#i don't want to cry anymore

[gatrii]

okay cool I get that this painful experience was for character development, I developed, so when does it stop hurting?

[bitchofdarkness]

I hate how fandom has become "if you haven't created anything in this very specific time frame after the release of the show/movie, everyone will have moved on"

And call me old fashioned, but that's just not me. I sometimes take ages to create and publish. And I will love a show or movie for such a long time (years, babes, years) that I just can't relate to the fast consumerism that's going on.

Because, let's be real, it can get really lonely in a fandom if most have simply moved on to the next shiny thing. Is what's created less worth, just because it was created outside the hype? Why is it such a taboo for this new fandom generation to love an old or "late" fic or art?

It's so tiring and I'm too old for the 30-seconds-hype-tiktok-shit. Just tired. So, so tired.

[itmightneverbetherighttime]

...

[lazylittledragon]

i keep trying to think of funny/poetic ways to talk about all the things i'm feeling right now but i honestly can't so. i'm really sad about what happened with my partner. i know he was an inconsiderate prick about it and that i didn't do anything wrong and i couldn't have prevented it but i'm just really fucking sad.

[thekittyokat]

you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah

[shima-draws]

Worst feeling ever is when you go to reread a fic you really like and find out it's been deleted. Even WORSE worst feeling ever is checking the author's profile and finding out they've deleted all of their fics entirely

[skylie-spiderlillis]

"Me? Oh yeah I'm lesbian I'm sure of that-"

* Jayden Revri as Charles Rowland comes in to my life *

...... Guess I'm bi spec.

(Fuck you Charles Rowland. Thanks for that mess again).

[talesoftheesun]

I refuse to acknowledge anything that happened in this volume. none of this happened. must've just been a heat induced fever dream. nope. no way.

[cerise-on-top]

Cried on the train today, then thought of this! This is just me coping to the highest degree again, but I thought other people might like this as well!

Nikolai as a Father

First off, he’d likely be absent rather often. He was a soldier, he runs a PMC, he’s a busy man through and through. That’s why he won’t be able to see you as often as he’d like. He’d have loved to see all your accomplishments, meeting your first partner and intimidating them, your graduation, the first time you performed on stage, but it wasn’t possible due to work. He does feel bad about it, but he can’t help it. He will try to make it up to you somehow, though he’d understand if you couldn’t forgive him. He does try to be there for you whenever he can, visiting you whenever possible, but you will be apart from each other more often than not. However, if you ever have any suggestions regarding what you’d like to do together, he’s all ears. He has enough money to grant you any wish like that. You wanna go to Japan? You want a boat trip? You wanna go karaoke? It’s all possible, as long as he gets to experience those things with you. He really does wanna make up for the lost time.

He’s a pretty relaxed kind of father. The kind that would allow you a sip of beer when you were young. He’d have no problems with you drinking, as long as it doesn’t get out of hand. You should be responsible about that sort of thing. But if you ever wanted to invite a friend over to drink a bit, then he’d have no problem with getting the booze for you. Nothing too strong while you’re still young, of course, but he gets it. You’re young, you want to be stupid and do foolish things. He was like that too when he was younger, so he won’t stop you. In fact, he’ll even drive to the nearest fast food restaurant and get you and your friend something to eat. Sometimes he might cook himself, though. Nikolai’s food is downright godly, he can cook just about anything and cook it well too. As long as you don’t invite a friend over to get blackout drunk every weekend, all is good.

I think he’d probably lie to you about his job when you’re younger. You don’t need to know that he kills people for a living. You can know that he does paperwork, though. So he’d likely tell you he works an office job that has him traveling a lot. Speaking of traveling, he’ll always bring you a souvenir. That could range from a small snow globe to a nice T-shirt he found that you might like. He may be busy, but he does think about you very often. This continues into adulthood as well. If he can’t see you and give it to you in person then he’ll just mail it to you. Won’t ever allow you to work in the same field he does, though. You’re too sweet to work as a mercenary. You can become anything you want to be, but he’ll do what he can to not have you work in the military or in a PMC. He wants you to live and live well. There are no exceptions to this. He knows you might not listen to him, but he’ll tell you over and over again that those kinds of jobs are not what you might think they are. He doesn’t tell you what to do very often, but you should listen to him when he does. He’s an older man, who actually knows what he’s talking about. Besides, he only means well when it comes to you.

