#i didnt really talk about the story i think so i wont tag this as spoilers

[starboy-squeakers]

Again not a dungeon meshi reader/watcher but every time I hear about that laois guy I get reminded of how my system had/has a hyperfixation on dragons so intense that we got that big fancy dragonology book and we treated it like the damn dragon Bible for like years

Now, obviously, we understand that there's different interpretations on mythical creatures, and no one interpretation on a dragon is necessarily gospel, but that multiple interpretations on the classic tale of beasts of scale and fire are completely valid and to be expected!

however if you call an Eastern dragon a coatl I'm going to come to your house and slaughter your family

[lizlovestofangirl]

"i've loved you in secret"

luke castellan x daughterofaphrodite!reader

smau - luke and y/n are dating, but their friends don't know

🎧 - dancing with our hands tied by taylor swift

a/n: hey!! this is my first post so lmk what you think! i wanted to do this because it looks really fun and i love percy jackson

*swearing*

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yn_yln a little trip 🌊

view comments:

larueclarisse HOT

yn_yln ily

iamchrisrodriguez dont steal my girl y/n

larueclarisse you saw nothing

itslukecastellan pretty pretty

yn_yln 😊😊

larueclarisse WOAH

whosannabeth luke whatcha doin

iamchrisrodriguez is that game?

_groverunderwood anything you guys want to tell us?

percy.jackson did i miss smth?

whosannabeth i think we all did seaweed brain

whosannabeth COME BACK TO CAMP I MISS YOU

yn_yln ahhhh i miss you more! be back tomorrow 💘

percy.jackson did u see my dad?

itslukecastellan she probably didnt dumbass or she would've told you

yn_yln and what if i did mr daddy issues?

percy.jackson so did you?!?!

yn_yln no.

percy.jackson awe man

itslukecastellan 💀

silenaaaa my sistaaa 💗

yn_yln SISTAAA ❣️

itslukecastellan's story

view reply from larueclarisse:

larueclarisse luke i know that bracelet and that shoe

itslukecastellan huh

larueclarisse dont play dumb

larueclarisse im onto you

larueclarisse if you hurt her i'll break you

view reply from yn_yln:

yn_yln i love you

itslukecastellan i love you more

view reply from percy.jackson:

percy.jackson come on man just tell me whats going on

itslukecastellan is have no idea what you're talking about

view reply from whosannabeth:

whosannabeth you can lie to seaweed brain but you cant lie to me

whosannabeth just tell me if you and y/n are dating i swear i'll keep it a secret

itslukecastellan fine we are

whosannabeth "HA I KNEW IT" -silena and clarisse

itslukecastellan are you kidding me annabeth

whosannabeth sorry 🤷‍♀️

view reply from silenaaaa:

silenaaaa I KNEW IT CASTELLAN

silenaaaa ahhhh love is in the air

silenaaaa how long has this been going on??

itslukecastellan nine months

silenaaaa NINE MONTHS???!!!

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yn_yln hard launch i guess

tagged itslukecastellan

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itslukecastellan my gorgeous girlfriend

yn_yln i love you

larueclarisse AHHHHHHHHH

silenaaaa AHHHHHHH

iamchrisrodriguez i was told to scream so AHHHHHH

whosannabeth this is adorable!!

yn_yln ily beth

percy.jackson this is repulsive

yn_yln cry about it

larueclarisse SO HAPPY FOR YOU Y/N/N (@itslukecastellan if you hurt her you wont live to see the next day)

yn_yln thanks c ❤️

itslukecastellan 🫡

silenaaaa can i be in the wedding??

itslukecastellan jesus silena

yn_yln ofc you'll be a bridesmaid

silenaaa yayyyy just consult me about the color scheme before you finalize it i need to be in a color dress that i look good in

yn_yln ofc babe

itslukecastellan do i get a say on the color scheme?

yn_yln no

silenaaaa no

_groverunderwood im really happy for you but those lanterns are really bad for the environment

yn_yln thanks for the positivity grover

hi_imtyson YAYYYYY Y/N AND LUKE ARE HAPPY

yn_yln :)

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[antiradqueer]

Trigger warning for mentions of fetishization, pro-c for non-con stuff,paras, and like very little of cult tactics, nothing with much detail I believe. Sorry if i tagged these wrongly, I'm not really good at putting trigger warnings.

Lol, im in the rq community but its like really confusing, i dont agree with some terms that fetishize people and invalidate others but some parts are i agree with too so its weird.

Im not sure if i should leave and even if i do where do i exactly go i dont really know, also some of these terms really help me to explain and express my non-human identity better, and stuff like that. (i only have id with transbody terms that go like 'wanting to have more eyes' or 'wanting to be taller' due to non-humanity, im not sure if that is wrong. Because these terms really would be okay and very nice in my eyes if they werent soo,, interwined with pro-c for non-con paras and actual fucked up shit.)

Also the community is meant to be anti-harasment, which is what i am, knowing that harassment on the internet wont really work in anyway. Though the community is extreme (this goes for antis too, both sides are very extreme which sometimes wants me to just stay in the middle of it.) And people in the rq tend to ignore the pro-harassment rq's by saying stuff like 'oh theyre not actually rq' and that on itself sounds like very problematical to me. Maybe not just me, i have no idea.

I also thought of id as transabled due to my heavy signs of BIID, (though i am not diagnosed so it might be something else, so i wont self diagnose for now since it might be a placebo effect due to my legs not functioning well in the first place) but the things it implied was just,, not something i would like to be associated with. So idk if that makes me unvalid or anything of that.

Im so fucking confused and i dont really like the fact i am so confused and kind of not fitting for both sides and being neutral seems,, y'know,, ignorant to me because both sides have their extremes and problems, so god i have no idea.

Also i did notice rq community using ways that are like,, weird, and i have experienced cult tactics and when i noticed it literally didnt go away so yeah. And that certainly something I don't want to be associated with and harms me too.

Its weird, i have no idea, wa.

Also i quite literally dont care whos origin is what, i used to be heavily endogenic but after a while i was like,, 'dude i cant change these people nor should i can encourage possible harmful things to them and the plural community' and decided to be neutral especially because i have a traumagenic system of 750+ with some alters still heavily anti-endo and some pro-endo. Which again makes me feel like i will not be welcomed elsewhere.

I have talked to a few anti-rqs about my experience but idk

Also i have multiple paraphilic disorders and Paraphilias without disorders, so im not sure if i will be affected in the other communities since of my paraphilic disorders.

So sorry this is like very long, i apologize if i made y'all uncomfortable,, it was not what i intended.

first of all, I will just repeat what I tell every radqueer that comes into our inbox: think about if you really want to be part of and support a movement that inherently supports pro-c paraphiles of all kinds, is racist, ableist and whatnot. you simply can't on one hand call yourself radqueer and on the other hand pick and choose the parts of the community you like. if you use that label, you are supporting the WHOLE community, end of the story. of course there are disgusting people in every community, but it's different with radqueers - for example, there are quite a lot if pro-c zoophiles who are also therians and claim to be part of the therian community. BUT the therian label in itself is strictly against that and will never ever accept those people. the radqueer label however is inherently supportive of and welcoming to pro-c zoos, pedos and necros. and that's the difference. that's why you are still supporting those people even if you only use the term radqueer. please realize there are alternative terms you can use for the same experiences, which are not associated with radqueers and/or are coined by folk who are openly anti radqueer and anti transid.

aside from that, being neutral or unaligned is 100% a path you can choose! always put your own comfort and safety first and if the discourse stresses you out too much, you can always just back off.

