#i hope this warms the hearts of everyone missing soo!

[slimmmby]

Soo hi guys, i have great news since @iamacoconutcoconut ask me if i could turn my AU into a fanfic i really think about it and since i alredy have some chapters done i decided to post it.

This is the prequel of 12:00 AM ( the name i decided for my AU ) it Would have sense i promise , this is a slow post fanfic so dont wait much from me.

Having saying this, good lecture and hope you enjoy it :DDD

TW: mention to child abuse and sustances.

Jean had been missing for the entire afternoon, after lunch time he just seemed to have vanished from the face of the earth and Antonio was already getting worried.

Antonio had asked Black Sheep to climb some of the buildings on the island and Gray to search the beach but there was nothing.

At this point he only had one place left to check.

-Jean Paul!!!-

Jean looked up to see who was calling him, to his unsurprised, it was Antonio.

-God, I've been looking for you everywhere, why are you here? Are you... okay?-

Jean Paul thought he had been asked that question a lot... maybe... too much.

-Huh? Of course I'm fine, don't worry!-

He said with a small smile on his face, but it was clear that Antonio wasn't going to buy that story.

-You've been distant the last few days. He said as he sat down next to him. You know, you can tell me whatever, I don't care, I'm not going to judge you, you are my best friend after all.-

His understanding words filled his heart and although he wasn't 100% sure he knew that at least Antonio wouldn't tell anyone.

God, he hoped so.

He sighed and placed his head on Antonio's shoulder, he prepared to speak..

-Actually, Tonio... You know, I come from a rich family, my father is a...very powerful person..-

Before continuing he looked at him with concern, but he didn't say anything, he just hoped that he would continue.

-He... used to hit me a lot... And he also let his friends hit me and-and ,also..-

He wanted to continue but he began to feel his voice breaking and tears began to fall down his face.

Antonio pulled him into a warm hug, allowing him to cry on his chest.

-It's okay, you don't have to talk if you don't want to...-

-...If it makes you feel better...Something similar happened to me. -

He can't believe his going to tell this. But if Jean had the confidence to tell him what he lived, then why not?

-Really? -He asked.

-Si...-

-My mother, she was a substance abuser...-

Antonio said while looking to the other side of the room. Uncapable to look Jean to the eyes.

His words let Jean Paul speechless.

-She also used to hit me a lot...believe me, I know what it feels like...-

A short silence took over the place, as if both were assimilating the situation.

-Antonio, I'm sorry-... said Jean Paul a little hurt.

-Why?- Antonio asked bewildered.

-For making you sad, you really don't have to do this...I don't even know why I'm telling you...-

Antonio understood the weight he carried and how hard it was for him to open up, even with him it was hard for him to have enough courage. He really felt bad.

- Jeannie, no problem, seriously, we all need to let off steam from time to time. -

He said with the purity and sincerity of his heart.

Jean looked down clearly not convinced and a little embarrassed.

-Hey..-

Antonio took his face, wiping the tears from his cheeks.

-Don't be sad, it happens more than you think. -

It was true, it happened to him, it happened to Jean and he doesn't want to know how many times it happened before them.

Jean let his hand rest on Antonio's, it felt warm, very different from his own.

-Thanks Tonio..-

-Hahaha you're welcome silly. -

He had to admit it Jean looked a little cute like that, far from the strict and severe figure he always maintained.

His mind was distracted by the face of his friend ,admiring each feature in detail.

Until he asked the question.

-You always take care of everyone, but.. If you take care of everyone, who takes care of you? -

He stopped the moment he was asked that question, which for others may seem so simple, for him it was a torture to answer.

He couldn't admit it, because he didn't realize it yet.

-Ah... well... Don't worry about it! I'm fine! -

Yes, he's fine, after all he's always fine.

Jean looked worried but didn't say anything, when Antonio was ready he would tell him anyway.

If Antonio didn't have anyone to take care of him, he would be that person... he somehow trusts in that.

[prettymediocrewizard]

hey there! do you plan on restocking your tenma and grimmer charm once theyre sold out? i would love to get one but cant rn;; its just soo cute!!

I hope you don't mind me answering this anyways! This anon saw my other post addressing this, but I thought I'd answer this one later in case others missed it [here]- but yes! I will restock!

I'm now down to the last keychain so I wanted to reiterate that I'll definitely be adding more and I also have a couple other things being made too~ I'll wait til they arrive to post about them though 👀

and again!! Thank you SO much everyone for the support on them!! I truly just made them for fun for myself so I'm always a little surprised when others are interested. It warms my heart to be able to share it with others 💞 I'm excited for when the first ones arrive to some of you soon~

[spookyserenades]

Soo I hope you're ready for this, because it's gonna be a doozy. I have so many emotions over this story, I cannot tell you. Thank you so much for writing Trouvaille, I feel like it's been something I've been missing all my life. From the very first chapter, you've been able to create a world where anything and everything is possible with our favourite boys. My heart cannot handle it.   I do have a few questions though. Let's go by each member. 

For Joonie: how could you do this to me? This is my favourite depiction of Namjoon. Especially wolfie Namjoon. Everything is right, it just fits.  From the attitude, how he was trying to flex on everyone from the first day, to him loving sweets and being a complete bookworm, it's all so good. I can definitely see this version of Namjoon living in a trailer in the middle of a national park and being obsessed with Bigfoot lol. I also enjoyed how you were able to show how he can be uncomfortable with his emotions. After the incident, when he was trying to apologize to Y/N and he seemed lost and awkward, I really felt that. He's been a lone wolf for so long, it's really not surprising he may be a tad bit emotionally constipated. I definitely know the feeling lol. 

Taehyung: I can't. I cannot with this version of Tae. I love how he is, and his backstory. It's so interesting! How did you come up with it? I've read quite a few hybrid stories, and I can honestly say I've never read a backstory like his before. Poor Tae Bear. I just want to wrap him up in a blanket and cuddle him. He is too good for this world. I love how he was so quick to warm up to Y/N, it's so cute. How he came running when he heard her scream from her bathroom, and went all inspector mode to see if anyone was in there attempting any harm. Ahh.. my heart.

Seokjin: What a backstory for Jin. I was at the edge of my seat reading the last chapter. Why am I not surprised his previous owners would dump him at a shelter when they have no more use for him. He put his heart and soul into performing, and they just discarded him like he was nothing. I would definitely have a few choice words for them, I'd start throwing hands. >:(  The last chapter was amazing. How he felt safe enough to tell Y/N his backstory, his fears, and talk about Hannah. Please tell me we will get a chance to meet Hannah. Please tell me she didn't perish in the accident. Pretty please 

Yoongi: My favourite relationship in this story so far is between Y/N and Yoongi. From the very beginning, it's like they had an understanding. They definitely knew each other in another life, I love how you added that to the story! How he looks after her, doesn't mind cooking and even lets her get away with all that she does, she has him wrapped around her little finger. And he lets her!! Yes. Yes to everything.  I love how protective he is over her- I almost combusted reading the drabble for my boys - yes Yoongi, feel jealous and overprotective of your girl! He gave her the biggest cinnamon roll with the most icing... I squealed. Also, that scenting scene was hot. I hope they have more scenes together in the future.

Hoseok: Ahh Hobi.. the sunshine of the group. Yes to being a cheeky boy. It's like he's been on Y/N's side from the very beginning. He is the one that I've been wondering about the most in this story. Is he going to be able to get over his fear of wolves? Is he ever going to get Y/N to do yoga with him? Are we ever going to meet Keaon, and if so, will a certain foxy be jealous?  So many questions! Also, in the last chapter, when he was whistling his tune and she asked him about it, was that a sort of mating call? I tried looking it up, but I didn't get anywhere with it lol.

Jimin: Ahh Jiminie.. yes. His whole aesthetic - hair slicked back, jean wearing cowboy with the Clark Kent hairstyle. Yes. It's kind of embarrassing how many times I went back to read the chapter where everyone got their hair cut. Out of all the cuts, this one is top notch. I must admit, I did not expect Jimin's backstory in this. Are we going to find out more about why he left home? Does it have anything to do with his family? He has a sister, are we going to meet her as well? Will she like Y/N? So many questions!! 

Jeongguk: Last but cerainly not least, Kookie. My spooky gothic angel. I love his aesthetic in this as well. When you said you were going for a Constantine vibe with him.. I can assure you, you did it. Very very well lol. His attitude with the other guys and with Y/N has me feeling a certain type of way. Poor guy seems like he's been through quite a bit. But I like how he's had his troubles and tribulations with everyone, and he's slowly opening up. His birthday chapter was so cute, he seemed so distrusting of Y/N at the beginning, but he came through at the end. Can we get a drabble of the party as well? I'd love to see how he felt.  Anyways, this post is too long so this is the end of it lol. I cannot wait for October 7th. It cannot come fast enough. Thank you for all you do Dana! 

Hi hello how are you my love!!! 🥰 Thank you so so much for sending me in this lovely feedback! I hope you don't mind a late response, I wanted to answer each of your questions to the best of my ability since you have sent me so much love. Thank you for loving and supporting Trouvaille so much, I'm so grateful and happy that I get to share the story and these boys with you! You're too kind, and I really appreciate you and your love! So I, too, will go member by member for you as well;

Joon: HEHE AHHH It makes me super happy and excited that you love this version of Joonie!! He is my main bias in BTS (I'm hyung line biased, I wonder if it's obvious...) But I loved giving him a little attitude and edge. I feel like it fits his Virgo energy, as well as going hand in hand with being a wolf hybrid. Still though, him being bookish and very into eating sweets are some qualities IRL Namjoon has, and I definitely wanted to keep some of their real personality traits in this story as well. I love Namjoon's past in Trouvaille, it will be revealed piece by piece as the story goes on since he's pretty private (and we'll see even more of it in the eventual release of his prequel!) Namjoon is based loosely off of Fox Mulder from the X-Files, so that's where the Bigfoot/cryptid/paranormal interest comes from. Namjoon has a "lone wolf" complex that we'll see him struggle with throughout the plot, so a lot of human emotions are difficult for him to process and express. I love the term you used-- "emotionally constipated" 💀, that's TOTALLY what he is... I doubt he has ever had to apologize to someone like that. It was definitely new to him!

Taehyung: Kodiak Tae is my baby, my boyfriend... He's a sweet boy!! I'm glad that you like his backstory and find it interesting. It was kind of a risk to incorporate something like a murder within a backstory of one of the boys, but I think that it's added some interest and mystery to his character-- he's not all rainbows and sunshine, he's got darker origins. Most of the boys I have based off of characters from my favorite books/films/shows. As for Tae, I based his backstory off of the TV show Twin Peaks, and a slew of characters from that show, primarily Josie Packard, Big Ed and Audrey Horne. There is a large part of that show that takes place in a logging plant (that's where Tae was working prior to his adoption), so that's where that part of his backstory came from. Other than that, I wanted him to have a sort of Seattle grunge rock vibe, and some skeletons in his closet to counteract his shy and sweet nature. He is such a love though, he really warmed up to Y/N and her personality. And that scene where he ran into the bathroom... he was checking for intruders, ready to beat them up if they dared to break into Y/N's bathroom!! 👹

Seokjin: I love a good dark circus aesthetic! I think that it fits Seokjin in Trouvaille well. He has that pretty face, athletic build, and such a stage presence. It is horrible that in the Trouvaille universe, many companies and people discard hybrids once deemed "damaged" or "useless". Seokjin likely put his all into performing, and was easily damaged-- no wonder he, too, is clingy like Tae. Y/N, like you, is ready to burn the whole circus down for him!!! I'm so happy you liked the last chapter and the focus on some of Seokjin's backstory. It was really fun to finally reveal some of his past to the readers. He definitely feels safe with Y/N, especially because she treats him so gently and doesn't have outrageous expectations for him. As for Hannah- we'll find out a little more about her in the next chapter, and in the future as well! She will definitely be touched upon again, so don't worry! 😉

Yoongi: I could cry!!! 🥺 Yoongi and Y/N's relationship is my favorite so far, as well. I love nothing more than Yoongi's gentle, doting, and selfless personality, and it totally reflects in his character in Trouvaille. The two of them have this almost unspoken connection, and it is very mysterious. I am such a fan of past-life lover stories, so I had to incorporate it at least a little bit in Trouvaille. I classify Yoongi as a househusband in this story, which is a dream of many. Whether Y/N knows it or not, she has Yoongi eating out of the palm of her hand (she's too enamored with him to notice). His love language seems to be acts of service. Anything he can do to make her life easier, he does-- and he definitely gets affection in return. Their piano lessons together... UGH! I'm so jealous, I want that relationship LOL. He is certainly one of the more possessive and jealous ones (Joon and Tae, too) but it's almost like he wants to steal her away for himself! He indulges her so much.. the cinnamon roll AH all she had to do was flirt with him a little! And his scenting scene was my FAVORITE too, so I'm happy you liked it as well. There is certainly more of that coming.

