#i dont think ill be able to do it ... so tragic....

[xxplastic-cubexx]

They finally did it everybody they said the thing!!!!!!!

"How much do you love Charles Xavier?"

"HOW DARE YOU ASK ME SUCH A QUESTION???!!!??!!?!!??!!??!!!"

HE SAID THE THING !!!!!!!!!!

[red-dyed-sarumane]

what are some cool games u have played? dont matter if u mentioned before. tell me again tell me again :D

uhh hmm.

well okami is my all time favorite the art & the music & the message/story are all just incredible theres not a single time ive finished it i havent cried. i absolutely adore ryoshima coast ive spent so many hours just running around there to listen to music. which fun fact for u i only know about this game bc in about 6th grade i picked up okamiden bc i thought the little doggy was cute & was like fine i'll play as this boy if i get a cool dog and u cannot imagine how excited i was to find out u DID play as the little dog. i was SOOOOO obsessed literally my exact thoughts were 'if issun is ammy's celestial envoy then i am going to be chibis' i have a metric fuck ton of fan art i did at the time bc i thought it was quote "the epic-est game for ds ever" also cried every time i finished it. i was 13 so i didnt know what "being down bad" was but do know i was as obsessed with kurow as i was with d-ne later and now tenshi not a single irl friend was unaware i was in love with him. also fun fact for u bc at the same time i was also getting super into vocaloid i was so convinced my vocap name would end up as chibiP to the point i named myself that in pkmn x chibiP after chibiterasu of course. please enjoy my banger old art which is not even a fraction of my output

yume nikki is my next favorite game specifically the og that changed my brain chemistry as a kid. i adore that game so much its hard to put it into words. its just so unlike anything else. there is absolutely nothing in the game that can directly harm u theres no real health meter theres no way to die during the main play the absolute worst that will ever happen is u get stuck or woken up. in a horror game. which is already just amazing. and the whole horror aspect just plays on something i dont think is often done as well in many other things. ur alone. u wander and wander thru worlds that loop and connect and seemingly have nothing to do with each other. theres no dialogue; talking to npcs just gets u a noise or animation at best. ur entirely alone with just urself. its all dreams so u know everything is of madotsuki's own creation, another layer to the all u have is urself feeling. the art is just unusual i cant even say any of it on its own is in anyway scary. the whole thing shouldnt be scary and yet every time i start wandering in a world i cant help but feel unease. amazing 10/10 no other game will ever have what this gave me.

everyone knows i play pkmn the best is still pmd sky that also rewired my brain i still cant play it without crying.

its been a long time since i was really just playing it as the chapters released & got translated but 1bitheart is so so so important to me too. i dont kin for multiple reasons but if i did nanashi would be my first choice. like- without saying that to her i got my one irl friend to play once & when she saw how nanashi was she turned to me and went "this is just you" hes very important to me even now. absolutely loved the whole friendship sim & the story & its twists & the endings & their implications left me in shambles at 1 am on a school night. my fave charas are nanashi enri & saaya btw. i should replay this.

i also love the etrian odyssey series i love the character portraits (esp with the more recent games' color customization) i LOVE the dungeon art & i think all the monster designs are so cool. adore the whole make ur own map aspect keeps me so entertained to take a step & look around & chart all the walls & path ways. unfortunately i fucking suck at every single one i am not very good at strategy games so i end up stuck at or before the 3rd stratum. but thats okay its still fun to me.

the other one i'll talk about at length is spirit of the north another game i loved the art of. u play as a fox & get a partner spirit fox & i just love it SOOOO much. its also a game with 0 dialogue but theres A Lot going on it if u care to follow along & explore & dig into details & the game play is also pretty fun to me. this is the one game i started learning the speedrun btw thats also a very fun way to play it but ABSOLUTELY play it as intended first it has so much to offer

aaaand special mentions to omori, oneshot, witch's house, mermaid swamp, corpse party, & limbus company

[lynnthefrenchtoast]

The Tragedy of Qijiu; Analysis

aka: reason why Yue Qingyuan and Shen Jiu make me ugly sob

1. the things left unsaid

the most poignant part of the novel for this ship is this line: "Too late. It was already too late! Shen Jiu was no longer here. He would never again be able to hear Yue Qingyuan’s words, never ever.”

and again, in the character notes: "He (sy) is no longer the intended recipient of this favor. Yue Qingyuan will have to find his own closure, as the person he looks for behind the new Shen Qingqiu’s eyes will no longer return.”

READ THAT SHIT. READ IT. ISNT IT TRAGIC???

ygy and sj spent their whole lives since they were little kids with unspoken words between them, longing glances, misunderstandings and hidden affections. you know who else does that? THE MAIN COUPLE OF SCUMS VILLAIN: luo binghe and shen yuan.


EXCEPT

we get to watch them fix their misunderstanding. we get to watch binghe realize he was never hated for his heritage. we get to watch shen yuan realize he is saved from retribution for sins he never committed. this is a privilege qijiu never gets.

the worst part? they almost get it.

because yue qingyuan does, in (what he believes are) his final moments, try to communicate. it's the beautiful cliche "im dying so ill tell you everything" except its not beautiful because the person he needs to tell is GONE. he was gone the whole time and YUE QINGYUAN DOESNT EVEN KNOW:

2. YUE QINGYUAN'S SOULMATE IS DEAD AND HE DOESNT KNOW

is that not like INSANE???

like yeah, the person you love dying is tragic. but its even more tragic that they were so distant he cannot even tell shen jiu and shen yuan apart. he will never know his beloved is gone from the world; he is not even awarded the privilege to mourn

and he can NEVER know. sy is literally prohibited by the system from telling him. so happens is:

3. YUE QINGYUAN MUST FALSELY BELIEVE HIS SOULMATE REJECTED HIM FOR ANOTHER GUY

+

4. yue qingyuan fails shen jiu at each and every opportunity

can you IMAGINE? he got into cultivation to save his xiao jiu from the qiu manor. he failed. he became the leader of the sect to be a man shen jiu could one day respect. shen never respects him (even shen yuan canonically is like "dude wtf? this is the sect leader; shen jiu treats him so disrespectfullt?") . yue qingyuan tries to protect shen jiu from luo binghe - fails. tried to save him after receiving his two legs in the mail but failed and died trying. tries to save shen yuan - shows up too late and shen yuan gets poisoned without a cure. tries to take on debt for shen yuan - shen yuan wins the spirit stones. tries to fight mobei jun - fails and shen jiu falls into depression because he lost binghe due to his failure. tried to lock up a heavenly demon - succeeded! but that ultimately led to the birth of the even stronger heavenly demon who goes on to torture his beloved for a decade.

yue qingyuan is a man in power without the power to succeed at the one thing he needs to.

conversely, shen jiu, a little slave with no name or power changed his live. when yqy needed him, shen jiu selflessly stepped in danger's way and saved him successfully. yqy never repays his debt even though he tries so hard.

and then his xiao jiu falls in love with the young demon boy who wreaks havoc and kidnaps him and kinda treats him like shit. he fails at earning shen jiu's love too.

