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my lover ran me a bath recently. they sat by the tub, did my hair, and watched tv with me while i relaxed. then when we got out, they rubbed moisturizer on my entire body. im not much of a believer in higher powers, but if i were, i'd think maybe whatever's in charge is pleased with me, and that the heaven so many pine for after life was in the bathroom of my apartment this whole time.
#tine.txt#t4t mlm#they joined in the bath#i poured water on their back and i told them how beautiful i thought they were#i could watch them shut their eyes in quiet contentment for years straight#i dont know about past lives and such#but if thats the way of the world and its souls then i must have left 1000 kisses on the spot of their tummy with a heart shaped birthmark#even more kisses in their dimples#every freckle
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me watching LOTR the rings of power for the plot :
the plot :
morals be damned i am supporting his rights and his wrongs
#charlie vickers#halbrand#the rings of power#haladriel#yes another obsession my friends!#screaming crying throwing up#hear me out guys…#HE JUST WANTED TO BE LOVED!!!#HE WANTED TO FORGET HIS PAST EVIL-DOING AND LIVE THE REST OF HIS LIFE IN PEACE#HE LOVES GLADRIEL AND SHE LOVES HIM OKAY! HE WANTED TO MAKE TWO RINGS TO PROPOSE TO HER AHHHHHHHHH#SHE ACTUALLY MADE HIM BELIEVE HE CAN TAKE OVER THE WORLD AGAIN SHE GAVE HIM THE CONFIDENCE LMAO IF THAT ISNT (LOVE) I DONT KNOW WHAT IS#like someone said on twitter… it’s about making each other worse. love and devotion turning into corruption#is that my takeaway? yes YES IT IS#he so handsome and TALL#how can they make us hate villains when they make them this hot sexy and angsty ahhhhhh#morals be dammed i am rooting for sauron/halbrand#lotr the rings of power#the rings of power spoilers#3rd gif… rewatched that part countless of times. IT WAS SO HOT *faints*#my gifs
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#i dont know about you but this has been me the past two months#yikes#Facebook#FB#lol#meme#living#relatable#life#funny
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i wanna try to do a bit of oc art this october, using @oc-tober2023's prompt list! the first prompt is Home. So the town they live in is made up of three valleys, the first one is where most of the actual town is and where most of them live, the second valley is mostly uninhabited marshland and a lake and then the third one is farmland, and that's where Lucky & Maurice grow up.
I'm not sure how much i'll do for this cause i still wanna do fanart mostly, but i'll try to do sketches like these whenever i feel like it :] just to get a bit of inspiration going
#im somewhat making this up as i go btw. just so you know#theres also the older version where they all live in a huge steel tower in the middle of the ocean and thats also somewhat canon i think#dont worry about it#oc art#oc-tober2023#also very embarrassing to admit this but man i didnt think drawing a landscape without a minecraft reference would be so difficult#i think ive gotten better at landscapes over the past year but well thats mostly due to minecraft who woulda thought
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honestly wally is stronger than atlas. if i had to constantly calibrate to the nature of my reality w/ full consciousness i would simply lose my fucking mind
#like babies dont Think while they learn how to exist#imagine straight up spawning fully aware and then everyone else is up to speed but youre standing there like#🧍♂️uh. hello. what is everything. what is this. huh????#LIKE???? i feel so bad for him. dude got dropped right into the middle of the ocean and was told 'learn to swim'#and hes trying. but he doesnt know what drowning is so he cant sink either#i mean i get it at least a little bit! its the Autism Experience but w/ him the dial is cranked up to a thousand#you dont know what you dont know but life goes on like you should. fuck#wally i am mentally beaming you a thousand apples grown in the shape of hearts#i believe in you dude you'll figure it out#well. im probably beaming apples into the past if the time discrepancy is real but yk yk#cause if it is then Current Wally probably has a solid handle on things. from a basic standpoint#in a wider lens i am led to believe that he is Scrabbling#is this speculation???#i think it counts.#wh speculation#homebogging#whenever i think about the tidbits we know - ex: wally learning about differences in size#internally i start howling. wally is just constantly dealing with things that would drive a person insane if they had to live it#how is he not Exhausted... it's all so much for someone who knows whats going on let alone someone scrambling to catch up#at least the other neighbors dont have to deal with memorizing physics and skills and behavior#and just Literally Everything That Comes With Being Alive#wally is a blank slate left to write itself.#ough. damn. fuck. i think i need to go stare into the woods for a bit...
