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mirandimoo · 1 year

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The way that I am utterly speechless about gear 5. The animation, the sounds, the laughter…

It was all done so perfectly, so emotionally, I genuinely have no words that can describe the emotions I felt by watching it. I literally was crying from laughing and smiling so hard, Luffys energy as joy boy and sun god nika is contagious.

I feel like I’ll never be the same after this. I feel like witnessing the rebirth of Joy boy through Luffy has changed me on such a fundamental level that I can’t articulate with words at this moment. I don’t know if I ever will be able to.

#i wish I had better words #to describe the feeling in my chest #i wanna scream #and cry #and laugh #gear 5 gave me chills when reading it in the manga #and seeing it finally animated #i fear I’ll never be the same #one piece 1071 #one piece #one piece spoilers #monkey d luffy #gear 5th #sun god luffy #sun god nika #joy boy

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aqueousammonia-art · 5 months

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bought donuts recently and thought of them

please don’t ask me how much time I spent on this drawing. enjoy

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xx-sketchy-xx · 7 months

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him

I need more Fanart of him (btw I just wanted to draw cursed dally lol)

Also he slays as a girl lol

#wakfu dally #Percedal of Sadlygrove #Dally wakfu #wakfu #wakfu fanart #ankama #Iop #wakfu iop #I swear if his powers are gone for good #Idk if I’ll be happy or not #And it’d be weird if his child suddenly was the new god #Cause then like.. they’d have the same memories #Also I’ve always wanted Goultards curse to be permanently taken away #But would if it was like a pass it on thing #Haha funny #ANOTHER THING #Im also incredible angry how quickly Dally grew old in the time circle #It was ridiculously fast and I choose to ignore it #The boi will never die.. or he would have two times ago #I did appreciate and approve of his fear though #He truly loves and fears for all his children and family #He had a bigger character development then Sokka (TLA)#Bro I can’t #I’m not simping him #I simply love his relationships and personality #It’s a rare connection with a character (for me)

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the-woman-upstairs · 4 months

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It’s just…so painful to watch Armand readily submit in order to obtain the love he so desperately craves. And while it’s most assuredly a manipulative tactic, it’s still one borne out of fear and desperation. He cannot lose this person he’s come to love and so will become whatever they want, do whatever they want just so they’ll stay with him. But it won’t be enough. No matter how much he acquiesces or seeks to control (himself, others, the environment), he won’t be able to make Louis stay with him in the perfect life, perfect self he built in the hopes of finally being loved. It will all crumble with Armand left alone in the rubble of what he created, the author of his own abandonment.

#this unfortunately hits way too close to home for me #let’s not even get into Claudia’s anger at never being enough #iwtv spoilers #interview with the vampire #armand #this is just me speaking from personal experience…but there is definite manipulation at play here from Armand #and I don’t necessarily mean that pejoratively- when you’re desperate for people to like/love you you’ll become whatever they want #or whatever you think they’d want and you give it to them so they’ll want to keep you around #I’ve done it so often with the people in my life- and make no mistake it’s also a survival tactic #you give someone what they want they won’t hurt you #and when that’s how you survive for years and years it becomes the default method of interacting with others #even with normal people who genuinely mean you no harm you revert to that people pleasing mode #as a means of control both external and internal #this is what i see armand doing- his way of surviving that he’s never truly broken out of #armand ceding coven control to Louis and curating the Dubai penthouse for Louis are part of the same pattern of behavior #and even tho it’s ultimately harmful and will only end badly for armand and Louis’ relationship #idk if armand knows how to not exist that way with someone he loves/desires #all of this also ties into louis and daniel #because of course Armand will lose it over Louis finding connection and interest with someone else aside from him #someone HUMAN no less #and I can see Armand taking out his anger on Daniel as a way of expressing his own frustration at still not being enough for Louis #breaking daniel’s mind in a desperate attempt to understand why this human could reach Louis in ways he couldn’t #not saying any of this to excuse Armand and his behavior obviously (I’m very upset and worried over the trial looming on the horizon)#but I do understand this impulse and how you’ll throw ANYONE under the bus in order to preserve your place with loved ones #it’s all horrifying but unfortunately I empathize #like even if Louis is right to walk out on him when he learns/remembers the truth of what happened to Claudia #I’ll probably still find myself saddened by Armand’s fate because I’ve absolutely been there myself #it’s a tragedy of his own making- his fear and desperation birthing manipulative and controlling behaviors #that ultimately result in your own abandonment #god this fucking show

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supercalime · 6 months

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Honest question, why do yall care? I mean, if it’s real, good for them but like, this feels so gross. I’ve seen how fans treat them like characters, they deserve all the privacy they can get, relationship or not

