering back in, but i think she'd feel she doesn't deserve to. more likely to just come up with a whole new name entirely tbh but we'll worry about potential post-game names another time.)

anyway the two names i'm considering:

Abaddon

Meaning/source: biblical name for both a place of destruction and an angel of the abyss, references to 'destroyer' in the etymology, etc

Pros: fun to say! easy for me to say too which is good b/c i talk about her out loud a lot. using religious imagery and names etc for my little OCs and AUs etc always kinds of scratches an itch in my ex-catholic brain. overall just kind of a cool name.

Cons: makes me think of the spn character of the same name. i've seen it used by other people for their bg3 durges and tavs, which isn't a bad thing at all but i always have anxiety over stuff like that lol. too many sounds are similar to 'Astarion', who she romances, which is me being nit-picky tbh. there being a real-world religious connotation is a con as well in a way i can't fully pinpoint. my instinctive nickname for the name would be 'abby', which is my niece's name so i can't, or 'don'/'donny', which is my dead uncle's name so i can't.

and then

Merripen

Meaning/source: manages to mean both 'life' and 'death' at the same time

Pros: the meaning is cool, love that. could nickname her Merry/Merri which i just think is fun in general but also especially for little miss murder incarnate. i just think it's a cute name! also haven't seen it used for other durges or tavs yet, which, again, would not be the Final Straw by any means but it's a thing i like to note. also no real-world religious connotation.

Cons: the way the name is pronounced is a little unnatural for me (mehr-RAY-pin), doesn't flow as easy for me specifically, which again is a thing i gotta note as i'll be talking about her out loud with my mouth words; i don't ALWAYS wanna call her merri. that's the only con that comes to mind immediately but it's a big one to me honestly ahaha

currently leaning more towards abaddon but i don't want to give up on merripen either. so. thinking about it. turning it over in my head. this is an extremely important decision after all.

[atikal]

MtF Naoto headcanons ramble

Under a read more because I know there are people out there who hate the headcanon and that is totally understandable, just skip this if it’s not your cup of tea

Similar upbringing as canon!Naoto

Loved watching/reading detective stuff but was always a bit confused that it was always men that were the leading role. This led to internalized misogny on her part.

Kept telling herself there was a reason why she born in the body she was in, so she could follow in her parent’s footsteps with ease.

When she finds out what being trans is a little light goes off over her head but she quickly shuts that away within herself and refuses to think about it.

Gets happy when someone “mistakens” her as a girl before she Figures It Out and she hates it and tries to stuff those feelings down.

I’m a  bit torn on what to do with her dungeon tbh. Part of me wants to go off the medical stuff and go for a lobotomy (which like I know sounds REALLY bad, but back when lobotomies were a Hot Thing they were literally used for anything and everything, like seriously it is extremely fcked up how common lobotomies were for a time smh), as her Shadow Self would want to “correct” her way of thinking about herself, aka a type of conversion therapy

The other part of me is like “mmmm that may be a bit toooo much.” I’m super open to other ideas.

So the IT calling Naoto “missy” and “for a girl” would them be more telling her that they accept her despite what other people may say.

Onsen scene would have Naoto worrying if it was ok for her to bathe with the girls, and them reassuring her that it’s ok and that they would never make her bathe with the guys. Yukiko reassures Naoto that if anyone else comes in that she will personally Handle It. She was Eighty-Six anyone who gives Naoto shit

Teddie & Yosuke sign up Chie Yukiko and Rise for the beauty pageant as usual, and then the girls complain that they didn’t sign up Naoto as well. It’s in character for Yosuke to be a little bit of a bigot at times.....

You could also take it as Yosuke not knowing if Naoto is/wants to be out to the school. 

Naoto is still pretty GNC and it makes her doubt herself cause wouldn’t she WANT to be girlier and wear skirts and dresses if she truly was a girl? The IT reassure her that she can dress as masculine/androgynously as she wants and still be a girl. It’s up to her to whether she wants to do differently. Naoto continues to dress as she does because that is just her style, but now sometimes she’ll pick out clothes in the girls section. 

Is a bit jealous of the other girls during the medical exam scene as Rise read off chest measurements. Naoto is the flattest of the girls but Rise reassures her that can change in the future. 

Rise teases Naoto (trying to make light of the situation) saying that some guys like flat chests.

Is excited by Detective Love Line because it’s a little girl detective which she thinks is super cool! She never saw anything like that when she was a kid! The show winds up not being really her cup of tea, but she still buys merch for it and watches it with Nananko. 

[firjii]

Ok so I deadass had a dream about a movie that focused on this amazing biotech breakthrough (not quite a drug trip and not quite a Matrix "we're all just batteries in a sim" thing) that could undo or significantly reduce someone's trauma/PTSD by effectively erasing the applicable memories connected to it. This wasn't 500 years in the future and society was not otherwise significantly advanced compared to our present world.