5. yue qingyuan never finds out that shen jiu loved him.

shen yuan likely believed yue qingyuan abhorred him. what shen yuan feels for yue qingyuan is likely a mix of "you betrayed me so i must hate you + you hate me so in return i must hate you. but in reality if you were to look close i dont hate you at all. but ill act like i do because i must hate you."

yue qingyuan though? there was no question. his feelings for shen jiu were always love and shen jiu will never know that, so there will never be a chance for shen jiu to change his mind, to not think "you do not hate me so i do not have to hate you, you love me so i can love you"

this kinda ties into the "words left unsaid" point EXCEPT at least shen jiu gets one time where he finds out how yqy feels. yqy never ever in any universe finds out. he thinks shen jiu is determined to never call him qi-ge again.

6. but even when shen jiu gets to find out yue qingyuan loves him, it is the most tragic way of doing so

i want you to imagine:

you love this person. you trusted them and they betrayed you. you hate that they make you feel weak so you place distance between you two. they look down on you so you respond in turn, with harsh words and harsher actions.

and then they die a horrific death- stabbed by ten thousand arrows- to come save you.

you realize they never meant to betray you, never looked down on you.

you were so mean and distant for nothing.

you cannot say sorry. they are dead. it is your fault.

shen jiu so eagerly wrote that letter to yqy, not because he wanted to escape torture but because he was so confident yqy wouldnt come.

he didnt come last time, so why did he come now!?

EXTRA

they are the epitome of the childhood friends to lovers & "i loved you all along" trope. they have seen each other in every stage of their loves and still, in their convoluted way, loved each other even with all the tension between them

golden retriever x black cat

yue qingyuan totally spoils shen qingqiu. if he tolerates that level of disrespect? yk damn well qing jing peak is never short of funding

shen jiu really is in desperate need of being loved. he like, is a character that claims he doesnt care to be liked but we all know its human nature to want to be appreciated and loved. "i dont need you to love me" "i love you" "oh"

the potential for a: "i dont need your pity" "its not pity i just care about you" or a "why do you even care?" "because i love you" or a (as catra and adora say) "i know you all hate me!" "i never hated you" dialogue drop

the potential for a deku -> izuku moment. i mean yue qingyuan literally canonically foreshadows it: "are you so determined to never call me qi-ge again?"

misunderstood x "i see past your mask" (ive written more about this dynamic in my lynaether post tumblr wont let me link but the in summary: blablabla human desire to be understood and human tendency to self sabotage and hide your flaws yada yada "i hold the ugliest parts of you up to the lie and dont even flinch")

FEEL FREE TO ADD UR EXTRA BULLET POINTS IN THE COMMENTS

[nagichi-boop]

I saw a post about Movie!Maria and Game!Maria about how the tragedy of Maria in the game is that she would have died to her disease if she wasn't shot, and how the tragedy of Maria in the movie is that she could have lived a full life and didn't get the chance to.

Perhaps that's the reason for the erasure? Either that or they simply couldn't figure out how to portray it.

Okay, am finally getting around to writing this. Hopefully you dont mind me using this ask as a springboard to address some thoughts I’ve seen on the matter? It’s something I’d like to explore and I figured this would be a good opportunity for it. /lh

I will preface this by saying that although Maria’s illness being removed in the film was a bit disappointing to me, I’m not deeply offended by the choice either. I also don’t think it ruins the films by any means and I still really enjoyed it. I just want to share my thoughts as someone who is disabled and finds Maria to be a refreshing source of representation.

Spoilers for Sonic 3 (ofc)

I’ll start with the point you mentioned in your ask. (I haven’t seen the post you referred to, but hopefully I’ve understood what the perspective is.)

“Movie!Maria’s death is more tragic because she isn’t terminally ill and so had her whole life ahead of her”

I can definitely see this perspective, though I’d argue it’s not entirely true. Dark Beginnings gave a bit more information on Maria’s condition. For one, her symptoms were in remission because of the low gravity on the ARK. That means, to my understanding, that she had more time to live, even if a cure wasn’t found. The other thing is that Gerald was still working on a cure, so she still had the hope of being cured one day. Whether a cure would’ve been found we don’t know because her life was tragically cut short and the research stopped. The tragedy in her death was that she had hope of a cure to finally go to earth, but her death wasn’t even caused by her illness in the end.

Movie!Maria arguably had a better chance of a more fulfilling life given she was able bodied and lived on earth. But as far as I can remember, we don’t really know why she was living at the GUN research facility. I guess it was to be with Gerald? I suppose you could argue that she never had the chance to figure out who she wanted to be, but her backstory isn’t super developed in the films. I understand given they had the rest of the story to tell, but ultimately we don’t really know much about how her life would’ve been.

I think either way her death was tragic. Neither one to me feels more or less tragic than the other.

“They didn't have time to write her as being sick”

That assumes that they had to make a big deal of her being sick. There are a few easy tweaks that could’ve been made to hint at her being disabled without making it a huge spectacle. Maybe when she first shows up, they comment how she is there because Gerald wants to monitor her condition. Maybe there’s a scene where she is using a mobility aid. Maybe in the scene where Shadow is having tests done on him, Maria is too. It would also be a way to show that being disabled isn’t her entire identity, it’s just a part of her life.

Shadow’s backstory also wouldn’t really need to be changed in my opinion. Maybe his presence has nothing to do with providing a cure for Maria. Or maybe in the midst of testing his DNA, they find there may be a way to cure her. His backstory of being from a comet wouldn’t need to change at all.

“It’s too sad for a kid’s movie”

I don’t really get this one if I’m being entirely honest. Maybe they didn’t want to show a disabled girl being killed, but they still ultimately killed a child on screen which is tragic in itself. They also killed multiple other characters throughout the films, so they’re not shy to it at least. I don’t know that her being disabled makes killing a child more tragic? As I said in my previous point, they didn't even have to heavily depict her disability. I don’t have much to say about this point and I’m not sure how to properly articulate my thinking on it, but I don’t think a disabled character dying would be much sadder than her being able bodied and dying. She is still a young girl being killed.

One argument I saw was that they might have removed her sickness because of the COVID still being a fairly recent event. But I really hope that wasn’t the thinking. I get that it was - and still is - something that causes distress, but erasing a character’s sickness because of it feels a bit silly to me. Also a love of people, including teenagers, were disabled by COVID. It would almost be like saying “hey so we don’t want to think about that, so we are gonna just make this more palatable for the people watching.” I highly doubt this was the thinking, but tiptoeing around the idea of disability because of COVID kinda feels like the opposite of what should be happening.

“Killing a disabled character is cheap”

Eh, I’d argue erasing a character’s disability is worse. At the end of the day, they’re still killing a child, which in itself could be argued as being ‘cheap.’

“The writers didn’t know about her in-game lore/the information from Gerald’s Journal wasn’t available at the time of writing”

This one I can kinda understand. I can’t verify it, but I did hear that the whole NIDS thing was apparently only mentioned in guide books or something released a while after the games were? I can’t remember the specifics of what I was told. If that is the case, the writers not knowing about her being sick makes enough sense to me. I’d argue that if they were about to implement references from Sonic 06 and even include Sanic that they could read the wiki page on Maria and quickly see she was at the very least chronically ill, but I don’t know their process.

I feel like I had other points I wanted to discuss, but I can’t think of them right now. Hopefully this at least expresses my viewpoint on things. Again, I am not deeply enraged or offended that they changed her backstory. There are a lot of things I actually like about her depiction in the films. I do really like the playful and friendly dynamic they have in the movie. They’re friendly in the games, but we only ever really see Maria as being an emotional support to Shadow. In the movie, that comes after we see the silly interactions they share.