I don't have too much to add honestly, to me it seems like you are THIS close to truly realizing how horrible the radqueer community actually is - I mean, you even noticed the cult tactics. but it is on you to take the final step and get out and I promise you, if you do, you will be welcomed by us antis and other communities!

[I won't comment on the endo system part, since we don't do syscourse topics here]

[sexysilverstrider]

reading the japanese and english takukamu S supports im just getting really emotional over the japanese version

when i reread the official english version, i realize they kinda water down how takumi really felt. that explains why i got REALLY emotional reading the japanese version. some of the changes were:

english: there is something else I wanted to talk about… japanese: will you listen to my request?

while this doesnt seem much, the eng version makes takumi sound calmer while jpn version makes him sound nervous. it was a bit odd when takumi says request but then

english: So…does this change anything? About your feelings toward us, I mean. japanese: Hey. Earlier... you said you would listen to my request. So, will you... forgive me for this?

apparently after confessing his feelings n telling the truth, jpn takumi clearly felt disgusted and horrified that he has romantic feelings for someone he was supposed to call sister. eng takumi once again makes him feel calmer and chill as if he had enough time to think and ponder--almost as if the big truth wasnt all that much--while jpn takumi is implied to have rued and suffered through his feelings, fearing that kamui will hate or be disgusted with him. after alls said and done, all takumi ever wanted was for kamui to accept him even if she doesnt love him

english: Avatar: When you said that you liked me, my heart started racing. But I didn't want it to show because I didn't know about Father. Everything is so confusing. Takumi: That's right. But in a confusing world, we must cling to the few fragments of truth we share. And the truth is that I love you, Avatar, and you love me. Let's build a future on that. Avatar: Y-yes. I think you're right. Let's give it a shot. What's the worst that could happen? japanese: Kamui: When you said that you liked me earlier, I was really happy. Because we're siblings, I've avoided saying such a thing... Takumi: Kamui-neesan... Kamui: ... But you came straight out and said you liked me. You showed me that it was okay to love you. Thank you, Takumi. I also want to stay by your side... Takumi: Nee-san...!! For you to have the same feelings as me, I've never been this happy in my life. So... I'll give you this ring. ... I'll protect you with my whole life. Kamui: ... I'm so happy, Takumi! From now on, please take care of me! Takumi: Okay...!

once again this ending!!!! while i do like the eng version the fact that it feels......less emotional than the japanese one. yes takumi is more assured of his feelings now that its reciprocated. i hate that the english version doesnt wanna highlight the 'i cant romantically love you coz i thought we were siblings' like cowards. apply the brocon/siscon themes in this game as its supposed to be. but yeah i still do appreciate takumi being more confident and kamui still being hesitant but they both embraced their feelings nicely

but the japanese one

oooohhh OOOHHH kamui straight up saying she loves takumi too but didnt act out coz she thought they were related. takumi preparing A RING eventho he was 70% sure she wont love him the same way. takumi saying he will protect her with his own life which brings the whole conquest story 10x more painful.

english: If you were aiming for my heart, you've struck true. This was meant to be…

cheesy cute S support dialogue. 10/10. adorable. the last sentence is my otp tag for them after all

japanese: Thank you, sister. I'm so very happy. No matter what people think...these feelings won't change. I love you.

HEARTBREAKING HONEST S SUPPORT. 12/10 MAKING ME CRY. LOVE THAT HE PROMISES NO MATTER WHAT HE WILL ALWAYS LOVE HER. GOOD GOD

and my personal favourite difference of them all?

english: I'm sorry. I struggled with whether or not to tell you any of this. After all, now that you know, we can never go back to being siblings. But I couldn't simply pretend to be your brother for the rest of my life. Especially not with the way I felt about you. It is shameful, I know.

again takumi is being calm and somewhat professional. he knows its weird and tbfh i hate that the localization want to highlight how weird it is. we get it i know. but they make takumi level-headed which when i think back is kind of off for him but i appreciate the maturity of his behaviour here

japanese: I'm sorry... Nee-san. I was really at a loss as to whether I should tell you this or not. Now that I have, we can't go back to being siblings. But I... couldn't have beared living my whole life acting as your brother. I would have rather died...

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK OHHH MY GOOOOD FUCK FUCK FUCK AAAAAAAAAA!!!! i can hear his pain. his sorrow. his guilt. there is no voice acting in the supports but i can HEAR takumis emotions. the very fact that he loves her so so much and he cant bear pretending to be her brother anymore. the very fact that seeing kamui with another man might n will kill him. the very fact that he would rather die than pretending to be someone hes not. this is what im eating. this is what ive been robbed. this very line made me cry THE SECOND I READ IT im about to cry now!!! that very last line is just a big Fuck You to his fate in conquest GOD AAAAAAAAAA

[murd3rh0rnet]

i guess i should make an intro post if im gonna be stuck here or whatever

im allen. my pronouns are he/him. im 16 (technically im actually over 6,900 years old but that is a long story but the gist of it is i didnt age at all for a while)

i am not human. figured i might as well come right out and say it. im a shapeshifter. i bleed black. sometimes my form is uh, imperfect, especially when im upset or excited. sorry in advance for looking terrifying sometimes

i just came here from a pocket dimension that i was trapped in that took the form of a school (SOL Academy). hated it, but i was just starting to make friends when i got pulled here so im almost mad that i was ejected

also im an... "unholy being" so most conventional, uh, anti-demon shit works on me, but thats only in places that have capital "g" G̴͎͖̅͒o̶̳͆͛d̵̬̳̃͝. which, no offense, i dont think yall have one here. sorry to any religious weirdos lol hate to be the bearer of bad news

i dont really want to talk about where i was before i was trapped in sol. my home universe sucks ass so unless anybody asks, i wont be bringing it up

thats really it. uh, bye.

(OOC: this is NOT a real blog. This is a roleplay blog. I will be tagging all IC posts made by this blog with unreality.)

[hartxstarr]

HERES MY FAVORITE FICS EVER. OF ALL TIME.

i have many many fics that i love and have enjoyed reading. but these are the collection of fics that have stuck with me throughout the years, and the ones i go back to so i can experience it all over again. my beloveds <3

heed the tags and warnings for all of these!!!

Family. i know its weird to start off with an animaniacs fic. but it truly shaped me during my formative middle school years. i wont detail the warnings et al for every fic but i do want to say i reread this one recently and theres a lot more problematic worldviews than i remember (sexism, racism, ect ect). lmao. but regardless, sibling dynamics is my favorite in fiction because of this fic. (admittedly, i know i dont ever talk about siblings, but i think about them. and thats what counts.)

Alpha. unfinished. The rvb fic of all time. washington really goes through it in this one, guys. for real. i actually havent read it in a while so i forget the majority of the details, but it branches off of reconstruction and really puts wash through the wringer. for real.

Jamais Vu. abandoned. lolix. zombie au. i need to reread this one. i used to stay up late during school nights reading the latest chapters. good memories. you know, ive always had zombie dreams since i was a little kid, but this one probably didnt help much at all. The Palomo Scene has haunted me for years. thats all i will say.

