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tardis--dreams · 1 year

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Lord give me strength to call this doctor's office tomorrow morning and ask the world stupidest question

#i know it's harmless and they probably deal with Really 'stupid' questions all day long #but i feel bad already for having to ask for their opening hours because there's Very conflicting information about that online #and they don't have a website (of course not)#but my mother had to pick up the report and needs to know when they're even open #it's such an annoying situation #just because that other doctor's office didn't manage to file away the report #because I'm sure they got it but they probably lost it or just threw it away or something #anyway #i need the report for my appt. on friday and i also kinda wanna have it for my own documents #i fucking hate the fact that patients don't get told shit here #like *I* want the report and the results! and i don't want a 'report on the report'#like 'it says you should take this and that now'#No i want fucking numbers/actual results and the exact diagnosis In Written Form #it should be fucking standard that patients get that report automatically #but alas we gotta make it as complicated as possible #i think i lost my point here #but uh #oh yeah #i don't wanna make that phone call #i always feel bad for taking up their time #but what can you do #gotta adult or something #also my mother showed me where that doctor's office is where i have to go on friday (like she drove me there)#and it looked so awfully far away from the train station and i have to walk there and i got scared because i didn't #want to take a whole damn hike there at 8 am #but apparently it's only 1.8km?!#i walk 3.2 km from my drom to the train station in my uni city and it's fine (most of the time)#so I'll probably only take 20 minutes or something so that's nice #(yeah no I'm rambling because i need to get some work done but don't want to lmao)#void screams

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artifeast · 13 days

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bisexual lighting ily

#the kingmaker histories #colette geise #telesphore winterlich #eisen iyer #my art #i didn't put much thought into making the kingmaker Extra Glowy #but ig on second thought it makes it look like colette's about to blow someone up lol #not my best lineart because i'm trying to be more economical with my time (i don't draw very fast and have many ideas i wanna draw) buttt #i wound up redrawing eisen from scratch after fully shading him because i didn’t like how he turned out at first LMAO #[has many art ideas that need drawing] [draws 3/4 view bust facing left x2]#did you know. they're everything to me #getting through hellish insurance phone calls only by thinking about them

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peribytes · 11 months

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THE BITCH IS BACK, BABES !!

#NEVER AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#THE ANIMAL IS OUT OF HIS CAGE. THE ANIMAL IS FREE.#FUCK THAT PLACE. SHITHOLE OF A PLACE #i have a word or two for my doctor and it starts with F and Y #i got no help. zero. whatever they said i have already learned from the internet. lol.#also my anxiety was so bad in there i lost 4 pounds from a poor appetite.#and they gave me fuckin. lithium #my parents were SO MAD when i told them over the phone #anyway #i'm home and i couldn't be happier about it #just the thought of being trapped in that place makes me wanna vom <3 #oh yeah i was put in the detox unit instead of the one for mental disorders or whatever it is #my dad was very mad i was put in with the alcoholics and drug addicts but they were very nice people #i was able to come out of my shell and have conversations with them pretty easily #that is the ONLY positive thing i can say about my entrapment #i missed you guys so much. i really missed my family #god and now they're gonna call me tomorrow morning to talk about whateverthefuck #and i gotta call my doctor in a week #god i don't wanna talk to these people anymore. LEAVE ME ALONE

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canongf · 7 months

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this is how i feel when i'm busy with stuff in real life that i don't want to do and i can't get online to talk with my mutuals about my fictional boyfriend

#i don't WANT to go to work i don't WANT to make phone calls #i wanna be silly with my online friends abt a cute fictional boy #live #self ship #self shipping

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tkbrokkoli · 8 days

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angeltism · 30 days

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i wonder if i still have the screenshots of the character creator outfits