I think I’m more disappointed than anything. I was really happy at the disability representation in Dark Beginning’s and Generations/Gerald’s Journal, especially with regards to invisible and dynamic disabilities. I suppose at the end of the day, the movies are a separate canon from the games, so if they can change the backstories for other characters like Sonic and Shadow, they can change Maria’s. I suppose I was just looking forward to seeing a chronically ill character on the big screen.

Thanks for the ask! I’m glad to have hopefully been able to explain my thoughts on the matter, even if you don’t agree with them.

(I really do hope this makes sense. It’s pretty late as I’m writing this and I haven’t really proofread it.)

[p5-apotelesma]

ITS THINKING ABOUT GOROS CHILDHOOD HOURS. i am unwell once more

you know what it kills me to think about? that things could have went to shit despite how things were looking up

its tragic but its so fucking real and its gut wrenching.

for years theyd been struggling to get by and. finally. fumiko has a stable job (on the outside) and for the first time theyre able to have a slightly bigger apartment. not by much, really. (and kogoro would still sleep with his mom in her bed a lot of the time cause its just what hes used to, having lived in a 1 bedroom apartment until then) they still dont have an easy life by any means but they were on an upswing.

they were at, what seemed like. the most stable point in their time as a family. on the outside. his mothers new boyfriend doesnt come over to make her cry and scare them both to death. she even let kogoro accept some toys from him when she never used to allow that. so that means she trusts him, right? that he isnt so terrible like all the others were.

her doing sex work for him while being his secretary is what gets them the better apartment. and what gets kogoro some featherman merch. hes her boss but of course kogoro doesnt understand that his mother isnt on equal footing here. and that things arent seriously that much better. that shes just found herself stuck in the spiderweb of another wealthy man.

and kogoro allowed himself to feel hope. just a little. because from where he was standing things had changed so much. they were maybe even almost Normal.

and then she fucking left him

i'd imagine her mental illness was so debilitating that it made working even harder for her, let alone taking care of her kid. but things were looking up. her lows were still terrible lows but. kogoro was there for her. when she let him be. the structure of set work hours helped their lives find more of a routine. and none of his mothers clients hadnt stepped into their apartment for some time. (kogoro thought she was finally free)

at times she'd been sad for a while. couldnt get out of bed. but when the time came to celebrate kogoro's 9th birthday, she rose in the morning to make him omurice and they danced in the kitchen to the radio. she took him to the park and the arcade and he was able to win a prize and she even bought a little cake they could have have after dinner. they spent the whole day together just like she promised she would this year. and she seemed better and goro was so so relieved and so happy. it was the best day ever.

(she was coming to peace with what she was going to do. kogoro made a wish on his candles for them to have more days like this. fumiko wished that her son would forgive her.)

the day after his birthday he was excited to have more of the leftover cake after dinner.... shed have to go back to work tonight but maybe she could watch one episode with him. or help him do some of his homework. (or at least pretend to help. and praise him when he was able to figure it out for her)

he came home from school to a quiet apartment. looked around and saw her shoes still by the door. the light was on in the bathroom. he thought she was. just taking a bath

he knocked and there wasnt an answer. he didnt really think anything of it. maybe she was busy. maybe it was one of those times where kogoro shouldnt bother her. so. he quietly did his homework.... she'd come out of the bath and say goodbye to him before she went to work. but she didnt come out

i dont even think the poor kid could comprehend what he was seeing. when he opened the door and saw her. just. the sheer horror of it stopped his brain from working. the water was so red and she was so pale and she wasnt moving--- in the moment he could understand that she was hurt. but not what had happened

how could he? and he didnt think to call 119 first. no, the first thing he thought was to run to his neighbors. even though his mother sometimes got angry when he would talk to strangers. one of his neighbors answered their door and kogoro explained what. he could understand of whats goin on. what he saw. he doesnt understand that shes dead

when he gets to the police station and a detective and an officer and a child psychologist are trying to talk to him. about what happened. he just. asks when he can see his mother.

he knows she was hurt and something really terrible and scary happened. but. he doesnt understand that he wont be seeing her again. it. takes a while. for that to happen.

she left him a note, you know. and he read it but in the moment he was too overwhelmed to understand. and then he fucking blocked that shit out for years. the memory of it comes back when hes with the gang dealing with Ren's Den of Distortion of all things

the memory hits him like a train and once again kogoro is brought back to the nights where all he could think was that his mother hated being alive more than she loved him.

"i'm sorry, kogoro. mama can't do this anymore. i love you. you are so strong."

the love being there wasnt enough but it was there. and thats the tragedy of it.

and the fact she took her own life after they celebrated kogoro's birthday? its one of the things that seemed to convince him that his existence was a curse. and his mother couldnt bear the burden of it anymore. why should he ever celebrate being born? (he takes his birthday week off in royal. and its because of Her. hes officially lived as many years on this earth without her as he lived with her. half his life.)

all that on top of everything else and its wonder kogoro has such. instability around his security in his relationships. because everything seemed like it could actually be okay. she seemed happy and he was happy and he dared to feel hope again. that she would get better. he would help her. and theyd both be safe from the monsters.

and then it all came crashing down. he lost everything in an instant.

[badass-queer-couples-battle]

Sword gays showdown, round 2 of bracket one

Propaganda:

For Zoro:

Literally training to be the greatest swordsman in the world. Has a special three swords technique (one blade in each hand plus one with the handle held in his teeth). I haven't read the manga or watched the anime but the live action adaptation gives me extremely gay vibes and based on the fandom things I've seen I'm not the only one

bro uses three swords. has one in his mouth. dont ask how the HELL he manages that. one day he will be the worlds greatest swordsman....after he beats the current greatest for both the titles of greatest swordsman and fruitiest swordsman. he's dramatic as FUUUCK like bro what the hell. has homoerotic fights with the local twink like everyday. directionally challenged, can and will get lost in a paper bag, doesnt know left from right...he probably cant read, too. hes too silly ngl

First of all, im in like episode 250 and so far he hasnt been shown attracted to any woman at all during the whole show so far, not even when one changed clothes in the same room as him and this is anime so you know there were other characters with bloody noses and shit. With that out of the way he wields three swords at once [two in his hands, one is his goddamn mouth dude. Its cool af trust me.] When he was little he made a promise to his best friend that he'd be the best swordsman in the world. Later she died in a tragic accident and left her sword which he still uses today. He also carries a cursed sword but he overpowers the curse with a combination of skill and sheer luck. He got stuck in a chimney. While his crewmates sail their ship he takes naps. He learned how to cut through metal by fighting a guy who could turn his body into metal blades. That's metal. He refuses to fight this liberal marine officer because she looks like his childhood best friend and its just understandably really awkward for him. He's autistic. He's a he/him bisexual lesbian. He's a gay man. He's ace/aro. He's whatever you want him to be babey!!

he has 3 swords, wields one in his mouth sometimes, his dream is to be the greatest swordsman in the world

three swords and big aroace-spec gay vibes

He not only has a sword he has *three* swords. He's absolutely gay there's no way to see this man as straight. Also one time he licked his sword for no reason and that was really funny to me so I had to mention it

Look, this man thinks about three things: Swords, His Captain, and Booze. He’s on a quest to be the worlds greatest swordsman. The Live action has a scene where he declares his undying, unwavering loyalty to his captain WHILE reaffirming his promise to be the worlds greatest swordsman. At this point His dream and his Captain are so intertwined it’s crazy. Man is so sword-y he’s got three of them. When one of his swords broke he carried its empty scabbard until he was able to give it a SWORD FUNERAL. He hears a sword is cursed and takes that as a challenge. He will literally tell his swords off for “bad behavior” when they “act up” due to being straight up cursed. He tests one by throwing it in the air and sticking his arm out to see if it is so blood thirsty and ill tempered that it will cut him. Even though he’s literally the first mate if you ask him what his role is he’s going to answer Swordsman.

