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ode2rin · 10 months

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hi hi mimi! i missed you too! school started for me and it’s my last year of high school, so i’ve been out of it lol. i did a summer program at a local college so i didn’t even get like a full break 💔💔 it’s been boring since all my classes are just electives to graduate. and tests for college because i didn’t do them previously because of procrastination. i’m out here fixing my wrongs at the last minute 😭😭 OH and i started at a new school so i’m trying to make friends, but everyone thinks i’m fourteen and not seventeen 😔 baby face 👎👎

enough about my life, sorry for blabbing about that

i’ve been reading a lot of your stuff but i haven’t been able to write a paragraph like usual 😞😞 i’ve started some but i’ll summarize my thoughts.

that sae fic? YUMMY, DELICIOUS, SOME OTHER ADJECTIVES THAT I CANT THINK OF. that little carrd that you attached? i’m under your bed as we speak. /jk also sae being your first 5k fic? i KNEW you were an ITOSHI KISSER! stop the sae censorship! no more s*e!

that rin fic too? i love anxious rin headcanons where he doesn’t know how to act with a partner. something about emotionally constipated rin who overthinks, just does it for me. just RAHH. MWAH MWAH MWAH 💋

I already told you how my reo fics make me feel, but 💞💗 reo💞💗. like reo is just that guy, if someone doesn’t like reo they’re a red flag. i’m tired of seeing my baby cry in episode nagi.

i hope you have a wonderful day mimi! xoxo

(🏹)

i promise to drop by more often after my month of vanishing!! TRUST 🤞🤞

HELLO MY LOVELY 🏹 (everyone come greet 🏹) i missed you MORE (don't fight me on it i've been told i'm insufferable) ooooh last year of highschool !! that's so exciting for you (and also scary i'm sure :P) you had a productive summer break (is it even a break ToT) i see !! good for u, i've been dilly dallying around and writing delusions here and there 😼 oh no procrastination is really hard to combat pls i'm def not an expert on that :< but you're fixing it now and that matters more!! good luck at making new friends (i suck on that :P) !! can't say i relate w the baby face btw, i'm often mistaken to be fifteen because of my height and actual fifteen yr olds are even taller than me 🥲

tell me more abt you some other time !!!!! 😼

you don't need to drop by everytimeeeeee i know life can be busy sometimes !! i'm happy to have you anytime as long as it's you 🫵🏻 i look forward to anything you have for me (❁´◡`❁)

that sae fic pls. that thing was almost 4 months in the making because i'm literally like this > (._.) when i write a sentence in that fic. like no thoughts, head def empty. got sick of it one day and said, fuck it let's finish it. PLS I'M NEVER BEATING THESE SAE ENJOYER ALLEGATIONS if you can't beat them, join them so i'm now an itoshi k-k-kisser (it's so hard to admit) BUT STILL RIN >>>>>>>>>

SPEAKING OF RIN everyone misses him T^T most definitely i do !!!! i've been channelling these missing hours of him into writing. i'll be the most annoying person here on tumblr once we see him back in the manga i swear. YOU'RE SO RIGHT anxious lover rin >>>> the babygirl of all babygirls !!! 🗣️

💞💗 REO 💞💗 i've been enjoying writing reo drabbles these days. generally, just any trope i think of and any loser boy tendencies that i have: I WRITE ABOUT HIM he makes me unwell 🤺 i avoid that crying pic of him anywhere i swear, my mind automatically filters the sight of it to cope xD

I HOPE YOU HAVE THE BEST DAY and life is treating you well as it should !!!!

and good luck to your last year of hs !!! you'll ace that trust me all i speak is truth 🫂

see you around ! (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

#letters to mimi ✿#letters from: 🏹

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wikiangela-fanfics · 3 years

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50 ways to kiss you: 11. In joy

This one turned out a little angsty haha

But I genuinely love this drabble so much, like, I have no idea why, but out of everything in this series I wrote up until now, this one's probably my favorite :D (even though the more I read it, the more stupid it seems, but whatever, I like it XD)

Actually I wrote it just a few days ago, because the one I had written for chapter 11 seemed to fit better later on, so I just moved it lol

Also, I'm gonna try to post more regulary, like once a week (probably on Sundays) but we'll see how it works out hah

Ao3

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Enjoy♥

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He was angry. Which wasn’t anything new, really. And he was grieving. Which also wasn’t new, with the way they lose everyone all the time. But this was a thousand times worse than usual. Because it was Cas, and it was final. There was no bringing him back. Hell, who knew if there would even be anywhere to bring him back to? Would they still be alive even mere moments from now? Chuck could kill them any second, and honestly, Dean couldn’t care less. He might have cared about the world and the people, but was there even a point, since they were Thanos-snapped out of existence anyway? Well, they needed to bring them back somehow, and then save the world… but did they really? He felt like giving up. He wanted to scream. He wanted to yell that Cas was wrong. That he’s not the good, caring man Cas thinks him to be. He wanted Cas to take it all back, including those three damn words that took him away from Dean. He needed Cas back. And if he couldn’t have him, he didn’t want to live in a world without his angel.

But then somehow, thanks to Jack, they won. They defeated Chuck and the world went back to the way it was. With one exception. And Dean wanted to die.

That is, until they did get Cas back, somehow. And before, if Dean had let himself hope that he would have ever seen Cas again, he had planned on telling him everything that was on his mind, planned on a huge argument, on shouting at Cas about how stupid it had been and that he should’ve never ever had sacrificed himself for Dean, because he’s not worth it. But when he saw him, in the flesh, right in front of him, all the anger disappeared.

He felt overjoyed. He looked at the person, the angel, in front of him, the stupid everpresent trenchcoat, the bright, blue eyes, messy dark hair… just him. Just as he always was, as if nothing’s changed. And he took Dean’s breath away.

“Cas.” was all he could say. Or rather whisper. With his voice breaking. He felt tears coming, and he did not care at all.

“Hello, Dean.” Cas smiled at him nervously. And just then Dean was really hit with the weight of Cas’ words, before he was taken. But he suddenly didn’t hate them anymore. He realized that he never did. He wanted to hate them, but he didn’t. He cherished every single word, repeating the scene in his head countless times, wondering what he would do if they had time. And now he could finally do something, and he couldn’t move. He just stared.

Somehow, they were alone. He didn’t know exactly why and how, he really hasn’t been paying attention to many things these days, they weren’t important. Only Cas was. And Dean had just been grieving him, and now he was just… there.

“You’re here.” Dean took a step closer, but there was still a distance between them. “You’re really here.” he repeated, taking a few more steps. He stopped in front of him and reached out his hand. He put it on Cas’ shoulder slowly, carefully, as if Cas was about to disappear at any moment. He needed to make sure he was real.

“I am.” Cas said with a fond expression. “I’m back.”

“Thank fuck.” suddenly Dean, overcome with emotion, just pulled Cas in for a hug. “You son of a bitch, never leave me again.” he said, voice muffled by Cas’ shoulder. He didn’t care that he was being vulnerable and sappy. He was too happy that his angel was back.

“I won’t.” Cas sighed, visibly relaxing. He probably wasn’t sure of how their reunion would look like, with Cas’ confession still hanging between them, unmentioned, unreciprocated.