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procrastination is starting to have its consequences finally
#on my friends living room floor they love together but one of them has been london for weeks or maybe months#to be with her love. im on a foam mattress from one of their beds next to a glass bottle of water opened by one of them#in a mug given to me by another. the weather felt like my childhood today and it also felt like 2 years ago.#(put space in the heavens Einstein's idea and hes your friend too so nothing to fear) around the table they drank and laughed and i thought#i hope you keep growing so full with the love you receive . i hope your appetite becomes insatiable from how used to it you are#and i know youre all leaving soon but i hope one day you miss this and that youll be happy you miss it#its worth missing i think#i thought he didnt care but he said after exams hes going walk around this area over and over#(this is near where he lived and where we visited almost daily for a year)#(hed come across the bridge on a lake)#we went where she used to live and at the entrance a fox sat calmly. it just yawned and stared.#it felt important somehow. i think maybe their impressions of me will never be close to how i feel inside but i think#i love them enough for that not to matter. i dont think theyll ever know this. i dont think if they did it would change much.#and seeing them smile makes my heart glow anyway. today i tried their malaysian tea the ginger burned my throat#they warmed my heart. hes going to canada soon and hes going to the US soon and shes going everywhere soon ill never understand#how were supposed to live with memories and with seperation and with the past but we do it anyway so i think it doesnt matter much#i wanted to write a poem for the lab rats with the fibre optic wires lit with blue forcing them to turn around and around#something about how im sorry that the two photon arrays burned the inside of your brain. im sorry about the sharp points of multielectrode#arrayes. im sorry about everything we do to you. she asked to see me tomorrow. im trying to have self control but i miss her so awfully#last night my friend talked to me and i updated on everything that happened with love and the lack of it and she just started laughing#and she told me about the same thing from her side. and she told me about how she loved london because she would walk the streets#and she felt like the people were her. and her eyes would go over the people and the bag of bagels and the construction men they probably#have a kid at home maybe shes a daughter. this kid is crying for her mother and the building you just walked past caused#blisters and pain and people died in it and very likely people were born in it. we talked for hours and i felt like#i was holding her hand just like that time she held mine watching a horror film. i love her so much#my friend is a genius and i remember her picking up the charms of my phone and staring at the leaf hanging from them. shes side stepping to#music drinking dangerous cider and cocktails from a movie and chit chatting with billionaires and undergrads#i love her dearly. his head covered in electrodes. she tells me about a syrian guy shes in love with and she says#what you feel and what i feel is like cocaine. ive tried a lot of fucking cocaine.#she says ive reminded her of what living actually feels like and to never put energy into someone who doesnt see me this way.
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So I think I'm over my Obey Me Phase or like at least over Nightbringer because it's Season was shit but just you know food for thought...
Aint it funny how MC is now completely isolated from other humans/their friends/family/pets?
Like my friend and I were talking about it and like imagine MC has HUMAN/MORTAL family and friends that they talk to every time they were separated from the brothers. Like whenever the Immortals really tries them or pushes them they can go to their human friends for like a palate cleanser and a clear head/remind themselves and ground them to the reality of their situation/support from NOT blind lemmings. Like sort of remind them that they're still human and not on the same playing field as immortal Demons/Angels/Sorcerers
But now in Nightbringer that's literally stripped from them; MC has NO ONE outside of the Brothers/Immortals they're literally FORCED to bond with their circle of dysfunctionals and its like now you are stuck in that toxic friend circle because literally your circle of support hasn't been born/exist yet. That's fucking horrific.
No wonder MC is far more clingy and annoying in Nightbringer than they are in OG; Every lesson is a chip away at their original personality and sanity to replace it to the codependent creep MC is now lol.
