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I have some trouble issues, have something to say but I don't want to. I feel awful when something is out of control... I wonder if I want to cut off contact with something or someone important does that make me feel good? Or am I just overthinking?
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Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest
Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here
Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭
It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony
#the final confrontation was basically his first death again#and YES he Does want the Joker dead#and it would've been really really nice if Batman was the one who did it#but when batman made it clear he wouldn't kill the joker. Jason easily switched to saying “LET me kill the joker” to accommodate#because he Wanted batman to pass his test#he gave a test to dick too. and technically tim but it wasnt the family test it was a different one so it doesnt rly count#AFTER utrh and the reveal and the batarang you can go hog wild about it. i care less about it then#granted i do believe they make jason more scared of the joker after it at some point#i guess because hes a bit too willing to kill the joker and ive heard jason wasnt meant to live after utrh#my watsonian explain for that is he was so fixated on his plan he cpuld override his fear. or maybe the pit. either work#i prefer the fixation bc i dont like the explanation that the pit was the /only/ reason he could get all plan together and done#BUT THATS UNRELATED!!!#dc stop putting the joker in jason stories im begging you please please please. lock him in a vault for the next 20 years or something#it Cpuld be good and i understand. but also. after so long of people that dont know or go for jasons need for family and parents#that love him and he can trust#the joker starts to feel like?? hm. words. a cop out? oh haha its that guy that killed him woagh hes here#i bet you dont even know that jaybin got beat until unconsciousness by an angry mob#while asking batman to save him only for batman to have to walk away#anwya. where was i going with this#i think i got off topic#jason todd#dc comics#batman#ADDED AN EDIT. SORRY. this post has been haunting me it keeps me awake. what if people misunderstand#they cant read my tags where i ramble more depth. thisbis the only option#EDIT EDIT: hiii#removed the sentence abt jason having the joker for several days bc i misremembered some things#go read its-your-mind 's addition instead also#ok no more i wont edit this post anymore i promise
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tfw you fall in love with the magicless prefect that keeps running around campus 🤦♀️
#aceyuu#just in case u cant read my shit writing ;#Ace: Y-you! Grim is doing a terrible job at taking care of you while I'm gone! Your hair is a mess... Let me fix it...#Yuu: “Thank you Ace.”#Ace: UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#twisted wonderland#ace trappola#ace trappola x yuu#twst#disney twst#twst ace#nyuudle#oc x canon#twst oc#twst yuu#my art#pupheart#2025#hi i love aceyuu so much i think abt them even tho im not even into twst as much anymore#something abt their dynamic kills me soooo good liikeeee fuckkkww#WHO DOES HE THINK HE ISSS#my yuu is constantly overworked cuz she feels like she needs to compensate. like she doesnt mind being burned out but theres a reason why-#-she always looks a little scrunkly. she has no time for self care she just helps people constantly no matter what#ace doesnt like that
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Cant help but think how Y/N cookie meet pre-corrupt shmilk in the tower of knowledge since yk past, present and future are there.
#I WANNA THINK THIS SHMILK DOESNT KNOW THEY BROKE UP DUE TO HIS CORRUPTION OR SMTH THIS SHMILK IS DURING THEIR GOOD TIMES TOGETHER SO UHHH YA#so he was so confused but happy to see them#BUT IDK?? I FEEL LIKE HE ALSO KNOWS WHAT HAPPENED BETWEEN YOU TWO EVEN THO IN HIS TIME YOURE STILL IN A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM#Idk anymore#to summarize this is “knows theyre doomed by the narrative” x “just wants to be with them”#shadow milk cookie x reader#shadow milk x reader#crk x reader
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its been a while since my last summer mochi 🌺🏖️
#the cat witchs guild#the misc adventures of mochi and lime#tcwg#tmaomal#mochi#art#ocs#original#shy and pouty because coco coerced her into beach time and she cant go swimming#never wears anything so revealing ever#(a treat for lime he he)#i feel like i dont do a lot of solo character art anymore#but i wanted to doodle something tonight...#during the beach ep she stays on the sand under the umbrella the whole time#coco quietly to mochi: look fine you dont have to swim but the whole point is to let lime see you like *~this~*#anyway. lime stays there with her#mochi: if its too hot you should go swimming!! you dont have to keep me company!!#lime: nah im good (id rather die than be away from you wearing that swimsuit)#lime: (the hottest mochi ive ever seen and im gonna waste my time in the water????? hell no)#lime: if youre sweating why dont you uhh......take off the sweater#mochi shy af#its fine if she doesnt. he still has the lower body views
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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..