Dean felt a huge smile tugging on his lips. His Cas was back.

He pulled away, moving his hands so that now he was cradling Cas’ face. His bright smile caused Cas to grin back at him. For a while, he just looked at Cas. And then, in a moment of pure happiness, he kissed him. He stopped overthinking, or even thinking at all, almost blinded by the joy of getting Cas back.

Cas made a surprised sound, but kissed him back with the same enthusiasm. The kiss was quite slow and gentle, but at the same time quite intense. Cas’ lips on his felt so good, he caught himself thinking that he should’ve done this years ago. He could’ve had this kind of happiness for years. And it took Cas dying, which was supposed to be permanent this time, for him to finally let himself be honest with himself about his feelings. He was an idiot.

“I love you, too.” he whispered into Cas’ lips. He actually did not intend on saying it, it just slipped out of his lips, and for a moment he felt nervous. But then Cas deepened the kiss, with more passion, and Dean felt at peace. He felt gleeful and blissful, and just so fantastic, he felt like he could explode from all that joy.

He got his biggest win yet. They were really free, and they got Cas back. He got Cas back.

Things were going to be different now. Good different. Happy. And for the first time maybe ever, he could not wait for the future.

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yanderecandystore · 3 years

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Hey, I love your work alot you're an incredibly skilled writer and always look forward to seeing your notification pop up! Is it ok if I request Adrien pinning a male reader down while they're alone?

A Adrien solo headcanon? How fun, boo!

Sure thing.

Sorry boo, even if I really liked your idea I've been having a lot of headaches (sorry if it's tmi, but: Periods fuckin sucks-).

I hope you don't mind if I redo your ask another time, probably a better one shot than- Whatever the hell I was thinking when writing this XD

TW/Tags: bullying but like- That's no surprise lol- // mentions of past encounters // perhaps mutual simping? // short hc, sorry about that boo ;-; // Terrible quality for an headcanon

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Sorry I don't have a title- [Yandere!Bully OC (Adrien) x M!Reader - Headcanon]:

You have been running around this place for quite some time now, Amaryllis Academy is quite big after all.

You suspected that someone like him would not have enough stamina to continue pursuing you like this. And the truth is that he didn't have enough of an athletic build to hold it for so long, he just changed his strategy.

You also weren't necessarily interested in exercising everyday, you could say that maybe you two have the same amount of stamina, the difference being that you decided to waste it all while trying to run from him- And he decided to plan a way to corner you.

No one can blame you for falling so easily to that, but let's be honest- You should have seen this coming the moment he stopped chasing you and started coming forward very calmly.

"Why didn't I stop running as well?" You thought out loud now that you find yourself in a no ways out situation, great, just great.

You were choking on your own air- Completely out of breath having a hard time bringing more oxygen to your lungs. You take a look back and notice who was walking in- Wow, how surprising.

"- Ugh, come on-" you were not really pissed off, or surprised, or even scared anymore, you were just tired of having to run from this guy. One would think that someone like him isn't capable of hurting a single fly, but those who doubted him would end up having a big wake up call- Just like you did.

Do you remember now? It was in a similar situation like this- You were cornered, out of breath, your legs were giving up and couldn't even fight anymore. The only difference from that moment to now was that there wasn't anyone else here, except you two.

No audience this time, this was the backstage and you two were the actors getting their costumes out. At least that's how he saw it, to you it was just like any other time he would bully you. How wrong were you to think that.

He didn't make any attempts at running at you, and as you tried to help yourself on the walls beside you, he clapped at your latest performance.

"- Bravo, Are you happy with yourself now? That you managed to make a fool out of yourself?" His voice wasn't as bored as he usually was, it sounded filled with sarcasm with a hint of true anger in it.

Despite that, you weren't sure what he was talking about. I mean- You know what happened, but you can't recall a single moment where you have made him so pissed off.

"- You tried your hardest to get me to this point, and congratulations- You did it-" Adrien was holding himself from lashing out as much he could, he was feeling humiliated and the fact you're so unaware as to way makes him want to choke you. Put his arms around your neck and force you to at least look at him when he is talking with you.

You tried to remember what could have possibly made him so desperate to get back at you, and as you do, you can feel your blood pulsating inside your skull- You can recall one incident that happened yesterday.

Yesterday, you were avoiding Adrien as best as you could, while also trying to make new friends that could help you get away from him for a bit longer. You started talking with a shy girl in your class, you thought that it would be easier to get to know someone who is mostly alone all the time then going straight to the popular crowd- Who would absolutely dismiss you or even do worse things considering Adrien's influence over them.

You started talking to a girl you thought to be an outcast just like yourself, maybe you two could have been friends- But that didn't last too long after you realized exactly why she would be so distant from other people, apparently she was one of those who were… A little too into other people's relationships, more specifically your relationship with Adrien.

She only started talking with you because of how much time you spent with Adrien, how suspicious it is for someone like him to be so clingy towards you. Her endless nagging was horrible but even worse was how she had planted the idea in her head that you two have been dating or something- You tried arguing that Adrien has done nothing but bullying you and distancing yourself from others, but she couldn't really listen to you, or even care enough to try.

You were heavily reconsidering your options, after all it didn't seem like you two would really work out together- But before you considered ditching her, Adrien had confronted you about walking around with her.

He was acting like his usual bratty self, keeping himself calm and still holding that stern look in his face, but the actual contents of his speech were a bit concerning- It sounded like he was really jealous of you hanging out with a "creep like her", as he said.

You tried calming him down to not create a bigger scene, but your new "friend" had pushed Adrien to end up bumping on you, which only made the situation to escalate.

Adrien took this whole thing as a plan you both created to make himself seem like a fool, this was just an attempt to get his attention and he fell for it- He got red and started yelling at you two, his threats sounding like barks.

That's why he was chasing you today, at least that's why you thought so- Although the truth was a bit deeper than that, dearest. That whole event didn't slip through his mind even when he was asleep, he dreamed about the incident- Although with a thin veil of something a bit… Uncalled for in his opinion.

In Adrien's head, the accident made it look like he was hugging you, which made him get flustered and panicky. He had a dream about the whole scene happening again, but without your friend and without any of the other students, it was very pathetic of him to imagine a scenario where you would be there for him, to get him when he falls, how wishful.

He blames you for such a dream, just as if he would blame you if he ever got a dream about you cheating on him- Regardless of how your actual relationship is currently.

His own delusions and anxious thoughts would get the best of him, and that's why you're in this exact situation- Feeling out of breath with no one to save you from Adrien.

You felt yourself almost lose your balance and almost hit your face in the concrete, but thanks to Adrien slamming your back against the wall you didn't need to scratch your face, at least that's a positive.

You didn't pay much attention to what he was saying, you were just kinda pissed off of having to deal with this brat's bs everyday. Although, you're very aware that Adrien can be a bit more than just a brat, sometimes you have to remind yourself of that- It wouldn't be pretty to make him mad.

Bullying you, hating you, liking you, loving you- All are so difficult to manage everyday, it's too much work for someone like him. It's exhausting overthinking about you every day.

"- …. Sigh- You're very annoying, very, very annoying…." all that anger that was previously in his voice has almost gone away, being slowly replaced with tiredness. Key word being "almost", he was tired but not over his own jealousy yet.