Hoseok: Hobi is just so! I love him so so much. Like Y/N, foxes are my favorite animal. I think the cleverness and quickness of a fox fits Hoseok's personality and vibe well. He is one of the hybrids more shrouded in mystery, and has a tough time opening up, perhaps because he had been waiting so long to be adopted and many of his previous adoptions had fell through. He and Y/N have like a bestie connection, and she feels totally at ease with him. Often, he's the one to break up tension, and he is most similar to Y/N, personality wise (extroverted, optimistic). Y/N is going to try her best to help him get over his wolf phobia, but he likely has a long road ahead of him to sort that out-- I don't see him becoming super chummy with Namjoon right away. Keon may make a comeback in the future, I'm excited that you remembered him! I think not only will Hoseok be jealous, but the rest of them as well... A hybrid from her past? Drama! The whistle: like the others, Hoseok is based off of a film character, his being Mr. Fox from Wes Anderson's Fantastic Mr. Fox. In the film, Mr. Fox has a "signature" or "trademark" whistle/click noise he makes, and that is what Hoseok does.

Jimin: Hnnnnggg I adore blonde Jimin, it's one of his best looks. I have such a clear image in my mind of his really classic looking haircut (suitable for a cowboy, LOL) with the piece of hair in his face... woof. I loved the haircut chapter, it was self indulgent and gave me the opportunity to give them all my favorite looks on them LMAO. His backstory is one of the more "out there" ones, but it's different than the others and I hope you'll find it interesting when we hear more about it in the future! We'll find out why he wanted to leave home, especially when it seems like it is one of the more comfortable ways for a hybrid to live. I will say, it has more to do with Jimin's dreams and ambitions, rather than any quarrels with his family. There is a definite possibility that we'll meet his sister in the future, as well--Y/N will likely want to reunite them even for a few days, if she can. Y/N seems to be pretty happy go lucky and likable, so I'm sure Jimin's sister would approve, especially when she sees how much Y/N cares for her brother.

Jeongguk: The Constantine movie with Keanu Reeves has to be one of my favorite movies, like ever. I'm stoked that you think I've accomplished the aesthetic with Jeongguk! He happens to be one of the more self indulgent characters that I wrote into Trouvaille. I love a gothic sort of bad boy, and the paranormal investigator vibe fits him super well. Even IRL, Jeongguk has expressed interest in paranormal topics before, so I think it is true to him. He has quite an abrasive and temperamental personality in Trouvaille, which I think is refreshing for Jeongguk in fics. There is a reason for the way he acts and his prickliness, and when he feels like he can open up more and doesn't have to be so distrustful and defensive, he will. He is slowly becoming more comfortable in his environment, sharing it with the other hybrids, and with Y/N's presence, as well. I think he realizes now that she isn't there to betray him. His birthday was so so so fun to write, and allowed us to not only see a softer side of him, but get some of his backstory as well. I will jot down that drabble idea, I really think that would be a blast to write!

Thank you a million times for sending in all of your thoughts, I really enjoyed hearing them all 🥺, and I hope I could provide you with new insights! I can't wait to share Chapter Ten with you on the 7th, and I'm sending you so much love! Thank you for reading and supporting Trouvaille! 🩷😘

[kithtaehyung]

Hey ryen🤗 (🧶🍁 anon here) it’s been a while since I was on here (life has been pretty stressful and my mental health has been kinda up and dow, but I am doing my best to get back on track☺️).

So happy for everyone who got to see yoongi in concert! And all the excitement and happiness that was spread. Really warms my heart. I hope you are doing well and I am soo exited to binge all the 3tan chapters I missed while I was gone. I will also write down all my feelings while reading them,so be warned 😄😄 just wanted to know what is your preferred way of receiving that (I don’t want to spam you) should I just submit my screaming about your writing via your feedback thing or just send them per ask. Anyway hope you and everyone on here has a nice day and thank you ryen for creating this cozy corner of the internet ☺️

oh holy shit, hi, babe!!🥺💕 i was wondering where you were and if you were doing okay. it’s been what, a few months?? definitely rooting for you to get things back on track🫂

the concerts have looked amazing, and oh my you have quite a few chapters to go through and i’m both excited and terrified for you🤣

you can totally send asks for feedback ! what people usually do is send asks, and then if it’s too long, they use the feedback form. thank you for even asking about that, though😭 you’re so kind and I love your commentary!! please have a nice day, as well, and thank you for reaching out again!

[thehalfbloodedwitch]

hey nixie! how have you been? be honest, please. i hope you've been great! i hope you have wonderful day full of love! please, drink loads of water and take rest & care. remember you're so beautiful and important to me! to everyone! i love you soo muuuch!

here's my little gift for you for valentine's day🩷❤️

HEYYYY DOMIII AHH IT HAS BEEN AGES SINCE I TALKED TO YOUU 😭

I am doing better now that my brain storming study sessions are to a minimum because I have finished more than half of my portions, how are you doing my love? Tell me everything I missed!

Now that your message is in my inbox I am sure I will have a love filled day because of you <3 and I hope YOU have a beautiful and a warm day with roses and chocolates pouring at you because you deserve it all!

Just drank a glass for water, I just love how you are always so concerned and ask for my well being like makes me feel so special to you 💕

I hope you have taken enough rest and drank enough water and been taking care of yourself like the queen you are 😍

You are the one who is so so important to me domi! Without you, tumblr is boring and a hellsite to enter and you have a very very very special place in my heart, you are radiant, gorgeous and stunning! Ilysmmm words cannot describe how much I love you 💌

Awhh thank you so much for the gift honey! Here's a little moodboard for the most gorgeous valentine (aka you 😘)

[chocosvt]

hi choco !! i hope you’re having a good day/night 🤩🤩

i’ve been a fan of yours since late 2020/early 2021 (i can’t remember when exactly) and i just want to say that i rlly rlly love your writing. like LOVE love your writing 💗💗

i’m a writer myself, but for years i’ve always felt like there was something wrong or missing in the way i write, and i couldn’t figure out why. but then i found your jun imagine because i love you, which (ngl) was one of those kinds of stories that changed my life forever. (also i’m a jun stan so 😂 it made me love this work even more) i read through all your works (other favorites include honey boy, the best friends brother rewrite, split your heart, brownie points, insomniac, second life, wish, fireflies, connect, ivory night AAAA THEY’RE ALL SO GOOD 😭💖) i love every single one of them, and gradually i discovered what went wrong with my own work (for example, my ridiculous tendency to switch from past to present and back in the same scene, my over exaggerated writing style, and strange pacing and plot). your writing helped me improve my own, and i am forever grateful for that.

you’re an incredible writer, and your writing has definitely inspired and changed people’s lives (at least with mine and the way i write). i hope that writing will continue to be a part of your life and that no one will ever take that away from you 💞💞 you have an amazing gift and if you ever decide to write a book and publish it, i will definitely buy it asap 🤩🤩

hope you’re doing well!! ✨✨✨ (imma go study for my ap cal exam now 🥲🥲)

OKAY i know you sent me this last week but when i first read ur ask it was my morning before work and all i could do was roll around in my bed cuz teehee-ing n kicking my feet like OMFG IT WAS SO BAD i love your MESSAGE SO MUCH I WANTED TO CRY MY EYES OUT!!

but then i wasn't even sure what i could say in response to it since i was like my words won't suffice in explaining my joy and gratitude!!! but PLEASE KNOW I APPRECIATE EVERYTHING YOU SAID I HOLD ONTO IT LIKE A LITTLE WARM TEA LIGHT!!

ALSO YES okay i still do the thing with my tenses! and it's always the opposite!! if i'm writing in present tense then somehow my brain automatically switches to past tense n vice versa I LITERALLY MADE THAT MISTAKE A FEW DAYS AGO i had to go back n fix all my paragraphs omfg ,,,,,,,, but i'm so happy that u were able to find an extra layer of use from my writing hahahahahah i think everyone grows into their own individual style over time!

HHAAHHA omg i don't think i could write an actual book like i LOVE the idea of it but i think my writing is more suited to fanfics eujgiseg idk it's just more fun to be apart of a fandom?? and writing is also soo personal to me i don't tell anyone that i write (i mean obvs ppl on here know) but irl i never talk abt it cuz it just feels too intimate!!

[epaily]

s2 e6 liveblog! last one!

aziraphale is so protective of everyone it warms my heart

i hope nina and maggie get a good ending. who am i kidding i know they will.

crowley sticks out soo bad in heaven lmao

BEES

roasting heavens security lmaooo

"youre not a bee youre a murder hornet!"

hate that hair on him

FUCK THEM UP MAGGIE

SHE FLIPPED THEM OFF

FUCK EM UPPPPP

oh FUCK

this is the second time his shop has been violated augh

METATRON????

VINDICATIONNNNNNNN?????

oh shit!!! he opened it!!!

HAHA get rolled demons

earth 2023 simulator

ah that was the real gabriel! i thought he'd already been wiped with that it sounded so wrong

he just said no??? thats weird

this has to be killing aziraphale right. that has to be ruining so many books just as well as water. i know its for the greater good but

this is so incorrect

something is so wrong

gabriel Should Not be speaking like that

oh the books are SO killing him

and sure enough he dropped the matchbox

has he been faking this whole time??? i Cannot Tell-

HALO

AZIRAPHALE HAS A HALO

HALO

HALO

HALO

oh my god

A WAR????? GIRL-

ITS THE LASTEPISODE WHAT DO YOU MEAN A WAR-

this is a MESS

DAGON????????????

cant you undo a miracle????? i feel like i remember that

pet fly lmao thats kinda cute

AUGH NO NOT THE EYE

EW EW EW EW EW

lol the s1 footage

gabriel and beezlebub arguing is just as funny as it was 4 years ago

i still want to know why gabriel chose no war. that doesnt sound like him

awe beezlebub likes music

shelly conn is cute

they keep meeting. somethings up.

i smell blood in the water. do you remember the amount of porn of these two in 2019.

hes back 👀

awe he said thank you

why is this more romantic then aziraphale and crowley have been the whole season

THERES NO FUCKIN WAY

NO WAY

THIS IS FAKE

THERES NO FUCKING WAY

anna maxwell martin is so sad she missed out on this LMAOOOOO

i cannot FUCKING believe this is happening

if they kiss im throwing my phone

awe they just vanished. this is so weird. i could never of fucking predicted this in a million years. never. NEVER. NEVER

METATRON

VINDICATIIIIIIIIIIOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNÑNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

i cannot get over muriel. she thought she was going for lunch with them. she asked for a book. "theyre like people! but portable!" omfg cute shes not quite their kid but shes something

DID NINA JUST CALL MAGGIE ANGEL

WAH

good for nina taking her time! shes going through a breakthrough and needs a break. good for fucking her.

"you never communicate" oh NO oh god is this going to break me im scared

they will not shut the fuck up. i love them so fucking much.

WHAT

CROWLEY COULD BE AN ANGEL AGAIN

oh no

oh no

i dont like where this is going

oh my fucking god

head in hands

OK BYE SAY IT IM GONNA HYPERVENTALATE

IM LOSING MY MIND

I AM LOSING

MY

FUCKING

THEY KISSED

MIND

MY MIND IS GONE ITS LOST IT IS NOT HERE

I AM NOT HERE

IM GONE

GONE

GONE

GONE

can these bitches stop breaking up

SECOND COMING

oh my god aziraphale youre making a horrible mistake

im not even in pain im just mentally not here

AND ITS. DONE? GIRL-

im screaming im screaming currently can you hear me screaming? because im screaming

i think i need to

lay down

and

process

this.

[hautecores]

Hello :) can I request 45 and 23 for Kyungsoo. Also can te setting be the reader and soo sitting on a field of flowers. Thank you :)))))

“Tell me a secret.”

Well.

Spring wasn’t your favourite season.