#xmen#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this#usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends#like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute#but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read#sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah#i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something#like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that#and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary#ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp#a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss#charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers ��#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear#see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book#hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line#anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!
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been thinking about little shadow lately .... i think he would have some of the worst tantrums every now and then
#age regression#fandom regression#sonic agere#fandom agere#babyre#agere#shadow the hedgehog#sfw age regression#sfw agere#he doesnt mean to and feels kind of embarrassed about it about it after hes not feeling little anymore . but hes reassured ^___^#he still has big ( and very bottled up ) feelings ... so its expected some days . and its okay !!!! nothing to feel bad about#todays outburst was a result of getting told to put his toys down and come eat . DID NOT want to obviously#he doesnt need to eat so why should he ??? and he thinks HE should decide when hes done doing something ....#poor thing#i usually hc shadow as a very quiet infant regressor but man..... toddler regressor shadow is soooo soooo good#i just like drawing him crying also:3
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Round one! Closeup shots ✌️
#for someone who doesnt really wear makeup anymore i feel like i did a pretty good job#vash makes me feel so pretty ahahaha#my face#cosplay#trigun#tristamp#trigun vash#trigun cosplay#vash the stampede#trigun stampede
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learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way
#experiencing some BIG FEELINGS OVER THIS REVELATION#listen i have never ever been bothered abt not seeing someone in a while or making time to talk to them bc in my mind its like not thst muc#time has passed. i mean it with every fibre of my being that when im like 'oh its ok even though we havent talked in a while and have our#own things going on it doesnt mean we're not friends anymore since we left things on a good note 8 months ago' i sincerely believe that#and for the longest time i just thought everybody makes peace with it at some point and not automatically assuming the other person doesnt#wanna talk to me anymore or smth. my longest lasting friendships are with ppl who work the same way i just thouhght that was normal#whatever organ everybody has that makes them reach out to their friends and plan hang outs i probably dont have it#i was already hesitant to ask out Alex bc i spend almost every waking hour doing smth that isnt talking to ppl unless they happen to be in#the vicinity. and at first it was bc i planned on making sure i had everything set up so i dont get stressed out and do it one at a time#but then i find out theres a friendship decay mechanic? and after dating and marrying someone you lose -10 friendship points for every#day u dont talk to them?? actually ive probably been losing friendship points this whole time without knowing bc of this?????#and i notice a lot of my own habits are also reflected in how i play bc ive been avoiding getting close to pierre and marnie since its more#of a professional relationship. like i know theyre npcs but im approaching it the way i would in real life its fucking nuts#i think its a little relieving im playing /as/ a character than myself bc as im playing im just making up little interactions in my head#than approaching things the way i would myself so it takes a bit of the stress off trying to put myself in there as a spectator. but well#being in a relationship demands a certain amount of energy even more so when theyre things that already take up energy on its own#like making time to talk to your partner and make sure they know theyre loved. i dont always have energy to put all my mental focus into it#and this is true for real life so im not really bothered by not dating anyone. but when its a game and i want my character to be with someo#and i know its fully optional and i know i could just apply the same logic to this i dont /want/ to. sometimes i want to experience#the same things other people do at least to a certain degree without the same emotional andmental stakes#no offense krobus#yapping#stardew#stardew valley#puppy plays sdv#sdv#this game has me by the ankles man
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The second fic idea is a what-if scenerio where Jimmy dies in the crash due to and altercation with Curly and how Curly would navigate being Captain once he has to notice the little things and how he and Anya's relationship develop as he adopts an identical view point to hers rather than just keeping the peace.
