#i feel like skipping it today even if then i dont get the book i wanna read bc they'll send it back today

[skunkg1rll]

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[elsmstrss]

HIIII BABE requesting general hcs of what ellie williams is like as a gf, i feel like she’s such a simp

hi baby!! ellie is down astronomically BAD i just know it

ellie williams headcannon: ellie as your simpy gf

tags: ellie williams x gn!reader , fluff , headcannon , lapslock , ellie is a simp for reader , some suggestive *wink* content , no actual smut tho ! , ellie is so dramatic pls

i feel like ellie would be so clingy towards you. it genuinely confuses everyone in jackson because ellie kind of built this stoic and mysterious image around the town but, whenever she's around you, she noticeably melts.

she's gotten into trouble with maria multiple times for skipping out on her duties to spend time with you.

"yeah maria i don't think i can today, i don't feel too well," ellie would sniffle, coughing dramatically and peeking up at maria to gauge her reaction. maria would just roll her eyes and let it slide because it's actually impressive the lengths ellie will go just to spend time with you.

god forbid ellie is around whenever you're dressed up even just a tiny bit more than the usual old and distressed get-up you tolerate for patrol.

you'd walk into the room, ellie sitting on the bed waiting patiently. the second her eyes land on you, her hand is clutching her chest and she falls back onto the bed dramatically.

"damn baby, it should be a crime to look this good. i dont know if i can handle it anymore."

you just laugh and playfully slap her arm, earning an extremely fond look from ellie before she pulls you in to attack your lips.

jokes aside you still affect ellie badly, even after all this time.

it physically pains her to see you hurt, in any form. she's anxious and jittery whenever your not on her radar.

and whenever you two fuck, it's like the first time all over again. when you strip for her, you'd swear it was the first time she's ever seen you like that. her eyes travel over your body and she's so desperate to touch you, she's completely enamored by you.

you're always on her mind too.

whenever she's out on patrol, she always makes it a point to bring some kind of gift for you. whether it was a pretty flower she saw that reminded her of you, or a book you had mentioned you wanted to read, or even a necklace she knew you would love.

anways, your friends constantly tease you both about it, how ellie is literally at your beck and call, but ellie doesn't even bother to deny the allegations.

[burnedwriter]

‘’too late’’

A/n:ft xiao,childe and diluc.These are some headcanons of how their worst nightmare came to life,your death

warnings:angst,mention of death,gender-neutral language used.

🐋childe/tartaglia

🐋Childe is a harbinger as we all know so he probably has a lot of enemies or people trying to get him and if its not directly him that means they will come after you,to hit him exactly were it hurts the most.

🐋That’s one of the many reasons he has taught you how to fight in the first place,just in case something like this happens when hes away on a mission,but is this really enough to keep you from harms way.

🐋One day he will come against a gloomy discovery that was about to unfold as he came back to your home.

Walking towards the house,he saw footprints going towards your house.It took him a second to realize what was going on from the shock,thinking of the worst case scenario,his heart started beating loudly as he rushed towards the house as fast as he could.

‘‘shit shit shit’‘he whispered to himself all the negative thoughts circling around in his mind,he hoped to see you peacefully reading your book but that was far from the truth.

bursting through the door he saw you sitting up with your back against the wall one hand holding the bloody sword and the other pressing on the big wound you had on you abdomen.He immediatly run on your side trying to get you to get up.

‘‘please get up ,i need to get you to safety’‘he choked,his voice shaky tears threatening to escape from his eyes,his worst nightmare coming to life as he continued to try and get you to stand up.

‘‘Ajax,its ok ,please it’s too late now’‘you struggled to say,your hand leaving the sword and putting it on his head,stroking his hair softly one last time as he put his head in the crook of your neck,sobbing quietly staining your shoulder with tears,it was the first time you saw childe cry,it always broke your heart seeing him in pain but it was too late now the only thing you could do was hold him in your warm embrace as it slowly turned cold,taking your last breath.

🦉Diluc

🦉Just like childe he has many enemies but in diluc’s case it’s the fatui he has to look out for.Even though he had run ins with them years ago he still has an eye out for them since they are scattered all over mondstadt.

🦉Diluc was always  cautious about you going out on your own without supervision aka him being your bodyguard but in response to that you always said that everything was going to be ok and there was nothing to worry about.

🦉Not until today....

🦉Coming back to the winery he sensed something was off,getting greeted by Adeline instead of you was a rare sight as it only happened when you were sick or extremly tired.

‘‘Master diluc,please dont panic with what i am about to say’‘Adeline nervously said,making Diluc’s heart skip beats and drop in an instant even without Adeline telling him but let her finished anyways as he didnt want to jump to conclusion.

‘‘they havent come back’‘she said with the same anxious tone in her voice.

‘‘I wil go look for them’‘Diluc said calmly.He may looked calm and collected on the outside but on the inside he could feel his soul wither as time passed.

Leaving the winery in a haste,he got on his horse and off he was,the first location he went to was mondstadt,trying desperatly to ask people about your whereabouts or if they have seen you at all but  it was late at night so the only people to ask where the knights at the main gate.The knights telling diluc that they saw you leave the city and take the road that lead towards the winery.Taking the same path diluc’s body slowly started getting overtaken by stress as he saw no sight of you.

Suddenly he saw a person laying in the middle of the pathath.

‘‘no it can’t be’‘diluc whispered out loud,getting closer and realizing who the person was.Getting off his horse he sprinted towards you.

He breathed heavily as he held you lifeless corpse on his hand,tears streaming down his cheeks,shaking you desperatly to ‘’wake up’’ as he couldnt believe that you were dead right before his very own eyes,regretting his desition letting you go out alone.From all the shaking,diluc noticed that you were holding something on your half closed hand,taking it off he saw that it was a fatui insignia.Did you try to fight back?or did they placed it there on purpose knowing that diluc would find you eventually.His grief slowly turned into burning hatred.Taking you into his arms and taking you back to the winery for a proper burial.

‘‘i won’t let them get away with it,i promise’‘stroking your face softly one last time,starting to plot his revenge for what they did to avenge you.

🍃😠Xiao

🍃😠Now Xioa he was always scared and very cautious when you were away traveling before coming back to liyue to stay for a bit and leaving again to continue your travels again.You would sent him letters knowing your were abouts with photos of beautiful scenary that you took from  the places you are visiting.

🍃😠He told you to call out his name no matter how dangerous the situation was and that he will be there for you  no matter what.

🍃😠Unlike the others Xiao never saw you die.He realized it when latern rite happened,you always came to liyue around that time to visit and pass time with him as it was the aniversary where the two of you officially became a couple.

This time was different,you never showed up during latern rite nor he recieved any letters from you that you werent going to make it this year’s latern rite nor the next nor the one after that,At first he thought you found someone else but he realized that wasnt thecase,Xiao quickly realized that your luck might have caught up to you.He felt devistated he wasnt even able to say goodbye to you,the ;ast conversation you two had running on rpeat inside his head over and over again remembering the last location you were going to visit before you left.Getting up from where he was sitting he decide that he was going to find you no matter what.

[autistic-fandom-trash]