#➳ the fool speaks #calling it ''character creator'' as if im nyat referring to ga.cha cl.ub bc i was a ga.cha kid LMFAO #i have gl + gc + gl2 + a mod on my phone still. it's how i remember like 90% of my older ocs honestly #gl2 actually seems kinda nice for when i don't wanna draw my ocs. it's also where kimberly exists kim ily you are so mentally ill #maybe i should make some sillies in it. might b nice to have a proper n colored sormarbarb reference somewhere #i'm just scared of being called cringe. pensive #yes THAT is what i'm embarrassed about. mhm. that makes sense. mhm. yeah

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britneyshakespeare · 1 month

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around 6 o'clock (east coast u.s. standard time) some guy from fucking australia, with no mutual friends obviously, friend- and message-requested me on facebook saying he hoped i didn't mind the add, but "you came up in my recommended and are the cutest ginger i've ever seen." and it like literally gave me chills because holy hellllll, how the FUCK did this guy find my profile? i have no public posts; i hardly ever comment on public posts; i don't post in large, active groups; etc etc etc etc so it creeped the FUCK out of me. sometimes fb puts ppl w no mutual friends in my "people you may know" but, creepily enough, they often are people i... know, if not have some sort of mutual connection with? like they might be old classmates or friends of friends creating new profiles (so no mutual friends yet), etc. and this is true for ppl who also don't have info on their profile saying they live in/near my hometown, went to my school at some point, etc. like THAT is very creepy how meta somehow knows that. but this guy from australia i am absolutely sure i have no connection to whatsoever. WHY WOULD I???? i have no connection to australia at all other than a couple of mutuals i have on here.

so anyway i took a screenshot of the message and showed it to my friends cuz i was freaking out about it and needed to get that off my chest and one friend was like "why dont you block him" (me reading that 4 hours later) and im like you know what i didnt think it was necessary but not a bad idea. and i go to check the message request and the message was unsent, and he also deleted the friend request. lmaooooo. maybe his girlfriend found his phone

#tales from diana #i dont understand why men w absolutely no acquaintance w a woman whatsoever will message her like hey youre cute #WHY???#and it was very obviously like a real profile. like the cover photo was from 2017 and it was a concert photo #it was not like a bot that somehow knew i had red hair or something.#in fact i just about never get message requests from bots on fb. that's more than i can say for tumblr!#i only interact w ppl i know; like i said; when i see an obvious spam bot on a friend's post or out in the wild i always report it #like my facebook profile is very clean and safe i can't stress this enough. it's responsible. it's HINGED #i am occasionally unhinged on here but on fb i am completely and always fully on the hinges (as far as they know)#wheeeeere. the FUCK. did he FIIIIND MEEEEEE #i also don't usually get messages like that from men i don't know. whether they're complete strangers or like loose acquaintances #we all know the story of woman/femme-presenting person getting a weird message calling us pretty/asking us out or whatever #from a person we don't know. that HAPPENS but it's not like it's a daily occurrence. can't remember the last time that happened to me tbh #makes me wanna jump outta my skin. so fucking weird #btw when i say 'i wonder if his gf found his phone' thats not me saying he has a gf i have no idea #but it's such a sketchy dude thing to do to message someone like that. like what thrill do you get out of sending it 2 ppl u'll never know?#beyond just my own discomfort i do not even remotely understand their side of the exchange. what is ur goal? to... flirt? go away!

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mydr3aminvi0let · 1 month

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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that

#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back #sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with #idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that #community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize #bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought #he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive #i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better #so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH #my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body #believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how #as a woman #can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids #when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me #when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison #in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty #i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing #but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with #reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers #tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like #i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming #you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in #i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement #singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now #there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart

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ranminfan · 2 years

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I think I experienced anxiety recently...

You know that feeling when you're getting worried?

I was about to go to bed last night, then I felt anxious and uneasy, even though there was nothing wrong. My heart started beating fast and I couldn't sit still.

I literally felt my chest beating and it was so uncomfortable, almost painful but not really.

