#i feel it when my heart beats

[becomeawendybird]

I Feel It When My Heart Beats by QuickedWeen (10.6k, E)

Harry offers to be her best friend Liam's fake date to his work Valentine's Day party, and the night takes an unexpected turn.

Additional Tags: Fake/Pretend Relationship, Valentine's Day, Party, Office Party, Sugar Baby Harry Styles, Girl Direction, Smut, Strap-Ons

A femslash Valentine's remix of Ride My Sleigh Tonight by @kingsofeverything for the @dirtythirtyfest

[anotherpapercut]

is anyone else just trying to keep it together and finding that it gets a little harder when it never gets better or is it just me and that guy from fall out boy

[ruporas]

i’ll find you again in every universe. let us be a little more honest, let us have a little more time.

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

[svtskneecaps]

also in terms of the bolas playlist it's fascinating to me that the songs added by each person have a slight tendency to represent a consistent aspect of bolas

like

the songs added by slime are their chaos

the songs added by philza are their rebellion

the songs added by cellbit are their rage

the songs added by baghera are their anguish

it's so fucking FASCINATING TO ME but i don't know enough music theory to elaborate lmfao this is Vibes Only

(mouse's songs i can't boil down to an easy noun which is why they aren't mentioned lmao anyway they go hard asf)

(also i went on the longest fucking unhinged elaboration in the tags lmfao i almost didn't have enough tags left to tag "long tags" at the end

(i could have even gone on longer in terms of where their characters were at entering purgatory [philza: cage for a cage; cellbit: fed worker murders; baghera: her past as a federation experiment; slime: turning into a code because of the code pretending to be his daughter] but i ran out of space and also time it's 4AM AAAAA)

[shannonsketches]

Why is the anime so weird, it's not even the same series dude?? It's like,

Anime:

GOKU: I have a great idea to bring peace to the universe, and my leadership and compassion alone will unite us all. I have No Flaws and am A True Relatable Everyman :)

VEGETA: NO! I AM THE BEST AND I WILL CAUSE PROBLEMS UNTIL I AM RECOGNIZED AS SUCH!!!!

Manga:

GOKU: Vegeta what's cornmeal made of? I know it's what the corn eats, but what's it made of? VEGETA: Hey Kakarot let's play the quiet game until one of us dies.

[linusbenjamin]

Person of Interest | 1×01 // 3×09

[c---crow]

he just made me cum so hard it felt like i died

[zstraps]

i realized with this bts drop that i don’t actually rewatch the show that much. i am p much constantly thinking about it or reading fic or looking at gifs or screen caps, to the point that i can practically play it in my brain, but none of those involve SOUND. so watching that mermaid video with this woman’s work playing and the ep 8 clip with roads to moscow FUCK ME UP

[sydneys-adamu]

upon meeting for the sydney for the first time carmy couldn’t:

1. remember the word “resume”

2. remember what UPS was

and I am supposed to *checks notes* believe he didn’t fall in love with her right away

[nomattertheoceans]

I've been reading the Percy Jackson books for the first time over the past two weeks! Just finished "The Battle of the Labyrinth" last night (which btw is my favorite of the series so far!!)

I have now gained a new obsession but it might not be what you think

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

Hypochondriac Hymn

there's a space between my collarbones

a little hollow of warmth

I place my fingers in the dip

and wait for the rush of blood

a little pressure against my throat

the thump of a shot of life

despite the fears

that keep my hands here

my heart still beats

the same old pace

in that space between my collarbones

~ xoxo, Love yoU (Lord my God)

[aeide-thea]

[uncanny-tranny]

I think something that would have helped me as a kid were open discussions around self-harm, and the fact that it doesn't fit the very niche or starry-eyed, whimsical version people have in their minds. I wish there were more people who didn't brush off people who self-harmed in "weird" ways.

I remember opening up to some friends of mine once, many years ago, about this very issue (since they'd brought it up), and I remember being laughed at because I had described something that wasn't "typical," something which was deemed "too shocking, absurd, hilarious," and I look back on that memory and it's like... we need to put in a lot more work into how people view self-harm and how people engage with us. Because I'd never self-harmed in the ways that people think of, even as a really small child.

I understand the sheer darkness of this topic, but you've gotta realize at some point that you can't help us by ignoring us. You can't save us by ridiculing us or making us feel like freaks, like monsters unworthy of being seen. The ways I self-harmed were perhaps more dangerous than other methods, and yet it wasn't taken seriously at all. So I never talked about it until now, because I know there are kids today who are where I was. If you're that kid, I am so sorry. I hope you are taken seriously, I hope you are shown compassion, understanding, true and unbridled love, and adoration. I am so sorry. I am sending you my heart and soul.

[agnesmontague]

don't mean this to be a hot take or anything but at the point that john and arthur are at it almost feels kinda meaningless to label it as romantic love or otherwise like if you're THAT entwined at the roots of your ego what even is the boundary of that love anymore. if your relationship is at the point where you're pulling each other towards humanity on an existential level what exactly is the point of debating where physical affection or "specific" feelings fall on that line

[pastafossa]

I got my stress test and had the holt monitor put on today! The good news is my weird heart issues don't seem to be triggered solely by physical exertion (heart was still weird and was dizzy on sitting/standing up just like in previous tests, but my heart didn't get MORE weird when my heart rate increased). Which makes sense since half the time I'll literally just be laying in bed falling asleep or sitting at my PC when I feel it go through a little episode, so it's clearly happening ALL the time and not just when moving around. So that rules a few things out! Now I've got the heart monitor on, and I'll wear it for 5 days (meaning it can consistently catch what's going on) and I have to keep a little diary of what I'm doing whenever I have symptoms. It's progress!