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dailyfigures · 4 months ago

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hiiiiii everyone i'm just popping in to say that i probably won't be online much for a bit, meaning the queue will go on as always but i can't really answer asks much :( will be back on track as soon as i can!

#life is kind of a nightmare rn so idk even when it's quiet at work and i technically have time i just can't bring myself to answer asks #we found out my little beloved baby senior dog has extreme kidney failure like pretty much as bad as possible without being dead #and it's impossible to say how long but he has anywhere from days to months to live it's really not looking good #he's 11 but his breed usually live till 13-16 so we were really expecting a couple more years with him #it's really hard because knowing he will die soon is making me want to do all kinds of things with him like take him to the beach but he's-#too fragile and it's too late and it breaks my fucking heart i can't tell you how hard it is to know he won't even make it to summer #it's so fucked i don't know what else to say like we're watching him like a fucking hawk to make sure we put him down in time to avoid-#suffering idk it's just fucked i don't know what to tell you #if you have a dog take them to a spot they haven't been before like a beach or woods or a park they love new smells and all that shit #phew sorry for the vent i just dont know how to act normal when my little baby will never see a beach again i hope the whole world explodes #cw pet death #cw pet loss #pet loss #pet loss cw #tw pet death #tw pet loss #cw pet illness #me.txt #non figure

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raiiny-bay · 11 months ago

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b/a for the boys’ anniversary edit :-)

#b and a #mostly just posting this to say hi #i didn’t mean to disappear again. it’s just #i have had A Week #literally the longest 10 days of my life #but um. it’s fine. i’m hoping things will maybe kind of go back to normal soon ish #i’d like to try & catch up on things & reply to people at some point #i just haven’t had the time nor the energy lately #but n e way….#i’m glad people seemed to like this edit #all the comments & tags on it were so sweet!!#ik i didn’t reply to them but i did read them!!#i had a lot of things i wanted to say about this edit but #i honestly can’t remember any of them now #my brain is just scrambled tbh #so. yea. that’s it i guess. hi.

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skibasyndrome · 8 months ago

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brain so broken that I can't even write my silly little fanfics for comfort 😭😭😭

#I'm so exhaaaaausted 😭😭😭#also kind of sick again/still #rip #I just wanted to wind down and write some silly smut because my GOD I want to write again #but I CAN'T 😭😭😭 I can't even get into any of my ideas #can't come up with settings can't come up with dynamics nothing #I just wanna do my comfort thing :( why brain no work #simon.out.#I am once again just hoping that I will bounce back and be..... somewhat of my normal self again soon #because boy oh boy am I not having a vibe-y time rn #and it always seems like there's no coming back from this

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seaofreverie · 13 days ago

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Sparks in a week

#AH ! new post jumpscare. i don't have any huge news to share yet just that. sparks in a week. felt important to say #other than that these past 4 days i've often asked myself 'why am i doing this to myself again exactly'#but i think i need to keep doing this to myself still. we've come too far but i gotta say that i do already miss them badly #which is definitely a normal way to feel in such situations (i'm still allowed to like. listen to them and stuff ofc #it's just that maybe looking out for new sparks posts and news every day etc has become too important a part of my daily life lately)#but again the wait will soon be over. also i lied that i have nothing to share #it's just that. i think i'll keep these things a secret... for now.... chuckles mischeviously a little bit #anyways i hope it's all well and super exciting in sparksland and everyone's having fun. have a fun rest of your day / night folks #goosepost

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microwavedelivery · 4 months ago

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Started a joking silly big group RP from a selfship server I was in and I was quaking in my boots like crazy shy to RP as my own F/Os especially because Crowley and Aziraphale are so well known and someone who was in there that had seen the show as well said I did fine and they even heard it in their voices and. Waugh. Sob sob. Feels like I just gained such a high achievement. I like RP even if I haven't done it since like middle school I'm so glad to know that my shy little like six or so messages that I did as them were nice...

#tempts me to do more go figure teehee #it's like my goal with art. my goal with drawinf is that I can draw well enough that it is recognizable.#someone can look at it and go “oh you drew [blank]” here.#And so getting that with my RP was. fantastic.#I know Inknow I shouldnt worry about being out of character with F/Os i jus. im silly.#Today has gone by a bit quickly for me today truthfully.#im hoping tomorrow can go by a bit more slowly.#I wonder if that's partly why these like past three or so days I have been up so stinkin late!#mmph. I'll try to go to bed soon i dunno why I've been having trouble with it lately. Normally sleep troubles arent I thing I have.#Actually normally I have the reverse where Im sleepy all the time and can nod off partially in class in things or at tables or in the car.#Oh noo. Suppose I'll just rack my silly brain for some sleepy F/O imagines.#Sorry I. am rewatching Good Omens again im refueling myzelf with goober thoughrs of them. mmnggp.#self ship #self shipping #selfship #selfshipping

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dawnbreakersgaze · 1 year ago

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Tonight I was looking at some old winter Carhart adverts and the desire to paint Grey in the same style in some winter gear (probably about to go help man handle some naughty little goats at 5am in the bitter cold while he's home visiting his folks for the holidays) was too overwhelming to ignore lol.