You didn't want to provoke him considering how, well- Dangerous this situation is, or could be if you do the wrong thing. It's a 50/50 chance of you finding a way to comfort him without him lashing out once again. Then again, nothing can prevent him from getting the wrong idea of your actions, so choose wisely your next move, dearest.

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oneboxofmatches · 3 years

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Hi!!! May I request a HP romantic and friendship matchup on both eras? (Preferably male), thanks in advance! 💞

𝗕𝗔𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗦 + 𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘

19, Libra, Neutral Good, enneagram is 4w5, Ravenclaw, and my patronus spirit is swan. Bi Pan Genderfluid girl using pronouns of She/Her or He/Him. A friend of mine told me that I (kinda) look like Marinette from 𝗠𝗶𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘂𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗟𝗮𝗱𝘆𝗯𝘂𝗴, Musa from 𝗪𝗶𝗻𝘅 𝗖𝗹𝘂𝗯, and Alexandra Trese from 𝗧𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲 (a Netflix animated series), but the exception is I'm short (5'1.2") plus sized Southeast Asian woman with Spanish descent that has messy/wavy brunette medium hair, chocolate brown eyes, oriental skin and a small beauty mark on the forehead. My sense of fashion is in between emo and boyish plus korean glam.

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬

Distant and shy at first cause' I dunno how to initiate a conversation, but a total opposite if I open up---friendly, ambivert, witty, laughing loudly on a daily basis, talkative, awkward, daydreamer (I got embarrassed from knocking at the door even I'm inside the classroom 😂), EXTREMELY clumsy, secretly likes affection, easily overwhelmed, prone to melt over any wholesomeness, flusters on compliments, lightly blushes on cheesy banters, sarcastic person with a lowkey crackhead energy citing meme references, and talented girl who can be your no. 1 supporter and unashamed to be true to myself. In terms of leadership, I only educate and guide than being a prefect (I might take the role seriously), and will lift my group when there's lacking/incompleteness. About doing projects in school, I become too extra and prepared for efforts, but I'll forget the process in the end.

People thought I'm a demure self-effacing woman that looks "idealistic" or "one of a kind," (due to my protective parents, a reason why I've never been in a relationship) but the truth is, I'm eloquent, warm-hearted, willig to help, kind, intelligent, supportive, nice, creative, enthusiastic, determined, tough, competitive, and feisty outside, but a real softie that can be childish and dramatic crybaby filled with doubts, frustrations, and insecurities with fear of failure that pushes off the limits to to please everyone, yet I still managed to be stronger than ever, even it's a slow burn process. I can be intimidating, sassy, and a douchebag if I receive ends. Immature, headstrong, perfectionist, demanding, hesitant, jumpy, very indecisive, overthinker, quick-tempered, sensitive, and anxious (no joke, my nervousness makes me think worse scenario will arrive or I might break a belonging due to my carelessness). Though can be procrastinator and arrogant, I raised as a religious 𝖺𝗇𝖽 diplomatic person, willing to fight what I believe (including my dreams) 𝖺𝗇𝖽 what is right. In addition, I have a habit of staying up late and doing sign of the cross to ease nervousness.

Blunt but the loudest idiotic feeling-brokenhearted and bitter friend in the group who fangirl a lot, swears like sailor, will act like a silent backstabber on people that we loathe, will crack up over your stupid antics before helping, and bring gossips, but a hopeless romantic who tends to banter with sarcasms or pick up lines as an endearment (but gets grumpy if I received sappy or offensive one), still generous and concerned in a subtle way.

𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗕𝗜𝗘𝗦

My hobbies are singing, drawing, roleplaying, listening to music, chatting/browsing on social media, conceptualizing, writing, and reading some stuffs. 𝖨'𝗅𝗅 𝗂𝗇𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖽𝖾 making corniest jokes/puns, 𝗌𝗅𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀, and dancing when nobody's around or walking like a model if I feel so bold (even I'm terrible at both xD).

𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Loves kittens, eating a lot, cartoons, watching YouTube videos (mostly pageants, ASMR, edit audios, and mukbangs), also enjoys playing games on my sister's PSP. Sucker for arts, choir, night sky, makeup, fun/deep/dumb conversations, Christianity, documentaries (about saints, real crime stories, and inspirational people), reading interesting stuffs, talking about social issues, and writings, chilling both indoors and outdoors. Beside that, my music taste are like late 90s-2000s songs (mostly rock, pop, and country) sometimes kpop and ppop, chocoholic, and a sweetooth as well.

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Things that I hate are stereotyping, HUGE creepy crawlies (spiders, toads, snakes, and cockroaches), firecracker sounds, being left out, loneliness, heart break, blackout, and judgemental people. One random fact about me is, I 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 vent out EVERYTHING I despise in my entire existence---from bad soap operas to toxicity and worse scenarios in real life, because it's a big deal for me, and I consider forcing me to do what I'm not into and manipulating me as my major pet peeves.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥𝗦

In terms of triggers...I only have two which are ta𝖨king about divorce/annullment/separation because I came from a generational broken family and religion/beliefs discrimination, cause' there are reasonings that doesn't makes sense because some are too hypocritical.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗩𝗜𝗔

My best assets are smile, eyes, personality, singing voice, artistic skills, writings, intelligence, and oratorical skills...so I can consider myself as a singer, artist, orator, and a top student who's a former active campus ministry member with three roles (choir leader, psalm singer, and reader). Currently an incoming college freshman, learning how to cook and have so many interests, to the point I don't know what I'm into because of my dreams to become a popular Filipino YouTuber, a novelist, and being part of a successful chorale competing internationally...I also consider joining pageants at school too once the pandemic ends, but maybe.

Thank you so, so much for requesting! I had a lot of fun with this one (as you can tell by some of the really long answers lol) and I hope you enjoy!!

In the Golden Trio era, I romantically pair you with…

CEDRIC DIGGORY

One of the most beautiful things about Cedric is that although he may show some introverted tendencies, he still manages to have a natural gift for connecting to others and allowing them to feel comfortable enough to open up. Really, your initial distance and shyness don't last nearly as long towards Cedric as they would with most other people.

Hearing your laughter brings the widest, cheesiest grin to Cedric’s face. Not only does he adore seeing you happy, but he also recognizes that your anxiety, insecurities, and strong emotions can sometimes cloud up your demeanor. Therefore, it brings him comfort knowing that (for the moment) you’re finding joy. He thrives when you thrive!

However, as much as he loves seeing your more energetic and happier self, it goes without saying that he’s the best comfort for when you’re not having the best day.

Cedric is an excellent listener, so he’ll most likely let you talk without interruption for as long as you need before even saying a word. He wants to make sure he truly understands your current state before acting. He may take a few seconds to process everything after you finish speaking, but then he’ll help you tackle whatever problems you’re facing. He’s especially talented at giving words of affirmation.

Cedric’s listening also comes in handy whenever you talk about your interests! He genuinely loves hearing about the things you’re interested in solely for the fact that you’re interested in them. Side note: you can count on him to be at any music performances, pageants, etc. you may have -- this guy is truly your #1 supporter.

Cedric’s a very good student (though I suspect he’s somewhat of a procrastinator himself), so I can also see you two supporting each other through schoolwork and celebrating each other’s successes.