And maybe i will write it but only time will tell tbh but it's stuck in my brain dome for the time being.
#cause even if it got to Curly snapping and killing Jimmy for the sakes of the crew would you not have that guilt in being responsible for#anothers death espcially with all the responsibility on his shoulder and how he realizes he tried to be reponsible for things and made them#worse like the guilt drives Jimmy insane even if he doesnt admit like imagine Curly who would care so much and wonder if it shouldve#been him not to mention Anya being free from Jimmy but still not his actions and having to navigate still being stuck with the pregnancy an#the shallow feeling because relief doesn't mean happiness like i think shed believe shed be happier that Jimmy cant get to her anymore but#what now that their stuck? That the Captain is faltering and they are stranded for like another 6 months? If they even make it that long?#Like he may be gone but all his damage is still there and thr wounds fresh like its such a good concept i just cant divide my attention lik#that as i am still in college and it is sadly midterms#anyway uhhhh I just really want to write a fic where Curly and Anya can have that hard conversation on how he handled Jimmy constructively#and without him looking like undercooked skirt steak like there would be those moments where it lingers between the monotiny of staying#alive but how would they even address it? what comes first the sorry or the list of why he should be? like Curly places a lot of value on#his use to others and its interesing and subtle and its mostly directed between Jimmy who steers it and Anya who rides along with it#like go the thoughts and ideas i have but not the fuckin time!!!!#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#curly#curly mouthwashing#anya mouthwashing#also daisuke and swansea are there but like i still have to think of the reflections they have and how to play with their characters in thi#idea world but yeah I want Curly to make amends and Anya to rediscover her autonomy and living outside that fear.
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do you ever see someone write for a fandom-exclusive trope that you can't find nowhere else with the same energy/worldbuilding (sagau) and they interpret someone so criminally bad (everyone in sagau) that you feel like you should be able to hold them legally accountable in the court of law (this is me shitting on sagau)
#《 bad juju#it gets to a point where i feel bad for a character i hate sometimes. i cant even hate bro in peace this shit is so ooc its#not even my opp anymore?? who are you writing atp#this gets funnier when you all come to realize i genuinely enjoy sagau#but most of the works seem to be CRUEL AND UNUSUAL TORTURE THAT SET OUT TO DO NOTHING BUT CAST EVIL ON MY BLORBO?#zhongli lky gets it the worst. also jean/venti/xiao for some fucking reason? 😭#anyways maybe i should manifest good sagau and not just talk shit.#perhaps judas should be the good he wants to see in the world.#i'll think on it.#sagau#genshin sagau#self-aware genshin alternate universe#genshin impact#im shameless okay. the people can boo me but that doesnt make me wrong.
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Day 2: confession
YAYYY TODDAI YAYYYYYY YAYYYY!
Alright, time to talk about what possessed me to ship them and how I think this confession would play out.
For me, both Mai and Toddy are lonely in their own ways.
Toddy carries the weight of her relationship with Bon—she loved him deeply and genuinely, but it was never reciprocated romantically. Beyond that, she’s his friend, yet she feels out of place among Bon’s other friends, as if he’s almost embarrassed to admit he enjoys her company. She has no deep connections with anyone her age; Bon prefers his “better” friends and even some guy he just met over her. She’s left standing on the outside, alone.
And it’s not like she doesn’t know why. Toddy is blunt to the point of rudeness, struggles with social cues, and lacks tact in conversations. She doesn’t sugarcoat things or bother with fake niceties—either because she doesn’t realize how harsh she sounds or because she refuses to play along with social conventions she sees as meaningless. Some social rules make sense, don't be too loud, don't look sloppy, dont chew with your mouth open. But fakeness? That serves no purpose. In a world that often pushes people like her aside, she holds her ground. She’s independent, skilled, and knowledgeable. Why pretend to like something she doesn’t? Why follow unwritten social rules that seem arbitrary?