A very accepting father, in all honesty. You’re gay? You’re trans? He’s very supportive of you. Besides, it doesn’t matter who you bring home, he’s gonna try to intimidate them either way. Only the best of the best for you. If you ever find yourself some sleazebag, who won’t spoil you rotten like you deserve, then he’ll make sure that person will learn their lesson. He can be a very scary man when he wants to be. If you’re transmasc, then he’d delight in going clothes shopping with you and finding something that you look good in and that fits. He might even buy you a bomber jacket like he has so you can match. He’ll get you the fanciest suits too. Whatever you need, he’ll give it to you. If you’re transfem then he might not be the best suited candidate to go shopping with you. He can tell you what you look good in, but he might call someone like Laswell to help you find nice clothes that suit you well. However, he won’t save any money on anything. You know what you want? You can gladly have it. Nikolai will even pay for your surgeries as well. As long as you’re happy, he’s happy. No price is too high when it comes to your happiness. In fact, he probably has the means to get you a prescription for hormones as well. It might not be entirely legal, but it’s better than nothing if you have shitty doctors.

Likewise, if you come out to him as aromantic or asexual, he won’t mind. Sure, you might have to explain what that means, but once he understands he won’t make you feel bad for that sort of thing. Gives you a side hug and tells you that he’s glad he doesn’t have to worry about your heart being broken by some asshole who can’t appreciate you for who you are. Unfortunately, if you do come out to him as ace, he might make some puns about it. Nothing offensive, but he’s your father, he can’t help the urge to make awful dad jokes from time to time.

If you don’t know Russian then he’ll teach you. He’s a proud Russian, so he does want you to know the language. He can hire a teacher for you too, if you’d prefer that, but you won’t be spared. He’ll talk to you in Russian and compliment you on your progress. Besides, it’s never a mistake to know another language. If you do know Russian then he’ll speak it with you whenever he can. Yes, even when the likes of Price are around. Doesn’t matter if it comes off as rude, it just feels homey to him. It makes him feel at ease.

[imaginarycircus]

Mr. Bertram Wilberforce Wooster sends his fond regards.

[pardonmydelays]

i have a confession to make: i'm actually doing better than i ever was

[skunkes]

if life is categorized by Before Loss and After Loss then I exist in the before but with a countdown to the after. and the countdown is always always present and debilitating. the loss will be debilitating too but i cant help myself. i will always suffer twice.

[a-s-levynn]

(source)

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

questioning sexuality is so exhausting

[keeperesque]

hello rise community, how do we feel about those lost turtle sisters, huh?

me and my friend @nokmietarchive may have spent like every other moment since the twitter q&a thinking about these two so i have decided to post some art for once, please enjoy :)!

Frida

Frida is of course Big Mama's assistant, an overly serious girl and the oldest turtle (though Raph is still the biggest lol). Hyper-competent with a lot of unresolved trauma regarding her relationship with her mother, she struggles to express her emotions in a healthy way well after leaving behind her white mask and black cloak. She was extremely reluctant to join the Mad Dogs after witnessing Leo's unserious behaviour, and struggles to connect with the boys.

Frida is skilled in many forms of armed and unarmed combat, and wields a Naginata. She's a sea turtle, her colour is ooze green, and her shape is diamonds! She has little diamond-shaped orangey scales beneath her mask.

Misc fun facts!:

We purposefully made Frida's face shape similar to that of BMA's mask, and her mask tails are similar to the shape of BMA's hood

She does not immediately move in with the Mad Dogs, who are all too loud and rowdy for her only-child-until-recently self

She and Georgia share a special, "messed up childhood" sort of bond that only two screwed up sisters can understand

She does still wear the pauldron from her BMA days, but I didn't want to draw them, lol, sorry...

Raph respects her, and is also a little scared of her

Leo is her least favourite brother

Georgia

Georgia, affectionately nicknamed Georgie by her brothers, is the littlest of the turtle siblings (though no one knows if she's any younger than Mikey). She spent her formative years trapped in an alternate dimension, surviving alone on a Kraang planet. Thankfully, her infancy with Baron Draxum prepared her to survive even the harshest environments! Unfortunately, her survival didn't come without some small sacrifices...

Georgie is a scrappy survivalist - wielding twin Kama, she's opportunistic and unpredictable in a fight, and has perfected the ninja art of disappearing. She's a diamondback terrapin, her colour is Kraang-blood magenta, and her shape is droplets! She has three white spots on either side of her eyes, and swirl patterns on her carapace.

Misc fun facts!:

She will chew on anything if given the opportunity, including her own hands and plastron.

She has a Donnietech Hypoallergenic Antibacterial Complex Polymer G-Grade Plastrochew Plate (Silentchew™ edition) that was developed specially for her.

Her favourite food of all time is anything leafy and/or green - cabbage, lettuce, whatever. Just whole heads of the stuff.

Having her and Draxum in the same room is detrimental to his health. She's fine though.

She is very easily overstimulated and overwhelmed by large crowds and the bustle of the city.

Kraang arm

[a-suspicious-duck]

Walk the Path. Read the stones laid upon it to learn of my message and my love. And in this way, we will be united. Yours faithfully, Joseph