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txmxkis · 1 year

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how does one find a girlfriend in this economy asking for a friend

#this is kind of a rhetorical question #i'm just soooo inexperienced and awkward like i deserve a trophy #i have never been with anyone ever i havent even ever spoken like more than 2 sentences to crushes bc i CAN'T i DIE #and i never really wanted to before either but i feel like now that i know more about myself #and im feeling more comfortable with my identity #maybeeeeeeeeee but i have no idea #i've been in a funk for like weeks now too like yearning hardcore which is weird for me #i just wanna. idk see what it's like to not be alone #who knows if a relationship is even possible for me but i just wonder #WHSHHWHEB no one asked and no one probably cared much about knowing #but its late and im in a rambling kinda mood #sorry lol #back to your regularly scheduled programming #₊˚⊹⋆˚☂︎ bunny babbles ₊˚⊹⋆˚

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kaiserouo · 2 months

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i cannot express enough how much i absolutely HATE him

#don't get into my fucking personal space you floating cube thingy go away fuck leave me alone #literally everytime i just wanna see what he has for sale i get fucking jumpscared #STOP APPROACHING ME YOU ARE SCARING THE SHIT OUT OF ME #also his dialogue are like 1000x more annoying and demanding than ordis why everyone only hate on ordis you have better cephalons to hate #uugggggghhhhhhhhhh if it's not for fast affinity farm i will never step in sanctuary onslaught #i don't want to hear his voice #warframe #warframe excalibur #warframe cephalon simaris #(idk i don't even wanna see how people tag him this is the last time i draw him i never wanna have anything to do with him)#my art

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girlmetalsonic · 7 months

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something that is like the baseline of amys entire character to me is that shes lonely. shes clingy and physically affectionate in a way none of her friends really are, shes always getting pushed aside and left behind. yeah, she helps out people she doesnt know because shes a nice person, but also, she sees part of herself in them. she wont leave someone else behind because she knows the feeling —and more importantly, hates the feeling. if she doesnt have somebody to stand by her and be there for her, then shes going to be that person for everybody else. something something her obsession with sonic is really just like a manifestation of that desire for closeness with someone, and she thinks that romance is the only way to get that. idk... this hedgehog can have so many abandonment issues.

#me posts #amy rose #sth #sonic the hedgehog #and this is not to say at all that romance is the only way to have 'real' love or anything #just that yknow part of her breaking free of that would also be realizing that she just wants closeness with someone and it doesnt-#-have to be romantic #aroace amy could fit this i suppose and she just doesnt know it yknow. thats not my hc but i support their beliefs if that makes sense #she wants to be loved and she wants to love and she doesnt really get a big outlet for that so she shares it with everyone she sees #also i didnt wanna jam up the post but GAMMA!! this is partially abt gamma she helps him find out how to love and how to find joy in it-#-bc its what she wants for herself. she sees him and sees how completely alone he is and she wants to help him. idk idk something something #-when she was locked in the cell she saw part of herself staring back at her #gamma parallels to amy is SLEPT ON i stg i could make a whole other post about it #idk.. whenever im writing amy or just thinking abt how shed interact with others its always from the lens that she craves closeness with-#-others. she wants people to just stay for once.#does this make any sense. idk man im rambling here #my worst nightmare is characterizing her wrong its such a fine line and sometimes the words do not come out of my brain right #btw this is NOT me dissing amy i love amy. she is like top three favorite character.#important context: im typing this with amy firefox theme rn ok. ok im an amy fan.#she points at the minimize button like shes telling me to log off #jesus christ i just scrolled back up i love to put a whole other post in the notes dont i

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souenkun · 1 month

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I loooove the jp fandom's headcanon that geeta and larry are childhood friends who met during their time in the academy and, sometime in the future, geeta personally recruited larry to work for the paldean pokemon league, as she must be one of the first people who knew of his prowess in pokemon battling! Like yeah, the whole geeta being a "strict boss who is frustrated by larry's stubborn insistence to be an average worker that she has to assign him different workloads just to broaden his horizon" idea is intriguing, but stepping it up a notch by making geeta be the "best friend a.k.a the only one who has seen larry at his very best and his very worst, and knows for a fact that he could excel at anything he put his mind into if he steps out of his comfort zone, so she doesn't particularly drag him out of said zone, but pushes him out of it each time she can because she can't bear to see her best friend be unaware of the good chances and positive things that awaits him out there, not if she has a (small) say in it" is also downright hilarious 😭🤚