Like you, Cedric has a strong urge to do the right thing. Talking to him about social issues stirs up a need to help, and I could see you two doing volunteer work together in your spare time.

I like to believe one of Cedric’s biggest love languages is quality time. Don’t get me wrong, this guy loves staying involved and busy. But taking a couple hours to be with you in small ways (even if that means just being in the same room while you scroll through social media) gives him a nice balance.

Overall, this kind boy will be there unwaveringly through the bad times and will laugh just as loud as you through the good!

As a friend, I think you’d best be matched with…

LUNA LOVEGOOD

You wanna talk about the best conversations, relentless support, and overall the most wholesome friendship you could ask for? Luna’s your girl.

Being unashamed to be true to yourself is one of the biggest reasons why Luna is so drawn to you. While she’s very friendly and insightful towards everyone she meets, it can get a bit repetitive for her to constantly interact with people who try to shelter their unique characteristics from the world. In her mind, these unique characteristics are what make people so fascinating! Why should anyone hide who they are?

Luna’s creativity is endless, and I can see it blending well with yours. Collaborating on a personal project outside of school (ex: novel, blog, etc.) together is definitely something I could see you two doing.

Speaking of creativity, finding creative solutions to everyday problems (both in school and in life) is your specialty as friends.

Admittedly, Luna isn’t usually drawn to louder individuals. However, the complexity behind your personality makes it easier for her to know you are much more than what meets the eye.

Speaking of, Luna has a difficult time standing up for herself -- whether it’s because she doesn’t feel a need to or she just doesn’t recognize the meaning behind certain phrases. She NEEDS a friend like you to stand up for her sometimes, and I know you wouldn’t hesitate!

Ranting to Luna is therapeutic to say the least. While her aloofness at times may make it seem as if she isn’t fully paying attention, that couldn’t be further from the truth. She’s actually catching every word, and once you’re done she’ll leave you with a philosophical solution that may seem borderline insane/irrelevant when you first hear it, but it strangely makes sense.

Overall, the lack of judgment from either of you is what draws you together. As a result, you build a unique bond that couldn’t be broken even if either of you wanted it to.

In the Marauders era, I romantically pair you with…

REMUS LUPIN

Let’s be honest, it would take you two so long to ask each other out. You were probably already really close friends, but the insecurities and “what if?” questions from both of you delayed an actual relationship.

When you finally started dating, you were both so relieved. You still share a laugh at how almost nothing changed in the way you interacted with each other.

While with mutual friends, Remus sometimes likes to sit back and just watch you, especially when you get really talkative because this is when you become the most expressive. He has the softest smile when you’re actively cracking jokes, discussing something you’re passionate about, or even calling someone out. Sometimes you may be too distracted to notice, but other times you’ll catch him.

“What?”

“Oh, nothing.” (While that same soft smile never leaves his face.)

You both hold really high standards for yourself in terms of school, so expect late-night study/work sessions to be your best bet for quality time.

Though the occasional instance of walking through/lying on the grounds becomes a favorite for both of you.

Remus listens when you’re particularly struggling through anxiety or strong emotions, but he has to consciously stop himself from interrupting because he can’t stand how he feels knowing you’re going through a tough time.

All he wants to do is soothe you during these moments. If you’re comfortable, he’ll hold you while speaking to you in a soft voice. Remus, the intellectual that he is, is also your best chance at finding a reasonable solution. So if you're not in the mood for calming words, he's also a great person to turn to for answers.

As for your ambitions, no matter what you choose to pursue, you already know Remus is going to be your biggest source of support every step of the way. He’s more than happy to help in any way he can!

Overall, Remus appreciates you, and he’s always going to make sure you know it.

As a friend, I think you’d best be matched with…

LILY EVANS

Lily especially connects to you because you manage to be determined, competitive, and intelligent without sacrificing your kindness, which is something she can relate to.

You and Lily are the C.E.O.s of doing the right thing. Neither of you hesitates to back the other up when it comes to confronting someone because you know it’s justified.

As perceptive as Lily is, you never need to tell her when something is bothering you. All it takes is a quick glance before she puts whatever she’s doing on hold to check in with you.

The reverse works as well. Typically, Lily really doesn’t internally struggle too much, and when she does she tries to hide it. You’re one of the only people who can see right through whatever she tries to pull.

The constant banter between you two is unmatched, but you both know it's because you really care about each other.

Overall, you and Lily have each other’s backs through anything, even when the other isn’t actively asking for help.

#matchups #fandom matchups #harry potter matchup #harry potter #cedric diggory #luna lovegood #remus lupin #lily evans #lily potter

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chiibinomonodamon · 4 years

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Yeah. I finally sat my ass down and finished the first ZackRay book I purchased. xD Don’t like the ship?; well you can f*ck right off. :)

*There is nothing sexual in the book.

'Ai Wo Kuratte, Baka ni Naru' Eating Love Makes a Fool of Me by Tokiko Nao Translation by Chiibi. Please do not repost and do not make scanlations without crediting me.

Page 01 Ray monologues: I do not understand what 'love' is. Because it is not something that I've touched even once. 'Love' from a family. 'Love' from a friend. Or 'love' from a lover. I've never had even one of these. But if 'love' is an emotion we do not understand... Perhaps the identity of this feeling I don't understand could be...

Page 02 [Ray is sitting on the bed looking anxious] : Zack is late...but he said he was only going out for a minute... The police didn't find him, did they? He's going to come back, right? Loneliness, worry, and doubt are all spinning around in my head... I'm scared. My heart is aching. No...I'll stop thinking negatively... There's no point in thinking about 'what-ifs'. [music from the TV] Page 03 : This drama is...still going on? I was watching this just to kill time at the last motel we were at. TV dialogue: "I love you! Please don't leave me behind anymore...!" [Ray lays down on the bed, thinking] : "Love"...? "I love you"... What type of situation do you call 'love', I wonder... [she thinks of her mother] Was that love? [her father] Or maybe that? I'm certain those were both wrong. Because the story I watched before didn't seem that painful. They didn't scream or degrade each other. Page 04 The woman just whispers "Only being with you makes me so happy, darling." Is that 'love'? If I too...until my last moment of life... just be next to Zack... TV: "We will now continue with today's news" "Some time ago, around 10 p.m., the bodies of a man and woman couple were discovered by OO River." "A rather dangerous-looking knife was found at the scene of the crime." "It is thought to be the same type of weapon from the incident at XX River from the previous day. The culprit is thought to be among the escaped prisoners on the wanted list of..." [Ray looks scared] : "Zack...!" Page 05 "Yeah...did I scare ya? Ya still up, huh? Whatcha doin' with the lights off, anyway?" Ray: "Welcome back...you went quite far this time, right?" Zack:" Yeah..." Ray: "Did you...kill those people?" Zack: "So what if I did?" Ya gonna bitch about it now, after all this time?" Ray: "No, I won't. I just wanted to make sure." [Zack pulls off his coat]: "That so..."

