#i had a bad day so you know. you know tumblr users and their Treats

[vulcanette]

I got Turkish food for dinner and. They made the most. Sumptuous. Thickalicious. Chunky. Zucchini pancakes. Salty delicious crunchy cigarette pie. Oh my god. I’m ascending

[catboygretzky]

Exyblr Dashboard Simulator based on what I personally see on sportsblr:

2/?

📜 realexyblog

haiku because exy is back:

GOD, why are my teams

SO fucking bad at exy?

FUCK this FUCKING sport.

#and i watch sports for why? entertainment? no way

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♛ queen-of-exy

I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG! KEVIN DAY IS A QUEEN SHES LITERALLY A QUEEN ITS ON HER FACE

💃fox-me-up follow

queen on the court, pillow princess on the mattress amiright

♛ queen-of-exy

ive never felt more understood, I am kissing you w tongue

#marry me tumblr user fox me up

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🌞 blonde-jeremy-knox

i'm just gonna say it. i know we're all thinking it. jeremy knox eats ass like it's his JOB.

👁 jean-mor-uhoh

babe literally no one was thinking that but i'm proud of you for speaking your truth

#we're friends but what cost. when all u talk about is jeremy knox eating ass.

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🧚 goalie-stan

#dan wilds #psu

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🌄 softkevinday follow

He lived. He served cunt. He died. He was Resurrected. Served more cunt.

#kevin day

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👸🏻 kevindazed follow

absolutely busted a fucking nut watching kevin day switch hands like that oh my god my nut was so forceful it created a new dimension.

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

hey can i join you in that dimension

👸🏻 kevindazed follow

Sure, just bring some snacks or something

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

hell yeah!!!!!!

#thanks youre the best do you like doritos?

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😎 foxyknoxy

the best exy team in the nation is a LIBERAL ARTS COLLEGE how many of those students even go to the games when your school is full of artists and theater kids. your student section must be wACK

😎 foxyknoxy

*sorry, 2nd best exy team in the nation

#fuck you theater kids!!!!!!!! can't even appreciate a good sport !!!!! anyway go trojans

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🙈 ittybittyminny follow

Andrew Minyard should get a little bite and chew. As a reward. Maybe a small gnaw. nomnomnom Maaaaaybe as a treat he can rip a throat out, but only if he's really really good

#only if he's REALLY GOOD and maybe tests negative for rabies but whatever you can't win em all

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🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

favourite exy rarepair????

☀️ usctrojanny

ACTUALLY !!!!! was thinking about this earlier and while ive never seen anyone talk about it.......aaron minyard and neil josten would be 👀 kinda cute???

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

omg wait why have I never thought about guys before!!!!!!!! noooo why did you say this, i can totally see it!!!!!! Neil would probably have to lean down to kiss aaron 🥺 do u think he has ever had to lean down to kiss someone 😭

☀️ usctrojanny

And obviously, u know me, im always here for a striker/backliner matchup

🏳️‍🌈 gay4stickball follow

this is all i'm going to think about for the rest of my life now, thanks, fuck you

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👅 nastyneiljosten

I want to put neil josten in a jar and shake the jar so violently he turns into sludge and then pour a drop of that sludge on to a petri dish so I can see what kind of bacteria he produces.

🦩 exyonmymind follow

what happens to the rest of the sludge?

👅 nastyneiljosten

*sluuuuuuurp* *swallowing sounds* *sluuuurp* *gargle gargle* *more swallowing sounds* yummy yummy in my tummy

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🐋 sexyexy

headcannon that neil josten is so feral bc andrew bit him and gave him rabies so now he's a literal rabid dog

👢exyinaphonebooth follow

You can't make headcannons about real people don't be freaks

🐋 sexyexy

exy players aren't real they're my little dolls that I can put into any situations I want and you can't stop me

#thanks anyway did u know andrew minyard gave neil josten rabies

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🧸 mreow-bearcats-mreow

ARE THOSE REFS FUCKING BLIND ????????!

#exy lb

👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 talk-exy-to-me

Kiss cams are only acceptable during sporting events if they zoom in on two players

🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

ok but what if they're wearing a face mask

👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 talk-exy-to-me

smash your cages together obviously, don't be a pussy #love wins

🗣️ jeremyknoxes follow

fair enough

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🌸 softexy

Andrew and Aaron Minyard

#exy #andrew minyard #aaron minyard #palmetto foxes #psu #web weave #poetry

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[honeybleed]

ARCHIVED.

I’ve had a lot of thought about this but I figured it’s time. I joined Tumblr not as somebody new because I’ve been on this app before. But as a writing blog inspired by amazing black authors who wrote for anime that I loved. I’ve given those girls their flowers and there was a real sense of community.

But I’d say the first two months of 2024 on Tumblr was the roughest. I can take accountability, I know I have not handled things the greatest. I have a pattern of fall outs and I have an abrasive personality. I have opinions that differ and I’m stubborn. That being said, the way I was treated by a lot of authors on here in the name of “kinks” and “dark content” when I merely said minors shouldn’t be involved with adult fantasies on here is and was unacceptable.

A lot of the people I disagreed with regarding that issue following Ezra and Tee either blocked me completely and probably sent around my user to their friends so I’m blocked by a LOT of authors on here because they think I’m a purist who hates dark content and it’s not a nice feeling. There’s really no point of me even being here if I’m treated like some social pariah and people want nothing to do with me. Actively attempting to alienate and push me out because I care about children welfare (yes, even fictional ones)

Lack of engagements which I know everybody experiences on here especially now fuels this too. I’m bitter, I know I write well but I notice I’m always the one trying to encourage other authors.

I don’t feel happy on here. Writing has always been my hobby but the fact I can’t even put anons on because I get a slew of slurs is not okay. What I answered differed greatly from what was truly in my inbox. I had a lot, and the humiliation of people tormenting my mutuals about me was just…yeah. Nobody can say my writing is bad or my blog is ugly. Nobody debates or argues with me. It’s straight to dehumanisation by calling me slurs. Like I’ve said before, as a child I experienced extreme racism in England so I guess slurs shouldn’t bother me.

But I guess what gets me is that everybody on here pretends to be all “uwu baby soft me and my blorbo” with the kaomojis and pastel pink but I know it’s mostly likely them. There was even a subpost regarding a post from Monica talking about the racial abuse we suffered and a majority of popular authors were laughing in the comments.

This is not about dark content. This is not about aging up because frankly i don’t care. i filtered out certain characters names n just went about my day, I spoke my peace about how I choose not to do that so do not use me as some soap box about that cos I’m not fighting battles cos people can’t do that themselves.

It’s not all negative. I love every friend I’ve made! I’m grateful for all the people who liked my work and made works I love. I’m happy I met so many people, I’ve laughed with them. In all the fall outs I’ve been in, I still have a certain degree of love for people I no longer talk to. If you want my disc just dm, I’ll still be around to read!

Deuces! I had fun!

pinned

[fanfic-lover-girl]

Zutara Antis Don't Know What a Toxic Relationship Actually Is

I just saw a Vegebul fan Tumblr user say that Vegebul can't be compared to Zutara because Zutara is toxic and Bulma was not trying to fix Vegeta🤡

As a Vegebul fan, I will proudly say without shame that this Tumblr user is an idiot with no brain. I am tired of seeing stupidity on Tumblr. In what world can you say that Zutara is toxic yet spew nonsense that Vegebul of all DBZ ships is healthier! Vegeta is the same man who was willing to let his baby mama and infant son die and nearly killed his wife when he decided family life was making him too soft in the Buu saga. Zuko was never the level of villain Vegeta was and never treated Katara that badly even when he was her effing enemy!!! 🤡

When has Vegeta ever supported Bulma the way Zuko supported Katara???

Unlike Bulma, Katara WOULD NEVER get with Zuko and spread her legs while he was still an antagonist and wanted to capture Aang!