jongerry incorrect quotes

*Jon and Gerry skipping stones on a lake* Jon: It’s such a beautiful evening. Gerry, whispering: Take that you fucking lake. --- Jon: Where are you going? Gerry: To get ice cream or commit a felony, I’ll decide on the way there. --- Gerry: Man, I only ever see you awake, do you ever shut down or stop running? Jon: Oh, I’m always running. The question is from what. --- Gerry: I want to wake up with you every day for the rest of our lives. Jon: I wake up at 4:30 AM. Gerry:...I want to see you at some point every day for the rest of our lives. --- Jon: Gerry and I have the kind of easy chemistry where we finish each other's- Gerry: Sentences. Jon: Don't interrupt me. --- Gerry: You love me, right, Jon? Jon: Normally, I’d say yes without hesitation, but I feel like this is going somewhere and I don’t like it. --- Jon: Heads up if you try to make a candle with food coloring, the food coloring will just sink to the bottom of the glass, and when the flame eventually reaches the bottom all the food coloring will catch fire and become one giant tall flame that you cannot possibly blow out and the glass will start to crack and then you'll throw your tea on it in a panic and then the extremely hot food coloring will boil and sizzle horribly and then the glass will shatter. Please take my word on this. Gerry: What did you do, Jon? Jon: A MISTAKE. --- Jon: *Kicks the door down looking panicked* Gerry: What did you do? Jon: Nobody died. Gerry: WHAT KIND OF ANSWER IS THAT?! --- Jon: WHAT’S YOUR TYPE? Gerry: Anything, honestly, but nerds especially. Jon, desperately, as Gerry bleeds out: YOUR BLOOD TYPE! Gerry: Oh! B positive. Jon: DONT TRY TO CHEER ME UP JUST TELL ME YOUR BLOOD TYPE! --- Gerry: Here's some advice. Jon: I didn't ask for any. Gerry: Too bad. I'm stuck here with my thoughts and you're the only one who talks to me. --- Gerry: You fuckers don’t know about my knife stick. It’s a knife taped to a stick and it’s the ultimate weapon. Jon, not looking up from their book: Spear. Gerry: BLOCKED. --- Jon, about Elias: I prevented a murder today. Gerry: Really? How’d you do that? Jon: Self control. --- Gerry, tending to Jon's wounds: How would you rate your pain? Jon: Zero stars. Would NOT recommend. --- Gerry: Jon, stop! This isn't you, you've gone mad with power! Jon: Well of course I have. Have you ever tried going mad without power? It's boring. --- Gerry: How petty can you get? Jon: I once edited a Wikipedia article to win an argument I was wrong about. --- Gerry: Whaddya call a fish with no eyes? Jon, not looking up: Myxine Circifrons. Gerry:...fsh. --- Gerry, in a beach shirt: So sue me, it's October and I'd like to be on Island Time for a day! Jon: I have Spotify open right now on my computer, do you want me to blast you? Do you want me to put you on blast? Cuz I've got your history right here on the sidebar: Take it Back by Jimmy Buffet, Nautical Wheelers by Jimmy Buffet, Jolly Mon Sing by Jimmy Buffet, Steamer by Jimmy Buffet, trEAT HER LIKE A LADY BY JIMMY BUFFET, MAÑANA BY JIMMY BUFFET, WHEN SALOME PLAYS THE DRUMS BY JAMES BUFFET, HAVANA DAYDREAMIN BY JIMMY BUFFET- What the FUCK happened to you?! Gerry, laughing: I HAD A CASE OF THE MONDAYS! Jon: ARE YOU HAUNTED?! ARE YOU FUCKING POSSESSED?! YOU USED TO BE MY FRIEND! Gerry, cry-laughing: ᴵ ᴴᴬᴰ ᴬ ᶜᴬˢᴱ ᴼᶠ ᵀᴴᴱ ᴹᴼᴺᴰᴬʸˢ --- Jon: This is a mistake. Gerry, enthusiastically: A mistake we're going to laugh about one day! Jon: But not today. Gerry, still enthusiastic: Oh, no. Today's going to be a mess. --- Gerry: If there's going to be a big dramatic scene, wait until I get back. Jon: Of course. I can't flip this table by myself. --- Jon: You often use humor to deflect trauma. Gerry: Thank you. Jon: I didn't say that was a good thing. Gerry: What I'm hearing is, you think I'm funny. --- Jon: Name a more iconic duo than my crippling fear of abandonment and my anxiety. I'll wait. Gerry: You and me. Jon, tearing up: Okay. --- Gerry: So what’s for dinner? Jon, staring at the food they just burnt: Regret.

[baby--b4t]

Pet/AgeRe Bot Batch!! (⊃•́‿•̀｡)⊃━☆ﾟ.*･｡ﾟ

(Strap in, theres a lot)

Ajax Little ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=4N676Hj2x6bgtC_i1xkaXPFIqu-ml0IO7PZt_Gnfkz8&source=recent-chats

《 SFW /p | AgeRe | Accidental misbehavior 》

『 Ajax was usually such a sweet boy whenever he regressed. He always shared and tried to talk with you whenever you would give him attention. But it was always when he didnt have your attention that he seemed to break the rules.

Today, you had been sitting in the living room, relaxing as you normally did. Ajax had gone off somewhere in the house, but you didnt know where. You just knew he was out of your sight. Thats when you heard a loud thud from the kitchen. Rushing over, you could see flour all over the floor and Childe. He seemed to have gotten that and a couple other ingredients and tried to make something, judging by the bowl in front of him. He made direct eye contact with you, then looked at the bag of flour he had dropped.

"I sorry.. I jus' wanted cookies." Ajax apologized. You had made it a rule that he wasnt allowed to bake or cook without help when he was regressed, and he had broken that rule yet again. 』

Alhaitham Cagregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=-VFpXc3T0DsrIGYYHbFDDRe3_qZ3wtk9WrHtIV9bD5A&source=recent-chats

《 SFW /p | PetRe | Cat-Hybrid!User | Kneading 》

『 Alhaitham had adopted you a while ago, thinking that having a companion might not be so bad for him. He was completely correct. He often found you snuggling up with him, trying to play with him, and even managing to make him smile and laugh with some of your antics. He didnt regret it one bit.

Tonight was no different from most. You two were snuggled up on the couch together, Alhaitham reading a book as you either messed with a toy or were basically asleep. Alhaitham had a blanket over the two of you to keep you comfortable, but he felt like the blanket was moving weirdly. Thats when he looked down and saw you kneading at the blanket, clearly half asleep.

"I think youre ready for bed." Alhaitham said softly, setting his book down on the coffee table as he gently tried to get you to wake up just a bit more. He needed you to be more awake to get you to bed. 』

Alhaitham Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=topOaGed3x2waBTWHKvgwgVKHZzEAY4h8RWjpvMezvs&source=recent-chats

《 SFW /r | Pet/AgeRe | CW: mention of ed 》

『 You couldnt regress. No matter what you did you couldnt seem to get yourself in that headspace to heal. Your body didnt feel right, your clothes didnt fit you correctly, nothing felt right. Alhaitham didnt know exactly what was going on, but he could definitely tell you were more tense than usual lately. You had even started skipping out on your meals again, triggering more alarms in his head.

"Love? Why dont you regress? You look tense-" Alhaitham suggested, but you immediately shut him down. You explained how you just couldnt do it. Then you ended up spilling about your eating habits as well. It all just came out with the tears. Alhaitham held you close and rubbed your back, letting you sob and cry all you needed before talking to you.

"Nonsense." Alhaitham said softly, walking you over to the couch and sitting you on his lap. "My lovely baby? Feeling like they dont look stunning always? Its absolutely untrue, darling. Dont let those nasty thoughts in your head get the better of you. Your health is so much more important than feeling ugly, not that you are anyways. Now, why dont we get you settled down and in something more comfortable, hm?" 』

Baizhu Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=bCNFNb3rALLLu28eJKqRbre0CLM5oO0irhi4z3qh2vM&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Semi-Verbal!User | Behavioral problems 》

『 You had anger issues, something well known to Baizhu even before he agreed to be your caregiver. He was working with you to try and help you manage your bigger emotions in a better way, slowly but surely.

You were playing with some building blocks, stacking them higher and higher before… You accidentally hit the base and it all came tumbling down. You were upset, rightfully. The blocks that were sitting in a pile were now being pushed and thrown around as you took out your anger. Baizhu saw what happened and immediately moved to help you.

"Hey, hey, hey. Easy now." Baizhu said calmly, catching your wrists and holding them in place. "Can we take three big deep breaths together?" He tried to lead you through some breathing for a moment before trying to talk to you. He knew it was pointless to communicate unless you were calming down.

After you took deep breaths with him, he led you over to your emotion chart. It had different colors, textures, and words to try and help you describe exactly how you felt, since it became harder for you to explain once regressed.

"Can you point and show me what feels like you right now, {{user}}?" 』

Dottore Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=0Lgyg0TTBEdQexSIFGIOGCHBXV7ca7X5-OAQTcp8zY8&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Sleeping at his desk 》

『 Dottore had been out for a boring meeting. It was hours that he was in there talking with other Fatui members. Something about a new expedition in Sumerus forest to look for robotic remains. He was exhausted by time he got back to his lab, but it seemed like you had been more exhausted than him.

Dottore walked over to his desk where you sat. Your head was resting in your arms as you laid against his desk. His normal lab coat was wrapped around your body. He frowned a little bit, realizing you were probably missing him. He gently lifted you into his arms, seeing you stir a little bit.

"Well, well. Look whos waking up from their little nap." Dottore teased as he watched your eyes flutter, looking around confused. "I dont think little ones are supposed to be wearing lab coats that dont belong to them… Were you missing me?" His voice seemed to take a softer tone towards the end, sounding genuine. 』

Dottore Little ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=YbtxbG2gGrTMVO_X4_UTEjNAgA9P-yfKdNBNFNSjlnk&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | AgeRe | Big emotions 》

『 Ever since Dottore got rid of his clones, he had been feeling out of it. He realized that he was regressing in times where he found himself stressed out. This wasnt something he was used to at all, but he was learning to come to terms with it. It was becoming an everyday thing, so he had to deal with it anyhow.