There was pollen everywhere and you were always afraid bees would get stuck in your hair. Days got hotter and hotter as the season went by and chilling days were memories from a different lifetime. Even the songs were colourful and pretty girls wore the cutest clothes, but all spring ever meant was a disaster. Until you met him.

Kyungsoo moved in during the flowery season.

He brought with him a lovely black dog and his secret recipe of peanut butter cookies, which invaded your room every now and then -mostly during Sunday afternoons. Capturing signs of him was surprisingly easy though.

Kyungsoo always had a book on his hands. The covers seemed to change ever so often, another colourful trait of the season. His favourite spot seemed to be the backyard, flowers blowing different essences and close to the kitchen. He was quiet and his bedroom window was across yours. From there you could barely see things, but whenever your eyes met you would shy out a smile and he would do the same, fixing his glasses on his nose without a need.

It all started when you woke up in the middle of the night, hearing your parents fight. They weren’t being specifically loud, but for such quiet neighbours, even the slightest raise of voice sounded like a thunderstorm. You turned your bedside light on and waited for them to stop so you could cry on your own. It was just another night in your least favourite season.

The next day someone was waiting for you at the door.

“Hi, I’m your neighbour Kyungsoo,” he introduced himself and wait for you to do the same. It was the first time you’ve ever seen him so close and it was hard to avoid looking at the birthmarks on his lips. “I just baked some cookies and thought you might enjoy them.”

When you got closer to accept his heartwarming gift, you noticed the air surrounding him smelled as sweet as the cookies themselves. He shied away, a bit awkward, a bit adorable, just as you tasted his baked rays of sunflowers.

“Wait,” you said, even though your mouth was still full. If happiness could have a taste, it would have chosen Kyungsoo’s flower-shaped cookies. “This is delicious!”

To make up to him, you tried baking cinnamon rolls on the next weekend, because somehow cinnamon seemed fitting to his voice, his smile and his skin. You put a lot of effort into doing so but couldn’t help thinking love-baking was the uttermost lie. None of your good thoughts and genuine feelings made into it, the dough didn’t bake evenly and you ended up with a mutation kind of patisserie.

“You baked them yourself?” no, you didn’t. Your failed attempt brought you to the nearest bakery and you prayed their cinnamon rolls wouldn’t taste too professional. You had placed them on the delicate porcelain Kyungsoo offered you his cookies on and when he sneaked a piece out, you could see by the shimmering light on his eyes that cooking was something he could take a surprise exam about without any worries. “I could smell the cinnamon.”

You didn’t mean to lie, but you couldn’t say no. Kyungsoo seemed impressed but that wasn’t what your omission was about. You wanted to show him gratitude, for a kind and silent gesture, that meant way more than just an after-midnight snack.

“I couldn’t bring myself to deny it,“ you finally admitted, playing with a tiny flower to avoid looking at him. The whole tell me a secret thing smelled like a sweet trap from the very beginning, just like his background garden in bloom.

"That’s no secret,” he said, pretending he didn’t catch your hidden meanings. “It’s been months since I learned for a fact you can’t even boil an egg.” you laughed, even though you pretended to be offended. And the silence fell like nighttime again, bugs beating their wings near the flame of yellow lights.

“Soo, it’s your turn,” and though he seemed uninterested, you knew he was paying attention, silent and mindful as always. “I wish you would tell me something, at least just once,” you added in a quiet murmur, for the door to your heart has always been opened and yet you haven’t seen much of his. You wish he would let you in, even if step by step, into his world. For you trusted Kyungsoo with yours from day one and reiterated your decision the day he lent you his shoulders to cry on.

Laid down on the grass of his backyard, colourful flowers painted dull by night still hovering over you. You almost wished you haven’t said a thing, you haven’t fallen in his trap. Grown to be your best friend, it meant Kyungsoo already knew most to all your secrets and yet there were so much left in between the lines.

It took him a couple of minutes, as if gathering courage, lean body sliding in your direction, grass being crunched under his right shoulder just so he could look at you from above. You could see, by the way his eyes hide underneath his eyelashes, he was still a bit hesitant, full lips half opened in the shape of a heart.

“I know you don’t like spring, but I’ve always thought you are just like a flower,” he confessed, so close to your heart, you could barely see your reflection in his glasses. “Delicate and determined to grow. Beautiful like a sunflower.”

You could taste how cinnamon did fit him, born out of a sweet essence and handmade for warmth, all the shades of yellow in the colour charts. You felt in your pounding heart that even though seasons have been switching for longer than a year, your emotions radiated: unchanged and pure.

Such a springy feeling to have. And Kyungsoo was right, you didn’t like spring.

But from that moment on, from the moment he kissed you, spring became your favourite season.

[its-deputy-caleb]

Hiii, could i have a request for how the gang members would react to meeting a historian or explorer in the wild?? thank you! I love your blogs sm!!

anon ily <3333 i went wayy overboard with these but i regret nothing bc this was soo cute and fun to write. I hope u enjoy and i made it gn for everyone. I only did the VDL boys for this but if enough ppl like it i might do the girls with something similar idk yet?

Dutch Van Der Linde

Dutch first laid eyes on you when you were hanging off the edge of a cliff after slipping when you got too close to the edge. He immediately ran over to you, helping you off the cliff and getting you settled back on your feet.

He seemed genuinely concerned and agreed to help you safely record the rock carving that was on the side of the cliff face, keeping you from falling.

You were a historian and had been studying these mysterious rock carvings after meeting an equally mysterious man, Francis Sinclair.

You didn’t see much of Dutch Van Der Linde after that until you ran into him again in Saint Denis in the saloon. He remembered who you were instantly and started up a conversation about your work where you chatted away for hours.

You became very close after that and he often accompanied you to Museums and fancy fundraisers that you were invited to.

He’d always get dressed up and complimented your finer outfits which was such a difference to the field gear you’d have on. You’d spend all night chatting away over nice champagne and dancing together before actually engaging with other guests but you didn’t have a care in the world with Dutch in your life.

Arthur Morgan

Arthur finds you standing in the middle of a field, flipping over rocks and staring numbly at what appeared to be a map in your hands.

When he approached you he soon learnt you were a young amateur explorer about to get your big break with a treasure hunt but you couldn’t find the gold bars for the life of you.

Arthur gave you a heart warming smile and held up a gold bar after retrieving it from his satchel having felt a little bad that he’d discovered it not a week before you.

The two of you laughed about it, calling yourself a fool for trying to find it for so long when it was clearly missing— the thought that someone took it clearly never crossed your mind.

Arthur was always a gentleman however and promised to make it up to you. After taking you to dinner and getting to know him better, you spent the next few days camping out and finding a new treasure together.

You travelled through caves and through valleys of flowers to find this treasure. Sometimes it was so beautiful that the two of you just stopped by a stream to let your horses rest and enjoy the scenery.

When you finally found the treasure you gave Arthur a big hug in excitement which caught him by surprised but he happily returned. He let you keep the treasure and wished you luck with more exploring but of course that wasn’t the last time you saw Arthur again.

Charles Smith

Charles meets you one day while you’re out surveying wildlife. You specialised in conservation, wanting to study and protect animal species.

Fresh out of the university from Saint Denis you’d been dying to get out of the confining city and explore the heartlands. That’s where a kind gentleman named Charles Smith had offered to protect you and show you around the herds of bison you’d taken to studying.

You spent days together riding the over the hills and following the herd as they travelled. While you were Charles told you all about his family and the respect and love they have for the beautiful creatures.

It was amazing the array of knowledge Charles knew about bison and you couldn’t stop the smile on your face as he told you about the characteristics of the bison. You rushed to take notes in your journal, knowing that all that he told you would help you study and protect these animals.

“Do you think it’ll actually do any good? The work you’re doing?”

“One can only hope Mr.Smith but I will do everything in my ability to protect such beautiful creatures.”

Even when you had to return to the city for study you constantly wrote to Charles, staying in touch and keeping him updated with all your work. It was hard to say goodbye to someone you’d grown close to but you made regular visits to each other long after that.

John Marston

You first found John in the saloon after a long day at work, in desperate need of a drink. Being a zoologist you instantly noticed the scars on his face and would’ve guessed a wolf was the animal that caused the damage.

The two of you instantly started up a conversation and shared all kinds of stories. He told you about being up on the mountain while you showed him the scar on your arm from your run in with a cougar.

You were collecting a compendium of all the animals across the heartlands and during the months you worked on it, you ran into John more than once.

He was always curious about your work and you often spent time together in the afternoon sun, showing him the animals you’d found so far.

“What about the stray dogs in town or do you only deal with cougars and wolves?”

“Well they’re animals too aren’t they not?”

Even though you couldn’t see John all the time, he often came along with you to see the wildlife and covered you when you were around particularly dangerous animals and you enjoyed every second you had with him.

Micah Bell

When Micah met you he had absolutely no idea what you were on about. In his mind the whole idea of a palaeontologist is ridiculous and made up, much less the fact that you chose to read books and study in your spare time.

At first he doesn’t do anything but mock your work but after running into you time and time again he finally started to come around.

He grew more and more curious when he saw the drawings in your sketch books of dinosaurs and even more so when he laid eyes on the fossils. But knowing Micah, he’s still incredibly stubborn.

“Ain’t no way that thing is real.”

“One needs an open mind to comprehend what’s prehistoric Mr.Bell. It requires a certain practice.”

Every so often on your work you’d run into Micah who’d be riding around on his horse, just passing by. By now you’d consider him a friend and your face lit up as he pulled a small ammonite fossil from his bag.

It wasn’t really your area of expertise but you could tell he wanted to impress you and seemed almost nervous as you examined the fossil. Nonetheless you could tell it was real and you let him keep the small fossil as a reminder of you until the next time you saw him.

Javier Escuella

Javier meets you when you’re down my the docks, trying to capture the sunlight and noticed him fishing.

Not wanting to disturb him you kept out of his hair until you heard him cheer loudly at a catch he managed to pull in. In your particular interest in animals, you couldn’t help but ask if you could take a photo of the fish he’d caught.

From then on the two of you became friends, often running into each other as you tried to capture landscapes and wildlife.

You’d always spend the day together and you’d show him how to use a camera while he showed you how to fish and play the guitar.

When you spent time apart you’d often write to each other to fill the gap. You’d always send pictures with little writing on the back of them while he sent you poems and songs that he wrote for you, promising to play them for you next time you’d meet.

In your personal journal you have the first picture you ever took of Javier, kept safe between the pages. He’s standing along the docks, facing the away from the water as he holds up a large sturgeon and a large smile.

You and Javier always stay in touch and after he told you of his chaotic and dangerous time in guarma he made light of it by telling you about all the different wildlife he saw while he was there.

Bill Williamson

Bill stumbles upon you in the wild by accident. He’s out scouting a lead when he ended up getting lost through the shrubbery and found you examining flowers closely.

When you told him you were a botanist he looked as if you’d just spoken a different language to him because he didn’t have a clue as to what that meant. Bill always made you laugh fondly at the confused look when you told him all the scientific names of flowers.

In Bill’s mind, a flower was a flower. There was purple flowers and blue flowers and even red ones but they didn’t have their own names.

The next time Bill ran into you he brought you what he thought was a bouquet of white flowers. Instead they were actually a species of weed that was poisonous when eaten but it didn’t stop you from smiling and hugging him which was the intended purpose.

In light of that incident Bill was actually curious about some plants, trying to learn about them more. When Bill went exploring with you he pointed out some of his favourites and you picked a few to put them in the brim of his hat for him to take him back to camp.

When you run into him again Bill tries to give you another flower, this time actually understanding the plant he’d picked was a Vanilla Flower Orchid or the Vanilla planifolia but he never learnt how to pronounce it unlike you.

With a high blush Bill placed the flower behind your ear and you pulled him into a hug, being careful not to crush the beautiful flower.

[honeyabyss]

Different ways to say I Love You (minus Luke)

Lucifer:

Lucifer isn't the best at saying what he actually feels due to his pride getting in the way, but he makes it up with small gestures

he is very observant and often knows what you need before you know it

putting on the fireplace in his study when he notices you start to rub your hands or shift your legs to warm them subconsciously

refilling your cup/glass while he pours something himself

"You should have dressed better, I can see you're shivering..."

his snarky side comments might sound like he's annoyed, but he actually cares and worries

he will most definitely put his cloak around your shoulders and keep you close to him with a hand on your waist

he's conflicted between staying subtle and showing you off all the time

"Aren't they looking amazing today? Haven't you stared enough yet? You're making them uncomfortable!"

when you're in private he becomes more open and affectionate, but still tries to play it down

him moving with his work away from his work desk to the small coffee table, sitting side by side with you, just to have you close

when he's feeling stressed he tends to intertwine his fingers with yours, seeking the comfort and familiarity of you

Lucifer tries to give you the same he feels when he is with you comfort, peace, a place to hide from the rest of the world

"You are my save haven! I don't always have to be at my best when I'm with you!"