#also looking back there’s a lot of signs that it is fake #I’ll list them if anyone cares:#first the shipping has been weird specially from the perspective of assuming Shayne’s sexuality #he’s been saying he’s straight since forever and court is enby #so doing so you’re actively trying to out him #Courtney would never wear a dress like that #also court would do something with their hair #those photos look like all the photos Brennan takes #the engagement one was probably shot in the same day with a shitty phone to fool yall #there are literally no pictures of them inside a venue or with anyone else #the only people sharing stuff are smosh people #those pics have already been edited and to edit wedding photos it takes a long ass time #it wouldn’t be possible to have them ready by Monday if they married on Friday #they’ve wanted to have the podcast to reach a certain amount of views in 24h #and what better way to do so then to lean into the parasocial babies who can’t diferentiate real and fiction?#anyway #I feel bad for them #if I’m taking out of my ass here and the marriage is true #they deserved privacy #they deserved to not have every interaction they had not be analyzed #no one should have to hide a relationship in fear of public response #lety rambles #shourtney #shartney #shortney #Smosh #Courtney miller #shayne topp

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calico-fiish · 4 months

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#I fear I’ll never be the same!!!#but I loved this series sm y’all #hnk #phos #antarcticite #art #宝石の国 #land of the lustrous

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banghwa · 8 months

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genuine question how do u get over ur fear of existing

#i haven’t been able to rly let myself enjoy my new job without stressing about whether it’s enough #and i know it is because other people work here with the same paycheck and live alone and happy #but i cant let myself believe that like. i’ll ever be okay on my own #i think ive been rly conditioned to think i’ll fail no matter what even though i know i wont #like i’m fucking smart im competent i have proved it i can live on my own i AM independent #but literally this house is a jail cell it gets to a point where i don’t even notice the days go by #i have never felt like a real person until i moved out for those few months and that was so scary #like. how do i get over that fear of screwing my life over and just fucking go out and live #dl

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winnie-the-monster · 1 year

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The more and more I think about it, the more tragic Landons story actually becomes. 😭😭😭 and I just want Landon back so badly. So he can get a better story and a chance at happiness.

#sorry in my Landon feels #I just can’t help but think about all these little things that Landon himself stated in one episode (like what type of life he didn’t want)#or things he feared and things he wanted for himself etc #only for the writers to turn around and give him to exact thing he didn’t want from himself #dangle the chance for him to possibly have the life he wants(or just come back to life period) and happiness in front of him like a carrot #to only rip it away from him in some of the worst ways possible #plus having him spent 2 seasons straight going through trauma and being torture #being bullied and mistreated by the people at the school who are his so called friends #who supposedly ‘care about him’#the same ‘friends’ who treated some of the people who came to harm them better than Landon #even lost a part of his soul and it was all for nothing #i’ll truly never be over this #landon kirby #landon kirby deserved better

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chibishortdeath · 5 months

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Hmmm I kinda want to make a side blog for RPG Maker game development related things to be able to talk to more experienced people in that community, but at the same time I both don’t really think I’d get much attention and don’t want to accidentally spoil my own game (^^ ; ).

I have a rough story, concept doodles, a tileset, some character sprites, an enemy that walks around but can’t initiate battle yet (if I even decide to have a battle system), a couple rooms with some events, and a functioning run button, but I’m still lost on how to do much else at the moment. Especially since this program has the ability for scripting, meaning I’ll probably have to learn and actually retain another coding language.

So, I’m not very far at all lol. Idk how well that’d go over on the established fandom website, but eh.

#text post #incoherent rambling #project update #game project #I’m still also debating whether or not I can actually even make a proper horror game too #It’s the rule of like just being a horror fan doesn’t make you good at horror being afraid of something does? ya know?#I am trying to go with things that scare me personally but it’s been difficult #either things aren’t concrete of concepts enough or are wayyyy too oddly specific to make anything about #which is quitter talk I know but how does one translate the childhood heebee jeebees of watching top ten gaming videos past bedtime 💀💀💀#or like the way too broad general fear of lack of control without making it too on the nose or too vague #truly a balancing act writing is #kinda ironically I am also a little bit less afraid of hospitals after having been to one for myself rather than family members #which makes things both more and less difficult???#on one hand I have better references for them now but on the other hand I’m desensitized to it 😔#I think I get used to things a little too easily for a lot of things to stay scary #the thing was a scary movie the first time I saw it and now it’s a comfort film #funger was a very scary game until I first died and reloaded a save with little consequence and now it’s just a spooky but fun rpg #but then at the same time thinking about a movie studio logo before a movie that scared me as a kid cause there was a monster in it #still gives weird left over shivers but actually seeing it doesn’t anymore for some reason #I feel like that’s how it’s worked with most things I’ve ever been afraid of in my life besides concepts like death control or idk drowning #ugh writing is HARD #but actually making a functional and fun to play game is harder oh my god do I not know how to make puzzles #I have made swivel chairs that can be knocked and walked over but that’s about it and idk what to do with that knowledge lmaooooo #and I don’t want the entire gameplay loop to be read text search room get key repeat cause that’s boring #I have also desperately tried making a stamina system but there’s not much help with that online especially not in the rpg maker forums #the no necroposting rule sucks all the threads for questions I have never get answered and never will cause no one is allowed to due to age #anyway idk what to tag this probably won’t get seen since it’s not my usual anyway but eh whatever I’ll think about this #hopefully I remember the passwords to two blogs 💀💀💀