Unfortunately I only had an hour to dedicated to this as my schedule is incredibly jam packed rn and I'm dying tbh, but it was v v cathartic to just paint his face for a little while, all while testing out some of the new brushes I purchased a while ago from Jazza!

Maybe I'll pick this back up when I get home next week? Idk I just wanna smooch his cold nose and pretend it's winter bc I hate summer with everything that I am 😩🥴 proof him and I could never actually work lmao his expression regarding the cold says it all 😭

#What's the blog motto? When things are hard we draw Greyson!#or i guess paint- this time #soon tho #soon the hard will be over and i can go back to being happy and normal and enjoying things again #i just must survive one more week #but it will be the hardest week 🥴😩#pray for me yall #my hair stylist yesterday even said “i hope you dont kill your sister!!” as i was walking out the door #all sing-song like lolsob #art of kay #can you hear my heart 💙⃤

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sugarcandydoll · 1 year ago

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im so scared this spiritual medium dm'ed me on insta n said she wants to tell me smth about me ♡ i said sure n she said that there is a lot of negative energy surrounding me n that i should protect myself :(

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guro-man · 7 months ago

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Announcement: Schedule Changes

Doku Doku Mori Mori chapter 19 is finally up! Thank you all for waiting. I know my upload schedule has been all over the place so I figured at this point I should officially make the decision to make my schedule twice a month for the time being unless I manage to find the time to do more.

To be honest, life has been a little rough these past few weeks with stuff (I won't bog you down with details cuz that's not what this account is for but basically I've had some p shitty luck lmao) and my new job is in retail which has been super busy with the holidays on the way so at least until January I'll probably just be uploading one chapter of Pumpkin Night and one chapter of Doku Doku Mori Mori per month.

I'll be sure to check up on here at least once a week for any questions or comments though so feel free to message me even if it's just to say hi!

Have a nice day :)

#guro-man #I was hoping to get my schedule back to normal but it feels like something else happens every time I try to get back to it #life is a party and im the piñata lmao #fr tho I think things will calm down again soon :)

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bmpmp3 · 8 months ago

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Getting into stuff that has a lot of pre-announced release dates is really good for me like vocal synthesizer products and new love live etc franchise music releases....I'll be lying in bed at like 2 AM with ur usual 20-something's fear and existentialism over time and the future and then I'll remember a piece of singing software or a new song related to cartoon characters I like is gonna come out like next month and I'm like 😌

#this keeps happening to me with the upcoming december #miki and kiyoteru sv.....im so excited...if they get delayed ill scream #jk jk ill be fine but i do hope we get some demos in November soon!#soyogi still doesnt have a concrete release date but hes also probably december #now if HE gets delayed i will actually explode. i will spontaneously burst into flames #the other night i had a dream about aivoice2 ryuusei coming out. which is a normal thing to happen #it literally was just like i went online and saw videos people made with him SHDBFBSJFNFN #premonition dream...this is what will happen in november #but it reminded me i wasnt as familiar with how aiv2 sounds with a2sync. i like the aiv1 kotonosync situation #BUT it is very noisy and the vocals usually sound like lalavoice with the slightly obvious looping #which is charming but not as versatile in the grand scheme of talk synths made to sing #just the nature of it. but a2sync sounds FANTASTIC i was really shocked. im curious how his #particularly deep voice will sound compared to a more medium gentle tone like iori but im excited #im really curious how he'll sound compared to vv humming ryuusei #now what weve seen of his design.....im not suuuper into quite yet. its not BAD and well see when its fully out #but i dont care for the blue hair bits. im picky about hair dye in alternate designs #i like his gray black default situation too much. also i DO like how slutty his design is looking #but also it might look um. a little too much for a talk synth? like brother whats going on here #why are u so dressed up to chat ....i guess for fun #then again his aiv1 design was also probably more appropriate for singing synths rather than talking But I like that one more LOL #doesnt matter too much for me though im more interested in the unofficial singing side stuff AHDBFHSHFBDJJD #which also reminds me i hope someday aiv1 vy series can get a aiv2 update #a full singing synth would be nicer but i wouldnt mind a talk turned singing synth. i know everyone hates the aiv vy designs #i dont hate them theyre not great but theyre fine for talk synths. i think nancy is hilarious. white woman jumpscare #im not a huge fan of the main fanon vy designs (theyre good but they dont fit to me) so i dont mind the aiv ones #even if its just two random people SHBFJFAJFJFJSJJF but yeah i hope they get a aiv2 someday #i think it would be fun to make em sing with a2sync hee hee #also on the ll end i am so excited for dia birthday album end of dec #AND all the new liella tunes. i still havent watched the new season because i havent been able to sit down and enjoy it yet #but soon....next week ill have time...sooooooon