#it's happened to me before which is why i think this headcanon isn't very far-fetched! it's actually so big-brained even lmaooo 😭😭😭#like. i happened to befriend a stupidly genius in high school and she's why i got into a reputable uni in the first place. she dragged me t #study even when i was never in the mood and look at what it did to my high school grades! look at the strict habits that got me through uni #it's also kinda like when you're isolating yourself after a bad breakup and your friend has to physically drag you out to eat. maybe to get #piss drunk as well. all because they know that it's better to have company than to rot alone in your room with your thoughts... you get me?#that's geeta and larry in my eyes. larry's whole line about sticking to flat well-trodden path isn't about making him a famous trainer to #inspire paldea (geeta's whole goal). it's just to show larry that there are other good things too if he takes a peek outside!#and at the end of the day geeta meant well with that advice. that all she wants is for larry to see more of the world than what he's used t #which... idk. i think it's just more heartwarming to think of that advice coming from a friend! even if said friend is also your strict bos #also makes larry's quiet fuming even funnier LMAOOOO 😭😭😭 sometimes you have to suck it up and endure your besties' whims #but this is not a silly and whimsical whim. this is straight-up corporate whim. larry's not surprised he ended up patrolling area zero 🤣#if you've read this far and wanna see jp fanart of them on pixiv i can refer them to you privately! all of them are lovely and heartwarming #champion geeta #gym leader larry #elite four larry #pokemon #pokemon scarlet and violet #pokemon scarvio #scarvio #paldea

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crownedwille · 2 months

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#some thoughts incoming idk if i should share but i need to put them somewhere #it's hard being in the yr fandom since the finale when you don't share the same vision and opinion as the rest #and people make future wilmon posts or write post s3 fics (which many exist now) they just don't align with your idea at all #and they're not exciting to me at all and the whole concept just makes me upset #i don't wanna imagine Wille as a 'normal' person (not that that's ever possible anyway which the show loves to ignore)#like I'm sorry but i didn't come to the show to watch an ordinary love story and have them lead an ordinary life #the idea of Wille being a future king and them navigating that royal life together is so much more interesting #i hate that that isn't canon anymore and when ppl make posts about them it's not about that or that would only be seen as a negative thing #i don't wanna imagine a life where they are 'normal' that isn't appealing to me at all and it sucks seeing everyone embrace it #and it's like you're not allowed to want something else or think differently bc that makes you the bad person and you're just wrong #i can't be excited about their future (also bc i don't really see them going strong in the future with how they messed them up in s3)#(i also didn't want to know what could possibly happen in the future i wanted that to stay open and just be in the present)#and seeing everyone else excited and happy about it makes you feel horrible and very alone and disconnected in the fandom #i don't wanna take it away from them but i also would love to see other takes but that's basically impossible now #am i the only person who feels this way or are there any other who can relate? pls let me know #i already feel like ppl are gonna attack me for this but it's been hard especially now with Simon's month and seeing so many interpretation #navigating ao3 has also become difficult now #it's hard finding fics to read where wille stays crown prince and you don't have to be scared for that to change #i just can't read any canon compliant fics anymore and i hate it bc i hate to disagree with canon #i normally don't do that bc canon is important to me and i don't want to reject it and create my own fantasy #and that's what's upsetting #anyway sorry i had to write this #personal

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artsycooky13 · 16 days

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top 3 fave bbys in the burrito show (bonus SUPER LONG tags on how i feel bout the characters)