He's dedicated his life to two things: becoming the greatest swordsman in the world and his captain, Luffy. 

He mastered the three sword style. Its his style. It would've been more swords but he could only fit one sword in each hand and one in his mouth. He wants to be the world's greatest swordsman, a deal he made with his childhood best frenemy (before she died falling down the stairs). He thought he was All That at the start and was almost completely decimated by the actual Worlds Greatest Swordsman. Now, after two years forced training with that guy, he's probably in the top tier no-doubt, and honestly could already be the best but we just don't know for sure yet. Also, did I mention: he's got the whole demon/devil imagery going on at times. And he has absolutely no sense of direction! plus is a total softie when it comes to Chopper and all the children who somehow gravitate towards him. And he loves naps!

One of the guy's main goals in life is to be the best sword fighter and he fights with three swords which I think is telling enough of his skill.

For Sayaka Miki:

my favourite scene is the one where Sayaka turns off all her pain receptors to battle the shadow witch, uncaring of the damage dealt to her body, because what is a body but a decaying vessel you must eventually abandon anyway? that was very depression of her <3 Also there’s that one time (in the rebellion movie) where Sayaka stabs herself on her own sword to release the witch that dwells within her. and then she immediately gets up to fight back to back with her girlfriend. that moment lives rent free in my head. Sayaka is so depression and I love her for it:)

SHES SO GAY ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY SHE FLIRTS W THE MAIN CHARACTER HER NARRATIVE FOIL IS ANOTHER GIRL W TBE OPPOSITE COLOR SCHEME THEYRE RED BLUE LESBIAN MOMENT YOU WANNA KNOW WHAT ELSE ??? SHE COMES TO THIS FALSE REALITY LITERALLY JUST TO SEE HER GIRLFRIEND ALIVE THEY LIVE TOGETHER AND THERES A WHOLE OUTRO SEQUENCE JUST W THE TWO OF THEM SHE STUDIED THE GAY BLADE I STG also she uses a sword 🗡️ love u sayaka

[vvettaka]

Aight ill try to write smth while its still (relatively) fresh on my mind

At this point i really dont know if i hate or love those recommendations rn, because my lord. This shit was DISGUSTING LIKE FUCK CALM DOWN GIRL I HAVE A WEAK STOMACH DAMN

So, my beautiful gorgeous perfect gf recommended for us to watch The Substance (i think? Im tryna to forget the film because fuck im really not gonna be able to eat the things i was eating at the start of the movie again because ill remember the scenes)

Anyway

10/10 film as always, not really much to complain except on some goofy shit

Like bruh why the fuck did she sparta kicked the main body and WHY THE HELL SHE WAS SENT FLYING LMAAAAOOOOOO ITS JUST SO FUNNY LIKE BRO LITERALLY SHE WAS BEATING THE SHIT OUT OF HERSELF LIKE DAMN LADY CALM DOWN THATS YOU WHY YOURE BEING SO HARSH ON YOURSELF GIRL, YOURE SUPPOSED TO LOVE YOURSELF NOT DROPKICK YOUR(self) GRANNY OUT OF A BUILDING (not literally)

But aight aside from me being a weirdo and laughing from a gruesome scene

Just. Damn. The movie really doesnt fucking pull any punches

The first reveal that smth was wrong when sue was tryna bang??? Like FUUUUUUCCCKK i couldnt watch that shit ON GOD like bro her insides falling out of the suit??? God dammit its so fucking disgusting i loved it (aside from me not being able to watch it LMAO)

Its was a really funny experience watching it cuz i love all the body horror's scenes conceptually and its so cool seeing it being executed but i cant fucking watch it because of all the gorey realistic stuff, like damn man tone it down CMON I HAVE A WEAK STOMACH BRO CALM DOWN

Uhhhh just noticed i dont really have any structure to all this rambling. So... ill just talk about some scenes

First and foremost

The first scene, Sue leaving Elisabeth is just so so SO SO SO good and perfect, her looking at herself and her "new life" and such, admiring all that she became is just perfect

And fuck when she has to (idk the word when you close a wound with the thingys) is just amazing (which again i couldnt watch properly yada yada)

(I dont really want to make this too long so, jumping ahead)

When Elisabeth starts to dissociate herself from Sue, saying that shes another person. And when Sue does the same, saying "She does nothing with her time, she only stands around doing nothing" is so... tragic, sad

Fuck i really loved all of it

Its such a perfect analogy (i think thats the word) to the pressure of becoming old, feeling that you're not good enough because of your appearance, that you're not perfect because of this and that, being so frustrated with your appearance that youd rather be someone else

Agh i love it

Also its a good analogy for drugs too, dissociating and all that, being a means of scapism and such, but the main point still being body dysmorphia, women being sexualized, pressure of all of it etctera

All around perfect, great recommendation

Yeah anyway ill try to forget everything by tomorrow because i dont want to associate all of the gorey stuff with. Nuggets. And chicken burguer

Oh just a reminder, love yourself, youre literally the only person that you have to deal with 24/7

So idk just try to spend that time not hating yourself, your existence doesnt have to be miserable just because you know?

Im tryna to apply that to my life, i know ill eventually get it

[aletterinthenameofsanity]

The Cat King and Crystal Palace (Soulmate AU)

As the Cat King leaves the alleyway, as those little ghosts are set to leave, there are people coming out of the Tongue and Tail. Pretty much every client of Jenny Green’s is someone he has seen at some point around before, and even a change of clothing and hair shade would not make them glance twice at him, especially when he instinctually puts up a glamour that disguises the shape and color of eyes that he can no longer see the gilded gleam of-

But then he matches eyes with Edwin's feisty friend, that living girl with too much sight and too much bitterness and too much loneliness and an ill-advised fling with Edwin's one true love, if his cats are to be believed, and the world blooms into color.

Life number four. Soulmate number four. This one is destined to end as tragically as the rest, to leave him as lonely as he's ever been.

And yet, the girl steps forward towards him. Strides forward, really, all confidence, the sort of way that you do not when you have unearned arrogance, but the way that you do when you've died before and you've had to build yourself back with broken pieces, stronger than ever before.

She steps up to him, and she looks at him, dead in the eyes, and she says, “Y’know, I wondered why your eyes looked so fucking different from everyone else’s.”

She sees through the glamour, the Cat King thinks, because of course she does. Because he has never been able to keep the truth away from his soulmates, he has never been able to do anything but strip himself to the bone for the pleasure of seeing their eyes laid upon him.