Katara would never get with a guy who threatened to kill her and showed no sign of remorse either!!!

As for Bulma was not trying to fix Vegeta...so true! She gave him free housing, free food, free training equipment and free sex while he was still an egotistical bastard! She never calls him out for his horrible behaviour (eg. letting Cell become perfect and attacking her future son) or being a less-than-decent dad for Trunks. What a woman!

When has Vegeta ever shown any on-screen attempts to reconcile with Bulma for his hurtful actions? Unlike Vegeta, Zuko had to work for it! On-screen!!! For all of us to see Katara chew him out!!!

🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

Every day I am amazed at Zutara antis who call Zutara toxic. Here is a guy who wronged and hurt a girl in the past that:

redeems himself and atones

proactively works to earn her forgiveness

provides emotional support and lets her be emotionally vulnerable

willing to be emotionally open with her

never lashes out even when she attacks him

sacrifices himself for her

works hard to redeem his nation that oppressed her people

genuinely cares about her and believes in her abilities

actively befriends and makes amends with all her loved ones whom he also hurt (which includes a possible love interest)

ALL ON SCREEN! No hand-waving his past hurtful actions or having character relationship development off-screen. No enabling of bad behaviour. Vegebul needed almost ten years to be a truly healthy relationship. Zuko only needed a few episodes for him and Katara to become great friends. Zutara >>> Vegebul.

In what world is this TOXIC?? Sounds pretty healthy to me! I want a Zuko for a husband (minus the enemy part lol). Who would choose Vegeta over Zuko for a love interest?? Well, I guess some people dig deadbeat husbands ;)

Both Vegebul and Zutara started off on bad terms and both shows ended with both pairs having a great relationship. The difference is that Vegebul began as a toxic relationship vs Zutara having a healthy dynamic once they became friends when Katara forgave Zuko. Zutara never had any romantic dealings while they were enemies. And even when Katara was rightfully antagonistic towards Zuko, Zutara treated each other better than Vegeta did Bulma. Just compare Katara saving a falling Zuko vs Vegeta who did nothing to save Trunks and Bulma.

[damazcuz]

I've only had this account for about 5 years now. But I've been on tumblr for 13 years, since I was 16 and just starting to learn who I was, what transgender meant, what the world looked like at the time for a group I was swiftly realizing included me.

And for 13 years I have consistently used this site and stayed on, occasionally blog hopping when things felt stale or if things got bad. And things got bad sometimes. You'd get people calling you nasty things in your ask or replies or reblogs or tagging your username to sic their followers on you. And tumblr has always treated targeted harassment as a "Sorry you feel that way. That's not against tos though! Was this answer helpful?" issue whenever it's reported. They've never cared against abuse on their website, IN THE EXCEPTION of cases in which radfems and nazis have maliciously mass reported users for MAYBE hitting their breaking points and MAYBE snapping and saying something stupid that could be used as an excuse. Could be something today or four years ago in your archive but at some point, you had a bad day and posted something that could make tumblr say finally, we can get rid of a pest! or you were just transgender and said as much. A little too loudly in front of the wrong mod.

And this sounds so silly to say. But when you live in a website for 13 years and it's where you have your primary interactions with so many people and where you've met so many of your friends! It starts to feel like your community. Like an apartment building we all live in and visit each other's apartments and talk and decorate and laugh and play. And it's a bit of a dump and we all laugh about the crumbling peeling wallpaper and the slumlord that runs the place. We know the landlord isn't our friend, they just want us to pay rent until we're no good for it anymore. Produce the posts that make this site anything more than a hate forum, make the memes and the art and the posts that end up everywhere from your little sister's pinterest to your mom's Facebook to your uncle's meme subreddit. Keep up the garden and don't pile trash on the curb or you're out. This is "the queerest place on the net" only because queer people live here and hung on with our fingernails to stay here because if you have to leave, what's your fallback? You like your neighbors. They can't all come with you. They won't. Even the kind of crumbly parts feel like home after a while.

Like I want to clarify that Tumblr's reputation as a funny place to chill and scroll and meet people and see new things is not from the transphobes working on staff. Their job is to turn a profit or at least keep it LOOKING profitable, so the site can sell to the next moron to buy it out. The fun and joy of Tumblr is us. WE made this place. When you tear down our decorations and rip out our furnishings and toss us out on the street and look at what's left to show the next prospective tenant, it's a fucking dump. There is nothing left but the shittiest people in our neighborhood who are allowed to stay and make hate posts about us. There's the framework for "someone could make pretty posts here! It's a fixer upper!" But it's shit. It sucks.

I've been spiraling since yesterday over a couple of things I'm not taking well. One is work. "They can't fire us all!" I always joke. And people laugh. Last night my boss and I spent an hour and a half in this miserable fucking meeting, talking about the pressure pushing down on our load bearing team. We fantasized over all 8 of us being able to say "that's enough. I'm better than this. We are all walking out today and we will not come back. Don't text." And we can't. None of us can lose the stability of a full time job that pays kind of okay even though it's killing you. None of us can face that uncerainty. I left with chest pain. It was my first day back after major surgery. I went home and sat in one spot for over six hours almost unmoving, crying and just in disbelief of how unfair it is. We can't leave. But something has to give before my team dissolves and one of us puts a gun in their mouth. And then we all still have to make our shift. Who else will do all that? Who's going to cover, huh? Clock in.

And I spent the rest of my day, which ran to 4 am before I was able to sleep, wishing I could quit and hating what's happening on tumblr just as much. On a fucking blogging platform. Because this has been my fun sandbox for over a decade and it's always kind of sucked, it's full of cat shit and people throw sand at you and you're getting sunburned but it's fun here. You find your people to play with. And then it's like you remember oh yeah, other people here want me dead. The owner of this place wants me to die. He wants everyone that makes this place cool and fun to die. And he'll turn around and say "yeeeah well you shouldn't have joked about being mean to me." And it's like why am I here! Why am I making posts for YOU?

I can't leave employment. I'm only a couple of weeks, maybe a couple months away from homelessness at any given time, with how tight finances are. "Shoestring budget" would be generous. We're making it through sheer force of will. But I can't quit my job, and neither can anyone else.

But I can leave this place that I've hated and loved for so, so long. The other massive drain on my life that wants to see me shrivel and die. I can get up and go. We could all just go. Mass exodus. And I know it won't happen. Give it a week, ten days. People move along. Yeah, that sucked. Well, here we all still are. Still posting. Still tumbling. Still complaining about the landlord. But most people won't leave. How can you walk on your friends and community, knowing they won't all follow? But how do you continue to stay here watching this happen? I'm already listening to people tell me "so? that doesn't affect me. it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. and of course this happened, duhhhh." It's like, feel stupid for getting comfortable here. You should feel stupid for settling in and making it a home and thinking it would be fun here. If you are transgender you are not safe and you are not wanted. Not in the queerest place on the web, either.

It's not about the funny hammer car explosion """threat.""" It was never about the hammer car explosion. That was a dogwhistle through a megaphone to transphobes. Tumblr's darlings. Don't worry. I'll take care of this one that thinks she can speak up against me. And against you. And now there's a defined "REASON" for the ban. Why, Matt hardly knew he was banning a trans woman. All he knew was fear! He had no choice! And you can ignore the ACLU and the claims of systemic transphobia, that's something else. We fixed that!

I want this place to die because it is already rotting. We are scraping at the bones at this point. Walls are crumbling and there's a hole in the floor to the room below and the windows have long been knocked out and the boiler hasn't worked in years. They aren't going to fix it. It has never been the intention to fix it. They want you to leave or die. Whichever. Don't matter. Just get lost. I will find another tenant. I will find another person who will give me more ad revenue. You are replaceable in that sense. Someone else will join tumblr tomorrow. And tumblr will make a buck off them instead.