#obey me nightbringer#obey me#obey me MC#obey me nightbringer MC#MC is so fucking annoying this is the only headcanon i can work with#No but like its so creepy because i always imagined MC balanced their human life and their Devildom life to stay rational but now#Well now with no circle of human/mortal supporters like their friends and family theyre literally forced to cling to the brothers#Its so terrifying about Nightbringer thats why Im still so upset we're stuck in the Past#Its shit like this that makes me unable to enjoy Time Travel Shit like I want to go for Boba with my friends but I cant do that#No i cant do that because I got a toxic friend group to babysit#No but like MC seems more stupid and clingy so my guess is theyre mentally unraveling to the point they just dont want to be alone#Like begging for validation and attention from anyone especially the immortals#Pray for MC theyre going into their codependent phase now#Don't worry; just like with real friends theyre not gonna break out of this for years until they get the courage#Which we all know MC doesnt have the balls to drop the brothers/Immortals like bad habits lol#Ima play with this headcanon until MC stops sucking or we go back to the future.#I miss MC's family and friends who have to live with the fact the immortals took them from them again
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cumbersome and heavy body
#warp darkmatter#buzz lightyear of star command#hi everyone can we talk about warp ive been dying to talk about warp#like... thinking about how hes canonically disabled. he is missing a hand!!! that is so important to me and i think about it a lot#yes hes all that primadonna girl bubblegum bitch electra heart etc . but also he is an amputee! and that makes him so interesting to me..#i love to think about how a guy like warp deals with the missing of a hand both in the lost-it-during-tab and lost-it-in-the-past scenarios#like how much time it took him to adjust or how he went through physiotherapy with gritted teeth. THINK ABOUT IT!#he loves to put up fronts and be that suave arrogant kinda guy but also has chronic pain and takes off his stupid hand first chance he gets#so its interesting to consider eg how much itd take him to admit that his bitchin hand is also stupid and heavy and he gets tired...#not to romanticise disability btw it just gives him delicious dimension and . you know!!!!#i wish it was explored more in the fandom lol i know it gets swept under the rug bc of scifi perfect bionic cyborg limbs fantasy#but i want more content of warp sans his hand... just doing mundane shit... living his life... representation..!#and not like 'warp lives and sleeps with his prostetic and it feels natural to him ^_^' dont erase his disability!!!!!!!#drawpost#origpost#also his suit is fucked in this art LOL my pipeline for this piece was horrid. dont ask me about my layers im deeply ashamed.
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oh what are your top fave manwhas may i aks ?
ahh yess !! im very much obsessed with Taming the Tiger & wet sand!! I've read a lot but these to are def my favs right now ;w;;
#18+ ofc lol#pizza delivery man and gold palace is also nicee#the art stlye in booth of them is just mmmhMMMMHHHH chef kiss and the main leads in taming the tiger are so in love and i am so in love w#with them#they deserve to live happy forever#i dont wanna get started with wet sand i am literally obsessed with the art style and the 18+ scenes are the sexies i've ever seen#....it is a lop#ve triangle sadly ..kinda jkshdasj#and as cute as jo is ian and ty are just way more interesting i need to know more about their past#uhggg angst#MIND U I JUST GOT INTO THESE THE LAST TWOO WEEKS#manwha recommendations
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what she doesn't know can't hurt her (and there's no point in telling)
#ooc#art#seam#queen#seamqueen#deltarune#i really speedran being insane over them. theyve been living in my mind these past few days#anyways ive been thinking about how seam knows about other save files. and while i dont think queen knows about the neo body in full.#she DEFINITELY doesn't know about snowgrave in a normal route#but you know who does? seam. and you know who's so dang nihilistic that they wouldn't do a thing about it? also seam.#either way the world's ended! either way it's all the same! god. GOD.
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i like the name "supernova" for adult kon for a lot of reasons (stellar metaphors and imagery are just so good) but one of the chief ones is... something something the violently bright, explosive death of a star. the intent to die brilliantly. to go out with a bang. to never go gentle into that good night. ough kon you have issues <3
#i do believe he gets better about his issues with time dont get me wrong but i Don't believe he ever fully moves past his existential#well. his existential everything? crises. issues. problems. etc#its not the Same as his suicidality as a kid by any means#but. like. theres. god i am too tired to articulate it right hmmm#he's a lot more well-adjusted by the time he takes on a new name and all#but he still struggles to conceptualize of himself in certain ways#one of those being ''allowed to live (and eventually die) in peace''#god. i have to come back to this when im not deep deep deep in postdrome headfog#i Know i'm not making sense and i'm not saying what im trying to say. bleughhh.#rimi talks#kon
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sorry to be a bit of a hater but i do wish youtubers weren't so scared of making their videos just like, "reviews", whys everything gotta be a "video essay" all the time. every day my recommendations are filled with 40 minute videos titled "_____: An Underrated Masterpiece" where the first like five minutes are reading the wikipedia definition of "masterpiece" in a somber voice with dramatic themed text on screen. please just tell me how good or bad you think something is and use the rest of the runtime to explain why. you dont need to put on all these airs