Page 06 Ray sits on the bed, shyly twirling her hair around her finger. "I wonder if they were in love." Zack: "HAH?" Ray: "Those people were...a couple, right?" Zack: "I don't friggin' know. Don't mean shit to me." Ray: "Hey Zack, do you know... what love is?" [He grimaces at her] Page 07 [Tousling Ray's hair] "I should be askin' YA instead!" "Ya think I actually KNOW!? Yer gonna make me puke again!" Ray: "Stop it~" "Well...I don't know..." "But I..." "I think I'm happy...just being with you... so I wonder if this is what love is..." "I mean, that's what the drama said...Zack, what do you think...?"

Page 08 [He gets mad] "THAT'S DAMN GROSS! ARE YA TALKIN' IN YER SLEEP OR WHAT!?" "C'mon! It's time for little brats to go to bed! We're leavin' this town tomorrow, right!? You'll oversleep!" [Ray pouts thinking] The one I'd worry about doing that is YOU actually... [She gets into bed] :" Take a shower before you go to sleep, okay?" Zack: "Yeah yeah" Ray: Thank God he came back... It's strange...how before I was so scared, I couldn't stand it... Page 09 But now that Zack is here, I'm okay. I feel warm and comforted. I don't want to give him to anyone. I won't let anyone destroy this. I won't let anyone get in the way. For that I would... Page 10 [birds chirping] Zack: We leavin' already....? Let's keep sleepin'...it's still 5 a.m.... Ray: There's no way we can do that. Because of yesterday's incident, the police are going to be more watchful than ever. So please behave yourself just for today, all right? [He yawns] "All right..." Page 11 Ray: I'm going to go check out what's ahead of us. Zack, you stay here. [rub rub] Zack: Don't go too far. Ray: I know. [she grins a little] "I'm just going to take a peek around the corner." Ray thinking: No matter how deserted the town is supposed to be...all these shops have security cameras so we have to avoid the main roads... "This area looks clear." [peeks to and fro] [click of a gun] [scream] Zack: RAY!? Page 12 : HEY! RAY...!? Ray: Don't come over here!! Policedude who's touching Ray like how dare you: "You're the wanted criminal, Issac Foster, aren't you!" Ray: Zack! Police douche: Walking around with this kidnapped girl...! Ray thinking: Oh! Come to think of it, that was on the news yesterday...! Zack doesn't have a weapon now...! Because I made the mistake of choosing this way, he might be killed this time...! That can't happen! I have to do something...! Page 13: Ray thinking: Even though I've been caught, they won't kill me! I have to get Zack to escape!! [she grabs douche] : "HURRY AND RUN FOR IT!" douche: What the...let go!" Ray: ZACK...! GO NOW!! Zack: If I run, what're YOU gonna do?! Ray: That's not the problem right n- Zack: That IS the problem right now. You know, Ray? I'm not givin' up. I'll kill 'im with my BARE HANDS and run if I have to! Ray thinking : Ah... I see. I finally get it now. This is all the same as that drama show. In that case I... Douche: Stand back! If you go with that man, he will kill you for sure! Page 14 Ray clicks the gun "That's OUR VOW." "Don't get in the way." I no longer fear sin Zack: Are ya glad ya used that? Ray: No...the truth is I never intended to do so. But it would be troublesome for them to find out that I'm traveling with you or that I have a gun on me.... [panting] I intended to distract him so you could escape. I knew that's what I should have done yet... Yet I didn't like it. Page 15 Ray crying: "I DON'T WANT TO BE SEPARATED FROM YOU ANYMORE!" "That's why my selfishness took over. I'm so sorry..." [He sighs] Ray: I'm sure the reinforcements will get here soon and find this. Zack: Yeah. Ray: And then they'll find out about me, how we have guns, and everything we've done up to now. Zack: Yeah. Ray: And escaping them is going to be harder to do than ever before... I'm sure the past version of me would never have done something so rash and stupid... But I don't regret it!

Page 16

Ray: I did something I wanted to do so... [Zack wipes her face^^] : Ah geeeze ya talk way too long! Say yer main point already!! If ya don't regret it, then it was obviously the right action. Quit thinkin' about EVERY LITTLE THING, stooooopid. [sniffle] Ray: ...okay. Zack: Good grief and if yer gonna kill 'im, shoot 'im faster! Ray: I can't do that... If I were to act without thinking the same way you do, we'd... Zack: Ya ended up shootin' 'im without thinkin' ANYWAY! Tryin' to start somethin' with me!? Let's go now. [sting] Their backup guys might be comin'. Ray: Yes, you're right. [thinking] Back then... Page 17 I remembered the drama I saw on the TV at the motel. There was a scene with a lover being killed. The one who killed and the one who was killed both said "It's for the sake of love." When I remembered that, I thought such a burden of sin was a lovely thing. That's why I finally understood. If it's for your beloved, committing a sin is a way of loving that person. Speaking of which, Zack too [peek] killed that man in order to save me. But maybe he just wanted to kill him anyway. Yes, the probability of that is pretty high... Page 18 Maybe Zack also... Zack: What're ya starin' so hard at a guy's face for? [Ray blushes] ...nah I'm probably overthinking the convenience of it. Zack: Yer face is bright red, ain't it? Still cryin'? Ray: ...don't look! Last page [Now that she knows the taste of love, she cannot go back to the wise girl she once was] Omake: Zack: Ray suddenly started the waterworks [blah blah] Her emotions are pretty unstable... BUT I HAVE NO CLUE WHY SHE'S CRYIN'!!! [blah blah] [yeah] And she's talkin' too much! [blah blah] [yeah] Seems like a pain to interrupt her an' ask... But I can at least be a yes-man, I guess... Ray: But I don't regret it! It hurts if you do that... Zack: IS THAT ALL THIS IS ABOUT!!? Don't freak me out like that, dammit! [End!]

#zackray #doujinshi #translations #angels of death #satsuriku no tenshi #issac foster #rachel gardner #shoujo #josei

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hi! i have a problem with drawing. right now i have artblock and yesterday i tried to draw something like 3 times, but i can't do anything. i try to somehow calm myself so that i don't get hysterical. and, of course, i tried to find something about it in internet, but i found nothing. why people don't talk about art struggles, mental struggles and emotional burnout? what to do if you can’t draw because you’ll get hysterical or anxious at the end of the process?

Hmm… I don’t really know your situation, I don’t know if it’s because you draw too much (for school/job), feel some social media pressure, or if it’s just this “I can’t draw for shit” stage that every artists seems to have from time to time.

The anxiety when you don’t produce art might be overwhelming. You draw and nothing comes out right. People post beutiful art every day and are successful with their zines, comics, books. They get featured, they’re hired, they are a part of big projects! And you can’t draw the pose right, it’s stiff and you know the lineart will look even worse. People won’t like it, you’re such a disappointment. It makes you want to scream. It’s a horrible feeling. I know that feeling. But… to quote the classic: “Let it go!” \(u-u)/

Take a deep breath. (´ο`)=3

My advice (I’m not sure if useful) would be to stop drawing for a week or so. Do something else, watch some new series, go for a walk, read books you haven’t read yet, try some games, definitely try something new. If you were in a particular fandom and created for it or drew inspiration from it - stop. You’ll feel itchy and will try to draw but don’t. And don’t feel guilty about it! You need to recharge, so instead of producing stuff try to comsume something new. Enjoy it.