But they cannot replace the ways in which you and I have made this site livable and bearable and fun. And I want us to leave so that the husk of this place can collapse and blow away in the wind. I want tumblr to take a major hit and I want the loss of ad revenue to HURT THEM. I want a mad scramble to figure out how to fix it all. They can't. They won't. The fix has always been there and it's always been refused. Terfs will never be turned away from tumblr. Neither will nazis. "Sorry you feel that way, but that's not against our tos. Was this answer helpful?"

You know how they say, "it there are ten people at a table and one is a nazi and no one stands up, you have ten nazis"? This feels like that to me. If 20,000 of us wait a week, shrug, and resume joking and playing and say, well, yeah, it's sad that another dozen trans fems were banned last night. But I like it here...

It feels like that. Why are my trans sisters' archives of 5, 10+ years of life and joy being wiped clean? I can't even tell you how many posts I've seen from an op whose url I recognize from last week, but whose username is grey and icon default, because she posted something less than a day ago to say "yo this sucks. Fuck this place and fuck this guy." They've never ever found the terfs and nazis to ban them because they DON'T CARE. Those are the ones they prefer. That they cater to. Post about the ceo being a dumbfuck and in 12 hours, risk losing your community and the ability to look back at your life online. Clean slate. As if you never lived there. Oh, but tumblr isn't a transphobic place. We fired the one and only naughty transphobe on staff who was taking bribes to send out bans. Pay to win moderation. That person's gone. So it's okay and you don't need to worry. It's okay, I promise. It's the queerest place on the web. Get comfortable.

I love my job and I love this place. One of them is going to push me to the edge. But I can choose to leave one. You can choose to leave with me. They can't fire us all.

[cookinguptales]

I will say, though, that sometimes you try to talk yourself out of your feelings for a long time and then you talk to someone outside of the situation and they're like "what the fuck" and you're like OH okay I have a right to feel weird and bad and stressed out.

I guess it's easy to feel stupid because you actually are affected when people are actively trying to affect you, especially when it's something like writing on the internet, which is just... always going to get harassment. Like when I say I've gotten messages about how people like me should be euthanized in the past over tumblr posts. :')

So you're like "oh, random shitty people is just something that everyone deals with, I should shut up and stop being a baby about it" and then you actually show the messages you're getting to someone and they're like ???? what????

Like I shared my inbox with my hairstylist when we were chatting a few days ago, and he was like ???? This man is not in fandom, so when he saw the kind of shit I was getting over not liking a finale of a tv show, he was shocked. Which... was kind of gratifying. It made me feel less crazy. lmao

Kind of reminds me of when I wrote this really personal essay about disability a few years ago and it won a contest. The people running the contest gave me uhhh quite a bit of money and asked me to keep writing for their site for more money. Like when I tell you I was literally on IRL conference calls with these people asking me why I stopped writing for them.

And I was finally like "...well, there's this feature on your site where you can tag other users in your essays, and after I won people kept writing their own essays about how much I didn't deserve to win, about how "lucky" I was to have a sob story that was attractive to the judges, about how whiny I was, people questioning my disability, etc. And since they tagged me, this was filling my email inbox and it really stressed me out. But if you look at the actual comments on the story, you don't see any of that. So it was kind of invisible harassment."

And the rep was horrified. She had never even considered that someone might use the feature like that. She was like WE'LL INVESTIGATE THIS and I was like. sure, okay. But getting that taste of the spotlight was already enough to make me peace out for good, tbh. Even though I knew that a lot of it was just sour grapes because they wanted to win themselves, and I knew that a lot of what they were saying wasn't valid, the sheer force of the animosity against me was overwhelming.

Like... it's not a crime to have your feelings hurt when someone is actively trying to hurt your feelings. It's natural, I guess, even if you feel kind of stupid about it.

I guess it's kind of wild to me that we just take it for granted that anyone who speaks up is gonna get yelled at online. Any prominent writer or activist you see is probably getting daily cruelty, if not outright death threats. And you just -- you have to have such a certain temperament to deal with all that. And I don't have it. I get easily overwhelmed and stressed when people are mad at me and I know it's not ideal but it is who I am. I joke about it, but I really kind of do feel like a small nervous dog sometimes.

And I wonder, sometimes, how many great voices we never hear from because of this expectation of harassment. Someone says something, gets some shitty trolly comment, then goes back in their hole and never talks again. Or they see the way other people get treated and they never speak up in the first place.

idk, I don't mean to be a martyr about this and I'm sure other people are getting the kinds of messages I am but like. God, it is so weird and disheartening to realize that a few people have been sending you nasty messages for literally months when you block an anon from your inbox and you see what else disappears. There are people who are so mad at me that they've sent me angry messages for months. Because I don't have the same opinions they do about a tv show.

It kind of makes you want to never talk about anything ever again. :(

[pigeonwhumps]

A look at what a BBU Tumblr dashboard might look like!

@bbu-on-the-side

CWs: BBU, pet whump, dehumanisation, everything that comes with that

🐢 turtleonhigh

As you start contemplating gifts for your loved ones, remember guys, a pet is for life, not just for Christmas! If you've never had a pet before, Domestics or Platonics are the best starter pets, but make sure to do your research thoroughly to keep your pet happy and healthy. Additionally, adopt, don't shop! There are so many pets desperately in need of loving homes. If you're insistent on purchasing from a supplier such as WRU rather than a shelter, choose refurbished. Give a pet the second chance they deserve!

🌟 thetruthinourstars

In Liberation this month: The shocking truth of WRU training away from prying eyes

🥸 bookworm420

https://www.liberation.com/20240423457899

(again. A year and a half after the first article and they're still having to expose it because no-one will listen...)

Oh come on, OP, everyone knows that's bullshit, spread by pet lib manipulators. Everyone: this is what bad actors look like!

🦀 just-a-crab

Sources?

#and before anyone leaps on me #i mean both of you #a reminder to always check where informations coming from

🍵 tea-and-pets

If prev was a pet, what would you give them as a little treat?

🐳 awhaleofatime

You guys are sick and perverted fuckers, I hope you know that

🌵 prickle

You're in the minority there mate

https://www.yougov.co.uk/topics/lifestyle/explore/HumanPets

🐳 awhaleofatime

🌞 sunshinestarlight

Stfu and let people have their fun, dude

#if you have nothing nice to say don't say anything at all #pet love #srsly dude leave us alone #polls

🐭 mouseandsammy

Sammy just adores his new outfit! Look at him go!

🌞 sunshinestarlight

❤️

🪶 fansofafeather

Ew, why am I getting WRU adverts on my dash constantly? Do I look like someone who would buy a pet to you?

🦴

Yes

🪶 fansofafeather

This was originally just a vent, but since you asked so nicely...

Does it help? Does it really?

Sources:

Stats show that 42% of vulnerable young people surveyed are scared of being picked up by WRU. Furthermore, spending on welfare in the UK has decreased by 26% over the past ten years, with ministers even saying that those who need help should become pets and go where they're wanted, where their "place" is. Vulnerable people need help, not encouragement to sign their lives away, and the pet industry isn't helping with that (even if you say that it isn't WRU's fault for merely existing, their adverts aren't glowing examples of a non-manipulative company).

I could go into way more detail, about the manipulation and propaganda, and what's been associated with them over the years, the politicians in their pockets holding up legislation that would hinder sign-ups, not to mention that this is actual, literal slavery, but I'll leave it here for now. If you're actually bothered you can ask, but I get the feeling you're not anyway.

How do you see your future? | YouGov

How do you feel about the alleged forced sign-ups by WRU and similar companies? | Liberation

Fact-check: Has welfare spending increased? | BBC Verify

Secretary for Work and Pensions overheard suggesting that welfare recipients "go where they're wanted" and become pets | The Guardian

WRU adverts 2000-2024 | National Archives

👯 pet-love

Callout post

Be aware. User @/sam-the-multifandom is an active member of the pet lib community, who has engaged in targeted harassment of pet owners and supporters. Evidence is in their top posts. Block and report, and spread the word to other members of the community so we can stamp out this disgusting behaviour.