-aletterinthenameofsanity, you could drown in those eyes (so it's summer, so it's suicide)

I want you to know that it's our time

You and me bleed the same light

I want you to know that I'm all yours

You and me run the same course

-Zedd ft. Selena Gomez, I Want You to Know

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[sunnyfoxsstuff]

Hello! Hi! Im quite happy tonight lol between @shadowfuka here's the draw of Ghost shi qingxuan!

Be the judge buddy >;p i hope y'all like this little Fanart i made of my own fanfic! With that imma hop onto the fanfic!

Chapter 4: meeting again

Xie lian, hua cheng and shi qingxuan all shared their deserved diner

After this they went to sleep, hua cheng and xie lian sharing the same bed again it obviously became an habit while on the other hand shi qingxuan was in the guest room however he could not find sleep imediatly so he stared mostly outside looking at the nature around and falling asleep beside's the stair's of the front of puqi shrine,

In the morning the Sun ray's woked shi qingxuan up he wasnt really hungry but he decided to prepare breakfast for xie lian and hua cheng he wasnt expecting any special reaction about it from hua cheng he was more doing it for his friend as a part of pay back for his past help he had offered, not too long After xie lian woke up walking toward's the kitchen to shi qingxuan

XL:"i could've made breakfast y'know you dont need to work or do chore's around" he said feeling a bit awkward

SQX:"pff-" waving his hand "dont worry about it and i wanted to Cook breakfast since you two were still asleep i didnt wanted to bother" he said smiling looking for a minute at his friend before putting his attention back on the food he was cooking

XL:"how-..how does it feel?"

SQX:"huh?" Confused by the question his Friend had just asked

XL:"like uh- yknow? Dying and being a Ghost like- how did it felt? How do you feel?" He said smiling awkwardly

SQX:"since when did you figure it out? But i suppose i cant really hide it well yet, and didnt you asked hua cheng that? He's a Ghost even better he's a Ghost king" he say's joyfull as his usual self extending his arm's up making dramatising gestures

XL:"no i didnt asked him i usually dont it feel's kind of awkward and personnal to Ask someone 'bout their death" fidgeting with his finger's looking down a little

SQX:"hm well i suppose i could tell you, however my death wasnt really tragic unlike other people's that either die saving someone or on war or protecting someone you should know you said it yourself that i was sick gotta admit it felt like torture staying back there sitting and not being able to properly digest my food like literally! I couldnt even move!" He say's a bit annoyed about it "i was already slow because of my limbs which by the way dont really hurt anymore cant deny the pain is still a tiny bit present i dont know why or how so i keep the bandage's just incase who know's but as for my death, first my injuries were pretty Bad and barely had even healed of course and seccond i suppose the illness got me.." he said pausing for minute

A silence fell for a little while, while these minute's xie lian was preparing the bowl's for their breakfast seeing that shi qingxuan was almost done

XL:"i wish i had came back and picked you up" he said with a sad tone

SQX:"naaaa! I didnt even feel my death i just closed my eye's one morning After waking up and..poof! I was a soul!" He say's with a brighter tone bringing the rice and putting some in each bowl's not really filling his enough

XL:"sooo you didnt feel anything?" Tilting his head

SQX"nope! Not even a pinch!" Saying proudly putting the vegetables on the rice with an omelette

XL:"why did you became a Ghost then? You're not one to want vengeance and your brother is-" he shutted his mouth before saying one more word

SQX:"yeah well i thought i would pass on After all there was nothing else to do but,.." he paused thinking about that moment for a minute until he got snapped out of his thought's

XL:"but?" He said looking at shi qingxuan who's smile had wore off because of his thought's

SQX:"i saw a black silhouette looking at me with golden eye's" he say's seriously "you're probably thinking i imagined it but i didnt" he stopped seeing xie lian wanting to speak and without loosing a second he exclaimed what he was thinking

XL:"wait! So you're saying, black water sinking ship"

SQX:"mhm"

XL:"the one that traumatised you and killed your brother!," he exclaimed louder

SQX:"yeeesssssss i mean my brother was kinda going insane obviously but i still love him of course he'll always stay my ge'" he answered

XL:"why would that one person Come see you it's odd" he paused thinking with his usual thinking pose while hearing hua cheng waking and sitting at the table too and shi qingxuan starting to munch on his food

HC:"it doesnt look like what you usually Cook gege" he said looking at xie lian snapping him out of his hard thinking

XL:"oh!- yes, that's because i didnt made it shi qingxuan did he didnt wanted to bother us since he woke up before us" smiling at hua cheng finally taking the bowl and eating it without any more word's hua cheng on the other hand looked like a kid a picky eater toying a bit with his vegetables even so he still ate a little bit of it since xie lian seemed to appreciate the food

However soon enough hua cheng felt a stare and looked in the direction of shi qingxuan raising an eyebrow looking at his bowl seeing that he was empty, he tried to ignore the stare of this..New ghost but he couldnt shake it off and put down his chopsticks turning his head to shi qingxuan which had now a side smile and he started glaring back, not giving up shi qingxuan continued his stare and with that they continued their stare glare fight while sometimes breaking it to answer xie lian

In the morning shi qingxuan went off in the forest wanting to explore while hua cheng insisted that xie lian stay's and pass Time together, soon the afternoon came shi qingxuan was coming back while hua cheng was displeased with the presence of a so said 'ghost king' he looked more like a angry fish to hua cheng's eye's, xie lian however tried to make him at home but he'd refuse to enter puqi shrine as to not get more debt from hua cheng

Hua cheng and he xuan were kinda bickering seeing who would Snap at who first like a competition, when suddenly someone got Heard from a far sounding like as if they were running back

SQX:"your highness look what i got!-" he'd exclaim happily to then stop straight infront the three of them seeing he xuan up close again made him feel, fear, with a mix of a bit of happiness and didnt quite know how to act

Xie lian came toward's his friend continuing his talk "what is it what you got?" He answered as if to change his thought's

Shi qingxuan looked at xie lian for a little and then openned outer robe a bit a little white bird peeking his head out

XL:"he look's adorable! You shouldnt take animal's like that though he's a wild bird!"

SQX:"i do what i want" saying proudly "beside's he's the one that came on my shoulder he was cold so i putted him in there" petting the bird's head

He xuan just observed he didnt know why hua cheng asked him to come and seeing qingxuan standing right there wasnt feeling right, he was sure to have seen him die that day, that morning

Suddenly hua cheng coughed a little bit only to bring the attention to him "he xuan i asked you to come because thi- his highness's 'friend'. Wanted to see you dont make me do it twice." He said with a strict tone grabbing xie lian bringing him inside not wanting to deal anymore with these two he had already beared shi qingxuan's presence long enough he had even dared to cook breakfast instead of his highness saying that he was pissed would be an understatement

Both of the ghost's stared at the door that had been slammed shut right infront their nose, they both felt awkward not knowing how to start the conversation something qingxuan was usually good at, for once he xuan started talking first

HX:"so you're not dead?" Talking with the same monotone tone as before

SQX:"actually- i am-" he answered awkwardly fidgeting with his finger's

HX:"qingxuan" he sighed crossing his arm's "why are you here dont tell me it was to see me because as far as i can tell your body is against being near me." He said coldly not looking away

and he wasnt wrong qingxuan's hand's were horribly shaking he still tried to hide it by putting his hand's behind his back and smile a forcefull smile he didnt know why he couldnt just smile right now, "well i thooought we could probably start over? Our friendship, i wanna get to know you" he exclaimed with a bit of a shaky voice