Then try to draw but don’t expect anything. Find a few photos, very simple ones, of the sky, field, something not too complicated and study colours, try to draw with big shapes, blocks of colour, don’t expect it to look good, it’s just a study. It’s about reigniting the curiosity and pleasure of creating. When you try to draw something more complicated treat it as a study, a sketch, a stage. Draw something you’ve never drawn before, design a chair. Focus on the chair and not on the feeling you should be drawing something else and it’s just a waste of time, it isn’t. Draw a few thumbnails, you don’t like it, start a new one until your hand gets loose and you start to get some new ideas. If it’s getting too frustrating go for a walk, or dance to your favourite song.

(Also, go to people who inspire you, not those who make you feel shitty about your art. I’m not talking about negativity or toxic people. Some artists are the best human beings and they are very good at what they do but sometimes they make you feel not good enough. It’s not true, and it’s not their fault, but it happens. So sometimes it’s good to find someone who doesn’t overwhelm you with their detailed artworks, huge followers count, achievements etc.)

Allow yourself to make bad art. You won’t escape from it. All the art you see on the internet was chosen by artists for you to see. And there are tons of shitty drawings on their computers and in sketchbooks they chose not to show. Sometimes you open your canvas and this is your end result for the day:

It’s fine!

And there’s one thing I suppose is very important if you want to fight art axiety. Don’t think about the drawings you made before, they’re done. Don’t think about the drawings you will do, you should do, or you want to do. Open the canvas, draw not thinking about the result, don’t expect it to be good or bad. To quote another classic: “Be in the moment.” Don’t be scared to ruin your drawing with the wrong line, try a different option and allow yourself to be surprised with the result. The result is bad, well, tough. What does it change, you won’t post it online? Who said you have to? Draw for yourself, not for other people, not for followers (don’t share your art with a big audience for some time, even if it’s good), not even your inner critic. Discover rather than force the outcome.When you draw a line don’t think about the final result, think about what that one line does for the drawing in that very moment.

And if you find yourself panicking about your art my ask box is always open, we can chat about art and exchange doubts. It’s all about not overthinking stuff because it doesn’t help.Wow, it’s a bit lengthy… xD Hope you find something that’s usefull. It’s based on my experience. I’m not saying that I got over it, I still stress over art and everything but I try to get better at calming my mind, and those things help me.

#art stuff #sorry for mistakes #I haven't checked grammar and spelling #but hope it's understandable #Anonymous

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timeywimeygalaxy · 6 years

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Fight Or Flight

A/N: Hey! so I didn't plan for this to be uploaded on Roman’s birthday but I happened to finish it today so here we are happy birthday Roman! (sorry for the angst) xD I’ve been on and off writing this for months now, it’s a one-shot inspired by @nyxwordsmith ‘s fic “the depths of the heart” which was one of the first sanders sides fanfic I ever read and I loved it! I’m veeery anxious about posting this.... I hope y’all like it!

Warnings: Violence, Blood, Panic attack, Fainting, angst, swearing,(kinda) Dark!Roman

Pairings: Prinxiety

Words: 3,256

For weeks now, Virgil could tell something was up with his boyfriend. Roman had been acting distant and just off with all of them, the final straw was when Virgil had told him they were having a movie night, they were watching Disney’s Cinderella and Roman said he was going to skip it. Roman would never turn down a Disney movie and Virgil knew he had to do something.

Have I done something wrong?

Virgil wanted to practice what he was going to say, going over what he planned on saying in his head he entered the kitchen pouring himself a mug of coffee, looks like it’s going to be another sleepless night he thought to himself glancing up at the clock.

11.00pm not as late as he thought it was, the anxious side knew Patton and Logan were busy helping Thomas with some video ideas.

In all honestly he’d prefer them here at least he’d have back up but this talk had to happen sooner rather than later, sipping his coffee staring blankly at the kitchen counter his thoughts began to snowball.

What if he wants to break up?

Has he gotten sick of me?

Maybe-

Setting his mug down he turned around and jumped, Virgil clutched his chest recovering from the sudden jump scare that was Roman who was standing a few feet away from him, he hadn’t even heard his footsteps.

“Uh Roman…” Virgil stammered, as Roman grabbed a mug from the cupboard and started pouring himself a coffee.

“Jeez Roman, warn a guy next time!” Virgil huffed annoyed.

“Sorry virge” Roman replied drearily taking a few more steps towards him, towering over his anxious boyfriend, Virgil glanced up as he felt his heartbeat increase, given Roman’s behaviour the past few weeks this was too close.

Virgil went to hold his hand up to create distance but before he could Roman leaned behind him grabbing the coffee container, he smiled and stepped back making his way to the cupboards next to the stove, Virgil breathed a sigh of relief.

“hm?” Roman responded without turning.

“i- I’ve noticed you’ve not- not been yourself lately anything you want to talk about?”

Roman stiffened slightly but remained silent with his back turned, a sudden clang made Virgil jump as Roman set his mug down a little too hard on the counter. He turned to face the anxious trait with a darkened expression making Virgil shuffle back slightly.

Goddamit.

He had everything he had wanted to say and how he was going to say it in his head and now the time was here he was buckling, he felt his heart speed up again as his breathing became shallower.

Oh god, no not here, not now!

He tried to focus on Roman who was now making his way towards him slowly with that same dark expression, Virgil backed away trying to get his breathing under control.

“Is that right Virgil? What has given you that impression?”

“I-you just-” he stammered as Roman continued to approach him he backed away more not making eye contact.

He noticed that Roman had a certain gleam in his eye as he stared at Virgil expecting an answer, his thoughts raced as his breathing became erratic again, his heart now accelerated once again.

Oh god why did he think this was a good idea? He should’ve waited for Patton or Logan to be here!

His eyes flitted to the stairs and the door both escape routes that he could potentially use at that moment.

Ca-can’t breathe.

His head started swimming.

Oh, fuck!

No! not here!

Hands sweating.

Vision blurring.

Need oxygen, I need-

My head-

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He clutched his hand to his chest again trying to gulp in precious air, tears started to form in Virgil’s eyes as he started to sway on the spot, he couldn’t pass out!

But his knees buckled as he fell forward and felt a pair of hands catch him, sweat beads had formed on Virgil’s forehead as he felt a hand brush them away and a faraway voice.

“Virgil? You don’t look so good? -“ he didn’t catch the end of the sentence as his vision fell into blackness.

Virgil’s eyes peered open forgetting momentarily where he was, but as he scanned the room he saw Roman sitting on a chair in the corner…had he been watching him sleep!?

As the brain fog cleared he shot up and his hands fell to his body upon feeling a draft on his neck, he looked down to find only his purple shirt and black skinny jeans, his hoodie had been taken off leaving him feeling more exposed than normal.

That hoodie was his only source of comfort and safety, and now that he glanced at the side staring back at him Virgil saw it hanging on the chair that Roman was occupying.

The creative side silently made his way over to him and the bed dipped as he sat next to Virgil, once again a little too close for his liking he tried to shift slightly to create some distance but Roman moved as well and scooted closer.

Virgil glanced down letting his bangs obscure part of his face, this wasn’t his dorky prince yeah he was dramatic but he was never creepy, he had to make an escape strategy if he was going to get out of here unscathed, talking be dammed.