👁️ eyesonthewall

Oh ffs OP. This is your evidence? Seriously? Stop lying and go back to the hole you crawled out of.

💗 nolongeracult

Proving OP's point right there. I'm former pet lib, and I can honestly say it's the most toxic community I've ever been a part of.

🍰 twopets-twocakes

Even more than the Star Wars fandom? 😝

💗 nolongeracult

YES

#pet love #their choice #petlib is toxic #love your pet #pet for life

[hellfirenacht]

Reader ==> Move Into Benny's

START HERE <<-- FIRST CHAPTER HERE

Recommended Previous Chapter: ==> Go Shopping for 80's Clothes

Chapter Summary: You stop squatting in Mike's basement and start squatting somewhere else.

Tags: themes of homelessness, no canon characters appear

A/N: Short filler installment just to give context for future chapters.

Reader ==> Move into Benny’s

There shouldn’t be any power in the old diner and yet the lights and water worked. There was no heating or a/c, but homeless beggars couldn’t be homeless choosers. It would be a good enough temporary stay until you could figure out how to get a job and find another place to live.

The Hopper’s cabin had been the first suggestion offered by Mike, but that was quick to be shot down. There had been a large hole ripped out of the roof and there was no way to comfortably live there. Not that Benny’s was comfortable, but it was better than nothing. There was at least a kitchen, and it was clear that this place was already being used as a place to party by sports teams.

It smelled bad, like stale alcohol, parties, and teenage hangovers. It’d be safe for the weekdays at least, you assumed that any parties here would be on Friday and Saturday nights. So from Sunday afternoon to Friday morning this was going to be your new home for a while.

School started for the kids three days ago, and you had spent those three days cleaning up old beer cans and trash in the diner, cleaning the toilet, and setting up an old futon that you refused to think about what had happened on it during these wild underage parties. You made a mental note to strip the sheets every time you left to squat somewhere else.

The price of rent here was cleaning up after whatever team was going to trash the place over the weekend, which seemed more reasonable than what you had been paying for your own place before you’d shown up here.

The first few nights at Benny’s were rough. It smelled bad, and was too warm, and too creepy. It was the second night that you remembered that Benny was a real person and who had been brutally killed in this very diner.

No one would know how hard you cried that night, or any night after.

But if you were going to be living in a dead man's abandoned diner, you would at least try and treat it with more respect than the Basketball team. The kitchen didn’t really work, but you could at least hide some dry goods away where no one would find them. The party had managed to sneak you some of their families cleaning supplies, but overall you were on your own making the place habitable.

You wish.

The fryers didn’t work, and neither did the shake machine that you had spent an afternoon cleaning out because of the smell. Even if they did work, you weren’t too keen on putting them to the test. That didn’t stop you from craving the comfort food that an old fashioned diner like this would provide.

Some nights, when the stress became too much and you couldn’t sleep, you pretended that Benny’s was still in business. You’d go to one of the booths and look over the menu and just try and keep calm. Sometimes you found yourself having imaginary conversations with an imaginary waitress, or imagining what other patrons would be like sitting here.

Without the distraction of the internet or tv or even books things got boring very quickly.

After the last bag of trash was hauled off to some other business’s dumpster in the middle of the night, you were left with not much else to do.

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[classicslesbianopinions]

I think for me it's like - sure, I'd be sad if Lloyd won, because I love Antigone, I wanna talk about her, and I want others to know (or learn!) about her and love her like I do! But there's no real gain to winning a silly Tumblr poll other than a but of happiness. So the fact that the second Antigone pulled ahead everyone immediately went "oh, those shitty Greek mythology fans, they WOULD pull a cheat like this to get ahead, especially after how they've been treating Ninjago fans this week".

Because, like, I'm not gonna say there haven't been some jerk Antigone voters in the notes. But first of all - nearly all the 'mean' Antigone voters in the notes are saying things like "How are we losing to a Lego ninja show??" which, while not kind, isn't exactly worth the demonization to immediately assume we're obsessive shitheads who would get bots together OR SPEND MONEY (what classics tumblr user has money to spend on dumb stuff like this, are they real, how can I live like them, let me know blease) to freak out over a. a Tumblr poll. (I'm not talking abt the people who are saying watching a kid's show makes you immature or uncultured, that's silly and wrong.)

Second of all, for as many mean Antigone voters, there are JUST AS MANY Ninjago fans in the notes going "Wow, vote Lloyd to fuck over Greek mythology fans" (augh Antigone isn't even Greek mythology, stop conflating everything that's old and Greek with mythology. Actually, stop conflating everything that's Greek at all with ancient Greece and mythology, but that's a tangent-), "These pretentious shitheads deserve to lose", "Greek tragedy enjoyers are classist and no one even knows who Antigone is these days, vote Lloyd because they deserve to lose", that kind of thing. Like, nothing TERRIBLE, but it's wild to me the leaps in logic right over their hypocrisy. It's shitty to shit on someone's interests because it's media intended for a younger audience, and it's shitty to shit on someone's interests because its media written a long time ago. But now that thoodleoo and Friday Afternoon are swinging in all these Antigone voters (because surprise, just because a story is over two thousand years old and some of us had to read it in school doesn't mean no one likes it! People have always been people, regardless of their time period, and people have always written stories worth reading that people will care about! It scares me seeing so many of my generation reject classic works out of hand! There's a kneejerk reaction to call something old pretentious, dull, irrelevant, and/or problematic, without actually engaging and understanding why it has been so long-lasting, and it's also scary seeing my generation refuse to understand that they are not inherently better just because they are newer, humans have always been writing beautiful and meaningful works!!! Sorry this was also a tangent!!!!!!) suddenly it's "Wow, with the way Antigone voters have been treating Ninjago fans, it's no wonder they're awful enough to rig a vote."

It's just this - hypocrisy, I think, for me. A lot of these people have come to the conclusion that because they are fans of children's media they are being persecuted, but on Tumblr, that's really not true. Most of active Tumblr watches children's media and cartoons, and that's great! There's a lot of good shows out there for kids that have great stories and messages! But they refuse to see they're doing the exact same thing they're accusing us of doing - rejecting a work and a work's fans because of how they generalize the culture. IE, classics culture has to be petty, pretentious, and shitty. That's what's making me upset. I know we have a bad rep for a reason (behold, the scores of shitty cishet rich white men and what they do with classic asethetics and work, good lord) but the same can be said of shitty kid's cartoon fans (I will not go into that kind of person but you know what I mean). There's always going to be bad people who like good things! But equating all people who like what has been a revolutionary and culturally germane tragedy for two thousand years because it is personally relevant and important to them with snobbish jerks who hate you just because you like cartoons, and then deciding there can't possibly be enough of us to win so we have to be cheating... Ugh. Sorry for the rant in your inbox.

yeahhh i just feel like people are making a lot of assumptions which like. yeah that's what people do. but it's frustrating, and also honestly if you reject ancient literature out of hand you might miss out on stuff you'd like! which i mean is also true of just about any media, like i'm not really into kids' shows but also if i mocked and refused to watch any kids' show i would be worse off for it.

there definitely are some antigone voters being genuinely nasty (and particularly in the replies to the poll there are a couple people who really feel the need to belittle people) but i also feel like i've seen pretty nasty stuff from both sides and it's just like... well it would be nice if it weren't like that! And Also most of what i've seen has been pretty lighthearted/all in good fun. so i don't really get the point of acting like either side is 1. a monolith and 2. universally acting in bad faith

i do think it would be silly for antigone to lose in round three of a poll about who's the most tragic character but it's not that big a deal 😭 and also yeah like. who's paying for this. i'm a phd student and i have to pay rent i am not out here buying tumblr votes

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Wind quietly put an arm around Penny. “Hanar has taught me a lot about accepting the feelings of others. It must have been pretty rough for you, Penny. I mean for so long, even holding hands was hard for me. To be honest, I was afraid.