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lonelysatoru · 9 months

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just saw the jjk leaks. wish i could say i was surprised but this shit getting very predictable

#text post #jujutsu kaisen #jjk leaks #it’s always the same old bull i fear #like duh…of course. i’m convinced it’s just bad writing atp #‘it’s bc he’s gonna swap souls at the enddd’ he not gon live long enough to do that i fear #nobody living long enough to do a single goddamn thing in the dead fest anime cmon #i haven’t seen the rest of the season and i’ll never see another one bc im genuinely not watching ever again #and i mean that.#im going back to haikyuu like this is not worth it #i hope gege die #tell me how it feels bitch!#sukuna official divk rider fr

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prosopopeya · 1 month

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here’s my thing about moffat. he can write an invigorating story. he can! problem is, he’s got like 10 invigorating plot elements and when he has to write a story he puts them in a cup and shakes it around and then picks a few and writes another variation of them. it’s an invigorating story the first few times around and then you start to see through the……. cracks. if you will.

just finished silence in the library/forest of the dead and the way it already recycled so many elements….

#childhood fears #big mysteries easily summed up by one question #eerie monsters who maybe repeat one phrase #monsters who you can’t see when they attack #a young child especially a girl #a quippy refrain or two #having the bad guy google the doctor and then just leave #I CANT BELIEVE THAT HAPPENS AT LEAST TWICE #not to mention the same characters on repeat. to death.#double not to mention the strong female characters #oh and just this second time. everybody lives.#it’s one thing to maybe say hey he’s giving a nod to s1 #but no. I’ve seen s5-7.#he never stops nodding #and the tragic reality is the eleventh doctor did indeed sweep me away with his potential #very unfortunate for me.#I’ll have to bust out the spn skills of mentally excising the bits I don’t like

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georgianadarcies · 5 months

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genuine and open question: how do you know when someone just isn’t that into you vs. maybe you never gave yourself a real chance with them and should truly give it a go just in case there’s a shot?

#isabel talks #if I don’t ever actually give myself a chance with him I’ll never know if it could’ve happened #but if I do and it goes poorly… I could ruin so many things #if I crossed a line he and his friends could resent me for it and we’re all on the same team #and he and I will be on the e-board together next year #but at the same time. these feelings haven’t left and I met him nearly two years ago #and they haven’t been this strong since last year before he effectively ended our friendship without a word #(and I know that was shitty but it’s been a year and he’s grown. a lot)#so I’ve just been sitting here falling for him more and more every time he’s around wondering and wishing #but never having the opportunity to make a stupid decision like flirting or whatever #and now….. now I could. I very much so COULD.#I’d also like to state that I know him well enough and he does NOT seem heartbroken. like he truly seems fine.#I could get into my opinions and knowledge on how not serious that relationship was #but the fact is while he was in it I never stood a chance #do I now? is it just hope? should I just call it?#do I spend my summer only focusing on trying to find someone else (which I fear will just mean casual dating)?#pls help #advice is appreciated #perspective as well #I am a very lovesick 21 year old without any of that

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freakylilnutjob · 2 years

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Can you imagine how Kit feels?

Imagine how he might have felt getting to play Nick in season one with the gradual progression of self acceptance and confidence and coming out on his own terms, and then this.

The literal opposite of Nick’s story line.

He will never get to go back to that. There is no gradual self acceptance and confidence with this. His choice was ripped from him.

This is going to affect him for the rest of his life. He’s eighteen!! Eighteen!! He’s a kid still!! He doesn’t deserve this. No one deserves this.