Death is a Jealous Lover. felix/reader AND lolix. wow! changed my brain chemistry forever. it inspired a whole oc story for my own. granted, it was essentially copying the premise, but over the years ive wrangled it down into its own little thing <3 GRIM REAPER AU. we're not making it out of the crypt with this one, fellas. i owe my life to this fic. always have.

Heed the Siren's Call. one piece time. shanks/makino. do yourself a favor and read all of missmungoes fics. go find out what true love really is. but if you do, this ones the one to start on. theres so much lore to this fic series...and every time i go back to reread this fic, the authors added a little bit more. amazing. wonderful. just read Shanties, why dont you.

Migratory Animals. when i think of zosan fic, i think of this one. its the vibe.

Part Timer. zosan. post-canon. these idiots are everything to me. they learn so much more about each other and they also get to be in love. the scene where zoro calls luffy has lived in my brainspace since reading it. i cannot describe my emotions.

Native Son. sanji leaves the crew. plays out like a movie (think 4-6 era). please just read it.

The Entirety of the Third Degree Series. surprise. bnha fanfiction. endeavor/hawks. these guys are FUCKED UP. i love them. truly. they need help, but sadly they chose each other instead. how tragic. i want to study them. i want the best for them. they are already doomed.

BONUS: Halloween is Scarier As An Adult. this one isnt actually held close to my heart like the other ones, but when i think of gintama fanfiction, this is the one for me. plus, its gin/katsura so immediately its *chefs kiss* the pacing feels like an arc of the show. theres shenanigans. gintokis elusive past(tm), family bonding, and more!!! give this a read even if you dont ship silverwigs.

[keibea]

@lazysunjade tagged me in this because she knows me well I LOVE U THANK U this is going to be a lot of me fangirling, i apologise

three ships;

okay so i have the slight issue of only shipping two people together when i know they'll end up together because i am not getting my heart broken even though they're fictional characters so most of these couples are already together....which i believe still counts as a ship? idk. i could also go on for a wayyy longer list but heres the three i could think of at this point in time....

1. Anne Shirley & Gilbert Blythe - Anne of Green Gables (I'm mostly thinking of them from the 1980 tv/movie or the book and not the show Anne with an E because I grew up with that movie but the concept still stands) 2. Penelope Featherington & Colin Bridgerton - Bridgerton (BECAUSE THEY NEED TO BE TOGETHER IF THEY ARENT I AM SUING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE moving on) 3. Iona & Jaoven - The Heir and the Spare by Kate Stradling (im obsessed with this book tbh)

favourite sims ships (stealing @crow-simblr 's idea because it really is a super cute one!);

eva and mako / en pointe / @thesimperiuscurse (MY BABIIESSS) yehl and taryn / age of arcanai / lazysunjade theo and frederick?? (i hope they're the right couple LOL) / rip dani-paradise i LOVED HER STORY AHHH ceddy and sloane / britechester / @moonsonnet IM LOOKING AT U BOTH

first ship;

so ages ago there was a show every witch way which i used to adore watching and daniel and emma were everything and when she didnt pick him i was actually shouting at the tv i was so sad my parents still make fun of me for it till this day. @akioakashiya will probably be the only one that knows what im talking about LOL

last song;

remedy by adele

last movie;

i believe it was Redeeming Love

currently reading;

summerhaven by tiffany odekirk (just finished it ABSOLUTELY ADORED IT!! beautiful clean regency read if you're into that sort of thing!)

currently consuming;

my mums brownies :)

currently craving;

CHOCOLATE unsurprisingly for everyone that knows me. that and cc

i shall tag @thesimperiuscurse , @amuhav (who are here to make up numbers because they wont do it) , @rollo-rolls , @johziii , @akioakashiya , @catharsim , @plumbobem and everyone else :D sorry if youve been tagged already! and dont do it if u dont want to okay? okay.

[castlebyersafterdark]

just seen some people say they didnt vibe with max's running up that hill scene and i think that reactions and people reacting quickly about media for socials is part of the cause of this new thing where people have so many divisive opinions. when i watch something new i am eyes and ears at full alert, taking in everything as it goes rather than trying to figure the plot out ahead of time, and i realised i would make a shit reactor because it's all happening internally. i dont want to express anything aloud as i watch because you would miss something; dialogue, music, emotional beats? even if stories aren't meant to be consumed in dead silence, i'm amazed at how quickly people form coherent opinions about characters a split second after they've done something instead of just seeing how everything plays out. i'm thinking about lucas 'betraying' the party in s4, people thinking he was genuinely hunting eddie instead of just seeing where his story went. in terms of byler, even now with the story unfinished i am so unable to conjecture real 'proof' or evidences of byler wholly because its open ended! i wont judge anyone until the story is complete.

i'm just amazed by these reactors because theyre usually just GA/nerds, and its fascinating to see them respond and react so quickly and so judgementally, i wonder if it's partially for views now instead of an honest reaction theyre sharing online.

Reaction videos are not something I watch, unless a very funny clip gets shared, I guess because I'm maybe feeling some of the same things you are - they don't feel sincere a lot of the time? I don't think there's anything wrong with all of them. I know a lot of people like watching them especially after they finish a show so they can go back and see what others are taking away which could be interesting. It depends on the reactor. So I can understand the appeal to an extent, but I don't personally like a lot of that format because like you said, the initial over the top gut reaction isn't that useful to me? I'm also mentally absorbing a show if I watch. I'll gasp or maybe cry a little at a scene, laugh, but mostly I'm just watching. The reactor videos are a performance, but then these folks use that performance to inform their opinion. It's a little too off the cuff for my personal taste.

I think for me, I just can't imagine ever filming myself watching something to showcase my emotions, especially if it's something I really care about? So I don't trust reactors as true fans. Because it's just not so authentic. You're aware of the content you're trying to capture. You overly emote, you pay more attention to the fact that you're recording. It's never completely a natural opinion or reaction. I'm not so much into livetweeting/liveblogging, either, so that's probably a factor. Sounds pretentious, but if I care about a movie or show, the first time I watch it I need to be present.

I know when season five drops, I'm turning off my phone from the moment it's available on netflix until I've finished watching what's out myself. That's my plan. Divisive is the key word. Social media moves fast and everyone wants to be the first to post something or see something or point something out. I'll be ok being a day late to things!!

It's why the main Byler fandom on tumblr isn't appealing to me anymore, because one thing I kept seeing is people getting pissy about folks 'pointing out stuff that's been talked about already too many times' or 'I already thought of this theory first and this user is copying me now' as if everyone watched and thinks at the same pace? As if people innately know every post that's ever been made on tumblr or added under the tag? Calm down. Yeah, if it's a rage bait opinion, or blatant plagiarism, but that's not what I'm talking about.

[konigluver]

this is going to be a really triggering story but i need to tell people who will actually care and wont blame me . teigger warning for rape , drugs (weed) , police , panic attacks , kidnapping and just general terrible shit .