Mammon:

"Hey! Look what I've brought you home. Ain't I the best?!"

small gifts are a regular occurrence with the Avatar of Greed, which don't always have to be the most expensive, extraordinary or thoughtful ones

"I was on the way home when I saw this and thought of you...you needed this right?"

it could have been the most ridiculous thing like a single paperclip, but he'd be so proud to have noticed and remembered you were having troubles organizing your papers yesterday

him being a tsundere makes it hard for him to openly admit or show his love for you sometimes, his thoughts are full of you and he is constantly complementing you and how much he wants to hold you in his arms or kiss...but actually vocalizing or holding and kissing you seems to be way harder

though that doesn't hold him off to keep you close and hold hands in front of others, you're his human and everyone shall know, you're his and his alone, they'd be mad to try and steal you away

as his sin is Greed, hoarding stuff happens often, most of the times he sells them to be able to get money, but every single thing you'll give him will hold a special meaning in his heart, will show off your gifts to brag

but material love isn't the only thing he can give, he'll also gladly give you all his time

he'll randomly invite you to go take a drive with him, just get in the car and go, no set destination, just Mammon and you away from his brothers and all the others

when you're alone he'd still be nervous, but cuddling will happen a lot, though he is always blushing a bright red

"If I could choose to have one treasure in my whole life, I'd choose to only treasure you!"

Leviathan:

being the Avatar of Envy, he is quick to loose his temper when you're talking or even dare touch other people, he'd be rather alone with you, but that doesn't always work, so being open and mindful about his sin is a must

"Soo what did you two talk about? Not that I mind...but you can also talk about everything with me, you know that right?"

he knows that his social skills aren't the best and that he doesn't know about to many normie topics, but he'll try his best to listen to you and come up with responses and ways to keep the conversation going

he wants to make sure you know he loves you so badly, but all he knows about love is from animes or games, so he often tries to recreate romantic scenes only to get thoroughly embarrassed

"d-d-don't laugh! This i-i supposed to be ro-romantic...."

he tries to keep you close to him as much as he can when you're outside

he knows how anxiety inducing it can be for him, when someone suddenly touches him, so he always asks you first, as embarrassing it is to ask you to hold hands or kiss, he feels better knowing you want this too

when he is playing his games, he dislikes it when you disappear out of his vision, wanting to make sure you're still there and letting you know he hasn't forgotten about you even though he is currently concentration on his gaming, he'll keep you in his lap with a furious blush on his cheeks and he might see the game over screen more often but it's definitely worth it

"You make me overcome my weaknesses, just give me time and I'll make you happy!

Satan:

"The weather is nice...do you want to take a walk with me?"

Satan enjoys spending his time with you in any way possible, a simple walk, reading sessions, visiting your favourite places, discovering new cafés, exploring galleries and museums, as long as you're around he is open to try anything

lazing around in his room cuddled up next to you with a good book will stays his favourite though, he has you for himself and it feels reassuring to know you stay with him even on the normal and eventless days

Satan isn't too handsy, but he does keep your hand in his wherever the two of you are, even if you only making your way to the kitchen, he is not exactly jealous just happy to call you his and show it

the subtle intimacy of handholding speaks volumes to him, to others it may seem like the most ordinary couple thing, but he likes to experiment and if his stupid idea of only holding 2 fingers makes you laugh then it was a full success to him

no matter how much control over his sin he has sometimes he breaks too, after getting out all his anger, he tends to be exhausted and feels vulnerable, he'll just sit down with your hands intertwined and his head resting on your shoulder, seeking comfort and affection

"Have you smiled yet? I smile every time I think of you!"

Satan will leave small notes to make your day or send you messages on your DDD when he can't be around you

"Did I ever tell you that you feel like home to me? I hope I can be your home as well!"

Asmodeus:

so many praises and compliments, like you can just sit there looking at your phone and Asmo just coos

"You look sooo pretty!~ let's take a picture together to remember this moment!"

he will take a lot of pictures of you and him, just to look at for himself when he misses you, to show off to his brothers and Solomon, or to the whole Devildom through posting it on Devilgram

he simply enjoys to look at you, though it always ends in a warm hug , kisses and praises

he may not be very poetic or thoughtful with his touches, but he always gives it his all, some feelings he just can't describe in words so he just holds you close to show you his feelings

spa days, shopping tours and going into the club happen often, though he understands if you're not up to it some times, but he will whine and demand to spend you day differently with him

he can't help it he wants to spoil you and show you off, he's is almost never jealous, rather proud even when someone flirts with you, that doesn't mean he'll give you away

"Come here, let me just hold you. You fit perfectly into my arms..."

as the Avatar of Lust, physical touch means a lot to him, not only in the sexual way, but most in importantly in the way of craving affection, he wants to be hold and to hold you, give him all your attention and he'll be happy

"Thank you for staying and accepting me!"

Beelzebub:

sleepily walking through the hallways into the kitchen to keep Beel company while he has his midnight snack and just sitting next to him talking about your day

"Thank you for staying awake with me, do you want me to get you food as well?"

with Gluttony as his sin, food is big part of his daily life, but he doesn't just eat to satisfy his hunger, but also because he enjoys the food, no matter how hungry he is, he'll offer you even the last piece to make you happy

sharing new food and old favourites of his alike, Beel likes to share his food with you, as he feels less hungry in your company anyway

seeing you happy and full makes him happy and full as well, so he puts you first most of the times, letting you choose what you want and going along with your preferences

"Anything is fine with me, you can choose for us."

Beel is also very active, playing Fangol, training and etc, he often invites you to train with him or tries to teach you new stuff, if you don't want too that's fine as well, you can watch and he may try to impress you a little bit, but he won't train much when you're around wanting to rather spend time with you

bear hugs. just you walking basically anywhere and Beel suddenly hugs you tight against his chest, nuzzling your face and having a huge grin plastered on his face

his affectionate hugs and kisses come out of nothing, surprising but welcome, some times he forgets his strength and you'll have to remind him, he'll hold you very carefully then asking if this okay

"I feel complete with you, so just stay by my side!"

Belphegor:

"Lay down with me, I nap better with you at my side!"

obviously nap time with lots of cuddling, he just drapes himself over you, holding you close and sharing his warmth with you...if you're lucky you'll even get a small goodnight kiss, but only if he's in the mood

Belphie is a bit too straightforward with his words and sometimes ends up being a bit mean when he doesn't really want to, so in crucial moments with you he tends to become quiet and seek out to hold and hopefully show you his feelings

Belphie isn't handsy but he loves to cuddle, he may not always hold your hand when taking a walk but as soon as you two sit down he'll hug you close without saying a word

when he finds you sleeping somewhere without him, he is a bit hurt at first but he recovers quick, he'll make sure you're resting comfortably, the pillow is soft enough and that the blanket keeps you warm, even going to the length to bring you his own blanket if fell asleep anywhere but you're room, without a doubt he'll feel tired after taking care of you and will fall asleep right next to you

"Sleeping without me...unbelievable...I'll just have to squish myself next to you then.."

his other passion stargazing always ends up with him hugging you and telling you about the different constellations and it's stories until you fall asleep...only when he is sure you're dreaming he dares to run his fingers through you hair and lowly hum a lullaby into the otherwise silent night

"Let's dream our life together and promise to make it true one day!"

Diavolo:

as the prince of Hell, Diavolo only ever knew people who treated him with respect, always leaving him to feel lonely and out of place, but then you came and you weren't scared neither did you treat him like a prince, you made him your friend and soon more

with you he feels finally complete and he tries to show you his appreciation and affection any free moment of his time

he'd buy you anything you want not caring about the price, but please tell him that a small and thoughtful gift makes you just as happy as anything else

being with you always has him giddy and bursting with love, he can't hold back and will shower you in attention or at least watch you do your thing

"You're looking radiant my love! I can't believe you're mine!"

similar to Beel he has these affection attacks where he'll just suddenly have the urge to hug you and shower you in kisses

being prince requires a lot of paper work, which he dislikes, when you're around he'll indulge himself in a few more breaks than he should, ending in him having to work overtime much to his dismay

"Will you stay up waiting for me at home?"

He knows it's a selfish thought, but he loves the feeling of coming home to you and getting greeted, he feels at peace when you're there and wait for him

"I'll never have to feel lonely again, when I have you!"

Barbatos:

as a butler time isn't something he has much of, so he some times feels like he can't give you enough, he'll try to meet as often as possible but often it's only for an hour or so a day

"Do you need anything else? More tea? Anything?"

He'll probably be stuck in his butler role and try to serve, completely disregarding himself, just grab him and make him sit down

Barb isn't used to physical touch and feels less comfortable to hold you in public, handholding is the maximum for him, he probably needs some time to get used to the more affectionate things

but when in private gentle touches, soft hugs and small kisses are his thing, just small reassuring stuff while you two relax and talk about daily life

he is more of a listener and he enjoys listening to your voice, it's one of his comfort things, hearing your voice means you're safe and that helps him keep calm a lot...he may not show it, but on the inside he is always worried for you living in between demons, he's on of them he knows how dangerous it can get

phone calls while he works happen more and more often as your relationship progresses, the need to see you gets stronger, but he can't just leave work, so you'll talk over the phone

"I missed you so I had to call. How is your day?"

night-time is his favourite, no work, no on watchers, just you two and your love for each other, if only it could be always like this

"One minute with you feels like eternal bliss, imagine our happiness if you'd stay with me forever!"

Solomon:

Solomon has watched many people die in his life, so he got used to not getting attached too much, falling in love with you wasn't planned, but he can't help feeling clingy with you now

he'd play it down, aloof as he always seems, but on the inside he is screaming at you to not go at the end of the day, just one more hug, one more kiss, maybe stay over the night?

he'd never say it out loud and every time he does say something affectionate something teasing or a 'just kidding' follows, scared he might seem too clingy

"You're my everything, without you I feel like I'm suffocating...just a joke I'm breathing fine, see?"

he's always touching you in some way, holding your hand, arm around your shoulder, his hand on your waist, back or knee, whatever he just wants to feel the warmth of your skin telling him you're still there

he has lived through so many human lifetimes and experienced so much, he's happy to share all the good stuff with you and show you the most wondersome places in all three realms

the bad stuff though he keeps to himself, guides you away and hopes you'll never experience it

"Hey! Surprise I was close by and I thought we could take a walk?"

Solomon loves spending his time with you in whatever way, just whisk him away to whatever activity you'd like, surprise dates are his favourite, he doesn't want to plan out his whole life

"Now is my favourite moment with you. Why? Because I'm with you!"

Simeon:

Simeon as an author has his way with words, being able to spin them just right so every moment will become perfect, but he's more used to writing than talking and he'll use that to his advantage

"Even in the darkest of nights, your beauty lightens the room!"

expect love letter, sweet notes and poems written by him, hidden your schoolwork, waiting for you on your desk in RAD, on your pillow at HoL, anywhere he can sneak them to he will

and trust me he'll get so happy when he finds out you kept every single one of his writings

he also loves cuddles but only in private, in public he'll restrain himself to simple handholding or guiding you through the streets with your arms linked together

he enjoys to spoil you with attention, doing whatever you want, often it leads to cooking where as Luke likes to join in too, long walks, reading sessions, late night movies and cuddles, or even just long conversations about everything and anything you two can think of

"My lamb, may you come over and help a poor author who has lost his inspiration to write?"

when he is stuck with his writings he likes to take a break with you and hold you tight in his arms listening to your suggestions until he feels inspired again, no pressure though he can keep writing any time he doesn't have to come up with something on the spot, just distracting him for a bit works too

"I may have found paradise in your arms tonight, do you think your heart may be so kind to let me stay?"