HX:"sure." Still cold still monotone no change's "but i dont recall you having a home"

SQX:"i'll build my own house we could share it!-" he said determined and bold while the bird flew off back into the wild where he belong

He xuan take a sigh before walking off with an instant shi qingxuan was right behind him following

SQX:"he xuan where are you goooiiiiing!? Wait for me!" His bad leg betraying right on that moment falling face flat down on the dirt

He xuan stopped and looked back amused at the sight but keeping a neutral face, walking back toward him handing out a hand as to help him get up shi qingxuan accepted the help of course a bit embarrassed about falling down like toddler that barely knew how to walk

HX:"your leg isnt healed isnt it?" Looking down at the Bad leg that qingxuan was keeping up

SQX:"uhm, well it depend on the time sometime's it does hurt sometime's it doesnt" he answered to then saying lowly "i didnt thought it would hurt right now, its embarrassing it was fine until now"

HX:"you Can walk or do you need a stick?" He raised an eyebrow looking at him

SQX:"i'd rather die than keep a walking stick by my side!" He exclaimed with a pouting face

HX:"..you are already dead idiot" slapping gently qingxuan's back head

SQX:"hey!"

After a little while of fighting and chatting which was as usual only qingxuan talking he xuan made a teleportation array to a nice spot and offered qingxuan to live in a small but big enough house that had been abandonned there,

He wasnt much of a builder so he agreed and so their journey together started.

Imma stop here i feel like i wrote longer than usual! However i loved writing this chapter my creativity just kept flowing lol x)

[sentience-if]

okay, i agree with your Batman opinions 100% buT ALSO, TO BE FAIR TO BATMAN: HE DID ORIGINALLY TRY TO KILL THE JOKER WHEN JASON DIED. THEY JUST RET-CONNED THAT FOR "UNDER THE RED HOOD"

(by the way i am not posting this to fight or dismiss you. bc i agree with you. my intent is just to add to the discussion bc i love the nuance of both sides, but again, youre so right lol)

however, i disagree with this retcon. i think we shouldve kept Joker's almost-death, i think "Under The Red Hood" shouldve incorporated it via a Bruce-Alfred conversation or something, anything, just a flashback for a panel or so, something. and ill explain why in a sec, bc it makes Jason and Bruce's initial falling out all the more tragic, at least to me

but first, real quick tangent:

now, which idk if youve seen "Under The Red Hood" the comic and/or the movie, but the movie is infinitely better, bc of how it handled Batman and Jason's confrontation

comic-UTRH-Batman is a bitch for that Batarang to Jason's neck/shoulder, that panel had TOO MUCH BLOOD to not have been almost fatal, and i do not like the implications in it

bc movie-UTRH-Batman let Jason choose to kill the Joker if Jason wanted to, Bats just walked away until Jason shot at HIM and then was able to disarm Jason. but we have no reason to disbelieve that if Jason hadnt pointed the gun to Bruce, that if Jason had committed to killing the Joker, that Bruce would hace stopped him. i like that they made that decision in the movie, bc it shows Bruce isnt going to restrict others' free-will to his own moral-code if they disagree with him on SUCH a heavy topic, even if he thinks their choice is wrong, we have no reason to think Batman wouldve stopped Jason from killing Joker in the film

BUT IN THE COMICS?? Jason tries to shoot Joker, and Batman yells "NOOO!" and throws a Batarang into Jason's neck/shoulder with a TON of blood (people argue if it was a fatal hit or just a heavily-bleeding spot that wasnt fatal, but me?? fatal or not, i dont think he shouldve aimed to hit his own kid in such a graphic spot, tHAT'S HIS KID. he shouldve aimed for somewhere else or used a less sharp/damaging weapon wtf, why aim for such a blood-squirting area???), and that is fucked. comic-UTRH-Batman is fucked for that, bc thats CHOOSING the Joker's life over Jason's health (if not Jason's life, deoending if you think that hit was fatal). thats ooc, to me. that's too far

im glad the movie retconned that confrontation to instead be Batman walking away and Jason changing the gun to point at Bruce instead of the Joker, that was better. that showed Jason cared more about Bruce choosing to kill Joker rather than Bruce allowing Jason to kill Joker. does that make sense?? like, to Jason, in the movie, being right mattered less than Bruce; and to Bruce, Jason being allowed to do what he wanted mattered more than forcing Jason to follow Batman's own moral code. i liked that fight better. the comics with the Batarang sucked

anyway, tangent over lol

BUT in the original comics, before they retconned Batman's actions, he did try to kill the Joker for killing Jason. it's just... Joker stumbled into a checkmate of a chess-plan (bc this was before "Joker is a genius, actually" characterizations, this is chaotic gremlin of luck version of Joker) where Joker became a diplomat for a country and, if Batman killed the Joker, it would result in war. like. World War 3 levels of war

how did the Joker become a diplomat of a foreign country and become THAT important? i dont recall. again, this was chaotic gremlin of luck-Joker, he bumbled into situations that saved his skin a lot. also, Diplomat Joker looks wild as fuck, he still has that crazy smile and facial proportions, but now he has normal-human-skin, it looks Wrong lmao but yeah. Joker stumbled onto Jason and Jason's mom, Joker saw this as "another stroke of luck" for him to have bumbled into, he got too hooked in on beating up Jason, that it wasnt until he realized how bloody Jason was that he went "....oh wait, Bats is gonna kill me for this. uhhhhhhh" and proceed to make the bomb the cover up his tracks and RAN, he ran and somehow hooked his fingers into a diplomatic immunity position to make sure Batman couldnt kill him, at least not straight-away, he was buying himself time and originally planned to play dumb about Jason's death

bc Batman didnt originally have evidence Joker killed Jason. but he suspected it. and it took somewhere between a few days of being relentless about the Joker to maybe a few weeks? but when Joker (while still a diplomat) blurted out an insult to Bats that made it obvious Joker was involved in Jason's death?? Batman was like "oh thank god you said that, bECAUSE NOW I GET TO MURDER YOUR ASS"

BUT GUESS WHO STOPS BATMAN??