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sleebyconfy · 9 months ago

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#depression is so weird. have been getting everything i want and have been experiencing such wonderful things #but i've been feeling like i can't enjoy any of it and that there's this horrible thick glass wall between me and my emotions and the world #i'm really hoping that things like getting back to work (took a long vacation) and alone time and #trying to do things like going for walks and stretching and eating more often will help #i may even look for further part time employment :')#and also will hopefully begin giving clothes away soon (that have been in to give away boxes for years now) to friends and their friends #it's been weighing on me for a while and i think part of it is that i need to feel more in control of my life and my space #but i fear it may also just be normal old depression as well :( and i am completely forgetting #all of the things you're supposed to do to help yourself when the depression gets really unbearably bad #usually it is anxiety and ocd that are giving me the most problems but now depression has reared its head up over those two again #idk i guess all this to say i am grateful and i had fun and i love everyone and nothing bad happened but i dont feel happy lately #my post

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f1owermoon · 9 months ago

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sorry i just. need to rant for a second

#cause dude the whole joost situation is SO fucking upsetting #he's mentioned over and over again how overwhelming this whole overnight success thing has been for him and to respect his boundaries #and instead of yk respecting his wishes “fans” go and make things worse by constantly overstepping and being creepy and weird like hello???#like why can't we all just be normal and take a step back and enjoy things #these people are gonna end up driving him off the internet and i wouldn't blame him one bit #and the worst part is the people who should get the memo obviously don't (or refuse to) bc this isn't an isolated instance #like its been going on for a while now #idk man i just think about how hard it must be for him rn #one of the things that turned me into a joost fan (besides his music) was his personality #like i obviously dont know him on a personal basis #but from the little bits ive seen he comes across as a really genuine and sweet and kind dude #super thoughtful as well. like i just love the way he thinks and his take on things #like i remember watching his eurovision interviews and just thinking oh man this dude's a ray of sunshine LMFAO #also the literal definition of resilience like dude's been through so much stuff and hes always managed to come out on top despite of it #and thats something i really admire about him too. like the way he put it as not letting your traumas be just that #but also something that can drive you forward #but yeah dude's had more than enough like he deserves to be happy and have some peace and ppl keep ruining it for him and it makes me upset #like i actually slept like shit last night and woke up feeling terrible and i wonder if what went down yesterday w the whole live thing #has anything to do with it lmfao #and you may be like ok well youre taking it too personally and letting it affect you #and yeah maybe youre right LOL but i cant help it i care about the guy and i want him to be okay #he seems to have a really good support system though so i hope things blow over soon and he can finally have some peace #anyway. rant over! 💋#raquel speaks

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disengaged · 9 months ago

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I just wanted to say that I love your writing! Been a long time lurker, but I always find that I eventually come back to your fics.

hey, thank you so much !! that’s so sweet of you to say, and i really appreciate you taking the time to send me a message! ♥️♥️♥️

i’ve really been struggling with writing for the past uh … 2 years … but i miss it a lot, so it’s really encouraging to know there are people out there who still like reading my shit LOL

#asks #itsnotoveruntil #omg this made me smile so wide :) thank you again !!#i still have so many things i want to write about but for some reason the words just … haven’t been flowing like they normally do #every time i try to write it’s such a painfully unpleasant / frustrating (?) experience i start to get a bit upset #which is dumb but idk. brain machine broke :(#i really hope i can publish something new for you soon :’) ♥️

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obnoxiousarcade · 1 year ago