[proserpina-magnus]

hi! If you take requests can you write a reader x Remus fluff? where they are usually studying together and helping each other out, talking about books etc. it is obvious for everyone that they like each other, but not for them.

maybe the reader could be a little shy, but really positive? and Remus is completely smitten by her and also feels protective of her?

whatever you decide I’m sure it will be amazing, hope it’s not too much

thank you for your work, you’re truly amazing!

heyy, this has been in my inbox for weeks and I'm so sorry this took so long!! I loved how descriptive you where and I hope that you don't mind that I changed the plot just a tad. Remus kind of confesses to being a werewolf soo.. I hope you like it!! xoxo

Monsters Need Love Too [ R.L ]

word count: 2.5k

[ warnings: female reader, slight jealously, tears, slight possessive behavior/words, clothes sharing, first kisses, had holding, scars, slight talk about violence, Remus's friends embarrass him, flattering ]

editor: @breakingniconicokneecaps

Remus anxiously tapped his foot, you had promised him that you both would meet up for a study session before a big potions test. You had been running late, caught up with fixing your hair or finding missing quills.

Remus kept looking towards the library door, tapping his fingers on the wooden table. There had been cracks of brown throughout the wood, Remus watched eagerly towards the doors as his dainty finger traced over the dark spiral wooden pattern.

He felt his heart putter against his rib cage, a nervous sensation creeping into his mind as he started to worry about you. It had been 10 minutes since you both originated the time to meet up, Remus was just about to stand to go look for you, but you had just hurried into the library.

He watched your frantic state walk swiftly towards him, your hair pinned back with loose strands. He smiled, pushing the chair beside him open. You flopped yourself down onto the opened chair, your books and papers left a thud as you dropped them onto the desk.

"So sorry I'm late! I couldn't find my assignment, I might have to re-do it all," you stammered, opening your books with marked stamps. You sighed, before giving a smile towards Remus. "Oh well, at least I'll have a better understanding of the material,"

Remus looked lovingly towards you, rubbing his sweaty hands on his slacks. He looked towards his own opened book, moving his papers around as he passed you his finished assignment.

"If you want, you can take a look at mine," Remus suggested, but you only shook your head and looked back towards a student who sat across a few tables. The guy you smiled at was Amos Diggory, the captain of Hufflepuff's quidditch team. Amo's had combed back messy blond hair, a boyish grin on his face as he waved towards you. Remus followed your gaze, catching the small interaction. He felt a sense of urgency to have your attention back on him.

"That's alright rem, Amo said he would help me later. Let's work on potions shall we?" You said, guiding your attention back to your books. Remus gave a disgruntled sound, his leg bouncing as it tapped into yours.

"You alright?" You asked, knees twitching every time his own knocked into yours. Remus hummed, lips thin as he focused down on his book. You felt like you did something wrong, a frown forming as you flipped some pages.

After a few moments of awkward silence, your eyes travelled towards the taller male. He was hunched over his book, his hand in a fist that rested on his bouncing thigh.

"Did I do something wrong? Are you mad I'm late?" You mumbled quietly, leaning forward as Remus turned his gaze to you. He saw your pleading eyes, a sad pout on your lips at the thought of upsetting him. Remus concluded that you were just too cute to be mad at, not that he was prior.

"No, I'm not mad," Remus huffed, tearing his eyes away from yours. Truth be told, Remus had no idea why he was so upset. You mumbled at his lame lie, your fingers tracing his wrist as you glided your hand to open up his fist. Remus jerked at the faint touch, eyes pouring at the connecting hands.

"You seem mad," you whispered gently, trying not to cause attention in the silent room. Remus brought his gaze back to your face, seeing your beautiful eyes and a small welcoming smile on your lips. His fingers opened, your own wiggling between them.

"How could I possibly be mad when you look like that," Remus blurted, in a daze. You flushed red at the compliment. You wanted so desperately for him to kiss you, Remus felt the same exact way. Before a gentle kiss could be shared, you turned back around and faced towards your book.

"You flatter too much," you teased, your shoulder bumping in with his. You didn't dare take your fingers away from his, liking the way his scars felt rigid and warm against your palm.

"I don't think I flatter enough," Remus stated, his eyes still trained on your adoring profile. You flushed once more, a swirl in your stomach from his words. Remus gushed himself at your flustered state, denying himself the right to lean in and place a kiss against your red cheeks.

"You know what I think?" You ask, turning your head so you can take a long look into his eyes. Remus leaned forward, his nose almost brushing yours. "What do you think?" He asked in response, his voice a low hum.

"I think if anyone should be flattered, it's you. You're a very attractive young man, if I do say so myself Mr. Remus," you flaunt, a giggle on your lips as you close your eyes from the laugh. Remus smiles, watching the way your cheeks rose with your smile. He was absolutely adoring your giggle form, but it was soon to be crushed by his friends.

"Uh- hello! What's going on here?" Sirius's voice boomed through, the three boys marched over to you two. Your hand fell away from Remus's, a small frown on your lips before you replaced it with a smile.

"We're just studying," you say sweetly, turning around so you can get a good look at them. Sirius raises an eyebrow, a suggestive gaze in his eyes as he stares between you two. Remus grows anxious, wanting his friends to leave as soon as possible.

"Studying what? Human anatomy?" Sirius jeers, a smirk on his lips as he leans closer. James and Peter laugh, obvious to Remus's dire crush on you.

You turn to mush at the gesture, turning back to your book as you hide your glowing face. Remus notices, upset at the way they were getting you embarrassed.

"Leave it pads, go bug off, all three of you," Remus sends a low growl to the male, but the rest of the boys only laugh and continue to talk. James pushes a seat open next to you, Remus giving him a dangerous glare.

"She's very pretty" James gushed, one of his fingers poking your sides. You squirm, but decide to be polite and smile towards James. You can't even tell him a thank you before Remus is telling them off.

"Prongs, get up and piss off," Remus states, his hand wrapping around the leg of your chair as he scoots you away from him. You grab your stuff, placing it in front of you. James frowns, tilting his head to give Remus a puppy dog expression.

"Can I stay?" Peter asked his own pout on his lips. Remus sighs loudly, his fingers pinching the bridge of his nose.

"No,"

"But moony!" They all chant at once, shushes and glares get shared between you all. Remus sighs one more time, deciding not to freak out and yell at all of them in front of you. The tall brunette collects his stuff, pushing it into his bag in a messy hurry. You frown, watching him pack up. You thought he was leaving with his friends, but Remus starts to take your own books and papers. With his empty hand grabbing yours, He pulls you up, tugging you out the door.

The rest of the boys shout behind him, trying to follow you both. Remus leads you down the hallway, a smile on his lips as he pats your shoulder for some comfort. "One second love, just wait here,"

Remus speeds over to the boys at the other end of the hall, far away enough for you not to hear them. They start to argue, hearing Remus raise his voice. Soon enough, the three boys look towards the ground and scoot away down the opposite hallway.

Remus jogs back over to you, smiling as he runs a hand through his hair. You bring out your hand, making a grabbing gesture. He places his hand into yours, taking the lead as he guides you down the hallway.

"Where are we going?" You questioned, stepping down the switching staircases. Remus turns briefly at the end of the steps, waiting for it to connect with another. "It's a sunny day, let's go sit on the dock,"

"What about our potions test?" You asked, following Remus down the now given steps. He steps onto the cobblestone floors, helping you off the last step.

"It's not until Friday, we have plenty of time tomorrow. You deserve a break," Remus states, pushing open a thin wooden door out towards the back of the huge castle. He takes you down the small hill, holding your hand to protect you from tripping.

"Watch your step," he says, stepping down the small steep hill. His other hand holds your waist, squeezing it between his fingers as he helps you down.

"You're my saviour," you whisper in gratitude, leaning more towards him. The air gets thicker and the breeze grows colder as you step towards the doc.

"You get pleased too easily," Remus comments, his hand squeezing yours. You turn your head, tilting it as you walk against the wooden space.

"Is that a bad thing?" You ask, Remus looked over at you briefly. He has an unreadable face before he shakes his head.

"No, unless you're thanking the wrong person," Remus explains, walking further along the doc. He helps you sit first, following suit as his legs sprawl out. He has much longer limbs, you giggle as he stretches.

"Everyone's so nice, who could possibly be the wrong person?" You wonder, head leaning against his shoulder. Remus sighs, answering that question quickly in his intrusive thoughts. You shiver, tugging your skirt down towards your knees.

"What? Do you think you're bad?" You ask, lifting your head to get a clear look at the boy. Remus lets his head lean down, a frown on his face. You hold a confused expression, your heart aching at the thought. Before you can think, your fingers tilt his head. Remus looks with wide eyes, seeing your saddened expression.

"Remus, you're the nicest person I've ever met," you explain, emotion in your eyes as you talk to him. Remus screams at himself, knowing you had no idea what he really was.

"You need to meet new people," he jokes, but you only shake your head with a deeper frown.

His heart beats quickly, your eyes guiding down to his chapped lips. He picks up instantly on your intentions and he has no remorse to stop them.

Your eyes shut on instinct, lips moving closer to his. Your head tilts, nose brushing against his as you connect mouths. Remus expresses a content sigh, his own eyes closed. His fingers lace through the back of your hair, pulling you closer.

"You don't understand," Remus sighs after the kiss, eyes whisking open. You flutter your eyelashes, sitting back on your legs. You frown, thinking he didn't like the kiss.

"Then make me understand," you tell him, heart hammering inside your chest so loud you might go deaf. Remus smiles, one of his hands still occupied with yours. His other hand cups your face, sliding it through your loose hair.

"You'll hate me once I tell you," Remus whispers, feeling tears burn his eyesight. He wishes he'd never got bitten, he didn't want you to think he was some sort of monster.

You shake your head, leaning closer as you kiss his lips once more. Remus pulls you in, addicted to the way your mouth tastes. He pushes you back slightly, feeling guilty for not telling you what he truly is.

"I'm a werewolf," Remus says, ripping off the bandaid. You blink a few times, not comprehending what he just said. Your eyes dangle down to his scarred hands, your soft thumb tracing a particularly big one.

"Does it hurt?" You quip, eyes looking back into his. Remus feels instantly loved at your small little reaction, his heart swelling as he realizes that you only care whether he's hurt, not that he turns into a killer creature every full moon.

"No," Remus lied, a tear falling from his eye. You nod, happy with his answer. Your cold fingers come to wipe away the lost tear. you lean in for another kiss, but Remus pushes you back.

"I'm a werewolf," he states once again, you nod in understanding. "I can kill you,"

"Do you want to hurt me?" You mumble, Remus feels worried build up from just thinking about it. He shakes his head, head falling as he lets out more tears.

"Then it doesn't matter," you finish, leaning down so you can get your much wanted kiss. Remus leans into it, another sigh on his lips as he pulls you closer. The waves crash against the doc, coating the wood just in front of you with seeping water.

"I can't control myself in that state, I could hurt you," Remus whispers against your lips, his arms wrapping around your sides as he pulls you in. You sigh, kissing the corner of his mouth.

"No, the werewolf would hurt me. It's not your fault, you can't control it," you tell him, sticking with your conclusion. Remus would never dare hurt you and you knew that.

"You're too good, what is a monster like me doing with you, hm?" Remus says, his fingers tilting your chin as he places a generous kiss against your cold lips. A smile decorated on your mouth, you shift closer to him. His body was so warm and you felt so cold, you were almost slipping under his coat for warmth.

"You're no monster," you whisper, Remus notices your shivering body. He felt sick for taking you out to the cold doc, tugging off his coat quickly as he props it on your shoulders.

"I monster wouldn't let his girl freeze to death," he contorts, rubbing your arms to get you to warm up. Your face heats at his words, you couldn't help but smile.

"I'm your girl?" You ask, leaning closer as you shift onto his lap. Remus's long limbs curl around you, bringing you closer as he protects you from the now vicious wind. His hair whips in every direction, the wind so tough you can hear it.

"Yes, you're my girl," Remus juts, standing up with ease as you cling onto him. He adjusts you easily, hiding you inside his big coat. Your head rests against his chest, his arms hiking around your bottom to carry you up the hill.

"All yours," you mumble, happy with the soft protection he was offering. Your arms link around his neck, not daring to let go as he opens up the wooden door once again. He carries you inside, looking around as he spots his friends. They all gap with their mouth wide open, pointing.

"All mine," Remus mutters to you, speeding away from his frantic friends. You keep your eyes closed, letting him take you to wherever he pleases.