PLEASE READ THE TAGS BEFORE YOU DO ANYTHING WITH THUS POST . and for the love of god , dont say anything mean , im very fragile rn . i know im posting it on the internet for everyone to see , but i just .. i need support .

so yesterday , i was at an rv campground , and i told my boyfriend to check up on me every 10 minutes , because i was going on a walk , and he told me not to leave the campground at all . but when i sat down at the playground in the campground , these two guys with knives came up to me and pressured me to go with them to their motel . it was a good 30 minute walk there , and im in a new state so i didnt know what to do . and i hid it from my boyfriend because i was scared he would get mad at me for not staying at the campground . when the guys took me to their motel , they made me smoke a bunch of weed with them , and i got really really high . so high i couldnt move or speak properly .

after a while , one of the guys asks the other one to leave us alone , and he raped me once the other guys left . so after he was done , he told me to walk back home by myself . so i was walking back to the rv campground which was across a freeway and a bunch of really busy streets . i called my online friend and told him everything , but he was in a different country so he told me to call my boyfriend . i called my boyfriend , but i was still so scared that he would get mad at me for leaving the rv , that i just told him i zoned out and walked too far . so he told me to calm down , helped me get my shit together and stayed on the phone with me til i got back to the rv , and he was being so nice to me and so calm , reassuring me that everything was fine and that i would make it back home fine . when i finally got back to the rv , he had to leave for a second to calm down , because he was freaking out .

i eventually told him the next day , and he was pissed at me for lying obviously but still was there for me . and im so glad he was because he made me slow down and think about what to do next . so i called the sexual assault hotline who took my info and story and gave it to the iowa police department , for them to call me back . when the police called , they didnt believe me . they kept asking questions , and they even put me on hold for a while . but i eventually told them the story , and they said they would talk to thwir detectives , and have them call me back . near the end of that call , the rv had stopped at a rest stop , and i was in the bathroom the whole time to talk to the police and the hotline , because the did not want anyone in my family hearing about what happened . so when we werw at the rest stop , my grandma started yelling at me to get out of the bathroom . i said i couldn't because i was having a super important phone call . she waited a few minutes , and yelled at me again , and since i was very emotional still about this whole thing , i yelled back at her "i cant im on the phone with the cops" i wish i had lied to her or something . but she forced me to end the call with the police , and tell her what happened . i didnt want to tell her in the first place , because i KNEW she would blame me , and make me feel like shit . she doesn't understand anything , and she doesn't ever listen or say the right thing . so when i told her , she obviously got pissed and started saying i had no common sense , that i never think , and that i shouldn't have been outside . since i was still worked up about everything , i started screaming at her to stop , that i didnt need to hear it . i was screaming and sobbing in front of my 10 year old brother . and my grandpa told me to stop . so my grandma slammed the door in front of her , and everyone left the rv . i called the suicide hotline because i was having a full blown panic attack at that point , and i wasnt going to kill myself , but i didnt know who else to call . so i called the suicide hotline , and texted my boyfriend , and they both calmed me down . justin , my boyfriend told me to calm down , and try to heve a conversation with my grandma about what happened , and where my outbursts were coming from . how fucking emotional i was . and so i took some really nice deep breaths on call with my boyfriend . before i was ready ti talk to her , my grandma forced me out of the bathroom

again . (sorry for the break in text tumblr didnt like how long that paragraph of shit was) she yelled at me to follow her and i begged her to stop talking and listwb to me . she looked at me without saying anything , and i told her the entire story . she then said AGAIN that i dint have common sense , that i make stupid mistakes , and i put myself in danger because i dont think . she also said that i never think about anyone but myself , and that i ruined the road trip . she told me i put everyone else in danger and just was repeatedly telling me that i make stupid decisions , that i have no common sense , and that i never think about anything but what i want and need . so i just asked her to stop , almost begging again , and she said "this isnt going to solve anything " and walked away . i went back to the bathroom for a bit to text some people and update my boyfriend , but my phone was about to die so now im sitting up at the front with my phone on the charger with her right in front of me . i apologized to my little brother , and he said he loves me . at least i know ill have him ❤️

i just .. i feel like getting fucking kidnapped and drugged up and raped was my fault , all because my grandma cant be the adult in this situation . shes not helping me , shes not trying to do anything but make feel bad about something that i couldnt prevent . unless i stayed in the rv , but that shit happened and i cant dwell on the past . i just cant deal with my grandma anymore . i told her i couldnt tell her anything because i dont trust her , and she got offended . but who would fuckung trust anyone who reacts like that ? im thinking of running away or some shit , but i just cant . i cannot deal with feeling like a terrible person because of her . she says shit to me , and when i confront her about how she makes me feel , she says she never said any of it , and makes me feel even worse . she constantly talks about my weight , calls me stupid and a pig , and when i tell her to stop , she gets so offended . she says "im not calling you fat , i just want you to watch your weight , because girls can gain so much so fast " snd when i tell her to stop calling me stupid , she says , "i never said you were stupid , i just said you lack common sense ." which tbh , to me is the same fucking thing . i dont hate her , i just dont trust her to love me . i dont trust her to be there for me .

i know this post was supposed to he about my rape story (my 12th rape story) but i just need to get everything out , and i need to hear that it wasnt my fault . i know damn well it wasnt , but my grandma makes me think it is . she makes me think im selfish , and stupid , ans gross and i deserve everything bad happening to me .

just please be here for me .

[not-actually-human]

1 6 and 12 for Choosing Violence

the character everyone gets wrong

ok so i dont talk about soc a lot on here but wylan van eck. its been better recently because they did a pretty good job with his characterization in the show, but when it was just the books he was very much viewed as like "uwu cinamon roll sunshine". like hes more sheltered than his friends and also the youngest but also. he is unhinged. he makes bombs for a living. he is ok with murder. he has suggested murder on multiple occasions as the solution to their proplems. the nickname 'wylan van sunshine' was sarcastic in response to him suggesting murder. he is kind and compassionate, dont get me wrong, but that doesnt mean that hes completely innocent.

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

uh. i dont think i can answer this one because i dont really. get super invested in ships or participate in a lot of shipping culture? like i get invested dont get me wrong but if i dont like a ship then i wont even look at that side of the fandom, much less form opinions about the fans.

this is more general, but i dont like when people make a ship the only part of a characters personality and thats the only kind of analysis and content you can find about them (captain lizzie and jay from jrwi riptide. i love them a lot but lizzie is a very interesting character outside the ship and i feel like that can get forgotten sometimes. or even willow from toh i feel like since huntlow became a thing i havent seen much about just willow, everything kind of revolves around her and hunter. like dont get me wrong i love huntlow and huntlow fans this is just something that bothers me sometimes)

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

um. when i was watching acoc i was scrolling through the tags and apparently some people dont like saccharina that much? i dont know i loved her and her role in the story, she was meant to cause conflict and i appreciate that. i understand why people didnt like her but as an emily axford stan first and human being second, i will forever try to explain how genius this character is to people. i know a lot of people really like her though so i dont know if this counts

thanks for the ask :DDD

[hongism]

hiHI your timing was great my brain just fell down the moc brainrot rabbithole again now that i realised i missed an interim chapter SDFHDFJ

honestly my fave bits are seeing people go back and be hit with that ‘oh!’ realization of all the pieces falling into place and making sense it’s so so rewarding as a writer and im so glad to see it every time 🤧

ok WORM i prolly wont reread it right away bc its still very fresh, i wanna let it simmer a little 😌😌 but when i do. does this mean i have permission to come yelling in your ask box as i do SJDFHSDFJ or would you rather i just reblog it again and freak out in the tags/additions as per usual??

ofc i don’t mind indulging you, i always always ADORE answering questions and talking about the worldbuilding bc worldbuilding is my most favorite part about creating fics!!!