#I think it was from the stress I felt from the start of this term #I can tell I'm tired but I'm pushing myself #I called my mom and told me to try and relax and breathe deeply #she wasn't home but luckily she picked up the phone #She also told me to entertain myself and get my mind off from the stress so I just watch some comedy specials on youtube #It kinda worked but I just went ahead and tired myself to sleep #I did not like that at all #IDK what to think of that experience but I don't wanna feel that again #I'm just gonna try to balance my responsibilities and time for myself this time #text #rmf speaks #Im trying to be optimistic as best as I can #cause i couldn't really do anything but move forward and make my experience as good as possible

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upperranktwo · 1 year

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I think tomorrow I’m going to try and really take care of myself and do something I enjoy. I’ve been incredibly low and I think I really need a self care day! I’m not sure what I’m gonna do but I’m gonna be kind to myself

#have a therapy call at 12pm tomorrow but that is part of the being nice to myself thing I guess #I've not played a viddy game that isn't Genshin in a while it's just that's on my phone so it's easy to use #I think I'll maybe try and play something else #I try and do an act of self care for myself each day but maybe tomorrow a full day of it is needed and to not be so hard on myself #it just feels like I take one step forward and then get pushed back 10 steps but I'm gonna keep fighting <3 #sky rambles #oooo I'll make some gifsets as well <3 #maybe go on a walk to the village and take some photos #or do some dancing I do love that #I'd do a face mask but I did one yesterday and I don't wanna waste everything I've got because I'm poor lol

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tardis--dreams · 5 months

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The amount of energy and motivation my adhd meds give me these days is truly unmatched. Would be great if it lasted longer than 2 hours but i sure write a lot of stuff on my to do list when they kick in

#kill me #i was seriously so dedicated to reply to everyone I've been 'ignoring' for days #to clean my room #to write another cover letter #to finally get some pictures from my phone onto my computer and get some physical copies #to sew a button back on my jacket #and make a doctor's appointment (tomorrow)#well #i had to eat and walk the dogs before all that though #and then i felt like a corpse again #also probably won't call the doctor's office tomorrow then #(the meds are the extended release version and are supposed to work for 6-8 hours #what now #i can't take more #i could try adding the 10mg short acting tablets in the afternoon but i don't really think that'll do much #)#i should have stayed home instead of joining the walk. this way i could have used my energy to clean my room or reply to some people #idk #i hate everything lmao #(they also make me feel more social. i really get the urge to talk a lot and then everything crashes and i just wanna hide in my room again)#void screams

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lesenbyan · 10 months

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I hate how anxious I am any time I'm in any kinda office

#personal;#at the social security office finally #and been shaking since i left the car #not super obviously but def trembling #i don't wanna be here but it makes me less anxious than a phone call esp when i expect i'd still need to come in #i could arguably mail the stuff for disability but

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hua-fei-hua · 1 year

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working with kids every day for 5.75 hrs straight every day is kind of tiring but YESTERDAY we finally got to do what I wanted (prompt the kids into writing stories) and it was so beautiful n glorious in the times when my coworker wasn't, like, obviously dismissing everything

#in order to motivate the kids she decided to make it into a competition but the way they judged it was by having kids vote #'did you like that story' when read out loud to everyone which is not how i would want art to be judged #art's job is not to be LIKED by the MASSES; the job of art is to EXPRESS something to other people!!!!!!!!!#also she was on her phone when reading the kids' stories out n so at one point i just stopped reading a story #hushed the kids n turned to stare at her to call her out bc WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF EXAMPLE ARE YOU SETTING FOR THEM #if what you have to do on your phone is so important please just leave the room! go to the staff room the chairs are much comfier!!!!#the kids don't even think i HAVE a PHONE bc they never get to see it!!!!#anyway i just want these kids to grow up knowledgeable of the world and appreciative of art and kind of heart #(is working with them for four days this week) lol #but a lot of them return over n over again every break so they get familiar w/the workers over time #anyway i'm gonna bring candy to work (if i remember) n give it to the kids whose stories i liked best yesterday #hopefully today we will run out of ideas to do with them again long before free play time bc i wanna propose doing improv w/the kids #we're gonna fuckin 'whose line is it anyway' this shit i hope lmao #花話

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britneyshakespeare · 1 year

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well i didn’t get my paycheck in the mail but i did get a referral notice from my doctor saying that i can expect to see an endocrinologist... in SIX. FUCKING. MONTHS.