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im thinking again

#ive been dealt the bad hand; the worse hand; the hand from the arm from the body #im just.....okay #Well aaaa its weird #nothing anyone says to me is to *me*#which is fair-- no one knows me. but i do wish i got it. i dont know #the passing of time is still my worst enemy #i love everyone so much. itssssssweird.#if youre following these posts and saw the last one: i think i am still gonna die soon. awwh man. i dunno #but i have no reason to go on truthfully and i dont feel like finding one #im tired and sad OK?#i do want an acknowledgement again #and if you're following these posts im going to do the same thing i did last time and talk to the three tumblr blogs:#1. hi. i really like you. i admit it. j think youre really cool and all. uh okay im supposed to ask a question so here; how are you? well i #hope. k dont know. i havent been reading up like i should be and as for the second blog im talking to here i also havent been reading up lik #e i should im very sorry. i will make that journal again though.#and third blog: hi!! i still have no clue how to do that one thing but youve really gotten me into the hypothetical idea of differences base #f off of like ...area. the thing you said about that one thing.! i javwnt been doing much about it but thinkin but you know thinkin is fun.#i do want to do reading on it but ive been very sad lately and i cannot be bothered #this is really fun talking to people like this. um #youre very cool blog one ive been becoming a big fan of you again #blog two.if you see this: i want you-- I'm sayin that to specify that I'm talking to you. but i dont. anyway: uh. oh no i forgot what i was #gonna say #okay here's to not talking to anyone particular:#i want to do drugs. its the only way ill be able to handle all this.but i... oh hey i have melatonin!!#hmmmmmm #idk #it just puts me to sleep and i hate sleeping cause im always having bad dreams-- both nightmares and just dreams that Suck-- but...... im #desperate.#okay im gonna take a normal dose and just keep it together i hope #I hate sleeping

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bumpscosity · 2 years ago

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too scared to go off anon but we are mutuals and i love seeing your posts about the disney rides and such. its like peeking in a window to something i know nothing about but enjoy seeing on my dash regardless

HAI MYSTERY MUTUAL!! glad ya like it! disney parks are a hyperfixation so it's always fun to post about for me :)

#i always forget disney parks fan hypocrisy isn't something everyone's aware of it's just rly funny to me #also pro tip if you ever see disney parks fans other than me saying a new expansion will ruin the park it won't i prommy #these ppl hate anything new until they actually see it and then it's the greatest thing since sliced bread #and they will never aknowledge they were ever wrong <3 #hoping to go to more theme parks next year! would love to go to californias great america again #since it's the closest thing i have to a home town park and it's closing down soon #REALLY wanna go to knotts berry too ghostrider looks like the most perfect coaster ever #would love to go to disneyland again too obv but that's WAY more expensive #like gas to get there alone is insane #i really should post some disney parks tips #i feel like a lot of the super disney parks fans that go there every day take some knowledge for granted #and then some things like if you need genie+ or not are complex answers they they usually just answer with a simple yes or no #anyways number 1 tip of the day is to get walking shoes. doesn't need to be super fancy just some good ol walking shoes #sketchers are my personal fav #DO NOT GO TO ANY DISNEY PARK WITHOUT WALKING SHOES #you will think since you go on walks in your normal sneakers you'll be fine but you won't be i promise 💀#^ can you tell i'm very normal about theme parks by this tag wall.#sassy speaks #asks #anon

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melk-maid · 4 months ago

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Sorry for never responding to messages or responding so inconsistently, im sorry for hardly being around, im sorry for being fucking weird and sporadic and unsure in everything I do lmao im not sure what specifically my problem is besides fear and paranoia but im trying to work through it because I haven’t felt like a normal person for months

#rotten melk #sorry im always so fucking negative when I am around LMAO #im trying to accept like the whole #things change things are different but im still around #I still have friends people still like me people are patient and I’m so grateful #I just #idk I feel horrible and I don’t know why anyone would bother with me LMAO #which isn’t helping my paranoia because then im like #well there must be an ulterior motive bcos why would people stay #my brain is a fucking horrible minefield I hate it here!!!!!!!!#but thank you anyone who reads this and for being patient and supportive #I think I’m scared of going through loss again #loss that’s so much harder and insecure to come back from in comparison to like other loss I’ve gone through ykno #idk I’m probably being dramatic everyone is like melk it’s just tumblr get over it #but I lost like everything lmao it was my only income source like #I lost years of my life with no control no explanation just torn away from me #for existing and I’m still months later trying to go back to normal by myself #no therapy only meds trying to start again #but I’m terrified of building again to lose and I think talking to people and being active is part of that #I hope it’ll pass soon and the only way for it to pass is to move on and just do and not think #but idk man there’s a reason I don’t have anons on bcos people are already weird lmao #sorry no one read this I’m word vomiting it’s 1am

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jakekazansky · 7 months ago

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Finally starting the gay holiday romance book I bought forever ago and I already can’t stand the main character

#please let this brat get redeemed or reamed soon or this is gonna be a long book #the blurb on the back made it sound so cute but the main guy so far is an insufferable prat #also it’s from first person POV which isn’t something I normally read #fingers crossed it gets better (I really hope it does cause again the blurb on the back made it sound so cute and cozy)#Jake reads things that aren’t fic

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