#this whole situation is fucked #it’s like Nick yelling he’s bi at the dinner table cause David wouldn’t shut the fuck up #I hope everyone who brought Kit to this point knows that they’re a David #literal scum #and I’ll keep saying this:#KIT DESERVES SO MUCH BETTER #I fear Nick will never be the same for Kit #and that breaks my heart #I hope the Heartstopper cast and crew can help Kit heal and feel at least a little bit better #kit connor #sav speaks

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hanamatsuiwaoi · 10 months

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it would be so crazy to come back to this account but change it instead to an Inuokko stan account. that’d be insane. crazy. but I was crazy once.

#matsuhanaiwaoi was my peak fandom days #I’ll never not love it and obsess over it when I see it #and seeing it grow in popularity over time when back then it was just me and a handful of ppl writing for it??#it’s been so cool to see #I love it sm #but Inuokko now trumps Matsuhanaiwaoi #they stand on the same number one level #but the brain worms love Inuokko sm rn #they have for like two years now #like Matsuhanaiwaoi #I fear they’ll always be apart of me now

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viderose · 1 year

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he’s annoying, i don’t like him (he hasn’t given me as much attention lately)

#im fighting for my life out here #i feel so childish and annoying. like rationally ik i can’t have his undivided attention. but that doesn’t mean i don’t want it sometimes🥺#i think what actually is happening is that im worrying he’s about to ghost #i feel bad thinking that though. bc he seems like a very honest and mature person? with how he talks abt things i don’t think he would rly #ghost me after talking for this amount of time. but ya never can tell…. every time we don’t talk as much for a few days i get very nervous #and it’s weirdly quite difficult to push that worry out of my head. and then i get annoyed with myself for worrying about it to begin with #like i can’t control what he does so why worry about his hypothetical actions? i’ll deal w the consequences of them if or when they occur.#if we stop talking i’ll feel sad and i’ll miss him for a bit and then i’ll get over it. that’s all. it’s not that bad.#but anyway my point is we good #sometimes idk if id truly feel That sad. i think it depends how it ends.#or maybe i just don’t think anyone can hurt my feelings as much as the first person to hurt my feelings in a specific way #like you experience a loss or betrayal or grief - whatever - the first time and it’s all encompassing. it feels like it could genuinely kill #you it hurts so bad. and every subsequent loss or betrayal or grief you experience just isn’t the same? you barely flinch #maybe it’s because you learn to process those emotions better or maybe it’s keeping things at arm’s length as a protective measure #that means nothing hurts as much as the first thing #idk #this became a silly ramble #im just very attached to him and i miss him when he’s busy but also don’t want to ask too much for fear of being a nuisance or rejected :)#ykwim?#i miss him a lot

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unforgivingchorus · 1 year

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I can’t read wings au fics very often despite loving them because the adhd/autism hits and I inevitably find myself reading about birds instead

#AimeeSpeaks #fanfiction meta #ao3 #wing au #my friends are mostly on the better empathise with animals than humans side of autism but I’m firmly on the I oppisite side #I don’t really get the humanisation or like. empathy sympathy thing for animals #I’m not cruel and I like. respect that animals have boundaries and free will and deserve respect #like I know everything in theory I just don’t feel any real attachment to animals unless it’s like rare cases #I would never support the abuse of animals which I’m already afraid people thing when I say this stuff #I just don’t emotionally connect with them at all #plus despite all my friends loving rodents I’m extremely afraid of them and hate them #all rodents. rats and mice elicit such genuine fear in me it’s not normal. I can’t think about them or I’ll get too paranoid.#I can’t touch hamsters or rabbits or stuff and would much rather not be in the same room as them #I’m neutral on most other animals. soem I don’t like and some I respect #but overall very neutral #we used to play a game on long art days where my friend would name animals and I would state my stance on them #people who were around it a lot became desensitised to how many animals I’m nuetrual or not liking on but some people expected me to love th #the point of this is not even cats or dogs intrest or elicit emotions in me.#I respect cats but find alot of them dirty (anxiety trigger for me) and am neutral to dogs #my aunts dog is generally loved by the family but sometimes I feel guilty that she seems to really like me because I like #I respect her and can like. logically guess what she’s feeling and so I can pet her when I’m overwhelmed and let her sleep next to me #when I nap at family events but. I get really guilty that I don’t feel that same level of friendliness back to her. just vague acceptance #my friends dog is the only animal I’ve ever emotionally connected with. he’s a shithead with extreme anxiety and I was very drunk.#but the point of this is I like birds #liek not just respect them like cats and lizards I like them #I want to own one #I can sympathise with them easily I don’t think their dirty and I didn’t them extremely interesting #so I can’t read about them without the autism really kicking in and making my hyperfixate on actual bird reasearch

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