[heartbeathearer]

Home alone - beating out loud (RL Story)

Hi everyone, I hope you’re doing well. I know, long time no see. My health (physical and mental) isn’t atm the best. Therefore I live out of the wold. In my own little strait world. I often thought about sharing my next real life cardio story which happened almost 2 years ago.

______WARNING: DON’T TRY THIS AT HOME!!!!_________________________

In November 2020, I was a long time home alone, me a married woman in her beginning 30′s. It was cold and I thought it would be a great idea to get into the bathtub. Taking a warm bath. My muscles needed this very bad. Winter and autumn are not my favorite saison. My chronical illnessess getting more worse at this time. So the warm water could manage my pain level to get into a endurable stage. I was home alone. I wasn’t familiar with this feeling of a husband-free home. He came by ambulance into a hospital few days ago because of his heart. (Here is another story behind which I will tell soon too.) I prepared everything with pleasant anticipation. I love water. It’s my element. So what could be wrong with it? Starting to fill the water in and placing every needed item around my tub. There was my shampoo, a deep hair conditioner, a normal hair conditioner, shower gel and last but not least my bath thermometer. Yeah.. I’m a grown woman but I still need this object. To have a safe - not too hot bath. I always loved slightly hot water. Not boiling but more hot than others like. My sensations of feeling cold or hot is a little limited. What‘s to cold for me is for others too hot - feeling like “skin damaging hot” (for a longer time). But me wasn’t aware about this. For me it was a pretty normal temperature. Had no issues with it. I used always a termometer to check the temperature of my bathing water. To prevent any damage. A balmy bath additive was chosen too. Sandalwood & Patchouli. Wanted to get in a warm relaxed mood. Relaxation was the thing I needed. No it was something I craved for. But one special item was still missing or thinking about it would be funny. So I picked up the cheap steth too. My Littmann Classic 3 was in shipment. Had no other option. Suboptimal but okay. Wanted to get known to the effect of water to my heart. Must be soo gorgeous to hear and feel the sensations.

Before I got into the tub I checked the water temperature again. Seems quite right, 38 °C. Perfect! Everything was ready to take this lonely bath. I slipped into the water. “Oh yes. That’s feeling great!” I sighed. Sinking in the pleasant water. Only my head reached out of the water. I let my skin and hair soaking. Just savour the moment. Getting rid of the chills of the day. Laid-back in the tub was everything fine. I could stay forever like this. I listened to my joyful beating heart with the stethoscope. Did it beat faster than usual‘cause I had fun? I guessed it had to be something around 110 BPM. But still okay.

Then I washed my hair and body. All pleasant smells absorbing deep in my nose. After I was clean I still stayed in the tub. But at some point I didn’t felt well anymore. Couldn’t say what it was but there was a bad feeling about everything. I got weak. Checked again the temperature. But it was still a good one, 38 °C. Not too hot. I figured out for me that it would still be neat to stay in the tub. Maybe it will refresh my energies. Laying back and try to get into a relaxed mood. But impossible. My body thrilled every alarm rang.

I put the ear piece back into my ears, chest piece back on my left chest on triscupid and took a listen to my heart. It wasn’t very necessary ‘cause I felt a heavy thumping on my both carotids and in my chest too. Everything was bouncing, no it was hammering in the rhythm of my hard working heart. There it was - a more than rapid, frenetic heartbeat. BaBOOMBaBOOMBaBOOMBaBOOM with no noticeable pause between every sound. Did I react without culpable delay? No! I eavesdropped every single beat. My heart was nearly pounding out of my chest. My arteries and veins almost to burst. Water around my upper body was wiggling and making waves with each thud.

I felt pretty near fainting. I knew I would be in danger if I get unconscious in water. If I didn’t try to get out I would qualify myself for the Darwin Award (for very stupid deaths). My body did not respond as I wished. It was difficult to move any part of my body. Everything was weak, ponderous, my head swims and my heart still so fast and forcefuly. This beating organ took every power which my body retained. Nearly nothing left for my arms and legs. I had to try hard to move in the tub. Struggling with my vision. This could be my last moment in this life. Struggling with every heartbeat to exit this watery trap. Breathing heavily, my heart and body needed a lot of oxygen if I move, letting my body to respond to my wanted actions.

I panicked. Please don’t let me die like this. If I wouldn’t be alone, I would scream for help. But no, I was alone. No one who could help me. I turned my body to get my knees on the ground of the tub. It wasn’t easy. I had to try a long time. Maybe this time took too long. But I had to try. I don’t want to die. Success! Some water run out of the tub with my movements. Now I’m on my knees, hands and arms keeping wonky my head lifted outside the water. It’s not finished yet. Knowing about to come for the hardest part: standing up. Everything was groggy. Head spinning around, so dizzy. But I could manage it. I don’t know how long it took. But it seemed to be an eternity. Standing with a frenetic beating heart with briefly power pounding out of control. My heart begun to beat more poky, more speedier. Me more and more light-headed. I guessed if someone would see me, they would see every action of my heart and my carotids. Everything seems to ruputure by it’s burden.

Last exercise to do was to get out of the tub moving my legs out and leaving the bathroom. It was my last test I had to pass to be in secureness. I firmly grabbed my surroundings. Then lift up my left and then my right leg and foot. Done! I’m outside the tub! No longer trapped! My heart responded immediately. Increased again it’s BPM. “Get out of here, fast and sit down!” was my thought. I snapped my towel and a bathing gown, tugged the towel onto my chest and left my bathroom behind me. I left a trail of water behind me with wet foot steps. No time to dry my body. I dragged my wet body to my living room. Then sit down on my sofa. I was completely exhausted. But still didn’t lost my interest in my little organ. I clipped the pulse oximeter on my right pointer and watched the blinking display. The device beeped loud. My pulse was shown. About 180 BPM! Oh my gosh! I didn’t removed the clip for a long time. It doesn’t recovered. Still at a high pace like that. To ban more problems, I begun to dry my wobbly body and covered myself in the bathing gown. Layed down a little und tried to rest to calm down my heart. I could still feel every contraction of it in my chest and my carotids.

If it wouldn’t get any better I will call an ambulance. I didn’t liked this thought but it was required if there would be any change. I waited long for that change. Till my heart rate slowed a bit. The device was still beeping it’s alert. But there it was, a 170, then a 162 BPM and so on. Slowly decreasing.

It lasts a long time till my heart was under a 100 BPM. More than a hour. Maybe I really should have called an ambulance. But I had made my decision. That was the last thing I wanted that day. Especially since I'm always reluctant to ask for help. I would have been too embarrassed to explain what and how this could have happened. Was I so stupid that I overlooked, even ignored, almost all of my body's warning signs? I never forget this experience.. Later I figured out that my bathing thermometer was broken. It showed a lower temperature than it really was. I ordered a new one and then I saw the difference from more than 10 degrees. I took a bath almost 50 °C and did not noticed it. It felt comforting warm for me. Gosh!

Since then I’ve been paying more attention to my bathing water temperature and always try to stay below 40 °C. But it still happens to me that even this temperature is too cool for me and I go up to 42 °C and even then I still think it could be warmer. Shivering in the tub. If then I notice how my heart is racing (120 BPM), I tkae action, either get out of the tub earlier or cool down the water a bit or my arteries / chest with a cool rag or with running cool water out of the faucet of the tub and monitor my pulse regulary. I always have my pulse oximeter ready next to the bath tub. 

You never know if an accident like this would have a happy endling again!

[levisgirll]

what would life with levi be like post 139?

𝐀𝐎𝐓 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 - 𝐋𝐞𝐯𝐢 𝐀𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐧(𝟐)

𝙃𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙤𝙣 ♡♡♡

warning: mention of some spoilers about levi but not major ones as I wont be going in depth about ch 139.

A lot of really cute fluff that I’m sure will warm your heart-

Thanks for sending a question! I'm glad I got another one and ngl this is actually fun to discuss and share my thoughts and ideas with you all :,) I am guessing you are asking about what life y/n would be with Levi after the war and ch. 139 correct?

To be honest, the first thing that comes to mind is that Levi would be actually more relaxed, soft, and happier especially if he is with y/n. After losing some of his comrades, y/n there being by his side would literally make him sometimes during night go emotional and get really clingy to you and he would be extra affectionate and loving. He wants to feel your presence, wants to know you are still there during the night, and wants to definitely hold you. So y/n living with Levi, expect to have some emotional midnights with him and I feel like it would be really deep and he would share his thoughts or maybe talk it out and then he would go on and say he is thankful you are here, by his side and that he would say "Just remember, you mean a lot to me, Y/N. Don't forget that." He has a hard time trying to find the right words to express how much you mean to him but you would get the message either way from his actions and body language. Also, during those nights, he would want a shoulder to cry on and probably just hold on to you and sob a bit on your shoulder (covering his face) because after the war and he has finished serving his duty, he would think about the past and all the people he cared about and his old close comrades and friends, and since Levi is emotional he would just would want y/n to remind him that you are here and you would make him feel so special just by being by his side! hugging him, letting him speak what is in his mind, accept what has happened, and especially showing him love since this man is a bit hesitant and he would want you to do it.

Another thing I think would be like for y/n living with Levi is that to expect a lot of, sight seeing, exploring new places, he would definitely wake you up so damn early to go for this nice café and that they sell fresh baked pastries and he would get bread with you on the way back, holding your hand and keeping you really close to him. When his legs heals, expect also walking in big open green fields, and even hiking! He would only do this with y/n and if they are there and when you both went there, you realized he was really loving to you, and cared for you through his actions asking if you were okay, if you were having a good time with him and....if you were even happy with him! "Are you....happy staying with someone like me?". It breaks Y/N to hear this from him and I think after the war and everything, he would sometimes look down on himself and probably feel self conscious about his scars on his face and he thinks he is 'uglier'. You are now the one who would shut him up even if he says negative things about himself. "Do you think I-" before he even tried to finish his sentence, y/n would go and cover his mouth with their hand. "If you say it one more time, I'm going to smooch your whole face to shut you up." He would then actually laugh every time you do that and finds you adorable, and proceeds to kiss you on the lips, "I love you." He would say that so sweetly, deep and full of emotions while his eyes looking at you filled with love and lust and he would just say that so suddenly and he has been doing that quite often after you started living your life with Levi after the war and it makes you get butterflies every time (also you both are blushing like hell!) He would ask you when he is self conscious if he still looked attractive to you (this is usually when you recently got close with the other neighbors and they loved you and Levi and he would look at the young man talking to his partner, and seeing his face with no scars. He would think that y/n deserved a more better looking guy sometimes) and he would say that he wished he had his other eye to see you more clearly because you become even more beautiful to him and wants to grasp every time he looks at you really clearly, so when you go out he still thinks of you.

He would have a car and he would be pretty good at driving and he would want to take you to the places he would search up and he would literally plan the day the next day without you knowing. so expect surprise trips too! But, he wouldn't want to use his car to be honest and instead using the train for long rides! That's because, he would want his partner to be near him, let them lay on his shoulder or even lap, prepare some sandwiches for y/n and gives it to them just to see them eating the sandwich happily and he finds it really cute. Basically, he wants every interaction with you no matter what.

It would be a simple, but such a loving, warm-hearted, affectionate and basic romantic life that you both would be sooo loved and really happy together <3 he would want to make you laugh every time and he would start laughing too, would take care of you a lot, mentally, physically too even though you always told him you would do some chores instead but he insists "No love, you did enough. Just rest up for today. let me do it okay? And after this I'm taking you out." Also, he would still worry about you a lot and be protective. SO when you go out, he would still message you and wait for you and he get sad when he can't tag along. Once he didn't reply for 30 mins and he was ready to interrogate everyone to find his partner.