OK WORM [2] i will probably pop in w random questions from time to time when moc is on the mind then. which is... fairly often. im gonna start building a little hut in your ask box, i have a feeling im gonna be here a while 🤭 might as well get cozy!

there aren’t really ‘cellphones’ or smartphones like we would have but the wristbands go in place of that.

so its not even a matter of the crew just not having them, but they just arent a thing? thats interesting :0 i guess they had their priorities on intergalactic space travel rather than a little light brick of addiction and brainwashing. yknow, maybe they had the right idea. or maybe they just didn't need the internet when you already can brainwash people with a serum 🥴🥴🥴🥴

what a lot of the scenery and environment is meant to emulate is a sort of call back to past history and things of the past, or a clinging to this old tradition even if it’s not the more forward-thinking type of technology.

could you elaborate more on this? :0 like, you mentioned kebos reminiscent of ancient rome - is it like, Actually recreating the past that exists in-universe, like Was there an ancient rome equivalent that they are paying homage to, or is it just happening to become something similar to what we as readers know as ancient rome? does this mean the people of this universe are really big on tradition? was it more like the need for fancier newer n more novel tech just fizzled out when people realised they already had the fundamentals and thats all they needed to work on improving, as a society, or was it just never invented because (??)? or is this actually really early in this universe's timeline, where the origins of technology was more focused on travel and military than entertainment, and theyve just yet to cross that bridge yet? sorry if this is a lot of questions sDFJHSKDFHKsdf im still tryna wrap my head around this in particular. i didnt think abt the whole them being criminals and therefore downgrading their digital footprint for safety though, thats pretty smart. so does that imply that the internet does exist but criminals simply know better than to use it? ik you just said its something you dont feel like going into a heap of detail abt but KhGJKSKDFG

the idea of there being things like video games or vr headsets doesn’t feel like it necessarily fits with the idea and tone of the setting that’s already been constructed, and that was never something i thought i wanted to include from the very beginning of the idea. and that was a conscious decision just because from the start, i’ve wanted the story to be set in this fantastical universe of course but the plot and the characters are meant to be the focal point

you're right, it doesn't really fit with the vibe at all - it really does just feel like a typical pirate au, but in space. having san be a gamer and seonghwa being a film nerd would probably take away from that a little SJFKSKDF its not that i feel the story Should have more advanced tech elements, but more just me being curious abt all the in-universe Why's ykno. and tryna figure out what is and isnt possible with the realm of tech available. but it makes sense that you want to prioritise the characters themselves rather than the environment, which at first seemed less of the case w the amounts of planets in the profiles but i get it now that they just serve as catalysts for character growth with their pasts and such rather than an in-depth sinkhole of planetary lore just for the sake of immersion. (youve got plenty of immersion going on already with just the Rawness of all the characters, anyway.)

in the scope of the main characters we have in our crew - i want the crew to feel like a safe space for not only the main character and the other crew members but also to the reader. they are a safe place and they offer understanding and warmth and comfort that’s completely separate from the parts of the universe that aren’t that accepting or understanding.

yeah, this i totally get an expected as much. ateez are canonically For The Gays™ and a safe space so theres no reason why theyd be any different here 😌

it’s been addressed in the plot before with yeosang and wooyoung in particular, that they could never have been together even if wooyoung weren’t a slave because of gender and because of yeosang’s position as a prince.

okay THIS i totally missed bc i had just figured it was because of the whole slave/prince thing. makes sense that a traditional system such as a monarchy would be where you find more traditional thinking like bigotry. but yeah that all makes sense

i will say that we will see a lot more characters come into play, and we will see journeys with the characters we already know, and as it’s a story that’s very character based, those are aspects i love to focus on and so we’ll be getting into more of that and seeing things unfold and manifest over the course of the story as we’ve barely scratched the surface regarding the entirety of the universe and what it holds!

this is so ominous how do you manage to say so much without saying anything at the same time. i read this and translate it to "stay tuned, im aboutta absolutely rock your shit" and honestly... so true. i am vibrating with excitement to see where this goes! tho this seems like its hinting at more diversity/queerness based on the topic at hand so would it be too spoilery to ask if moc will eventually see any trans characters 👀 s'fine if you cant answer that tho for spoilers sake lmfAOoo i just figured i might as well ask for my crumbs. LOL.

i hope this all makes sense and is more than just my ramblings bc my god did i ramble!

i did quite literally invite you to ramble so i am positively Thrilled you delivered, you could write a wholeass thesis on moc as a whole and i would read every damn word of it 😤😤😤😤 thank you for taking the time to do so!

whewie whewie i have to apologize i didn't realize this was sitting in my inbox all this time TT dumblr told me i had cleared it pretty much all the way out so i never saw this until i came in and refreshed earlier today?! wack. but i'm here now better late than never ahahha </3 haertbreaking im SO SORRY 😭😭

you can as always do whichever you feel most comfy with! if its sometihng you really want me to respond to then i'd say inbox is best bet (if tumblr lets me see it that is </3)

build your hut and build it strong it's very cozy and comfy in here indeed 😮‍💨

i would say i compare kebos to ancient rome because that's what we would know and understand it best to be. i've never envisioned this universe ever having what we consider 'earth' like i dont consider the moc universe to just be a distant future form of our current universe irl, so they aren't necessarily paying homage to an ancient roman civilazation or anything like that but rather creating on their own.

as far as their views on tradition, i wouldn't put too much thought into that tbh. in the grand scheme of things it's definitely not the most pressing matter but i suppose you could call the technology rather primitive on certain planets, but we also have to think about how large this universe is and how many planets there are and how different each one is. there are different laws for each system and each planet, i would say that aurum is the most unified and so far we've seen that they are the most advanced in terms of technology as well. some of that technology has bled to other places as well but each planet is going to be at a different point in terms of advancement just based on resources and needs are them

and definitely yes the planets and those profiles are meant to serve as a visual helper for the readers and a  somewhere i can look back on and understand what each setting provides. there are some planets where the planetary lore will come into play so that is not for no reason at all by any means, it's just that so far in the story these planets act as the stage for the actors to come alive on! but also keep in mind that this story has been going on for over 2 years at this point! the direction and minute details have definitely gone under a lot of changes so it's hard to say where my mind was at two years ago versus where it's at now!

DFAHDSKJF i fULLY plan to rock everyone's shit absoluteLY, while we aren't going to really get much in the way of main characters coming forward (it is still an ateez fic after all) but we will get some side characters who fall on different spots on the spectrum, i can't say that i have anyone right now who is trans but there might be one further down the line if i feel its important for the story telling!!!

[huidol]

🪄 🪄 🪄 TRIPLE ATTACK!!!

BEING ATTACKED!!!!!!!!!!!

(Ribs - The Crane Wives)

Time has changed the metaphor

now, dust is not the origin of bone

Little girl, don't let them sell you any armor

All your ribs are still your own

--

The dark doesn't frighten me

I chose to close my eyes; it is mine

The night doesn't frighten me

I chose to let it thrive; it is mine

[ladycatland]

Seeing you reblog Rewind art made me go :D but also D: because I've been gradually making my way through that fic this week but at the same time I'm trying to be wary of spoilers. I tried looking for fanart a few days ago but searches like 'dsmp rewind' tend to show results about Dream's 'face reveal' more than any fic-based art. Have you seen the one with Toby and Theo's arrival? I have that one saved for when I fully catch up so I can reblog it.