#no. fucking. no #i can barely get out of bed on a good day. i've been feeling this way for months.#bloodwork says i HAVE hashimoto's disease. i have a family history of thyroid issues on both sides #i am NOT in acceptable health to be waiting six months. i wanna cry. maybe i will #tales from diana #another fucking phone call i have to make on monday. i still haven't called the other specialist i need to see to make an appointment #the secretary told me they'd take care of this one and schedule it for me #they said it might take until the fall #i can't wait until the fucking winter solstice #i have so much anxiety on top of all of this health shit i have barely been able to think straight this week #everything in my life is falling apart #reducing/managing stress is all they told me i can do for now (until i potentially start a treatment course)#to prevent myself from developing full-blown hypothyroidism #AND LET ME TELL YOU... CIRCUMSTANCES IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE NOT BEEN GREAT FOR THAT #i'm gonna have to drop out of society and be a recluse again at this rate. this is so discouraging #i'm not gonna be able to continue my education or pick up a steady job #luckily being a substitute teacher is super flexible but i wanna fuckin be able to pick up hours at that job #i haven't been able to work more than two fucking days a week since april #i don't leave the house to see ppl anymore bc if i so much as walk in a parking lot im unable to get up for the rest of the day #im PISSED #i do wanna cry #ok bye i can't be ranting like this anymore i wanna cry

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supercantaloupe · 1 year

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christ i'm finally home. thank gd

#sasha speaks #i wanna talk about me #rehearsal in the morning #then i discovered that my phone is. broken. very distressingly so #the back is popping off because the battery is bulging. very Not Good #so i had to make an unplanned visit to the phone store...#spent like thirty very stressful minutes on call with phone insurance to file a claim.#good news is they're sending me a replacement and it'll be here monday #so i don't have to scramble being phoneless for very long. and i'll definitely have it ready for spain next weekend #which is really the important thing...i need my phone to travel sorry #but gd. i'm wiped #i haven't had much to eat today i've just been going nonstop since close to 8 #well i have an iced chai and a pastry now. and i'm chillin.#all my roommates and a bunch of their friends are out at pride rn #it was pretty neat seeing so many people out on the metro and around the city all decked out for pride today tbh #lots of colors and hair/face paint and funky outfits #i would go if i wasn't so tired. and bad with crowds #but. gah. enough excitement for one day i just want to sit in front of a screen for a bit...#shoutout to my 6'1 skinny straight white man roommate tho and his mustache he dyed rainbow for pride tho

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h3xc0de · 1 year

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who up thinking about the time ur "friend" who used you as their personal suicide lifeline during the darkest time of your own fuckin life literally drank bleach while you were on the phone with them actively begging them not to kill themself which you have a flashback to every single time you hear a person coughing 🙋

#sorry LOL i'm gonna make a vent tag if you guys don't want to see posts like this go ahead and block the next tag ->#v #most of these phone calls took place while i was literally in inpatient for my anorexia. suffice to say it did not help my situation! 😊#also i met this person during my first 72hr involuntary hold at a hospital. super fun super cool 👍#i'm not gonna trigger tag posts like this in the future just block the v tag if you don't wanna see them #but i'm gonna put tags on this one since i've never made a post like this here before #just wingin it here bear with me:#suicide mention #tw sui vent #tw vent #cw sui mention #cw vent #sui mention #vent #cw self harm #tw self harm #self harm mention #sh mention #sh ment tw #tw sh #cw sh #hopefully that covers it very sorry if i didn't include any of the tags you have blocked for these kinds of posts #again block the v tag if you need to. love you guys

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