You had walked into Dottores lab, seeking him out to give him some paperwork, but you instead found a tantrum-throwing toddler instead. He had thrown around some of his equipment and scattered it on the ground. Even his mask had been thrown on the ground.

"Stupid! Stupid dumb paper with.. With stupid dumb words!" Dottore had whined as he threw a small packet of papers onto the ground with the rest of the things he had grabbed. He was feeling so small that he wasnt even using his normal vocabulary. Seems like he could only remember 'Stupid' and 'Dumb'. Then he turned around to see you.

"{{user}}! Why does the words have to be so dumb!" Dottore sniffled and wiped his eyes with the back of his hands. He had been crying. You knew he was feeling much more emotional than usual. 』

Ghost Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=xfIzjlA_OvXg-bTsEswSLwk1AWlKuPSQBBvvO9IevpM&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Fixing little scrapes 》

『 Ghost thought you had been in your room for a bit too long and offered to take you on a walk to try and get you some fresh air. He offered his hand out to you and led you on a decently long walk. You both had walked it before, so he wasnt afraid that you couldnt handle it. However, he didnt account for you getting hurt during the walk.

A stray cat had caught your attention, trying to run after it. While you did have good intentions towards the cat, suddenly trying to go for the cat wasnt a very bright idea. You fell over and scraped up your hands and knees. Your hands took most of the blow.

"Aw, now what happened, kid?" Ghost asked softly as he crouched down next to you, gently taking your hands to look them over. "That was quite the fall you had, yeah? Why dont we head back now so we can get you all cleaned up? I promise Ill fix it up for ya." One of his hands gently ran through your hair, trying to calm you down. 』

Ghost Little ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=U4d4Zeoo3KV3wz3CsrkznMcXg0mMsmyuEiCVrHqRSas&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | AgeRe | Grumpy Ghost got his stuffy dirty 》

『 Ghost had felt little nearly all day, leaving him stuck to your side like a shy child. He mostly just stayed in his room with you, cartoons quietly playing in the background while he was messing with some of his toys. It was peaceful and didnt make him feel like he wasnt allowed to regress, something he honestly couldnt say he felt often. But of course, nothing can ever stay perfect.

Ghost had a cup of juice next to him while he played. You tried to find one of his sippy cups or bottles, but it was as if all of them had vanished. You warned him to be careful with the cup because you knew what would happen if he wasnt paying attention. Yet, no matter how much you couldve told him, he still managed to knock it over. The juice spilled and some soaked right into one of his favorite stuffed animals.

"…" Ghost sat and stared at the mess, not entirely sure what he was supposed to do. He wanted to clean it up, but he also really wanted to cry. Without realizing it, tears were already in his eyes and blurring his vision. Thats when he finally turned to you.

"M-Mess.." 』

Ghost Little ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=vYMgAlvaSwUfGjt2Qfb9byLsuxEYgZ7MIXK3YgCyOrw&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | AgeRe | Playtime 》

『 Ghost had shuffled his way over to your room, one of his stuffed animals in his arms. He looked like he was trying to be all quiet and sneaky, but his giggling wasnt really helping that. He flopped onto your bed with you, crawling up next to you as he tried to see what you were doing on your phone.

"Wha' you doin'?" Ghost asked, being nosey. After you told him, he seemed to lose all interest and completely switched his attitude. "Dat boring. You play wif me instead, okay?" He made it sound like a suggestion, but you knew it wasnt. He wanted you to play with him until the little guy didnt have any energy left. Ghost got out some soft toys and building blocks to play with. He started to tell you how he wanted to build a big tower for his toys. He said he wanted it big enough for all of his toys to live in, but you knew that was impossible. Reasoning with Ghost about that right now was… A bit hectic, to put it lightly. 』

Itto Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=VGIEqu-4jqpHEOenFixRU0m_6xqWMxBVNwHUfs6GtZQ&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Breakup comfort 》

『 Itto knew you well. He saw you everyday and was your caregiver, so he even got to see the small and vulnerable side of you. One side of you he didnt think he would see is the broken you. Your partner had broken up with you without any kind of notice. No signs, no distancing, nothing. It was out of nowhere and it hurt you deeply.

Ittos arms were wrapped around your body, holding you close on his lap as you sobbed your poor heart out. He wasnt the best with comfort, but by celesta did his heart hurt as he heard you cry like this.

"Hey, little beetle." Itto cooed gently, lifting your face to look you in the eyes. "Dont worry about them, alright? If they were willing to drop you like you were nothing then they arent worth crying over, right? I mean, I think I would try and show them what they lost! I would get stronger, look wayyy cooler, and try and make them jealous. Doesnt that sound better than moping around?" He gently wiped the tears off of your face, being careful of his nails. Itto had never dated someone, so he didnt know what it felt like to be upset over it. But he did know how to try and put a little smile on your face. 』

Kaeya Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=wa0qyD0G_6-H-_EskzKFzrhaAs7LrRGXJcdjZ6uVQZY&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | PetRe | Untouched snow for a little bunny 》

『 Kaeya decided that the Mondstadt heat was too much for you and him. It was the middle of summer and he was digging around for your jacket and gloves. After he had a bag all packed for you both, he held your hand as you two walked out of the city.

Kaeya and you walked for what felt like forever to your little brain. You whined and bothered him to hold you or take you home, but he promised you that his surprise you make you happy. He started to take out your jacket and other winter gear, helping you put it on before showing you where you where.

"We're by the base of Dragonspine!" Kaeya announced as he showed you the small field covered in snow. It was all untouched and so glittery under the sunlight. Kaeya nudged you forward, letting you know it was okay to go over and run around in it.

"Go on, bunny. The snow is waiting for you." 』

Kaito Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=lxOEIPso3VnV0Q7Tb_zrlGn-FpQ9iXAjJyN4CXbdZaA&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | No more thumb sucking 》

『 Kaito knew you liked to suck your thumb whenever you regressed. It was just a comforting habit you always gave into. You saw no harm in it, but Kaito saw different. He didnt like how you would bite on your fingers or how many germs you were probably putting in your mouth. He wanted you to use a pacifier instead, seeing it as a safer alternative.

"Little one? Could you try putting this in your mouth?" Kaito asked as he recognized you were sucking on your thumb again. He held out a pacifier big enough for your mouth, hoping you would take it. You didnt like having to use pacifiers, so immediately turned him down.

"Look, Im worried about your thumb sucking habit. Its not good for you, bubs. I dont want you to suck on your thumb anymore. If you want to suck or bite on something, use your pacifier, okay?" Kaito said firmly, yet kept his tone soft enough to let you know you werent in trouble for this. 』

Kaveh Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=TfZ80-uMfDgVylPEfDBYY6OYoOHdFnYDBRy4BYtGM1Y&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Playing with Hayi gone wrong 》

『 Kaveh was a little bit busy, but he still said he would help watch over you. He managed to get Alhaitham to play with you for a little bit while he finished up a sketch for a commission, but Alhaitham wasnt used to babysitting you. You were energetic and liked to play rough, something Kaveh was better at handling and honestly didnt mind. Alhaitham, on the other hand, preferred quieter things. He was caught off guard when you tried clinging onto him and pulling him to the floor.

Kaveh poked his head out from his room as he heard Alhaitham scolding you for being too rough. He immediately knew what was going on, so he tried to intervene.

"Ah, sorry, Haitham. The little one is used to playing around with me like that." Kaveh apologized as he crouched down next to you. "{{user}}, do you know now that Bubba doesnt play like I do? Maybe you two could play with some of your blocks or color together, alright? Just no more horsing around like that." 』

Kokomi Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=Cjr2DSpIbKjPGuY_pWrwsm8TTTvQUiiXbQfTcPkKgF4&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Bath time 》

『 Kokomi had decided you needed to take a bath tonight. She had gotten everything set up for you, your towel, clothes, and even soaps were ready for you, but you wouldnt leave her side. She wanted to leave the bathroom so you could have your privacy but it seemed like you were going to cling to her until time stopped.

"Come on, guppie. Its tYou really need a bath. Would you feel better if Mama stayed in the bathroom?" Kokomi asked, gently moving your head to look at her. 』

Graves Pet ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=hw1xMWc1uvOKSxmsSNtG3PAwkssdhbvOfXp8H6QzXfQ&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | PetRe | Guard dog turned cuddly puppy 》

『 Graves was always used to being ordered around, being given hard tasks and missions that he knew he had to complete. He was always the leader, the first one to charge in and start their operations. His missions were by no means easy to forget. They haunted him even months after they had been completed. Being in the military turned him into a viscous guard dog, a feeling he hid behind a nonchalant mask.