Either way, it's cool to see someone else like that fic and to also see more art of it. I'll be sure to save those pieces too.

Oh I absolutely adore that fanfiction!! And yeah, finding fanart is reaaally hard so I'm really glad the author has links to new fanart in the notes of every chapter.

And yeah I've seen that one! The one made by galaghiel, right? It's how I ended up following them!

But seriously Rewind is great, the story is amazing the pacing is fast but not rushed, characterization isn't over the top and also fitting for the world it's set in. The differenciation between present story, past story, the voices, dream's thoughts, Theo's thoughts etc is really well done and not confusing. And the chapters are nicely long with great endings.

And the best of all IT UPDATES DAILY. THATS SO FUCKING AMAZING!!! Because it is a somewhat complicated story especially with the different povs so if I had to wait a week I'd have to reread a good chunk before being able to really understand the newest chapter BUT I DONT BECAUSE IT UPDATES DAILY HAVE I MENTIONED THAT IT UPDATES DAILY HOLY SHIT!!!

Feel free to talk to me about the story as you read it because God knows ILL BE HAPPY TO YELL RIGHT BACK

[sca-rian]

my howl's moving castle inspired au, the long masterpost:

*will use scar's moving castle as a tag for this!

consider: grian manages a family business with his sister, pearl. their life is anything but glamorous, and grian doesnt have much prospects of ever leaving his town and doing something different. he hears stories about big cities full of possibilities, magic (hes isnt sure if he believes in that), a moving castle and a handsome wizard who steals the hearts of young women;

one day, grian gets cursed by the wizard of the wastes (joel), after he comes into his shop late in the shift and they get into a heated discussion over the existence (or lack, thereof) of magic. joel thinks of it all as just a silly prank, a curse that can be easily lifted or is just naturally disappearing after a few days;

joel girlbossed too close to the sun, though. the curse is bad. grian wakes up finding out that his body has started to grow feathers. its uncomfortable and borderline painful at times, specially on his back;

after properly freaking out, he tries to deal with it as best as he can, chugging some painkillers, wearing oversized clothes and going to work as if nothing is wrong. pearl notices something unusual, tho—perhaps its grian's murderous expression whenever he remembers joel's face. hes going to kill that bastard;

the curse gets progressively worse as the days go by, until grian can no longer easily hide it and pearl finds out by the ungodly amount of feathers spread around their house. she, of course, gets worried, and tell grian they need to find the wizard that cursed him somehow, or perhaps asks someone else for help;

they dont know any other witches and wizards, since, until last week, grian was pretty sure those didnt even exist. until pearl mentions that one dude who apparently steal hearts and was around town with his moving castle;

grian tells her thats a legend to scare young people so they wont go around talking to strangers. pearl argues that she knew of a lady who disappeared after allegedly spending time with the wizard;

grian supposes that man, if he actually exists, isnt the most trustworthy. but 1. hes not a young lady, which appears to be the ones who get their hearts stolen and 2. he has nothing to lose, really, besides some of his time;

pearl offers to go with him, but grian insists for her to stay (shes a young woman, after all). so grian leaves by himself in good old ghibli fashion: taking with him nothing but a block of cheese, some bread and a clock;

he founds the moving castle with ease: its ridiculously big and it makes no sense at all, having many weird bump outs, few windows, a dramatic copper roof and many chimneys. if anything, it looked like the weirdest house ever and nothing like a castle. something about it was still charming, tho: he just couldnt point out what.

development for this au just started, but so far it includes:

scar being weird and overly dramatic, but still charming. he also refuses to pay taxes;

cub as scar's weird demon roommate, with whom he made a contract many years ago. cub is so miserable sometimes that he regrets getting scar's heart (or his soul, whatever). cub keeps the "castle" moving with overly complicated redstone magic and fire that allegedly comes from the depths of hell;

scar sending threatening letters to joel. many of them. demanding for him to break the curse. joel ignores every single one;

he eventually gets pissed and goes with grian to look for joel, who admits the curse wasnt supposed to be that strong and now he doesnt know how to break it. scar turns him into a frog and joel is kept hostage;

joel still does his best to be as annoying as possible despite the limitations of his new body.

it also includes:

scarian falling in love;

found family;

silly cliche romance tropes;

romcom elements;

characters acting like divorced couples;

funky magical men with their funky little spells;

light angst.

i want to write this but im afraid i might not have the time. still want to brainrot tho so im accepting asks! you may also write with this au as long as you credit me! :)

[holycrimin]

It hurts to love.

Karl heisenberg x male!reader

Tags: Hanahaki and angst

SFW

(Note: In this au, none of the main events happen with ethan, as he is not in this story. Also SPOILER WARNING.)

(Warning: probably shitty plot, but i'm trying my best ok)

[Your pov]

It all started a year or two ago, when mother miranda had found me lurking around the village. As i was not a local, she deemed me suspicous. However, before she had the chance to kill me, She had a spark in her eye. As if she had an idea. And before i knew it she was using me as some sort of vessel for her daughter, Eva. Although i am a male, she had seen something special in me apparently. I had also found out that her daughter had passed away and she was determined to bring her back.

It failed.

The experiment... failed.

I was no longer deemed useful.

She had proposed me two options. become a servant or assistant to one of the lords, or die. A slow, and painful death.

Of course I chose to be an assistant.

She was kind enough to let me choose who to work for, thankfully.

Lady dimitrescu was very much intimidating. And from what I've heard, if you mess up even just a little while working for her, you will be sent to the dungeons. Never to be seen again. And she isnt really fond of men, so I wont be choosing her.

Next up was Donna Beneviento. She was nice, although her doll 'Angie' is a little... how do I say this... creepy. It doesnt help that i have a huge fear of mannequins and dolls, so I dont think i'll be choosing her anytime soon.

And then theres Salvatore Moreau, dont get me wrong he's a great guy but.. he might accidentally drown me. I might be overreacting, but the guy smells. Although, I feel bad that he's treated so poorly by the other Lords, but i think it's for the best if i stay away from him.

And.. i guess my only option left is Lord Heisenberg. I just hope that he wont be that much of a hassle, even if he IS kind of an asshole...

A day before i start working at the factory, Mother Miranda forced us to spend the day together. To 'get to know eachother' I assume.

Lord Heisenberg looked pissed off, he wasn't really fond of me. He was more pissed off at Mother miranda though. Most likely because he was forced to spend time with me. I quickly learned what he called the 'basics of him'. Basically, common facts. Such as, the fact that he can bend metal and his deep hatred for Mother Miranda. that was basically all that he told me.

The following day was my first day at the factory. As we were walking along the factory, he stopped in his tracks. "Listen pup, there's rules." He practically growled. "First of all, Don't touch my shit. Second of all, don't go around the factory without me knowing. And third of all, Don't try to get to know me, we're keeping a proffessional relationship, got it?" He said.

"Uh.. y-yes Lord Heisenberg." I very nervously stammered, lightly blushing at the nickname he gave me.

"Good, now let's get to work."

Present day

That was around a year or two ago, and while i have gotten closer to the other lords, i never managed to get to get close to Lord Heisenberg. And..

I'm an idiot who fell for him... And... I know he'll never feel the same way. I've tried getting his attention, impressing him, but... nothing's working. Every time i try to get close to him, wether it's emotionally or physically. I get pushed away, literally and figuratively.