“I nearly lost you because I was afraid of getting too close for fear of losing you. I know, it doesn't seem to make much sense but there is a bit of another problem too. I really didn't want to hurt you. I don't mean just your feelings, either. Let me show you what I do mean.”

Wind rummaged about and dug up a small pebble, about the size of her palm. She closed her metal fingers about it and began to squeeze. The stone made sharp cracking noises and then rumbled a little. When Wind opened her hand, only small fragments and coarse sand trickled out of her unmarked hand.

Releasing her hold on Penny's waist, she picked up a moderately sized piece of wood. Her flesh hand squeezed. The wood cracked and creaked. When she let it go, it was crushed deeply in the middle and had cracks running it's whole length.

Hanar watched with a tolerant smile. “Showoff!” She went on, “Penny, when we are doing our day's Pull, Wind has to hold back, to keep the load even. She is stronger than anyhorse of our Band.

“She was afraid to sleep beside me for fear that she might harm me by flailing about in a bad dream. My magic was an answer to that. I could simply move her out of reach if needed.” She paused and smiled at Wind. “It never has been. She has had some bad dreams but what she was afraid of never happened even once. All that I ever needed to do was be there for her and she calmed down, back to peaceful sleep.”

Hanar paused and gave Penny a long and thoughtful stare. “She truly wants to be with you but was afraid that her great strength might harm you. Now she knows better.

“Just be there for her and soothe her if she has a bad dream.”

Penny shook her head and chuckled, “I have been waiting all the time since I first met her for this to happen. Thank you Hanar.”

Hanar's snout wrinkled in amusement as she stated, “Marchhare's caravan can take a horse anywhere in the whole multiverse. If you don't treat my Wind right, I will find you and kick the stuffing out of you! Got it?”

Wind heard music and changed the subject! “They are starting the Shehan Ja Rom! Race you to the dancing green!”

Hanar did not hesitate! Dirty dishes sailed to the proper wash tubs with her usual precision as she charged across to the green!

Mama Dragon smiled. “I think that our Wind is properly healed now. Let us go to the green and watch. I assure you that it is worthwhile.”

Dragon and apprentice joined the watchers as the Rom cut loose! Along with the music, there was a melodious narration in a beautifully liquid language. Wind and Hanar were dancing together almost like one. Backing them up were the Sky Dancers, who were using their wings in coordinated lifts, fans and whirls along with the sways and slides that all the other dancers were using.

Mama Dragon pointed out to Penny, “See those steps that they are using? Wind introduced them. They are spreading among the Rom like a wild fire. Amazing, watching the Rom dance like this, isn't it? As much as it looks like a show piece, this is all impromptu. The Rom simply DANCE.”

Penny observed, while gently moving to the unusual music of the Rom, “She looks so happy here. I sort of feel bad about taking her from it.”

Mama Dragon, also lightly bouncing her feet to the music, replied, “My Kitten is happy here. She has found the family that she lost so many years ago. The important thing to remember is that she needs more than a family that will be there for her at need. She needs a mate that will be there for her and allow her the freedom to do the adventuring that is in her soul.”

Her amused snort bringing a small flicker of flame to her nostrils, Mama Dragon added, “And I need a Daughter In Law who is my apprentice!”

Wind, sensing something in the air, left the dance and asked Mama Dragon, “I love that you have come to see me again so soon, Mama and Penny being here is wonderful. Is your coming here more than simply a visit?”

“Indeed it is, Kitten. When I came last, just days ago, I told Marchhare to see how your healing was coming along by seeing how you dealt with other weapons. You have done admirably.”

She reached into her bag of holding and pulled out Soulblade, complete with its back scabbard for carrying it. “You are ready to have this again and it is ready for you.”

Wind pulled back her hands, “I am not sure, Mama. I did dreadful things with that blade. I don't think that I am worthy of having it any longer.”

Penny gathered Wind and Hanar who had come to see what was happening. She told Wind, “That is the best reason that you should have Soulblade. Always question whether using it is right.”

Hanar offered, “Dear, the question is not whether YOU think that you are worthy. This blade is sort of alive. You know that, you have told me enough times about it that I know it too.

“Just pick it up. If you can, Soulblade thinks that you are worthy and has chosen you. I know this. My magic, strong as it is, can't pick it up. I just tried.”

Hesitantly, Wind took the amazing piece of smithcraft that was Soulblade in her hands. It felt like coming home to an old friend. Tears in her eyes, Wind strapped the scabbard to her back and slid the blade home with the ease of skill and long practice.

Wind tried to encompass all of them in her hug. “I love you all. How can I say how much I love you?”

Both Mama Dragon and Hanar replied together, “Don't forget to come and visit!” Mischievous glint in her eye, Hanar added, “And don't forget to bring your wife!”

There was a familiar bray behind them, “However, before you go, we have something for you, Wind. Usually, we give these in a nice ceremony at the Canterlot Fair. It is pretty certain that you won't be there for the usual ceremony.”

While the horses with instruments struck up The Two Green Vines, Marchhare, no longer looking silly at all, took a thin case of Rom blackwood, richly carved with a pattern of wings. Opening it he produced a headstall that had been carefully designed to Wind's measure.

He held out the headstall, tooled in carefully designed endless knots and the background dyed a brilliant green that displayed the rich leather tan of the elegant knotwork.

Solemnly he asked, “Do you, Wind Whisper Soulblade, accept the honor and traditions of the Rom? To never do less than your best at whatever you may do?”

Wind trembled slightly as she said, “I do. No matter what world I may be on or any other place, I will always do my best at everything that I do.”

She knelt before the old donkey and he fastened the Freedom of the Rom to her head, securing the buckles.

The resounding trills from all the Rom was the first that Wind noticed that they had all, from all three bands, gathered to see her get her Freedom.

One of the trills was different sounding! Mama Dragon ended her trill by letting a ten meter long blast of fire shoot straight up into the evening sky!

Smiling, she told Wind, “You are a lucky Kitten. You have two homes where you will always be welcomed. Now, it is time for you to return to mine.”

She turned to Marchhare and politely asked, “May we use a door of your caravan to return to my cottage on my world?”

Making a grand sweeping gesture with one of his long ears, Marchhare replied, “Be my guest, and all of you, feel free to use my caravan at need or just to come and visit.

Opening the familiar Dutch style door, Mama Dragon gestured, “After you, my dears.” The door closed quietly behind them.

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IT'S NEW YEARS OVER HERE SO LET ME LAUNCH MY BABIES AT YOU FOR IT!!!!

In case you want their backstories, I just recommend you go over to their Toyhou.ses respectively, as- typing on Tumblr is a pain for my PC. My PC hates Tumblr in particular for some reason, whenever I format text, and I can't LIVE without formatting text as a hobby-author man. xD

LINK TO MARCO'S STORY

LINK TO ZORRO'S STORY

For new users; Marco was made by Heavenly-Hellfire and Hollowed-Hartlocke. I bought him back in 2019! Still love him like it's day 1. My best, most adorable boy <3, he's become my actual role model, I love him sm ;:

In case you never read them before, hopefully you enjoy the reads!!! I hope you can forgive the older grammar on Zorro's. I def plan to rewrite it, once I finish working on my raider-code. (It's been taking so long bc I'm trying to learn to use the CSS mixin z-index class-type. I still can't figure out image borders for the life of me, but I learned rotation class-types LOL.)