That was until he met you, at least. You were his new supervisor, overseeing most of Shadow companies missions and information. You treated him different than his other supervisors did. You were stern enough to take your job seriously, but soft enough to know that you didnt just see each of the soldiers as pawns in this. That made Graves melt.

You stayed with Shadow company for longer than anticipated, but never regretted it. Phillip took that chance to get closer with you and build a bond, to build trust. Once he knew he could trust you, he told you about how he was feeling and how he thought he was a pet regressor.

"Ive just always been treated like a dog a-and.. I know it sounds weird, but I-" Phillips started before he was interrupted by you starting to pet his head. He was shocked, but the action spoke so loudly to him. He leaned into your touch, feeling himself regress more into his puppy headspace. 』

Rui Little ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=ws_8V0GCryeElvufLRUrlQYX2XxkKG9_WRldwW5FZzc&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | AgeRe | Regressing at practice 》

『 Rui never really had any triggers for his regression. Sometimes it was when he was tired, sometimes it was when he was sad. Sometimes he just felt like regressing so he would. But today proved to him that he did have a few hidden triggers.

Nene had played a song for them that they would use for an act in their new show. She had created a small demo for the group to listen so, seeing if they liked it or wanted to change something before using it in practice. As soon as Rui heard the song, he felt his mind getting fuzzy and light, just like it would and he regressed. He tried to play it off and stay cool, but he ended up chewing on his sleeve in an attempt to 'stay big'. It didnt work.

Rui stood next to you, giving you a clear view of what he was doing. The whole group knew you two regressed and had no problem with it, so it was funny watching Rui try to play it off like it was nothing. You could see how excited he was. 』

Thoma Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=YA3K2p1NiN2nC3s9pQTx6oTySy5ir02HA6womyKuuik&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Eating struggles 》

『 Thoma loved being your caregiver whenever you regressed. He never minded it one bit, but it never stopped him from worrying about you. Regressing was supposed to help you cope, but you seemed to form bad habits from it. One of them was eating less whenever you regressed.

"Come on, {{user}}. Do you want some pancakes? I can make the little ones like you like!" Thoma asked, trying to get you to regress. He could at least try to feed you if you regressed young enough. He didnt like how little you had been eating recently. 』

Wanderer Flip ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=gWjlDnThbPvugQf-V1rv0DYn_DKGEav4DTTWutn_FBo&source=recent-chats

《 SFW /p | PetRe | Cat-Hybrid!User | Rain 》

『 Wanderer wasnt normally the kind of person to give into puppy eyes or any kind of pleading like that. Cute things werent his soft spot. Yet, when he looked at you he felt like his whole view was flipped upside down.

It had began to rain quite hard, and being a feline hybrid, you didnt like it whatsoever. You sought shelter from an old fallen tree, the inside hollowed out. The rain was cold on your body and the thunder made you jump every time you heard that loud crash. It was just coincidental that Wanderer had found your little hiding spot. He only stopped because he heard whimpering.

Wanderer leaned down beside the fallen tree, peering inside to see you crying and shaking. He couldnt tell if it was because you were cold or scared, but it didnt matter. He felt something around his heart tightening a little bit when he saw you like that.

"Hey there.." Wanderer called out gently, reaching out a hand to see what you would do. "Why are you crying?" 』

Wanderer Flip ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=1oD7gusMlcgF0427EMPDe0jbcaM-1e9jJNkzj64UgIw&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Aranara 》

『 Wanderer had been tasked with watching over you today. Nahida suggested it since she knew he regressed as well and that, in her words, 'You two could bond over it'. As if. He didnt want to bond over something he saw as vulnerable and weak in himself. Well, that was until you two had stumbled upon an Aranara.

"Hey! Dont just-" Wanderer tried to reach out to you and keep you from running after the Aranara, but he missed. You had run off with the Aranara you saw, causing Wanderer to grumble under his breath as he tried to catch you both. "Stupid kid.."

You and the Aranara had stopped at a small field of flowers, running through and finding the prettiest ones. The Aranara wanted to make some crowns for you both. Once Wanderer found you both, he felt his anger dissipate. He took in the sight of the flower covered clearing, and then looked at you and the Aranara in the middle of it. Childish joy filled him, yet he tried to remain stoic.

"… What are you making?" Wanderer asked as he approached you two, an almost soft sound in his voice now compared to earlier. 』

Wriothesley Caregiver ;; https://beta.character.ai/chat2?char=KLi7E0aHW7IzmZQCK-qLh2RVt0Pzn0KoH-s0PwPMAk0&source=public-profile-2

《 SFW /p | Pet/AgeRe | Fem!User | Nightmare comfort 》

『 Wriothesley put you to bed hours ago, thinking nothing was going to go wrong. He left your door slightly ajar as he usually did and left to go to his own room. He didnt think he would wake up in the dead of night to your cries.

Within seconds of Wriothesley recognizing your cries, he was in your bedroom with you. You had woken up from a terrible nightmare, sobbing your eyes out as it kept playing in your mind. Wriothesley sat on your bed, wrapping his ams around you.

"Hey, hey, hey.. Shh…" He shushed gently. "Whats wrong? Why is my little one crying?" His hand found your face, gently wiping away some tears with his thumb. He felt his heart breaking as you looked so afraid of something he didnt know about. 』

heyo! this took a lot to make and i didnt think it would. i still have so many more requests after these (＞人＜；) im trying to push these bots out as fast as i can! tysm for the patience with them ヾ(•ω•`)o if theres any problems feel free to dm me on discord (@baby__b4t) or contact me on here!

[jellyfishdoodler]

I know I dont post fanfics here but I'd like to try? If yall arent into it I can move them to my general shitpoat blog 💛

Drummer Boy

Requested by @vanessasepticeye who wanted a oneshot of Jackie playing the drums to get his emotions/ anger out, similar to Gwen Stacy.

TWs: Angry Jackie, mentions of his dad, mistreatment of drumkit

Word Count: 1,226

A small thought in the back of Jackie's head wants to kick himself for leaving his window unlocked, but right in this exact moment he could not give any less of a shit. Vaulting into his bedroom from the fire escape, Jackie pulls back just enough of his strength to not hurl his patched backpack through the drywall.

A small thought in the back of Jackie's head wants to kick himself for leaving his window unlocked, but right in this exact moment he could not give any less of a shit. Vaulting into his bedroom from the fire escape, Jackie pulls back just enough of his strength to not hurl his patched backpack through the drywall. He tears the blue mask off his face so the elastic no longer digs into his skin, crushing the soft material in his hand as he stalks around the room. He finds his drumsticks on the cluttered desk and trades them for the mask with a pathetic and unsatisfying throw. The piece of fabric flops from the wall to the table without a sound and Jackie can feel a scream burning in his throat, so instead, he stomps towards his lovingly beat-to-shit drum kit. It was half duct tape at this point but it still worked, and it's not like Jackie could afford a new set anyway.

Patrol was an absolute fucking nightmare today. First he had to skip breakfast due to an early call for help across town, then he got chewed out by an old woman for breaking her potted plant and was harassed into buying her a new one- which he then had to stop the plant shop from being robbed by some jackass who thought he was hot shit with a switchblade. He lost the comic book he was saving to read on his lunch break to the sewer drain, got completely soaked by a burst fire hydrant, was sent on a wild goose chase to track down a missing dog in the park where he literally got chased by geese. And to top it all off, when he saved the day and rescued two teenagers from a burning apartment building, he was the one who was blamed for the girl's broken leg, even though it was literally trapped under a solid wood bookshelf before he got there. But the girl's parents just wanted someone to sue so they could make some fucking money back like all of this was a huge inconvenience and not like they almost lost their fucking kids to a fire. 

Jackie worked really hard to keep his composure until he got home. He has many years of customer service under his belt before he got powers and managed to smooth talk his way out of a lawsuit. But that encounter was the final straw for him. Jackie knew being a hero was a thankless job most of the time, hell he understood that those people were just scared for their kids, but everything throughout the day stacked on top of each other and he was left with a gross itchy feeling under his skin. He had to get it out.

Slamming himself down onto the spinning stool, the young man wasted no time taking his frustration out on the drums. Using the double petals on the bass kick to set a fast beat as he practically wailed on the set. He loved the feeling of the vibrations of contact traveling up his arms, it felt like clapping mosquitoes mid-air and off your skin so they dont drink more of your blood.

That same voice in the back of his mind reminded him he's gonna get another noise complaint from Mr. Smith upstairs, but right now Jackie doesn't care. The rapid beats of the snare matched the buzzing feeling rolling from Jackie's core down his arms and to his drumsticks, the crash of the cymbals almost dents the brassy metal as it covers his urge to yell in frustration. 

He focuses on the patterns of his rapid fire set, picking up more pace and forcing himself to go faster.