The neat part was that in theory, it wasn't blanket amnesia or a lobotomy - you would still fundamentally be you and remember people/places/non-traumatic things that happened around the time of the relevant event(s).

The catch was that in the process of purging the bad stuff, you had to confront those memories in an immersive, intense, and highly believable VR-like setting consisting of your fears/insecurities/memories that sometimes lasted hours or days. You didn't get to direct it or pause it. Some people needed more than one session, so the intended users were mainly folks so screwed up and out of options that they didn't have much left to lose by trying. We're talking people with debilitating, devastating histories, not behavior quirks or a little general anxiety.

But at some point, shit goes down. The people in charge of the project fuck up because they basically didn't test the tech on a sufficiently traumatized subject pool. Participants from the general public who legitimately need this help start getting either more traumatized from it because they become stuck in perpetual thought loops after the procedure or just outright get severely brain damaged. Some even die.

Eventually, it's also discovered that at least one of the scientists on the design team is corrupt in some way and, upon learning about the drastic possible glitches, has used the tech's inherent flaws to systematically harm certain participants (though not all). The person who discovers this is caught and subjected to the procedure, all the while hearing a bitter running narration (there's normally supposed to be guided audio instruction a-la-hypnosis) of the aforementioned scientist.

I didn't catch the ending, but the movie was called "The Dark Chair."

I woke up from this dream a) annoyed my storyteller brain cells apparently aren't dead yet and were capable of spitting out so much detail in one night, b) frustrated that I have no spoons to create such a thing in a tangible medium, and c) tbh a little offended that my mind gave it such an obvious and borderline Marvelesque title.

[dykecolumbo]

finally sending you this :) also how was your day today <33

baby - what makes you feel better when you’re down?

sugarpie - what’s your favourite sweet treat?

darling -  what romantic gesture makes you feel the most loved?

button - do you have a type? what is it like?

sunshine - what’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever gotten?

baby girl - how do you like to be held?

lover - how do you show someone you like them?

buttercup - what does/would your online dating bio say?

boo - what’s your dream date?

wild thing - what’s something about you that surprises people?

bubba - tell me a funny story from your childhood. 

honey - what’s your favourite hot drink? (I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF YOU SAY PINEAPPLE FANTA BUT MICROWAVED-)

my love - what would your dream home be like?

(i started answering this when i first got it like. 3 or more months ago. i just finished it now it's been in my drafts forever im SORRY I LIVE IN SHAME)

my day was goood i played an absurd amount of solitaire and thought about ripping my business law teacher apart with my teeth

baby- i go for a lot of walks and bike rides. sometimes i'll bike out to one of the many playgrounds near my house and chill on the swingset

sugarpie- im a total gummy bear pilled gummy bearcel. i love gummy bears so fucking much

darling- oh god idk. im classy at heart. id love to be wined and dined. never have been thought so i can't say it makes me feel the most loved. i rlly don't know

button- mmmm not really? not at all actually. if i like you i like you and if i don't i dont

sunshine- is it bad nothings coming to mind??? not in like a "everyone is so mean 2 me" way just like... idk. im very average. ig i like it when people tell me i'm funny

babygirl- dude i do not know. im awful at like... cuddling bc i just cannot sit still for the LIFE of me. ig just hug me idfk

lover- uhhh kiss them on the lips repeatedly "but in a friend way" which is tbh how it normally starts but whatevs

buttercup- uhhhhh god i don't know. "in need of a lobotomy but my head's still ok" or some dumb bullshit like that

boo- wined. dined. sixty nined is preferred but not a must

wild thing- when i was at work because my hair is technically past my jawline i had to have it tied up all the time when i was working with food, but the one, SINGULAR time i was doing something other than food i got to have it down and i got to show of my huge ass curly ass hair. ik this is boring but so am i! one of my many charms

bubba- my gramps used to live in this apartment building down in florida, and my mom and i went to visit him one year, right? so my grandpa had just moved into this building and little 5 year old me really wanted to be shown around. i don't know why because it's not like we could go into any apartments other than his, so we just walked down 5 identical hallways on 5 identical floors. but i really wanted a tour, so he showed me around while my mom stayed behind in his place. now my grandpa lived at the FIRST DOOR on the SECOND FLOOR. so my gramps and i get to the FIRST DOOR on the FIRST FLOOR, and because all the floors looked identical, my goldfish memory was like "my mom is in there!" and i put my face up against the window and yell cus i wanted to surprise her. i did not surprise my mom. who i DID surprise was a woman in just her bra and underwear watching blue bloods, who jumped out of her seat and screamed at the 5 year old staring through her window, which scared ME and i cried the rest of the evening. fin

honey- NO ONE MICROWAVES FANTA?????? i like peach oolong tea

my love- im flexible. log cabin in oklahoma works just as fine as a studio works just as fine as townhouse as long as that bitch isn't minimalist, and near civilization i will be CONTENT. im not an off the grid type of gal i need to be near people and places