I feel like Levi would brag about you quite often to people he would see and talk to, such as you and Levi's neighbors and he would see them in the supermarket early morning (in some mornings you wont be with him cause you were so tired and he gave up and let you sleep in and went instead). He would be buying a bouquet of flowers (he does that every once a while) for you to surprise you when he is back and he would see his neighbors and he would literally talk so highly of y/n, and say such loving things. "Oh Levi, you actually really love Y/N. They are lucky to have you!" and he would stay slight and think. "It's me who is lucky. my whole life I have been unlucky after everything I went through, but meeting y/n. they changed my life and turned it to a better way. they understand me and love me. I love them so much....I don't want them to leave yet." He would say to them and they would encourage him to say it to you but he is kind of shy. SO! he decided to write it in a letter he was secretly hiding it from you and giving it to you for your next anniversary <3 Would defiantly learn how to bake for you, cook new things every week, buy new books that reminds him of you and read it and then he would talk to you about it for hours while drinking tea with him, would take you to shopping and buy you clothes that you would like. and behind closed doors, he wont miss a chance not to show you love, he would hug your waist from behind for soo long (its his favorite) and keeps his head on your shoulder and breathe in your beautiful scent and kiss your skin gently. "Y/N. please, just stay here for another 5 minutes." That 5 minutes was half an hour of smooching and cuddling in the coach and with some hickeys he would leave you on your shoulder (and he lowkey would want you to give him one too- and he would just give you that look saying as if he would want one right now or he wont let you go. so like I said before, clingy soft man? yes. defiantly after everything and since nothing is in his way he would do this and now you can clearly see his loving and soft side that he gives you daily.) Following that, you both would spend the evening, at the balcony, stargazing and he would look at you instead of the stars, while giving a small smile and placing his hand on the side of his cheek. That's because he really thought you were the star, sunlight and bright flower that blooms beautifully which is filled with love and happiness.

Finally, I feel like he would probably be less grumpy and not showing much of his usual stoic expression but instead, his expression would show he is finally relaxed, calm and actually happy inside because living his life with y/n after the war really helped him and made him realize that this. this is how love and life felt like, living with your true soulmate, the connection, emotions you both would share, feelings understood without being explained much, such strong emotional attraction and you were the perfect person to him. this is what changes him and makes him the most soft man out there that if the people from the survey crops where alive such as Erwin and etc. they would be shocked but extremely proud and happy of him because he really deserves it.

I hope this answered your question and this is what I would guess! Anyways, this really warmed my heart answering this and ahhh just imagine this all like, how beautiful and amazing that is? I just wish we all could give Levi a hug. He really is a great man. please feel free to send another question or anyone out there who has one! I hope you and everyone has a good day and let me know if you liked this by leaving a message anywhere, like or a reblog 🥺 ♡ ♡

[universalistotalis]

Stiff That You Love

Ushijima Wakatoshi (Timeskip!) x Female reader

Masterlist!!!

You never thought you'd see him again. You almost choked on the truffle pasta that you ordered in this café when a certain beautiful giant waved and made his way to you.

"Holy damn." You whispered underneath your breath as his strides made their way towards your table. You knew he was already a show stopper back then, but now???!

You were so sure everyone would drop dead at the sight of him.

"Hi." He greeted with his deep voice. "Do you still remember me?"

Surprise filled your expression at his question but you smiled politely and nodded your head. "How could I forget? How are you Ushijima?"

You swore you saw a glint of relief and excitement in his eyes but it immediately wavered as he motioned to the chair in front of you.

"May I?" He asked again, holding the back of the chair.

Is he really going to sit here with me?!

"Sure, of course." Your voice squeaked at the feeling of your heart bursting out of your chest. His greeting was enough to kick the air out of your lungs but a whole conversation?! You didn't know how long you would last in his ever- intimidating presence.

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It was already the last year in college and you were so determined to graduate with latin honors. Every single minute of your life, you dedicated it to studies, friends and family. They were all that mattered. And so you stayed until the wee hours at certain café spots around the university or at the library inside the campus. You went to meet up with friends during the weekends only for a simple dinner or lunch. You called your family members every chance you get during free time. That was your life. And you were content.

But then this boy came in to the picture.

"You will be partnered together and I shall assign the pair. Make sure you finish the written output, video presentation, and oral defense at the end of the semester." Those were the words of your professor during one of your classes before yours and his name were called out together.

You swore it was fate. Romance was really not in the forefront of your mind but as they say, "You'll find it best when you're not looking".

AND MY GOD WERE YOU SO WRONG!

This man named Ushijima Wakatoshi who came out from nowhere, looking as good they come, had no ounce of romance nor funny bone in his muscular body. He was the most dense, most serious, most infuriating man you've ever met in your whole life!!! He was a whole perfectionist, always so blunt at his comments about the outputs that you showed him. He was also so strict with the deadlines, not considering that you had other classes than this that had much more weight and importance.

You were so close to giving up but...

"Y/n?" You knew that voice only belonged to the certain antagonist in your story right now.

Your hands trembled as you wiped the tears streaming down your face after your meeting together at the library.

"Ushijima, hey!" You pretended to be your usual chirpy self as you turned around to face him.

It was already late so the lights surrounding the university casted an unworldly glow on his face. He was always so breathtaking no matter where you put him but damn those looks! He was just as heartless.

"Are you alright?" He asked with a worried tone.

"I'm fine. I'll be going home now. See you next week." You excused yourself.

"Wait." His cold fingers caught your arm and that made you stop your tracks.

"Is there a problem, Wakatoshi?"

He bowed his head before slowly releasing you in his grip. "I wanted to apologize for my behavior."

"W-what?" You wanted to make sure if what your ears heard was right. He does not seem the type to apologize.

You heard another deep sigh as he looked at you. "I've always been told that I come off too much to others. I didn't realize it until recently when one of my friends told me."

"Oh, well..."

"I'll try to be better though. I'll be more careful from now on. And I'm really sorry if I ever hurt your feelings in the past." He said with all seriousness that you can't help but sigh and just nod.

"You can be really mean sometimes." You agreed and chuckled, letting a tear escape your eyes.

"You've been crying." He stated flatly as if he was reciting a trivia. "I'm still so sorry."

You giggled. "Yeah, I forgive you. Anyway, it's getting late, Wakatoshi. We have to head home."

"I'll walk you home." He said with a finality in his voice. You were again, surprised by his actions but just agreed because this was such a draining day.

And as you were nearing where you stayed, you were again surprised at how comforting his presence was.

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You did find his presence after that night relaxing. He became more tactful and he started to insert jokes during your meetings which shocked you so much the first time that he felt a little offended. You became such close friends that his team mates in volleyball were again, shocked that he managed to get a friend outside the team. It was just a matter of getting used to, you thought to yourself. He's just so honest, mechanical, and straightforward to a fault and you got to master how to tell him off when needed. He also developed to trust you so whenever he needed advice, he would always go to you and trust your honest words.

Looking at him now, it made your heart warm at how far he'd come. It's amazing to have known him then. To have seen how he grew as an athlete, a student, and a person. He may still be a little stiff but that's just the Wakatoshi you've come to love.

"Soo..." He started while sitting back down again after claiming his coffee from the counter. "I am not disturbing you, am I?" He pointed at the laptop and papers next to you.

You laughed. "Not at all! I finished them anyway."

"How have you been then?" He asked. His elbows were resting on the table and his hands were holding on to the cup of coffee. The sight was a little funny considering his giant built was leaned onto a very small table.

You smiled gently. "I've been good! I got the job that I dreamed of having and I own some businesses too. Ho--"

"Your eyes sparkle the same way." He cut off.

"What?" You asked, surprised at his random comment.

"Your eyes..." He pointed out. "They sparkle the same way they did in college when you were talking about something you like."

"How did you notice that?" You laughed.

"I'm known to be observant." He smirked slightly, taking a sip of his coffee.

"Okay, Mr. Oh-So-Observant, how are your matches going? I've been tuning in since the first tournament and it looks like you're going to the semi- finals!" You cheered not hiding your pride and excitement for the country's national volleyball team. When you searched on how to watch the live games, you insisted that you were there to cheer for the country and definitely NOT to cheer and simp for a certain brown- haired, serious player. Definitely NOT!

"You've been watching our games?" He asked, eyes slightly widening at the thought of you cheering for him. What he didn't know was that you were always watching his games since college, not missing even one match. You were always there, crying at how proud you were of him. Also, crying at how much he could never be yours.

"Of course, I have, silly!" You chuckled and pointed at your laptop. "I've been watching here and you're just so amazing and strong!"

He suddenly paused at your statement, silently raising a brow at you and smiling softly.

"I- I meant that your whole team is amazing and strong." You clarified, a blush automatically painting the whole of your face and ears.

"Would you like to go tomorrow?" He blinked, setting down his cup on the wooden surface. "To the game, I mean?"

Your eyes widened at his offer. "Are you serious?!"

He chuckled at your reaction. "Of course! We're allowed to bring spectators for the games, I'll just give you the tickets."

"Wow, Ushijima, thank you so much! It's an honor!" You chimed excitedly, jumping a little on your chair.

"The honor's mine." He replied, grinning at you.

He already knew back then that you were one of a kind. No one ever really stayed and tried to understand his demeanor and personality but you did. You were so honest and kind and you always knew what to do or say to keep him at ease. You accepted him for who he was and he's so thankful to have met such a beautiful soul. Even when you were doing nothing, even when you're just sitting across this table from him, without you knowing, you already made up his entire exhausting day. Hell, you made up all those exhausting years of not seeing each other since you two graduated. He suddenly imagined if being with you would always be like this. So peaceful and just pure bliss...

"You've got to be shitting on me! Is that Ushiwaka?" The pair sitting next to the glass walls of the café was oblivious of the red- haired tower and group of men walking past the street. All of them were wearing coats and casual attires as they're planning to go for lunch at their favorite restaurant for a little reunion. The all powerful Shiratorizawa Volleyball Team, headed by Ushijima in high school, cowered like puppies at the name of their captain being mentioned.

"Where?!" Goshiki stopped and shielded himself from an invisible force. "He said he couldn't make it!"

"I guess our baby's growing up, look!" Tendou hummed and pointed at the two of you laughing and looking at each other with heart eyes. "I bet they don't know that they're shooting hearts at each other."

"I never thought he could smile like that." Semi whispered.

"Yeah well, he's been crushing on that girl since college." Tendou filled the silent wonder of the whole group. "That's why she looked familiar! He kept sending me photos of them together studying or something..."

"Studying, my ass!" Shirabu laughed as they continued staring and hiding behind a post at the same time.

They all burst out laughing and again Tendou chuckled. "No seriously, they were studying!"

"Yeah well, they look good together. I hope he'd have the balls to ask her out. Please god!" Goshiki put his hands together as if seriously praying.

"Bet you 10, 000 yen, we'd be attending his wedding two years from now." Semi challenged.

"Nah, I'll go with a year." Tendou offered.

The men casted their bets on how long you and Ushijima would get married. They knew their captain so well to be sure enough that he was serious with you. Safe to say, Semi won the bet.

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[purecantarella]

The High Never Hurt Anyone

Request : I absolutely loved the Hush scenario with Rosé!!:o Could you maybe do something with Jisoo too? Like imagine them going on tour ans in the middle of the concert she's so hyped up and energetic she just feels like taking y/n somewhere in a dressing room while taking a break from stage. Or it can be an ot4+y/n one, whatever you prefer🥰 in all honesty, I wanted to do an ot4 one for this but talking realistically I wouldn't be able to write that too well as of rn. let's see in a few months HAHAHAHA i still hope you enjoy! i suppose you meant a!jisoo x o!reader since you said smth like rosé's imagine. disclaimer : those under 18 please find a fluffier or angstier fic to read since this is not really something you should delve into.

Jisoo happily trotted off the stage after her solo stage, the adrenaline from their screaming fans still rushing through her veins excitedly. The vocalist found her way to the dressing room for a change of outfit.

She pushed the door open and expected to see her beauty team or at the very least her other two members either getting ready or there to greet her. Instead, she was met with a dimly lit and empty room. Jisoo walked up slowly, while still confused, to the vanity to wipe some of her sweat off.

The door behind her closed slowly and her eyes jotted up, meeting your eye. An excited smile fell onto her lips as she quickly turned to see if it was actually you. There you stood with a shy smile, hands clasped behind your back, slowly walking up to Jisoo's warm figure.

It'd been a few months since you both last saw each other. As much as you wanted to join her for their tour, you had other commitments you needed to tend to first. You'd both become lonely over the extended period of time, more so you, so you decided to surprise your beloved mate.

"You gave quite the performance, jagi..." You said tilting your head to the side, the warm smile you had turning into a teasing smirk. Jisoo beckoned you closer, her lips turning up as well. "I absolutely loved it..." You muttered, wrapping your arms around her neck.

On instinct, her head nuzzled into the side of your neck, taking a deep breath while inhaling your sweet scent. "I missed you so much, jagi..." She whispered softly, opening her eyes to see her mark on your neck before smiling fondly at it. The sweet smell began to fade slowly and was replaced by a familiar savoury scent, which only meant one thing.

Her eyes shot up to meet your blown out eyes as you propped a finger under her chin, making her bite down on her lower lip.