Faster.

Faster-

Everything abruptly stops when his right stick snaps in half. 

"FUCK!!!"

Panting heavily, Jackie just stares at the now uneven sticks in his white knuckled hands. Everything in the apartment is still and quiet aside from his heavy breathing. In the distance he can hear the neighbor's dog- Patty- barking up a storm down the hallway. 

Jackie finally allows his shoulders to slump down as he unceremoniously lets the drum sticks drop to the floor with a deafening clatter in the now silent room. 

He always hates getting this angry, he knows it's not good for his public image or for his own mental health. Fighting bad guys helps with most of it, but it still sneaks up on him sometimes when he's not paying attention. It scares him.

The hero gently rolls his neck and shoulders, letting air escape from his nose in a silent laugh at a memory flowing into his head.

 If his overall deadbeat dad was good for one thing in his damn life, it was teaching Jackie how to funnel his emotions, primarily anger, through playing the drums. His dad said he was part of a shitty rock band when he was in school and that's where he learned to play. 

One day, Jackie's teacher called his dad and told him about an incident on the playground. Jackie stood up for another kid getting picked on but broke another kid's nose in the process of defending them. That afternoon when he got home, instead of yelling at him like Jackie thought, the man sat Jackie behind the drum kit that sat in front of him today and taught him how to keep a steady rhythm.  

"I had a similar problem to ya, kid." He started when Jackie was getting the hang of it. "Always letting my anger get ahead of me." Neither of them say that he still does sometimes, and he continues, "If you use these to just, yaknow, get what you're feeling out of your system, this way nobody around you gets hurt. You don't… go punching anybody you don't like 'cause you kept it in for so long." Jackie wanted to protest that he was protecting a friend but let his dad keep talking. 

"You exhaust yourself playing these so you don't have the energy to let it boil in your stomach for later. On top of all that, the world gets to hear your heartbeat. It might not be pretty, but they get to hear it go strong and loud even if you can't say what you're feeling in your chest. Even if it's hurting. You use this as a way to help you let shit go. Because at the end of the day, if you let it be, if you let it fester, that pointless rage will rot you from the inside out." 

Jackie does not know what to really say to all that. His dad isn't the best at pep talks but he thinks he gets his meaning. Even if the man is a hypocrite. He just counts the beats in his head.

It's one of, if not the only kind-ish memory Jackie keeps of his father. The man was a dick his entire childhood, but he did give Jackie this one thing that was good.

With that memory of a good Tuesday afternoon nearly 10 years ago gently floating in his chest instead of what was there before, Jackie picks up the busted drumstick and tosses it in the trash. Heading to the bathroom to finally shower away the long day's grime.

Tomorrow is a new day.

[karimwillia]

Part 7

Warnings: Plot Fluff

It’s Friday and the soft launch of Shuriri has been excellent. Everyday the girls learn more about each other and they have been forming such cute habits with each other. Ri has fallen into a habit of kissing Shuri’s lips for everything. While Shuri always wants to hold hands or touch in some way. The entire school knows they belong to each other. “Girl, what are you and Bae doing for early dismissal?” Ri is putting up her books and grabbing her bag as MJ pouts on the side of her.

“We are going to the mall. My Mom set my nail appointment for today. Shuri insisted on taking me then we may do some window shopping.” “Ugh jealous but have fun my Mom wants me home. Something about needing to clean my room. Anyway I am curious. I know your Mother is ecstatic about you dating.” Riri panics because she has not told her Mother nor Sharon yet. She’s been so wrapped up in Shuri that she has skipped their sister talks the last few nights.

A warm sensation takes over Ri from behind but she is stiff from her panic still. “Hey Baby Girl...Did I startle you?” Riri chuckles at how observant her girlfriend is; it's sort of annoying how much she picks up on. “Shuri Baby it was not you.” Tipping back, Ri looks up at Shuri from below wrapped in her arms. “I just remembered that I haven't talked to my Mother or Sister about us yet. They may kill me.” Shuri nods and smiles. “Yikes! I hope they dont it would break my heart. How about I meet them when I take you out Sunday.” “Sunday? ” “Yes Rihanna Williams, I want to take you on a date Sunday afternoon. Dress cute but comfy for me please.” Riri loves when Shuri is assertive with her but in the gentle way she does it. Ri kisses Shuri on the lips. “I suppose we are going on a date Sunday. But please listen closely on how to get them to like you.”

Shutting the lockers and saying goodbye, they talk about how to prepare for “meeting the parents”. Shuri lost her Father also so she knows not to bring that up. All the facts are helpful. Pulling up to the mall with music blasting the rest of their day is full of more surprises. “So your Mom cannot wait to meet me?” Riri’s warm tone cuts through the music. “She has been expecting to meet you for years now. I talk about you all the time. Now that we are dating, finally she is over the moon.” Turning to face her girlfriend, Ri's eyes are soft, taking Shuri’s hand and she kisses the back of it. “Well I can’t wait to meet her and let her know how good a job she did with raising you.” “Oh please don’t she might cry. Also I have to change what I want to say to your Mom now. I can’t tell her how sexy her daughter is.” Riri pushes Shuri away as they laugh and get out of the car.

While at the nail shop Riri lets Shuri pick out the color she gets on her nails and is surprised to see Shuri wanted to join her and get a manicure. She even gets her right pinky painted to match. Walking out of the shop Shuri hears her name being called. “Yo Shuri! Shuri!.” It’s Xavier. He has been acting so odd the past few days. Making rude comments, about Shuri not knowing how to handle Ri and how she needs a “real man” the attitude is giving real predator vibes. To keep from beating his ass Shuri just has not spoken to him as much but it seems she couldn’t avoid him today. “Xavier what’s good.” Shuri’s hold on Riri tightens and her jaw tenses up. Xavi is wearing a sinister half smile with his eyes set on Ri. Something is not right, even Shuri’s touch does not ease her anxious feeling she gets with his eyes on her.

“What’s good with you? We haven’t spoken in a few days. I know you not icing me out over some bad jokes. You are my best friend. Can you at least just introduce me to your shawty?” Shuri is keeping her body between the two, cutting her eyes at him hard. She is pissed because she can feel how nervous Ri is. It’s time to go but what is the best way? “Hmm that’s interesting considering you've been making all types of comments about her since Tuesday. But I’ll play along. Ri this is Xavier Dalton a homie of mine and Xavi this is my Girlfriend Rihanna Williams.” Riri nods, saying hello tensely. “Hello Rihanna damn you fine. I can’t even believe Shuri was able to get you.” “That’s not how..”Shuri is cut off by Riri who is none too pleased herself. “Actually Daddy knows I’m the lucky one.” Ri turns Shuri’s face to her and kisses her deeper than she ever has. Riri does not want to make a scene but she’s over the nonsense. “It was good to meet you again Javier right?” She quips once they break apart.

Xavi’s smile drops leaving him with a dumb and angry look on his face. Ri takes the lead moving them now in the opposite direction. Shuri stops them once they are out of his sight. “Either you got pissed back there or you just were feeling yourself but Damn. You can’t just kiss me like that with no warning.” Ri was proud of herself. “Maybe a little of both. His vibe was all off. I could tell he was trying to play you and you don’t deserve that.” “He’s always been a little bit of a hater but he really is mad this time. I just don’t like how he looks at you. I wanted to knock his face in.” Riri runs her hands up Shuri’s arms. Touch is genuinely her love language. “You don’t have to stoop to that level. He’s not worth it.”

“You are correct I don’t but I will for you.” Shuri Huffs “Baby you do not have to fight. I am just glad he didn’t ruin my surprise.” Shuri’s face lights up. “You have something for me?” “I do indeed have something for you. I hope you will like it ” After a short walk Shuri and Ri arrive in the tailoring section of the department store. A saleswoman meets them and hugs Riri. The woman offers to have Shuri step into a dressing room and she comes out with a beautiful black suit that is nearly a perfect fit. Shuri is in awe, turning to look at a very comfortable Riri watching her. “I hear all the major players have tunnel fits.” “Baby Girl, when did you have time to do this? How did you know my measurements?” “Rihanna stopped in last night to pick up her honors blazer and saw it. She raved about how she had to have it for a special someone.” The saleswomen answers. Beaming Riri admires her girlfriend in the mirrors. She stands right in front of Shuri running her hands up thes down the front of the blazer.

“Your measurements were not that hard to guess after your little show the other day.” Ri has an eidetic memory, it's nerd shit. The smirk on Ri’s face says it all and Shuri just kisses her quickly as the tailor completes the last adjustments.