I've wanted to redraw both their reference sheet for almost YEARS now. Ever since I've gotten Marco, I continuously evolved how I draw him, over and over, to a point his old ref had become a detriment, due to how differently I draw him nowadays LOL. One thing that desperately needed a redo for him especially, how his hair is supposed to be drawn + his wings. His wings looked like floppy chicken nuggets on the old one LOL. PLUS! I added a section of details, where I see artists I commissioned, struggle with or fail on. Hopefully the detail section is sufficient in fixing that! I'm not sure, if I should also add a mention, of Marco's dot details below the pink pattern, as even the distance between the dots is different. + I LOVE DRAWING EXPRESSIONS. So to also add a small box of extras for Marco's cool glowy eyes was a treat. <3

I plan to redraw his refs for his magic wind attacks perhaps, as for now, I have a shabby drawing, and I got a free animation program lately, so I can FINALLY unleash my years of experience animating, in the appropriate program now LMAO. My own limitations of using SAI to animate, was making my animations look choppy and bad for years unfortunately, so my art always looked very amateur-ish when I actually know how to animate..

Speaking of that, for the attentive...Yes, I plan to possibly try and draw a 360° turnaround of my characters, as the next natural progression of refs next. I am SO close, so so SO close to making my art finally look like it's part of my project I've been working on for years in private. Ever since this year, people have proven, that you CAN start an animated series on the internet, and it will receive an audience. I also wanted to start an animated series when I was a teen, and now that I'm an adult I can make it happen for sure, with the right talents. When the time comes, I might seek out a music producer and perhaps, if I'll have the money, hire animators, so that I'm not the only one who has to work on the series I planned.

For Zorro....He had it coming. Last time I drew his ref, he looked like a 16 yo/ mobian child, it pissed me off for so many years, once I learned how to properly make adult characters look adult lol. THE CEREAL SPITTER NOW ACTUALLY LOOKS ADULT AND LIKE THE BASTARD SELF HE SHOULD BE. I don't have too much to add to him, but I consider him still a WIP in my brain bc- RAIDER PAGE CODE. I WANNA FINISH. GRABBY HANDS. I CAN FEEL THAT IF I LEARN Z-INDEX FINALLY I CAN REALISE THAT CODE. I've wanted to make a code for my raiders 3 years ago already y'all it's painful to be patient w/ myself sdgkldslgdsg

I'm so satisfied, with my ref sheets finally looking, like a professional drew them imho!! If you disagree w/ that notion, feel free to tell me what's missing or where I need to improve on! :D

My 2024 started amazing and with laughter and appreciation for my friends, I'm so happy finally. 3 years in a row, all I did was cry each new year, and be in pain. 2024 feels like it could be my year. Year of the dragon, bless me with your energetic and powerful spirit please,, 🙏

ANYWAY. Forgive me in advance for watermarks, but I kind of? Am paranoid now over my art a bit bc my work is good now? Like I think I'm in the final stages of my artistry. I can feel, that I might find the perfect style soon. I need to experiment just a bit more. Just a bit more...I might consider loosening up my linework in 2024. I honestly still? Hate lineart? Like..My lineart looks good now, don't get me wrong but. I just love sketchy artwork so much more??? Sketching is so fun, creating is so joyful, when it's a sketch..But lineart kind of.....Ruins my art. I think I should loosen up. It's why I might change my approach a millionth time, but my artstyle has potential now. I don't feel, like my art is awful anymore or worth nothing, it now HAS worth, I now HAVE the right to have an ego about it, but some pieces still are missing, to give me the ultimate happiness and relief in my work. Perhaps if I do some more commissions, I might unlock my final potential? We'll see.

My aspirations for 2024;

Pass the prep-exam for my workplace (I LOVE MY WORK. I SINCERELY WISH I'LL PASS. I love work so much omg I don't wanna be fired so badly)

Draw more art of Finn & Marco so they finally pass Chloe in most images on TH (I REALLY DON'T WANT HER TO HAVE THE MOST IMAGES STILL. It should either be my comfort boys or C.I.Ta)

Be more experimental with mixing medias traditionally (I wanna start mixing mini craft-projects + my drawings or mix more pencils + markers and also glass pens + watercolours. I rlly rlly wanna experiment and go loose.)

Animate more and possibly even post said animations. I know animation takes me HELL OF A LOT of time, as I lack so much time to do so, but I'd love to do that

Stop stressing so hard over OTA's and commissions. I know I tell myself each year, "this year will be the year I wanna finish all my owed art!!" But every once and a while, I need to be a realist to myself, my optimism may be good, but it sometimes..Is a little over-eager. But I noticed in 2023, I really heavily strangle myself out. I haven't drawn any private art since 2020, really.....It says a lot about an artist, if they now haven't drawn a personal drawing and finished it, in the same quality of their owed work for 4 years now. I haven't been really honest to myself and my heart, and I'd like to forgive myself slowly, by allowing to both work on owed work, and start creative, passionate art-projects again, again, where I can let loose and just. Experiment. Do something new. Push the boundaries of my art. Combine medias, collages, etc, anything under the sun I wanna try. I limit myself so hard, over chasing a goal, I can't achieve, if I won't acknowledge, I'll cause my own death as an artist, if I continue to chase unattainable goals, I can't achieve, if I won't be gentle to myself.

Finish revamping my commission sheet. It requires, I draw new examples of course. The big thing I need to warn ahead; I will have a fat price-increase, due to work taking all the time I can have now. I can only work around 4hrs a day on art. My art takes around 20 hours to be finished. Every piece is done with love, with time, with effort. I'm not an artist, who adheres to algorithms. I'm an artist who lives with passion, with freedom in mind. I have an endless amount of ideas, I have an infinite amount of space and ways to create it. I am not a machine, I am, what an artist strives to be. To simply...Create. AI can go to hell, and drag NFTs along with it. I to this day get attempts to be hacked, by tech bros, believe it or not. I pissed off BAYC on Twitter once, and some butthurt idiot, is still trying to get to my Insta and Steam to this day. Won't happen anymore with 2FA idiot, lmao. I won't allow a 2nd hack to happen.

Finish giving ALL my characters on TH a floatie icon. I know w/ 100% certainty, that I got this task in the bag. This one is of no problem at all.

With that, thank you for reading my world-salad! Almost as tasty, as mom's olivier-salad. Yumyum. Btw secret lil teaser ig below here lmao. I started Finn's sheet too, and I've got it 1/3rds done, but I don't wanna burn myself out on ref-sheets, so perhaps you'll see Finn also reworked in a few months! ✨

[picavecalyx]

Rex’s Gardening Service here.

Loamy Soil:

You have such a bright future ahead of you. There is so much talent, so much passion, and so much care up in that noggin of yours. And here you are, sharing it with all of us to see, LITERALLY FOR FREE, that sounds like a crime. You’re such a sweet person, you’re a little beam of sunshine, a lil rainbow, I appreciate you, you’re neat. And it’s VERY noticeable when you aren’t on the dash— but I know that when you aren’t here, it’s because you’re taking care of yourself, as you SHOULD, because damn, you work hard. You work H A R D! Can’t wait for you to get your first job in an animation studio, so that I can be like /POINT “IT’S MY FRIEND, TUMBLR USER NAMI!”

Sun Light:

You write literally everybody. If you told me that you wrote literally any character, I’d nod and go “yeah, sounds about right, she probably goes a great job.” I don’t know how you do it, but you do it in such a way that none of your characters feel stale, or like they overlap into one another. That’s not easy to do! And SILVA! *Silva.* I want her to be happy. And knowing that you have such a love for tragedy scares me so much. (That is a compliment.) I’m so invested in your OC, it’s nuts.