It's my fault really. I fell inlove with a man who was emotionally closed off. His charisma, his voice, everything about him just makes me fall more and more inlove with him.

I know i wont have a chance, hell, i dont even know if he's into guys... Guess i really am an idiot, huh?

Later that day, Lord Heisenberg asked me to help him with something. I agreed of course, and during that time I tried to know him more. "Jesus christ, are you trying to get me to open up or something? Cause' that's not gonna happen, so give it up." He spat out, "a-ah... sorry Lord Heisenberg.." I stammered out.

A few minutes of silence pass. Suddenly, he grabbed my hands. "I- ugh.. Just- you're doing it wrong. Here, let me help." He said, while holding my hands 'teaching me how to do it right'.

Of course my face started heating up, the feeling of his slightly roughed up hands on mine... it feels nice. Although this is probably the only time i'll ever get close to him.

"Hey pet, you ok? Geez, you're practically as red as a tomato." He said, while still holding my hands. "Uh.. y-yeah..! Uhm... i.. i'm good.." i stuttered, feeling his breath on top of my head. He was bigger and taller than me after all.

"Well, whatever you say, pup." He shrugged as he continued his work. I got a little flustered on the nickname, i never got used to that..

After, he went and ordered me to get supplies fron the duke.

As i was walking along the pathway to the duke, a few lycans were following me. They didnt seem to be attacking, so i just left them alone. However when i reached the duke, the lycans were gone. How strange.

"Well well well, if it isn't Heisenbergs pet! What brings you here, young man?" He says, with a shit eating grin. "Ah.. well, i'm just here for some supplies is al-" i was then cut off with a series of coughs, "Oh my, are you alright?" said the duke, genuinely concerned. "O-oh i'm fine i ju-" i was then cut off by another series of coughs, but just when i stopped, a small white flower petal came out of my mouth.

"Oh dear, i hope this isn't what i think it is... Are you sure you are alright?" Asked the duke. "I.. i dont know," i pause and look at the small flower petal in my hand. "do you know what's happening..?" I questioned him, very much confused. "It may be something called the 'Hanahaki disease'. It was said to just be an urban legend. Where, if you were suffering from unrequited love, you would begin to cough up flower petals." He explained. "I didnt think it was real.." he muttered to himself.

"..." i was silent as i stared in shock and horror, I'm.. coughing up flowers..? Like actual, real flowers...?

From.. unrequited love.... i should've known, i... i should've known that he would never feel the same way.

How could i be so stupid, to think he would fall for a mere mortal like me. Or atleast.. i think i'm mortal. "Well," the duke spoke up, "luckily there are two ways you can get rid of the sickness." My eyes lit up, "the person you like, either loves you back," he continued "or, you can get surgery. Not only will it remove the flowers, it also removes all of your feelings for this particullar person permanently."

"Th-that's great! I can finally get this 'hanahaki' disease while also getting rid of my feelings for him-!"

"Him?" The duke asked as he cut me off, "do you mean Lord Heisenberg?"

"Uh-" as i think about him, i start coughing again. This time, blood was spilling over. And so were many petals. "Oh dear.. so just the mere thought of him triggers it..?" He said, concerned. "Uh... i'll just... take the supplies. Thank you though, duke."

"No problem, stay safe. But remember, the longer you wait around with the flowers still inside you, the worse your state will become." He informs me,

"I'll try to get the surgery as fast as possible duke." I said, waving him goodbye.

As soon as i walked out, those same lycans followed me all the way back to the factory. Strange isn't it? Anyway, when you finally arrived at the factory, supplies in hand, I hear Lord Heisenberg open up the door.

"Here, let me help you with those." He says as he starts taking some of the bags.

"...Why are you being so nice all of a su-sudden?" I stammer as i try to hold in a cough. "Would you rather not have me nice, pup?" he growled. As i opened my mouth to speak, i was interrupted but a fit of coughs. Blood spilt out as did the petals. Heisenberg didn't seem to notice as he was already far ahead.

I try to cover it up as much as i can as i try to catch up with him. "Jeez.. Finally, you caught up-" he cut himself off. "Why is there blood on your face?" He said, slightly concerned. I froze. "Uh.." that was all i could say. "Whatever.." he said as he wiped the blood away from my face. A faint blush spread accross my cheeks.

I excused myself to the bathroom as i felt another fit of coughs. More blood splattered out as well as more petals. God it hurts. I heard a knock on the door. "Hey pet, you've been there a while, you sure you're alright?" He said

"Uh- yeah, i-i'm fine..!" I said, trying to hold in my coughs. "Well just make it quick, we have work to do." "Yes sir..!" I reply back quickly, not wanting to upset him. I quickly cleaned myself up and walked out of the bathroom. "Took you long enough." He sighed, annoyed. He went ahead and grabbed his hammer, dragging it along the metal floors. It was loud enough for him to not hear you cough up more petals.

~later that week~

My condition kept getting worse and worse, to the point i was barely able to breath. I've consulted the duke, however nothing seemed to work. No matter how much medicine, herbs or other medicinal items i jammed into my body, it just won't go away.

I was asked to come over Lady Dimitrescus castle, i'm not exactly sure why. Maybe she heard of this 'hanahaki' disease?

As i make my way to the castle, lycans started to follow me. Even more than before, why was this happening?

I finally arrive at the castle, the lycans seem to be watching me very carefully. I hear the doors open, and out came a tall lady. "Ah, Y/N! I'm glad you came! Come in." She said, holding the door open for me.

I walked in and was immediately tackled with a hug. "Uncle Y/N! You came!" Exclamed Daniela, one of Lady Dimitrescus daughters. "Oh, uh... hello Daniela." I say, hugging back. I never imagined them to warm up to me. "Now now Daniela, me and your Uncle Y/N have something to discuss."

"Aww man... well, i'll see you around Uncle Y/N!" She waved goodbye to me. "I'll see you around, Daniela." I say as i wave back. As soon as her footsteps were no longer in range, i spoke up. "So.. what did you want to talk about..?" I carefully asked the tall woman, not wanting to be sliced to bits. "Well, as i said before, the duke has informed me of something related to your wellbeing."

"So... you've heard about this.. 'hanahaki' disease, i assume...?" I say as i tense up even more. "The duke told me about it, and when i asked why he was informing me about this, he simply stated it had something to do with you. So tell me, do you have it?" She asked me with a concerned expression.

"W-well.. I-.." i say, sighing. "Yes, as far as i know." I reply, not wanting to lie to her. "As much as i dislike that wretched man, Heisenberg, i must ask, is he the object of your affection?" I froze. "Well... uh-" i cut myself off as i break into a fit of coughs growing more and more violent than the last. "Oh dear- MAIDS!" She called out, panicking, as blood and petals fall out of my mouth. She patted my back as i continue to cough. "So... it is Heisenberg.. I am terribly sorry Y/N i did not know this would happen.." she said, apologetically.

"I-it's alright-" i break into another fit of coughs. But instead of petals, this time, there were fully grown flowers. "i.. i can't b-breath.." i say almost blacking out. The last thing i see and hear are the maids, Lady Dimitrescu shouting to get the duke, and the door opening to reveal... Lord Heisenberg..? "Goddammit, out of my way-!" Was the last thing i heard before blacking out.