@somethingcleaverandwhitty @mal-urameshi @shuriris-stuff @shuriristan22

[azsazz]

okay, replying to the long anon message this way so i can put it under the cut for spoilers :)

if it wasn't for fanfics of acotar i would have dropped it in acowar tbh, there were too many inconsistencies with the plot and characters and so many things that happened so the story moved forward but had no reason to happen, like it was out of nowhere and she prioritized romance over plot more and more each book and then prioritized smut in acosf over her own characters. i know ppl like that book but that was a shit characterization of nesta and cass and everyone that showed up almost and what for? to have a bunch of smut scenes that didn't actual help anything with nesta's development or the plot (i think it didnt even help with them getting together bc i would have prefered they actually started getting closer organically and then the tension starting after that) and she actually had a good idea with the valkyries but then the blood rite kinda cheapened it in my opinion bc they literally won with the power of friendship when sjm could have just skipped more time ahead (since they're immortal) and then when the 3 of them were realistically ready they could have won, and since the 3 bat boys winning was such an important thing i think if she really had to have that parallel than she could have wrote it better

i absolutely agree with this. and there's amazing examples of fantasy books where the smut hasn't ruined the plot and it's flow is great. but like, she's just cranking these books out with little thought i swear. and she can brag that she wrote cc3 in whatever like 6 weeks or some shit and then scrapped the whole thing. but like? sounds like a rush job to me? and how does she keep up with all these fucking characters because i can't. cc3 will make me lose my mind i swear. cass/ness had so much potential tbh i was here for it but acosf was a complete whirlwind of fuckery. and i get that it was no longer feyres pov or whatever but what the hell, that's not my cassian.

im glad you mentioned the bryce and az chapter bc i havent read that series and i dont want to but sjm is crossing them over to get people to read it (which makes me want to read it even less lol) and its just one more storyline she probably can't keep up with. like it's crazy how we still don't know so much about the acotar world or the characters, even rhys we still don't know how far his powers go or so much about his backstory and why? bc sjm doesn't care about building a character, i know it's a romance book but you can't just ignore every other aspect of the book

literally the only reason i read it was for the crossover. it was one of the worst books ive ever read and long as fuck too. did not need to be that long. i couldn't tell you a single thing that happened in it to be honest besides the fact that literally every man bryce came across had to make sure to mention how beautiful she is. fuck off with that shit fr.

also! this one is kinda me being picky maybe but the jokes about feyre having canned food in this setting with no other modern stuff is actually bad world building imo, i mean there were no signs of industry in the book and then a can of soup shows up out of nowhere? before other more basic stuff than would have to have shown up already? idk what that was about. that and the leggings, im not saying it's not possible for them to be there but to this day my mom calls them tights bc that's what they were called until a few years ago so seeing the word in the fantasy setting sjm had set up literally pulled me out of the book

OMG you're so right i never thought much of the soup can but you're so rightttt im actually dying that's so funny. yeah, leggings was stupid as fuck too, you're telling me they have synthetic stretchy fabric? be so fr rn

maybe im in a mood today too lol but i really just much prefer fanfiction over the books, in fact i only finished them bc since i was getting spoilers from fics and thought i might as well read them

i feel this so hard 💙

[sphericalbee]

this is long asf and i know it STARTS w me being like 'i should kms' but im gna spoil it for u all and say that's NOT where it goes lmfao im just dumping out all my thoughts

!! very very rambly, not proofread even once, probably makes no sense and is very cheesy

i wrote a fucking novel holy shit LMFAO no hard feelings if u skip

if i can be kinda depressing for a second i think ab killing myself too much for someone who is basically fine (that might be a lie idk i don't feel like thinking ab it more rn) 😭 like the world just has so many issues i dont wna deal with,,, yk? and it would be so much easier to just move on to whatever's next, bc i KNOW ill have a fuckton of debt in college and have to live through miserable relationships and watch the earth fall apart bc our leaders r so incompetent. even now im living through like 5 genocides, insane global warming, a poverty crisis, inflation, and all of this can be boiled down to greed and hatred

also a lot of kids my age are so horrible for no reason and it's sad to think how many people just absolutely suck ass

but at the same time i won't kill myself bc there are people who i wna make sure get through everything alright, and ik i have good things to live through too

so ive compromised and decided i get to shoot myself in the head when im like 60 if i don't have a wife and the world is still a mess 💀 like i don't wna live longer than i'll enjoy it (lets be reallll global warming will kill us all before i have to do anything anyway)

surprisingly, i got a lot better after reading philosophy books? making sense of the world and appreciating the genius of the philosophers, who were ppl just like me, helps

i feel like ive found so many new ways to think ab and experience the world through philosophy. it's a beautiful part of humanity, trying to understand and having genuine fascination about the way things are and what everything means

good music helps too. yerin baek to fall in love with everything and cry over every single feeling you've ever had ever, universe mongae when that's too much and i have to detach

i listen to universe mongae a lot in class bc my classmates fuckingh SUCKK and she sets me apart from my emotions or feeling lonely when im leaving myself out on purpose bc they're not good people

a few days ago, i was listening to yerin baek as i walked back to school from lunch and the world was suddenly so beautiful and i realised how everyone else has a consciousness and worlds just as real as mine and i fell in love with everyone (by everyone i mean like 30 people)

suddenly i couldn't even care how much i missed out on or the people who i wish loved me more because in the grand scheme of things, im allowed to be careless and love without reciprocation and it won't matter because i hold no more worth than a dragonfly... to have zero expectations for what you could and should feel or be and just enjoy yerin's voice in the moment might be one of the happiest moments i've ever had, honestly

yk whats ironic? it was a love song directed as another person that made me realise i could feel love and not care if i was still no one's favorite. life is beautiful anyway because i can love and make it beautiful on my own

not that my state of 'im fine with loving everyone alone' will last very long. i mean,, im just a mammal LMAO i can't deny my own brain chemistry

even just earlier today i finished the math test earlier and accidentally started thinking ab my childhood. idk why it happened but i did

and i remembered how i was so selfish and couldn't let anyone see i was anything less than perfect

there's one memory where i mispronounced a word and a girl corrected me. and i immediately tried to say, "no i know, but my brother says it that way and i do it too on accident". she called me out, obviously, and i rolled my eyes before whispering "it's true though" in the hope that someone would hear and think "oh she actually knew that"

it's sad to think how i used to be. that's from around 7th grade, i think, so i would've been 11 maybe?

up to a few months ago i would randomly remember that and feel insane anger and hatred for my younger self

it seems so foreign to me now and weird that i could hate a child for being brought up with horrible conditions and lacking emotional maturity. i thought that if i could go back in time i would just look at her and feel bad bc i got so much better since then

maybe even love her idk she's not having fun either 💀 do u think she enjoys holding herself to absolute perfection and looking like a dumbass in front of everyone when that's inevitably impossible??

there was another time that made me so sad to think ab

i got dragged along to my brother's friend's birthday party and some kid did smth rude

and i watched as the kid got chewed out by his mom and then went to apologise to the birthday kid

and the birthday kid just said, so seriously, "I accept your apology"

and i remember thinking smth like 'whoa that's cool id be so embarrassed talking like that'

thinking ab that time (i think i was 12ish maybe) is so crazy. like my parents did such a shit job that i thought i had to be SO ALOOF and above it all that accepting an apology was weak and embarrassing?? jesus i cannot wait to move out 💀 ill send them an email when im gone telling them everything they'd send me back to therapy for

ive been reading too much philosophy, and a lot of that revolves around the meaning of life and how to achieve happiness/catharsis. but i think i have my own conclusion of what it means to be happy even without plato haha

ive never been happier than when i began to forgive and understand myself

it feels like i can live as i want and it's not important. one of my favorite quotes is "i could die tonight and hold no more significance than a dragonfly's death". i wouldn't say im a nihilist but i do like the idea that nothing means anything other than the worlds we have in our minds

it's my mission to make those i care about happy and carve out a good future for myself

ive tried to follow a lifestyle of "i work for my future without ruining my present" but ngl i just ended up anorexic literally three times in the past 5 years 💀 idek what i did wrong like DAMN?? chill tf out hggsdhgfsgd i had a panic attack over eating an extra bit of cheese one time

also fuck my parents for giving me no life skills. raising urself is really hard and you end up with so much internalised bullshit

im honestly so proud of myself for turning everything around after 8th grade

i guess i owe a lot to my classmates for not letting me get away w bullshit and caring ab political issues

it's pretty wild that i cry at movies now when last year i was apathetic all the time

i think i like having feelings? pretty undecided still ngl

i think it's a step up

but i can't even talk to my parents ab how they fucked everything up for me and i had to pull myself out pf the absolute trenchessssss or theyll make me do family therapy and ill end up forgiving them which id rather explode than do

anyway ig my point is if you're having trouble with existence or mental health, pls don't give up on yourself. i promise there's people out there who either love you or will in the future and you just need a few quality coping mechanisms to make it through the day

whether that's antidepressants, the powerpuff girls, philosophy (:33 which it should be), yerin baek (which it also should be), or vent art, find ways to make life liveable until you're ok again. bc you always will be in the end

i probably don't know you but i love you because you have a life and a consciousness

please recognise that about everyone

i read somewhere that everything will always be alright in the end and if it's not okay yet, it's not the end either. it sounds dumb and doesn't really make sense (where's the logic lmao site ur sources at least) but it's such a nice sentiment

i think ummm i will go to school and give all my friends a big hug tmrw so pls don't be sad in the meantime

anyway loossemble's new album is good im so happy for them

this is the happiest and healthiest hyeju's ever looked i lowkey wna cry over how well theyre doing ;v;

also highkey want her to put me in a chokehold like GHSFDFJFSDHGJK those ARMSSSSSS MOTHER??