Mai, on the other hand, mostly sticks to her family. People don’t really like her, and that’s fine—she doesn’t resent it. She can’t resent much of anything. Her mind is wired for relentless positivity, to the point where she struggles to understand sadness, let alone why some people need to feel it. She’s loud, strange, and exhausting to be around, so most people don’t stick around. They have their real friends, and Mai is just… there.
Like her sibling, Mai believes love is unattainable for her. Not because she’s unworthy, but because she’s missing some fundamental pieces of what makes a person "normal." And that’s okay. She’s just too weird to be loved in that way—it’s not self-deprecation; it’s just a fact. No reason to be sad about it.
Their similarities draw them together. They’re both "too much," both incapable of filtering their words, both struggling with empathy in conventional ways. But instead of clashing, they understand each other. Mai blurts out whatever comes to mind, not to be cruel, but because that’s just how she is. Her response to emotional distress is suffocating positivity because that’s all she knows. Toddy doesn’t bother with fake pleasantries or polite omissions—why would she? To her, honesty is the only thing that matters. The very things that alienate them from others become a shared language between them.
They’d start as friends—close friends—confusing everyone around them. After all, Toddy is someone who is all caught up on looking "good" and "proper", while Mai is the weirdest kid in school. By all logic, their relationship should be antagonistic
But then there’s Mai, showing up at odd hours, pestering Toddy late at night just because she can. Toddy, exasperated, telling her to dress warmer because it’s freezing. Mai ignoring her, dragging her along to one of her favorite spots—a quiet place where the stars shine brighter than anywhere else.
And there, under the vast sky, she confesses. No theatrics, no layers of mystery, no grand gesture. Just simple words, because that’s how Toddy likes things.
And Toddy says yes. Loudly. Immediately. Throwing herself into a hug, because that’s how Mai likes things.
#πa art#fnafhs#our au#fnafhs au#fhs#fnafhs fanart#fhs fanart#toddai#fhs shipping week#toddy fnafhs#mai fnafhs#can i be freed#i feel like toddys face in the second one is sort of off but I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. MY PC BROKE I HAD TO DRAW THIS ON LAPTOP#ANYWAYS YEAH WHATEVER. hope that looks good#hope that looks good or im running into the woods#i never want to draw braids again btw#i dont know what else to say i just love them and i need a lobotomy#the water doesnt look like water “pia just stop draiwng water you never like it” watah
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okay i'm glad to see you bring up the teasing of seungmin bc it was also rubbing me the wrong way but i didn't know if i was just being sensitive or what. obvs we don't know what goes on behind the scenes and obviously they all care about each other and tease each other as friends but when time after time the joke targeted towards seungmin is "we don't like him and he doesn't understand things" it's like. hm. it starts to feel mean spirited!!
sorry for the rant i guess i didn't realize how bad this was annoying me lmao
Yeah, tbf I think it's just one of those things where even if Seungmin is 100% unbothered by it, and the guys dont mean anything by it, its still fine and understandable for people who have ever been on the end of jokes like that- whether in your own friend groups or at school, at work, etc. to not really enjoy it.... So I don't think you're being sensitive! But also I did question even making my post last night for the same reason.
The jokes are also just not funny 90% of the time lately which makes it more egregious bc seeing any joke get beaten into the earth gets old eventually- like they do make jokes at his expense sometimes that /are/ funny, so I'm not saying they cant ever do that, it's just that the minute the jokes arent funny, well then its awkward at best or actively uncomfortable at worst so 🤷♀️
#plus i do just think its the added thing of staff making jokes but like... we dont know the staff?#so a jokey caption once in a while is fine but when its Not once in a while and its the same joke I end up going >:|#but i mean it was like the hyung line essentially making fun of him for only having a small circle of friends and not going out much#in his one kids room#I dont think at all any of them meant anything by it they were just taking a crack BUT you're doing it in front of millions of people#and it was only when jeongin went “Um actually i turn to him more than any of you and he's really reliable and a good friend” to which Han#also agreed and said seungmin's the person he has turned to when he's struggling a lot that they quieted down and like Yk#you can mean nothing by a joke about someone you're close to but at the end of the day if a couple hundred thousand decide to jump on it#i cant imagine it would feel very nice?#also again. its just not funny at this point#same way the im foive thing isnt funny anymore same way jokes about changbins weight or looks weren't funny#ALSO TO GO BACK TO STAFF: be grateful hes trying to make funny little moments bc you mfers are SLACKING#like maybe i'll accept your bitchy jokes about the guys when you guys start coming up with better ideas again#and do a decent photoshoot that doesnt look like it cost 5 dollars#thats a different topic though lol#negativity#< for anyone who wants to avoid 😇#ask
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A new sculpture! Finally... I feel like I never sculpt anymore since I'm always sick or have some 500 other things going on or projects to finish, but I'm trying to schedule time to do it more often this year hopefully..! Just a generic fantasy creature as usual, but did try making the eyes a little more sparkly this time.. hrmm..