Drizzle from the watering can:

If Silva was in control of your job for a full day, what would she do?

god, so often i feel like i'm not good enough, or maybe am putting too much thought into nothing, or even just screaming to an empty void. as exhausting and stressful as life can be, i'm so happy that i can share what i make with everyone. not only that, but i'm happy i can collaborate and make more things with everyone around me. there was a brief time when i first started really getting into writing and feeling like what i was making was good where something happened and i felt like i couldn't ever collaborate again. paranoia and obstinant fears that in the end i'm glad no longer hold the weight they do now.

sometimes--a lot of times--i do feel bad for not being on here as much as i probably could. i feel bad for not being able to respond to things as fast as others--especially when i used to be someone that always had things under control. though honestly the more time passed the more i've removed myself from the idea that was very prevelent--thinking this was a job. that's something i'm so happy i've been able to remove myself from. this is a hobby, and i'm so glad i can treat it like one and make beautiful wonderful things as a hobby.

honestly something i worry about when i write a million muses, especially when i write them all overlapping and knowing each other is that things will feel too gatekeepy or that it's impossible to put another muse in because something's already "figured out." a lot of times i sorta go by the--if nobody will i'll do it myself. hell look at all the team flare shit i write, the living crystal stuff, terapagos, blah blah blah. i worry that the lore is too thick and that prevents interactions, but honestly i like being flexible about it 😔✊️ plus a lot of the "deep lore" i've got really doesnt matter unless the muses outwardly make it a point to mention it. i'm just glad i can be embraced when scrolling bullshit onto a page.

i love tragedy, i love scaring people, i love making people hurt as much as they feel joy, it's apart of writing. :) glad to scare you [affectionate]

FINALLY.

silva doesn't have the patience to animate drawing, she'd switch my major and do stopmotion and when i'd come back i'd cry because there would be a hot set and i'd feel too guilty to touch anything because silva would somehow have the will to make an entire half stop motion film in an entire day.

[blackswanyuzu]

the day full-time tumblr users stop treating online bullying as some otherworldly phenomenon that can only be found on other sites and that they’re above because “tumblr is peaceful you can vibe in fan spaces on tumblr unlike twitter unlike… [etc.]” and accept that many, many people on this platform in fan spaces are also amongst some of the most judgemental, vile individuals in fandom, is the day i find peace.

because it’s genuinely so tiring trying to find a nice space for fan content of my hyperfixations online, getting tumblr users gush about how the tumblr fandom is so superior for being “peaceful”, being excited to check it out and then being let down by some of the first things i see. like this has happened on three separate occasions now, and it’s getting beyond annoying. because many of these people’s definition of “peace” is just no arguments because they’re bullying people behind their backs instead of to their face, but i’m supposed to believe “peace” exists here solely because we don’t speak about things that people speak about on twitter or instagram sometimes bc that’s them drama (which disappointingly enough often takes the form of important things that maybe we should be talking about).

for example, the most recent occasion of this is just nosying through the recent tags of one thing i’m interested in. somebody’s posted a screenshot of a tweet made by someone on twitter’s side of the fanbase and captioned it making fun of the contents of this tweet and of course adding the cherry on top being that what’s so bad about this tweet is somehow typical of the twitter fanbase. i kid you not, there was nothing wrong with the tweet and i have absolutely no clue how anybody could reach the conclusion that there was. it was just like.. such a random, throwaway, everyday normal tweet that wasn’t really saying anything??? with no level of understanding or misunderstanding, there was nothing about it that was stupid, that could possibly serve as an argument against any opinion on anything, nothing about it that instilled harm on anything or anyone - it was just the tweet you’d normally scroll past because it has no value and no justification to make anyone happy nor sad nor angry it’s just. normal. like someone’s first random tweet of the day. and, of course, after looking up the person who tweeted this, they’re a teenager and the person posting their tweet on tumblr tags is grown. nobody pointed out to this person that what they were posting was wrong, supposedly to keep the “peace”, nobody even questioned them why they were mad about the tweet and what was wrong with it. in fact, many people gave this post likes and reblogs, there were even two comments backing up the mockery.

once again, i’m confident i was not misunderstanding a thing when i say there was nothing wrong or amiss with it from any perspective anyone could look at it. and, if these people despised the twitter side of the fandom so much, and despised this particular teen it seems, why were they lurking in the first place - it couldn’t’ve even been something they accidentally stumbled across - there was no relevant words that could’ve landed it as a recommended tweet on their timeline, no relevant words they could’ve searched to find and single out that tweet, and when i found it it didn’t have enough traction to have ever appeared on this person’s timeline - so had they literally been stalking this teenager’s profile? and picked out the most random of tweets to rag on them behind their back on tumblr and justify it by claiming you’re ragging on the entire twitter fanbase by extension? for what? there was nothing amiss. is that how “peaceful” tumblr fandoms get internet points? i thought they were so high and mighty above such a concept? that’s what i’d consistently been told, anyway. i had been observing this fandom as a whole for long enough to know the contexts of what people could get upset about and why, but the only conclusion i could reach about this post about this tweet and its responses, is that these people were being mean just to be mean. literal grown bullies frolicking around on a fandom platform full of people who claims themselves to be peaceful and superior than anyone else in the fandom because of their peaceful nature at that. i don’t care if you’re nasty, if that’s what you mean when you say your side of the fandom just “vibes”, just admit to it. admit to being as nasty as anyone in fandom on any other platform and stop lying about the state of your tumblr fandom when some of the accounts with the most traction find excuses to be toxic twice a day and their followers encourage it. it’s just disappointing.

[mlssworld]

𝐐𝐔𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐍

name:      love

pronouns:     she/her

preference of communication:     discord is much eaiser for me-- here's my user for anyone who wants to add!: ‧₊˚ ℋ𝔢𝔦𝔫𝔬𝔲𝔰 ℬ𝔦𝔱𝔠𝔥 !#6669

most active muse:     chrissy cunningham 💗

experience / how many years:    oh god... I think it's been like 10 or 11 years now!

platforms you use:  for years i've sort of bounced around searching for the right fits, and as of now, I write on tumblr, twitter, and discord.

best experience:     that's a toughie... i've had a lot of negative experiences which is what ultimately made me leave that first time around, but i'm finding lately that more people are talking to me! i'm making new friends, and that makes me really happy.

rp pet peeves:   the biggest one is when people tell me what they headcanon for my chrissy, and if i tell them it's not accurate to my portrayal, they freak out or get upset with me. i've had this happen numerous times, and it feels like a form of godmodding, and it bugs me big time. i know my carrd isn't up yet, but i do wish people asked me about chrissy rather than projecting their ideas onto her. that might be how their chrissy acts, but not mine.

fluff,   angst,   or smut:  this is a tough one because i like everything for different reasons. i'd say i'm an expert at angst... for those of you who knew me with my oc alice or on my multi-- you know that's what i know best. but i never get to write fluff, so fluff is always a nice little treat! and smut is a lot of fun to discover for chrissy, and tapping into why she is the way she is sexually.

plots or memes:   i am an extremely plot heavy person, i am very into world-building, and plotting is my favorite thing to do in the world! but that being said, it makes my day when people take the time to send me memes! most people kinda ignore my memes, but when people do send them it's exciting!

long or short replies:  it depends on the plot! i get a kick out of long replies, but my brain is so out of it half the time that medium length/shorter replies are easiest to pump out.

best time to write:  later in the day usually! i've been experiencing really bad brain fog lately, so my writing doesn't seem the best... but i'm finding i'm more awake at night.

are you like your muses:  unfortunately. i tend to write women who i see myself in, one way or another. (buffy, leia, padme, jennifer, kat, etc...) i have a similar upbringing to chrissy, i was a cheerleader growing up, and i think our personalities are quite similar. i'm starting to realize it more and more with how i write her. women with baggage but strong personalities are what i tend to know the most... and now this is making me realize i need to go write alice again on twitter.

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘 : @lastritez​ 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 : @arnieriley @firstcurse @witcherhunts @peachyuus @herencias @reignedfear @takenamiss @girlpsych @clockworkfm @musecraft @gurlrot @sadtempo @mvltimuse and you! ❤️

[rescue-ram]

3, 26, 42 and 50 for the fic writer meme!