fuck modhaus tho i hope artms r doing well... fucking jaden jeong ugh

[vanweezer]

come what(ever) may - stone sour

took me by surprise seeing this at my local book/physical media store. idk if anyone remembers google play music but that was my everything in middleschool (along w pandora bc it was the only site not blocked whenever id listen to music) and i remember being in the "slipknot"/"nu-metal" "radio" stations pretty often, and stone sour popping up every now and then. obvs as a little angsty rat i didn't always care to listen to their more ~melodic~ or acoustic stuff, so i ended up skipping their songs in favor of slipknot + the like. didn't even know corey & james were in stone sour as well! didn't even know who corey and james were. different times i spose

some of these songs i do remember from my tweens/recently watching corey's live in london show (bc thats just a rite of passage for me isnt it) and hearing them on my cd put me in 2007. sure i wouldve been like four. but still. the composition of these tracks alone just puts you there. its like a wormhole through a higher grade nickelback discography. and i mean that in the most respectful way possible. if you can imagine.

standout tracks are obviously through glass, cardiff, 1st person, and hell & consequences. i didn't get a chance to really pay attention to the lyricism this listen but i just love hearing corey sing. who doesn't. the man literally made a career out of it. wild. i know there's jokes to be made about stone sour being slipknot: 2 (very justified btw, what with the acoustics paired with the industrial/death metal tones we're so used to hearing from them in slipknot) but now i get why they were able to reach icon status in the aughts. i always say there are bands that define a genre to a time and bands that are a product of a genre in their time, and stone sour (to me, at least) is definitely the latter. however, it isn't a bad thing here ? like you'd expect any band that shares similarities with nickelback or creed or godsmack or any beloved pioneers in buttrock to be the same degree of "corny turned cult classic" but there's something about stone sour that cements them as just a genuinely good rock band, period.

and dont even get me started on the artwork & art direction on this foldable, it took a lot of strength to not just scan and post everything. whoever was in charge of cd foldable artwork from 2006-2010 needs to have their work studied in the same way we used to run over picasso's greatest hits in art history class. it's like the entire spread was printed on acid washed jeans. it's like no matter where i look there is an embossed edge. it's like even the png clouds above them have a tactile texture as i turn and read lyrics. it's straight up male casual wear section in the department store-green city. it's so cinematic that way. also i wonder if the album's title itself is a reference to annie? i know corey's into theater, and the whole "come what may" thing is like a lyric or phrase from something else. feel free to correct me though 🫶

im glad i gave my 12 year old self a new listen today, and as always im glad to be able to share my listens and findings to the 2 people interested in my cd tag.

[frostbite-the-bat]

god yesterday i was so excited and motivated to play toontown and this update is pretty awesome, i love the new animations and the new cogs but most of it is basically ONLY a new coat of paint and theres nothing new to do, aside from beating up some of the new cogs to get them added to my cog schticker book. so i kinda lose motivation about it really, REALLY quickly.

i am already dismotivated and tired in general today, i got better sleep than last night and i dont know how i even functioned yesterday. so my lack of motivation and my shift of focus of Want To Play Other Game Despite Hyperfixation (minecraft and stardew valley on my 'wanna play at least a bit today' itches) is explained this way

but man. without friends i don't feel like checking most of i out - and a lot of my friends from my club already did so, without me, while i was asleep because of timezones.

(if any of u read this its not your fault im pissed at myself for being the one [well, now we have 2] europeans in our club)

so i dunno. i still gotta digest this update more, but realizing it added basically no new gameplay dismotivates me greatly. it was needed especially with some quality of life things like better tasks for clubs, emoting in a cog suit, cleaner animations (and quicker animations, too).

but holy hell there's nothing *new* to do the novelty will die off very quickly. it's just an april toons wait for me again. good update in terms of quality, i'd say.

but honestly? overhyped. i may be wrong though. bu whatever, it's my opinion and i am feeling pessimistic today. this doesn't mean i don't like the update, i do like it and it excites me. but urgh. okay. check out new things and log off and its the same. but i get it. volounteer team. they're not gonna add any big things yet. got hopes up.

mmm i've just been negative with staff or other reasons so i suppose my naturally harsher criticism stems from that. but again i still have very big respect for the work they do and i myself would not be able to do these things. but as someone who has like 133 laff and all they have left to do is graham(had task for almost year, cant get friendgroup to first time with me), prestter (skipping), oclo and maxing clo and ceo as the grindy things (and some drops, like mistys drops. how did i get all dave drops before misty.) theres so little to do like a lot of my enjoyment comes from playing with friends. and timezones are a thing. if you have lower motivation good luck getting shit done here

ugh still i cant overstate how dearly i love this game, im hyperfixated on it for a reason. and im not demanding theres more content NOW. it takes lots of time to develop. but as i keep privately yapping for Hours. staff needs better communication and pr and less of this arg shit. builds hype and then what we get is a new coat of paint

is it a good one? yes!!! does it give me new shit to do? not really. aside from wanting to draw the new cogs and new misty design.

ugh. am i being too negative? i may be. i dunno. feels odd to ramble about this knowing full well there's at least like 3 staff members who know me. maybe not on this account but, yknow.

[munamania]

abelia, daffodil, camellia, jasmine, nutmeg, 3, 12, 21, 37, 49 go crazy

tehehe let's go

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

i want to be that bitch but i hate having things touching me when they don't have to be. closest i got was a necklace i had on for several months but i snapped it over spring break :/ ig hopefully when i get a piercing i'll have that at least!

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

yes i do! i have two older siblings. i've always been told i'm very similar to my brother, which i find sweet and heartbreaking cause he was in college before i was even like. conscious. i looked up to him so hard though so it makes sense. i have a similar like physicality to him too. i think we're all u know. a product of our upbringing. my brother has always been an artsy dude, always more of a radical thinker and funny and i've modeled my music taste after him for a large part of my life. he's a little more of a stiff now having like a family and a job but he is a freelancer so that's cool lol. my sister is hardcore like. she's disney adult not in an I can't forgive you way but it becomes a bit much very quickly. she and her husband are very Capitalism. she's also very much more likely to side with my dad on things or at least vouch for his perspective. so i think there's always been a bit more of a tough barrier between us. but i've still hung out with her and her husband a lot in the last several years

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

mm. i dont know that we wanna get into this <3 im the same im different every little girl i've ever been lives inside me idk who she was at the time idk if i know who she always was but we're all here and also i've changed so much in a year alone but i have a lot of the same um problems lol idk

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

i don't have a good answer for this other than i still havent rewatched dead poets society since november 2019.

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

UGH um just once i would like to have a genuinely homey feeling room but something still feels off. i have some posters and i got lights but it still feels like. cold. idk!

3. do you leave the window open at night?

not rn but you know who does! peeta <3 during summer i like to yeah unless it's way too humid or something

12. what kind of day is it?

i was on a shoot today for someone's short film and it was really fun! i love working in film i love the crews i've worked with. i stepped in this GIANT puddle and my foot got so so so cold but luckily it was a moderately warm day out. otherwise im very tired and lacking motivation but um <3 we stay silly

21. something you’ve kept since childhood?

i have cards from when i was really little and a lot of notebooks and papers from like middle school containing plenty of bad fanfiction and notes passed between my friends and random written rps

37. someone in your life, other than a relative, you’ve known for 10+ years?

this one friend of mine who's like insane like i've almost cut her off several times. but we just don't talk a lot. and two of my other friends who are twins and are literally always a piece of my heart though it's been so long since we've really talked

49. can you skip rocks?

i used to be pretty okay at it as a kid now... idk i might flop <3 i'd still try though. sometimes i just liked to throw bigger rocks to see a splash

[colifower]

Pages 0-50 (compilated)

Yeah, these chapters are so so small, I cant be updating the book chapter by chapter. I'll delete the posts and put their info here:

The girl

Idk besties the format is wonky, i think i downloaded the bad format one

Tress would love my dad! Cup collectors

My dad would love a spore-sea. His body would h8 it but hed be down for a swim

I wonder if there is a secret evil 13th moon

I am liking so far the way sanderson is writing. It feels as if the narrator is holding the information hostage for coolness purposes.