#i know the ahem. channel. of some awe....... that whole situation kind of scared people off from using the word review#but like we live in the future now. you can make a review. i believe in you#AND LIKE i like a good video essay!! but im picky. because i read academic shit for fun#when i see a capital E essay im expecting theses. im expecting sub headers. im expecting multiple examples AND footnotes with asides#(and i know this is a controversial topic but i do expect them to be long. because if you read aloud a 4 page journal article its gonna)#(take a bit of time LOL maybe i just read too much academia shit. but i dunno man. theres not a lot you can say about like a big huge)#(topic with multiple angles if you only have like 10 minutes. maybe i just talk too slow. i need to breath <3 )#theres other formats too. surveys. retrospectives. informative essays. persuasive essays. etc#and like i also read lots of reviews not just of like movies and books but of like gallery exhibitions and shit!! they can be extremely#interesting a lot of work and some really beautiful writing!! nothing wrong with a review!!! theyre important#but i do get annoyed with like. the odd air of pretention i see in a lot of video essays. especially cause its usually not backed up by#the content. i dont care for those airs in academia either. nor do i like it in documentaries#just talk naturally. you'll find your voice. there might be pretention in it in the end but it'll be yours#if im making sense. i hear a lot of people talking in a pretention that is not their own. something they put on because thats what they#think they should do. you need to find your own pretention. be pretentious in a way that feels natural to youuuuuu#hell im being pretentious. about this LOL but like its my own. it is a pretentiousness ive built over the past half decade#play around. write a blog. i dunno. find your voice dear youtubers. find your voice
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN 😭😭😭😭😭😭#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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now i'm curious about swagtre begin parents, like adopting a kid, taking care of them, raising them, idk i think that's cute
uhhh i don't really have more thoughts on it tbh O_O sorryyy
#asks#Anonymous#i HAVE DONE#the parental oc thing#and ive even done it with entre in a different au with a different oc#but it's not something that comes natural for me#bc 1. im picky as Hayl it has to be done a certain way and for me the characters have to be a certain way and in a certain place in their#lives and 2. ive only RECENTLY in the past few years even gave a second glance at the idea bc ive never been that guy bc personally i have#negative interest in having kids thats just not for me#so yeah UHHHH i dont know? i just like my meme answer tbh#i know entre would want to do better for any child or teen or whatever under his care than his mom did for him#and thats about it. what comes after that is ...??????? depends i guess#i honestly dont think id trust truffula flu entre with a kid. not bc he'd do anything nefarious but just like#look at the guy#he cant even raise himself
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the fact that the us government can continue funding and arming a genocide despite massive public opposition really highlights how inherently non-democratic the united states is
#almost like the idea of a representative demcracy is both historically undemocratic and inherently is incapable of being so#by historically i mean that representative democracies have always meant the creation of a category of ‘citizen’ that is above ‘non-citizen#even the civilization where the term democracy comes from was patriarchal and had fucking slavery#not chattel slavery but (hot take) non chattel slavery is still bad.#also fundamentally one person can literally not represent the wishes of a large collection of people who have only geography in common.#theyre going to want different things!!!#now the idea of if democracy is inherently a virtue is like. another topic. but i will say that like seeing the history of like the#popular sovreignty movement wrt to slavery really made me question it. just because a lot of people want something to happen doesnt#actually mean it should happen. white people voted to legalize slavery#kind of where the old ‘minority’ terminology comes in. just by numbers alone in the states that had these votes it wasnt like in the south#where in the south because of plantations the actual population majority in some places was black.#but in those midwestern new states even if everyone person there could have voted. white people would still be the vasy majority.#honestly to a degree pointing out that none of the societies that have claimed to be democracies have truly been democratic is…#i guess the primary value in it is to challenge people who take state mythologies at face level#a very large population that i often forget exists.#the ‘they cant do that its illegal’ types.#anyways. if we consider that every society in documented history has had some type of violence and oppression#and if we believe that people are NOT inherently selfish/violent#it follows that what we need to do is something different than what we have been doing.#not just different from what we are doing right now. but different from what we have been doing for the past centuries#but also i can imagine that societies and ways of living that aren’t legible to the status quo or just went undocumented for other reasons#may have been more egalitarian. and we dont know due to erasure (either intentional or non-intentional)#both erasure and a fundamental inability of historians to comprehend it. similar to how cishet historians who cant fathom the idea of#transness or lesbianism talk about things.
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Sooooooo, I'm trying to gather my thoughts on some kind of idea within either a soulmate or reincarnation au sort of deal with Ed and Al????
Give it some thought 🤔
#fma#fullmetal alchemist#edward elric#alphonse elric#my fanfic#soulmate au#reincarnation au#amnesia????#im trying to work things out in my head#the basic thought i have going into this is this:#theyre either reincarnated or something whatever i dont know#edward remembers him and everything about him and their memories and about their past lives#but alphonse doesnt for some reason#may lead into something more about figuring out why????#mystery genre???
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