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kirathegreatfoxandkingofeyeballs · 8 months

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Have you ever been so inspired to make something, but lack the technical skill to make it, or for some reason or another have no way to externally express this like pent up need to make SOMETHING, and it feels like a gazillion thoughts running through your head and you get so restlessly frustrated because you NEED to make something, but for some reason or another, be it personal or technical, you just can’t? And then you end up giving yourself an anxiety attack and heart palpitations and it feels like you’re going to explode?

#i’m trying so hard to get back into drawing guys #but either i’m so uninspired that it feels impossible to even consider making something #or i’m inspired but i don’t trust myself to even be able to create what my brain wants to create in a remotely satisfactory way #i feel like i’m going crazy #and everyone has advice and it helps in concept #but in practice i just feel so fucking stuck #i just want to draw #and fucking enjoy it #for fucks sake #one of the few times i legit feel so frustrated with myself i’m lowkey feeling like #not great ig #to put it in a nice way #i wish drawing didn’t result in me wanting to destroy all my sketchbooks because i hate everything i make #and i’m too ashamed to even show it to anyone #fuck #i don’t normally vent on here #but i feel really alone today because all my friends are busy doing stuff #or they’re not the type of people i feel comfortable venting to #i just feel like i’m suffocating and i can’t make it stop #and i’m so afraid of losing my love of drawing because i’m so fucking stupid about this shit #ugh #kira vents

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foryoupeko · 6 months

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Why is it that whenever ppl write Peko without Fuyuhiko it’s always Fuyuhiko being an apathetic asshole and Peko having an existential crisis for ten pages.

Fanon Peko: What do I do? The Young Master doesn’t need me, and I only know how to be a tool! If only a potential love interest could come and teach me how to be a stereotypical happy teenage girl!

Canon Peko: (Goes to parties, bakes with the girls, goes on walks on the beach, that bitch loves swimming) I hope the Young Master doesn’t stay in his room the whole day

Ppl don’t know how to write Peko without defining her by her trauma / doesn’t think Peko is worth writing unless it’s to fix her, and it really shows.

#danganronpa #Peko pekoyama #normally I vent on Twitter #but I think I vented enough yesterday #so here you go tumblr #don’t get me wrong #I never intend to erase #her trauma but #ppl extragerate it way too much #(gestures to my Twitter thread)#where I really don’t like #the hc that Peko was #beaten everyday #but for some reason #a lot of ppl #treat that as canon

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borderlinereminders · 14 days

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Without fail, every time I post a positive post about it being okay to have feelings (anger, sadness, etc), someone always has to comment “yeah but it doesn’t give you the right to treat people poorly because of them.”

No one said it did. And I understand the sentiment but it just rubs me wrong for some reason and I’m not sure why.

I think that even with good intentions, it just rubs me wrong because I’m a BPD blog so maybe it feels like someone is making an assumption even if they’re not intending to?

I don’t know. I don’t want to add a disclaimer to every one of my posts and I’d like to just post positivity without the negativity added because it’s exhausting to read.

Also don’t get me wrong. People have a right to express opinions. I’m just needing to vent because I’m having feelings about it.

#April vents #you can block that tag btw #I know I wouldn’t normally be upset by this #but I think I’m starting to enter a depressive episode #and everything is so heightened and brutal #also please don’t send me asks telling me to take a break from tumblr #me venting on here doesn’t mean tumblr is bad for me #venting is me coping #overall tumblr is good for me #and I always get a bunch of asks telling me to take a break #and that’s the opposite of what I need tbh #I just need to express my feelings

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enchaentd · 15 days

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#been getting so sad and frustrated about tumblr rp lately but it’s still all i can think about #i love it here i just wish i could Be Normal about it. bc right now i don’t want to be here but at the same time of course i do #negative /#vent /#، ݁ ˖ ୨୧ ଓ ‚ ooc .

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ratcandy · 4 months

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had a really epic cry on a balcony last week and I’ve been longing for that balcony ever since . Was so cathartic I need to go back there

#Never in my life have I felt more at odds with people around me and like I have no idea how to communicate #like a normal human being until this fucking trip #And I don’t know what I’m doing wrong but it just feels like. I am barely passing as a normal Person and people are Noticing #and the Noticing is making them Uneasy and therefore I am excluded from All Things #I need to get Diagnosed . With what I don’t know. But Something. Because something is fucking Wrong here #It’s making me reevaluate my entire everything because I feel so out of place it’s driving me insane #I feel like I’m sticking out like a sore thumb amidst a crowd and it’s doing something awful to me #How do I talk to people how do I exist with other people how do i. Do anything #and why is this only hard Now #I keep clamming up (lol) and going totally silent because I just feel like everything I’m saying is Wrong. Somehow.#But me being silent is also Wrong. And I’m doing something Wrong all the time #Uughhhrhb. This sucks. I need to get out of here. I need to get out of here. I need to get out of here #vent #delete later #clamtalk #Sorry for venting so much recently I am. Going through it rn. I promise I try not to do this often.