#my art #boruto naruto next generations #sarada uchiha #shikadai nara #inojin yamanaka #in no particular order except sarada is my fav- i think she shouldve been main focus- girl brings all of og team 7 together at all times #just her family history alone is very interesting and i WISH we had seen a convo with sausage boi about her uncle and just everything #but shes a pretty solid character on her own- VERY good mix of both parents yet still being her own self #shikadai is funny i really like seeing him- hes a sight for sore eyes- bro got EVERYTHING from his dad minus his eyes and maybe hair #his dynamic with boruto being besties is really fun to watch- sarada too- with both shika and sara being geniuses and all #i love inojin's simplicity and how ordinary he is.... its... realistic?#hes artistically talented yes with his ninja art stuff but everything else hes kinda... mundane? at times even bad?#Considering every other prev gen child's got all these cool stuff goin on- i like that hes just... kinda normal... i like that about him #boruto i actually do like as well- he'd make a GREAT support character- i love how big bro he is and how he wants to stand up for others #hes a lot like naruto in that way- and might be a hot topic to say this but i also like how - in his very first arc- boruto hates the hokag #not his dad but internalized that the job took his dad away from him- regardless on criticism i think that concept is really neat #i am not well versed in what the story is now for boruto- ive just kinda picked my snacks on what i wanna watch lmao #but i do wish there was more showings of slice of life for all the kids- cuz they are all really interesting- especially for prev gen's kid #>>wished they did timetravel arc with sarada so we coulda seen young sasuke & sakura interact with boruto and sarada T_T #one last note: borusara is very interesting- but i actually prefer them just being friends- at most friends with crushes on eachother #i do think its cute but i like the dynamic of it being unrequited idk its new for me i just prefer them as friends with crushes lmao #prob cuz they work as characters independently Im not really interested in ANY of the new gen hookin up- borusara is the most interesting #i mean it IS the ONLY one being pushed canonically but i like it- that boruto looks out for sarada and sarada worries for boruto #but ya i wish boruto was like mitsuki in being a side character - i think a LOT more people will find him less annoying that way #though- i REALLY want more sarada and sasuke dynamics being shown- actually the uchiha fam a TON more than what we got #they are just SUPER interesting to me lmao #im a sucker for the emo boy turns soft and has family and bonds with their kids- its one of my favourite things in media #i feel like scraping the ocean floor when im trying to find quality sasuke and sarada art pieces and story stuff #cuz ive exhausted all the content in these past what 2-3 years of knowing both boruto- and now more recently - naruto #(yes im one of those people who knew boruto before naruto- smite me)

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kissmefriendly · 2 years

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On a slightly more serious note, I just wanna post this before the final entry, not counting the epilogue. I’m so, so thankful for Dracula Daily. It’s been an absolute blast beginning to end, reading discourse, seeing the jokes and memes and all the art, reading theories and reactions. And getting to be apart of that! Reading this book again in this format was a hell of an experience but the fact that I didn’t do it alone, I don’t know. We’ve all gotten to experience this book in a new way in real time together. I love that. And I hope that it won’t be just a one-off event, either. And even if it is? But this? It’s been wonderful. So, thank you to everyone for collectively going nuts over a 130 year old novel. Thank you for posting and making those artworks and memes and analyses. Reminds you you’re human and not stuck and alone.

#sorry for being emotional lol #but seriously #I didn’t exactly make new friends or connections #I’m not exactly someone people like seeing post etc etc #but you know what? I got to be in the same room as a bunch of strangers while we all shared an experience #on a personal note #I looked forward to DD everyday because irl I’m pretty isolated #even online I’m isolated this is my 5th or 6th blog. and it was just nice to feel apart of a group #and yeah we still have the epilogue and all but tbh #idk I don’t want it to end #I don’t wanna go back to being alone #I loved talking about this book with y’all I loved seeing your art and theories #it was exciting!#I read this book when I was 8 and my mum had never read it and my brother was too young to #so reading has always been very lonely #but this? this was amazing #and I really don’t want that to end #it’s less about the book itself and more about the people I’ve read it with #which I guess is rather at the heart of the book #dracula daily #dracula #so long and goodnight #lol

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rapidhighway · 1 year

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not a fan of dadow but shit man it does kinda make sense sometimes idk

#i mean if you were immortal and had a friend from the future wouldn't you look for them once they're born just to at least see if they're #doing okay??#like idk what dadow is about in the fandom bc i dont really care about that content like it sounds so wrong and bad when were talking about #shadow and silver from the timeline where silver goes back in time all those times bla bla bla but in a fixed future? where he never does #cause they've fixed the past and made sure it's okay and silver is born and its like an alternate universe i guess? time travel fucked up #i mean shadow would probably check on him i guess #and knowing that child he would be alone eating rocks and drinking gasoline from the streets no matter if its a good future or a bad one #so shadow would either take care of him or find someone who can #lmfao i dont wanna say knuckles but fuck man i do wanna say knuckles but also idk