SUPERMAN. because Superman doesnt want there to be a war, tensions are too high to kill the Joker rn, Bats, you gotta let him live. and by the time the Joker is no longer that diplomat and Batman CAN kill the Joker?? it's been even MORE time. and Batman's vrief and Superman's insistence has formed into this warped moral code of being scared of himself and how easily he almost risked a World War 3, killing thousands and harming millions of would-be-war-victims with 0 cares or empathy about the people whod be hurt bc he HAD to kill Jason murderer— and that shit scared him. he was terrified of learning that about himself. this was not the moment he created his "do not kill" murder-code, he had it when Jason was alive and they once butted heads about it (aND, AGAIN, JASON WAS SO FUCKING RIGHT, EVEN THEN. this was about Felipe, by the way. it's implied Jason pushed him, but there's literally 0 evidence that Jason did or not, but Batman is CONVINCED Jason killed Felipe which good fucking riddance either way). but this was the moment that Batman became SO MUCH MORE attached to it, that id almost call it an unhealthy coping mechanism(? it probably is one)

and i find that aspect really fucking interesting. that Batman almost caused a war to kill Jason's murderer. and what's the most fascinating about to me, is i think we all know, that if Batman HAD killed the Joker then and there?? a resurrected Jason would be horrified. Bruce would still lose Jason. bc Jason has the kind of self-loathing and moral decency where he does NOT see himself as worth all of that pain and suffering and many lives that a war would take, period, but also especially not such a HUGE war as what wouldve broken out

i still think sometime post-diplomatuc-immunity and Jason's return, Batman shouldve killed the Joker. but i think the characterization in the comics of Bruce being so horrified with himself that he almost induced a war in the name of vegenence is interesting and Makes Sense that he would then be so hung up on never killing ever. i think an Alternate Universe that had Batman kill the Joker would be really fascinating if they kept the aspect that "and Bats doing that caused an international incident that imduced a devastating war" and STILL Jason would be opposing Bruce's morals. i like that idea of "no matter what Bruce does, Jason would still grow to be against him" tragic cycle

.....but comics-UTRH-Batman iS A BITCH FOR THAT BATARANG, AND JOKER SHOULDVE STILL DIED SOMETIME AFTER THE DIPLOMAT STUFF ENDED, AND JASON IS RIGHT. i just wanted to add The Other Bullshit happening in tandem to this that UTRH's film and comic didnt mention, bc it is bananas and makes the discussion even more interesting in my opinion

and if you want to see more of this POV, i highly recommend ThePandaRedd (he/they) on tiktok and youtube. his takes inspired me to start reading the original comics to see firsthand that everything was right: Jason was such a happy Robin (minus Felipe), it is weird they retconned him into The Angry Robin, also they are where i first heard of the "tragic cycle where Jason theoretically will always oppose Batman" and the thought-experiment of "Jason would hate Bruce for inducing a war in Jason's name just to kill the Joker just as much as our Jason hates our Batman for NOT killing the Joker", and even pointed out that film-UTRH-Jason's decision to point the gun at Bruce for walking away belies a hidden intent that Jason hadnt been voicing (that Jason didnt want to JUDT get to kill the Joker, but have Bruce participate and approve, you get it). really love that guy, very entertaining, highly recommend ThePandaRedd. they also do skits! very fun

bUT YEAH, AGAIN, JASON WAS STILL RIGHT THO

lmao im so glad you've had a chance to get this out because I just KNOW you do the same thing I do and imagine conversations where you get to explain something because this is same cadence I think in hahaha

however. I fear I just think violence is sometimes the answer and batman was the first example I thought of

[karin-miyoshi]

Do you think yuyuyu is ableist?

sheesh, talk about a loaded question

definitely opens up a lot of rabbit holes. ill give my opinion, but note im not the most educated on the subject itself so giving a definite answer is outside my scope.

ill put a read below, but for me, i personally think it isnt, but can be easily misinterpreted as is on a surface level.

tldr, ableism is discrimination towards those with disabilities.

the character in question most of the time when it comes to these topics is tougou, who uses a wheelchair in season 1 due to losing function in her legs. there are never any distasteful jokes made about this, and the show constantly shows various handicap friendly services throughout the show. something even more surprising is that these are never the core focus of the scene or pointed out, its always well integrated into the world as if it were normal (important).

just skimming through s1, we have:

wheelchair assistance integration for both cars and stairs

special swim courses for the disabled, not separated from the rest of the class

beach wheelchairs and separate assistants

now while we can assume a lot of these were due to her previous service as washio sumi, i dont think that would really be fair to the production team putting these in, and it really feels like theres a lot more heart than "yeah we put these for the big shock value realization later on". even after regaining function in her legs near the end of the season, tougou's priority was always towards yuuna and her recovery.

onto the next topic, which is the show taking away and then returning these characters functions throughout. whats important to consider here is what is considered tragic, is it the characters living without these certain functions, or is it the act of losing these functions themselves?

"It'll definitely improve. I mean, we haven't done anything wrong." (Fuu, s1ep9) again, no distasteful jokes made about their disabilities, and fuu even plays it off with her sick eyepatch. her worries instead stem from the loss of itsuki's dream, in the form of her no longer being able to sing. thats the key factor here, being punished for doing what is right, losing the ability to do what you could do before, losing the memories of the time you spent with your friends. (thats another thing i see with a lot of these arguments, they always bring up physical disabilities, but ive never seen one actually talk about ones regarding memory, arguably the most precious thing to them). tougou flat out doesnt remember sonoko at all despite being comrades in arms before, and understandably freaks out that the same might happen with her and yuuna.

now, understandably, the ending to s1 seemed super rushed, and them getting their bodily functions back seemed rather sudden. this put a lot of people off, and was really only explained in s2, which many didnt watch.

people should be allowed to grieve if they lose something important to them, and should be allowed to be happy if they get it back. personally, i dont think people realize the weight of their words when they say, "oh i wish karin wouldve stayed deaf, itd be really cool to see the club members learning sign language for it" or "yuuna in a wheelchair was really cute, i wish we saw more of it." yeah its a cool idea i guess, maybe something to see while theyre stil recovering, but forever? in a chase to see more representation, i hope they realize what they are wishing onto others eventually (even if fictional). while many with disabilities are satisfied with their life, they should be able to wish for better if they wanted to, its not like theyd wish their circumstances on anyone else, right? shouldnt the same apply here, to the girls who've actually lived both with and without disabilities?

just my two cents, hope this wasnt too hard to read! theres a lot more i could write up, especially regarding sonoko, but thats a whole other discussion i should probably save for another time

[alias-mike]

hi guys work is boring so im yapping about a fic im working on

ok. im writing an absolutely unhinged hi3 fic right. and its planned to have 2 parts, each based on a movie (basically a "what would honkai characters do if they were in the situations of these movies) and ive run into some problems.

you see, ive decided to make otto the villain of the first part because it lines up with both the plot of the movie and also honkai lore pretty well. however, i have no idea what his motivation should be/why hes evil. like yeah sure i GUESS his motivation can just be "to get more powerful" and "to cause chaos" but thats boring and a bit of a cop out. it also lowkey misses the point of his character because the reason he was Like That in hi3 was because he became obsessed with the idea of kallen and bringing her back to life. like he was a pretty chill guy before all that.