"We have roughly 17 minutes before you have to touch-up be back on stage..." You muttered, stroking your mate's cheek gently. "...and I wanna make up for lost time, alpha." You taunted her. A low growl vibrated from Jisoo's chest.

The vocalist pushed herself forward, roughly meeting your lips for the first time in months. You arms wrapped themselves around Jisoo's neck pulling her closer to yourself. The kiss was raw, rough meeting of the lips, teeth clashing with each other, tongues in a tango of pure lust.

You pulled away with a gasp before Jisoo's lips trailed their way down your neck. She left a trail of pink and red spots before pushing her knee into your wet center. You moaned at the contact before she turned you around, her eyes trained on yours hungrily though the mirror. Her knot began pulsing violently against her stage shorts before it became too much for her.

Instincts weighed over logic as she pulled your pants down along with your underwear. she pushed your semi-bare form on the lit vanity, dark, lust-filled eyes trailing every crevice of your body. Jisoo’s lips press to the shell of your ear, her hand firmly grabbing the flesh of your ass making you groan out. Your eyes are locked on hers as you pant and grind backwards into her erect member.

“I missed my omega.” Her other hand trailed down to her stage shorts, pulling the hard dick out and trailed your sopping wet cunt. “I want to feel every bit of you.” she mumbled, slowly pushing her member in as you cried out at the feeling. Your hand finding her nape, pulling her head closer to yourself. The smirk etched onto her lips growing as she saw you in such a state.

Once she was fully sheathed into your heat, your head fell with a long and throaty moan erupted from your chest. She leaned further forward. Her teeth grazed the skin of your neck, “Eyes up, jagi. i wanna see the desperate look in them while i fuck you dry.” with that her hips moved in a fast beated rhythm.

Your eyes locked onto your alpha's as the mirror in front of you both began to fog up. The alpha began to feel your walls tighten, slowing her thrusts into you. Her fingers trailed up to your chest as she took the skin in her hand making you cry out and release onto her still hard member.

Your body fell onto the vanity from the intensity of your orgasm. Jisoo pulled out slowly, jerking off her still firm member. You took notice of this and turned around. Slipping her hand into your own, you began stroking the vocalist's knot. She gasped at the feeling and fell into the side of your neck, praising you softly between soft groans and gasps.

"Give me your cum, Jagi...give it to me..." You muttered tiredly against her sweat-ridden hair. Jisoo began thrusting into your hand as you pressed your forehead onto hers, looking her in the eye. With a raspy groan, her release painted your bare thighs and some of your shirt.

She panted tiredly, your breathes mixing together. A smile found its way to your lips as you pressed a gentle kiss onto her heart-shaped lips. "I really did miss you, Soo-yah..." You whispered against her lips.

"I know, Jagi...I'm glad your here with me now though." Jisoo whispered back once she caught her breath. "I can't wait to show you off to the staff..." She pecked your lips. "...to the girls..." Another peck on your jaw, you giggled at the idea. "...and to the blinks." Her lips made their way to her mate mark, proudly sitting on your neck.

Your hand met her forehead, wiping away the sweat that began to accumulate there. "Let's get you cleaned up, Jagi...I wanna watch you perform some more." You said excitedly.

"Oh you'll get a performance, alright." She said winking at you playfully to which you rolled your eyes, a blush dusting over your cheeks. "I can't wait."

i'm really sorry for the late post everyone 😞this has been sitting in my drafts for weeks and i hope it held up! i hope you enjoyed everyone! i'll be posting the Itzy first kiss and an imagine i have written down in a few days. thank you for patiently waiting! requests are open and comments on my writing style are always happily accepted! i'll see you all very very soon! 💖 taglist: @labrachrosite

[athenamgh]

DON'T FORGET ME - #I

a/n: veryy veryy old idea.. lets see if smth good of it will come out... btw it will have at least two parts

paring/s: Natasha Romanoff x fem!Reader

summary: two broken hearts need to heal each other.. but will they..

warning/s: tears, angst, fluff (i am soo not sure....)

word count: 1.7k

Chapter I | Chapter II

Natasha Romanoff MASTERLIST

You slowly opened your eyes and they met the dark ceiling. It seemed it was still an early morning because the room was still sinking in the dark. You slowly turned your head to the side, your palm brushing through the empty space aside. Suddenly, you tightly clenched the sheets in your fist, closing your eyes strongly.

You slowly opened your eyes and they met two beautiful forest green orbs. Before you could notice your body was already acting in it’s own way, your face spread a bright smile. Natasha was looking at you with those dark green eyes, you could drown in, her hair messy due to the sleep, made her look even more beautiful whenever.

You gently brushed the loose strand of hair, whispering “Good morning gorgeous”. A soft smile spread her soft lips and reddish crawl up her face. She was about to cover herself, to hide her face with sheets, but you gently caught her wrists. “Don’t you dare to run from me”. 

Natasha looked at you with a challenging look “Or what?”. Your face crept up a smirk, you quickly brought your hands to her sides starting to tickle her.

The laugh filled the room. She was trying to defend herself, but your hands there faster running across her body. “Okay, okay,” she giggled, “stop now, please” , but you didn’t want to let her go so easily. 

“Say, that you won’t hide from me ever again”, Natasha narrowed her eyes slightly, her lips spread a wide smile, she nodded. Romanoff  wrapped her hands around your neck, looking deep into your eyes, admiring the pure affection sparking in them.

  “I would never want to be apart from you y/n”. You felt her hand brush your cheek, then slim fingers ghosting your bottom lip. All this time your eyes didn’t disconnect even for a breath second.

In a moment of surprise Natasha swiftly flipped two of you over, now she was on the top straddling your waist. You widely smiled at her tricky move, lifting yourself up on your forearms “I will never be able to stay away from you, huh?” you asked, astonished. 

Natasha leaned forward for a moment with a mischievous smile, placing her index finger on your bottom lip making your tongue brush it lightly “Well, that’s the plan, dear..”. 

You lifted your eyebrow playfully, “Oh, really?”. 

“Mhm,” she giggled, now shaping your strong jawline with her finger. 

“Well, then how about we make it even, huh?.” Her lips parted, her tongue liking her bottom lip while  looking up at you. “You will never be able to get me out of your head,” you said with such a low almost husky voice. 

She leaned her head to the side slightly because of your statement, from her eyes you could tell she was intrigued. “And how would you possibly do that?” she said seductively.

Suddenly you lifted yourself up from your elbows making her sit down in your lap. A  gasp escaped her lips at the sudden closeness, her hands resting on your chest. You looked at her deep green eyes, analyzing every detail of it. While your fingers ghosted the side of her neck, then lingered at her collarbone. You noticed she was holding her breath, looking stunned at you. At this moment Natasha Romanoff only belonged to you and you only belonged to her. Then, with both of your hands, you gently took the sides of her face. Bringing her closer to you, one of your thumbs brushing the soft skin of her cheek, your lips inches apart, but before they could touch one another, you whispered, “This…” and your lips blended together into a perfect kiss.

You shot your eyes open. Sweat covering your body. You sit up in the bed crawling into the ball. Your hand now tangled in your hair, cheeks riding down salty tears.

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It was a late evening. Moon step by step climbing up the dark sky to settle in for a night. The room was quiet, just the sound of the light rain tears from time to time interrupted the comfortable silence. Natasha was curled up into the ball near the window, her eyes lost somewhere far in the distance, guarding something or someone.

The sudden movement inside of the room interrupted the peaceful, but gloomy atmosphere. “You know, you need to leave your room sometimes,” Steve’s voice reached her ears. 

“You know, it wouldn’t hurt if you knocked sometimes,” Natasha said without turning around.  

“You are becoming a hater, Nat.” this time she just ignored his comment, drowning somewhere deep in her own world.

Since the day Steve has met Natasha, he kind of promised himself he would do everything he can to protect her, of course, as everyone else who was part of his life. Natasha for Steve was such a dear friend and he hated so much seeing Nat like this: broken, hurt, lost. And there was just so little he could do to lighten the Romanoff’s pain.

“It’s been months Nat”. 

“And it seems like nothing has changed…” Natasha’s voice almost sank into the whisper. 

“She is still on your mind, isn’t she?” Natasha turned around, brushing the tear sliding down her face. Her eyes reddish and cheeks stained with tears. “And it hurts too?”

Taking a deep breath Natasha parted her lips “If I didn’t feel the pain, maybe it would be easier to forget? Forget how good it felt, how bright and beautiful everything looked, how sweet it all sounded, to forget it all...” Steve’s face softened, he came up to Natasha, sitting beside her.

“Nat,” he stopped for a moment, thinking. “They say with time the pain fades away, but they always forget to mention how in fact long it takes to finally feel it calm down even a tiny bit. It seems the pain gets more and more powerful with every day until it almost claims you completely.” Natasha’s gazed down, her hand tightly clenching the blanket.

“And there is nothing. Not even the shining armor you suited yourself to protect your heart or giant walls you built around to save yourself from pain, will hardly defend you from what your heart desires.” Steve continued. “And even then all the pain fades away, you won’t forget it. It will always be in the back of your mind and heart, lingering there and never fading away.” He reached to take her hand, squeezing it tightly for a moment and letting it go, making Natasha to look up. “Because Nat, you can’t just stop loving someone who you fall for so unconditionally. Your heart will never forget someone who once made you truly happy.” Steve saw how the last tear rolled out on Natasha’s cheek.

“I knew you were sentimental bastard, but not that strong” she said jokingly and Steve for the first time in month’s saw her lips spread a tiny smile even if it was for only a moment. 

“What should I do?” she asked, her eyes filling with new tears again. 

“Natasha, only you can decide what to do, what or who to choose.” She barely nodded. “Now, get some sleep, a long day is waiting for you tomorrow,” Steve said while walking towards the doors. He was about to exit, but Natasha’s voice stopped him, making Steve turn around 

“Thank you, I don’t think I say it enough”. Steve gave her a soft smile before leaving.

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The sound of someone entering the small grocery store interrupted the soft music playing in the background. You were standing in front of one of the shop shelves, searching for the right ingredients for dinner. It was probably a good idea to make at least one home meal. Instead of buying pizza or any other meal that you could possibly order directly to your apartment.

You were about to grab a serial box, but suddenly you heard a familiar voice. “Y/n?” you turned to your right, recognizing the person. 

“Oh, Wanda” you greeted each other with a warm hug. “What are you doing here?” You shook your head a little, “I mean, obviously you are in the grocery store because of the food.” 

Wanda released a small laugh, “Yeah, that’s how it kind of works. Or the shop just convinces you that you need something, even if you really do not.” You chuckled lightly agreening.

Wanda stepped closer to you, reaching to crease your left arm “So, how are you doing?” 

You glanced down “You know, I would say that I'm okay’ or ‘Everything is alright’,” You looked up at her, facing her concerned face “But I know you know me better than that, so I would just say… I don’t know, I really don’t know.” Wanda nodded slightly 

“I hope everything will be okay soon.” You nodded, barely smiling. 

You shook your head a little, asking “Less about me, how are you and the avengers?”

“They are good. Nothing new lately, just a few missions here and there, everything as usual. Thor is too busy being a badass and worrying about his hair, Tony and Bruce working on some kinda project that I am too confused yet to talk about, I keep myself busy with training stuff and helping Steve and Nat.." Wanda's voice cut off at the last name, realizing what she said, you heart skipped a beat at the sound of the name that left Wanda's lips.. After a moment more Wanda continued ''Everyone is just keeping themselves busy, ever. Long story short everyone is okay”. 

  “Not all happy, but okay” she added, listening to her last words made your heart ache even more. “We miss you, you know?”

You smiled with a small smile at her words “Yeah, I miss you too guys..” 

Wanda looked at you for a moment “Would you come to the party tomorrow that Tony is throwing?” You looked at her hesitantly. “Come on” she pushed you shoulder. “We would love to see you”

You looked at the ground for a moment, trying to collect your thoughts. “I’ll promise to consider it,” you said, looking up at Wanda.

“That’s all I need” her lips spread a wide smile. “I see you there!” she said walking away. You rolled your eyes at her playfully.

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As you stood in front of a mirror smoothing your palms over the small wrinkles on your dark velvet suit, the only thought that was lingering in your mind was how desperately you wanted to crawl up in a ball in your bed and just stay like that forever. You didn’t want to go to that party. 

~~> |Chapter II| <~~