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fakeoutbf · 4 months

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five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person**#i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention)#anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious??????#your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up???#if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right???#so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

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bunnihearted · 3 months

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legitimately wanna die bc i keep checking his blog and thinking obsessively about him and then i get pangs in my chest as i realize that he doesnt care abt me bc he has someone else again so he doesnt think of me and im sitting here going crazy bc i want him so bad but he doesnt want me he wants someone else 🥴

#i know i sound crazy but yeah like idk what to do i wanna die ^-^#bc like ok im here alone in my room with no friends no life no nothing. i have no one to talk to #i have nobody in the whole wide world to talk to... and im crying and all i can think abt him #while he is talking to the person he wants. and he's not crying all alone bc he loves me and wants me so bad #you see??? thats why im going crazy bc he'll be ok he has someone while i wont be ok and i dont have anyone #i dont even have a friend to talk to and cry to and be comforted by. i have no one.#and the loneliness is so suffocating and i see my future and i have been alone my entire life and i will always be alone #i just want a gun and off myself (not bc of him specifically but bc of the loneliness i've always had)#like idk i just cant let go of the fact that im crying checking his blog #while he isnt checking my blog at all and he isnt thinking of me at all bc he is thinking of her #yk that in of itself is so humiliating and so cruel 💀#and i know i sound ridiculous but idk im trying to read and im trying to watch smth and i just cant stop hurting #i can go non contact and try to forget him #but that will hurt so fkn bad bc he is all i want #but then i rmbr that im not what he wants #so what? will i just message him once every couple of months? all the while he'll have someone else #why would he even want to keep talking to me???? lmao like if he has someone why would he wanna talk to me at all?#and how am i gonna be ok w talking to him abt idk the fkn weather while i really wanna be in love w him but i cant bc he isnt mine???#but how am i supposed to just not talk to him ever again when he is the one person... i wanna talk to all day and know everything abt #which.. is the issue bc i feel that way abt him but he doesnt feel that way abt me bc hes wanting that with her #it just... doesnt work so idk what to do #it hurts that he found someone else to be worthy of a chance but not me.... i wasnt worth a chance

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faaun · 6 months

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pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me!#LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️#but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

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potatobugz · 11 months

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ok. hear me out. bear with me. ive been struck with an idea for a kny au in which basically genya and kanao become main characters.

keeping in line with the whole "5 senses" theme, genya would have a heightened sense of taste and kanao would have good eyesight. :)

#rambles #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #kny au #demon slayer au #genya shinazugawa #kanao tsuyuri #INCREDIBLY SELF INDULGENT AU AAHHH LIKE #IVE THOUGHT ABOUT THE 5 SENSES THING BEFORE. AND IK THE STORY WOULD PROBABLY WORK JUST FINE WITHOUT A BUNCH OF MAIN CHARACTWRS #BUT I LIKE BIG GROUP DYNAMICS!!!!#AND ALSO we did not get enough of these fharacters. tbh. they are so cool.i wanna see them #also i imagine genyas sense of taste would b something like “he can tell a lot about something/someone just by taste alone”#aka im just imagining him fucking biting people #like he wouldnt. but he would (?) idk it's funny #hed probably like. know exactly what ingredients werw in soething he ate idk #if you ever meed to steal a secret recipe from a rivalling business then hes your guy #and then kanao could see things from very far away + shed probably have god like aim & accuracy #THAT JUSY MAKES ME IMAGINE KANAO WOTH GENYAS FUCKIGN GUN #tanjiro + nezuko + zenitsu + inosuke + genya + kanao is such a fun friendgroup. i like to imagine them going on missions together #i also have the vivid idea in my mind of genya and kanao being stuck on a mission together and #neither of them say a single word to each other. because Kanao doesnt talk much and Genya is very awkward around girls #especially if it is somebody he doesnt know #the idea of them fighting a demon together; never saying a word to each other but eventually getting along maybe?#fighting in sync? learning 2 fight with each other??? idk i like the idea of a silent mission #hold on. thats cool. storing that in my brain #the dynamic is also pretty funny bc kanao is way better at fighting than genya. this poor guy #ALSO NOT TO MENTION THE TASTE AND EYESIGHT THING GOES ALONG WITH THEIR CANON ESTABLISHED CHARACTERS AS WELL!!!