OKAY I HAVE AN IDEA BUT IDK IF I WANT TO DO IT. basically the setting is the cold war and the characters are an age where they wouldve been children during ww2. so, theoretically, there are many ways i could make ottos motivation linked with kallens death. the thing is, i dont feel comfortable writing about a serious and tragic real life event like ww2 and i dont think id be able to do the proper amount of research required to portray it accurately and respectfully. so uhh this idea is a bit of a no-go

the other issue is that i dont have anyone to make the villain of the second part 😭 otto lowkey has to die at the end of part 1 and while outlining part 1 i kinda made world serpent characters be the american government so kevin is out of the question as the villain of part 2 as well. i also havent kept up with hi3 part 2 and i dont reaaallyyy want to read all that just to maybe have vita be a viable villain or something. maybe otto just doesnt die and comes back more evil than ever. or something. ill figure it out one way or another

[ganondoodle]

every now and then i get comments on some of my older rants about totk and im pretty sure its usually the very first post without any of the additions i tend to add later on-

old post about how i found it a lil weird that the one of the first things rauru and sonia doing is put zelda back into a little white maiden dress even tho her own clothes didnt look damaged at all and were far more practical and someone commented that its so she doesnt stand out (something that was said in nearly every comment i got on that post already) and that it was only weird bc i was making it weird or sth xD

but it made me think about it again, so .... that excuse doesnt work for me at all bc .. why wouldnt she want to stand out? whats the danger of that? her suddendly appearing out of nowhere, not knowing anything of the traditions or happenings of the time, being around the king and queen all the time with a duplicate enigma stone and unknown technology (purah pad) isnt weird? i know the excuse of oohoho shes a distant relative of sonia (i know its far stretched techinically true i guess) but why even do that, why go to such lengths of keeping her time traveling secret? making her less of a target for gan isnt really sensical either bc he went for sonia anyway, despite zelda clearly being the younger and less experienced of the two with less control of her power, and if he knew she was techinically more powerful .. well then shes even less in danger, and if he might have wanted to get information from her what could he have gained from it really? she didnt really know anything more anyway? like all she could tell him would be like you will lose i guess lol

(also you could keep it secret from him but why from the others, i just dont see the point, i dont find her look pretty either, she just looks uncomfortable, like if she gets put in to a lil white uwu maiden dress AGAIN im just gonna assume ok you are stripped of all your agency and will sacricifce yourself again wahoo what fun)

in a world were time magic is normal why wouldnt you just say yep she literally came from the future to help us? the usual rules of time travel, as in, dont tell anyone who you are, dont mess with the happenings bc everything can have major consequences, doesnt apply anyway, she goes around by her real name and is involved in literally every major happening .. so why care?? keeping it secret from gan for the future? why? he literally recognizes her within a split second anyway

(no gonna get into why i think her time travelling in the first place is like .. so forced? its only segway to put her out of the game essentially and the oh no tragic twist, but like why, she got the powers and the stone so she unconcisouly travels ... back in time ..?? why not reverse the stones she fell from or something, if it was soemthing that would come up again ok! like she did the time travel accidentally and then learned how to return over the time she spent in the past thats good!! i like that idea, but its never broguht up again, the closest thing to it is the weird two time bubbles that just serve to give you her time powers (whats up with how that went down anyway) and then to send the mastersword back ... why even do that when it could have fallen and travelled back with her right away?? and both of those are at the very start of the game AND IT NEVER COMES UP AGAIN, like fine if it was her trying to go back but not getting it right so she creates weird ass time bubbles cool! why not put them all over the place with them getting bigger and maybe being able to talk to link from the past idk SOMETHING- ok ill stop here ...)

[suiana]

surviving romance still tears me apart after MONTHS of ir finished.everytime i go back to read some chapters to reminisce or maybe just clip for videos i cry no i SOB. IT'S THE MOST BEUTIFUL PEACE OF FICTION AND I SYILL REFUSE TO BEILEVE THAT SE EUN WAS THE DEVIL. EVEN THOUGH I MADE A WHOLE BOARD BEFORE IT WAS REVEALED, SHOWING HOW SIMILIAR SHE IS TO THE DEVIL AND IM PLANNING ON UPDATING IT IUTS JUST WHY SHE MANIPULATED ME SO BAD THAT EVEN I DONT THINK SHES THVW DEVIL I LOVE SE EUN U CANR DO THIS TK ME IOVE U SE EUN STAY WITH ME STOP YOUR NOT TT DEV YOUYT NOT DTMEH DEVI.Ok anyways i really love how each of the girls pictures were crossed out. I don't get seonyeongs YET but maybe it's about her growing literally and also mentally and tearing the page?? Idfk. Hana's rip was lips that looked seductive, or lips like a siren because on the first run she died because she trusted her friends voice, which lead to her death and her zombie form becoming the same thing she died to. MY FAVORITE ONE IS DEFINITELY JURI AND SHINBIS CROSS. IT EVEN LOOKS LIKE THE SLICE WHERE SHINBI WAS KILLED AND I HTAE THST THEIR SO TRAGIC. Basically, Shinbi and juri's crosses are aligned. Their canon. Anyways!! Rina's cross being a heart, AND HAVING A LITYLE HEART NEXT TO HERS RESEMBLING MINWOO IS SI CUTE OMD. Cheram, jinhiu, mihiu are all normal rips because they got out of the story at the same time. Chaerin's is also a rip similiar to theirs, but its a straight line cuz she got out of the story by the help of the devil im totally not reaching but it also looks much older and just ripped unlike the other ones, which looked punched through symbolizing how she wasnt even able to get out of the story while being self aware of whar would happen jihyeon's cross was ripped out like chaerins,except hers is fully ripped out cuz she actually got to go out of the story after finding herself unlike chaerin who went insane because she was self aware. Seyeongs page being a pink cross talks about how shes still just a character in a story. Nothing else AND THAT HURTS SO BAD. I WILL DIE ON A HIL DEFENDING SEYEONG MY BABY. MY CUTIE. Also, jinhius cut is like a sword bc shes a swordswoman, maybe cheram's rip is referencing to a window and how much she helped?? Yeri's page looks crumpled up and punched at bc she punches and she also cried before she died on the last run. Im not sure why seonwoo's page is just a little cut but do wish we saw more of her cuz shes sk pretty :(This isnt the full explanation cs tumblr deleted my last ask i probably shouldve added on notes instead.. ANYWAYS!! im finally not anonymous cuz i really want to show you what im referencing to and my old board of why i thought se eun was the devil 🙏🙏

i guess ill binge read this after im done writing my lab report LOL

[marimboy404]

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pron

idk how to draw protogen very well so maybe not protogen sorry

anything thats like hateful on purpose like nazi shit etc or terf stuff yk

ANYTHING that sexualizes minors IN ANY WAY bc thats fucking nasty 💀

again im a minor so i dont feel comfortable drawing kink stuff

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[dinosforpresident]

I am so fucking scared that my surving was useless in the end. I am reading a little life and I cant help but see myself in willem and jude where growing up was a task I was bearly abled to full fill. (You know how adults tend to say that adulthood is chasing the joy that once came so easly to you as a child. If adulthood is nothing more than griefing something I have never had in the first place then what exactly is waiting for me.) I am afraid that for a short time I will find people to love but whom I will inevitably lose again to time. Now I dont know how the book ends yet but I suppose it ends like all the storys about people like me with a metal hook in my back and a pretty speech on my toung. What if that is all it is a fate we cant out run what if the broken the crooked were never supposed to have a happy end. I dont want have survived this bullshit just to end up thinking that I have finally made it in my 20s just to end up in the same fucking position as I am now with almost 19 but instead of killing myself when I was 16 I am going to do it when I am 36. What is the motherfucking point? I have been treating this part of my life as the epilog to the story of a kid surviving its personal hell but the day will come where I will have to accept that this shit can go on for another 20 years what then will I set another limit I decide I will not make it past? Fuck all of this. I am not going to die I am not going to fucking let this shitty ass narrative kill me off as another tragic death of a menatly ill queer I am real I am here I want friends to grow old with I want to grow old and I will be the elderly person that survived the elderly person that I have never had that so many of us have never had