Peering up through his bangs “Wha-what happened?” he questioned as Roman stared blankly.

“you had a panic attack and passed out, so I tucked you in” he said this in such a dull tone that it made Virgil feel very uneasy, more so than he already was.

“Right….” he replied his throat now feeling drier by the second.

“Tha-thank you I think I’m going to-“ as he said this he made a getaway for the door shifting to the left side of the bed, but jumping back as a hand came slamming into the headboard blocking his way.

Virgil swallowed as he eyed the length of Roman’s arm, he slowly eased backwards trying the other side but the same thing happened.

He was trapped, oh god he was trapped with whatever this thing was that had taken root within his Roman, the royal leaned in closer he could feel his breath on his cheek.

“Ro-roman?” Virgil stammered now trying to keep himself from having another attack, he clutched his chest and felt Roman’s hand close over his own but instead of feeling the usual warmth it was ice cold to the touch.

“Breathe” Roman whispered in Virgil’s ear it sounded almost like a growl, he choked back a sob and inhaled deeply gathering all his strength not to sound scared and glared up at him coming nose to nose with the man he loved…only it wasn’t him.

This was not his prince with his hair swept back, his cold green eyes bored into his fearful hazel ones and with all his might he managed to force out the words through gritted teeth.

“Give him back to me” forcing all his anger into those words and Roman to his relief, recoiled back slightly releasing his arms from the headboard, giving him some space to breathe.

Thank god.

“Virgil?” the hurt in Roman’s voice sounded so genuine that it killed the anxious trait inside.

“It’s me…I love you” Virgil scrunched his eyes closed trying to block out the creature’s tricks.

“no” he breathed barely audible “you’re not him”

Roman stared for a moment looking so anguished, and Virgil glanced down second-guessing himself…maybe he was wrong? Maybe he was just overthinking everything again?

But looking at Roman’s face once more it seemed he had dropped the facade now as a sly smile spread across his face, he reached a hand to cup Virgil’s cheek but the anxious trait was quick to move.

Unfortunately not quick enough he scrambled off the bed letting out a strangled scream as he was dragged back by the scruff of his hair, the creature held him so tightly he felt like his head was going to be ripped off.

“Where’s Roman!” Virgil roared, standing to his fullest height, ignoring the ringing in his ears his voice starting to distort his eyeshadow growing darker, the creature still bearing his prince’s face simply chuckled.

Virgil snarled as Roman spun him around to face him still clutching his hair, Roman’s face was now dangerously close to his when Virgil was struck with an idea, a stupid one yes but an idea none the less.

Without hesitation he leaned in grabbing Roman’s face kissing him roughly, at first he seemed shocked and tried to pull away but he soon sank into it, nausea started to rise in the anxious trait’s stomach knowing what he was doing but he had to distract him somehow.

Breaking the kiss Virgil reared his head back vehemently and swore he felt a few hairs being ripped out, bringing his head forward with as much force as he could muster crashing it into Roman’s straight between his eyes.

He staggered back clutching his head and releasing Virgil in the process tumbling to the floor he shuffled backwards, his eyes fell to Roman’s sword that was still sheathed to his waist, another idea entered his head as he glanced back up at the imposter’s face.

Virgil choked back tears again.

This was not the man he fell in love with.

His Roman who had once told him that he made him a better person just by existing.

His Roman who would give him forehead kisses before going to bed.

His Roman who created all those adorable nicknames for him, though Virgil would never admit that he liked any of them.

“What can I do for you little storm cloud?”

“Come on hot topic we need to save the village!”

“Evening shadowling you want to watch a movie?”

Roman’s voice echoed in his head and all those memories flooded his mind, tears started falling now leaving tracks in his jet-black eyeshadow he closed his eyes and inhaled deeply.

No. he refused to believe it.

Opening them he came face to face with him, in one swift movement Virgil jerked his knee up hard coming into contact with Roman’s ribcage, he fell to the ground as the anxious trait rounded on him unsheathing the sword from Roman’s waist, the metal point clanged to the ground as Virgil struggled to hold its weight in his hands.

Roman was already up and running towards him before Virgil could get the chance to the raise the sword he felt immense pain shoot up his back feeling himself being rammed into the wall on the other side of the room with such force it winded him.

The sword fell from his hands dropping to the ground, struggling to escape from the creature's grip it picked up Roman’s sword and with one arm against Virgil’s chest, he held it delicately to Virgil’s neck in an instant he stopped struggling, Roman leaned in sneering.

He knew what he had to do.

Virgil felt his insides tie themselves in knots, the sword was being pressed further into his neck as beads of blood started to appear, pain shot through his body as blood started oozing out.

Virgil grabbed the arm that was holding the sword using all his strength to push it back mere inches, Roman fought against it but with Virgil’s eyes growing darker he felt himself becoming stronger for Roman.

He didn’t want to do it.

But He had to save Roman.

Once he was pushed back far enough, Virgil tried to bring his knee up again but this time he was stopped as Roman bought his elbow down hitting Virgil’s leg away, he yelled in pain at the bone on bone contact as Roman swung his fist hitting him to the ground, he fell with a thud his eyes grew wide upon seeing Roman swing the sword down.

“Virgil! The door! Send-“another screech interrupted roman’s words.

Virgil darted to the left as the sword came plummeting down, with one hand Virgil grabbed the handle of it and kicked Roman in the stomach causing him to let go of the hilt, he was ready this time as Roman went for him again.

He raised the sword as the creature ran towards him, as soon as the blade plunged into Roman’s skin, he let out a anguished scream of pain as a mass of black vines seemed to shoot upwards screeching as it was being ripped from his body.

Virgil’s hair was whipped back as a strong gale surrounded the room, Roman fell to the ground weakened immensely, he managed to glance up at the black mass towering above him, his head then flitted to Virgil who stood quivering eyes frozen on the shadowy mass his hands gripped the sword so tightly his knuckles were turning white, mustering all his strength Roman shouted to his beloved.

Door? What door? Virgil thought then he realized.

Roman’s realm.

Oh shit.

Virgil nodded to Roman but he found that once his attention was back on the creature towering above him, his legs started to buckle upon seeing how huge it actually was.

It’s glowing red eyes boring into his, he gulped not being able to take his eyes off it, he had to fight to cover to his ears as the creature made a deafening screech like a banshee, wincing he tried to move, to do anything other than staying frozen on the spot but his feet remained stationary.

I can’t do this.

Too much.

This thing is too powerful i-

Virgil was yanked out of his thoughts as he saw that the creature had had enough of waiting, it was making a beeline for him, in that split-second, Virgil made the decision, he felt a burst of courage erupt from within himself.

This thing was not going to hurt his family ever. again.

As the winds suddenly picked up speed, Virgil clung to the nearest object which happened to the be a bed frame, Roman smiled at him as the winds whipped their hair, Virgil smiled back and despite the blackness, the winds the screeching that was happening in the room he felt happy he finally had his prince back, watching the creature being sent back almost all the mass had gone save for one last black vine.

He let out a demonic scream, his eyeshadow now jet black, eyes full of fury as he drew the sword above his head, keeping balance with all his strength he threw the sword towards the shadows, it hit the direct center as the mass let out another ear-piercing scream.