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I woke up to the duke. I sat upright, "what... happ-" i was then cut off by the duke. "You're awake! Honestly, i.. didnt know if you would wake up.." he said sadly. "Thankfully, i was able to patch you up just fine. And after days and hours of research, i finally found an alternative to your hanahaki!" The duke said, switching from a sad, to a cheerful mood.

My eyes light up, "W-wait, really!?" I said as a smile creeps up on my face. The duke gives me a small bottle, "Here, take this. Free of charge!" He said as he smiles brightly. "Now, you should drink it as soon as possible. Lord Heisenberg is waiting for you outside."

"I will, thank you duke!" I said as i waved him goodbye. As I walked to the gates, I take the small bottle and drink it. Within seconds, the flowers were gone. I could finally breath again!

Walking out with a small smile, I saw Lord Heisenberg. "Oh, hey-!.. uh.. i mean, hey. You're awake, lets... get back to the factory..." he stammered out.

..

Was it just me, or were there tears on his face..?

The walk to the factory was silent, but as we walk up to the factory gates, he stops dead in his tracks. "Before we go in, I just uh.. wanted to let you know that the duke let me know about how you really felt about me." He said. "And.. after a long time of thinking about it.." he cuts himself off as his cheeks turn red,

"...I like you too." He confesses.

But,

I don't feel any different.

I don't have butterflies in my stomach.

I don't even feel my face heating up.

It was like...

I was never inlove with him in the first place.

"I... I'm sorry, Lord Heisenberg... but.. I dont feel the same way anymore. I think... it was that small bottle the duke gave me, but.. I am sorry, i don't feel the same way." "W-wait.. you're.. you're joking, right...?" I watch as his expression goes from flustered to heartbreak. "..." i grow silent.

"Let's... let's get inside... we'll catch a cold if we don't." I say, opening the doors to the factory, not wanting the situation to get more awkward. "...Y... yeah... just, gimme a minute.." he says as his voice was slightly shaking. "Alright.. just... please be quick, you'll get a cold." I said, walking in and closing the door on him.

[Heisenbergs pov]

"I... I'm sorry, Lord Heisenberg... but.. I dont feel the same way anymore. I think... it was that small bottle the duke gave me, but.. I am sorry, i don't feel the same way."

"W-wait.. you're.. you're joking, right...?" I say with my voice slightly shaking. Dammit.. god... fucking...

DAMMIT...!

Just when i thought i finally found the love of my life, he's stripped away from me.

"..." he was silent.

I could feel the heartbreak slowly filling me up.

"Let's... let's get inside... we'll catch a cold if we don't."

"...Y... yeah... just, gimme a minute.." i stammer while i try not to break down infront of him.

"Alright.. just... please be quick, you'll get a cold." He says, as he walks in and shuts the door. Heh.. it's cute how he still worries about me when..

Nevermind.

I need some time to thi-

My thoughts were interrupted when i started to violently cough. What i didn't expect though...

Was a flower petal.

"..."

"Heh..."

"So this is what he felt." I said, as i look at the bloody flower petal in my hand.

[noeggets]

Scourge? Thoughts on his character or how would you interpret him in your canon?

okay well in my canon which i call our canon (me and @ssxdz2 i tag her because its more of her scourge i just use him every headcanon comes from how she interprets him in our world)

Scourge is not Sonic im not gonna go into Sonics family in Scourge i will if anyone ask about Aleena but sense this is Scourge i will go into everything that matters on his part

Scourge is the first child of Aleena and Dash (Dash is like a country boy who she met when they were children playing with Bernie she met Dash and his best friend Mighty's dad who i dont remember his name right now) there is a story there about Mighty's dad but i wont go into it cause this isn't about Mighty or his family

Aleena has super speed Dash has super speed so Scourge is gonna be a product of that

i don't remember why she had to leave him with Dash cause she took Sonia Manic and Sonic with her (and lost her children cause this ain't sonic underground Chuck took Sonic with him back to knothole / island place and she took care of Manic and Sonia until she had to leave to go to the hedgehog - echidna war and help out AGAIN im not getting way into this because this isn't about her but thats some backstory)

she did have to leave him with her husband anyway Dash didn't really know how to take care of him he took care of him wrong causing him to hate him more so he gave his son to a temporary new family planing on going back to get him but forgot about him

the new family wasn't a good family and i don't think they really cared about him so he hates his dad and his new family

Scourge grew up in station square where he met up with Manic and Sonia sometime in his life he knows Manic and Sonia are his siblings cause he saw them as babies he doesn't really care or talk to them much at this point in his life but does ask for help from them when he really needs it (Sonia gets dragged into the whole BuT wE'rE fAmiLy act everytime)

//Trigger warning Drug Abuse//

Scourge and Manic are drug buddies Manic makes money by being a dealer Scourge will again use the family status to sway him to give him some but if it doesn't work he will threaten him if Manic is feeling brave enough to refuse

//End//

Sonia believes him to be a good for nothing not bothering to check in on him because hes probably always up to nothing good she tells Manic to stop interacting with him cause his bad will rub off on him

Scourge and Rouge are really close friends like almost definition best friends she lets him hide in her house (her secret house before she was part of G.U.N) when hes on the run they enjoy almost the same things theft included i think they almost were together but Rouge was like nahh thats my bestie

The only reason they met is because they both lived in station square i don't know how they met but they met and that duo is one of my favorite things about him

they are still friends Rouge is just a little busier nowadays but she visits him sometimes they still a duo she talks to him about her love life hes that kind of friend

Scourge and Sonic's first meeting was like a puppy meeting a dog for the first time Sonic didnt even know he had family outside of Uncle Chuck Sonic was eager to meet him and get to know him when they moved to station square from the island sonic soon found out Scourge is hard to deal with and makes really non-heroic life choices but they continue to be on good terms enough to chill together always Sonic really cares about him Scourge really cares about Sonic he nicknames him Blue but calls him that and only that all the time

Scourge hates his dad he wont even call him his dad or dad at all it is his life wish for his parents to separate he really loves his real mother and aunt tho

(Aleena and Aunt Bernadette who he affectionately refers to as Ma and Auntie ) Bernie spoils him and gives him his favorite food her home made lemon squares he ate so many he got fat once

Scourge is a player we know this everybody knows this but he kinda really likes Bunnie i think he keeps trying to sway her every chance he gets

Scourge also was with Fiona when he lived in station square she left the island Sonic and Tails lived on in the orphanage when i think Eggman took her but she escaped him and became friends with him never saying a thing about her past to him fearing he wont understand yet felt okay enough to form a relationship with him that was not the best for her mental health due to him cheating all the time

(IDW era) Scourge currently lives with Fiona and her new boyfriend (Lightning Lynx) alongside the Destructix he lives a calmer more relaxed life now his team who hes not the leader of anymore (Fiona is) he does a little good now and then but is ultimately still a trouble maker

He made friends with Mighty who introduced him to Ray he is a bad influence on Mighty but Mighty seems to not change from it at all

Scourge is the first child i said before i don't think he ever uses his status against his siblings

Scourge 18 | Sonia 16 | Sonic 15 | Manic 14 Sonic DX Era

Scourge 22 | Sonia 20 | Sonic 19 | Manic 18 start of forces

everybody kinda lost their minds in forces so i cant talk further on that until our written what happened in forces document is recovered so i can tell you what he did

Over all her Scourge is a funny little dude who makes wise cracks and i like her ver of Scourge who is like the guy who makes fun of everyone in the room