3) What are some tropes or details that you think are characteristic of your work?

My worst habit is getting a really big idea for a fic, writing part of it, then losing steam and not being able to finish. I will come back to you WIPs, I swear!! I also tend towards very introspective narrators, for better or for worse, and whenever I edit I have to constantly ask myself what is the character DOING to make sure I'm not relying too heavily on dialogue. I've also noticed I tend to be annoyingly meticulous and have difficulty eliding details. If a character picks something up they WILL put it back down, I do draw little diagrams to make sure everything's spatial positions stay the same, and I will find myself writing an extra thousand words to explain how a character got to where they are rather than skipping to the good part... which definitely contributes to my difficulties finishing WIPs 😅 As far as pairings and character relationships generally, I'm a sucker for complicated and ambiguous relationships, and pairs who have overcome some kind of inequality to be together. I'm frequently a fetid phone poster so I often notice annoying little typos after publishing, which makes me gnash my teeth. As far as tropes, I like "slow burn build up to big cathartic moment", and "character wrestling with humanity/sense of self", and a lil bit of outsider POV. I also have a tendency to focus on the characters hands in descriptions, and there are DEFINITELY a few phrases I catch myself reusing when I reread my fics, I should probably go through and make a call out post for myself at some point with those ram-isms 😅

26) Would you rather write a fic that had no dialogue or one that had only dialogue?

I know this would only further my bad habit, but definitely dialogue only.

42) Have you ever received a comment that stood out to you for any reason?

Love and light to all commenters everywhere 🥰 But I think the comment that most stood out to me when I received it, was I gave Rescue Bots (my beloved) a chance because of a specific Tumblr user who hyped it up, and then they left a very nice comment on Discretion. I was too depressed to respond at the time, but I was very bemused they found my fic and happy they liked it!

50) Using my free space here to muse on something I've noticed, in reading older fics recently and comparing them to newer fics... There is a lot less homophobia in fics nowadays. I mean this in a neutral way. I think it generally says good things about our culture and LGBT acceptance, and also is probably part of the trend of stronger taboos on controversy in many parts of fandom. But in reading older fics, it wasn't that the characters are haters or anything but homophobia is just an embedded assumption that has to be wrestled with. A lot of pagespace is given to characters working through their own internalized homophobia, wrestling with the closet or coming out, and facing varying levels of rejection from the rest of the cast. Nowadays, it seems like most fics are written as "Everything is canon except these characters have always been gay/bi", or in AUs where things like DADT never existed or gay marriage has always been legal, so there a lot less on page conflict over the characters' sexualities. Yay for people now being able to treat broad acceptance as unremarkable and a given nowadays, is the plusside!

I really started thinking about this the other day after reading two fics. One was a West Wing fic from the year of our Lord 2000, where Toby was both broadly supportive of a relationship between Josh and Sam... and also homophobic. Like, he loved them both and supported their relationship and was the best man at their commitment ceremony, AND was repeatedly vocally grossed out by PDA between them and actively got in between them in public out of fear they'd accidentally out themselves. This behavior was both accepted by the characters and totally uncommented on by the narrative. It was a pretty good fic, but that characterization struck me as being very of its time. In contrast, I was then reading a MASH fic from like last year, and it had Potter say something like "Love is love" and I was just immediately jarred out of the fic. Not in the sense that I think Potter would necessarily be hateful or something- I think he's both compassionate enough and pragmatic enough to decide what two consenting soldiers of similar ranks do in private is none of his business- but like, he's a Presbyterian Regular Army Colonel who was born in 1890-something, "Love is love" does not scan as natural or inevitable for the character to me. It felt like either a missed opportunity for a little character work- maybe Hawkeye is shocked by his easy reaction and they exchange a few lines on how he came to acceptance- or a missed opportunity for drama. And if the author just didn't want to get into it- completely valid- then writing Potter out of the scene would've preserved the suspension of belief better IMO. Reading those fics close together got me thinking about that broader pattern, which again I just find interesting... and also left me a little curious if the extremely frustrating and unfortunate resurgence in atmospheric/cultural homophobia in many places means that older pattern is going to reemerge in the psychosphere of fandom. I think my own fics tend more towards the "background homophobia" side of the force because of my own experiences. And I guess that's my "deep fandom thought" of the week.

[selfundiagnosed]

why is it mean for someone to tell you you should get help? you're obviously in a lot of distress and should see someone about it for your own mental health...these 'patterns' you're leaning into are only exarcerbating your mental condition. but if you want to embrace your psychosis and go completely off the rails i guess that's your prerogative

to insinuate that a.) i dont know about my own mental state & wellbeing and you need to “tell me” because the psychosis makes it so i cant notice how it affects how i function every single day of my life b.) i need to delete my socials because of what someone else did to me to put me in this state c.) you somehow have any idea whats going on in my life, if im being treated, what symptoms im experiencing, that I legitimately cant tell ~whats real~ d.) noticing patterns doesnt mean im going off the deep rail LMFAO is all the stupidest shit ever.

for future reference, how you and the other anon are approaching someone you perceive as experiencing active psychosis is going to put people in active psychosis in danger to themselves. its funny to see random anons tell me what im experiencing and what i need to do about it to fix it when its evident from how this was approached you don’t actually care about me you just want to make yourselves feel like youre above me for whatever reason. “but if you want to embrace your psychosis and go completely off the rails i guess that's your prerogative” and “Deactivate your TikTok, delete the app and go see a psychologist” are sooo condescending. yeah deleting an app is absolutely gonna fix this problem. a diagnosis ive had since i was 15. stupid shits idek what to say like are you both actual tiktok teenagers who think they know everything about everything because get off my blog you suck so bad lmaooo sooo condescending. Im completely capable of making my own decisions im 22 lol i dont need tumblr anons i cant see telling me to do shit im doing already. i have a psychiatrist. ive been seeing him for years. i have a therapist. i saw her after my psychosis got retriggered. i know i am sick! i literally cant leave my house! when i do… i freak the fuck out! for HOURS !!! my family and friends all know how deeply this affects me and i promise you none of them have said this shit to me the way you and the “other anon” did. i stopped socializing, i havent made any new friends, i cant trust the people i do know im not close to anymore. i promise you i know WAYYY more than you about how it impacts me way more than you. my socials are the one open window i didnt put curtains on. i completely control what you all are able to see theough leaving this tiny window unclothed for the internet to look into my life. i dont need random people to see my jokes on my blog about my delusions and tell me its a delusion like im being very tongue in cheek about all of my delusional posts. i absolutely believe them but im making fun of myself for how crazy i sound.

i really have not a clue why youd think this is an appropriate way to approach it but it leads me to believe youre a tiktok user who probably thought the dude that manipulated his way into a famous persons house while she was manic was a Good Idea because clearly she wouldnt get help. lmfao its bad in so many facets. imagine if i was fully and completely immersed in my paranoia and delusions of being a targeted individual (which is the root of everything im experiencing right now): ask yourself how would you feel YOU felt targeted by a higher entity and now random anonymous people are telling you what you’re experiencing and how youre treated everyday isnt real and youre crazy. like to us its so very real and no amount of rationalizing makes it better. i have only small interactions every once in a blue moon these days that makes me think i could be okay and that im not being targeted and then every single day multiple times a day its shown to me continuously. this included! you and the “other anon” should really reevaluate how you talk to people in severe mental crisis because this is like the exact opposite of how you should react to seeing someone delusion posting or whatever and it shows me you dont know a single loved one with who experiences this shit.

in the future, fucking look into how you approach someone struggling. if i wasnt as lucid in my psychosis or in touch with reality you genuinely could have put me in danger. im going to send you and anyone on my blog watching me like im a circus act off with this so you never put anyone in my position in a state of self harm. but if youre too lazy to click on the link im showing you anyways