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ur-ghostgirl · 1 hour

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#theres 2 gigs i wna go to on same day and idk what to do #i have tickets for one of them but i saw them a couple months ago so like idk if i should sell n go to the other one #but i wanna see them again n i dont know when i'll next b able to #but also i have to book a hotel for the one i have tickets to #and i wouldnt for the other show #so itd work out cheaper but im not as big a fan of them anymore it was just like a band i liked as a teenager n kinda stopped listening to #im ovrthinking this too much #oh n im going to the one i have tickets for alone but id get to go to the other one w someone so idkk aaaaa #can someone make all my decisions i beg

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multiicolor · 3 months

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tired of just dragon rider stories i need more stories where its JUST about the dragon. the main character is a dragon the side character is a dragon and MAYBE also humans but MOSTLY about dragons themselves IM TIRED OF HUMAN MCS

#` ooc || move bitch im 𝙂𝘼𝙔 `#( this isnt about anything specific )#( kinda )#( idk im just thinking abt like. some clock app vids ive seen )#( where its like 'want more dragons??? read my book!!!!!!!! about the human protag and maybe the dragon' )#( and i SCREAAAM )#( BOOO BORING TOMATO )#tbd.#( im complaining bc i would write what i wanna see but )#( i can barely write on my blogs )#( let alone on my own )#( and to fill enough pages for a whole booK??!?!? )#( nah i need someone who isnt a coward to step the FUCK up )

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solace-seekers · 3 months

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screaming into the void <3

#my best friends boyfriend (who i’ve also been friends with for years) is just. not himself rn #we think it’s a manic episode but we don’t really know but it’s. terrifying lowkey #he thinks he’s genuinely jesus and that he’s conquered time and that he and my bsf are adam and eve #he’s been sending my bsf liek hundreds of texts per day since tuesday but it got really really bad and incoherent yesterday #and i woke up this morning to see multiple texts from gcs he created w me in them #and he keeps being like ‘because it’s 6:20 this is true’ and like ‘i know that at 9 pm everyone is gonna understand’#and he’ll text like 5 times then send a sc of what he just texted like that proves something but it’s all nonsense #i’m just really really concerned cause he really needs help but i don’t know how to ensure that happens cause he’s 19. not a minor #he’s just. not him rn. he’s called my bsf multiple times yesterday when he HATES calling normally #he had his band and his mom over in his apartment yesterday cause my bsf called his mom and h went to his bands show but was visibly not ok #and he saw nothing weird about it even tho he hates having ppl over normally and never without warning #and you can’t get him to see logic because everything you say he just twists around to work for him #to be clear it was not this bad when it started. when it started it seemed like normally maybe slightly out there conclusions he was drawing #but it just got worse and worse like exponential decay and really bad yesterday #he also didn’t sleep at all yesterday night and idk if he slept tonight #i know his mom took his phone at one point but he texted me and gcs w me in it starting at like 6:20 this morning #and my bsf and i and friends are on a trip out of state rn but we’re leaving today and i don’t wanna wake her up until i have to because #this is literally hell for her. but it’s just. scary. i don’t know what to do. i don’t think there’s any good options really for me rn #i want to warn ppl and try to explain he’s Not Him rn so they don’t get concerned but who knows if they’ll understand what i’m trying to say #i know it’s not the end of the world but it really feels like the end of my world as i know it if that makes sense #and my bsf lives with him in an apartment near their college and they just signed the lease for the next year #but she can’t stay there with him alone. not until he gets help. we’re all too scared it’s going in the directon where he thinks it’s better #for ppl to go to the afterlife. which like he never would normally. but he’s Not Him and so like. who knows #he keeps talking about all these different dimensions and how you need to travel to the 7th dimension to understand #my bsf was crying yesterday and she called her mom to explain and she keeps saying that she just wants her jake back it’s really scary #cause he will probably never be the same again. he’ll be similar but different but she wants his comfort but he’s Not Him. and can’t give it #i just. really want this to get better but it’s so hard to see that happening rn

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spacenintendogs · 1 year

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maybe maybe maybe...???

#just holding it for now we shall see #i wanna do an ask blog but idk if ppl would be interested bc i think like #i'd be braver abt my thoughts & hcs #abt the gang #but also it would give me real ideas to draw bc i'm.#i can not visualize ANYTHING let alone what to do #*what to draw #rose rambles

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