#sculpture#fantasy art#fantasy creature#art#elf#lol what are the tags I should use... I still never know.. EVIL social media.. hate the idea of tagging anything ever anyway. but alas..#I also would ideally like to start selling them again and open up custom commmissions and stuff again once I can hopefully get paypal#stuff sorted out. and find like.. a good way to do things.. etc.. I did still want to sell them through auction instead of agonizing#over setting prices being afraid they're either too high or too low. So being able to just be like. Here. this is $50. or more. or less.#negotiate. the worth is whatever you feel like it is so i personally dont have to make that decision. etc. lol... But etsy doesn't let you#do auctions or like pay what you want type stuff so.. then I was thinking ebay? but idk.. ANYWAY.. I want to set things#up so I can sell stuff again hopefully. I still haven't fully recovered from the costs of when I had to take my cat to the vet and put#them down last year and etc. So it'd be good to sell a few things. perhaps.. maychance... perhamble... so on and so forthe... ANYWAY#I was going for whiter more milky sort of hair that blends in closely with the skintone but after the paint dried it seems more yellowy kin#of. which is fine. But just not exacltly like my mind vision lol..#Also it's like... wow... someone with face spots and elf ears and a half open mouth with a gap tooth and wavy hair and kind of downturned#eyes... revolutionary... never been seen before... every sculpture I have ever made surely doesnt look licherally exactly like this... LOL#but maybe it's just a style. so what. People have their motifs lol.. Im just getting back into sculpting. I shall sameface in peace. huzzah#Just like the only thing I ever carve out of avocado pits anymore is eyes. Because that's just whats fun to do. I'm going to accumulate lik#25 similar avocado eyes and have nothing to do with them. I was thinking of stringing some together into a necklace of eyes or something li#like that but.. hrmm... ANYWAY.. Love to do the same things repetitively. :3c
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bugs when you lift up a rock
#snap chats#wait unrelated i dont know what it is but i love typing on this keboard... it feels different from my old one...#its the same company so shrug but anyway JVEALKJ LOOK AT HIM WHY ARE YOU SO SMAAAALLLL#i was doing my nightly ebay browsing and i forgot i had this thing wishlisted until the seller offered a discount#and i just went to look at it and HIGHKEY.. for the price and size of it the detailing is actually pretty good#as if. its still not something i can just buy on a random monday vJLKVJALKJ BUT YK WHAT I MEAN#it doesnt cost an arm !!!! thats new !!!!!#maybe i WILL get this thing one day idk .. i always said if i ever did get a marvel statue itd be that wack cherik one#but that's DUMMY expensive so <3 hm !! i prob wont get this either but its at least closer to the 'maybe' category#not thinking of it anymore. i ate a cookie and now i wanna nap but im not going to cause i have stuff i still gotta do so BYE
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If. if angels can feel flashes of love. Does that mean angel crowley could feel aziraphale's fondness for him?
And more importantly...
Does crowley remember?
#please i am going crazy#the way crowley slithered up beside aziraphale in eden#the way. the way he was looking at him#his eyes almost like “hey it's me. remember? im still me”#and now he doesnt feel aziraphale's love anymore like an angel would. but he feels it like a human would#im not okay#good omens#crowley#aziraphale#ineffable husbands#good omens 2#go2#ramble gamble
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