He saw Roman crawling up the door to his realm and opening it, the gale surrounding the room got stronger it was as if someone had opened an airlock as the shadows started to get sucked in.

He celebrated too soon though as his face fell upon seeing what was going to happen before it did.

“NO!” Virgil’s eyes widened as he felt himself scream without realizing, the last vine had latched itself onto Roman’s leg trying to pull him in, his grip on the door handle loosened as he tried fighting it kicking his leg to get free.

“ROMAN!” the anxious trait screamed again as he let go of the bed frame and started sliding down the room towards the door, he quickly grabbed the leg of the desk and held out his hand, straining his arm to reach his beloved, his terrified eyes fixed on Roman who looked up at him with a pained expression, he looked ready to give up, to let go and be taken hold of by that creature again but Virgil knew better glaring as his tears were ripped from his eyes by the strong winds.

“Don’t you dare!” Virgil screamed his voice cracking, Roman stared back and Virgil could see tears in his eyes, streaming, he couldn’t lose him, not again!

The wind was whipping their clothes around as various papers and other objects in the room had started to whirl around it.

“Princey I need you!” Virgil screamed once more, and Roman’s eyes flashed open startled gazing into Virgil’s own, his expression changed upon hearing those words as he reached out his hand.

Virgil grabbed it interlocking their fingers and pulled with one hand whilst holding onto the desk with the other. Roman tried to pry his leg free from the creature who continued to pull him downwards, Virgil looked to his left and saw Roman’s sword sliding down into the door.

“Roman, your sword!” he shouted above the noise, the sword slipped further down as it fell through the doorway.

Virgil watched it felt like everything was happening in slow motion as Roman watched the sword fall through the door his free hand caught the handle only just as he swung it at the vine cutting himself free from the creature’s grasp.

“Roman?” He enquired with concern.

As soon as Virgil witnessed this he heaved and with one more pull Roman was yanked back in with such force that he landed on top of Virgil, the door slammed shut as the winds slowly died down.

They both stared at each as the only noise in the room now was both of their frantic breaths, in that moment all Virgil wanted to do was to hold Roman, to comfort him and tell him everything was going to be okay but instead Roman lifted himself from Virgil and made his way over to the door Virgil quickly got up wondering what he was going to do.

He followed and gently laid a hand on Roman’s shoulder, Roman had his back facing Virgil as he turned his face away hiding his expression, after a solid minute of silence Virgil heard strangled sobs erupting from him as he watched him slump down the door frame still clinging to the handle breathing deeply with his forehead leaning against the cold wood.

“It’s okay Roman“ Virgil wrapped his arms around Roman’s shoulders pulling him into a crushing hug as Roman held onto his arms he buried himself in Virgil’s shirt looking so small.

The tears streamed down his face causing the purple fabric to become damp.

“i-I’m-so-sorry” was all Roman could say between sobs as Virgil held him stroking his hair.

"It’s okay princey it wasn’t you, you’re okay you’re safe, I’ve got you” he cooed into Roman’s ear as the words seemed to sooth him.

Roman’s breathing started to slow after a few minutes of just being cuddled, he slowly rose his head leaning against Virgil’s arm and glanced up at him, his eyes now red and puffy with tear tracks trailing down his cheeks. Virgil smiled down at him so thankful he had his dorky royal back in his arms.

“Fight or flight princey” Virgil cupped his boyfriend’s face pressing another soft kiss to his lips as they both took solace in each other’s arms.

“I’m sorry Roman I didn’t -“ he started but before he could finish, Virgil was cut off as Roman lifted his head planting a firm kiss on his lips, they both wiped the tears forming in each other’s eyes.

"Yyou have nothing to be sorry for…you- you rescued me” Roman croaked out as Virgil smiled through new tears.

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Sunday, 23rd August, 2020

Hi guys,

So, just a heads up: Today, I am only going to post one Blog post (the one you're reading now) so please don't wait for me to post the Blog consisting of my work, since this week, I have worked on a Deck for a client but I can not make it public yet. Although I’ll share my experience in this blog post to keep you all updated.

Trust me, I’ll provide y'all with a LOT to read today XD.

So this week wasn't really great. Rather, to be precise, I understood the real meaning of Frustration this week ;} Got a bunch of Panic attacks while working, etc., etc. XD

The previous Sunday right before I posted my blog, I received the brief for the deck I was to design. I was pumped to work on it and so I began designing right away as I was excited.

On Monday, I receive a text from my boss saying that I will work on the deck and it will be directly reviewed by her and not by my mentor. I kind of felt that would be a bad idea since I myself haven't completely yet captured the design communication they follow. I do strongly believe that I am a quick learner and that I can adapt easily but I am clueless where we’re going wrong with their current communication. Interestingly, when I had interned with the same agency, with the same brand (and many more), last year, I had an amazing experience. The only two major factors that were different were that firstly there was no WFH scenario and secondly, my mentor was different last time. Anyways, my prediction about getting my work directly reviewed by the boss, turned out wrong. I had said it was a bad idea...Nope. It was the worst idea XD

One of the biggest lessons I learnt was a process to handle a superior who is more of a business and marketing professional rather than a downright design specialist. A designer, I realised, sees how the creative will evolve when the first ideas originate. A designer can mentally map the product while it is being conceived so to say. Communicating this to someone who is differently oriented, is a lesson I am learning.

I understand that a boss has a really hectic schedule but I also knew that my boss herself hasn't ever been a G.D student so obviously it would be hard for her to understand where my design is coming from. I’d never in my life imagined that all I’d work on, in a week would be a deck with just 8-10 pages! I have never been so irritated by the changes as I have this week. My downloads folder was filled with 100 “revised creatives” for just a single slide! Again, that because she herself couldn’t figure out what she wasn't liking in the designs so after designing like a dozen of more different options for the slide, she’d go back to the design I created originally and then realise what wasn't working.

Due to her busy schedules, she’d get back to me with her review and feedback after half a day and she’d ask me not change ANYTHING before her review, which got me kind of stressed out since I knew that it’d take way too much time this way. Eventually, she’d get worked up and tell me how we really need to “hurry this up”. Now that I look back, I feel I could've easily designed the social media stories and posts as well, simultaneously by the time she’d get back to me with her review, but I was strictly told to only focus on the deck.

Eventually, what felt worse was, that after so much of time and effort, the project was handed over completely to my mentor. I wasn't even informed that I had to stop working because my mentor began working on it. This was at 5:00pm on Friday, which happens to be the last working day in this agency. How can you expect someone to work on a deck in just an hour!?

So that was that... Honestly this Internship feels like a Rollercoaster. I’m taking each week as it comes since each week turns out to be so different than the previous one. If I’m being completely honest, this week has actually got me super anxious and worried about the thought, “what if tomorrow my boss texts me to tell me that I can’t continue working with them”. I’m trying my best to keep my cool and not try to overthink petty comments as I know overthinking can make even a tiny problem seem HUGE.

Looking at the brighter side, this week taught me more on dealing with people with different background AND a flavour of what the real world is :) and am happy to extend my learning.

Let’s see what next week has to offer us. I promise you that I’ll start my day everyday, with a fresh mind and a positive outlook :)

Thank you for reading! <3

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