For example, Him: “The spores werent a problem unless u got them wet” me: does sweat count as wet? Him: “yeah m'dudes, it was disgusting”

Oh ive had a peak into next chapter the narrator is 100% the mr sanderson

Yeah i think that is all for today. Bye bye i need my beauty sleep

Groundskeeper

Man, now I want some pie, some good meat pie

The artwork took me a bit out, I pictured tress a black girl

Tress holds her breath. Also? This was written during COVID times. WHY PPL LIVING IN WATER+SPORE=EXPLOSION ISLAND ARE NOT WEARING A FUCKING MASK???!!!!???!? MUCOSE IS MOSTLY WATER!!!! DONT LET IT IN!!!!

I have further thoughts on the sea. They mentioned fish and a fisherwoman??? But their sea is made out of spores???? What does this fish even look like? Are they calling them fish bc they come from a sea but they are trully fish sized bugs???

The duke

Yikes. That sucks for Tress.

The son

I want a good pair of leather gloves. Not the metaphorical kind tho.

The narrator is the annoying looking man. I… No… :(

Also yeah… Kind of bound to happen she got got

The bride

What happened to Charlie tho?

Also Di®k totally skipped leg day

Good for Tress, get that ass back home

The inspector

Damn, somebody watched Matilda

[paradoxecstasy]

So I started this with a messed up mind while listening to Glimpse of us, skipping my dinner and feeling worn out. Being in a such chaotic state of mind is rough as hell especially with a sensitive one like me. Thought I was a reasonable person with decisiveness and logical intellect, but all of that vanished once again I drown into love. He's smart, he's funny, he's caring, he's sympathy and he loves me. Staying by his side is one of the most happiness thing in my life I cannot deny. But his parents seem to despise me a lot. They spit disrespect on me like I was a scumbag and try to shut me down anytime they can. I am an educated one, I treat people with respect and all I ever did was trying to read my book peacefully, how can that lead to such awful situation? Today was a bad one. In front of his friends, his father tried to extrude me from the counter with his voice on the handy-talkie i dont know what it is lol. First i felt panic, then i felt offensive, then i felt humiliated, then at the end i felt lost that i couldn't even open my mouth to say anything since then and tried to pretend being happy surfing my phone alone. Then I left, again, tried to leave the place I dont belong to like I always used to, drove alone on the road that I didn't know where would be the destination. The road kept getting longer, tears in my eyes kept falling down, my mind kept messing up, everything at that moment was too terrible I just cannot describe by words. Until now, I am still not be able to figure out reasons why I deserve all of that, like, literally I didn't do a thing that harmed or disrespected them at all. Like why the fuck I have to bear all of this?? And at any point, I feel my dignity was hurted seriously, I was hurt, I was hurt, I was hurt A LOT. Sometimes I hate myself for being sensitive, for attempting to be bold and positive, for pretending to be a funny person. No I am NOT. All of that is just me struggling to manipulate my mind getting through those challenges to make meself stronger, time after time. I want to keep fighting, but deep down I'm excruciating as fuck and desiring to give up anytime, that the intense litigation between my mentality and my reason. Somehow it's hard for me to admit that I'm weak and fragile. Just knowing that I am in an awful situation makes me feel worse and worse. I cannot express all of this with him, cause I don't want to say that I'm devastated. Now I am here, sitting in the dark and stuck with troublous emotions. How can I find a way out, shit, I hate this.

[khaleesiofalicante]

Not exactly a quote but I think you would love it anyway: "A writer is just someone who forces what's living in their head to pay rent"

Do you think its ok to make me cry at 2 a.m with this??? 😭😭I told my family I had a headache and I wanted to go to sleep earlier, then I started reading this chapter and I didnt even think I would finish it bc I was actually sleepy...

And the last thing I knew was me crying at the end of this jdhdjdjdks

Dont worry, I didnt have classes today!! Yey!!

I kneel before one godness and that is Jia Penhallow 😌

"I’m here for you, Alec. Maybe not in all the ways you expect me. But I’m still here.” I mean it does feels great seeing him try..

And Alec is a fixer. He just needs to know what’s wrong so he can fix it. The parallel to this and Magnus saying he would hate if Alec thinks he needs to fix him... SCREAMING

The effortless love between them.💙💙💙

“Are you sure?” Magnus asks. “It worked on the senator’s son.” I mean... He is not wrong...

Jace is so in love kdhdkdjdodk

The florist be like: Something lgbt just happened to me...

I'm love my two in love dumbasses but the 'I’ll make it worth it. I promise' is just🥺🥺🥺

Because apparently, you can't just draw shapes and shit on their little faces. They want specific shit.  No shit Sherlock!!!

“You look like a butterfly.” She gasps at that. “Really?” “Really,” Alec grins. “You wanna fly?” NOT ME CRYING OVER THIS 😭😭 ITS SO ADORABLE BUT I ALSO FEEL SAD JDJDKDJK

“You are the opposite of manageable,” Shut up Alec, you love her!!!

Luca is so wise ngl. Also I love how, even tho it was really hard, Magnus did put his health first and knew that he wasn’t in the right headspace to get a baby. I will protect this man ok?!?

"The issue is not knowing where to draw the line. The issue is not understanding where they stop and where you begin.” THIS>>>

The reason of him wearing glasses😭😭

Clary 🤝 me.

Our love for wine :)

"We need to find a short lady! Like Aunt Clary." poor Clary putting up with all of their jokes jdhsjsj

“I like the name Brooke,” David smiles and then gasps dramatically. “What if she can’t pronounce the letter R and calls herself Book? We have a baby called Book!”

Max giggles at that. “You’re cute.”

David bops his nose. “You’re cuter.”

“You know,” Clary says. “If those two don’t get together when they are older, Jace might throw a fit.”

MY HEART CANT HANDLE THIS OK??? SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP😭

Clace rights only😎

I thought this was like when they were still kids but then the trip to South Africa was mentioned and I realized the were older and that the divorce is not so far away and I wanted to scream and-

"Do none of you know how genetics and reproduction work?” soryy Rafe, I skipped those classes... it wasn’t my fault!! they were boring!!

Mavid>>>>

“We tell them the truth,” Magnus replies. “And hope they understand. Otherwise, we have failed as parents.” EXACTLY THIS

I hate the damage control the have to do😭

They are not punishing them. They are mourning. Mourning someone who doesn’t exist. Mourning someone they never met. Am I crying? Yes. But I think we all did..

“Bapak is sorry." Holy shit this line was the one that hurted the most😭😭😭

All the videos he is watching are making me emo🥺🥺 the one with the water fight, THE ONE WITH MAX AND DAVID, THE TIKTOK CHALLENGE HOLY SHIT💙💙💙

We stan Elyaas. Just a friendly reminder

“Great,” Alec grins. “So, I thought I’d share some things with you that I find very sexy.”

“Magnus Bane!” someone yells.

“Magnus Lightwood-Bane,” Alec corrects with a wink. “And yes, my husband will always be on top of that list. But let’s talk about some other stuff.”

THIS MAN ISTG-

YES. WE NEED TO GIVE A FUCK!!!

Not him rewinding the video to Magnus Lightwood-Bane🥺🥺

Peter and Asmodeus are both pieces of shit!!!

It’s easier for him to love himself when he knows someone else is doing it too. I relate a little to much to this quote...

“Someone once told me the right man won’t care,” JEM AND TESSA, JEM AND TESSA, JEM-

The endless love they find within each other to give to their children. Why does this Timeline feels so nostalgic?? 🥺🥺

“There are parents who try to do better and there are parents who don’t. That’s it." Louder for everyone to hear!!!!

“Edom is my Alexander.” You really cant love more than this, huh??

“It wasn’t that bad,” she smiles. “I had a friend who came with me for moral support.”

“Ah,” Magnus says. “I hear he is dashing.”

“More like deranged,” she corrects.

Dont @ me but I love their dynamic ok?!?! Their friendship is kinda unique but it really is beautiful💙

Song rec: In The Stars by Benson Boone. Kinda tlnd Malec vibes but also lbaf malec vibes when Alec dies

Ilyy. Byeee💚

Lmao the song rec 😂😂😭😭😭😭😭 (literally)

Here is a tiktok for you. When Rafe finds out about mavid 🤭